DETERMINEDAGAIN's SparkPeople Blog DETERMINEDAGAIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 23 January: Why, thank you. I'm a little bummed out. Someone asked me today if I was pregnant. Usually, my response is snarky and quippish, but today I just walked away. Something about turning the other cheek ;) Anyway, I met two of my goals for today, maybe a third can be squeezed in before bed. <BR> <BR> I was happy though, I was out with munchkins and they were being disrespectful. I firmly told them they needed to straighten out their behavior or we were going to throw away the ice cream cones and go home. They k... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 21:31:30 EST 22 January: Big yawn. After not sleeping last night I am super ready for bed. I'm torn. Do I sleep or do I do homework? Decisions, decisions. Tue, 22 Jan 2013 20:58:16 EST 21 January: Hope I got home really late again, thankfully I didn't have school today. I wanted to sleep in, but the construction workers outside had a different agenda lol. I am feeling a little better today, not great, but it's a step in the right direction. Two of three goals accomplished, hopefully with enough time I'll have all three done before bed! Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:45:00 EST 20 January: A bit better After getting home super duper late, I was able to sleep in and then get up and go to work. I was feeling a little better, but then the cold medicine wore off and I felt worse. Boo. I also got home super late again, so I missed my goals. Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:43:47 EST 19 January: Huh? Honestly, Saturday was a blur of cold medicine and eventually work. I worked quite late, so I missed most of my goals. Boo. Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:42:46 EST 18 January: Not a wallow But still sick. Managing with lots of OTC, gallons of water, and pretty soon as much as 9 hours of sleep! What?! I'm super stoked for that. <BR> <BR> Two of three goals met today. I might squeeze the last in before bed, we'll see. Super hoping for a restful and relaxing weekend to help recover and prepare for the upcoming week. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a great weekend! <BR> xo Fri, 18 Jan 2013 23:17:22 EST 17 January: Wallowing I feel miserable. Whatever has me sick is showing no mercy. I was hoping rest would fix it, but no such luck. The teacher told me I looked "positively awful" and that I should go home for the day, so I did. Unfortunately that didn't help much because I couldn't sleep and I was just wallowing in my discomfort. Ha. I should stop. Wallowing is so overrated. But I still feel sick and I think it's true that everyone gets a little whiny when they don't feel well. <BR> <BR> Anyway. All three goals... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 20:06:26 EST 16 January: Do not pass go. Do not collect 200 dollars. Go straight to bed. <BR> <BR> I'm sick, I'm off work early tonight and I am heading to bed. One goal accomplished. I am okay with that. Night :) Wed, 16 Jan 2013 21:27:22 EST 15 January: Mixed Bag So I have met about 2.5 of my 3 goals today. I'm calling it quits on the homework early, I am not feeling well and feel like sleep would be better to ward off whatever this may be. Plus, I have to get up at 0530 anyway, so early to bed, early to rise, right? <BR> <BR> I am super excited about my communications class, to a point. The teacher is fantastically amazing. She's traveled to every (allowable) country and has done some incredible things. She also doesn't believe in pop quizzes or str... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:14:53 EST 14 January: Ouch! So, the new shoes are a bust. I wore them to school today, and after about 5 hours (mostly sitting even) could hardly walk and my feet are miserable. Back to the store they go. Ugh. <BR> <BR> I also just realized that I've been lying for a week. I've only been meeting the one goal on spark instead of the three. How disappointing. I'll fix that tonight. <BR> <BR> Other than that, I've been doin okay. Just trying not to get too overwhelmed. Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:23:48 EST 13 January: Where'd the day go? I went to church and then went to go meet a friend for lunch and we decided to go get some shoes. Mine got completely ruined in the wet weather over the last couple months, and I've been trying to make due, but like she said 'they're falling apart on your foot!' so I had to suck it up. I can not spend any money unless it's necessary (with the exception of lunch at a quickie place with her once a month under 10 bucks). However, new shoes are nice. Especially when it's so cold. My feet are much... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 21:05:00 EST 12 January: What?! The last of my goals will be met after I'm done blogging. <BR> Whew. <BR> <BR> I just realized today that I forgot to pick up all of the stuff I need for classes on Monday (seriously, where is my brain?!) and there isn't much I can do until after my classes. Boo. Pray for a dropped class because I just found out that one of mine is wrong and all the rest are completely full. Ugh. Sat, 12 Jan 2013 23:30:55 EST 11 January: The never ending day I haven't slept since Tuesday night. It's been one long blur since. However, all my goals are met and I am finally able to get some sleep. Good night :-) Fri, 11 Jan 2013 23:15:45 EST 10 January: Interesting... So my goals were met. Today had a nice twist. I went back to wearing my contacts today and the feed back I got was rather nice (especially since I've been feeling rather glum about the weight gain). Personally, I don't think I look all that different, but everyone kept telling me how fantastic I looked. I think I need to switch back all the time ;) Haha Fri, 11 Jan 2013 05:08:40 EST 9 January: Wha ha. I finally remembered to do it. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And also, goals are met. Wed, 9 Jan 2013 23:16:46 EST 8 January: SWINGS! I love swings. I love love love love love them. <BR> <BR> Today's goals have been accomplished. And also, SWINGS!!!! <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 9 Jan 2013 00:00:01 EST January 7th...Brrr So, my goals for the day are almost met, they will be shortly. I'm having a bit of trouble moving in the cold- I swear, for as young as I am, I have a lot of problems that typically affect people later in life. I'm gearing up for a school restart. Whoo. I actually meant it. The break from school was nice, but I am going a little stir crazy without my regular routine (even though there is PLENTY to keep me busy in the meantime). Anyway, I am gonna finish tracking, do my other two blogs and get... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 20:19:02 EST 6 January I am coming down with a bug :( So I rested a lot today and hammered out a plan for the week. I'm taking a sleeping pill and going to bed so I can get up at the butt crack of dawn. Today's goals were met :) Good night! Sun, 6 Jan 2013 20:56:02 EST 5 January I got off work later than expected, so technically it's the 6th, but eh. I did what I wanted to get done today :) And yay for that. Time to rest so I can get my work done later this morning. <BR> <BR> XO Sun, 6 Jan 2013 01:02:38 EST 4 Jan 2013 Today's missions have been accomplished lol. Going to relax a little and hit the hay. One of these days I won't be too tired to blog :) Fri, 4 Jan 2013 23:02:52 EST 3 Jan 2013 So, I really had three goals for this year. <BR> <BR> 1) Stay on top of school. No distractions. <BR> <BR> 2) Keep up with my two blogs. <BR> <BR> 3) Do (minimum) 13 reps of push-ups, squats, crunches and jumping jacks every day. <BR> <BR> <BR> So far, so good. I feel that resolutions are silly and generally can bot be kept because people have unrealistic expectations. So, I'm not doing resolutions. I'm just keeping up with my goals and hoping for the best. I can do more if I so choose l... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 22:17:03 EST January 2, 2013 All goals accomplished for the day. Elaborate in the morning :) Wed, 2 Jan 2013 23:59:27 EST Happy New Year :) Well it's 2013, wow. I can't believe it. I hope everyone has a healthy, happy, and prosperous new year. Make it great! <BR> <BR> XO Tue, 1 Jan 2013 21:13:54 EST Days Five, Six, and Seven. Wow. So, let me preface this first by saying how disappointed I was at not being able to get on Spark. I was really beating myself up about it. Ridiculous, I know, but that's how it was. Friday was day five. I didn't get home from work until about 3 in the morning (technically Saturday), but I was determined to work out even though I was mostly asleep. Needless to say it did not happen. I sat down to change and promptly fell asleep....and slept until one in the afternoon on Saturday!!! I was tired... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 12:31:58 EST Day Four Ummm, I'm tired. Really tired. My tight schedule is starting to wear on me. However, right after I post, I am going to take my tired behind and do Workout 1. Why? It's only thirty minutes. And also....FORTY FIVE POUNDS!!!!! <BR> <BR> I'm pretty sure my neighbors think I'm batcrap crazy. I'm okay with it. Cross your fingers I fall asleep easily tonight :) Thu, 6 Dec 2012 23:53:11 EST Lessons of the evening... So, by the time I got to work out, it was creeping up on midnight. Two things I have learned. If you are going to do a cardio workout that requires bouncing around DO NOT eat or drink (anything other than water) beforehand. I thought my stomach was bouncing out of my throat and I have a weird heartburn thing going on now. It also slowed me down. I did not do nearly as well as I could have. Two, DO NOT wear a zip up bra! Half way through running man the whole darned thing bounced undone. At le... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 01:41:24 EST Day Three Alright so it's cardio night, I just got home and it's 11:33. I figure if I start before midnight, it still counts as today. I'm gonna track my food and get on it! Wish me luck!!! Wed, 5 Dec 2012 23:32:24 EST Day Two I liked Body Revolution Day 2 better for some reason. I think there was too much jumping in the first...ah well. Tomorrow is strictly cardio day, so back to the jumping I go lol. Also, the exercises were easier in my small space to perform. Double win! <BR> <BR> I'm sore from yesterday (helllooo inner thighs!) and I'm starting to feel some of the sore from today, so I'm gonna stretch out more (her stretching part is like 2 minutes and could seriously use some help lol) and then shower. I'm ... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 23:17:13 EST Jillian Michaels Body Revolution So, I figured that if I was falling asleep doing homework, if I got up and got moving that would get the blood flowing long enough to focus on my paper. I just finished Jillian Michaels Body Revolution Workout 1 Day 1 and Cardio 1. I'm feeling more awake haha. And a little bit rubbery. And dripping with sweat. I am so out of shape after not being able to work out for so long. It feels fantastic to finally be able to move again. <BR> <BR> Essentially it's a 90 day fitness plan designed to sl... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 21:25:43 EST I need some motivation. I am having a hard time doing a research project for school...every time I get started, I find something to distract myself with and then hours go by. I've been really tired lately too, so when I start reading the articles I fall asleep. I'm not allowed to have coffee or any stay awake suggestions? I've tried doing some jumping jacks and it works for the following 5 minutes or so, but then I fall asleep again. Gah. <BR> <BR> I just need to borrow some motivation. Especially since... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 18:59:21 EST My name is DeterminedAgain and I'm a sugarholic. Seriously. It all started with some well intentioned friends giving me Halloween candy. It spiraled down into a sneaky sugar spiral of yuck. Seriously. I think about sweets all the time...I want refined, processed junk. I salivate at the thought of a cookie. Or a donut. Or a pancake. It's getting to be ridiculous. And gross. I'm not super indulging, but I will find a way to rationalize things too much. The time has come to put my foot down. <BR> <BR> The first step is admitting, the next ste... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 21:34:38 EST Embarrassed. Overwhelmed. Exhausted. Repeat. That pretty much sums everything up. The last few months everything has been...out of control. I think I blogged about not being able to work out due to health/injury and that started about 5 months ago. In 5 months I have gained 30 pounds. THIRTY POUNDS! Holy smokes. I've been avoiding SP because I didn't want to talk about it. It's hard to see people progress when your doctor won't even clear you for walking more than twice a week or PT. Frustrating. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for other... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 00:39:03 EST This better be a blessing in a really ugly disguise. So, let's take it back to June. I have been having some health issues and they finally came to a head and I wound up in the ER, twice. Finally the week of June 18th, we started to get some answers. Win. Not really. It took another month of tests/blood draws/imaging to get it figured out. I am supposed to have minor surgery on Monday, Aug 6th. We'll see how it goes. <BR> <BR> Because I got worse at the beginning of June my doctor put me on a no exercise order, so it's been since June 8th that... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 15:17:04 EST Discouragement is the cloud the blocks the sunshine of your goals Discouragement is the cloud the blocks the sunshine of your goals...I said something like that to someone else in an effort to encourage them. It only hit me after I pressed send how true it is. Clouds are fleeting...sometimes they stay and block out the sun far longer than we wish. Sometimes they are accompanied by rain. Sometimes they are seemingly innocent white fluffy things, yet they still manage to block that sunshine. So it is with discouragement. Sometimes it lasts longer than we woul... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 01:01:16 EST Crossroads There has been so so so so so much going on. I am most definitely at a crossroads in my life and am figuring out slowly what I should do. Let's be honest...I already know what to do, I'm just terrified to do it! I love change, but I hate it at the same time. Especially when it launches me into the unknown. I'm a routine oriented person and I know that means I will have to hit the reset button and figure out a new one. Keep your fingers crossed for me. <BR> <BR> On another front, still keepin... Tue, 8 May 2012 16:19:34 EST Hmm. I've been avoiding writing blogs because I feel like I can avoid facing the fact that I have not been doing everything I need to do. Then I realized it's been four months! Holy crap, where does the time go?? So instead of focusing on what I haven't done or am not doing, I'll just say this: <BR> <BR> I'm not giving up. I will consistently work out. I will avoid the all or nothing mentality. I will not beat myself up. <BR> <BR> <BR> There. I blogged. Wed, 4 Apr 2012 20:00:57 EST "The current year will bring you much happiness." That was my fortune today. From a cookie that I snagged from my boss. Lol, if only happiness were that simple, right? <BR> <BR> I used to think that happy just happened. I now realize that happiness is truly a choice. A choice that many people don't choose to fully make because it requires sacrifice, commitment, and hard work. Yes, you need to work hard in order to be happy. <BR> <BR> So I have decided. I WANT this fortune to come true. I WANT this year to be full of "much happiness" and ... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 14:05:42 EST Messy bed, messy head. In an order to reorganize my home and my thoughts, the next two days are going to be spent deep cleaning, getting rid of even more stuff and dong paint touch ups, etc. I want to get everything organized (even the wayward junk drawer). I want to let go of the random knick knacks and stuff I don't really have room for, but that I like. I need to let go (physically and figuratively). I have a break between classes right now, so it's a perfect time. <BR> <BR> Hopefully I don't procrastinate too... Fri, 25 Nov 2011 19:05:26 EST Uh oh, the panic is rising. To make a very long story short, due to an oversight on some condo paperwork and no fault of my own (this was the previous owners responsibility), I owe 5k. They're willing to break up the payments month to month if I can come up with a grand to put down. However, I do not have the money. I need to somehow get it in the next couple of days. I do not qualify for a loan- I'm not even sure how I would pay it back if I did. Any thoughts/suggestions? I'm starting to panic which is never a good thi... Sat, 22 Oct 2011 23:44:25 EST Wanna giggle? I love Kid History. It makes me laugh and it's sweet all at once. They really get better as they go along, but I like them all. If you want a laugh, check them out! <BR> <BR> <BR><BR>Og <BR> <BR><BR>VM&feature=relmfu <BR> <BR><BR>1Q&feature=relmfu <BR> <BR><BR>Qc <BR> <BR><BR>6w&featur... Wed, 19 Oct 2011 12:25:01 EST I think I found my new favorite. Comic for the day....I love his stuff, but this totally fit with how I was feeling. <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 6 Oct 2011 13:49:44 EST Uh oh. I don't generally fall easily for other people...but there's this boy. And he makes me smile a lot. And laugh a lot. And makes life feel easy whenever he's around. And he's one of the few people that knows I'm trying to lose weight. And he's supportive of the things I do. Easy to talk to. <BR> <BR> Le sigh. I like this boy. But there are a myriad of reasons why now is not a good time. How do you let someone down gently while still remaining their friend? I genuinely want to be his friend. Ma... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 12:14:26 EST I need a reason to smile. With all the stressful situations right now, I could definitely use a reason to smile. <BR> <BR> (Please do not say anything about kids. That's a hot button topic for another day.) <BR> <BR> Wed, 28 Sep 2011 13:36:25 EST I'm confused. I have managed to steadily gain 5 pounds in the last 6 days. I'm not sure how it happened. I've reviewed what I've eaten, I've worked out, but it doesn't seem to add up?? This has happened before, but not so drastically. It doesn't seem like it's slowing down either. I don't get it. Grr. <BR> <BR> On another note though, I've been told my training would be a lot easier if I tried a zone/paleo plan. I ate paleo for a little while, but my doc said I wasn't getting enough nutrients so I added s... Thu, 22 Sep 2011 14:00:28 EST What a week... So, last Thursday was a no good, terrible, horrible, very bad day. Today is better in comparison :) I wound up getting sick from last week's debacle and still had to go to work Friday...with 102 temp. I was pretty blah for the rest of the weekend and started to feel a tiny bit better on Monday. <BR> <BR> Which was also the first day of school. Cue screams of horror...I kid, I kid. Sort of. I've had a lot of problems (re: A LOT OF PROBLEMS) getting school stuff situated and I feel pretty lu... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 11:13:53 EST I HATE TODAY!!!! So this is an angry blog. <BR> <BR> My drive to and from work is about 15 minutes. It took me almost 3 hours to get home because of this mother effin rain. Some jag off decides it would be AWESOME to cut people off in a torrential downpour and I have to try and swerve to avoid him...and wind up in a freakin ditch because there is too much freaking rain to maneuver safely. Eventually a couple of guys at the bus stop across the street took pity on me trying to push my car out of calf deep wat... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 23:35:08 EST LOVE Even my bruises love KM haha: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I got my trash kicked and I am super tired. I'll talk to ya'll later :) XO! Tue, 6 Sep 2011 22:33:58 EST MEDIUM!!!!!!! (with pics) Yesterday was a terrific day. My wonderful friend Morgan (SASSYMOHO) from spark and I went to brunch. Then we decided to go shopping...originally it was to pick up pillbox hats from Lou Lou to sport to our next brunch. They were our motivation to stay on track with food, etc. We were wearing our adorable feathers from our last trip to Lou Lou lol. However, they were out of the hats and we wound up wandering around, getting a few more things haha. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 15:07:36 EST Made a wrong turn, once or twice... Tonight I've been thinking pretty hard about the decisions I've made in the past and some I am currently making and how they are impacting my life. I've made a lot of mistakes. Some could be helped, some couldn't. I've had a lot of bad things, many through no fault of my own, happen. How I have dealt with them has either been a blessing or my downfall. <BR> <BR> So I was thinking about some of the decisions I've made in regards to my health. Some are super yay on a scale of blah to whoohoo! ... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 01:27:53 EST Finding Balance I've been trying to figure out how to do work, school and my training. It's kind of hard to figure it all out and I hope I will have a much more successful plan laid out this weekend. Plus, there's this matter of a boy. Hmm. <BR> <BR> I can't praise KM, BJJ, and the fit classes enough. I feel good. Like, really good, beyond the endorphins and the mild pain lol. I think it shows too. Today, two different times, I had two different guys try to get my number. At a stoplight. HAHA. It's a good e... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 22:08:29 EST