DESTINI1083's SparkPeople Blog DESTINI1083's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Just because the wedding is over it doesn't mean the diet is! I had amazing wedding!!! I love my husband and he is so supportive. I have gained 10 lbs because of the wedding, but thats not going to stop me. I am now back to eating 5- 6 small meals a day and low portion low calorie. I am going by what sparks people says and range between 1200 and 1500 calories a day. I'm aiming for 1200. I think it's time for a new me. A healthier me and I can still eat what I want just smaller portions =) <BR> If you can dream it..... <BR> YOU can do it!!! Mon, 13 Oct 2008 22:10:33 EST Sad So... I complain and I keep saying time to get back on the track, but I have back slidden and feel like i will soon weigh what i did when I started! I am nothing but irritated with myself. The worst part i'm getting married in less than 2 weeks!!!! I'm so worried that this is going to be something that I have to deal with the rest of my life. I don't want that, and I can't have that! I am kicking it into over drive until the wedding! It's time to step it up. I may not be where I wanted to be,... Mon, 22 Sep 2008 19:02:20 EST SLACKER! SO..... <BR> Have you ever eat so much in one day, you felt so guilty after ward, but stil made excuses why you deserved it to begin with?? I did! <BR> Friday I ate everything insight!! <BR> <BR> Trail mix! <BR> <BR> Olive garden all you can eat soup,salad, bread sticks <BR> <BR> Rallys cheeseburger and small fry <BR> <BR> Lg cheese and sauce fry and <BR> <BR> Deep fried oreos with powdered sugar! <BR> Oh my binge !!! <BR> Good news is I only gained 4 lbs, but i tried so hard to loose... Mon, 15 Sep 2008 20:39:38 EST Someone noticed!!! An emt here at the hospital, one of my coworkers. Looked at me and goes Are you loosing weight?!? I go yes I am!! =) whoo hoo I can honestly say that I am!! I told him that i've lost 25 lbs so far and still trudgin along! I guess i just wanted to say by that one person noticing has made all this pain worth it! So to anyone struggling keep it up one day you will be NOTICED!!! Fri, 29 Aug 2008 02:45:24 EST Do you ever feel.... Do you ever feel like the amount of weight you have lost isn't good enough? <BR> Like you should be further along than you actually are. Right now... That is how I am feeling. I know that i've done good, but I still don't feel as if i'm doing good enough. I hate the fact that I get excited about eating. IT is almost as if it is a gift. Like when you recieve a present, instead all you recieve is some fat in the midsection and rolls that shouldn't be there. I guess i really shouldn't be down on... Tue, 1 Jul 2008 08:45:28 EST I won the work competition! I am still in a state of shock! I won 80.00 . I lost 11.5 this month. Whoo hooo! I am going to buy Brian and I some bikes! That way I can still work toward my goal. I bought everyone that participated a sack of goodies. I think was like a pack of 100 cal muffins, apple, cracker, and gum. I thought they would appreciate me doing something nice since they did motivate me to win the big bucks. I am very proud of myself and I just gotta keep it up! <BR> <BR> Thanks for all the support ! <BR> <B... Tue, 3 Jun 2008 08:28:02 EST new work competition The first competion didn't go as well as planned! =( But.. there is a new one that started May 5th. I hope that I can atleast come close to winning this one!! I can do this I know I can! Thu, 8 May 2008 20:24:04 EST Work competition!! Hi just wanted to let you know how it's been going .... Terrible but I still have faith! MY work of employment just started a new contest where everyone puts in 10.00 and whoever loses the most weight by the end of april wins a 110.00!! I think I can do it this time! I have a lot to motivate me, if this doesn't do it I don't know what will!! <BR> Thanks for all your support! Thu, 3 Apr 2008 21:25:21 EST hold on to your lug nuts it's time for an overhaul I love the mask. <BR> <BR> I am tired of telling people I have been failing at the diet when in all actualaity i know from my heart that I can do this!!!"You can Do it" I have to stay focused. No one said that dieting was going to be easy. If you do it now then I can be way skinny before my wedding. I have some motivation i don't know why it's not helping. I guess others can't help me it's gotta be me. I mean it's me thats putting the bad food into my body. SO no carbs here I come. I have al... Mon, 10 Mar 2008 18:15:59 EST I think I can do it! but... i havent been proving it! I have not been proving myself worthy the last few weeks! I have definently let myself down and I always seem to get myself motivated then... when it's time to eat BAM ive blown it before I have even started!!! I really thought that by joining sparkspeople that this would be my chance that and with me getting married you would think that would be all the motivation that I need. I am going to flordia to book everything the first week of april and yet it is not evening motivation enough. Then a... Sun, 9 Mar 2008 15:04:14 EST BAD BAD Girl!!!! I have really let myself down this week. I can only hope that starting next week I can have better self control. I knew when I was eating bad things but i just kind of let it not get to me until..... after the fact. I have not weighed myself this week, because I know that I have been bad and don't want to repremand myself. I guess I should stop complaining and get back on the wagon. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. Sat, 9 Feb 2008 18:04:36 EST The emotional roller coaster ride begins Well i just joined this today and i'm already upset. I started my diet on jan. 1st and I was 198.5. Yesterday I weighed 190. I ate a hamburger no bread with a salad. Then for dinner I had a low carb turkey bacon wrap and for breakfast i had scrambled eggs with bacon. I was within my carb intake for the day yet when I get on the scales tonight it said I was a 191.5. Could someone tell me what is going on?? I hate beating myself up about this but I want to loose and I'm scared of failing. I hat... Wed, 16 Jan 2008 18:06:30 EST