DESIDERATA~GIRL's SparkPeople Blog DESIDERATA~GIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's been so long! It's surprising that considering how significant SP was in my weight loss, that I have not really used it in the last year and a half! I used to track my nutrition and fitness daily, knowing that it helps me stay more aware of what I'm consuming and doing. <BR> <BR> If it's so helpful, why did I stop? Tracking can take time and it's often easy to forget certain meals. <BR> <BR> Anywho, I am starting again. I have been trying to lose weight for years and have been fortunate to go from 205 ... Tue, 29 Dec 2015 06:06:00 EST Wow, a 1,000 calories burning workout video! I was looking for new fitness videos on youtube and came across this new fitness channel and their first video was<BR>, which was about how to burn 1 thousand calories! Mind you, the video lasts 1 hour and a half! <BR> <BR> Would this be even healthy to do and would it be best to cut it into sections, like doing 30 mins now and 1 hour later? I might as well do several workouts in a day to burn the same amount of calories. <BR> <BR> Even though I ... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 19:04:53 EST What I need to focus on! (Update on medical issues blog as well) I need to get my priorities sorted - I need to calm mind, help it recover and eat nutritiously! Not starve or berate self for going over cal limit but eat to live! I need to help myself, not feel determined by my weightloss and weight. Sure, I've stopped weighing myself but my expectations on suddenly getting fitter and healthier are unrealistic. I live in the real world. I will go out to meet friends and sometime have a coffee or a healthy meal that ends up being more cals than I realised! <... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 18:09:52 EST Medical issues affecting my physical and emo health. What's going on? How to start... <BR> <BR> My period hasn't come in 8 weeks and yet I'm not pregnant. I'm 28, in a non-secure job and single so thankfully am not pregnant I guess. I've never had my period not coming before and it scares me. Once I realised my period was so late I even totally convinced myself that somehow I may be carrying despite not being in a relationship for several months (apparently some people who are pregnant can still have 'periods' and even end up in labour before they realised bu... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 16:05:23 EST Aaah, binging but trying to stop it! I don't know why but I have been binging a lot in the last few days. I was going so well before! I ate a very clean diet, did my determined amount of cardio each day and did ST when planned but yesterday and today I've eaten like there is no tomorrow!! <BR> <BR> It's weird but over the last few days I've been returning to this thought I've pondered over the last few years about selling my own baked goods. I've read articles about people making a bit of money selling their cakes and such at ... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 17:22:26 EST Why can't I stop eating! Why do I feel so guilty for trying to be healthy! I don't know why but I've been eating loads these last few days!!! It's weird because I've only just hit my target weight of 140 lbs and have been trying to maintain my weight whilst thinking about losing some more but my eating habits have gone crazy! It doesn't help that I'm visiting relatives in Dorset and although it's lovely to be here and do fun active things like see various seaside towns, swimming in the sea and biking, I've been unable to control and dictate what I want to eat rather... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 18:37:00 EST Fasting may be good for your health and your brain? Curiousity piqued by the BBC Horizon program There was an interesting TV programme by the BBC on whether fasting may be a good at delaying certain illnesses, managing weight and helping you retain cognitive function as you get older. I thought originally that there was no way I would ever consider fasting a good option (don't like deprivation and been known to faint if I go too long without food) but have to admit that towards the end, it did partly persuade me! I could never do a proper long fast but maybe intermittent eating pattern, ... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 18:16:09 EST Wow, reached my goal weight and went past it! I have now officially lost 72 lbs! And yet.... I'm surprised. I somehow don't believe it but I've finally reached my goal weight of 140 lbs (10 stone). I noticed it yesterday but thought I'd keep quiet in case my weight fluctuated and instead I'm down another lb today, so am now at 138 lbs. I joined SparkPeople in April 2008. It took me 4 years and 4 months to lose these 72 lbs. That is 5 and a quater stone to you UK people. <BR> <BR> <BR> I should be happy and jumping up and down, and although I am happy and please don't call me an un... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 13:30:58 EST Oh spirulina, if you are so good for me, why do you taste so bad!! Any advice? I was looking around Holland and Barratt (a chain health food store in the UK) because they had a sale on and came across spirulina. Once I'd read all the benefits I knew I had to buy some! <BR> <link><BR>&feature=related </link> <BR> <BR> Benefits include being a great vegan source of protein, which includes all 8 amino acids; it helps you lose weight; has lots of vitamins and minerals; helps improve your skin; detoxify and so on. I had also r... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 12:17:04 EST Ups and downs - it's been a topsy turvy week - sorry, long blog! My last week has been crazy! I work at a school one-to-one with a child with special needs. I really like my job and this is probably the first time I've had a job I haven't hated! The downside is that I work for an agency so only get paid for the days I work and not for the holidays. School ended for the summer a week and a half ago. Whereas all the permanent staff were happy for 6 weeks off with pay, it spells trouble for me. 6 weeks without money! Aaaah! I've been so busy with school that ... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 18:12:08 EST No more excuses!! I wish I was more consistent! I try so hard and make great gains, then things happen and life gets in the way it seems and so my healthy eating and fitness plans go out the window. Well no more! I'm reading some positive psychology books to be less pessimistic and maybe even get happy! (or at least not so prone to depression and tying up my self-esteem with how much I weigh/ look like). I'm currently reading a book called 'Flip It', which is about how to get the best out of everything. Instea... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 18:11:20 EST What would the fit me say yes to or do? I had a bad day yesterday eating wise. I started so well, planned what I would eat but then went out, had several drinks, ate a 500+ calorie sandwich and several macaroons and small cupcake! Not very clean eating at all!! <BR> <BR> I was thinking of what to do and came up with the idea 'what would the fit version of me do'? Would the fit version of myself eat loads of sweet things when she wasn't hungry? Say yes to another beer because it was free, even though it would mean going over her p... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 16:59:02 EST Ahh!!! Why do I have the best of intentions and start well but soon sabotage myself! I'm a bit annoyed now! Sorry I know I'm ranting but can;t help myself. Need to rant somewhere and I feel I can be the most honest here. <BR> <BR> Over the last few days I've realised I've neglected my fitness and have been eating a bit unhealthy so have made good resolutions - I want to not eat over 1,500 - 1,600 cals a day and be more fit. I've done relatively well. I have jogged twice in the last two days and done Push 1 and 2 of Chalean's Extreme. Today I set out what I will eat, all ver... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 19:49:32 EST Getting rid of my excuses! I have lost a lot of weight, struggled to maintain my current weight and lose the last 7 lbs to reach my goal weight of 140lbs (10 stone). <BR> <BR> I've always blamed things and had reasons for not losing the last few lbs - busy job; the many things I need to do, such as trying to find a new place to live in because I'm not getting along with my flatmates or finding a 2nd job because I need the money; busy getting to know and see my new boyfriend. But you know what, they aren't the reason... Sun, 20 May 2012 12:34:25 EST Weird perception of self Is it just me or do other people think they look like this <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> but in reality, when they look in the mirror, they realise that they have a flabby tummy, seriously slack thighs, etc etc? When I eat well and exercise the amount I aim for, in my head I look fab (maybe it's all the endorphins?) but can't seem to match this picture with what I look like in a mirror. I suppose I have lost (and gained and lost aga... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 16:34:54 EST So frustrated right now - can't exercise due to surgery Hey everyone, I hope you are all well and doing well with your weight loss and fitness plans. It's been a busy last 2 months for me. I luckily found a new job in London and work one-to-one with an autistic child, who is good work with. I've moved to London and love being back there, although I am paying far too much rent and making a loss! I had surgery 2 weeks ago (on the 10th of Feb) and believe that I am not allowed to exercise for 1 -2 months, or even longer! I don't know exactly for how ... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 08:58:11 EST Been absent from SP but am back now! Woah, I been away from SP for ages! I didn't realise my last post was in August, and this is coming from someone who found SparkPeople so useful and integral to their efforts that I used the trackers every day! <BR> <BR> The reason why I have been absent from SP is because of work. From January to July I had been volunteering in my local primary school to gain work experience with children, and luckily was offered a paid job working as a teaching assistant! The problem was that the job was ... Sat, 12 Nov 2011 06:53:05 EST My review of Kettlenetics - kb elements and flowmotion I bought the Kettlenetics Slim and Tone DVD and 4lb Kettlebell set a month ago and finally got round to trying it out. <BR> <BR> I did the kb elements, which is a 20 min video of the instructor, Michelle Khai, explaining her signature moves used in her workouts. I've never used a kettlebell before and found some of these moves really got me puffing! I then tried the 20 min workout that came with the set, which is called flowmotion. It was tough! You would think it might be easy lifting a 4l... Mon, 8 Aug 2011 09:30:04 EST I saw a vision of myself yesterday and realised how far I have come along. When coming back from Cambridge yesterday, I saw a woman walking into my village. I felt sorry for her because obviously she had been walking a long time and had heavy grocery bags. The closer I looked, the more I realised that I recognised her. She looked exactly like me! But the me who used to exist 4+ years ago. She had the same brown mousy hair, scraped back in a ponytail. She had the same glasses. Same shape. Everything! I thought that the way she dresses and looked as though she was hid... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 11:56:09 EST Wow! I'm ... normal. My BMI is finally within the normal range and not in the overweight one! Hiya everyone! <BR> <BR> Sorry for not posting recently but I've been busy. I was a bit down yesterday because I was told that the NHS operation I'm waiting for could take another 6 months! Hopefully I will have my operation before Christmas but you never know. Well, at least the surgeons are nice and the quality of service is great - it's just that it takes such a long time! I was watching a TV programme yesterday on Channel 4 called 'Born to be different', which is about an on-going doc... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 15:02:02 EST What I REFUSE to feel guilty about I refuse to feel guilty for working out, for taking 1 hour a day to do what I want, which is to exercise so that I can reach my goals of becoming fitter, healthier and more confident in myself. <BR> <BR> I also refuse to feel guilty for being the odd one out because I do not want dessert or the fattening / sugary so-called"treat". <BR> <BR> I adamantly refuse to feel bad because I want to eat healthy things. <BR> I know that this sometimes makes people feel guilty themselves because then... Fri, 3 Jun 2011 18:02:17 EST Yay! I have finished SP's '5K Your Way Walk/Jog' training programme and did the 5k in 40 mins! Yay, I'm so happy! I have been doing the SparkPeople 5 week 'Walk / Jog 5k programme and have just finished the last run - I did 3.1 miles in 40 minutes! I was exhausted and wanted to stop but had to keep on going because I wanted to take this seriously since I viewed it as a kind of metaphor of my weightloss journey. I have been trying to lose weight for some time now (3 years) and have had some success (I have gone from 210 lbs to my current weight of 166 lbs) but have moments where I can b... Thu, 5 May 2011 14:19:56 EST 50 things about me quiz Copied from ADVENTURE-GIRL <BR> <BR> 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> No, not really. My parents liked the name Sarah Jane and wanted Bernadette to be my middle name because it meant 'brave as a little bear' :) <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Earlier today because it's my birthday and I was feeling a bit under appreciated (only very few ppl remembered it was my birthday) but I'm OK now! I find that birthdays can be either very good or a bit depressing. <BR> <BR> 3... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 19:32:38 EST Surprising weightloss? What weightloss? It was the scales that was wrong!! A couple of days ago, I did a blog where I said I was surprised by my recent weightloss while on holiday. I thought it was due to being trying to abstain from eating fatty foods / chocolate and having a very active week with hiking, cycling, etc, but as it turns out there was no such weightloss! I had weighed myself using new scales and they happen to show me and my mum half a stone lighter then what we truly are! I feel quite cheated by those scales. What is weird is that we bought 2 pairs a... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 13:11:45 EST Surprising weightloss last week Since it's Easter and I work at a school, I have had the last 2 weeks off. I went down to Dorset to visit relatives and I was a bit worried that I might gain weight (as I usually do when I'm away from home) because of the change in routine and the difficulty of keep to an exercise schedule. Also, it doesn't help that my mum is obese and buys loads of chocolate and cakes! Surprise surprise, I have actually lost weight and the scales have been hovering between 162 - 164 pounds meaning that I ha... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 11:23:24 EST 2011 - new year, new me? I'm not feeling well. I had surgery done on New Year's eve and had to stay in hospital for 2 days :( Well at least now I am home and my mum is looking after me. It would have been nice to not spend New Years in hospital but when you get an appointment from the NHS, you take it! I'd rather have the surgery now than wait for another slot to have it. I know that the NHS isn't that popular with many ppl, but I found everyone great and don't believe the standard of care could have been any better.... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 12:45:04 EST I am back and here to stay! I feel a bit ashamed that most of last posts where basically 'I have been away lately and have been a bit lazy lately but I will change this now', to only end up writing the same type of post a few months down the line. Okay, now I really mean it! I have been going to the gym off and on for the last few months and have kept a reasonable weight of 11 and 3/4 to 12 stone (165 - 168lbs) but I have been neglecting SP and haven't taken an active role in trying to lose weight. Before I tracked my c... Sun, 27 Jun 2010 17:14:22 EST On and off the wagon I go Hi, my name is Sarah and have been with SP for 1 and half years now. Now I just wanna say that I love SP and found it immensely helpful (it helped me lose 60 lbs in just over a year) but I have trouble keeping motivated and often seem to slip up. I have recently just finished a Msc and started a new job so for the last 6 months (I am so ashamed to say this), I have not really been using SP and have a bit of the weight back on! I went from 15 stone to 11 stone and now am around 12-13 (but to b... Sat, 7 Nov 2009 16:49:14 EST How I turned today around and turned the negatives into positives I have only two goals this year: do well in my MSC (at the very least get a pass mark) and lose weight. I'm still doing my masters and hopefully that will go fine and since april last year I have lost in the region of 50lbs. <BR> <BR> I felt that today wasn't going to go well since nothing seemed to go the way I wanted it: <BR> <BR> Today didn't start off great - I have 3 major important essays to do in the next month and despite my effort, I just could not concentrate today so I decided to... Sat, 9 May 2009 18:48:44 EST Week one stats for the Done girls spring into summer challenge My goal is try and not eat too much and workout often so I am putting a note here to make sure I actually keep with the plan. <BR> <BR> Week 1: (17th-23rd) <BR> Tue - some cardio done (jumping jacks and rope jumping - about 10 mins), did week 1 day 1 of the C25K programme (alternate walking and jogging on treadmill) and walked the 2 miles to and back from the gym. <BR> Wed - Did some strength training exercises done at home and the SP jump rope workout video 3 times. <BR> Thur - <BR> Fri - <... Tue, 17 Mar 2009 07:53:59 EST Before and current weight loss pics -including the new before pic for Done girls Spring into Summer Hello everyone. I have joined the Done girls spring into summer weightloss challenge and for the mini challenge is to post the before picture which was taken today on the 17/03/09: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Tue, 17 Mar 2009 07:44:58 EST Aaah! So much to do and so little time! I just realised last night as I was going to bed that I'm quite behind on my essays! So I now have 7 essay to do til early June which is about 1 essay every 10 days for the next 10 weeks! Although that seems daunting I think that because I know now how much I need to do, it has spurred me on to get my head down and actually do the work. Unfortunately I know that the one thing that will suffer as a result is my exercise - I've been trying to get out of this plateau I have been in for ages and ... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 15:58:50 EST How do I change my SP username? I've used the name japonicab for ages and feel the need to change to Desiderata after the beautiful Max Ehrmann poem which seems so poignant to me - and strangely I've been using the 'you are a child of the universe, you have a right to be here' quote at the end of my comments without realising it was from the same thing! Mon, 9 Mar 2009 20:33:46 EST I love yoga! I was reading one of the article from about a lady who went to a step class and although she liked it, it just didn't suit her so she stuck with running. It made me think that I should try the free different classes at my gym and see what suits me and so this morning I rushed off to a yoga class and absolutely loved it! It was really weird cause it felt like my whole body and mind where at rest and felt spacey after but in a good way. Although I couldn't do all the moves I defi... Mon, 9 Mar 2009 17:29:28 EST Making jogging a habit Did 40 minutes on the treadmill today for the first time. I spent the first and last 5 minutes to warm up and cool down respectively, and the 30 mins between having blocks of 5 mins where I jogged for 3 mins at a pace of 13 - 14 minutes per mile and walked the remaining two minutes at 15 - 1 6 minutes a mile pace. It was hard, I wanted to finish it earlier but wanted to press on so that I know I am pushing myself and not just settling into a routine exercise rut where I don't work out much. ... Thu, 19 Feb 2009 12:36:31 EST What's my passion? <link><BR>t_is_your_passion </link> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was reading and came across this article about having a passion for a particular type exercise (which is shown above). At first I couldn't really think about any passion that I can comfortably say is mine but then I thought of the following which I left as a comment on that article page: <BR> <BR> "I know it sounds weird (or at least it would've to me a couple of years ago) but I ... Thu, 19 Feb 2009 07:05:14 EST SP 'Wrote your own contract for success' idea On daily they had a god idea of setting up your own contract to make sure that ppl don't sway from their goals too much and keep themselves accountable. I think this is a really good idea and going to post it in my blog so that I remember to do this but like my own version <BR> <BR> Here is the article below: <BR> <BR> "Staying Motivated, Tip #5: Write Your Own Contract for Success <BR> <BR> By: Dean Anderson : 1/27/2009 6:16:22 AM : 4 comments <BR> Once you’ve made sure your goa... Tue, 27 Jan 2009 07:05:23 EST I lost 40lbs with SP!! <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Since April last year I have lost 40 pounds from 205 lbs to my current weight of 165 lbs! I still have about 25 pounds left to lose but I am kinda surprised I have got so far. I knew I would've have eventually lost my excess weight that I hated but still, it seems unbelievable to actually have lost 3 stone+. <BR> <BR> I had my plateaus lasting over a month sometimes, the hardship of trying to not eat fattening things and working out hard but it goes to show that eat... Fri, 23 Jan 2009 15:14:37 EST The Psychology of Motivation Aargh, I'm not feeling particularly proud of myself today - normally I eat well and try to stay active but I went to a pub today to watch football and had some alcohol and chip (fries to you U.S. ppl), not good! <BR> <BR> But I was trying to find an old email today to get some old photos and came across an email I sent to my dad with an essay for him to spell check in my first year at uni, which was on the topic of motivation and how to improve it in the classroom. I should try to remember s... Mon, 19 Jan 2009 18:53:35 EST What an inspiration dietgirl is! I was reading that article on daily spark about diet girl, a women who lost about 175 pounds or so, and mentioned her 20 top tips. I found that last one, no. 20 the most inspirational and one that resonates with me so much. It is this: "Don’t wait to be “skinny” to start living your life. If you have dreams of traveling or writing a book or learning to scuba dive, don’t think you need a smaller bum before you deserve them. Your life is happening right now – so forget about your wobbly bits an... Fri, 2 Jan 2009 19:18:47 EST Aaah, I put weight on over the xmas!! I knew this would happen! It's no surprise that lots of food and no exercise should cause weight gain but I really hoped that a few days wouldn't matter so much but I think I put a few pounds on at least!! I feel so bad for ruining my recent effort to get healthy and letting myself do this again!! Sat, 27 Dec 2008 15:53:41 EST What I am grateful for I read a nice article on daily spark saying that to go from a bad mood to a good mood, one of the best ways is to practice gratitude which I did for 2 mins and even got a bit teary! My life is certainly far from perfect, with problems (although minor perhaps to other ppl's problems which can be so much more troublesome), such as lack of friends in the new place I moved to, no boyfriend in such a long time and the somewhat uphill workload for my new masters course but I am doing well I think o... Tue, 16 Dec 2008 18:10:35 EST My goal for Xmas - lose 10 pounds and drop to 160lbs The last months have been quite hard with the moving to a new big city and starting a masters programme and trying to keep up with the work, and as a result my fitness has been neglected a bit. Over the last two weeks however i have joined a new gym and started to work out and feel much fitter. Even though i did not work out much before joining the gym, my weight dropped due to the business of starting a new uni course and not having enough time to eat properly, etc. However now i feel much m... Sun, 9 Nov 2008 08:28:51 EST I'm dropping weight weirdly Its strange isn't it? We try to eat healthily and exercise right and sometimes the weight is hard to shift. If you are anything like me - you'll also note that new transition like moving or starting a new uni also brings a about changes in weight. My weight either jumps up or down (its never the same effect) about half a stone (7 lbs). I have moved to London in the UK on the 21st of september and started a new masters course and my weight has been dropping like crazy and yet I feel more flabb... Fri, 3 Oct 2008 05:49:54 EST Update on losing 12-14lbs by halloween - not going so well :( Update on the 18th of sept - still 182 pounds!! I did lose some weight but put it back on and got back to my normal weight of 182 pounds (which is about 13 stone). <BR> <BR> I'm kinda tempted to restart this challenge or now expect for a smaller weight loss. Its unreasonable for me to expect to lose a stone (14 lbs) now by halloween so I am hoping to lose7lbs by halloween which is about a loss of 1 pound per week which should reasonable since i have a lot of changes ahead of me in th... Thu, 18 Sep 2008 14:28:58 EST Why am I so angry all the time to ppl i love? I don't know why but over the last few days i have been really moody and angry, mostly at my mum. WOuld it be because i've been working out hard and lost 4 pounds it seems this week after a plateau of over a month? i love my mum, and respect her loads but in person everthing she says and does aggravates the hell out of me! At least today i'm going to visit one of brothers in london so i should get 2 days peace from her. Fri, 12 Sep 2008 09:56:07 EST Update on losing 12lbs by Halloween challenge! Ok update time - its about 9 days after the previous post - I have been working out a lot and finally my weight has dropped below 13 stone in what has been the first time in about 2 years! I'm currently weighing in at 181, which is about 12 stone and 13 pounds. <BR> <BR> Halloween Challenge <BR> Starting weight: 182 when I started <BR> <BR> Goal weight: 168 - 170 (12 stone - 12 stone 2lbs) <BR> <BR> If I lose at least 1.5lbs a week, I should've lost about 12lbs in this challenge! <BR> <BR... Wed, 10 Sep 2008 12:19:00 EST How today nearly turned into a weightloss failure day Its strange, I seem more determined than ever to lose weight and I can see my goal in sight but I keep on struggling on a day by day basis. I have set myself a goal of about 1,300 calories a day and burn an extra 400 calories through exercise on top of that. For the last 2 days though, my daily intake has easily gone over 1,600 calories (although being somewhat healthy), which is threatening to throw me off balance with my weightloss plans. <BR> <BR> However, two ideas came to me this eveni... Thu, 4 Sep 2008 15:10:30 EST The mathematics of losing weight - how I want to lose at least 12-14 lbs (a whole stone!) by Hallowe I recently joined a new spark group called 'spooky to hottie by halloween' group. I like the idea of having halloween as mid-term goal in losing weight. Since 31st of Oct is 8 (and a bit) weeks away - i would need to lose 1.5 pounds each week to lose 12bs by then, which is just 2 pounds short of 1 stone. I'm currently at 13 stone and would love to reach the 12 stone milestone on 31st of October. <BR> <BR> I thought that I should keep the calorie deficit idea in mind, as mentioned in the ' h... Mon, 1 Sep 2008 15:04:16 EST Reached 13 stone! Around this time last year (17th of august, 2007) i weighed 15 stone!,) which is scary to think about. <BR> I must remember to try and keep on working at it and not to get lazy with my exercise! <BR> <BR> I had a fews days off while i visted friends and relaxed. Luckily i did not gain any weight but i think my muscle mass has decreased so must get back to the gym soon! <em>15</em> Sat, 9 Aug 2008 15:19:05 EST