DEMETERSCO's SparkPeople Blog DEMETERSCO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Emotional Eating I have been on an eating binge for over a week (or a month), avoiding the scales, avoiding mirrors - avoiding my emotions. I finally did get on the scales and I am shocked at the number. I don't know why I'm shocked. I can see it in the mirror. <BR> <BR> I know my patterns and I know this is stuffing down emotions, mindless eating without even tasting it after the first couple of bites, buying things at the store that I know I won't be able to stop eating until they are gone. I tell myself... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 12:56:23 EST Coming back from the flu This was a very different holiday season - I spent most of it in bed with a flu like illness. I can't remember being that sick for that long since I was a kid. <BR> Does this mean I now have a built in resistance to the flu - or does it mean I should start getting a flu shot? <BR> <em>40</em> Sat, 5 Jan 2013 13:43:33 EST Saying "Enough" I went to the dentist the other day for my 6 month cleaning - yes, every 4 to 6 months I have my teeth cleaned. Although I brush and floss and rinse religiously, my teeth need to be scrapped and prodded and polished that often. I have a mouth full of crowns, caps and bridges. There is not a "bare" tooth in my head. Big bucks in my mouth already, certainly 30 to 40K. <BR> <BR> After X-rays and an exam by the dentist, they have a treatment plan to take care of some cavities and , of cours... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 22:52:14 EST The dreaded D word No, I don't mean diet, I mean diabetes. My doctor called a couple of weeks ago to say my lab work showed early stages of the disease that my Mom has had for over 30 years. Type 2, adult onset. When I went in for a consultation with him, we agreed I would try diet and exercise to bring the numbers down and I have lost 5 pounds in the last 2 weeks. Great motivation, I'll say that. Tue, 28 Aug 2012 13:37:52 EST Feeling Fat For me this year, February was a month of not tracking food, not exercising regularly, and just giving in to cravings. Of course it shows on the scale - and on my body and in the way that my clothes fit. <BR> <BR> What happened? I don't know and I'm not sure I'll ever know. February was my husband's birthday - I have been a widow for 5 and a half years, so why was it so hard this year? Valentine's Day with no card or flowers or chocolate from my special guy. ... this wasn't the first year,... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 08:33:16 EST Happy Memorial Day? I have always found this to be a difficult holiday. When I was 12 my Dad died, suddenly and unexpectedly in mid May, of a heart attack. That Memorial Day we took flowers to his grave and it was the first time I'd been aware of the holiday. I have very little memory of that summer. I think I was in a state of shock. But, even though that was 55 years ago, I can still close my eyes and smell that lush smell of the grass beneath my feet and feel the shade of the tall, old trees. I remembe... Mon, 30 May 2011 13:16:51 EST Praying for others As one of 5 prayer chaplains at my church, I have the honor of praying with and for others. It sometimes amazes me when I sit with someone who has asked for prayer and hear the words coming out of my mouth. There is a sense that I have asked for God's guidance when I respond to a prayer request and the words I speak do not come from my over-analytical brain, but are flowing from that place in my heart where I connect with Divine Source. <BR> <BR> My profile photo is my "prayer heart". It ... Sat, 21 May 2011 14:23:55 EST How Does Your Garden Grow Organic produce is always my first choice for fruits and vegetables. The Friday morning farmers market at a nearby park is a regular stop and I have recently discovered farm fresh eggs - oh, my, what a treat. I doubt I will buy eggs from the grocery store again. <BR> <BR> This all led to my decision to try growing a few veggies in my back yard. Some I started from seed and some I bought as small bedding plants. They are all in containers since my yard has a pre- emergent sprayed on it twice... Mon, 16 May 2011 11:53:15 EST Red Lobster pig out Today was my friend's 74th birthday and I took her out to dinner after we saw "Water For Elephants". We have been doing this - taking each other out to dinner for birthdays - for more years than I can remember. I came home and checked the Red Lobster nutrition facts web page and it seems I had 2400 calories for dinner! So after counting carefully all week and staying between 1300 and 1600 calories every day that one meal makes me feel like a failure! <BR> <BR> Intellectually I know better ... Fri, 13 May 2011 23:23:30 EST A Girl's Best Friend <img src=""> <BR> Remember Marilyn Monroe singing "Diamonds Are A Girls' Best Friend"? <BR> <BR> Well, gemstones are lovely and I do enjoy their beauty, but my best friends are those women who support me through the ups and downs of life, the ones I can laugh with or cry with or explore new ideas with. <BR> <BR> My daughter is a good friend, too, so I feel doubly blessed in that regard. <BR> <BR> Thank God for the women in my life. Sat, 19 Sep 2009 11:46:28 EST Up and down and up again I just changed my weight ticker by adding 2 pounds to my current weight. This is one long, and sometimes frustrating, journey. I started with Weight Watchers on January 20th at 212 pounds. I haven't missed a meeting in all these 7 months and I am down 20 pounds. I'm also struggling with getting the scale down any lower. <BR> <em>192</em> <BR> Maybe I'm not exercising enough - a real possibility. maybe I need to mix up my points a bit - a few more one day and a few less the next day. Maybe... Wed, 12 Aug 2009 00:00:36 EST Children and grandchildren They are beautiful and loving - they bring me comfort and joy. Mon, 22 Jun 2009 18:41:46 EST Movie Night It's Friday night - my daughter is here for dinner and a movie. We just watched "Milk" and now are watching an interesting little movie called "The Legend of 1900". I really like Netflix - I've seen movies I'd never heard of and movies I've wanted to see since I heard about them. I don't have premium channels on my TV plan - I'd rather chose my movies myself. Sat, 14 Mar 2009 00:09:24 EST TAXES Almost ready to take the info to the accountant. Hooray Thu, 5 Mar 2009 12:08:52 EST 99 points again I got to 99 again today and this is the last point I can get unless I do the one hundred posts for ten points thing. I'm not able to sit here at the computer that long! <BR> <BR> My weight was up 1.4 pounds at my WW weigh in - I expected it though after totally eating cake and more cake at the family party on Sunday. <BR> <em>472</em> <em>475</em> <em>35</em> <em>44</em> Thu, 26 Feb 2009 11:50:08 EST Pulled muscle! OUCH! I tried the Lesli Sansone "Walk & Kick" workout again yesterday and pulled a muscle in my back again ...perhaps I have learned my lesson. I really thought I was taking it easy with the punching and jabbing .... but I'm looking for the heating pad so I guess I got into it as the workout went along. Sat, 21 Feb 2009 11:50:39 EST Getting closer. Well, I am 1000+ points closer to the final trophy since the last time I blogged. I was at 99 points for today so this is my way to get to 100. <BR> <BR> I am so silly! Fri, 20 Feb 2009 13:35:35 EST After the trophy...... Good question, Salina. Hopefully I will use the extra time to fit in some extra exercise, or even - GASP - some housework! Mon, 16 Feb 2009 14:11:04 EST Points Junkie? With just over 3700 points to go before I get that final trophy I am focused on points way too much. Maybe it's the Virgo in me - that I start off to get something and can hardly let it go until I achieve it. Sometimes this is a good trait --- but a fantasy trophy?!! Come on now, Mo <BR> ! <em>209</em> Mon, 9 Feb 2009 11:38:52 EST Just for the point Busy day and I'm late getting on the site. Sat, 7 Feb 2009 21:05:47 EST Comes in threes When I was a teenager, I lived in a small mining town in AZ and picked up a lot of superstitions that I logically know are not true ... and yet they affect me still. <BR> <BR> Bad luck ( or deaths) come in threes. I think that was the one that seemed to be proved the most. This was a week where I heard bad news from a friend on Monday, bad news from another friend on Wednesday and I'm waiting for the third shoe to drop. So when my daughter's car was broken into yesterday, I thought "Aha! Tha... Fri, 6 Feb 2009 11:04:51 EST Once a week weigh-ins I know that it's a good idea for me to only weigh once a week -when my daughter was losing those 80 pounds, she didn't have a scale at home and only weighed when she came to my house once a week. <BR> <BR> True confession here - after my shower on Tuesday, I was getting ready to go to the weekly Weight Watcher meeting, I found myself holding different outfits as I stood on my scales to find the one which added the fewest ounces. How silly is that!!!!! <BR> <em>192</em> Thu, 5 Feb 2009 11:49:20 EST Weigh In Not a surprise after Super Bowl Sunday - my weight loss at the WW weigh in last night was only 8/10's of a pound. Wed, 4 Feb 2009 11:03:02 EST Thank You Thanks to those of you who have commented on my blogs. <BR> <BR> Today is a blog for points - I needed one more point to make the 100 Daily Point Challenge! <BR> <em>2</em> Fri, 30 Jan 2009 12:59:18 EST WW Weigh-in I was down 2.6 pounds at the weigh in last night - happy dance, happy dance! Surprise, surprise, paying attention to what you're eating and staying withing your range really works! Figuring out the points BEFORE you eat something has been a good way to become aware of just what I'm putting in my mouth - the question becomes - Is it worth the points? Wed, 28 Jan 2009 10:37:26 EST Busy Too busy yesterday to even do a one line blog like this one. Sun, 25 Jan 2009 18:59:44 EST Friday exercise I do better with exercise if I do it immediately after I get up and take my Protonics pill. I need to wait 30 minutes after taking the pill before I eat - or drink my coffee with creamer - so it's a good way to kill that time and I feel so good afterwards. 30 minute Walk Away the Pounds with Leslie Sansone ... a great way to start my day! Fri, 23 Jan 2009 11:49:39 EST Rainy Thursday Not much to say today as I gaze out the window at cloudy skies - guess this a "for the point" blog. <BR> <BR> I'll be glad when I get to 60,000 spark points and get that last trophy. I know I am too focused on points. Thu, 22 Jan 2009 12:07:57 EST Weight Watchers The meeting last night was fun and lively. A friend went with me and I think it will help me stick to the program to have a weight loss partner - we can encourage each other. <BR> <BR> I think it will help to track food in a different way. I was really pleased that the scale they use at the meeting reads within a fraction of a pound what my new digital scale reads. <BR> <BR> All in all I'm feeling hopeful again! Wed, 21 Jan 2009 16:07:04 EST New resolve I got up this morning and did a WATP 30 minute workout before anything else! A friend and I are going to check out Weight Watchers this evening. Something has to change! <BR> <BR> Thanks for the comment, Salina - I thought that had probably happened to other people, especially going from a very old fashioned dial scale to a new - Improved? - digital. Tue, 20 Jan 2009 11:53:17 EST New scales -!%@&@#! New digital scales at my house - 8 pounds heavier than my old dial type! Yuck! Mon, 19 Jan 2009 21:16:39 EST Tired A great family day today - but I am wiped and heading to bed. Got my point though, didn't I? Mon, 19 Jan 2009 00:01:14 EST Paper towel beads My creative group made paper towel beads this morning - seemed like a bit of work and a lot of mes and I'm not crazy about the end product. Sat, 17 Jan 2009 15:33:54 EST Quilt Show Today I'm going to the annual quilt show at TCC with my creative journey friends. It should be fun. Fri, 16 Jan 2009 11:30:07 EST Dinner with friends I had a wonderful Mexican food dinner with dear friends last night. It put me at the upper limit of my calories for the day but it fed my soul in such an important way that it was truly worth every calorie! Thu, 15 Jan 2009 15:55:36 EST New babies There is something about the complete independence and trust of a newborn that will just melt your heart. I'm sure God planned it that way. Holding that little guy yesterday was the highlight of my week. He seems to fit perfectly into the crook of my arm and he looks at me with such interest and familiarity. And then he dozes off - secure in the knowledge that he is safe and loved. <BR> <em>251</em> Wed, 14 Jan 2009 10:50:36 EST Baby boy My newest grandchild, a beautiful baby boy, is meeting my Mom - his great-grandmother - today. <BR> Photo Op! Tue, 13 Jan 2009 11:36:35 EST Better today Sore throat seems to be pretty much gone - still have the yucky nose but I can deal with it. I heard a bang last night but didn't get up to investigate. This morning I came out to find a small painting of my late husband's on the floor. I swear he is still around! I find that comforting - so I will continue to believe it. Mon, 12 Jan 2009 13:02:23 EST Still sickly I skipped church this morning - I really dislike being sick but guess it just needs to run it's course. <img src=""> Sun, 11 Jan 2009 12:00:03 EST Still sickly I feel yucko - sore throat and a cough. I called in sick to my Creative Journey group this morning and will probably skip church tomorrow unless I'm a whole lot better. <em>24</em> Sat, 10 Jan 2009 12:22:48 EST Question I really love that team members any other Sparkers comment on my blogs. Since I am such a point junkie.... I wonder if there is a point reward for comments? <em>2</em> Fri, 9 Jan 2009 14:22:35 EST blog for points Sniffles today - not much to say. Thu, 8 Jan 2009 11:15:58 EST A new baby...... I have spent the past two nights at my son's house. They bought their newborn baby boy home on Monday and I've been here to help out and lend moral support, It amazes me how quickly they are a part of you and you can't hardly remember a time when this little soul wasn't in the world. Amazing, too, how the WHOLE household revolves around this little one! Wed, 7 Jan 2009 15:06:30 EST Monday A new week always feels like a fresh start - some days I blog just to get the 1 point. I'll be glad when I get the last trophy and can quit obsessing over points! Mon, 5 Jan 2009 11:40:13 EST Tired I am ready to put my feet up and realx! Sun, 4 Jan 2009 19:29:44 EST Blessed Last night, just after 8PM, my newest grandchild arrived. He is beautiful, just like the other 5 grandkids actually. Don't think I've ever seen an ugly baby! <BR> <BR> He is big - almost 9 pounds - and long - almost 21 inches - with long fingers and feet. He is beautiful and we are blessed. Sat, 3 Jan 2009 10:34:46 EST Monk I have had the Monk marathon since yesterday afternoon. I think he makes me feel mentally healthy! <em>211</em> Fri, 2 Jan 2009 08:19:29 EST Release I am releasing my intense reaction to my weight. Eating for good health is my new year's resolution. Thu, 1 Jan 2009 11:56:16 EST New Year Thinking this morning about the things I want on my list for the burning bowl ceremony at church this afternoon. Wed, 31 Dec 2008 10:19:44 EST Derailed Yesterday's determination hit a snag in the evening. With no plan in place for dinner it became nachos with guacamole and ice cream with home made chocolate syrup. <BR> <BR> The ice cream is gone - the determination is back - and there is a meal plan in place for today! Tue, 30 Dec 2008 13:00:46 EST