DEGAIA's SparkPeople Blog DEGAIA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My Annual Blog Entry - ha ha Well, I'm sitting in Barnes & Noble in Bend. I'm down here for 2 weeks to help my Dad out with my Mom, and can't get on the internet at their house, sooo.... <BR> I miss being at home this time of year for this long -- so much to do in the garden -- but Dad was really feeling stressed and needed some respite in addition to the 3 and a half hours the he has a caregiver coming in. Mom still knows who I am, but thinks we are at my house some of the time, and is more confused in general. She l... Fri, 3 Apr 2009 16:38:42 EST Balance.... From one of today's linked articles: <BR> <BR> "Your body is not an enemy that needs to be beaten and starved into submission....The key is balance. Too much of anything can hurt. But not enough of everything can hurt even more." <BR> <BR> Tho I haven't been blogging lately, I have been doing a fair amount of reflection and journaling. This morning I was reflecting on my desire for personal integrity, and at first thinking that that would manifest as more consistent choices (of food, exerc... Sun, 6 Jan 2008 15:13:33 EST AAARRRG! OK - I'm feeling desperate. Not only didn't I lose anything eating "sensibly" the past week -- I gained two more pounds. Time to revise my idea of what passes for "sensible". Like maybe not the "just a couple of bites won't hurt" and the "I've been really good all day, I deserve a (food) reward, or the "it's a special occasion". Rationalizations all!!!! If I was half as good at anything income-producing as I am at rationalizing, I would be a rich woman today. So I am tracking today and ... Fri, 30 Nov 2007 18:00:27 EST Abducted by Aliens? Well, no..... That would be a good explanation for disappearing from SparkPeople for almost 4 months -- but that's not where I've been and I don't really have a reasonable explanation. Until this past week I just stopped tracking my meals and other goals, stopped reading and posting to the message boards. I think it started with having a huge amount of things I needed to do in the garden and couldn't keep up with posting, couldn't read the boards without feeling guilty about not posting... Mon, 27 Aug 2007 01:53:58 EST Touching In Have been so involved with posting and reading posts that I haven't been journaling -- or exercising, or food tracking. A good example of how the same thing can be either a support or an obstacle, depending on how we use it.... My solution was to make an agreement with myself that I won't log on until AFTER I've exercised - and meditated - a req minimum of 10 min each, but trying for 30 min of each each day, and it's worked for the first 2 days so far. Also journaled (paper journal) this a... Wed, 29 Nov 2006 17:20:47 EST Stuck Am plateaued on Phase 1...(:-( Guess I do have to "pay" for that birthday dinner after all. Even managed to do cardio yesterday. Better get on it today. Sun, 19 Nov 2006 18:36:37 EST Day 8 - Back to My Normal Rhythm Dad and Mom headed home this am, so I plan to get back to my routine ASAP. Amazingly, I lost another half pound yesterday, even with the birthday treats. Fri, 17 Nov 2006 13:35:30 EST Day 7 - 11/16 (Retro) Dad arrived this pm to take Mom home in the am, and as it is his birthday I rationalized indulgence in bread, pasta, and birthday cake. Back to P1 tomorrow, and since Thanksgiving at friends is coming up quickly, I will probably want to start ANOTHER official 2 week count on the day after, unless I find myself pretty free of carb cravings by then. Fri, 17 Nov 2006 13:24:40 EST Day 6 - 11/15 (Retro) Did well on P1 today until evening, when my friend Y. called to tell me a tree had fallen on her house. No injuries to anyone, and surprisingly little damage to the house, tho she does have a large branch through her kitchen roof. The tree removal folks are there tonight and her insurance will cover the repairs. But between concern for her situation and the high winds WE were having among all of these 80 ft firs, I managed to rationalize myself into joining my Mom in her evening wine by th... Fri, 17 Nov 2006 13:15:07 EST SB1 Day 5 Still challenging as I am serving bread, potatoes, wine, etc. to others. I found that if I fill a wine glass with water, I don't feel like I'm missing out. Who knew? :-) But I'm no longer craving carbs or sweets when I'm not looking at them -- that's progress. Tue, 14 Nov 2006 23:30:12 EST SB P1 Day 4 Mom is visiting for a few days, so it will be a good challenge for me to stay w/in P1 guidelines while cooking "normally" for she and John. I managed to pass up artisan olive-rosemary bread and cookies last night... It will also be hard to get the cardio in, but I'll give it my best. Down 1.4lb so far. Mon, 13 Nov 2006 15:19:24 EST Day 2 Second day of staying on track diet-wise. AND I did cardio. And took time out for meditation. All major areas of procrastination for me, so that feels good. Have built a shelf over my treadmill so I can put my laptop up there and watch the WAY cool G-Force visualizations light show while I listen to my exercise music playlists. Makes me want to dance -- which is not such a great idea on a treadmill.... Lost .8 yesterday (Day 1) Would be SO happy if I could lose as much (10 lbs) as I di... Sat, 11 Nov 2006 19:41:34 EST Phase 1 Revisited Day 1 Well, already I'm bargaining -- couldn't let the pears and fresh apple cider our friends brought go to waste, but didn't want to postpone starting another day, so decided Day 1 would be a "fruit & nut" day and I'll drop the fruit and do "by-the-book" South Beach Phase 1 from tomorrow on. I DID however, get back on the treadmill for 35 minutes of cardio. That felt good. Fri, 10 Nov 2006 19:56:02 EST Right Speech Pitfalls Well, haven't been able to give that goal a checkmark for the last 3 days because I keep choosing to join in on the political disparagement comments in post election conversations. I guess the good news is that I'm aware that that's what I'm doing.... <BR> <BR> PS - the 1st Nov 9 entry is actually the 8th and this one the 9th - the east coast midnight often throws my dates off on this site Fri, 10 Nov 2006 00:53:24 EST Zero minus One So I've spent the day eating all the stuff I didn't want to have around to tempt me on Phase 1.... What a twisty mind I have. <BR> Still have oranges, apples, apple cider, none of which will keep for 2 weeks, so maybe first day will be a sort of fruit & nut kickoff -- pretty lo cal starter and then on to P1?? Or maybe I could just trust the refrig w/ the fruit and freeze the cider? Thu, 9 Nov 2006 22:40:10 EST Changing Daily Journal I'm switching to a fuller journal mode -- i.e. back to the "Morning Musings" paper journal. I'm finding that I want to add more personal feelings and info and don't really want to do this online. I'll try to touch in here now and then re: health/diet/fitness changes, progress, insights. <BR> The beach was great. Our diet was replete with both healthy AND pretty indulgent foods. So I mostly got all the nutrients I needed in a good form, but also a LOT of calories from great homemade cookie... Mon, 6 Nov 2006 15:51:38 EST Off to the Beach Tommorrow... No, not the South Beach, tho that would move me a lot closer to my goals. Down to Newport with 2 women friends to visit a 4th. Should be a fun trip and visit, but while I'll do my best to eat healthy and not overindulge, well.... Not going to track food for the next 3 days. Might get some good walking minutes in, tho. So no reports (at least not complete) until Monday. Thu, 2 Nov 2006 22:53:58 EST Blue Light My second day with the Apollo Blue Light - did 30 minutes at 100%. Can definitely feel the effect - didn't feel the need for that second cup of half-caf, and was ready to DO something (and did). Wed, 1 Nov 2006 20:35:20 EST Try try again Have really been unable to stay with my intentions these last several days. Had slipped back into depression surprisingly quickly with the lower light intensity and hours, plus gloomy weather. Was back to feeling that most things (tracking meals, exercising, moving...) were more effort than I was able to muster up. And CRAVING carbs and alcohol. Talked with J this am and she advised me to check out blue light therapy for the winter depression. Have been using white, but had read the rep... Thu, 26 Oct 2006 20:21:57 EST Aargh!!!! Back to 149. Going out for dinner the other night started me on a slippery slope. My entree was good -- salad with grilled shrimp -- but having some of the bread and a martini.... Not Good. I guess I really will have to go back on SB-I (South Beach Phase I)to get over the carb cravings. Sun, 22 Oct 2006 15:56:49 EST Cravings Still craving carbs in the evening, Should try eating apples. (We have a great crop off our tiny trees this year.) I've decided to wait un til the apple crop is gone to start SB Phase I. Or is that just another rationalization?? Well, let's see how I do with preplanning meals this coming week. I did lose more than 25 of my pounds on II. But I do need to cut out the wine -- even a small glass throws my whole system off. Freeze the rest of the bottle in cubes and use for cooking. And n... Sat, 21 Oct 2006 01:39:16 EST Mindfulness of Mouth I will practice discriminating awareness in relation to what goes into and comes out of my mouth. <BR> <BR> I will choose food and drink which is healthy, nourishing, and in balance with the needs of this body and this planet, both in quality and quantity. <BR> <BR> I will choose words which are skillful, wise and compassionate, to the best of my ability. <BR> Tue, 17 Oct 2006 01:04:59 EST Clean Pantry Club.... Well, I found another stumbling block, ie all of the fruit on hand that will "go to waste" if I don't eat it before I start SB Phase I. At least it's healthy II, and I did exercise today again. But my energy level is about zip -- i't dark and rainy and even after not getting up til after 9, I have just felt like lying around and reading all day. Adding the goal to knock three items off my MLO list each day is working well as a motivator. I may add the option of 1 frog as an alternative. Sun, 15 Oct 2006 21:25:21 EST Moving to SparkPeople Phase II & Restarting South Beach Phase I OK -- I moved to Phase II today. I didn't complete all my fast break goals, but I did do a lot of prep work: <BR> - learned to use the site tools <BR> - read many of the resources <BR> - set up my treadmill shelf and playlists and trialed the combo (including GForce and the light box) It works great and is actually a pleasure to use to workout. <BR> - Determined to restart SouthBeach Phase I -- the problem is to find 2 weeks without food-oriented social committments.... It's probably my b... Sat, 14 Oct 2006 15:26:45 EST