DEERLADY45's SparkPeople Blog DEERLADY45's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Spent some time with GOD Today! I spent an hour in silence today to get recharged , to move on! I miss the joy i usually have and what ever happened to My cat it,s over and it,s hard but i still am getting the the joy back now! <BR> I put the little favorite toys away All his dishes and things as i think GOD is telling me it,s time to let go! <BR> I will have to admit i was mad as hell at God cause ive lost too much for one person even my cats! i lost 5 family members in 5 yrs some from old age some not so old and i ... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 13:29:31 EST back to basics is a good place to start! I,m done with Diets cause in the long run unless you stay on that plan for ever you will Gain it all back ! <BR> This is my new back to basics Idea for me! There is no sense in depriving your self of any thing or you will end up gorging on it so... Savor a small morsel! <BR> Im first making God, my first spark friend cause with out his help i might just as well for get it, cant do it.. <BR> So-o i make sure to be with him every day whether its out by the woods on the fallen log, one of m... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 12:58:23 EST In memory of my cousin, friend, motivator! Im writing this in honor of my friend and cousin Linnie who passed away last week! She was my best cousin and friend and one of the last relatives that lives close to me ! She was an amazing Beautiful lady! Every week we would meet with another friend and even tho she was over weight she always rooted me on to keep going! She didnt have it in her to try any longer. I miss calling her on the phone once a week to connect with her, ill miss the weekly visit we had every week and the hug i rece... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 16:17:16 EST Fantastic long Walk and feeling Gratitude for every thing in my life! I had a great walk today and got in 60 minutes! It wasnt a fast walk cause it is rough terrain and didnt want to fall down the Hill or something and no one would find me! The colors are slightly changing! When i get back that far i usually rest under a nice tree and just think ! This is great medicine to me and makes me have a better Attitude on things! <BR> I thought of the older man who i decide to clean for because my friends husband was ill so i took it on and it was such a great f... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 17:55:41 EST My Day at the Pow-wow! It was the most most Beautiful weather for the Pow-wow and i headed out so i could get there early! Its good to do so to get a chance to look at the Venders selling Hand made things supplies to make things and of course any one that goes has to have the fry Bread and i didnt just have one ,i had two! I tryed two different places and the local one was the best but i never had a bad one in all my years of going.. The winner tho was a little thicker and had crunchy edges of goodness! I got a pla... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 16:54:04 EST I think i got the spark back!! Today while refrigerating my self cause it is a 100 degrees out side i did a lot of thinking praying and excercising and i seen what i can do! I went on the stationary bike for 6.5 miles and am feeling ok! I need to get the lead out and start working this old body before i cant move from this arthritic thing i was blessed with! Im taking action and taking back control of my self cause deep down i know where im headed and if i dont jump it up ill never lose anymore! Ill be stuck in this can... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 19:02:31 EST I need to step it up ! I realize now that im not doing enough to get my weight loss in action! The main reason is i have arthritis and my body hurts so i do my Gardening cleaning etc but i need to get that extra time in walking! I always seem to do better if i start on a Monday so im gona slowly get back to my longer walks! <BR> I noticed in our little quaint Beautiful town thats full of visiters from all over the country still get out and do there walking, running etc and the young ones look so fit and im almost... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 12:29:02 EST Ive so-o major goofed up and am ready to get in it for the long Haul! I never thought id be in this position after doing so well, but here i am! Ive major goofed up my healthy life style and am feeling it! Im disgusted with my actions! Im not sure what happened but some where i got lost among all the goodies and lost any will power i had! i shouldnt be saying will power i lost all motivation and i AM responsible for My well being! I prayed on this today and looked back on this year at what blessings ive had this year and what i didnt like! What i realized is w... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 17:23:51 EST A Trbute to my OLD friend and Mentor! I found out today that my old friend Eva passed over to be with her GOD! She was an Icon in our church and did her last readings just last week in style she looked so nice and did the readings so perfect! She also was a singer and sang that same day so proud to do this for God and the rest of us! When i went to see her last week in the Hospital we had a good talk and she said she had a great last day in church and she did! Im thinking now she has known she had this cancer that was all over h... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 13:30:51 EST God does Amazing things! I went to the local food pantry this morning at 830 and i was so shocked to see the shelves so empty and there was so many people coming! We all just looked at each other but didnt have to say a word! We all knew what each other was thinking! Then about 15 minutes later a truck pulled up from the local school filled with all the items we needed to stock the shelves, like cereal and other staples! Wow, and enough for the coming week! It is totally amazing the miracles that happens on a daily b... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 13:44:11 EST It is time to kick it up a notch! It is time for me to kick it up for sure! I have this week got great reports from the doc all tho my glucose was ok it seemed close to be pre diabetic and im ready to work at getting that down more! Ive been just hanging in to keeping the weight from coming back on , but good grief ive got one heck of a ways to go-o and i want to continue not just sitting here and losing nothing more! Im ready and hittin it again! I know with your motivation i can do-o this! Ive been doing good so far this... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 16:07:27 EST The Butterfly that held on to for dear life! <img src="">The funniest thing happened the other day when i was driving to a Meeting14 miles away! IAs i was driving i noticed this Butterfly clinging on to my car antenna! I slowed to a stop and he seemed to slide down the antenna so i went on and when i got to the Meeting, The butter fly flew off! Im betting he held on for life and didnt get hurt, it just flew off! I was thinking this was a sign or something but who knows! I just thoug... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 16:22:35 EST Deerlady is ready to kick it up a notch! Im in another slump! Im not losing again may be a plateau im not sure but i think im needing to kick it up a little and keep those mid night snacks in check! This is my time to get back out in nature, to think of goals refocus, rewind and be with GOD and daily! If my social life and volunteer jobs get in the way i need it slow it down a little cause i just need my Daily time to be by my self and to just bee-e...... ME! I can do this and ready for what it takes! <BR> <em>88</em> <em>88</em> ... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 08:34:34 EST One year with Spark People has changed Me! I have been with Spark people 1 year on July 7th and i have looked back on the year with you Great people and WoW Have i changed! i was thinking of changing my over indulgent life style! My brother had passed away i was his caregiver and here i was grieving for my loss of the friend, brother and Hero in my life and it hit me like nothing i ever felt You need to change your ways or you will be next! Dont know where it came from like a premonition or from Spirit but that was the start and b... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 14:01:31 EST Thanks DONE GIRLS FOR MAKING MY DAY SO_O SPECIAL! I tryed to Thank each one of you for making my done Girl of the Day so-o awesome! So just in case i missed one of you Thanks! I felt really special and you Gals are just Awesome! With this kind of support How can i go wrong and if i goof up it is now only a day here and there and i always get my butt in gear and get back on track! With out all of the support i dont think i would have made the change!s in my life!Sending LUV, HUGS and BLESSINGS, BONNIE <em>345</em> <em>345</em> <em>224</em>... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 15:13:01 EST I am free to spread my wings and Soar! Friday i seen the most Beautiful sight! There were two Bald Eagles that were flying over my Property and low too so i could see them well! They were so Beautiful it almost brought tears to my eyes! It came to mind after ,what it would be like to be free to soar without Limitations to soar over the land and see it from an arial view! They go from lake to Lake to feed but have never seen them like this! I felt blessed! They can do as they please and frolick in the air! <BR> It made me th... Mon, 28 May 2012 11:19:01 EST My almost silent Mini Retreat was wonderful! My Dear Mom has passed so i have no Mom to be with and have no Children .i wasnt too excited on being with some one elses mom so.. i decided to go have a Little Retreat to get away and just honor my Mom in my own way! So .. as usual i headed to the woods It was the most Beautiful day! I decided to take my lunch with me iced tea with Lemon Greek yogurt with fresh Black berries and a banana for my picnic! i went way back to the opening up at the Back of the 78 acres! Walked thru Huge pines... Sun, 13 May 2012 15:54:34 EST MOTHER NATURE IS SHOWING HER BEAUTY TODAY! This was my day to Rewind and enjoy the Day and i sure did! Every thing was just coming alive Out in the woods on this Beautiful SACRED Sunday! I walked for about 20 minutes and did my usual stop and i laid down in the glass along the old logging road! it is easier walking and safer to walk on! I heard no Human noises like cars motor bikes and so forth,Just the wind blowing thru the pines and huge maples! The Wood peckers were going all out as was the Tom Turkeys or Jakes as they call them! ... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 16:59:38 EST Deerlady has been slipping into Bad habits Lately! I had a Nice kind of Meditative long walk today and thought about how ive been doing on my goals and i wasnt Happy with where im going! i can see im slowly getting into bigger portions and its not the stuck on the plateau problem , its the problem of eating mindlessly after 800! I totally sabbotage my goals and i do good til then! i can say i have kept up on my Excercise routine so today is the Day I am getting back on track and doing my best ! I can give my self a pat on the back for get... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 17:43:34 EST The Wild and Crazy Wonder Cat and i had an awesome walk! My Cat Who i call Mr. BOB and i went for a FUN walk back to the woods ! It was breezy and Beautiful walk and Hilarious to watch how much fun he was having! He runs way ahead , then sits and waits for me ! He thinks im so-o darn slow cause i cant go 80 miles an hour nor can i climb trees and fly back down like him and he Meows all the way as if hes talking, he is part Siamese and they think they cac TALK, well he can but im not sure what hes saying We always used to go-o but when its bad ... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 18:43:15 EST Contemplating on my Day at the Home! After i got home from my day at the home to see my uncle who is in the Dementia unit and the others ive been visiting for a long time! I have lost many old friends and the ones i seen today i could just see in their eyes that they probably wont be of this world more than a few months, something i could just see and feel today! it was a sad feeling but i also know they are ready many have lived a Beautiful life and they are tired as my Brother was who died a year ago! I took care of him 8 ... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 18:53:21 EST THE BEGINNING OF LOVE BY THOMAS MERTON I just read this and thought it was so true, I have friends who are so different than i but i have to LOVE them as they are... <BR> The Beginning of LOVE is to let those we LOVE to be them selves and not twist them to fit our own image, other wise we LOVE only the reflection of our selves we find in them.... <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> <em>129</em> <em>125</em> <em>125</em> <em>129</em> <em>129</em> <em>125</em> <em>125</em> <em>129</em> <em>129</em> <em>125</em> <em>125</em> <em>1... Sat, 24 Mar 2012 09:33:16 EST Deerlady feels like shes on a slippery slope! The last week ive been feeling like something is trying to pull me down the slippery slope and if i dont get a grip which i m gona make sure i do im gona be-- in the same place i was before much more over weight and kinda down on myself! I spent some time thinking and praying on this and the strength just came over me!! and theres no way im going down that track again and i will do it for my self and with your help! i felt like i was giving ing in slowly! So now i got Ice picks and i pulle... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 17:50:28 EST A poem called LIFE! Life is to Live and life is to give and talents are to use for good if you choose. <BR> Do not pray for easy lives,pray to be stronger. <BR> Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers,Pray for Powers equal to to your tasks- <BR> then the doing of your work shall be no Miracle but you shall be a Miracle. <BR> Every day you shall wonder at your self... at the richness of Life which has come to <BR> you by the Grace of GOD. But every one needs some one- knowing that some where Some one is thi... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 09:36:32 EST Im feeling blessed to live in GODS country and im so-o motivated and ready! I went for a Beautiful walk to day! I made it up a small hill and a large one and when i got up there it felt so great i made it! The sun was out and it felt like a fall day! There was dry leaves on the ground and i layed down and the Great Energy up there felt great! The sky was blue with big billowy white clouds and sun , I thought how could some one not believe in a higher power when you see all this beauty and what was really amazing was usually there would be two feet of snow here in ... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 16:25:09 EST Believe in Yourself! There may be days when you get up in the morning and things arnt the way you had hoped they would be, and thats when you have to tell ourself that things will get better <BR> <BR> There are times when people disappoint you and let you down, but those are the times when you must remind yourself to trust your own judgements and opinions to keep your lives focused on believing in your self and all your capable of. <BR> <BR> There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life and... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 13:41:13 EST 2011! A year of learning to move on and taking care of my self! This sure has been a real learning Experience this Year! Ive learned to be totally on my own! I lost my Hero , my brother, my Aunt who was like my Mom and my cousin who was in the Hospital for 56 days almost died!! It was in this time of greiving for my loss and waiting in the Hospital for my cousin to make progress that i decided now is the time i have to start taking care of my self! God for sure has been with me thru it all!! I never had time before to even think about myself because i w... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 09:06:25 EST This is the Year Im gona spread my Wings and fly!,Come and join me! My intuition is telling me This morning This is my Year to acheive my goals ! Im tired of being the Fat girl , the un healthy one!! With your help and my determination im gona do this even tho most my life i have been a Failure!!! I was even a big baby( almost 10 #at birth)Im ready to break out of this caccoon and be the Butterfly and to spread my wings ! From now on i am a work in progress to be The best i can be inside and outside!Come on friends Lets all be works and fly to gether to ... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 08:51:37 EST The Deerlady is READY to get back on Track!!! There is one thing for sure, Ive been on one Heck of a eating binge not just yesterday but this whole week and when i look back i didnt enjoy the over indulging half as much as i used too! It used to be like a fix a little high but it wasnt this time !! I was just stuffing my self cause that little voice said EAT, EAT cause you deserve it!!!! Deserve it! Right! So-o Ill use this as a learning experience and hopefully know better next time !Im ready to get back on track and eat healthy and g... Mon, 26 Dec 2011 08:16:17 EST A Tribute to my Brother, Thomas ( 1964- 2010 I have spent a lot of my life taking care of my wonderful MOM and my Hero for sure, my brother Thomas who literally went thru Hell and back living with MS especially in the last seven years! In that time of helping them i forgot to even think of my self!They was the priority#1 ! It has made me the person i am now and i would do it all again in a minute! I loved them dearly!I thought they was my life and when i lost both of them, well i was devastated! Especially my Brother! We spent most of o... Tue, 20 Dec 2011 08:41:56 EST A poem written on Mother Teresas wall, (DO IT ANYWAY!) People are often unreasonable, irrational and self centered. For give them anyway. <BR> <BR> If you are Kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind any way. <BR> <BR> If you are successful, you will win some un faithful friends and some Genuine enemies Succeed any way. <BR> <BR> If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway. <BR> <BR> What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.Create any way. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 14 Dec 2011 15:49:34 EST Ive have been too hard on my self!! Ive been really dis gusted that i havent lost any more ,must be that dredded Plateau cause ive been excercising daily and eating healthy so whats wrong? I didnt measure myself when i started ,but i should have because i tryed on some cloths to day that i havent been able to get on and they fit, well too. I could even button themWow!! That amazed me! I think i have lost inchs, but not more pounds ! Can that be? I decided may be i should give my self a little pat on the back! When i started i ... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 17:35:55 EST THE GOD BOX! Some thing that has helped me in the past is the GOD BOX! When i volunteered at the Nursing Home, I visited with the Residents and this one special old friend, she was 80 years old and her name was Elaine! One Christmas she gave me a gift and she said it was a GOD box and that when i had something bothering me, like a worry or even prayers for some one you write it down and put it in the box! She said to give your worries to God and he would handle them and ya know i started using the box an... Fri, 2 Dec 2011 11:43:21 EST Ive decided to Simplify this year! I was trying to get my Christmas stuff out and i just didnt realize this one closet in the extra room was almost like a hoarding closet! Good grief! I have three bags of stuff to throw out and three bags to give away to charity! Theres also things that will take a while such as private things of my brothers he madesure i knew he wanted me to burn the stuff such as journals he wrote for twenty years , not to interesting as its not personal but every day things he wroteon bills ,and statistics... Mon, 28 Nov 2011 14:51:16 EST It was all about me and GOD and being out in Nature! I decided to go some where else for my walk other than here on my property ,so i went a couple miles down the road to this place that used to be called Seven Bridges but has since sold to the Nature Conservancy and im glad its safe to stay the way it is! Its gorgous thereTheres rivers all over the place, drinkable water gushing every where! Theres No tourists that was nice!! Just me and GOD in nature! If Heaven is like that place i would not be disappointed! I went for a great walk back to t... Fri, 25 Nov 2011 13:09:54 EST Thank GOD for Blessings in our lives! I look back on my life and i know that without having God in my life i would not be here! I have gone thru many hard times! I never had a great job except taking care of my Mom and Brother( My Hero)and i feel happy i could do that! I never got Married nor had kids! ( i was probably a little too picky,but who i liked was not the cream of the crop and if i did marry it probably wouid not have worked out for the best! I am alone and i am still happy with my life, partly because of how i was taug... Wed, 23 Nov 2011 08:45:20 EST All MY Deer are Still Here! For all of you people who are wondering how my Deer friends are doing during the Opening Fire Arm Season! So-o Far so good!Thank God the Deer count is the same as a matter of fact theres more than before!I was gona dis continue feeding then it hit me if they are hear eating til dark,Theyre Safe! After next week a lot of the Hunters go back to work or Home in S. Michigan! YAY!! <em>345</em> Thanks for your concern! <em>244</em> Your Friend, Bonnie Thu, 17 Nov 2011 16:08:33 EST The Body is the Temple of the Sacred!! It just hit me like a ton of bricks, a revelation of sorts as i was doing my Yoga practice that our bodies are the temple of the divine and thru HIM you find the way to well being and it hit me Excercise more , and i did for one hour this morning and with out falling over, I felt great after it. Ill probably be feeling it to night but... oh well! You need to connect with the Great Spirit, The sacred , the Great one, GOD, they are all one and thats where Yoga really comes in you can get ... Sat, 12 Nov 2011 11:04:02 EST ADVICE FROM A MOOSE! <BR> 1. Think Big! <BR> 2Spend time in the woods <BR> . 3Hold your Head up high! <BR> 4Stay on track! <BR> 5Keep your nose Clean! <BR> 6 Its ok to be a little Wild !!! YAY! <BR> Sounds Like this is pretty good advice to me. I have this on my wall! Blessings to all of you. thought you might appreciate it, Bonnie <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> <em>244</em> Mon, 7 Nov 2011 18:51:31 EST Im Stuck on this Plateau and i cant get off! Im stuck on this plateau and i cant get off! Im mired on top! The Doctor said this would happen and i thought Ya, sure and here i am,mired in the muck...Help!!!!! does anyone have any suggestions on getting out of this mode. I probably need to move it more, but this arthritic body can only do so-o much. ill do what ever it takes. to get myself losing Now i under stand what you guys are talking about. Bonnie <em>24</em> <em>216</em> Thu, 3 Nov 2011 08:39:48 EST Dont say i cant do it now, I have too much going on in my life! Hey all you guys, especially all you young ones! Im hearing a lot of theres too much going on in my life. I cant handle this and trying to lose weight just isnt possible right now!! Wrong , you can do it! It hurts me cause thats exactly how i was in my past and even now i feel this and just give myself a kick in the butt, then i think i dont wanna go back there! Im 58 girls and where did it get me ? No where! Ive been fat my whole life because i could not handle it! Now i got a bigger probl... Sun, 30 Oct 2011 10:54:36 EST Appointment at the Doctors!! Good news My doctor was Happy when he seen that i lost this much weight! Hes used to having me come in and never lose anything! It must be hard on the Doc when their patients dont listen to their advice and they want whats best for us.I was so happy he was happy and he wanted to know what i did and i told him about Spark people and how it keeps me motivated! Also told him of healthy changes ive made, It was pleasent going to the doc this time and i intend on keeping it that way! YAY! <em>9</em> <em... Wed, 19 Oct 2011 13:40:11 EST Blessed are women!and some guys too! I was just thinking of all the Gratitude i have for people in my life! They have gotten me thru this hard year!Spark People has been a life saver for me especially the sparkers who listened to my some times on and on conversations i had with them on here because i dont always have some one a round here to connect with! Especially my bestest spark friend,who connects with me every day and if she doesnt i worry some thing is wrong until she writes Thank you dear Sister and the others who chec... Thu, 13 Oct 2011 17:47:25 EST Back from an awesome Walk! I just got back from a beautiful walk back by the woods and up on the hill.It really makes you see that saying is true that you are one with God and all creation. It makes you feel so-o connected to every thing, including nature. The leaves are changing fast ,but theres still lots of green which makes it even more awesome. When i got up on the top of the hill, well words just cant say what it was like and i really had some sacred time and layed out in the weeds and relaxed and connected wit... Tue, 4 Oct 2011 17:20:04 EST For once in my life , i know im gona make it! I have been large since the day i was born and for the first time i can say I know i will make it this time on this life changing time in my life. Its all about taking care of my self for once.I was a care giver for years and i did not have time to think about myself.It was always about their health and well being. Now i am alone after my brother passed almost a year ago. I still feel his presence here too every day. This beautiful vast place which was his dream is now my dream and i keep it... Thu, 29 Sep 2011 10:49:15 EST Thank you Spark people and new friends! I just wanted to Thank spark people for having this great site! I got on this site by accident while i was trying to find calories in something and i noticed it and went on . This has changed my life . I have been on a million weight loss gimmicks in my life and this is the first time i know i can do it. I could not do it with out these wonderful people on here, my new spark friends have really did it for me . I thank god for them every day! We are in this battle to gether and you dont want t... Sun, 25 Sep 2011 09:59:20 EST Words of Mother Teresa thats amazing! READ!! Often you see small and big wires, new and old ,cheap and expensive electric cables that are useless, for until the current passes through them there will be no light. The wires are you and me, the current is GOD.We have the power to let the current pass through us---- to use us--- or refuse to be used and allow darkness to spread. <em>220</em> Sun, 11 Sep 2011 13:16:38 EST Think Positive! When you think positive, happy , loving, thoughts theres a different chemistry that goes into your body than when you think depressing, negative, anguished thoughts. The way we decide to think has a dramatic effect on your chemistry and on your physiology. Just wanted to share . It sure changed my way of thinking <em>9</em> Tue, 6 Sep 2011 14:06:09 EST My Brother was my Best Role Model ! He was an amazing person diagnosed with MS 25 Yrs a go. He went thru Hell with different equipment , procedures. He ended up in a reclineing wheel chair. I was his his Care giver and we ended up with a a lifter to get him in his wheel chair to shower what ever. We did what ever it took to keep him out of the Nursing home . I went thru my feelings depressed wandering where GOD was to help him , But I learned from Thomas how to be positive. He knew God didnt cause this affliction and that he ... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 10:14:23 EST I have the resolve and resilience to do what is mine to do! Althouth difficult circumstances come my way from time to time,I know better than to let outer situations get the best of me. I remember that wherever i am, GOD is and always will be with me. A child learning to walk will fall on occasion, but he or she will also get up and try again.If i stumble occasionally.i learn and grow from any seeming mistakes and missteps. I especially need to keep this in mind when i goof up as i did yesterday. I felt HOPELESS!!!!!!!!!!! This... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 09:17:37 EST