DEEGIRL50's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DEEGIRL50 DEEGIRL50's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Splurge Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862705 I had a splurge day and I will survive!! <BR> <BR> I went to a fancy steakhouse with my aunt for lunch. I ordered according to my goals, but then she was ordering dessert. I decided to splurge too. <BR> <BR> Halfway through my dessert, my brain sent the "You're Full" signal. I'm thrilled to say that I listened to it. I put down my fork and told my aunt that as good as it was, I was full and was stopping now. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, I made the choice to take the leftover dessert hom... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 06:29:36 EST Shine On! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861547 I went on an all day shopping trip with two girlfriends and was able to stay within my calorie range!! <BR> <BR> Last night, I recognized that I was about to eat something in order to stay awake longer. Wrong reason to eat. My body would be inactive and that food would go right to my fat cells. Who needs that? <BR> <BR> I'm so proud of myself for recognizing what I was about to do!! I went to bed instead. My body was tired not hungry!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 11:28:05 EST Goal Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860792 Scored my first goal! I lost 10 pounds in January and I still have a week to go!! <BR> <BR> I lost 2 pounds this week. I was really hoping for 3 pounds. Please don't start booing me! We have a family wedding on May 9th. I'd love to be at an even 200 or less for the wedding. <BR> <BR> 15 Weeks x 2 Pounds = 30 Pounds <BR> I'd still be at 206 pounds. I need just a little more than that!!! <BR> <BR> Considering ways to kick it up a notch... <BR> Reduce to 1 diet soda a day. <BR> Increa... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 07:35:15 EST 99 Cents... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860018 After work, I stopped at the grocery store for more fruits and vegetables. I know, it shocks even me, that's what I stopped to get. <BR> <BR> I was having a little party in my head because I knew it wasn't a stop for chips or candy. <BR> <BR> Now, we all know... we stop for one thing and other stuff ends up in our cart. Of course that happened, but the stuff was: eggs, milk, Lean Cuisine lasagne, thin crust veggie topped pizzas, yogurts, and my freggies!! <BR> <BR> Believe it or no... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 05:48:53 EST Good Going! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859534 3 Weeks in and I'm sticking with my Fresh Start! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> My DH had outpatient surgery yesterday. I was in the waiting room for hours! I brought my own food to eat. I stayed in range yesterday! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> No Stressed = Desserts either!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I got up early this morning and helped DH get dressed. Got everything he'll need for the day down so he doesn't lift over his head. Put supper in the crockpot. And still had time to d... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 13:03:22 EST Cheers to Measuring Cups! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858474 A jar of Dry Roasted Peanuts was calling my name last night. I made the choice to eat them. Read the label: Serving Size 1 oz. (1/4 cup) / 160 Calories. <BR> <BR> I used my measuring cup and had one serving. I can only imagine how much I would have eaten straight from the jar! I was satisfied with the 1/4 cup. Learning to be satisfied with less! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1516008093.jpg"> Tue, 20 Jan 2015 07:11:04 EST Own It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857677 It's My Time... I Need To Own It. <BR> <BR> I skipped exercising yesterday. (Insert excuse here.) <BR> <BR> Woke up this morning with "I don't want to" by my side. <BR> <BR> <em>215</em> Don't give up now!!! <BR> <BR> Convinced myself to exercise before logging onto SP. Did a 10 minute Bikini Belly DVD. Let's Rock 'n Roll. Followed it with a Weight Watchers 10 minute Strength Training workout. Warm up! Cool down! 30 minutes and done!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 07:37:24 EST Rectifying Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856928 Plan A -- Eat at home before running errands. <BR> <BR> Plan B -- My sister calls and wants to go to lunch. We decide on Cousins Subs. I plan to eat half a sub and a side salad. <BR> <BR> Plan C -- The restaurant does not sell side salads. Order chips, but check labels for the healthiest ones and the lowest calories. Passed up the baked chips for the kettle cooked chips. They were only 20 more calories (or so I thought). Misread the label, the package actually had 1.5 servings. <BR>... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 07:56:09 EST A Second Look http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856393 I was a little disappointed with a 1 pound loss this week. <BR> <BR> I was trying to pump myself up by remembering what a pound of fat looks like or comparing it to 4 sticks of butter. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1371946403.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I Am Glad to be rid of that One Pound of Fat, but to be honest... <BR> I'd like to lose more and faster. <BR> <BR> January 1st - January 16th, I lost 8 pounds. That's 1/2 pound per day! When I look at it that way... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 11:36:36 EST Curve Ball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855542 I've been bringing my lunch to work every day since January 3rd. That streak ends today. My DH needs to me to sign some legal paperwork and the business closes at 3 p.m. We'll have to go on my lunch hour. <BR> <BR> I could still bring my lunch, but I choose to go out for lunch with my DH. <BR> <BR> There's a nice Italian restaurant near my work. They serve one slice of pizza and a salad at lunch time. There's also a coffee shop that sells delicious sandwiches. If we go there, I'll s... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 06:26:07 EST Movie Theater Popcorn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854873 I went to see the Wizard of Oz last night. First time seeing it in a movie theater. <BR> <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> How did I avoid the movie theater popcorn? <em>477</em> <BR> Just the smell (or thought) of popcorn makes me want some. <BR> <BR> I brought in my own bag of Skinny Pop Popcorn (39 calories a cup). It was very satisfying knowing I was enjoying my popcorn and still staying with my plan! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> When I got home, I had a 1" cube of fudge. I'm lea... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 08:11:32 EST Why Why Why http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854094 Three ladies go out to eat. One orders fish tacos, another a turkey wrap, and the third a beef tenderloin southwest wrap (Me). I'm proud of myself because instead of French fries, I substituted a side salad!! <BR> <BR> I couldn't find the calorie counts listed for this locally owned restaurant. I looked up a similar item at other restaurants and estimated it to be 580 calories. If I only eat 1/2, I will be at the low end of my calorie range. If I eat the whole wrap, I will be at the hig... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 08:03:33 EST Multiple Choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853233 How many food choices do we make in a day? <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Lunch time... I was deciding between grapes and unsweetened applesauce. <BR> Choose the grapes because they are whole food, the apples been processed to make applesauce. <BR> <BR> Snack time... deciding between unsweetened applesauce and two Hershey kisses. <BR> 50 calories applesauce or 44 calories kisses. Choose the applesauce because it has more nutritional value. <BR> <BR> And on, and on, and on, all day long! ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 06:15:03 EST Monday, Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852343 "Eat Lighter to be Lighter" Repeat as often as necessary. Quoting my friend Randy. <BR> <BR> Last week, the cold weather kept me inside. I had a Restaurant Free week and it helped me to lose weight!! <BR> <BR> Tonight, I was headed for bed when I remembered to Plan & Track. It's been working better for me to put everything in the tracker the night before. It helps me to turn down unplanned snacks because I know my calorie goals. <BR> <BR> Starting the week out right... eating breakfa... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 04:24:42 EST I Had a Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851555 I had a plan for party eating. How did it go? So-So. <BR> <BR> I ate according to plan when it came to the real food. Estimating the portion sizes, because even though I was at my own house, I wasn't going to use measuring cups in front of company. <BR> <BR> I had tried my desserts the night before and knew they were good, but I could live without them. Check -- didn't have a one. <BR> <BR> Then in walked my MIL with a plate full of homemade Christmas cookies. There dancing in fro... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 06:49:21 EST Challenge Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850811 We're having company over for an after-holiday party. Oh, party eating can be a challenge. <BR> <BR> I tracked and saw the calorie counts in advance. Now, I know how much I can eat and still stay within range. <BR> <BR> Knowledge is Power! <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> I baked cookies and made candy last night. I tried one of each (to be sure it was good). That put me in the high end of my calorie range. I learned that although the treats are delicious, I can live without them. My sa... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 06:42:28 EST Good Bye Holiday Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850035 <em>218</em> Doing the Happy Dance this morning! <em>218</em> <BR> <BR> Drum Roll Please.... <BR> <BR> I lost 7 pounds this week!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> After months of not sticking to my goals, I gave myself a Fresh Start on January 1st! <BR> <BR> I did these things every day since New Year's Day: <BR> * Planned and tracked my nutrition <BR> * Stayed at the low end of my calorie range <BR> * Exercised <BR> * Got more sleep <BR> * Restaurant Free / Cooked at home and Packed a ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 06:43:01 EST Highlights http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849686 I danced this morning! <em>335</em> <em>355</em> <BR> <BR> I did 10 Squats and 10 Wall Push-ups every time I went into the bathroom. (Humorous, but a good way to get in extra exercise.) <BR> <BR> I decided not to eat a Tootsie Roll pop after looking up the nutrition information. Not worth the 60 calories. <BR> <BR> Avoided the room where a teacher was eating McDonald's for lunch today. I knew the smell would cause a craving for me! <BR> <em>230</em> <em>486</em> <BR> <B... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 17:54:18 EST A Word http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848436 A word about "Specific Goals." I set a goal of strength training 2x a week. <BR> <BR> One of the challenges on First Step Club asked us to be more specific. I decided to specify which two days of the week (Monday and Wednesday). <BR> <BR> This morning, I was doing a 30 minute walking DVD. Ding, ding, ding... it's Wednesday, I need to do my Strength Training. I finished the walking workout and then went immediately to the closet to get my hand weights. I found a 15 minute beginner... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 09:50:47 EST Portion Discrimination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847669 I may be guilty of Portion Discrimination! <BR> <BR> When planning my meals, tonight's supper is a Birds Eye Beef Lo Mien frozen meal. The package recommends a 1 cup serving. I immediately thought "That's not enough." <BR> <BR> I've never had this meal before, but already I know one cup isn't good enough! How dare I? LOL <BR> <BR> After thinking about this, I've decided to try a 1 cup serving and add a lettuce and tomato salad on the side. Tue, 6 Jan 2015 12:52:01 EST Tracking Easy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846301 I was reading and leaving comments on Spark blogs, when I realized that I should get my tracking done FIRST. <BR> <BR> I made a grouping for my cereal, milk, and blueberries. One click - BOOM done! <BR> <BR> I'm using a Lean Cuisine meal and fresh fruit for lunch. Both items are in my favorites. BOOM done! <BR> <BR> Last time I made chili, I froze an extra meal. I also used the recipe calculator to find out the calorie count and nutrition information. My own recipe is in my favorite... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 05:47:35 EST Say It / Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845338 I went to a birthday/holiday party yesterday. I told myself before going that if she served a brownie with ice cream (her usual birthday dessert), I would not have any. However, if she served a Dairy Queen ice cream cake... I would ask for a very small portion (4 bites maximum). <BR> <BR> I said it and I did it. She served the brownie and I said "no thank you." <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I had one plate of food. No seconds. I estimated by calorie count (using the SP nutrition tracker)... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 05:36:30 EST Kicking 'n Screaming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844528 The longer I stayed away from the YMCA, the harder it was to go back! <BR> <BR> I pushed myself to go yesterday. "Best 30 minutes of my day!" <BR> <BR> One of my fears was running into the manager or other workers and feeling uncomfortable because I had stopped working out. The manager found me working out and it was all hugs & happy to see you. Nothing to fear! <BR> <BR> Another thing holding me back was Time! A quick workout takes at least an hour when you consider packing stuff, ch... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 08:36:59 EST I Declare http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843548 I declared New Year's Day to be a "No Sweets" day. <BR> <BR> I kept that commitment. I had to remind myself often: "Not today. I can have some another day, but not today." <BR> <BR> I repeated this phrase to myself: "I Am Stronger Than Chocolate!" <BR> <BR> Sweets (especially chocolate) have become a daily thing instead of an occasional treat. I want to change that. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l548038218.jpg"> Fri, 2 Jan 2015 05:04:22 EST It's Here -- January 1st http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842816 I bet the scales were busy this morning! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1373538851.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've been over enjoying the holiday eating. I stopped exercising and just let it all go. Not a good choice, but it was my choice. The price for doing this: I gained 5 pounds and lost my momentum. <BR> <BR> January 1st was my deadline to <em>227</em> <BR> Last night, I'm arguing with myself... "Just one more meal at Culver's? I'm off work. It would... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 12:26:53 EST My Journal is Full http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841769 Wow! It's been a good year for journal writing. I have a whole book of quotes, stories, advice, memories, struggles, victories, highs and lows, and twists too! <BR> <BR> Here's just a few tidbits from my journal... <BR> <BR> Laugh Often <BR> Dream Big <BR> Reach for the Stars! <BR> <BR> "When you reach for the stars, you may not quite get one, but you won't come up with a handful of mud either." ~Leo Burnett <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1060117682.jpg">... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 08:38:49 EST Getting Ready for 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841153 I love the image of fresh white snow that no one has walked in yet. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l665520709.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Fresh Start -- Brand New <BR> <BR> *No mistakes <BR> *No giving up <BR> *This always happens hasn't happened <BR> *I can't isn't available <BR> *Anything is Possible! <BR> *Pure & Natural <BR> <BR> Walgreen's Ad: RESTART your Healthy Routines! <BR> <BR> My sisters and I have a goal of getting together once a month. It could be Dinin... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 10:10:44 EST Why Do I Want To Lose Weight? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840451 I just read a great article by Coach Nicole: "Why Do You Really Want to Lose Weight?" <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp?po<BR>st=poll_whats_your_big_picture_goal </link> <BR> <BR> Of course, I want to lose weight to be healthy and look good. That's obvious, but what are my hopes and dreams and expectations??? <BR> <BR> I read through the comments at the end of the article and found some really good ideas for my own "Big Picture". <BR> <BR> "The real goal is exercising, eat... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 09:48:20 EST Year End Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839666 When it comes to weight... I went the wrong way. I gained 30 pounds this year. <BR> <BR> I could explain how it happened, but that would be a long negative blog. Instead, I'm going to write about my plans to change directions!! <BR> <BR> Drinking 8 glasses of water had been a daily occurrence. I've started drinking too much diet soda and not enough water. I will drink a glass of water first thing in the morning. I will have a glass of water before each meal. I will work my way back u... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 02:17:05 EST Ready, Set, Go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838697 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l272665175.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l561945802.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> "And now let us welcome the new year, full of things that never were." <BR> ~Rainer Maria Rilke <BR> <BR> Fri, 26 Dec 2014 09:11:52 EST A Word About Guilt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834765 I signed up for the December challenges on my favorite team. Then I missed the weigh-in day. (A little guilt.) Then I missed checking the Secret Santa thread (more guilt). I didn't chat with my friends (another helping of guilt). I stopped trying (okay, now I'm buried in guilt). <BR> <BR> Ignoring my team and friends... I'm so sorry! You mean so much to me and I've treated you badly. Please accept my apology. I will do better. <BR> <BR> I feel like a herd of reindeer have stampede... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 06:40:17 EST It's Dancing Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831234 Even though I have Yoga after work, I'm going to dance this morning! <BR> It feels good and I know that I should now... <em>335</em> <BR> <BR> Do I make you want to get up and boogie with me? Shake that thing!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> A simple suggestion has me feeling positive! As part of our First Step Club challenge, we were to write down what we plan to have for dinner this weekend (and stick to it). Bingo!! Decided on two options that are easy and fit into my calorie range... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 07:32:12 EST Changing My Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830634 With a little help from my friends <em>437</em> <BR> I've realized that my focus has been on what I'm doing "wrong" instead of "right." <BR> <BR> So here's a list of some positive changes: <BR> <BR> 1. Made a list of low calorie lunch options. Included restaurant choices on the list. Today I went out to lunch and chose one of the items from my list. <BR> <BR> 2. Signed up for an exercise class with a friend. Tried Yoga for the first time! <BR> <BR> 3. Bought a new exercise DVD b... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 04:14:10 EST First Time Yoga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827948 Took my first yoga class. I was amazed at the instructors strength and flexibility. I couldn't do a lot of the moves, but I could do more than I thought! <BR> <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Note: Pictures are from a Bing search for free Yoga images. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1577060890.jpg"> <BR> Working out with friends is fun! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1595622297.jpg"> <BR> I didn't think I could, but I was able to do ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 06:47:44 EST Second Day of Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827146 Track two meals... done! I even tracked before I ate today. Working on tomorrow's menu tonight. I do so much better when I track so I'm practicing, practicing, practicing until it becomes a habit. <BR> <em>195</em> <BR> <BR> Now, for the blog or journal writing. This thought hit me today... eat fat food and become fat or eat lean and become lean. <BR> <BR> I would gladly eat hamburgers and fries every day. I simply love that kind of food. On the other hand, when I take the ti... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 19:53:07 EST Twelve Days of Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826029 My true love gave to me... the motivation to stick with my plan!! <em>445</em> <BR> <BR> I've been really struggling. I won't go into the reasons, but it's been a very emotional time for me. When I feel sorry for myself, I eat. When I go out with friends, I eat. When I'm bored, I eat. When I'm nervous, I eat. When I'm celebrating, I eat. When I'm tired, I eat. <BR> <BR> November 2013... I was at 213 pounds. November 2014... I'm at 243 pounds. <BR> I don't like how this sto... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 21:05:48 EST Ten Good Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825172 Ten Good Things I Did Today: <BR> <BR> 1. Cooked breakfast at home. <BR> 2. Planned & Logged tomorrow's meals. <BR> 3. Prepared food in advance. <BR> 4. Checked in with my team. <BR> 5. Added recipe in nutrition tracker and found ways to lower calories/fat. <BR> 6. Savored a cup of chia tea. <BR> 7. Lots of stairs while doing laundry. <BR> 8. Started a new journal of quotes, mantras, and healthy tips. <BR> 9. Used body salts on my hands to soften them. <BR> 10. Blogged about it! <B... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 12:31:10 EST Choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819838 A thought is rambling around in my brain... is it as simple as choosing to binge or choosing to eat normal??? <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I don't have to be "all in" or "all out". <BR> <BR> Can I just say to myself... "That's enough now. You can have more tomorrow." <BR> Would that work? <BR> <BR> I haven't been able (willing) to stop the binge. I start out strong in the morning, but then I unleash the beast. Sweet & Salty Snacks All Night Long. <BR> <BR> My clothes are gettin... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 01:08:37 EST Another Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818748 One thing about me... I keep swinging. <em>300</em> <BR> <BR> I spiraled into a big binge. "Tomorrow we diet!" CRAP!!! <BR> <BR> Finding my way out of the weeds and back to the path... <BR> decided to track my calories yesterday. Make no changes. Eat whatever I wanted, but be accountable for my choices. <BR> <BR> I ate 2,509 calories. <em>29</em> <BR> <BR> The biggest culprits: <BR> 2 servings M&M's = 480 calories <BR> 1 Perkin's Pumpkin Muffin = 480 calories <BR> 1 Cousin... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 07:09:43 EST It's A Good Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811775 I woke up thinking... I want one fried egg on a slice of 7 grain bread; a fresh orange; and a cup of tea for breakfast! <BR> <em>474</em> <em>490</em> <em>467</em> <em>469</em> <BR> <BR> My mind is thinking "Healthy." I'm not craving Perkins pancakes or McDonald's breakfast sandwiches! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I woke up thinking... What kind of exercise will I do today! Not... ugh! I "have to" exercise today. <BR> <em>362</em> <BR> <BR> I'm starting out on the... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 07:06:09 EST I Told You So http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811128 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/2/l229589977.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I want to be able to say "I Told You So!" <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Dare to SMILE & SHINE today!! You are FABULOUS!!! <BR> <BR> I woke up in a good mood today. I'm renewing my commitment to become healthy and fit. <BR> <BR> "By renewing your commitment each and every day, you REINFORCE your forward momentum, remind yourself of your goals, and refresh your confidence that you can and will achieve your goals... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 07:05:08 EST Morning Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806744 <em>271</em> I'm enjoying a mocha chai latte this morning. Their advertisement says "The taste of peace & quiet." Ah, deep breath. <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> I'm up an hour before my alarm would ring. I love a leisurely start to my day. <BR> <BR> <em>331</em> I've been taking small steps to get myself back on track. <BR> Step 1... no soda in the morning. <BR> Step 2... only one evening snack. <BR> <BR> I know they're small steps, but when I wake up in the morning with the "I did it... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 07:01:49 EST Just For Fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805017 Hi SparkFriends! <BR> <BR> I'm struggling. Actually, I've been on a huge binge. Craving chocolate (really really good chocolate). Eating fast fat food again. <BR> <BR> I will find my way back. Right now... I want to share some fun! I went on a Freaky 5K walk with my family. It was a beautiful fall day. 60 degrees outside in Wisconsin in October!!! We had a grand time!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/3/l435951439.jpg"> <BR> Dee & Molly (niece) <BR> <BR>... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 12:00:06 EST Need To Believe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803807 I completely gave up on Weight Watchers this week. I've repeated this phrase a lot: "I'm going to be a WW drop out. I'll never eat like those people." <BR> <BR> At the meeting people were saying... "I ate more fish this week. Just put a piece of fish in the microwave with a little lemon and seasoning. Delicious!" Inside my head, I'm screaming "YUCK!" <BR> <BR> Another WW member said... "I over ate on beets this week. I roasted 5 beets and ate them in 2 meals." Again, I'm thinki... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 07:58:49 EST I Had A Dream... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5792614 Do you know what it's like when you wake up in the middle of a dream and it seems real? <BR> <BR> That happened to me this morning. I dreamed that my favorite pair of capri pants (which are too small at this time) were too big for me. I mean fall off your body - too big. It felt soooooo real. <BR> <BR> It's time to make my dreams come true! <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2028005765.jpg"> Sun, 5 Oct 2014 06:53:44 EST Time to Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786585 Have you seen the Weight Watchers commercial -- the one that shows all these healthy plates of food and says "I can eat all of this on Weight Watchers"? <BR> <BR> That food doesn't look appealing to me. Spaghetti with olives instead of meatballs? No way. Chicken... I don't eat that. <BR> <BR> Well, little lady (hear John Wayne saying that) -- It's time for a change. <BR> <BR> I can keep saying "I don't EAT that kind of food" and go on eating junk and harming my health, gaining weig... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 07:21:36 EST Tea and Journaling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785304 This morning I'm taking time for tea and journaling before getting ready for work. <BR> <BR> I read a blog about how after saying "No" to herself all day, she would eat wildly after work. Instead she said "yes" to herself all day. <BR> <BR> "Yes, this healthy salad with all the colorful vegetables is for me." <BR> "Yes, I can get up from my desk, stretch, and enjoy a walk outdoors." <BR> <BR> I tried it. Really told myself how much I was going to enjoy my peanut butter, banana, honey, ... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 08:07:49 EST My Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784553 My friend urged me to do one good thing for myself today. <BR> <BR> I will start by throwing away the potato chips and dip I bought this weekend. <BR> <BR> Jules wrote in her blog about feeling "chaotic and disordered" and waiting for stability to return. That's me in a nutshell. <BR> <BR> While chatting with Jules, I realized that I've been stacking up legal and funeral related things on the counter. If I would just sit down and do them, I could be done with it. But, then mom would rea... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 07:41:50 EST I'm Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778974 I'm here. Trying to peak out from all my sorrow and grief. I know my Mom is in Heaven and reunited with my Dad and her brother and sister and her parents. Somehow, that doesn't make the missing her part any easier. <BR> <BR> Oh, wait... this was going to be a happy blog. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l653095621.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Maya Angelou said this was from an African song: <BR> "When it looked like the sun wasn't going to shine any more, God put a ... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 07:37:15 EST Day 7 "I Can Do It" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765962 Squash my doubts -- "I am strong and committed. This time, I will do it." <BR> <BR> I will "Skyrocket my self-talk and create a strong belief that I can do it." <BR> <em>283</em> <BR> <BR> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> I can do it. <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> I can do it because I'm... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 10:30:49 EST