DEDICATED2HIM's SparkPeople Blog DEDICATED2HIM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Successes and Other Musings Yesterday I weighed myself..... ( I know....after this I will weigh myself weekly. ) I wanted to see if the inexplicable one extra pound had gone away. And yes it had! I struggled all day yesterday with wanting something sweet....a Symphony bar is my favorite. That or some ice where my head was at. I compromised by making my favorite comfort food: Pasta (whole wheat) with butter (real) and parmesan shreds (also real). I did feel guilty about the poor nutritional value of the m... Thu, 20 Oct 2016 05:36:45 EST Large Scale Deception This week I've been feeling a bit down. I weighed myself yesterday and found I'd gained a pound....inexplicably...No cheats no pigging out...I KNOW that weight fluctuates and that that is all it likely is...but still. You know how it is: you finally face the scale and it gives you bad news. It can ruin your day. (I know I'm giving the scale way too much power. Old anorexic habits die slowly) <BR> <BR> So today I was searching through my closet...we are having an Indian Summer this week a... Tue, 18 Oct 2016 08:38:15 EST Rambling Well, my last post was a "bummer" - let's see if I can do better this time. <BR> My ankle has improved enough that I can put weight on it for a minute or so while transferring from scooter to recliner or chair to scooter. It hurts some to do that but it's a dull aching pain rather than the sharp agony it was before. It does hurt enough to make me not want to try anything more than standing. <BR> <BR> Hurricane Matthew was supposed to go out to sea...however it surprised us by continuing... Thu, 13 Oct 2016 02:33:01 EST Blue Sunday I have been for months...I'm at home in my recliner recovering from a major ankle surgery. Where I would LIKE to be is at my church with my faith family worshipping and enjoying the company. And to make matters worse "DH" is less than friendly today (which is a complete understatement.) <BR> <BR> I feel like crying. But even tears are out of my reach. <BR> <BR> I know this is not a blog about food or weight loss....but I do not have any other place to vent right now. My fa... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 10:56:18 EST Response: to a blog and to my circumstances I usually start the week with a menu plan and it must have a wide range of strength and ingredients that it will require to prepare it. A friend pointed me to a popular blog post about meal and grocery planning and it prompted these thoughts. <BR> <BR> I used to cook 7 dinners a week...using left overs as lunches. Well that does not work for me or my husband anymore. WHY? Well sometimes he will have eaten a large lunch at work and doesn't want much for dinner except maybe a bowl of cere... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 10:59:48 EST Re-Writing "Normal" As I am gearing myself up for my ankle fusion surgery next week (next WEEK???!!) I am thinking that maybe I should come up with some goals or maybe some motivational statements that will keep me from losing motivation altogether. How about the old Virginia Slims ads: "You've come a long way baby!" Yes. I have and quitting smoking 21 years ago this month was a big part of my initial drive to get healthy. But now what? Now what can I focus can I maintain encouragement? Forward Dri... Sun, 26 Jun 2016 04:41:27 EST The Game Changer The air was crisp, the first rays of morning light peeked over the tree covered mountains. I pulled the laces of my sneakers tight, grabbed a bottle of water and headed for the door. I did a few stretches and then set out. As I crossed the two mile mark on my walk, I recalled the days when I could only make it down my driveway. I had one rule: Every day do a little more....and that approach built muscles and defied asthma. I did a nebulizer treatment every day before I started out and thi... Thu, 12 May 2016 06:03:22 EST What it Means to Persevere The following definitions are taken from an old Webster's Dicitionary <BR> Perseverance -1) The act or quality of persisting. 2) Continuance in a state of grace until it is succeeded by a state of glory. <BR> <BR> <BR> Persevere - To persist in any enterprise undertaken in spite of counter influences, opposition etc. <BR> <BR> Persistent- inclined to persist, tenacity, doggedness, perseverance. <BR> <BR> These definitions bring to mind a dog with a bone. Guarding it, and chewing it until... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 04:40:03 EST Why Not? I have two big "I SHOIULDS" that have been plaguing my conscience. 1) to do some drawing and 2) to get my body moving. I sit in this power recliner 95% of the day. And it is getting harder and harder to even stand up. This morning I've done 3 or 4 exercises...wall push ups, counter squats and band pull downs. I kind of considered doing them, almost dismissed the idea and then threw laziness and pain to the winds and did a few things. I want to do two more sets .... <BR> I also should th... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 08:48:13 EST Mercy toward Myself Lately I am very reluctant to weigh myself, believing that I will have gained weight. But lately, when curiosity gets the best of me and I weigh myself there have been good amounts of weight lost. But since I have been tracking my food, I am appalled by some of the high calorie foods I have been sucking down. NOW I am really REALLY scared to weigh myself....I look in the mirror and I see that "pregnant" belly and despair. But to be honest, my belly is smaller than it was. I've lost 30 lb... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 17:06:49 EST What Next? Exactly as I predicted, I fell prey to insatiable cravings and a feeling of immunity because my weight was "low" (low considering the past 5 years.) I regained almost all of the weight I had lost. I am thinking about having Spark design my menu again as I did years ago very successfully. This is what the hospital did for me. I made my order and they tweaked it to only contain a healthy amount of calories by moderating portions. <BR> <BR> I will have to look at the menus once again. The o... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 15:24:09 EST Old Tapes I have discovered something about myself. If I have lost weight-- and i weigh myself and see the weight loss this is the most dangerous time for me. ONce I get complacent and self congratulatory I usually very quickly regain the weight I had lost. <BR> <BR> Lately I have been feeling "fat" and hating my body. I postpone weighing and am so afraid of what that scale would say. HOwever I'm at the lowest weight I've been since 2011. Thus far I have lost 36 lbs. But I cannot think about ... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 15:11:09 EST The Hipster Returns so. I was sick a couple of weeks ago and it turned in to a resistant asthma attack which simply was not responding to treatment. ON March 1st I was admitted to the hospital to try to get things under control again. By my second week in the hospital, the asthma began to respond and I made plans to come home. On the day of my antiicpated discharge, I was sitting on the edge of the bed and bent over to pick up a sock. And POP!! Out came my hip from the socket which causes instant immobiil... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 14:09:44 EST The Best of Both Worlds I had been following the ET (Eat to Live program by Dr Joel Fuhrman.) for a couple of years now. The program was very demanding and required a lot of cooking and prep....lots of grocery expense....And I was a full fledged advocate of his philosophy. Problem was I could not follow it perfectly. And i really wasn't losing any weight after the first 15 pounds. I was stuck and in fact was gaining weight. <BR> <BR> I needed a change. Food and food prep should NOT consume your life. And you ... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 09:04:49 EST Gratitude It's here!! Have a very happy - and grateful - Thanksgiving Day! <BR> <BR> This year we are doing things a little differently in my family. Today I will be cooking some side dishes--but our real holiday meal will be held tomorrow (Black Friday) when our daughter will be here to celebrate with us. I bought a pre-made Thanksgiving Dinner from our grocery store, since I am not able to really cook a big meal (physically). I myself will be eating some veggie dishes that I'm making to accompany... Thu, 26 Nov 2015 04:57:10 EST My Reward I broke the 200 lb barrier today..(see the blog prior) and I was chatting with a friend who asked me what kind of reward I was giving myself. I never in the past rewarded myself. I felt like losing and wearing smaller clothes etc, was reward enough. But today I felt that I really do deserve a reward. So see the picture to see what I got myself...I got a cereal/rice bowl, a soup bowl and a mug..(see photo). I now wish I'd also gotten the plate. OH well. I'm very happy with the ones i did ge... Wed, 11 Nov 2015 14:59:56 EST A BUMPY RIDE Right now, at 2:39 AM, I am doing the happy dance. Why? -well let me give you some background first. I have been pursuing a vegan, no oil, no salt, no sugar, no processed foods diet as part of the ETL (Eat to LIve) guidelines. I had been doing amazingly well for the past two or three weeks; side-stepping temptations right and left. Making nutritious, healthy food: being about 60% raw and also using my Instant Pot: making my own soy yogurt and soy milk....and being very happy doing all this ... Wed, 11 Nov 2015 03:10:57 EST Choices I was just looking at the pic on the front of my Spark page when I was at my book signing. Wow,. Just wow. Talk about a wake up call.! I'm very happy to say that I am about 20-25 pounds less than that now...but I know: a mere "drop in the bucket". I still have not done any exercise as of yet. It's so hard to talk my hurting body into moving. I have been considering Leslie Sansone again. Is it possible? I know I could not make it through one mile. At least at first. But it would b... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 08:14:47 EST The Importance of Walking I thought this was very funny. I hope you all enjoy it! <BR> <BR> Walking can add minutes to your life. <BR> This enables you at 85 years old <BR> to spend an additional 5 months in a nursing <BR> home at $7000 per month.. <BR> <BR> My grandpa started walking <BR> five miles a day when he was 60. <BR> Now he's 97 years old <BR> and we don't know where he is. <BR> <BR> I like long walks, <BR> especially when they are taken <BR> by people who annoy me. <BR> <BR> The only reason I would take... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 03:00:10 EST Follow up from Most Popular Blog I just re-read the blogpost that was voted most motivational blog post for 1/29/15. As usual I can talk a good talk and write a good post....but can i really make right choices consistently? <BR> <BR> I just spent a month in the hospital for respiratory issues and was on a TON of IV steroids.....needless to say my belly ballooned and my neck had quadruplets. Even so, when I got home I had lost one pound rather than gaining 30. But--here's the rub--once I was set loose away from the hospit... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 15:39:02 EST Ramblings Hi. <BR> I have not weighed myself lately. At last check I had regained all the loss i had achieved over a year ago with the Eat to Live program. Now I am struggling to live by the parameters that eating plan lays down. I have really been struggling against cravings for products with animal proteins in them....which are really just lethal, destroying heart and causing cancer. I find it relatively easy to avoid oil ---except when eating out. Then there is little choice. This month I have... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 08:09:16 EST The Beast Unmasked So. When i was in the hospital on HUGE doses of steroids for a month....i actually lost a few pounds thanks to the portion controls in the hospital food. I was ALWAYS hungry there. So when I got home i went a little wild. Whole wheat bagels with tofutti "cream cheese:" are the current drug of choice. I have one bagel left. And i'm not buying any more. My face has never been more swollen than it is right now. I have several chins and no neck. <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 09:02:57 EST Fixable---? I just completed 24 days in the hospital. In the hospital ---on tons of IV steroids--my appetite was mammoth. I would eat a full plate of food---as much as I could get them to send me---and would be hungry before I took the last bite. I'm the only person I know who can be hungry WHILE EATING. HOwever, despite the migration of fat to my face and to my middle (another gift of steroids) clothes felt loose. Sure enough, when I got home I'd actually lost a pound. ( a POUND??? SO WHAT?... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 06:16:29 EST Changing the Tide I just got out of the hospital where i was for 9 days on HIGH doses of IV steroids. Usually I can guarantee a 20 lb weight gain in the time spent in the hospital and then another 20 at home. HOwever this time, despite eating fairly hefty meals,...I actually LOST weight. 5 lbs in the hospital and 4 more since I've been out. I have not been doing ETL perfectly. In fact two nights ago I had a hamburger. And yesterday I had fried chicken pieces in a salad. And DESPITE that, I have been lo... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 08:06:17 EST Some thoughts Borne of a Long Hospital Afternoon. Today is day 7 of my hospital stay. Now the docs say I can (maybe) go home this coming Tuesday. My lungs are improved ...but my BP has been through the sky. The doctors want to try yet one more pill for Hypertension to try to get a grip on it. Today I finally got an order for a shower. My plan is to get one after lunch today. <BR> <BR> I have been uninspired to write. However a friend from online and I have been chatting up a storm via email and it is almost as good and cozy as a visit ... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 14:08:25 EST Where is my Spark? Yes, here I am once more: in the hospital struggling to breath. I have severe asthma and have been admitted once more for at least a week of IV steroids (Solule Medrol). This drug causes me intense hunger and can usually be counted on for at least a twenty pound weight gain. I want to cry. Honestly this struggle with my health and with my weight make me want to give up. I know if I quit the battle, it won't be long until I'm in the 300's or more. For the past year my health has made it ... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 03:39:19 EST DRATS: Computer Issues I had reached 40 + consecutive spins on the spark wheel. And then my computer cord died...only we thought it was the battery. So Ii ordered a new battery -only to find that that was not the problem. And for some odd reason- my Kindle refuses to let me sign on to Spark my streak of sign ons was broken ....sigh... Now i am working with a borrowed cord while I am waiting for my new cord to arrive. I used to love my Kindle....Now i HATE it....I am not a person who likes to use a ... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 01:03:07 EST From the Murky Depths.... <img src="">As I had reported in my last post, I've been floundering badly. BADLY---as in large soft serve cone with sprinkles....and then eggplant parm on a roll for Frosted Flakes for dinner. No folks. It doesn't get much worse than that. <BR> <BR> And you know what? I'm GLAD. <BR> Why? BECAUSE I gave myself a rude awakening. And that was this: ALL THIS WORK I've done, preparing good-for-me mea... Tue, 26 May 2015 08:32:25 EST Singlemindedness VS mindlessness It's been a week of ups and downs. I weighed last week and was at a new low...had lost two more pounds. Then. Well I got cocky....and every single day of the week there was some kind of diversion from the straight and narrow. I did not re-weigh because I know I will just be really discouraged. Instead I'm working hard to put a perfect day together...and then one more....and then one more. Today was almost perfect except I had a little of the brown sauce on my steamed veggies from the C... Sat, 23 May 2015 18:45:25 EST Learning New "Tricks" so I am proud to say that I have evaded every obstacle and every rogue temptation that has come along. I went shopping (twice) and spent WAY too much money. My already high bill was augmented by purchasing the ingredients for a yummy 3 Bean Veggie Chili which I'm making in the slow cooker for a pot luck supper tomorrow. The reason I'm going to so much trouble and not just buying soda or some cookies is because I NEED to have something there to eat myself....something that I know I can hav... Fri, 1 May 2015 16:14:33 EST Sunday Rest I am on Day 3 of my six week "induction" to the EAT TO LIVE program put together by Dr. Joel Fuhrman. So far I have stuck to the plan perfectly. This morning (3:00 AM) I had two mini whole wheat bagels with vegan cream cheese....which is allowable, however I will have to forgo anymore starches today. Yesterday I didn't have any at all so it is not impossible. I did not weigh myself today. Yesterday I was a bit unhappy to find that I did not lose anything....however in recalling my othe... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 03:10:46 EST A New Six Week Start 4-17-15 Day Two <BR> Yesterday I finally did it. I put together a perfect day. I went out to eat at a new restaurant where they had all kinds of yummies. I had a salad.: a giNORmous salad….and was satisfied. While a friend was driving me to the pharmacy, DH texted me that he had a piece of pizza with my name on it. OOOOhh boy. That one was tough. I wanted that pizza for dinner. Instead I had zucchini soup and the remains of a bowl of “pudding” made with almond paste (left o... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 06:02:33 EST Rebuttal I am not snacking on sugar. <BR> I am making recipes that conform to the Eat to Live program. A program that has helped thousands of people lose astronomical amounts of weight. I myself have lost 30 pounds on it. I know what i am doing wrong and it is not that I am not tracking. I do keep record of what I eat but I do not count calories....nor is it necessary to eat less food as long as I am eating the RIGHT food. <BR> <BR> I have to say...I was kind of annoyed by some of the comments on my... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 06:34:45 EST Assessment A week ago, after eating poorly for a couple of weeks (by poorly, i mean not perfectly. Meals were ok but too much eating out and some snacking). I decided to get in gear with the Eat to Live Program once again as it is the only thing that has helped me. I told myself I would not weigh myself again until 2 weeks had passed. Well today the suspense was killing me and I weighed myself. It was the same weight as I'd started at a week ago. <BR> <BR> I know that I'm still eating out too mu... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 16:20:56 EST A Good Talkin' to HONESTLY, I don't know why people keep reading my blogs here...It's the same old story: Get motivated, get determined and psyched....lose a couple of pounds....stumble a bit ...and regain the "couple of pounds." <BR> <BR> What happened? Well my DH bought me a massive brownie. Isn't he sweet?? But honestly --he KNOWS I'm doing ETL and he KNOWS I can't resist a treat like that. <BR> And last night I was all set to cook a healthy dinner....and he ordered pizza. I didn't want to cook only for ... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 06:04:54 EST New Discipline at Work I weigh myself on Wed. and Sunday. Yesterday's weight was at the "high end" of the three pounds I've been tossing around. So that's my starting point (from here on in,....I'm not replacing my initial weight).. i want to climb over this incline and leap from the plateau at the top. Three pounds. make it 4 and I will have put off another ten pounds and will have kicked that plateau's butt. LOL <BR> <BR> Yesterday and today I've done well. I had made out a week's menu for all three meals... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 16:56:21 EST A Confession I have still been messing around with the three pound yoyo my body plays with . Lose three, gain three, lose three, gain three....and repeat ad nauseum. I know why it is. My meals are pretty healthy. I've been eating a lot of greens and whole grains (not a lot of those, about one serving a day as per Dr Fuhrman.) But then, my husband comes home with a pizza...and I was out all day and I was definitely too exhausted to cook and we were out of fresh I had a piece of pizza. ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 05:59:54 EST A GREAT idea I have been back on the EAT to LiVE program. I'm pleased to hear that a few of you have been following it also and are experiencing significant weight loss. It really does work....more than anything I've ever tried....even not eating at all did not give me results like this. <BR> <BR> Tonight I was in the mood for comfort food, but also wanted it to have nutritional value. Here's what I did: <BR> I had a box of Annies's Organic Mac and cheese. I read the box...the sodium is high but if y... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 17:42:50 EST I probably said it before... ....but I'm sayin' it again. JUST DO it. I've regained some weight (about 9 lbs--maybe a little less). I have NOT been eating according to Doc Fuhrman's plan. There is absolutely no excuse. It is true that there was nothing in the house to eat over the when my DH brought Chinese food home I gobbled it. He brought home some cereal yesterday....I'm hoping I have enough left of my salad for dinner tonight. Tomorrow my grocery order will be delivered and once more I will hav... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 15:12:03 EST Gimme Some Lovin'! I was just looking through my devotions and came across what I'd written yesterday about loving myself NOW rather than AFTER I lose weight. I wrote down some concrete ways I can show myself some love. I will share a few of them here. <BR> 1) I will not talk derogatorily about my body...not even to myself. <BR> 1a)I will not THINK unkindly about myself...but wil look for reasons to mentally high five myself. <BR> 2) I will go through my lingerie drawer and take out all the ripped or stained... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 10:51:09 EST Lovin' the Fattie 2-11-15 Diet and Such <BR> Today’s food list: <BR> Smoothie with some juice , assorted frozen fruit. One frozen banana, plain homemade soy yogurt, and almond milk. <BR> Some pastries from Starbucks. UGH <BR> Lunch …..a salad some bacon pieces and bleu cheese (Probably undid all the good in the salad) <BR> A naval orange <BR> Collard greens steamed with grated carrots steamed. Sauce made of cashews, balsamic vinegar and raisins. With slices of cucumber seeded and all arranged in a ww wrap.... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 18:14:35 EST My day of Stardom It took me quite by surprise to find that my blog was featured in the Community Highlight this week. I've gotten to meet a lot of Sparkers as a result of blog comments, page comments and Goodies. Thank you all for this amazing support. <BR> <BR> Now , two months after I wrote that blog---I've now lost a total of 19 lbs. Unfortunately it's coming off very slowly. And I know why that is: it's the fact that I'm making a few too many "exceptions to the rules"-- I have to begin to answer... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 04:50:42 EST The State of Dis-Union I had a stomach virus about a week or two ago....and I lost 6 lbs in short order. ...And then I gained them back and then some. <em>24</em> It started a couple of days ago when my husband "thoughtfully" brought me home Taco Bell as a gift. So, okay. I ate it (I mean I couldn't be rude and pitch it in the garbage could I? Especially since it was sort of a peace offering consequent to us working out some issues and beginning to get along well), <BR> <BR> Then I had an MD appointment ... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 04:05:26 EST later In case you were wondering how on earth I lost five pounds in three days --I did it by jogging. Jogging back and forth from the bathroom to either puke or poop or do them both at the same time. YUCK what a mess. <BR> And now my daughter and my husband are feeling sick and miserable. My heart goes out to yeah. 5 pounds in three days? Do you think I will be able to maintain it? I hope so. The trick will be to follow Dr Fuhrmans plan to the letter. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I go for ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 14:45:34 EST Give or take a Hundred My daughter is very sick...flu or a bad upper respiratory infection. My husband and I were just talking about how I never get colds or viruses....But mycoplasma Pneumonia, endocarditis MRSA, or Encephla-spinal meningistis..? Bring it on! Go big or get out! <BR> <BR> I am hoping not to catch my daughter's illness...with my asthma it would be a serious problem. <BR> <BR> I just weighed myself. 19 lbs gone!...11 more pounds to Onederland. I was at this point last December (a year ago)...I ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 06:02:00 EST Why the Heck not? The whole world is crazy busy. I know that because if I need to find a friend to drive me to the pharmacy - a ten minute trip- everyone I ask is too tied up to help. And it's not because it's no fun to go to the pharmacy. I've invited people over to sample from my enormous collection of tea...and still the reason (excuse?) that they are too busy. <BR> <BR> I am not busy. <BR> <BR> Other than an occasional shower and washing the dishes and feeding myself...I have nothing but free time. ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 14:32:06 EST It is a New DAY!! The New Year is breathing down our necks.....and it is a time traditionally of evaluating our year past and setting goals for the coming year. I looked back on my blog, Treasures from Darkness ( <link> </link> ) at last New Year's entry and I discovered that I had met every single goal that I had set last year! I think that all of us could do the same thing if only we wouldn't forget about it in a week or two. What I did last year was to turn some of my r... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 05:33:50 EST Another Feeding Catastrophe Averted Today my friend Ralph and I went to a nice restaurant in town. It was packed. My decision to go there was based on the knowledge that I can get a large garden salad with a veggie patty to crumble into large pieces on the salad. I ate that....and then the bakery area near the cash register was calling my name. I ordered a gingerbread girl for my daughter and was feasting my eyes on every imaginable calorie laden concoction ....and then I saw it. A HUGE bowl of fruit salad...all fresh frui... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 15:07:09 EST Practical Means of Eating Well in a Crowd Last night went well.. <BR> Before I left I had a personal pizza on a whole wheat pita with black olives on it. Then I had a bowl of homemade vegetable soup I'd made the day before yesterday. This really helped me. After I ate the salad I was not at all tempted by the lasagna. <BR> <BR> The hostess filled up plates and we passed them around the table till every one had one. I just kept passing them and didn't keep one (the meal was lasagna with meat sauce and garlic bread). I did have one... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 14:27:19 EST Making BETTER Choices--when the Best ones are not Possible I've been struggling this week. I"ve "caved in" a couple of times while eating out. It was my birthday and a friend took me out for dinner to the Olive Garden. MMMmmm breadsticks!! and I was having fantasies of pasta Alfredo...However when the time came to order, I had decided on Grilled Salmon and broccoli, and we had two bowls of salad and (sigh) I had three breadsticks. <BR> <BR> Then yesterday while eating out with a friend, I had fantasies of fried chicken on a biscuit with gravy. B... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 04:57:34 EST