DEDICATED2HIM's SparkPeople Blog DEDICATED2HIM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community later In case you were wondering how on earth I lost five pounds in three days --I did it by jogging. Jogging back and forth from the bathroom to either puke or poop or do them both at the same time. YUCK what a mess. <BR> And now my daughter and my husband are feeling sick and miserable. My heart goes out to yeah. 5 pounds in three days? Do you think I will be able to maintain it? I hope so. The trick will be to follow Dr Fuhrmans plan to the letter. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I go for ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 14:45:34 EST Give or take a Hundred My daughter is very sick...flu or a bad upper respiratory infection. My husband and I were just talking about how I never get colds or viruses....But mycoplasma Pneumonia, endocarditis MRSA, or Encephla-spinal meningistis..? Bring it on! Go big or get out! <BR> <BR> I am hoping not to catch my daughter's illness...with my asthma it would be a serious problem. <BR> <BR> I just weighed myself. 19 lbs gone!...11 more pounds to Onederland. I was at this point last December (a year ago)...I ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 06:02:00 EST Why the Heck not? The whole world is crazy busy. I know that because if I need to find a friend to drive me to the pharmacy - a ten minute trip- everyone I ask is too tied up to help. And it's not because it's no fun to go to the pharmacy. I've invited people over to sample from my enormous collection of tea...and still the reason (excuse?) that they are too busy. <BR> <BR> I am not busy. <BR> <BR> Other than an occasional shower and washing the dishes and feeding myself...I have nothing but free time. ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 14:32:06 EST It is a New DAY!! The New Year is breathing down our necks.....and it is a time traditionally of evaluating our year past and setting goals for the coming year. I looked back on my blog, Treasures from Darkness ( <link> </link> ) at last New Year's entry and I discovered that I had met every single goal that I had set last year! I think that all of us could do the same thing if only we wouldn't forget about it in a week or two. What I did last year was to turn some of my r... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 05:33:50 EST Another Feeding Catastrophe Averted Today my friend Ralph and I went to a nice restaurant in town. It was packed. My decision to go there was based on the knowledge that I can get a large garden salad with a veggie patty to crumble into large pieces on the salad. I ate that....and then the bakery area near the cash register was calling my name. I ordered a gingerbread girl for my daughter and was feasting my eyes on every imaginable calorie laden concoction ....and then I saw it. A HUGE bowl of fruit salad...all fresh frui... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 15:07:09 EST Practical Means of Eating Well in a Crowd Last night went well.. <BR> Before I left I had a personal pizza on a whole wheat pita with black olives on it. Then I had a bowl of homemade vegetable soup I'd made the day before yesterday. This really helped me. After I ate the salad I was not at all tempted by the lasagna. <BR> <BR> The hostess filled up plates and we passed them around the table till every one had one. I just kept passing them and didn't keep one (the meal was lasagna with meat sauce and garlic bread). I did have one... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 14:27:19 EST Making BETTER Choices--when the Best ones are not Possible I've been struggling this week. I"ve "caved in" a couple of times while eating out. It was my birthday and a friend took me out for dinner to the Olive Garden. MMMmmm breadsticks!! and I was having fantasies of pasta Alfredo...However when the time came to order, I had decided on Grilled Salmon and broccoli, and we had two bowls of salad and (sigh) I had three breadsticks. <BR> <BR> Then yesterday while eating out with a friend, I had fantasies of fried chicken on a biscuit with gravy. B... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 04:57:34 EST Choices All you are today, is the consequence of your choices. It is true that things happen about which we lack control...sickness, financial issues, etc. But it is true that we have choices in how we will respond to such difficulties. You know the expression, "That which does not kill me, makes me stronger"? That is true for most people but there are people who cave in under pressure. That too, is a choice. It can be hard to pick yourself up from the ground and get going again, but truly, it i... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 02:50:52 EST Ho Ho Hum My house does not have the tiniest bit of Christmas about it. I should at least change the table cloth and get the one with the autumn leaves off of it. I honestly cannot go out to the garage and bring in boxes. I cannot take all the current decorations in my house down into the basement. My daughter had said she would help but she hasn't been home long enough to do anything. She is working today and tomorrow so it will not get done this weekend either. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> A coup... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 05:16:53 EST Back in the Saddle Well I had a week of poor choices. Fortunately for some reason I did not have much appetite so that helped to keep it from being a catastrophe. Then on FRiday I bought some veggies and fruit because we were out of everything. Last night I cooked collard greens with shredded carrots and a raisin, balsamic, cashew sauce over the greens and carrots. (You blend those ingredients in the blender with a little water and it makes a lovely sauce). I really did not expect to like the greens. I tho... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 16:09:07 EST Re-Start the Motivation yesterday was hard. I went to NY to see a neurologist following some visual disturbances I've been having. And she didn't have good news. I left the office with a fist full of prescriptions for MRI, EMG and bloodwork....all to be done by next Wed. I don't drive and all of these tests are in NY plus on Monday I have a dentist appointment and I think I need a crown and maybe a root canal. <BR> <BR> Can I quit now? Because I'm really so done with all of this stuff. And I confess.....I at... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 14:27:13 EST Satisfaction and JOY--the long run destinations How cool....and how affirming, to be voted as a featured blog post. HOnestly, there are a lot of other blogs I've written that I thought were better than yesterday's...but hey, I'll take it as I can get it! <BR> <BR> I was reading an article on Spark recently--about making goals. And the writer said that he/she had made a list of daily goals for themselves and they rewarded themselves with stars as they accomplished the items....and for every hundred stars, they rewarded themselves. I tho... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 04:17:31 EST Never too Late to Get Back up Again! I don't know if my weight has yet reflected it, but I've made some really horrible choices in the past maybe four days. I need to do something NOW or I will regain the 14 pounds that I'd lost. <BR> <BR> What can I do? <BR> 1) exercise <BR> 2) try not to eat out <BR> 3) If I DO eat out make wise choices. <BR> <BR> I need to detox all over again. I was just getting to the point when my tastes were being renewed so that healthy foods were tasting good and junk food was horrible. And I'm dri... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 05:28:53 EST random thoughts well, today was a mixed bag ....I didn't eat anything BAD except for some sweet potato fries.....and no, they weren't baked. And then I made a vegetable/bean/rice soup that had too many starchy veggies in it so it wasn't idea. But I didn't go nuts today like I did yesterday. I was praising God that after I polished off a bag of cookies in the overnight---I still lost a pound. <BR> <BR> I need to cut up some veggies to accompany the avocado dip I made for them yesterday. Maybe if I do th... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 18:12:36 EST Better than NOthing today is day 4 of my return to the Eat to Live program. I made the mistake of weighing myself...gained two pounds since i began....I have some reason to think that that weight is not fat....we'll see how it resolves if you know what I mean. <BR> <BR> Anyway I've gone over board a couple of times and had two starches in a day instead of one...and mostly that occurred in the middle of the night when I had some whole wheat crackers. And worst of all, I ate some sugary cereal in the wee hour... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 14:34:23 EST Day three Today I go to see a new pain MD. I am hoping that he will agree to take me as a patient and that he will be willing to help me meet my pain management needs and goals. That makes two MD visits in two days. I am really feeling wiped out...not at all like showering and getting dressed and taking the hour long ride to the MD. The only good part about it is that my dad is driving me. I love spending time with him. He is my superhero. <BR> <BR> So this marks day three of my Eat to Live plan.... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 04:33:09 EST Back to Dr Fuhrman When I took a good look at the photo on the previous page, I realized how much weight I've gained and how it has badly affected my appearance. I am also not feeling well...chest pain which may or may not be gastric in origin. Hopefully that's all it is. <BR> I know that the only way I'm going to lose weight is to go back onto the Eat to Live plan. I doubt that my husband will join me...he has too great of a death wish....even worse than mine. He is eating junk. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I ma... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 05:46:35 EST My Memoir Well, my goal for four years has been to complete my memoir. And a couple of weeks ago my dream was realized. Treasures from Darkness is available at Amazon and Barnes and Nobel. (search for Cynthia Lott Vogel, books and you will find it). I am very proud of the book and have gotten wonderful reports of people who've read and enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I could not afford to pay an editor and there are a couple of t... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 08:44:13 EST Let's give a hand for.... after two of the worst days in recent history, I looked at my hand that was throbbing....I'd rubbed some pain cream on it and then LOOK AT THIS!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Time to start taking those steroids that the doctor ordered, ya think? Fri, 17 Oct 2014 17:37:07 EST Self Pity? The following is a paragraph from John MacArthur's study Bible. I found it to be captivating and pertinent to the questions I'm asking today. <BR> <BR> “The basic theme of Psalms is living real life in the real world where two dimensions operate simultaneously; 1) a horizontal or temporal reality. 2) a vertical or transcendent reality .Without denying the pain of the earthly dimension, the people of God are to live joyfully and dependently on the person and promises standing behind the he... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 17:56:16 EST A Word from my "Other" blog As I have mentioned in the past has been a big part of my life in my attempts to lose weight and regain strength. IN the past several months it has been all I can do to drop in on the RAD team (Rheumatoid Autoimmune Disease) where I am one of the leaders...and just update them on my current status and trying to encourage those there who are struggling. It used to be a really active team with posts appearing every hour at least. Lately's been dead. AS dead as m... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 16:17:32 EST Desperate Moves for Desperate People Well, my box of books arrived. How exciting to see my name on the front cover and picture on the back. (of course the pic was taken a few years ago, a few pounds ago and a few (lot) of gray hairs ago....but hey it's how I'd like to be remembered. <BR> <BR> I came up from being in the basement today and I was carrying a jar of spaghetti sauce and it felt SO HEAVY in ny hands and the weight of it make it really difficult to climb the steps. I was appalled at how weak I've gotten. I really... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 16:19:57 EST My life in 7 points I have a lot to say....since almost a whole month has gone by since I last did much of anything on Spark's site. Here's a quick summary: <BR> 1) My book is now being printed. I should receive my first box of books any day now. <BR> 2) My weight has been fluctuating back and forth over the same five pounds. However that whole "range" is five pounds lower than it was before. Which means I've lost anywhere from 5-10 pounds. But I'm frustrated because I'm so STUCK. <BR> 3) I was temporarily... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 17:05:21 EST In Production! That's my manuscript...not me. My days of "production" are long gone. I got the email today that said that everything that my manuscript needed was done and now they are going about typesetting it and printing the galleys. I am REALLY curious how many pages it will end up being. The length of the book is what affects the price of the book to the public. My guess is that it will be about 300 pages. The trim size is 6x9" <BR> <BR> But HERE IS THE REALLY GOOD NEWS!! <BR> I AM WEARING AT T... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 17:10:14 EST short note.... Today I have been busy readying my manuscript to send via email to the publisher. Ran into a snag and have to wait for a phone call from them. Paid some bills and now am signing onto Spark for the first time in a while. <BR> <BR> I cannot decide if the new medicine is working for me or not. My hands look a little less swollen and I do not jump and scream if someone touches them....however if I BUMP them all bets are off. My feet have been very painful as has my neck. Pain is still waking... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 12:25:24 EST Juggling Treatments I weighed myself this my PJs and with a full bladder....and I weghed 223 which his down from 230 very recently. Then before I got into my shower I thought "What the heck" and stepped on the scale. 221! This is the lowest I've been all summer ....and of course my asthma is acting up and I'm afraid I'm heading for the hospital. But I'm not goign without a struggle. I do NOT want to gain all that steroid weight now...just as I was getting in the groove! So I did my nebulizer, m... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 16:51:18 EST Teeth and Poor Choices Yesterday was notable for several reasons. 1) I emailed my manuscript in to the editors at my publishing house and now will be waiting for their report. <BR> And 2) I went to NY for some blood work and also a visit to the dentist. I have Sjogrens Disease which messes with your body's ability to produce fluids....Saliva, tears, you get the picture. The lack of saliva rots your teeth. Six months ago I had no cavities. Then came my diagnosis and the now, I found I had four cavities. So yes... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 09:00:48 EST Ten Minutes Yesterday I got up my nerve and went to church. I showered the night before so I could rest until 10:00, the time when Ralph would pick me up to go to church. The new recliner was lovely. Silent (unlike the groaning one I have at home) and comfortable ...What a lovely gift! <BR> <BR> Well I made it through church (only fell asleep once!) <BR> <BR> This morning I'm over heated....just put the AC on so that should improve. I signed up for the ten minute challenge team run by Spark Gu... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 08:57:46 EST Sick Puppys and Church Attendance Well my three friends visited last week....and I promised them I would do my best to attend church on Sunday. Then pastor visited and said they'd installed a new electric recliner for me to use in church instead of the one there which every child under 15 had thought was a was one jump away from falling on the floor the next time I was to sit in it. <BR> <BR> Then the next day my trusty friend Ralph came over to pick me and my rollator up to go out for lunch and to do som... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 15:34:10 EST Sick Puppys and Church Attendance Well my three friends visited last week....and I promised them I would do my best to attend church on Sunday. Then pastor visited and said they'd installed a new electric recliner for me to use in church instead of the one there which every child under 15 had thought was a was one jump away from falling on the floor the next time I was to sit in it. <BR> <BR> Then the next day my trusty friend Ralph came over to pick me and my rollator up to go out for lunch and to do som... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 15:34:09 EST wow! Real KEYS!!! About two weeks ago my beat up laptop finally expired. :( Then, through the incredible generosity of a friend, I was able to order a new Dell Latitude...which goes retail for $1200 and which I got refurbished for $350. It arrived yesterday and today I've been happily catching up with friends whom I normally chat with. Thankfully I was not completely offline. I do have a Kindle Fire but I'll tell you....styluses suck! I'm much happier--and much faster--typing away without having to look... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 08:45:39 EST And so it Goes I really wish I could go somewhere this summer. With every summer that passes I slide further and further away from "health" and "strength" But our garage needs a roof, our deck needs to be power washed and sealed. We need new kitchen floors....and there simply is no room in that list for "Vacation"....especially when to go anywhere and have any kind of endurance for pain, I must go in my wheelchair....and my husband will not have any part of that. *sigh* <BR> <BR> I will NOT feel sorry for... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 10:18:14 EST 10 suggestions for meeting my goal yes.I lost 8 lbs in the hospital....came home on oral steroids and gained 6 lbs back. I struggled with despair.Why is it that I'm having such a hard time BEING GOOD on this Eat To Live program.the first time I went in gung ho and jubilated as the pounds dropped off. I will try again. I know that this is the shortest route to the goals I desire to reach.If I could get solidly into a size 16, I would be very happy. Of course that is not the end of my goals....but it is a good solid start. <BR>... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 18:10:32 EST VICTORY I got home from the hospital yesterday.As I dressed to go home, I noticed something. Yes, I all swollen and puffy from the steroids. But my huge GUT that has been growing larger and larger,suddenly seemed a little smaller.Sure enough, my pants buttoned with out a struggle. I said to my husband in the car on the way home, " I think I have lost some weight!" he said "Yes, you have".... <BR> <BR> This morning I was eager to get onto the scales. I had been 227....and today I weighed 219!! 8 ... Thu, 29 May 2014 09:05:39 EST no place like home It is 4:47AM, and I've been up since around 3:00. Steroids make bad bed here I am ,starving and wish I g I had ordered more for breakfast.even though they have been tapering the steroids, they are still peaking in my bloodstream. It will take a few more days before t can feel more normal. <BR> <BR> I am going home today after nine days in hospital for asthma. It will be nice to get back home ...I am beginning to put us,all back onto the Ear to Live food plan. My husband is content ... Wed, 28 May 2014 05:16:25 EST EATING TO LIVE once again. My husband said exactly what I've been thnking myself and that is our only hope to stay alive is Dr Fuhrman's "Eat to Live" diet. When we were on that I lost 30 lbs in 6 weeks....and my husband's chest pain went away and his labs were normal. With success like that , why on earth would anyone STOP the plan? Someone not too smart. Someone who was tired of the complicated and messy food prep. Someone who got sick and tired of hearing her husband complain. <BR> <BR> So we had our freedom f... Sun, 25 May 2014 13:33:04 EST First Day; New Start I have had it. <BR> This fat girl has had it. <BR> She must GO....move over honey and make way, because I AM COMING THROUGH. <BR> I am going to work on the bike this AM and then get in the shower and go to church. <BR> <BR> Panic just struck at even writing that sentence. <BR> What if I can't breathe? I should definitely do a nebulizer first. <BR> <BR> OH Lord God help me. <BR> I am scared to death. Maybe I should just do some strength exercises. <BR> I am having a panic attack....jus... Sun, 18 May 2014 05:50:55 EST in the dumps Today was what you might call a bust. I've been struggling with depression off and on in the recent past...and it is hAving an effect on my eating. Today I has a smoothie for breakfast..and lunch was homemade soy yogurt with fruits, coconut, and walnuts..Dinner was when things went to pot. I made a big bowl of popcorn with melted butter and salt..This was definitely born out of my mood as I don't even like buttered popcorn! I was feeling like crap and was acting out by having that for dinne... Sat, 17 May 2014 18:38:37 EST A good Lunch Today I had an interesting lunch. I took one of those multi whole grain premade containers --put out by Minute Rice ...they have all kinds of rice and some other grains. I mixed that with a small can of corn and threw in about a half cup of black beans.Sprinkled it with cumin ...shook a few drops of liquid smoke in it and then sprinkled it with cheddar cheese shreds. Then nuked it for 1.5 minutes. It was really really good. Tue, 13 May 2014 18:29:28 EST Survival Today I had an MD appointment and a friend of mine was driving me. I've been wanting a soft serve ice cream cone ever since the Dairy Bar has re-opened for the summer season.So I suggested we stop for one after my appointment. Stop we did and saw a "closed" sign...I guess they don't have many customers in the morning!! So I went into the grocery store and with ice cream still on my mind,I picked up several of those tiny individual serving containers. Thats the only way I can limit my porti... Mon, 12 May 2014 16:05:53 EST One Week Down I'm mortal. <BR> And if I have any doubts about that, all I need to do is to read the food tracker for last night. On my food tracking form I have a category called "OVERNIGHT" is there that I record my greatest slip ups, my worst offenses. In the hours between 9:00 and 1:30 I can single-handedly destroy an entire week of "good behavior"....When I went to bed last night I had 1212 calories under my belt for the day. Spot on. <BR> <BR> Then came 9:00. And it brought with it a NEED for ... Sat, 10 May 2014 07:56:46 EST The Sweet Taste of Victory It has been a week of making the rubber hit the road. Those of you who read my blogs know the mental gymnastics I put myself through....You've read of my self-inflicted pep talks, trying to get myself to stop eating junk and mass quantities...thinking of exercise but never actually doing any. I'm surprised that any of you have continued to read. It has been a full 3 years of regaining all the weight I lost 4 years ago.....and I resisted, tooth and nail, the need to plan menus and track. But ... Thu, 8 May 2014 18:39:32 EST Choices: some Good; Some not -so-good Today I had to scramble a bit to get my calories where I wanted them. Last night I had cup of instant miniwheats and that blew me right out of my calorie range. Then today we had a coffee fellowship after church.I had a quarter of a glazed doughnut and a small square of french toast casserole. I'm not sure how to track those I will have to try. <BR> Then a gentleman friend (my driver for the day) took me to an Italian Restaurant to eat. The calzone was calling my name but thank God I turn... Sun, 4 May 2014 16:40:13 EST Beating the Bullfrog when I'm wheezing, I sound like a dying bullfrog...gasping/croaking. Once I reach that point, the only thing that will help is a nebulizer and a lot of prayer...It takes VERY little to get me to that point. <BR> My goal for today is to be as active as I can be WITHOUT reaching the croaking point. When I start to breathe shallowly, rapid breaths-that's the time I need to back off of what ever it is I am doing....even making lunch or making my bed. <BR> <BR> I did do some exercises this morn... Sat, 3 May 2014 09:57:41 EST Beginning---in the Middle I am a four year veteran of Spark People. In my first year I was guns afire, losing 70 pounds and working out every day. Then came hip replacement surgery.6 dislocated hips and 4 more hip surgeries. Then came several brushes with death due to asthma and massive doses of intravenous steroids. The weight came back....inertia, pain, medicines all took their toll. <BR> <BR> Last year I tried the "EAt to Live" diet and lost 25 pounds....of the seventy five I'd gained. But the recipes were ex... Fri, 2 May 2014 15:27:26 EST It's become OBVIOUS... ...that this weight is not going to go away magically on it's own without any significant effort by me. I know I"m eating too much of the wrong things (and the right things) and my scale knows it too! <BR> <BR> I've said this a million times....I'm sure you have your fingers in your ears singing "LALALALALALA" so you don't have to hear me repeat myself again. <BR> <BR> I think I need to use the predesigned meal plans by Spark People since I'm not getting any where with giving myself "leew... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 12:53:37 EST On she goes.... I weighed myself this morning for the first time in a couple of days. In those days I tried to moderate my eating, do some exercise and continue to drink water. I lost 2 pounds!! This is after a week or two of gaining a pound a day. <BR> <BR> Thank you for the comments and the support over the past week or so. It has meant a lot. I will keep up what I've been doing. I also have a ten day streak of signing in to Spark each day. This is after several months of very sporadic "attendance." ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 06:48:45 EST Ruminations I didn't weigh myself today. Every time I weighed myself in the past week or so, I gained a pound with every weigh in. I am really seeing how fat I am ---feeling heavy and fitting in to only my biggest clothes. But I have been making some positive steps. I have been doing some strength exercises (asthma is acting up so no cardio) and I have been signing in to Spark as well as tracking once again. Tomorrow I'm going to weigh myself. I also should take a "before" picture soon because last t... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 16:09:59 EST Tiny Steps in the Right Direction It's not much, but it beats nothing. <BR> 1) I've logged in 5 days in a row <BR> 2) I've done my PT for my shoulder <BR> 3) I did a seated exercise sequence I found online <BR> 4) I did squats and calf raises <BR> 5) I tracked most of my food yesterday <BR> <BR> I still ate too much at dinner, granted 1/2 of what I ate was salad. <BR> I had one doughnut last night. Just one. But still.... <BR> <BR> So I almost don't want to write this blog in case I jinx myself....but maybe it will hold me ... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 08:40:53 EST A Familiy Needs Your Prayers Igot some good news yesterday evening.The initial reports on Matt's crash were exaggerated.He didn;t fly through the windshield.He climbed through it to get out of the car. Then he passed out face first into the dirt....and he aspirated some of the dirt and that was what was causing the respiratory problems.They put him on the vent I guess to somehow clear out his lungs.And as for his hip....the ball part of the joint broke off.He is having surgery to get a new hip on Monday. All in all the ... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 18:09:02 EST