DEB_T_30's SparkPeople Blog DEB_T_30's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I need a restart button Is there such a tihing? I know there is no easy button for weightloss, but I want a restart button that resets my focus on my weightloss efforts. So I need to refocus my efforts, the last month was hard on me with my daughters first birthday coming and going. It has now been over a year since I held her in my arms for the first and last time, and it still hurts but I need to move foward towards the goal of a healthy pregnancy and a family wih healthy lifestyle. I am not the only one that need... Thu, 24 May 2012 16:41:21 EST Really Tired I am ehausted and I know I need to get some more sleep in order to succeed. I am getting at least 6 to 8 hours of sleep. But today I took a nap a long nap. I took a home preg test but it came back negative. I have only been this tired when I was prego. Why am I so tired? <BR> I have lost a little over 10 lbs so far, on a positive note. And I have a feeling I am going to miss out on my walk tomorrow. Yes I realize there is no excuses but we are going to get a snow storm, yes it spring, but I ... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 21:39:16 EST Lost Focus I admit right now I am losing focus, especially when I am home. I have 4 papers to do for school and I am stressed out with that and work, and everything at home. It is coming up on 11 months since we lost Isabella, and I admit I have been depressed. And with this last 2 weeks being sick it has hit me hard and I went on a eating frenzy. I have not been following my goals. I know I need to stop and refocus my energy. I did get thru the first week of metformin. moving on to the next week at 850... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 17:34:40 EST Starting to feel better...not normal but better I did ok with food today. My focuses for right now water, no sugary sweets (ok i have had one in 3 days) and stopping eating when I am full. Still coughing!!!! I hate this cough. Want to get out and do some walking outside tomorrow I guess I am going to have to wait for the weather report. Wed, 11 Apr 2012 22:03:37 EST Today was good but not feeling better Ate good today I guess. I didn't eat at home at all though went out to celebrate my hubby has gotten a job! I am feeling medicaited which is not a good feeling to me. AntIbiotics, zertec d, and mucinex plus the prilosec and metformin. Ugh the pharmaceutical comPanies must love me. I Hate Being Sick Tue, 10 Apr 2012 19:44:52 EST One step forward and two steps back So in the last few days I have gained 3 pounds, OMG! Ok I do realize this is my fault I ate too much yesterday and I have been drinking alot of soda being sick and all. But I am refocused because I dont wanna go backward, I wanna move foward. <BR> <BR> I have started again taking my Metformin, 500mg at night. Over the next 4 weeks I will gradually increase my dosage. I am also starting to take prilosec again dialy to help with the acid reflux that has only gotten worse as I put the weight o... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 10:29:00 EST Still not feeling well So I am on my 3rd day of antibiotics and with them I am not really hungry but I know it is not good to not eat. Today I sat on my butt and finnished a part of my economics homework. I wanna feel better so I can go out and walk with my hubby without feeling like my lungs are on fire and like I am going to cough out my lungs at the same time. I hate being sick. <BR> I am getting things done in the house and I think I will feel better about taking some time for myself if the house (apartment) i... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 21:23:36 EST Sick So I have a double ear infection. I really thought it was just a sore throat but with strep going around the office I went to have it checked out. Really I am 30 and have a double ear infection. Ugh!!!! <BR> Another thing that is getting me is that I wanna try again but I know I need to get healthy and my hubby needs to get a job first before we try treatments again. But everyone around me is prego or announcing they are expecting around our due date in October. Ugh again. I want a baby ! I r... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 21:58:09 EST Back from Vacation OK so I admit it now I was bad on vacation but I have a plan for the next week. I plan to eat dinner at home every night this week. Today I went to the store and got so chicken breasts (boneless, skinless), tofu, and salmon. I am going to make a menu and stick to it. On our trip we stopped at a mall in PA, and both my husband and I bought some brand new sneakers for us both. I know I need to lose weight to get healthy for my next pregnancy but my husband needs to do the same and I hope this w... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 18:40:15 EST A Glass of Wine OK it was a rough day back to work. But I made it thru. And I was good until I got home, my husband got a cheese danish from the store, I am weak when it comes to pastry and bacon...BLT's for dinner. So tomorrow is a new day and I plan to do better.For now I am watching some TV sipping on a small glass of merlot, while deciding whether or not to do so economics homework? Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:27:50 EST Shopping and Cleaning Today I slept in a little past 9am, this never happens, but I guess I needed it. Went to church after a panera bread breakfast (and yes I ate too much), then off to BJ's. <BR> Two Cases of water, 24 cans of diet coke, 36 cans of diet pepsi (I like both), green tea bags, brown rice, toliet paper, and diswasher soap. I cleaned out the fridge when we got home after lunch, Red Robin I got the grilled chicken apple salad minus the blue cheese (yuck!!!!). I also cleaned a small portion of the kitc... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 17:49:27 EST Starting Over In the last week I have gone back on prilosec (r) for acid reflex, and my I am about to restart the four week start up of metformin for the PCOS. This is the hard part I want to start fresh with my weight loss and moving foward to trying again. I know my weight is contributing to alot of my health issues not only the acid reflex, but infertility, sleep apnea, knee and back pain. I need to get healthy for me and hope that my hubby will do the same and we can work together on this. Sat, 24 Mar 2012 09:33:03 EST