DEBDOLL424's SparkPeople Blog DEBDOLL424's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Little Engine that Could I read the proverb that Sparkpeople posted on Facebook this morning - "Fall seven times. Stand up eight." and I could so relate to it. I have to stand back up again... hard as that is to do. Why is getting healthy so hard for me? I know in my heart that I deserve happiness and health. I know what to do. I know how to eat healthy and how to exercise. I know all the things that being overweight is taking away from me. So why don't I do it? Where is my motivation? I'm so afraid of failing... ag... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 18:12:50 EST Back on track and feeling positive! I feel like I'm getting back on track. Not as completely as I'd like to be but family life has been busy (but wonderful!) and I am still doing Ok with the amount I'm eating! <BR> <BR> We have company coming for the long weekend so that will be a little more challenging. My plan is to have lots of fruits and veggies prepared for easy access and to make sure I have delicious green salads with meals. I'm thinking a strawberry spinach salad for one meal and a low cal caesar salad for another. A... Thu, 17 May 2012 10:01:46 EST "There" and "Longing" I wrote the poem below more than ten years ago when I was going through a tough time after my ex-husband and I separated. It's modeled after a poem I read by Sappho. <BR> <BR> This morning it reminds me that there is no "there". You know the "when I get there... everything will be wonderful". I've gotten "there" many times over the years in regards to different accomplishments in my life and have had many wonderful moments of bliss. <BR> <BR> The last few days I have been struggling with... Tue, 15 May 2012 09:58:31 EST Now that's inspiring! ¢¾ <link><BR>tand-on-his-Own-Does-the-Unthinkable-A<BR>mazing-1476.html </link> <BR> Thu, 10 May 2012 22:13:36 EST Dear diary... I'm soo grateful for another wonderful day. I got up early and did some stretching and strength exercises! I didn't prepare as well for lunch as I would have liked and ended up buying some hummus because I didn't think I had enough protein. It was delicious! I went for a walk with a friend after work and had a nice evening at home. <BR> <BR> I lost 2 lbs this week. I was a bit surprised because I haven't been all that much on the ball with my calorie intake. I can see some small changes bu... Tue, 8 May 2012 23:32:04 EST Weigh day tomorrow.... I got up a half hour early this morning and hit the treadmill for 25 minutes! I haven't done that for a long time. It really does feel good to work up a sweat. I haven't done that for a long time either! <BR> <BR> I went for an hour long walk with a friend this evening.. we didn't work up a sweat but we did enjoy each other's company and we were moving. My body feels a little sore tonight. I hope I didn't overdo it. I've done that before and then didn't feel like exercising the next day be... Mon, 7 May 2012 22:42:36 EST Baby steps.... It's another beautiful morning! It rained a bit last night and it's still a little wet out but the sun is peeking through the clouds every now and then. We moved the treadmill in from the garage to the basement last night... but I think I will go for a walk outside and enjoy the fresh air. I find walking is a good time for me to think, pray, say affirmations, notice nature... depending on what's going on in my life that day. <BR> <BR> I mowed the front and back lawns yesterday and got some o... Sat, 5 May 2012 12:22:53 EST The first change... my thinking! Still learning my way around this site and still feeling a little overwhelmed. I'm not sure where to start on this journey and I haven't made any major changes yet. I've skipped the potatoes and added more veggies, walked a couple of times with a friend and drank a little more water but that's about it. I think I'm afraid that I won't be able to lose weight and get healthy cause this is not my first rodeo as they say. I think I'm getting ready to make the changes though. <BR> <BR> My though... Fri, 4 May 2012 11:30:48 EST The journey begins... again! I've been hemmin and hawin for awhile about getting back on track with my weight.. and my health. I'm so not happy with my weight... but it's my health that is really getting my attention these days. I can honestly say that I don't remember ever being this out of shape.. or this heavy. <BR> <BR> I check my blood pressure pretty regularly and it's climbing higher and higher. That was never a problem for me. I always had energy and loved to clean and get out and do the yard work. Not so much ... Tue, 1 May 2012 23:24:14 EST