DBRUCE2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DBRUCE2 DBRUCE2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4874317 That is soo funny!! i cant seem to count on one hand, how many day 2's i have had! We wont even bring up day 1!! Be that as it may...Today is day 2 and I am glad about it!! Nope, i didnt count calories and drink water all day, buttttt...I have been thinking through my perceptions, Im realizing that yes, this journey is about my outside but i have to handle the outside first. So here I go......Forward march!! <BR> Wed, 9 May 2012 16:53:07 EST It is what it is!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872296 Its amazing to log in and read my past blog entries and realize how they are still a part of my present. Im realizing more and more that not only do I have to make a decision, I have to make choices every second of the day, that will support that decision. A decision is nothing without the actions to follow. So here I am.. I actually have lost 35 poounds since 2011 and I am so proud of myself. However, i am learning that i cant be so busy celebrating past victories that i remain at a stand ... Tue, 8 May 2012 12:45:48 EST hidden in the shadow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3947821 One of my favorite scriptures... He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most high God shall abide under he shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord He is my refuge, my fortress my God in Him will I trust. That sums it up for me. I just refuse to let anything pull me out of this hiding place, this safe place, place of rest. I have a daughter we named Kerrington and I am reminded of the moments when it is raining or windy outside and she buries her head under my neck. I am also... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 14:54:14 EST i'm over it!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3940953 I made a decision...No more can i allow people and i mean noone to affect the way i live my life. I will not allow another persons down day or depressed attitude to stab me like a knife. I realize that when they stab me, they walk away and it leaves me to nurse the wound. I cannot allow myself to stand still and let them injure me when they decide to. In addition to that, i can't allow them to yo yo my emotions when they decide they want to be close and have a consistent relationship, t... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 13:41:43 EST how time flies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3938767 Wow!!!! It has been 1 week since i wrote this blog and amazingly, i can't say that i have conquered those feelings. The one thing i can say is that i refuse to quit. I have battled this weight for far too long. The thing is, i know that i will always have to stay connected to this goal of mine even once i have succeeded, but as for now, i have to gain control. Its one thing to face a battle and be armed and ready, but its another thing to know you have a daily battle and to walk in with ... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 21:21:03 EST searching for the right words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3914154 So i read my journal from a month ago and i realize something. I am good for starting off strong and being encouraged, encouraging others and the whole nine yards. somewhere along the way i find myself sitting by the side of the road wondering, trying to convince myself not to turn around or not to just sit there. i have had alot of struggles in my life, but this weightloss journey has by far been the chief of all struggles. i'm starting to get that it is so much of a burden because it aff... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 13:40:00 EST i did IT!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3832278 SO!!! i AM SO RIDICULOULSLY PROUD OF MYSELF, THAT I'M TYPING IN ALL CAPS!! THIS MORNING I WENT TO QUIKTRIP TO GET MY UNSWEETENED TEA AND A PROTEIN SHAKE BECAUSE I HADN'T HAD BREAKFAST. SO, BEFORE I WENT IN, I TOLD MYSELF, DAPHNE.. NO LONG JOHN DOUGHNUTS, STAY FOCUSED!! THE MINUTE I WALKED IN, I FELT LIKE I WAS THE ONLY ONE IN THE STORE AND THE DOUGHNUTS HAD A SHINING LIGHT, AND MY NAME FLASHING IN LIGHTS!!!! I WALKED OVER TO THEM AND SAID, OH, I'LL JUST GET THE DOUGHNUT HOLES BECUZ THEY ONLY... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 13:59:18 EST A Brand New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3827629 Well.. Its monday morning and i feel pretty good. I didn't get totally out of control this weekend and i'm finally feeling a lot more like myself. I worked out 4 days last week and i'm shooting for 5 this week. I' m starting to feel better already and i can't wait till i can see all the hardwork. So needless to say i am still moving forward!! It's my choice!!!! Mon, 6 Dec 2010 13:06:28 EST yep...moving forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3821870 so today is day 5 and its been a pretty good week. I forced myself to do what i promised me, as much as i do what i promise others. i worked out 4 days this week and it wasn't easy but i did! Wait.. yesterday was a doooozy!!! Everything that could have happened before my step class happened and i still pressed my way there! NO, here we go... I got to Ballys and the room where it would be was dark! No Vic, no class!!! Can u believe it? I felt the air go out of my ballon especially becaus... Fri, 3 Dec 2010 13:47:04 EST funny how time just keeps on going! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3820137 Well hey there! It has been almost 2 years since i last blogged and I just started coming back to the site this week. I know, i sound like the teacher on Charlie Brown!! The point is I'm here and i'm going to give it all I have to stay. This is one battle that is just that, a battle. I vow to find the source of that thing that causes me to start over tomorrow, everyday...so i will blog about todays event tomorrow because I'm going to my step class.. Not really feeling it but it doesn't rea... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 18:44:53 EST Been gone 2 long!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=978077 Hey there everybody! It has been 9 days since my last entry and that is just not o.k. I really have to do this because I promised myself I would!!! Well, we have finished the fast at my church and now I have made up in my mind to keep it going. It truly caused me to have to discipline myself, and that is something I really needed. So, I'm headed straight ahead and prayerfully so are you. Be encourage and don't you quit!!! Fri, 1 Feb 2008 14:53:34 EST Never give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=949925 Well, I haven't written in the last couple of days and I have decided that I am not ok with that. Writing in my blog has proven to be quite therapeutic. I guess more than anything, its making me be accountable to myself. I just had a pretty ugly situation happen and as the tears stream down my face, I absolutely refuse to turn to food. I will pass this test and stay in control, by turning to the one who loves me so completely, my Father God. I can do all things through Him because He is ... Tue, 22 Jan 2008 18:29:15 EST One of those days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=937711 Well, when I looked at my blog entries and realized I hadn't written in 2 days, I felt kinda down because I promised I would write daily. At first when I started this whole thing, I wrote because I was so excited about it all. I was so excited to meet new people who understood this struggle, and to be able to encourage each other. Needless to say, I have bumped up on a day when I am trusting the Lord for His grace to help me with it all. When I say it all, I mean it all. Usually when ... Fri, 18 Jan 2008 12:37:25 EST Gotta keep going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=928723 Well, today has been a pretty good day. I am extremely proud of myself because I did my firm cardio sculpt at 10:30 last night! That was huge for me. So today, I left home with intentions of going home for lunch and of course, didn't make it. I work at my family restaurant, surrounded by barbeque and homestyle cooking. I said that to say I had some french fries and potato salad at lunch. Don't even wonder how many calories that ended up being!! So now I have to stick to salad for dinne... Tue, 15 Jan 2008 18:28:09 EST Today is almost over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=926123 Well today is almost over! It wasn't a horrible first day, but it was definitely challenging. The good news is tomorrow will be here in just couple of hours. I'm grateful. I have made my mind up to make it real from my heart. A change of lifestyle to make my life so much better and me, stronger!!! Tomorrow, we conquer!! Mon, 14 Jan 2008 23:21:16 EST