DAWNRHARV's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DAWNRHARV DAWNRHARV's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Today I had to say goodbye.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551082 This morning, at 5:15 a.m., my Mark was released from all the pain and suffering of this world into the loving arms of Jesus. His passing was a beautiful moment that I will cherish always. I find great comfort knowing that he knew how deeply he was loved, He is at peace and we are thankful for every moment we had with him. Godspeed, my love.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1681498389.jpg"> Tue, 26 Nov 2013 22:36:41 EST and here we go again.... :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537162 I am trying to find the gratitudes in this..... but won't even try to pretend... it is not easy.... <BR> <BR> Mark had an oncology appointment this past Thursday. She took one look at his chest, got on the phone, made the earliest possible appointment for him with the radiation oncologist. She said twice... I've not seen this in a long long time. Friday we saw the radiation oncologist. He was not our usual radiation oncologist, who tended to say we need to this, then looked at Mark wit... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 09:03:32 EST I've fallen and I can't get up!!! ACK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529210 SO.... October is behind us... and it was a tough month... quite possibly the toughest one yet... <BR> <BR> We finished radiation, but the burns he experienced after this round were just horrific. We've gone thru tubs of silvadene trying to give him some relief... the pain was excruciating. We had to change dressings up to 5 and 6 times a day for over a week. Finally they are healing and he's much more comfortable, although he's got a mess of lumps and angry purple red color on his chest ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 11:43:26 EST Round two of radiation is DONE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511362 Well it's been awhile since I posted on this blog. <BR> <BR> This past week has been nothing short of crazy. It's showing and it's affecting my schedule! ACK! Mark started showing signs of serious skin breakdown about a week or so ago. They had extended the radiation for an extra 8 days to try to be sure they shrunk the mass as much as possible. In the meantime, my days got busier as we went from lotion on the redness to doneboro soaks and silvadine to try to help him get thru the 2nd ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 08:42:28 EST Five Days Later..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491302 Well I started at the new Curves location on Monday. I made it every single day this week! YAY! I don't know if tomorrow morning will work yet or not, but time will tell. I just know I feel GOOD. =) Scale is moving again and I'm looking forward to Monday and a good weigh in then. YAY! <BR> <BR> Storms yesterday afternoon knocked out power and we sat here in the dark for 16 hours. Finally came back on this morning at 8:30. I don't think I can possibly get yesterday's food in there beca... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 16:27:29 EST So much on my mind...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488795 Well I DID IT! =) <BR> <BR> I emailed Jenny @ my previous (see that *previous*) ;) Curves location and told her that due to circumstances I need to transfer and wanted to let her know first. Linda (her manager) called me later that morning and offered to have someone come in when I wanted to go work out. I politely declined, knowing that it just wouldn't work as I wouldn't even know I could go til I was heading out the door, not to mention the fact that I couldn't live with the guilt of... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 23:19:35 EST Long week.... gotta get some things figured out here.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485110 Well it's Saturday and I've been to curves exactly ZERO times this week. That is NOT good. Knowing it would be a challenge with things changing at home, I took the initiative and broke out some old Richard Simmons DVD's and am doing them several time a week. (I think today will make 4 times.) I'm doing the short ones... 30 minutes blast off. Maybe it's me, but they seem pretty intense about in the middle of them. Good news is that although my knees feel a little tender, I am able to modi... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 06:04:07 EST Running running running.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468679 But not like.... *running* running. =) Not yet anyway.... <BR> <BR> Yesterday started the pallative radiation. When signing the release of information to get the PET scan report for the chiropractor, they decided to let us carry a copy out. Means I got to see the report myself for the first time. Yikes. More than I realized.... cancer spot in right lung (this is new) spots in the left lung (where his previous cancer was, although previous tumor is not there anymore)... in his collarbon... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 08:57:40 EST Round Two starts on Tuesday.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465654 Wow.... they'll be starting him on round two of radiation on Tuesday. This will be to hopefully shrink the larger problem at this time that is sitting on a nerve and in the bone. That should relieve some of the pain, also should give him back some of the use of his left arm. At this time he can barely open and close his hand and needs help with little things like buttoning buttons. So I am sitting here trying to figure out a new grocery list. This is SO close to his esophagus that I'll... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 11:13:22 EST overwhelmed? nahhhhh.... what's that? =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463248 WOW. <BR> <BR> First.... saw oncologist. Had MRI this morning. The oncologist changed the MRI to be of his brain rather than his shoulder. Want to be sure no cancer cells decided to take up residence there... Another long wait for results.... In the meantime, still waiting to hear from radiation for a start date. Figuring it will be next week, but you never know. Tomorrow we have another appointment up there with pallative care team. They have an agenda. <BR> <BR> 1. To see what ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 15:58:25 EST and we got the call..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461203 Thankfully Mark was sleeping so I was able to have a very frank discussion with the radiation oncologist. The cancer is showing up in his lymph nodes and in the collar bone, if I understood him right. They still want the MRI done on Thursday for whatever reason. R.O. (Radiation Oncologist) will spend today and tomorrow mapping the treatment area, and they will call to get it started either later this week or early next. They will need to do it every day. They are treating to give him the... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 16:31:03 EST It's been awhile.... =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5460694 Good morning and HAPPY TUESDAY! =) <BR> <BR> It's been awhile since my last blog... so here's an update of what's been going on in my world.... =) <BR> <BR> Well I got done with summer classes. Thank goodness! I so needed the break. I was happy to find I'd finished both classes with over 100%. YAY! The sad thing is that fall classes start in like TWO days!!! YIKES! Right now I'm signed up for two classes, (I've already dropped one from the planned classes, and may end up dropping more.... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 07:29:13 EST and what to my wondering eyes should appear????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429866 This little guy hopped out of my garage while we were sitting on the back patio... I snuck around the garage to take a picture. =) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1303248551.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Then as I was sitting on the back patio talking on the phone to my daughter, I looked up and in the neighbor's backyard I see this deer. =) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l355722835.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's been a good day today.... #lifeisgood <BR> ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 21:20:08 EST Just another manic Monday..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429212 Good morning and HAPPY MONDAY!!!! =) <BR> <BR> For those on my SS BLC team, this might be repetitive. Sorry! =) <BR> <BR> The last several weeks have just been INSANE at my house. Between Curves, appointments and school, I feel like I don't have enough hours in my days (and nights.) Well Friday wrapped up the last of 10 appointments, hoping for no more scheduled for the next few days. (fingers crossed) <BR> <BR> I've not been to Curves since last Thursday,... after doing it 6 days a we... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 10:16:28 EST not much to say today..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417297 Woke up with a headache and fought it most of the day. <BR> <BR> Got to curves and did my workout. Got home. Shower and ready for appointments. Good breakfast. Got Mark to VA for labs, then oncologist. Went well. Platelets down to 41,000 today.... wbc at 2800. They didn't check ammonia. Appt went well, will see her again on Sept 4th. Got home and both of us slept for a few hours. Woke up my head was a little better, but I swear I was hungry. I don't know that I've FELT hungry li... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 23:12:57 EST What a day...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416167 I was really happy with myself last night for going to bed by 9:30.... tonight it's not quite working out that way... it's been a LONG day with some real challenges!!!! =) <BR> <BR> SO.... I got up, got my coffee, got to curves, got home, got breakfast and started my homework. THEN... Mark had his dental appointment at 1:30 to look at the abcess and see what they should do. Well by the time I figured they would have x-rays done and discussed, he comes walking out.... no, they weren't just ... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 00:19:49 EST Do something today..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415192 This is my first attempt at loading a picture in a blog... I saw this on my FB feed adn had to share it with ya'll.... =) <BR> <BR> Sparkle On, my beautiful friends!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1887501963.jpg"> Tue, 9 Jul 2013 07:32:13 EST and it's a MAHHHHHHHvalous MONDAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414363 GOOD MORNING ALL YOU BEAUTIFUL SPARKPEOPLE!!!! =) <BR> <BR> Today I woke up feeling good,... strong.... got my butt dressed and got to Curves by 7:25 and got it done. =) Got home and showered and now thinking about what I can do today. I need to work on my accounting, but it gets SO hot here on the porch and today we are looking at heat index in the 100's. ugh. Then storms are supposed to roll in today or tomorrow, and by Wednesday,.... high's in the low 80's. =) LOVE that kind of wea... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 12:44:43 EST I love you beautiful people... =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413700 Today is a better day. I got focused and finished most of my business math. Just have two discussion responses, but can't do them til other student post some discussion. =) Really hoping I pulled an A in that class... we'll see. I didn't get ANY exercise in today, in fact, lately it seems the norm I forget to put on my step tracker thingy. Gonna have to get back on that tomorrow first thing. <BR> <BR> Food is spot on. Exercise this week was pretty good considering the holiday and every... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 22:28:43 EST There's no denying it.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412842 It's been a rough day.... not sure what is going on... maybe this is full blow pms or something... but I just feel BLAH. Trying to talk myself into anything else, but it's not happening right now. Hoping that a good night's sleep and sunshine in the morning will help, but right now I just need to keep reminding myself that I am doing what is necessary to take care of me. <BR> <BR> Things with Mark are ok.... he got his Rifaxamin in the mail today and started taking it. Expecting a coup... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 23:52:53 EST Freedom..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410809 nope, it was not free. So many fought and gave their very lives for our freedom. The men who founded our country believed in so much. There strength ran so deep. Today I am so thankful for that freedom. Even though I'm frustrated with the political atmosphere today, even though I'd love to see a bit more *Mayberry*... it could just be that those days are gone. So I do what I can to create a little bit of it in my world. Slow down and smell the roses... and the coffee... =) <BR> <BR>... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 16:56:07 EST I'm TOO OLD for rollercoasters..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409063 Ever have one of those days? Yeah, the kind that is so high up, then so low down, but finally levels off at the end. (THANK GOODNESS)... omg, I NEVER liked rollercoasters. Not even as a kid. They just make my stomach turn. The ONLY thing worse is that big ship thing that you get on to ride and it swings way up and down back and forth. Yup, that is definately worse. But a rollercoaster... the high is so high it's scary. But then it's that trip down.... your stomach is fighting for spa... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 22:33:22 EST Well I won't back down.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407646 It's official, I lost weight in June... =) hehe. This morning, (being July 1st) was the official weigh in, which btw, totally kept me on track yesterday. =) There were NO extras. SO...... <BR> Drumroll please...... <BR> June 1st..... 354 <BR> July 1st...... 330.7 <BR> Total Loss: 23.3lbs gone!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! <BR> <BR> I didn't feel so hot this morning and ended up going back to bed. But got up, had a protein bar, and off I went to Curves. Worked my tail off. =) Feeling like jello, b... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 16:03:21 EST Almost giddy...... =D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406106 So it's June 30th. The end of the month. 30 days after I swore something was going to change... well..... something did. =) <BR> <BR> I did my usual hop on the scale thing this morning, really looking forward to seeing SOMETHING.... just not sure what. Correction.... sure what.... a definately change from June 1st. <BR> <BR> June for me has been a month of hard work, dedication, challenges and successes. Yup, there have been some failures in there as well. =) But today marks the 3... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 08:26:21 EST the stretching of the shirt ritual..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405806 Ok... so some girls (ME) who like to wear teeshirts who have plenty of *fluff* in their top and midsection..... well... we have a ritual... (please tell me I'm not a freak doing this alone...) hehe..... <BR> <BR> get up.... go to put the shirt on.... freshly washed..... and now for the ritual.... the *stretching of the shirt....*.... I have not ever been one for tight clothes.. not even when I would have looked really really good in them... (that was like.... many many morethanIcancount moo... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 21:26:38 EST It's my choice...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404966 Choices.... we make them every day.... do I get up? do I make coffee? do I take my vitamins? do I eat breakfast? what sounds good..... huh? What SOUNDS good? =) Lately I've stuck to my staple breakfast... kashi, milk with fruit on it, either bananas or strawberries... great protein, great way to start the day.... once in awhile for a swap up I'll have mushrooms, onions sauteed with a couple eggs. I only did the one egg two egg whites twice... after that.. forget it. I'm just doing two... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 21:20:37 EST Reflecting....... =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403202 So yesterday going up to the VA was all about Mark and trying to get him as well as we can....but in the midst of it there was an interesting conversation I had with Cindy, our pallative care nurse. (LOVE those ladies in pallative care.....) She asked me.... so how are YOU doing? (and you can tell with her... she meant it....) It was SO GOOD to be able to tell her, ya know... I'm going to school, going to curves, trying to do some things for me...... and hear her tell me what a great job!... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 07:48:01 EST Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what a day..... =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403043 So... I went to bed early last night... like 9:30 or something.. and.... I was up at 3:30. It actually was perfect. Got my vitamins, coffee, had breakfast, all while working on this chapter in accounting that I am trying SO HARD to get done. Worked on it til about 7:30, then went back to bed. =) Got up again about 10:30, enough time to have a snack, get both Mark and I ready, then off to the VA we went. The meeting with the hepatology p.a. was GOOD. She was in no hurry, she thoroughly w... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 00:15:03 EST When you cry be sure to dry your eyes....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401811 'Cause better days are sure to come <BR> And when you smile be sure to smile wide <BR> Don't let them know that they have won <BR> And when you walk, walk with pride <BR> Don't show the hurt inside <BR> Because the pain will soon be gone <BR> <BR> And when you dream, dream big <BR> As big as the ocean blue <BR> 'Cause when you dream it might come true <BR> When you dream, dream big <BR> ~ from Dream Big by Ryan Schupe <BR> <BR> What a day it's been..... I feel GOOD. =) Despite the chaos ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 21:54:52 EST Cause when push comes to shove... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400827 You taste what you're made of <BR> You might bend, till you break <BR> Cause its all you can take <BR> On your knees you look up <BR> Decide you've had enough <BR> You get mad you get strong <BR> Wipe your hands shake it off <BR> Then you Stand..... <BR> <BR> OK... realism here... my BLC team had a really tough weigh in this week. Let's shake it off, let's move on.... =) <BR> <BR> Today was just an odd day for me... I just have been off all day. I went to Curves BEFORE breakfast, j... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 00:09:49 EST And then there were...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399720 CRAMPS.... OH SWEET JESUS THERE WERE CRAMPS!!!!...... <BR> <BR> I've taken a hot bath..... I've tried rubbing it out. Right now it's not so bad, just tender... but I was just sitting in the recliner, icing my knee, (other knee, thank goodness) and suddenly my calf just seized up on me. HOLY TOLEDO BATMAN. I have not had that happen in YEARS and YEARS. I forgot how much it HURTS!!! I got up and stood on it, I wimpered and cried and tried to rub it out, moaned and groaned and managed to ... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 00:28:09 EST Hot town, summer in the city...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398718 back of my neck gettin' dirty and gritty.... <BR> been down, isn't it a pity <BR> doesn't seem to be a shadow in the city..... <BR> <BR> THAT is how it feels in central Iowa... oh my goodness it was HOT out today. I mean.. WAY too hot. <BR> <BR> Went to curves early, got it done, 2 rounds and stretching. Came home and did a 10 minute zumba for my mini challenge for my BLC team. (GO SUNSET SPARKLERS!!!) <BR> <BR> Not much to say tonight... except I'm ready for FALL. absolutely. WOW.... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 23:43:42 EST Gratitudes....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397877 I won't lie... it's been a tough couple of days dealing with this knee. Today when I went to curves, I only did 2 rounds instead of the planned 3. Gratitude... 2 rounds is what's expected... and I did that. =) Tomorrow I can try for 3, if my knee isn't having so much pain. <BR> <BR> But to get to some huge gratitudes that happened today.... <BR> <BR> Mark finally got on disability last summer, after 2 years and a few denials we ended up before an administrative judge... approved. =) The... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 00:01:55 EST Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396553 Changes??? Not many of us like changes. They challenge us. They move us out of our comfort zone. Sometimes they push us to places we didn't want to go... but... it's inevitable, life will continue to change. <BR> <BR> I feel like I've made HUGE changes in the past couple of weeks. Since June 1st I've been driven, focused, and worked hard to try to create the changes I want to see in my life. I've almost gotten into a routine of it, although I do need to make school more of a priority a... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 17:45:41 EST you live and you learn.... or something like that..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395665 So..... it's been a great day. I've gotten so much done. =) Nearly the whole next chapter in accounting, went to curves and did the 3x around thing, took an hour to just rest in the recliner while I iced my knee... yup... good day. <BR> <BR> Tonight... Mark realized it's Wednesday and that means free pie at Village Inn. =) Yesterday was his brother's birthday, so we called and Doug and Dawn, (brother and wife... there are TWO dawn harvey's... scary??? YES!!!) haha, Doug and Dawn met us ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 21:32:54 EST Here we go round the mulberry bush..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393575 I always feel like singing that song when we go to the VA. =) But I don't.. just in my head. REALLY LOUD in my head.... =) <BR> <BR> ANYWAY... had his appointment this morning, first ENT, they cleaned out his ear, gave him meds, and sent him on his merry way. So he won't be getting the rebuilt anytime soon... (He's a paratrooper and has damage to his inner ear/ear drum from jumping). On to labs, then x-ray, then the big appointment with his oncologist, Dr. Alexander. She is amazing. Aw... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 15:08:53 EST Third times a charm.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392336 Well hello my sparkfriends and HAPPY MONDAY!!! <BR> <BR> You know Monday at my house is *official* scale day. And today my scale was GOOD to me. Down a solid 5 lbs. YAY! I'll take it! All the hard work is paying off and the loss just drives me to want MORE!!!! <BR> <BR> SO.... off to curves for my coaching. That went well. Then onto the circuit... and around and around and around I went.... Not just once, and not just twice... but THREE times!!! WOOHOO!!! Thank you, thank you, I... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 17:39:41 EST I will NOT be derailed today.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390688 thoughts on father's day...... <BR> <BR> This is for anyone who may understand this post..... <BR> <BR> So today is father's day. Obviously, I was born to a mom and a dad. My dad has been married to my mom for 50+ years now. They had 5 kids, I was number 2. Boy, me, girl, boy, boy. (Last boy came along about 20 years after the rest of us). Well it's safe to say I was NEVER daddy's little girl. Wanted to be. But never was. My dad was/is a very angry man with quite a temper. I suppo... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 10:22:11 EST I just got a red warning.. hahaha! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389964 Oh my goodness.... I was just entering my fitness for today... went to curves, did a 40 minute workout there. (I didn't follow the *move to the next machine*, but worked at doing a number of reps at each one. Also, wasn't killing it for time today, was trying to use good form, get good range of motion, and reps.) ANYWAY.... then did my 10 minute stretch... so I just put them in my fitness tracker and I got a red warning. <em>40</em> HAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA.... If you would have told me thi... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 12:46:01 EST tears of gratitude...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389280 I am SO thankful for the nurse and doctor we saw today. The nurse spent nearly a half hour with us, talking and going back thru previous records here AND at the KC VA. Then into see the doctor who actually had a GREAT deal of knowledge regarding liver disease and did not even HESITATE to refer Mark to a hepatologist. I don't know which one or where yet, they will call us with referral and appointment. I'm just so glad we FINALLY have an appointment. He was also VERY patient with Mark exp... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 16:47:09 EST and it caught up with me.... blech.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388962 I woke up today, felt ok, I suppose, but each minute that goes by, I feel worse. I know this feeling, I've experienced it for decades now.... comes for a couple days and then fades away for another month..... blah. (sorry, if that was TMI)... <BR> <BR> I'm glad it's an off day for curves... not sure if I'll try to get a circuit workout there later or not... depends on how I feel. Right now I want the recliner, the heating pad, and french silk pie... <em>40</em> (kidding... on the F... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 11:09:51 EST Pressing on.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387836 I LOVE how I feel in the morning when the previous days good choices show up on the scale, show up in the way my body feels, and drives me to make good choices today. <BR> <BR> BLOWS my mind how these things I've been resisting for such a long time make me feel SO much better, in balanced combination, and done with little successes over a period of time. <BR> <BR> Today I have already planned my food and put it in my nutrition tracker, making adjustments for my nutrition goals. I've got ... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 09:40:50 EST Another day, another dollah.... or not. ;) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386745 I woke up today feeling FANTASTIC!!! =) My knees had twinges, but no real pain, I have energy, I feel so positive about LIFE right now.... <BR> <BR> I find it so amazing that such little successes can inspire me SO MUCH. Today is my off day for Curves Circuit... but I'm seriously thinking I might go do it anyway, just not 100%, to give myself a bit of a rest, but also to get my heart up and stay there for awhile... that works alot better there than it does walking. <BR> <BR> Got a cou... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 09:42:26 EST Multi-tasking.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386219 So that is what I'm doing right at this moment. =) (that's going to be my excuse for feeling scattered tonight.) ;) just pulled the sweet taters off the stove, (having them cut up in chunks for dinner. About to pull the chicken breast and zucchini and summer squash off the grill. Then dinner will be done as well as food for tonight. I'm growing accustomed to having it planned. No surprises. No last minute choices. This week I am on plan. (It's their week one thing and it's supposed t... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 20:16:10 EST So I didn't pass out doing my first Curves Circuit training!! YAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384808 What a day it has been. I feel like I've been busy and running since my feet hit the floor the 2nd time at 6:30. Was up at 2:30 but made myself go back to bed. (not long ago I'd have stayed up and used the quiet time to get some homework done... ) Well. I did get up, did the coffee, catch up a bit on here thing. Then got my menu for the week printed, as well as grocery list and I was off to the store, pedometer secure on my shirt collar! Had to stop at 2 stores AND the gas station, but g... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:37:46 EST Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love ya, TOMORROW!!!! =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383856 So this past week has gone SO very well. Better than I ever could have imagined. And it's crazy how one success builds on another and by setting attainable short term goals I feel SUCCESSFUL although I'm saving the number thing (weigh in) for TOMORROW.... <BR> <BR> SPEAKING OF TOMORROW!!!! =) Tomorrow begins another week... I go in at noon for my appointment at Curves, and I plan to do the circuit while I'm there. I also am on the team SUNSET SPARKLERS for the BLC that begins TOMORROW as... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 22:12:23 EST Curves...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382267 Sooooo.... yesterday I went and checked out curves. With the right feeling about everything, I was prepared to write a check and join. As the lady explained things to me, I got a wee bit uncomfortable... a bit with the program, but more with her... I kept telling myself to listen with an open mind. <BR> <BR> They have 3 choices where I went. <BR> 1. Join like a gym, unlimited access when they are open, no coach, $35.00/month (approx.) <BR> 2. Join with a 3 month commitment for their *n... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 09:50:30 EST a very sobering thought...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381710 I did go check out Curves. I want to check out the other location before I make a decision..... <BR> <BR> Got home, ate too much for late lunch, (need to start eating on TIME.) But am still well within where I'm supposed to be this time of day. BUT.... <BR> <BR> Got online to track my food and I got a message from a couple friends to let me know a mutual friend lost her mom today. <BR> <BR> Last year at this time, I was preparing to move to Iowa, from Kansas, to take care of Mark, my e... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 17:25:04 EST You people are something else...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381561 So this month I'm ON IT. I'm drinking my water. I'm tracking my food. I'm blogging. WAIT! Blogging? yup, sure nuff. But I have to tell you, after my little mall walk yesterday, then my rambling blog regarding that walk, I went and read some of your responses.... <BR> First..... I <em>41</em> <BR> Then...... I <em>30</em> <BR> And THEN..... I <em>100</em> <BR> but before I was done.... I <em>246</em> .... in a good way, of course. <BR> <BR> =) <BR> I was inspired b... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 14:14:41 EST Mall Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380602 So this morning I was up early again. I got my coffee going, got the laundry going, got some homework going, did some of my sparkpeople stuff, went to the laundrymat to wash comforters off the beds. Also unloaded dishwasher and got some more stuff cleaned in the kitchen. When Mark got up, he was ready to go to the mall, he said he would drink coffee and I could walk the mall. (They have it set up with markers every 1/8th mile for mall walkers.) So I was like.. ok, I'll give this a try. ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 17:40:21 EST