DAWNMARIES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DAWNMARIES DAWNMARIES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What is that in my hand? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112895 I got home from work today and began to unwind. The couch was calling and a few minutes of tv before taking my daughter off to vocal lessons. After about 20 minutes of relaxing I am surprised and amazed to find a Dorito in my hand and a bowl of salsa What the heck? Where did that come from? Did I just eat half the bag? No, only a third of the bag. <BR> <BR> So, this is how I reach 1900 calories in one day. I thought it was impossible when calories are being counted. Oh, I get it, yo... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 20:32:46 EST Figuring this Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4860046 So, this has not been such a success. I had been successful following spark and recording activity in the past, but that is not the case now. However, I think I may have figured out what may work for me. <BR> <BR> I am so very tired when I am done with work. It is so easy to stop at the local fast food joint and consider dinner done. It does not produce results. I knew I had to change things. <BR> <BR> I am a recipe horder. I love recipes. I have them on line, in cook books, on my ki... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 20:49:15 EST There'll be Days Like This. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4680624 My momma said, momma said. There'll be days like this. There'll be days like this, my momma said. <BR> <BR> I am singin' this tune to remind myself that getting down on myself for bad days is not the solution. There will be days like this and I will still persevere. <BR> <BR> This week has not been good. I am finding sleep more important that exercising. Headaches have been visiting, only to have me reach for fastfood to feed myself and daughter. Home after work, exhaustion wins the ... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 17:12:29 EST Denial - the iron curtain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4666011 Yesterday was not a good day as far as calories go. I admittedly ate more pizza than I should have. I went into it knowing that was going to happen. Every Chritmas Eve a friend and I get the families together and make pizzas. This year it was put off until yesterday. Now, that is over. However, I did not want to log it on my daily nutritional log. If I don't log it, it didn't happen, I don't have to face it. If I never admit it happened, it never did. I overcame my denial and logged ... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 11:40:55 EST Remain calm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4658899 Expecting quick results and instantaneous reward is unrealistic. To be successful, you must be realistic. You cannot expect quick results and to maintain what has been achieved. Go at your goal with calm and reality. I have to remember this. I want instant gratification. I want to post that success picture and say eat your heart out to those who would snide me because of my weight. But, be realistic. This will happen, but later. <BR> Following the calender, set a time line today. I... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 08:16:27 EST Second Starts are Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4653401 Sometimes it is humbling to say you want to start over. This might indicate that you have failed, that you were unable to achieve a goal that you, yourself had set. It is letting everyone know that you are fallable and vulnerable. Noone wants to shout out that they have not been able to succeed. So, we might bow our heads, turn away, and mumble that we are going to start over, in hopes that noone notices. <BR> <BR> Starting over is a good thing! I will shout it from the roof tops! I am... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 08:19:34 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4649476 I have planned to start over tomorrow. This will be the same time I did last year and had great success. I am promising myself that I am going to go at this full throttle and let nothing in my way just as I did for 5 months last year. However, this year, there will be no stopping me. <BR> <BR> I am going to use the SP world as my accountability. I am going to try to blog every day with my successes or pitfalls and have no shame where I normally would. I am going to have a different pers... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 20:31:35 EST Aerobic step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4639773 So, for Christmas I received the gift I requested, an aerobic step. Yes, I am very happy and excited to add some variety to the blah workout I have. I have sworn myself to stay away from gym memberships as historically it has been a financial waste. I tend to actually excercise more if I am at home. <BR> <BR> So, I wake up this morning with the intent to workout on my aerobic step for 60 min. Disclaimer: I have not worked out since the end of May. I am sincere in my intent. I get th... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 09:15:09 EST Selections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4392782 Today was a day where my job takes me to my car. That being the case I have to brown bag lunch or eat out. More economical in every regard is brown bagging it. Remember, I am in my car, so no microwave available. <BR> <BR> So, trying to come up with a portable lunch and snack that are both high in protein and low in calories was a bit of a chore. With what I had available I ended up with half a peanut butter sandwich for a snack and a chicken sandwich for lunch. Nothing else. I shoul... Thu, 28 Jul 2011 20:16:07 EST Protein is up, feelin' good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4390646 So, I know it's only been two days since I started my weekly goal of attaining my protein goal. Yes, yesterday I did go over my calories, by about 100, but I hit my protein goal. <BR> <BR> Today, I have had so much protein, but with good protein sources. Because of this, I am within my caloric budget!! This is so great! I am always famished when I am at work. By the time lunch comes around I feel exhausted and irritable. Nope, not today. I was completely satiated. <BR> <BR> I will ... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 21:01:36 EST Time is flying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4387900 This summer is flying by!! Every day I promise myself I am going to blog and I get too busy. The next thing I know, the day is a week and then weeks. Yep, in MN summer is super short and you savor every minute of it. <BR> <BR> I have joined a weight loss challenge. As a result I found that I am hurting myself. I have managed to convince myself that my scale is off and if I just keep zeroing it, I will eventually get the right result. The right result being that I have lost weight. So,... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 16:32:45 EST So, Here it is. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4326826 Wow, it is amazing how easy it is to fall into old habits. A couple weeks ago I went on vacation and wallowed in my old ways and enjoyed every minute of it. I promised myself this would be it. I would remain focused and get back on the horse. Nope. <BR> <BR> Yep, up a lot of extra weight I am on a fast track to where I was in January. What the heck????!!!!! <BR> <BR> I am true now. This is going to happen and here is why. <BR> <BR> Went to the docotor for my annual physical. Doctor ... Mon, 27 Jun 2011 20:54:17 EST Promises, promises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4318728 Sure, I had promised myself that I was going to get back on the horse and stay focused. It was only that mindset that had gotten me the results I do have. So, it must be that same determination and focus that can get me back on that same raod. <BR> <BR> I took a week off for vacation. I spent time at the family cabin with the family. It was a blast, but I also took a vacation from the promises I had previously made myself. I did start reading the Spark during vacation. I guess I could ... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 20:42:47 EST Lost My Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4288550 So, I literally lost my goals. I finally got the Spark book!! And reading it last night I realized that I have forgotten one of the most important concepts with SP. That's goals. I have forgotten small goals and have begun obsessing on the big goal, my goal weight. <BR> <BR> I want to put some thought into this. I want to make sure I have small goals that will benefit my ultimate goal and also ones that will become second nature. <BR> <BR> The idea of smaller goals makes complete ... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 19:22:26 EST Exercise on the schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4286457 Today I did not make time for exercise in my schedule. I work 6 days a week. Three of which I work 5:30am to 4pm. So, I am in bed at 8pm every night. That being said, I have always been able to make time for exercise. Most often, I wake up early to do it. I know when I get home, I will not find the time. Recently, however, I have not been able to wake up. I am not sure why I am tired lately. I may be sleeping so well that I don't want to wake up. I want to keep enjoying it. <BR> ... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 21:03:30 EST Managing Lunch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4277431 I didn't blog yesterday and wish I would have. I didn't journal either. Already I have forgotten what it was that happened yesterday. At least with the tracker tools, I am able to recall my eating and exercise that I tracked. Thankfully it appears to have been a successful day. <BR> <BR> Today I had to work. I would love to get a group going that has to eat bag lunches for work. I am a per diem home health RN. When I am doing that I am working out of my car. For lunch I have 3 choice... Sat, 4 Jun 2011 21:23:59 EST Honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273523 Ok, so it's time to face the music. I have returned to some old habits. This is a direct result of the plateau I have been sitting at for 8 weeks now. I am so absolutely frustrated that I show horrible signs of giving up. I am eating horribly, not logging all of my intake and trying to lie to myself about my calories. I am not exercising every day like I used to. And, I have not been on SP like I used to. <BR> <BR> I've decided to make a committment to myself. I will start over. I ... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 21:16:19 EST Stuck! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4218875 So, ever since my last entry, I have not lost nor gained anything. However, I have gained inches. I am at a stalemate. I have lost my momentom. I should really be going full speed ahead. I have co-workers now following SP. You would think having them with me would really motivate me. It has done nothing for me. <BR> <BR> I was on such a good run!! I was losing weight at the approriate rate, but now, for over a month I have no changes. That night of letting loose, really screwed me u... Sun, 8 May 2011 20:34:39 EST Re-do!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4119156 So, here it is. I took 1 week off of work (all 3 jobs) because my daughter had spring break. I was doing just fine with maintaining my good habits I had acquired while using SP the past 2 1/2 months. That is, I was doing fine until Thursday. Thursday came and it all went out the window. I know that it does not mean that I have failed or that I cannot get back to where I was. I am just frustrated with myself because I was on such a nice ride! My momentum was at a good clip and now, I am... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 08:38:09 EST Poor weather spring break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110841 This is a fantastically dreary week, here in MN. I think the sun might pop out sometime later this week. But this makes for a dreary spring break. Yet, this has given me time to stay in my house and get things done. <BR> <BR> So far, my daughter and I have succeeding in cleaning our bedrooms and tackling the kitchen. The kitchen is gorgeaous!! I am so happy to have completed that! I was able to eliminate clutter on my counter tops. Boy, does that make cooking much easier and the kitch... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 19:10:48 EST 20 lbs Down!!!!!! Woo hoo!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4058491 I am so excited and pumped!! <em>334</em> I have tried to lose weight for so long and have never been this serious about it. Now, I am reaping the rewards. For the first time ever I can say that I have lost 20lbs!!! It took me just under 2 months to do it, but that is wonderful. This has given me the motivation to keep going and to even kick it into gear a bit. <BR> <BR> It is amazing how I feel. I am on cloud 9. I probably have a perpetual smile smeared across my face. I think ... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 19:22:39 EST Don't bake too much! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4045321 I had the day off of work today and decided to use the time to make some snacks for my own success. I have been eating horrible choices for snacks, lately and decided it best to try some homemade items. <BR> <BR> I found a blueberry muffin recipe on the Chobani website. They are low cal, low fat and each packs 5g of protein. The other recipe I found on Spark, Peanut Energy bars. <BR> <BR> These appealed to me because they were both low cal, low fat and decent on the sodium and each hav... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 20:03:37 EST Spreading the Spark, So Fun!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4042113 I am having such a good Spark day, today. It's funny how when you need something, badly, it sort of finds you. <BR> <BR> I have hit a slight plateau. I am frustrated. Mainly because I know this is where I fall off. I have been doing all my tracking and exercise, but not much else as far as activity here on Spark. I never realized how much that can matter. <BR> <BR> When I saw the scale still has not moved, I just asked the good Lord to give me the strength and commitment to hang in t... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 17:02:24 EST Snow day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4033321 Well, in the Twin Cities of MN today, a snow storm came to visit. I was out of town when our great snow storm in Dec hit and I was glad. People text me pics of my vehicle burried on the road and my house appeared to be 2 feet shorter than normal with the newly raised ground. I was so happy that I did not have to dig out of it. People were so kind to dig me out while I was gone. This was a time before SP. <BR> <BR> Now, today's storm comes along. Yesterday, I knew this was going to happ... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 19:59:31 EST Need help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4023476 I am so scared right now. Since Jan 3rd I have been faithful to my goal to lose weight to achieve better health. I have had no struggles, no pit falls. This is the first time this has happened. Maybe the 5th time is the charm. Four other times I tried to follow the Spark faithfully, but always quit shortly after 7 days. I was doing so good!! <BR> <BR> The past 4 days have been horrible!! I have lost all momentom and find myself falling back to old, bad habits. I have not been enjoyin... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 19:25:34 EST Compliments. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3995604 Today was a great day in my journey. I know that I am doing this for myself, but it is very encouraging when someone might notice that you have lost some weight. Sometimes I cannot always see the changes that have happened to my body. That there is even any changes at all. Sure, the tape measure and the scale tell me that there are changes, but maybe not enough to see the results yet. <BR> <BR> I attended church this morning, like I do most Sundays. I was not there last Sunday, and so... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 16:44:02 EST Planning Helps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3982012 When I began, seriously, participating on my spark page and focusing on my life change, I did it for a few reasons. I did not do this solely to lose weight. However, the loss of weight would remedy multiple health issues and potentially help to avoid future ones. <BR> <BR> My goals: lose weight in order to lower blood pressure, have good cholesterol (not that it is an issue), have more energy, create a wonderfully new life style, enjoy my daughter, avoid a future of diabetes unlike anot... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 20:55:52 EST Getting Focused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3960573 So, the first two weeks flew by like a breeze. Then, this past weekend happened. Sure, I stuck to my caloric budget, but not all other values were as great. Now, I believe I am reaping the rewards of having slacked a bit. I feel a bit worse, kind of like I did before I started this journey. This is a lesson learned and I have taken notice. <BR> <BR> Today I have avoided temptation and added a bit more to my exercise routine. I also took a few more steps today. I will add another cardi... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 19:29:34 EST Trying New Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3957426 Well, in an attempt to stay within all of my nutritional parameters, I have begun searching for recipes that will do that and still keep me satisfied. The last couple days have been the beginning of trying these recipes. I have found some right here from Spark and others from other recipe websites. I have a gazillion cook books and will tackle them some day in my search. <BR> <BR> On sunday morning I started out with baked eggs. These were good and quite satisfying. The only thing I hav... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 20:20:59 EST Facing reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3952085 This may not seem like a great step. But for me this was a great deal more than that. I normally do not track my meals if I am confident that it has caused me to go over my goals. I cannot face the hard truth. So, if I do not document it, it did not happen. <BR> <BR> Well, yesterday I had to take two 9 year-olds to dinner. I tried to think of some place that was affordable and had something everyone would like. We ended up at Old Country Buffet. I knew this was going to be a challenge... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 08:40:18 EST Eating Out Successfully http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3930885 Most often, since I have taken my life style change seriously, I check nutritional information of restaurant menus before I go. When I go out to eat, I determine the destination before I leave. That gives me the opportunity to check nutritional information on the web. Admittedly, restaurant choices often change because of the nutritional information. By doing this I have been able to stay within my caloric budget an surpirsingly found out that smaller portions can be filling. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 17:20:34 EST Week One down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3908051 Alright, seven days complete. This is about my 4th attempt at staying on track with Spark and I am super psyched because I feel so much more committed this time. I believe that this is the one! This is going to be the time that I reach my ultimate goal. Sure, 50lbs is a bit off for now, but my goal just to stay on track for the first week was so easy I cannot see why I cannot keep doing this to reach my ultimate goal. <BR> <BR> So, with week one down I have completed the following. Five ... Sun, 9 Jan 2011 21:18:00 EST This water thing . . . .right. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3899532 So, this week has had it's ups and downs. I am satisfied to report that of the last 5 days, I have successfully gotten up early 4 of those days to exercise. I had lasik surgery on Wed afternoon so I did not wake early and exercise on Thur. I am ok with that. But up an at 'em I was today. I know this has got to pay off and I am going to be exstatic when I see the results! <BR> <BR> Now, as for eating, I did not do so well Wed and Thur. Yet, I am ok with that too. It does not mean that... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 08:53:38 EST Got it figured out, maybe. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3887398 Ok, so it's only been one full day, but that's got to come before the second or the third, and so forth. I have started this year telling myself that I will get back to exercising in the morning before I start my day. This has always worked best for me, but for many years now, I have not wanted to wake up. Then, when returning home from work, I was always so exhausted that rest beat out the need to exercise. But this is no longer the case. I have successfully gotten up for two mornings a... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 07:41:34 EST Gotta find the course http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3715846 I think I might have the whole diet thing down. I know my problem is my cravings. I seem to always crave chocolate or sweets about 1 or 2 in the afternoon. I have not beat this down, yet. I am still trying to figure out how to get a hold on that. If I had room in my caloric budget I'd try a hershey kiss or something like that to satisfy the craving, but I don't have that kind of room right now. <BR> <BR> Then, at night, before I go to bed, I truly want something comforting. This, I h... Thu, 14 Oct 2010 19:42:24 EST Really? Why do I constantly do this to myself? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3704376 So, here I am all proud of myself for reaching goals and staying within my limits, only to screw it up. Why do I do that? <BR> <BR> Some friends stopped by and took me out last night. Well, when I came home I was hungary so, not thinking at all (or caring at the time), I ordered a pizza. Then, today I feel like crap because of the night before and only eat twice. Both of the times I ate were not good, either. Yep, I have shot myself in the foot. All the success I have made this week,... Sat, 9 Oct 2010 21:31:10 EST Confession-tried a fad, and didn't succeed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3702346 So, here it is, a little over 3 months since my last blog. You might wonder where it is that I have gone, and I will tell you. To fad diet world. Yes, I was sucked into a "2 shakes a day and one healthy meal" diet and got no results. Now, it is not the famous diet you here of all the time, SF, it was of a different name, but same concept. I won't divulge the name, but I will admit the fact that I had no results, was not because of the program but because of me. I cannot do shakes! I am... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 18:39:09 EST Finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3396745 I am so happy!!! <BR> <BR> Finally, after about a month of promising myself, I went hiking. I have never done it, but got a bug up my butt when I was wonderin' around the state park website. I saw the hiking trails and thought what an affordable and healthy way to spend my time. So, today I did it!! <BR> <BR> Late this morning my daughter and I headed off to Afton State Park with a mission to do some hiking. When we got there we grabbed a free map and tried to map out a trail to take. ... Sat, 3 Jul 2010 23:06:12 EST This wagon needs higher rails and a top! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3394877 I am constantly falling off this wagon. I get all psyched and follow the plan for a few days, I think I even did it for a whole week once, and then I vanish. Sometimes I check in and log my food, but I never exercise like I am supposed to. As a result, I am now on an up swing and gaining the weight back that I had tried so hard to lose. What the heck am I doin'!!??? <BR> <BR> So, I have made a promise to myself that I will stick with this. I will make the time to go through my menus wee... Sat, 3 Jul 2010 08:44:33 EST Snack Attack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3223533 So, I've done fairly well my first true two weeks. That is two weeks straight of being conscious about my health and my weight. But here comes week 3. This includes the aftermath of 3 birthday dinners and a Mother's Day BBQ. I am so fearful to get back on that scale and see the success reversed. Ugh! <BR> <BR> Ok, here I go again. I am trying to refocus on myself and my health. How can one get through these events in life and avoid the delicious calorie and fat ladened food? I have no... Wed, 12 May 2010 20:09:11 EST Week 1 done, onto week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3186866 Well, I left week 1 on a very low note. I binged. Not because I was craving and couldn't control myself, but life got in the way. I need to plan more. I learned from this and am going to make changes in week 2. See, Friday a co-worker bought everyone pizza for lunch. How could I say no to pizza? I mean it's pizza, the ultimate food!!!! So, 3 pieces I ate. That was actually a controlled amount for me. Then it was like, well, I already screwed up today, I might as well make it worth m... Sun, 2 May 2010 21:37:01 EST What a great day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3168926 Today was an overall great day! Sure, I had to go to work and sure there were somethings that may have been a bit weird or creepy, but all in all, great. <BR> <BR> I say this is great because I feel great! Maybe I am not losing weight mircaulously or watching my jeans fall off my waist, but I feel great! I am not as tired as I normally am. And, because of Sprakpeople and the exercise tracking, I am much more motivated to get out of the house, off of my couch, and do something. Today, my... Tue, 27 Apr 2010 21:43:07 EST Things are looking better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3160315 Today does not have to be a blog of confessions! I was much better behaved today by way of my food consumption. I didn't reach my goal, still a little over, but about 2000 less than yesterday. I would say that was an accomplishment. <BR> <BR> I still have the same problem that I had yesterday, though. When at an event that has food, and there is never nutritious options, I cave. I see my favorites, like a soft pretzel with cheese, and totally give into my cravings. I have no self-disci... Sun, 25 Apr 2010 22:10:23 EST Brand Spankin' New! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3156053 Ok, so I am not truly brand spankin' new at this weight loss thing, but I am new to this whole blog thing. I have never read a blog nor written one myself. This whole thing is just new to me. Maybe I'll find my self an addict to blogging in the near future. I hope I find a happy medium. <BR> <BR> That being said, I felt I had to do this. It is my way of holding myself accountable for my own actions. It is so ironic that it is very easy to lie to myself and not keep promises kept to m... Sat, 24 Apr 2010 14:42:19 EST