DAUGHTEROFTWIN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DAUGHTEROFTWIN DAUGHTEROFTWIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Starting Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719135 Hello Friends. I'm sorry I became one of the "disappeared." It happens. Many of you know what I mean. <BR> <BR> Confessions first. I've regained 46 pounds since hitting my lowest of 194 in October. 50 pounds. Almost 6 gallons of milk. Criminey. No wonder my body aches and I have trouble moving, much less levitating. 240 pounds feels like a prison sentence. I have to remember how wonderful it felt on my way down the ladder though. 240 feels a hell of a lot better than 305. <BR>... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 13:23:29 EST 2 years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566347 Today is my 2 year SparkVersary. It was one of those things I remembered as an aside. I haven't been sparking. Haven't been in touch with you, my precious friends. Haven't been exercising. Have been eating whatever is convenient. I can't remember when I cooked my last meal. I think my refrigerator has multiple science experiments growing in it. I'm afraid to look though. I'm not sure how much I weigh; however, I have no doubt that I weigh more than I have in a year. My smallest dres... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 09:05:50 EST Oooohhhhmmmmm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524347 Hello. My name is Tiffany and I am an addict. No, not a drug addict. Not an alcoholic. I am a food addict. And I've been on a bender. I haven't been exercising. I haven't been drinking my water. I haven't been Sparking. Today that comes to an end. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 27 Oct 2013 01:54:15 EST Slow Progress--Staying True To Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484101 Okay. I have been a little irritated about the scale not moving down. This morning it sits at 200.0. Which is down .2 from yesterday. But still 1.7 pounds above my lowest weigh in. Yuck. I'm doing EVERYTHING right. Yesterday I decided to bump my calories up. Why? Because I haven't been hungry at meals. I know that sounds counterintuitive, but the one way I can tell I'm in the right calorie range? I'm hungry before meal time. When I'm not physically hungry at meal time, my cravings go throug... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 22:54:08 EST Runner Rising http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478872 I've been in an "exercise" phase lately. And it is true that you cannot out exercise a bad diet. Therefore, I haven't lost anything, except maybe a couple inches as I have replaced some fat with lean muscle. <BR> <BR> After moping a couple weeks and generally feeling like dog doo because of my knee injury, I restarted my HF class. I also started running again. All while wearing a knee brace. I am so happy I did. My knee is still not 100%, but it seems to slowly be getting better. <BR> ... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 18:40:58 EST Act My Age http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452644 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l39200866.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's a picture of me following the Warrior Dash. <BR> <BR> Good News: I made it to the end. <BR> <BR> Bad News: I blew my knee out. My GOOD knee. Now my bad knee is my better knee. <BR> <BR> Trying to climb out of one of the mud pits, foot up around ear level, someone pulling me up by my hand...pop! There went my knee. I was able to gingerly complete the race, although I had to bypass a couple of th... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 09:58:39 EST On The Cusp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447540 I've had an interesting week. This weekend was filled with splurges during my girls weekend away. My mom, sister and daughter went away together--just us girls--spent a couple of nights in a hotel, swam in the pool, ate more food than we (okay, I) should and generally relaxed and enjoyed each other's company. I did use the exercise facilities where we stayed, but felt I would probably be way up on the scale--expecting a weigh in today of about 207. Monday I was back on track. The scale s... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 11:10:40 EST One Step Forward, Two Steps Back...But I'm Still Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438404 Confession: Last night after my workout I ate fast food--A whopper with cheese and a side salad with light honey balsamic dressing...and 1 1/2 chocolate chip cookies. Afterwards, I went to the grocery to restock my healthy breakfast options for this week. I also picked up some yogurt and chicken breasts. And doughnut holes and cookie dough. <BR> <BR> The cookie dough is half gone. The doughnut holes sit unopened on top of my refrigerator. <BR> <BR> This morning I prepared and ate my... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:07:32 EST Building Strength and Character http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432565 Things I've learned about myself the past two weeks: <BR> <BR> I can throw a full size tire backwards over my head many times in 45 seconds, but I cannot come close to doing one pull up--yet. <BR> <BR> I consistently underestimate what I am physically capable of accomplishing, but when challenged or questioned about my ability, I will do it or die trying. I love feeling the mettle within me spark and shine though. <BR> <BR> I consistently push my cardio limits as far as I can, and as a re... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 00:05:08 EST Excited? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423292 Today I've spent some time roaming around the SP site again. As you know, I've been kind of out of touch. I read a couple articles, looked at a couple recipes (and saved them in my SparkRecipes App), read a couple motivational stories pages (Thank you MMCOOL_1). <BR> <BR> This past Sunday I set a new goal. My new goal is to reach 150 pounds by March 1, 2014. Or to get as close as I can. I'm not much into pressure, so strict compliance with the numbers is a no no. This comes down to a... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 17:38:01 EST Secrets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419548 A friend recently shared with me Post Secrets. Google it. People around the country, dare I say "world", have sent in their secrets anonymously on postcards. The "author"/compiler has published several books of these secrets. Sometimes they come in on postcards. Sometimes the secrets are written on the back of receipts, lottery tickets, etc. Some of the secrets are hilarious. Most are heart wrenching. I began reading my friend's book and couldn't put it down. <BR> <BR> I went to the bookst... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 07:36:25 EST A trip to the Doctor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402569 These days I cling to any NSV I can. Yesterday I made a trip to the lady doc. You know what that means ladies. Big fun. It's been a long time since my last trip. I'm the type that would rather bury my head in the sand than take the chance of hearing bad news. <BR> <BR> However, due to recent changes in my life, I decided I couldn't put it off any longer. The good news? Her scale weighed me less than my scale. Only 201. I was expecting 205. Second, my blood pressure is a healthy 110/74. Y... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 14:54:53 EST Need I Say Anything Else? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389958 <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1470507039.jpg"> Sat, 15 Jun 2013 12:40:15 EST Who Am I? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384394 Walking back from the Courthouse this morning, I took the stairs quickly, no handrail, in heels. I asked myself, "Wow, who am I?" Just 3 months ago I was still grabbing the rail for dear life. <BR> <BR> However, there is so much more to this question, "Who am I." Someone recently told me that they want to get to know the "real" me--the me I'm hiding under walls and barriers and concertina wire. I'm willing to do so. Truly, I am. However, there seems to be a problem with that. <BR>... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:55:23 EST First 5K! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382578 Over the course of my weight loss journey I have really battled with the idea of running. Initially, my position was that there was no way in a cold...well, you get my drift. Running was for other people. My knees were TERRIBLE. I had been diagnosed several years ago with Osteoarthritis. Yikes. Isn't that an old person disease? (sorry to offend, but isn't that what YOU think too?) <BR> <BR> When I first started exercising at the end of January, 2012, my top speed on the treadmill was ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 15:54:21 EST YAAYY, Pool Season!! Hips, Hips, Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372836 Last night I was up late. I had worked late, ate dinner late, went to the gym late--not arriving until almost 10:00. I didn't have the opportunity to get my C25K training in Tuesday, so I was determined to do it last night. Afterwards, I went swimming--First time in my new suit. I thought I looked pretty good until I took a picture. Why is that anyway, huh? Oh well. It's a new starting point. I promised myself I wouldn't take any half naked pictures for my journey, but last night I br... Thu, 30 May 2013 17:59:20 EST Dress Pictures As Promised http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365863 Let me start by saying this is a vanity blog. Apologies in advance. <BR> <BR> Last night after my daughter came home from work, I asked her if she would snap some pictures of me in my new dress. She agreed--as long as we could make it quick. What I intended to be a short, three shot event went on for about 5 minutes. She kept snapping and snapping and making me pose this way and that way and, finally I got so tickled it was hard to keep a "straight face." I've picked about 4 that I th... Thu, 23 May 2013 16:06:18 EST 100 Pound Milestone w/ Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364867 100. One Hundred. Such a nice round, wonderfully hefty number, isn't it? <BR> <BR> What a journey so far. A roller coaster by any other name is still a roller coaster, folks. I cannot believe I'm finally here. When I started December 17, 2011, my hard and fast goal was to lose 100 pounds by the end of December 2012. Round about August I became sidetracked. It might have had a little to do with a giant double layer chocolate chip cookie cake that was brought in for a co-worker's bi... Wed, 22 May 2013 17:52:54 EST Tuesday, May 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364004 It's been a solid day. Yay! <BR> <BR> Exercise today: <BR> <BR> 32 min treadmill--C25K. Slow and steady. <BR> 60 min Zumba <BR> 2 sets 15 Reps compound row 80 lbs <BR> <BR> Food: <BR> <BR> Within calorie range AND healthy, home prepared meals. (Yes, food is being cooked in my kitchen, by me). This included lots of veggies! I came really close to stopping at Subway for dinner at 8:45, but remembered my goal. It's still a work in progress, but won't it always be? <BR> <BR> What I'm pro... Tue, 21 May 2013 22:39:29 EST Monday, May 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362800 Blog titles frequently determine whether I read a blog or not--except for my friends' blogs, of course. I'm naming mine by date right now. Boring? Yeah. I know. If I feel like I have something profound to say (judged purely by my own egotistical standards, of course) then I will probably name that blog something more creative. For now, I'm pushing basics. Regaining accountability. I almost--almost--started with Day 1 (instead of Sunday, May 19). I couldn't bear the thought of that though. I... Mon, 20 May 2013 21:47:50 EST Sunday, May 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361645 Exercise for today: <BR> <BR> C25K--32 minutes. <BR> Strength training 20 minutes. <BR> <BR> Food--not tracked, not crazy calories, but probably not "in range" either. <BR> <BR> What I am proud of: <BR> <BR> I went to the movies with a friend. I really wanted popcorn and a soda. I resisted the urge. It's small, but it's something. <BR> <BR> I've been concerned about backsliding with my running--ie, if you don't use it you lose it. However, my training today was pretty much where I... Sun, 19 May 2013 23:13:11 EST Things are different now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349457 Dear friends, how I've missed you so. Not for your lack of trying. Thank you so much for all your support, prayers and thoughtful comments over the past two weeks. I know several of you have tried to reach out to me and I've pretty much been buried in a box, incommunicado. I'm sorry. <BR> <BR> I have to give special thanks to Sandra, for being so supportive and caring--and for not booting me off the island. <BR> <BR> I also have to give special thanks to Brad, for that one perfectly timed... Wed, 8 May 2013 07:23:49 EST Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342864 I lost my father Tuesday evening. He left this world at 5:15 p.m, surrounded by his loved ones. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping to be back on plan as soon as possible. Thank you dear friends for all your support. Every comment, goodie, message, text and phone call has been appreciated. <BR> <BR> My default is to withdraw. I really don't want to talk about how I feel about it all. At this point, I'm okay without delving into my inner thoughts about the situation. <BR> <BR> The funeral is Monday,... Thu, 2 May 2013 07:21:53 EST Limbo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338840 I wanted to stop by and give you all an update. I have been overwhelmed by emotion at the support and prayers my Sparkfamily has sent me. As some of you know, I am not a religious person. However, I am spiritual and have a strong faith in the power of God, whether He chooses to use it or not. Times like these inevitably cause us to question His influence in and over our lives. <BR> <BR> My father has led a full and rich life, during which he touched the hearts and souls of so many people. ... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 23:16:51 EST Best Compliment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5326762 Yesterday, a friend and colleague asked me, "How do you keep going. I mean , you've lost so much. How do you stick to it and keep showing such progress?" <BR> <BR> I was tremendously flattered. It gets to the heart of what in most proud of--my consistency and dedication. The compliments have been flying this week. My body must have made a jump down somewhere. The scale showed a 2 pound gain from last week. In not worried about it any more. I think one of the pounds I lost last week was my ... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:45:16 EST It's a Beautiful Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322039 I had a fabulous day today. After waking at 6:30 and eating a healthy breakfast, my oldest daughter and I went to a Zumba with toning class. We came home, showered and headed to the Goodwill so she could find an appropriate outfit for an audition next week. She's auditioning for the lead in Dead Man Walking and needed a conservative cardigan and shell to go with her skirt. She found a beautiful eggplant cardigan with round pearl buttons and a cream shell to go under it. <BR> <BR> Afte... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 18:09:04 EST Anticipation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318682 This is a long one, full of reminiscing. <BR> <BR> I am so excited thinking of vacation this year. We will be gone the first full week in May, leaving the weekend before and traveling back the following weekend. Too bad I'll miss Derby, but to be honest, vacation has my heart a twitter. <BR> <BR> I remember long 12 hour trips curled up in the seat, trying to sleep or flying through the pages of a book I'd saved just to read on the trip. We have visited my Aunt, Uncle and cousins in Fl... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 16:54:26 EST My Girls, My Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5311266 The road we wander frequently takes us on strange detours we may never fully understand. I married young, had children young, divorced young. Along the way, after licking my wounds, I decided it was time to grow up and make something out of my life--to provide an example for my kids. Yeah, Okay. I really did it because I was tired of being undervalued and undervaluing myself. I went back to school as a non-traditional student--10 years older than almost everyone else in my classes. <BR... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 10:34:03 EST Heart rate Irritation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310671 I had a pretty crappy workout tonight. I did my C25K program and my heart rate was at the max. More disturbing, it wouldn't come back down during walking periods. I mean, yes it decreased, but was still at 85%. That is unusual. I had plenty of time for it to come down to 70%. After C25K, I didn't have the "heart" to do anything else. <BR> <BR> On top of that, it's been an emotional day. So, driving home, all I could think about is the Maple Leaf Creams on top of my refrigerator. Calculatin... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 21:22:09 EST Becoming Opaque http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307950 I have to admit that one of my favorite perks to losing 90 pounds and finding health is becoming opaque. <BR> <BR> When you weigh 300+ pounds you are invisible. Did you know that? People may stare at you when you walk away, but they never look you in the eye. I recognize part of the problem was my fault. I didn't want to look at them either. Didn't want to see disgust. Didn't want to see them quickly turn their heads before I caught their eye. <BR> <BR> Now I look at everyone. I look t... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 19:15:25 EST 90 Pounds!! Woo Hoo!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302169 I'll keep it short. This blog is purely self indulgent. I wanna share my success and do the happy dance where everyone can see it. <BR> <BR> Hmmm. They say, "Pride goes before the fall." I don't care though because I know I deserve my little party. <BR> <BR> It hit me this morning after I tracked my weight that I only have 10 more pounds before reaching the 100 pound mark. Holy freakin' cow!!! And only 15 more pounds before I reach Onderland!!! It seems so close...within reach for... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 15:10:48 EST Yummy Salad! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293910 I had to share this with you guys. I have made this salad a couple of times this week. It is wonderful. While I make a dressing to go over it, it really may not need it. Probably it is more appropriate to put this on SparkRecipes, but I'm too lazy. <BR> <BR> Here's the pic: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l682141764.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Serving of 1. Here's how to make it: <BR> <BR> Tear up two Napa Cabbage leaves into bite size pieces. Put in bowl. <BR> A... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 16:02:16 EST I LOVE SPARKPEOPLE (But I Love My SparkFriends More!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279061 Last time I blogged, I sort of threw up all over the page. I felt guilty about it. I wanna be perfect you see. I don't want to be boring or pessimistic or a "Debbie Downer." So, I try to limit those blogs as much as possible and stay positive when I put something out "here." <BR> <BR> When I logged back in and looked at all the responses to my last blog, it brought tears to my eyes, and I may have even sobbed a little bit. It's not about the number of responses. It blew me away that ... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 15:19:17 EST Freefall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275155 That's what I feel like right now. Don't misunderstand. I had a strong day today--90 minutes of Zumba, an 1183 calorie deficit and appropriate ratios on my nutrients. So what's the problem this time, you ask? <BR> <BR> I got my new HRM in. It very accurately measures my HR during exercise. But apparently I have been way overinflating my calories burned. And let me tell you folks something. If my HRM is accurate on calories burned, then SP's estimates are WAY off! My old HRM showed a calori... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 23:17:16 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263700 My accountability stinks. I've decided I'm going to make my nutrition and fitness trackers public. We'll see how long it lasts. Making them public is not an invitation for public commentary, but a method of making myself accountable. Do I really want all you hard working, dedicated souls to see that I ate two cheeseburgers (from two totally different restaurants), a cup of chili and a Baskin Robbins ice cream cone for lunch? No. I absolutely don't. So, why am I posting it? Because mayb... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 17:15:15 EST I Feel It Anyway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256368 The scale hasn't been showing much movement since November. No. That's not true. It HAS been showing lots of movement--up and down and up and down, etc. January 1 I was back up to 238. Very disappointing, but not surprising. I blame most of it on my lack of motivation during the Holidays. Since February though I've been getting back on track. Most of it has been a mental game--finding the sticktoitiveness and consistency that got me so far during 2012. My success rate has been pretty... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 15:18:15 EST Tummy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238033 Sitting nude, lotion in hand <BR> I stare forlornly at my crepe paper stomach. <BR> Should I count the crisscross train tracks <BR> Traversing the wide expanse of my middle? <BR> Or would the nighttime stars be an easier task? <BR> <BR> Such a symbol of nurture and matronly invitation <BR> To curl your head and suckle <BR> From mother earth's bounty. <BR> A badge of sacrifice signifying the den <BR> From which you were once evicted. <BR> <BR> Clad in my pillow-soft chainmaille apron <B... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 23:33:59 EST Frittering or Living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231741 I've come to the conclusion that life will always be busy. It's up to each of us to manage our time and choices so that we are fulfilled and don't just "fritter" our life away. A couple of days ago I was struck by the realization that most of my adult life has been spent "frittering." It made me really sad. For those of you who are still young, don't be me. For those of you who, like me, are passing into another stage of life, don't let your age be an excuse or a barrier. <BR> <BR> Do wh... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:02:05 EST Mirror Mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229558 I've had a great week since my last blog. Nutrition has been in range and fitness minutes have been consistent. Not as much ST as I probably need, but I'm not gonna beat myself up over it. <BR> <BR> Tonight in Zumba I surprised myself. Classes have been packed with the resolutionists. I was in the second row. At one point, as we were starting to move, I thought, "OMG! That lady is going to run all over me. Why does she have to crowd my spot like that?" Then I searched for myself in t... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 23:54:02 EST Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224207 I thinned my friend list this morning, removing those I don't see, who have never communicated with me, or who have dropped off the face of SP. <BR> <BR> Then I went to the gym, had a great cardio workout and took my BP. It's up. No big surprise. My eating this week has been terrible. Last night I bought a pint of ice cream and ate almost half of it. After eating an enormous dinner and pizza for lunch. This morning I got rid of the ice cream and have the nerve to wonder why my BP is borderl... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 10:41:21 EST Compromise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218405 Last night, on a quick trip to pick up some essentials from the store, I purchased some chocolate flavored whey protein powder. I'm not a huge fan of smoothies, but I'm up for some experimentation. <BR> <BR> This morning I made a smoothie using an overripe banana (yuck!) I cut up and froze last night. (I swear, that's the ONLY good use for a banana with brown spots.) To this banana, I added a cup of chocolate almond milk, a scoop of the protein powder and about a cup of raw spinach. Th... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 10:27:47 EST Peace Begins With A Smile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205352 Thank you Sandra for this wonderful quote by Mother Teresa on your Feed. I love it. Give it a try friends. Allow yourself to put a genuine smile on your face. Can you feel the positive mojo flowing through you? It seems pretty hard to pop someone in the mouth if they are smiling, don't you think? (No, sneering doesn't count!) <BR> <BR> Last night I tried a plank and then 3 more today at the gym. (Thank you, Saphreal!) Wow! Those buggers are a killer! Before you go and get all impre... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 17:16:20 EST The Power of Belief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198247 Yesterday I made a disturbing revelation. I was driving home from Zumba, thinking about my journey, trying to figure out where I took the wrong turn. When I first started Spark last January, I was pumped. I had read so many phenomenal stories of strength, perseverance and SUCCESS! More importantly, I developed a strong belief that I too could become thin. Not just healthier, but strong, lean, buff...thin. For about 8 months I maintained that confident march toward my goals. All I had to do... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 07:34:46 EST 365 Days One Year in Picture Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192052 January 3, 2013 makes a one year on this journey. I'm going to post some pictures for you to see. Warning: They are Snot Ugly Post Workout Pics. You guys know what that means, right? I mean, I'm no beauty in the light of day, but down in the basement of my gym, the troll really comes out. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1879519116.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l27078627.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 19:25:26 EST Great workout yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5174319 How do I know I got a great workout yesterday? How can I be certain? Because my muscles are whining this morning! I can hear my glutes and abs singing the blues. They haven't sung that song in a while. <BR> <BR> Yesterday while on the elliptical I sort of eyed another lady doing a core workout. (I know, Creepy! Don't stare at others at the gym!) However, I'm searching for some new ST exercises since I don't do the machines anymore. Mind you, I admit I haven't been actively searching be... Sun, 23 Dec 2012 10:01:08 EST Zumba and a little diversion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157099 So, last night I went to a Zumba Basic class. If you've read my other blogs, you know I have no coordination. At all. However, I had a great time. The last time I went to Zumba was in February 2012. 58 pounds heavier. Let me tell you that the difference was amazing. I had difficulty working up a sweat. (Probably because I didn't know my left foot from my right and just trying to figure out which way was up.) The moves still bothered my knees, but when I came home I iced them and this... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 12:42:19 EST Approaching one year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153046 I have been spinning my wheels and not making much progress for the past 5 months. I've only lost 10 pounds since August. I have lost weight, then regained, then lost again. I've really struggled to stay in the game mentally. <BR> <BR> Part of the difficulty I believe revolves around my indecision. Indecision about the appropriate calorie range. Indecision about my fitness routine. I've tried Jillian's 30 day shred. I've tried a running program. These programs seem to have so many restrict... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 22:13:04 EST Day 321 The Elephant in the Room http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140536 I don't know what my hang up is lately. I've been having serious emotional eating issues. I mean crazy issues. My eating has been so disordered that I can't bear to put it on the screen. I haven't had a huge problem with exercise. Just eating. <BR> <BR> I know my desire to eat is not stemming from hunger. It isn't the typical late night, in front of the boob tube munch fest. I think they are coming from feelings of deprivation. Make no mistake. I am not in any way actually deprive... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 14:51:38 EST Day 317. Ha! I Did It Anyway! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5136014 This morning I woke early thinking, "ugh! I don't want to run." I got up anyway and got dressed. Then I noticed I had forgotten to plug in my phone (source of music and running program). Great! Perfect excuse to not go. I even seriously contemplated climbing back into bed for an extra couple of hours. No! I can do this! I'll use my HRM watch to time my intervals. Running one day without music won't kill me. I almost ducked out again when I realized there was a thick layer of frost on all... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 07:21:32 EST Day 315 I Found My Bounce http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5134324 Running is not an exercise that comes easy to me. When I was a kid/teenager, I couldn't run because I didn't know how to breathe. I was always too embarrassed by my loud huffing and puffing, sounding like I was dying. Therefore, I held my breath. You can imagine how well that went for me. Side stitch city. <BR> <BR> While I still weigh a whole lot more than I did in High School, I have to say that I may be in better athletic shape than I was at that time (or any other time for that ma... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 17:49:14 EST