DARKLIGHT31's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DARKLIGHT31 DARKLIGHT31's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ It's been a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670475 It had been almost 2 weeks since I posted anything. So a catch up blog of sorts. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>04/12/its-been-a-while/ </link> Sat, 12 Apr 2014 12:16:05 EST Say what you believe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670473 I finally figured out why I've always struggled with affirmations. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>04/12/say-what-you-believe/ </link> Sat, 12 Apr 2014 12:15:23 EST You can't sit beside me with that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670471 Catching up with posting some blog entries here. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>03/25/you-cant-sit-beside-me-with-that/ </link> Sat, 12 Apr 2014 12:14:35 EST It's mine and I want it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649984 Thoughts on why we should let ourselves experience our negative emotions. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>03/17/its-mine-and-i-want-it/ </link> Mon, 17 Mar 2014 13:21:43 EST I guess I should say something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644834 It's been a week, because I thought I had nothing to say. But it turns out I did. Who knew :) <BR> <BR> So I'm toying with the idea of doing a 100 day sugar free challenge. Anybody interested? <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>03/10/i-guess-i-should-say-something/ </link> Mon, 10 Mar 2014 21:27:57 EST I was prepared for that ... sorta http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638619 A bunch of stuff. Gluten-free bread, Jared Leto is hot, sugar is gone, back to the gym. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>03/03/i-was-prepared-for-that-sorta/ </link> Mon, 3 Mar 2014 13:21:57 EST Even if I'm screaming and crying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637096 So, it's March 1st. I haven't been using Sparkpeople for anything other than posting these blog links, because it seemed to not really make sense to me anymore. Since I'm not weighing myself, and not attempting to track food or exercise minutes, the site seemed kind of pointless for anything other than keeping up with the blogs of my Sparkfriends. But I poked around a bit today and figured out how to set some goals for the month that fit with my primary intention of feeling good. So I'll ... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 18:29:39 EST Overwhelmed and babbling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636292 I'm a little overwhelmed today. <BR> <BR> <link> http://marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014<BR>/02/28/overwhelmed-and-babbling/ </link> Fri, 28 Feb 2014 17:31:47 EST Push or pull? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633799 Some thoughts on motivation and inspiration. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>02/25/push-or-pull/ </link> Tue, 25 Feb 2014 21:43:22 EST Feeling good is the primary intention http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633359 Thoughts from reading Danielle LaPorte's book, The Desire Map. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>02/24/feeling-good-is-the-primary-inte<BR>ntion/ </link> Tue, 25 Feb 2014 11:03:03 EST What exactly do you have to do? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629287 My thoughts on the reaction to the weight loss of the woman who won The Biggest Loser recently. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>02/06/exactly-what-do-you-have-to-do/ </link> Thu, 20 Feb 2014 13:46:14 EST Zut Alors, Gifts Galore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629284 My thoughts on the concept of rewards, and some reward ideas. Along with a lot of other random babbling <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>02/19/zut-alors-gifts-galore/ </link> Thu, 20 Feb 2014 13:45:14 EST Coaching offer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627404 I'm currently taking a course in pursuit of becoming a certified coach. As part of that course, I need to complete 25 hours of pro bono coaching. So I'm putting out this offer of free 30 to 60 minute coaching sessions to those who might be interested. <BR> <BR> A coach helps you gain clarity, generate new insights and develop strategies so that you can achieve your goals. The topic of coaching can be anything you want to move forward on -- health, relationships, family, work -- whatever i... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 13:33:08 EST Why not have piggyback fights on the playground? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615083 I'm annoyed by all the rules that have been imposed on kids of our generation. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>02/04/why-not-have-piggyback-fights-on<BR>-the-playground/ </link> Tue, 4 Feb 2014 14:44:16 EST A wonderful perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615080 So many of us deal with body image issues. This is a great perspective on that. <BR> <BR> <link>www.danoah.com/2014/01/weird-boobs-a<BR>nd-little-wieners.html </link> Tue, 4 Feb 2014 14:43:16 EST This day annoyed me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615078 Just a rant about my crappy day. Eating-wise and otherwise. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>02/03/this-day-annoyed-me/ </link> Tue, 4 Feb 2014 14:42:16 EST Dreams be dreams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608177 Recounting some weird dreams I've had lately, and a review of my how things are going with my feel good goals of 2014. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/28/dreams-be-dreams/ </link> Tue, 28 Jan 2014 11:55:20 EST Recipe Roundup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608079 A bunch of recipes I've tried recently with links and my thoughts on the results. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/24/recipe-roundup/ </link> Tue, 28 Jan 2014 10:30:06 EST Yak shaving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608078 A blog I wrote last week about distraction. But also about the new coaching business I'm starting up. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/22/no-yaks-were-harmed-in-the-writi<BR>ng-of-this-post/ </link> Tue, 28 Jan 2014 10:28:42 EST The right way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599083 My thoughts on the "right way" to lose weight. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/19/the-right-way/ </link> Sun, 19 Jan 2014 15:11:29 EST Chocolate chip protein muffins and weekly menu round up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599080 As I said earlier this month, it had been a while since I logged in to Spark. I'm finding I'm not crazy about the new layout. It seems really difficult to get to my own Sparkpage to add blogs. I used to be able to get to my own page directly from the Community menu, but now it seems I have to take few extra steps. Is there a short cut I'm missing? <BR> <BR> Anyway, here are a couple of blog posts from yesterday. The first one is my experience with making chocolate chip protein muffins fr... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 15:10:13 EST Bad things happen in threes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595990 Monday wasn't the best day. But the week is getting better. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/16/bad-things-happen-in-threes/ </link> Thu, 16 Jan 2014 13:37:42 EST Recipe Tried: Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Protein Balls http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595989 Tried a recipe from the PaleOMG website the other day. It was a hit with everyone. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/13/recipe-tried-chocolate-chip-cook<BR>ie-dough-protein-balls/ </link> Thu, 16 Jan 2014 13:36:37 EST Perfection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592769 Musings on the enemy that is perfection. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/13/perfection/ </link> Mon, 13 Jan 2014 19:41:17 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591611 Just a little about my day today. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/12/reflections/ </link> Sun, 12 Jan 2014 20:27:16 EST Well that's annoying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590659 A bit of a rant about playing late night sports and winter in general. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/11/well-thats-annoying/ </link> Sat, 11 Jan 2014 21:12:20 EST Craving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590587 A little bit about managing my cheese craving, what I ate last week (if anybody is looking for some recipes) and planning meals for next week. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/11/craving/ </link> Sat, 11 Jan 2014 20:05:21 EST No compass http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589409 In this entry, I'm talking a bit about attempting to change my diet, and how weird it feels to be doing that to feel better rather than to lose weight. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/10/no-compass/ </link> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:19:37 EST 20 cheap (or free) things you can do for fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588301 I firmly believe that it's important to find ways to have fun. I think that having more fun makes us happier, and being happier makes us more likely to meet our goals. <BR> <BR> I'm on a tight budget for the foreseeable future, so I came up with a list of fun things to do for free or cheap. <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/09/20-cheap-or-free-things-you-can-<BR>do-for-fun/ </link> <BR> <BR> I'd love to hear your ideas for fun things that don't cost a lot of m... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 16:17:40 EST I Refuse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585832 New entry today. If you are offended by swearing, you'll want to skip this one. <BR> <BR> http://marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/20<BR>14/01/07/things-id-like-to-refuse-to-g<BR>af-about-in-2014/ Tue, 7 Jan 2014 15:36:50 EST 2014 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584854 My musings on goals for 2014: <BR> <BR> <link>marshmallowmommy.wordpress.com/2014/<BR>01/06/feel-good/ </link> Mon, 6 Jan 2014 20:39:44 EST A new direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584812 Hi all, those of you who may have followed my blogs in the past. I've been absent from Spark for quite some time now. I've been keeping up with the blog posts of most of my Sparkfriends, but I haven't been Sparking, so to speak. <BR> <BR> Back in September, I decided to take another path. I've decided to stop actively trying to lose weight. I am not weighing myself, I am not tracking my food or exercise. I am focusing on doing things that make me feel good, and on having fun. That does... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 20:05:38 EST Humid http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401412 The weather has been very humid here the last couple of days -- really sticky. I'm happy for air conditioning! <BR> <BR> My incisions are healing up pretty well I think, although this morning I had really bad pain in the largest one -- so bad I thought I was going to have to go home from work if it kept up -- but I took some Tylenol and it subsided. <BR> <BR> I'm doing well with the eating so far. My big bag of veggies/chicken has served me well. I'm eating a lot of food I think, but it'... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 13:31:16 EST Adjustments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399372 It's interesting, adjusting to life without the band. After having it for almost 6 years, I have to say I can't really remember what life was like before it. <BR> <BR> Overall, my recover is going well -- incisions are healing up nicely. Physically the biggest symptom I feel is hunger. I am surprised how much a completely defilled band actually controlled my hunger. This feeling of extreme hunger is very strange for me. It comes on unexpectedly, and is physically very strong. Not somet... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 18:01:19 EST No more band http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396265 I had my lapband removed yesterday. The surgery went well, and I feel good today, only a little pain at a couple of the incision points and some gas pain from being pumped full of air during the procedure. Leaving for the 5 hour drive home soon, and will be back at work tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Going to spend the weekend getting prepared for a new eating plan that can now include things I couldn't reliably eat before without throwing up -- raw veggies, tuna, etc. Strangely looking forward to t... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 11:52:56 EST Machinery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388965 I got my CPAP machine on Wednesday. It takes some getting used to. Wednesday night I couldn't use it -- my nose was stuffed up and wearing the mask made me feel very claustrophobic. I woke up at some point in the night and put on the mask and was able to get a couple of hours sleep with it. <BR> <BR> Last night I went to bed fairly early (for me) and put the mask on. It's a weird feeling, almost as though I can't get enough air in, even though the mask is blowing air in my nose. It took... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 11:11:10 EST Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386663 I got the results from my sleep study last Friday. The doctor said I woke up 79 times during the night. I got about half of the recommended amount of deep sleep and about two thirds of the recommended amount of REM sleep. My REM sleep in particular was very fractured compared to a normal person as I wake up frequently during REM sleep. Apparently this is all caused due to shallow breathing. I had many episodes of shallow or very shallow breathing throughout the night, causing me to wake ... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 08:31:12 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375607 Well, it looks like my lapband journey is about to come to an end. A week or so ago, I heard from the surgeon who said that based on the report from the barium x-ray, it looked like I had an enlarged pouch above the band. That would cause food to stay in the pouch too long, and account for some of the symptoms I've been having. However, at the time, he said he had not seen the actual films, and had to wait for those to confirm. A few days later he left me a message saying that he'd receiv... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 13:18:36 EST Live Like You Were Dying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364330 Yesterday I saw this video, posted on Upworthy.com. <BR> <BR> <link>www.upworthy.com/this-kid-just-died-<BR>what-he-left-behind-is-wondtacular-rip<BR>?c=fea </link> <BR> <BR> I recommend everyone watch it. At just over 22 minutes, it's a long video, and some of you might not feel like investing that much time. It's worth it. I had to watch it in about 4 segments because I kept crying. <BR> <BR> We always think we have more time. There will be time to do the things we want, we'll ... Wed, 22 May 2013 09:01:01 EST 43 by 43 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363176 For the third year now, I am on a mission to lose my upcoming age in pounds before my birthday. I'll be 43 on October 31st, so this year, I want to lose 43 pounds by then. Clearly I haven't been successful in this quest the last 2 years. This year, I reset my SP goals and tickers when I officially started 2 weeks ago. As of my last weigh in, I was down 6.8 pounds, so well on my way. I fear I may have reversed much of that progress this weekend though. Tomorrow's weigh in will tell I gue... Tue, 21 May 2013 08:44:40 EST Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246623 I've been back from vacation and back at work for a little over a week now. We had a really nice vacation -- very relaxing. Difficult to come back to the cold and snow of course. <BR> <BR> Since I've been back I've been focusing on some small things -- eating well and getting enough sleep. I've been pretty happy with my eating, and I've made progress on the sleeping. I set a goal to be in bed by midnight on work nights, and I've made it each night. I do think I need to maybe get to bed ... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 15:47:50 EST Vacation and Beyond http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220469 48 hours from now I'll be getting on the plane for Cuba. I've been thinking a lot about how I want to handle eating and exercise on this vacation, and I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to handle it at all. I'm going to eat what I want, drink what I want and get whatever exercise I get. I really want to focus on just relaxing and re-connecting with my boyfriend. Sun, sand, and sea. Maybe read a book. Maybe not. <BR> <BR> I thought about taking my Fitbit, but I've decided to l... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 17:11:15 EST For What It's Worth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215957 As often seems to be the case, I have been doing a lot of thinking today. For some reason, this past week has been extremely rough, and I have had more than one melt down. Early this morning I had one, and to be honest, I don't even know why. I freaked out at my boyfriend for absolutely no reason whatsoever. None. He hadn't done anything. In fact, while I was out scrapbooking yesterday, he vacuumed the house, washed the sheets, and went to the store. We even had a nice few hours togeth... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:05:00 EST Something's Gotta Give http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213543 Here it is, Friday evening, and I'm exhausted. My kid were off school today (PA day). I exercised questionable judgment and allowed my son to have a friend sleep over last night. I exercised even more questionable judgement by drinking too much wine last night. The kids were up until 4:30am. Seriously. So, not very much sleep for me again. <BR> <BR> I would really like this to be the year that I finally lose weight for good. I've lost weight before. Not quite as much as I wanted, but... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 20:50:55 EST Baby It's Cold Outside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211375 I walked to work this morning. I'm sort of questioning the wisdom of that decision. Although it's beautifully sunny, it's really cold. -15 celcius, -24 with the wind chill. Super windy and I was walking into the wind the whole way. My forehead and thighs were aching. I have to say, I was happy to see the end of that walk. I'm halfway toying with asking my boyfriend to pick me up after work, because it will be dark when I walk home and even colder. But as long as the wind direction doe... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 10:54:42 EST Thanks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210353 I just want to thank all of my awesome Sparkfriends for their supportive comments on yesterday's blog. You guys rock!! <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> Things are going pretty well. When I got home last night, my boyfriend had started dinner and was eager to talk about his flight and the courses he's registered for. We had a long talk -- too long -- I think went to bed at 4am and I'm super tired -- but it was necessary and good. It looks like he might be starting dinner tonight too, because h... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 16:54:10 EST Losing It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208615 Warning: this is a long rambling blog that I don't expect anyone to read necessarily. Just had to write it all down. <BR> <BR> I almost lost it last night. My ex-husband and his partner are still both sick with pneumonia, so they've asked me to keep the kids with me for another week. My boyfriend has been in a super bad mood for the last week or so, and this made his mood even worse. He really enjoys the breaks from the kids so two full weeks with them around is a lot for him. He also ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 15:21:27 EST Monday, Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206919 Yet another rough night last night. I got very little sleep and chose to go back to bed for an hour after the kids went to school. Feel a bit better now, but still a little out of sorts. <BR> <BR> I spent yesterday preparing a whole bunch of food in advance so that I would have lots of good slow carb options available for lunches and quick meals. Made two types of chicken, pork, beef vindaloo, boiled eggs. In fact, I have so much food that I had to put some of it in the basement fridge. ... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 15:00:10 EST Free Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205089 Yesterday was my free day. I had been thinking in advance about what I wanted to eat on my free day, and since my parents were coming through town on their way south for a few months, I decided on Red Lobster. Unfortunately, there was an hour wait to get a table, and that was too much for the kids. We ended up at a Mexican sort of restaurant instead. In the end, I wasn't able to eat very much because I got heartburn part way through the meal. So in addition to my enchilada, I had a deep ... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 13:47:50 EST Do you have a Fitbit? Add me as a friend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202751 My Fitbit URL: <link>www.fitbit.com/user/23J7VK </link> <BR> Fri, 11 Jan 2013 21:01:55 EST