DANIELLESAUTUMN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DANIELLESAUTUMN DANIELLESAUTUMN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ It really is time. Ive reached my breaking point. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385666 Even though I havent been active on Spark, I still need it sometimes to get my thoughts out. I never realized in my journey how much blogging helped keep my head clear. <BR> <BR> Ive been feeling a lot of anxiety lately. My weight has creeped up about 50lbs over the last 4 years and i know that my husband and I need to change our lifestyle in order to start losing weight. One of my biggest fears is that I will be successful and he wont. And both of us have had successful (large) weight loss... Mon, 10 Jul 2017 13:00:15 EST A Vacation that gave me perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6281350 Okay, so for real- i'm not going to set serious long term goals. I do have numbers in mind, but really I need to focus on my day to day, I need a serious lifestyle change. Right now I eat terribly, drink too much, am addicted to sugar and its starting to feel really terrible. <BR> <BR> I just got back from a trip with my BFF to Disney/Universal Studios. We called it our YOLO trip because it's probably our last big flyaway for a very long time. 2017 will bring big changes for us both. For me... Thu, 15 Dec 2016 14:49:47 EST Camping again- Summer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191131 Well unfortunately I havent been able to get over my camping weight from 2 weeks ago. This morning when I weighed I was .3lb below what I was 2 weeks ago. So im losing, but not on schedule like I had wanted. I was doing great all last week. Saturday was a bad day- I had 1 big piece of stuffed pizza and 5 mac n cheese bites for dinner- PLUS probably 2 pitchers of beer total from 5pm to 11pm. Oh and a piece of birthday cake. <BR> <BR> My eating has been just OK. I did not track this weekend a... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 10:54:58 EST Awesome weekend, need to do well this week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6186294 This morning it was SO hard to peel myself out of bed. A long weekend of camping really takes it out of me these days. But oh man it was a good time! I love camping so much. There were 8 of us at our normal site for Fathers day camping. <BR> <BR> Friday night we got up there around 5:30 and 2 of the 3 other couples were there and set up already. So I got to work popping everything up and getting settled so i could enjoy a beer! I brought the pop up shelter and it was a hit! <BR> <BR> We g... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 12:38:26 EST Camping POA, Having a good week so far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183358 OO I am cranky today! It's right before sharks, I get a little testy. <BR> <BR> It's been a really good week so far. I've lost a pound every day lol, however, I had a lot of water weight to lose from the weekend. Still, im almost 5lbs down from Sunday. I like it! <BR> <BR> This weekend is another camping round for me! This trip is more of a fun trip with our big group of friends. It's in a tree forest so the sites are like sardines and it's not exactly "roughing it". fine with me- I got m... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 10:36:19 EST Time to forget the first journey. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6182153 At one point in my life I had lost 95lbs. It was an incredible journey that I believe led me to finding my husband and becoming the happy woman I am today. The journey to hit that 95lbs lost was relatively short in retrospect. I began following weight watchers and hitting the gym October of 2010, and by September 2011 I had lost 95lbs! <BR> <BR> But I let it slide when I took my eyes off the prize. For those 11 months working out, eating right and being healthy were like 95% of my thoughts ... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 15:06:36 EST Must be a Tuesday if i'm blogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135715 This is the third Tuesday in a row that i've blogged on Sparkpeople- I must be really getting committed here! <BR> <BR> I did have another terrible weekend. Just can't seem to get on track. I did make a realization that this time around I am not putting my faith and trust into the Weight Watchers program. I was trying to outsmart it, break the rules and win etc... Well thats just... not gonna work. So I am mentally trying to toughen up and instead of saying no to everything, I am spinning i... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 17:33:17 EST March 29th- Week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6130211 Second week in- and I ran another 5K yesterday! This time it was sub 40 minutes- just barely. But that's 3 minutes off my last time... so i'm improving! I hurt like hell today, but... its going! <BR> <BR> My eating has just been okay. Which I know is NOT okay. I've been tracking my food most days of the week. This weekend was a bit of a bust, however, Saturday I did stay within my points. Friday I was slightly over, and Sunday I know I was way over. My grandma in law made a huge spread for ... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 14:32:18 EST My wedding pictures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6125142 http://imgur.com/a/yp0DS <BR> <BR> Above: copy and past the link in your browser. <BR> <BR> I made an imgur album with my favorites! It really was an incredible day that went entirely too fast with SO many emotions. We laughed, we cried, we got married. <BR> <BR> Now I am able to focus more on getting healthy and motivated for our life together. It was seriously impossible (excuse) for m to focus my energy and time to losing weight, eating healthy etc.. while planning a wedding. For me, ... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 12:23:54 EST Sick weekend/ Still drank http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6124399 Lol jsut like my headline- I was still kind of stick this weekend but I spent Friday and Saturday drinking beers. Sometimes my friends/state is not the best to be around when losing weight. However- I did nothing to limit my drinks either. I did try to eat well this weekend with very little success. <BR> <BR> Friday night I met a couple friends out to watch Wisconsin & UWGB basketball games at a local bar. I had probably 5 beers there & a chicken tender basket for dinner. Then we went to an... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 13:11:19 EST What I ate at my wedding & im so ready for summer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6119717 It's been over a week now since we got married- it still feels weird, almost like it didn't happen! But we got all of our wedding pictures back on Sunday- after only a week and a DAY?! We really did have the most amazing wedding photographers ever. ALL of the pictures are amazing and i cannot stop looking at them. Photography was our second largest expense and most important to me behind actually getting hitched. <BR> <BR> When we got our engagement photos back in September I was very dishe... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 09:43:12 EST I got Married! And NOW im going to lose weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115257 Well we did it! I got married last weekend and it was an incredible, amazing, wonderful, fun, FAST day. So much crying- all my dad's fault, he could NOT keep it together! <BR> <BR> I will post a long blog sometime later when I have more pictures, but for now here are the two we got from the photographers so far. BTW the husband/wife team was incredibly fun to work with. This photo of my dad during my grandma's speech/prayer- beautiful. <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/da1d07... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 14:29:40 EST It's the final countdown- till wedding day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085069 Hi hi!! So it's been way too long, but I haven't lost sight of my (continual) weight loss journey. I've had 2 fittings for my wedding dress so right now I am looking at just losing a big of weight before the big day. I mean, it's 33 days away so nothing drastic is gonna happen! I've already lost about 12lbs so thats something. Here are a few pictures from a fitting, makeup trial and hair trials! <BR> <BR> Wedding wise everything is basically ready to go! It's been a crazy nearly year of wor... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 16:55:16 EST Monday- Day 1 WWPP (bonus: Engagement Pictures! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036816 Again! Yay! Well I've decided to try my journey again with Weight watchers. Im going to follow the points plus program which I KIND of gave a try with a long time ago, but not for more than a month or so. <BR> <BR> Things are going great with me otherwise! A lot has been going on. This year- actually the entire time J and I have been engaged has been so busy and flown by so fast. We've only got 3 months and 2 weeks left, until the big day- March 5th. holy shiz. Im looking at getting my dres... Mon, 23 Nov 2015 17:38:55 EST Keto is going great! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949129 Hello Hello!! It's been a couple of weeks since my last check-in! Well It's day 22 on Keto for me, and Its been a fairly easy transition and adaptation for my body. I've lost about 7 lbs so far and what's more, I can FEEL it. My clothes fit better and I feel more mobile. <BR> <BR> My hunger is VERY low, my stomach will rarely growl which is great. I eat more evenly spaced meals for my calorie intake. I've been following a 1500 cal/day count. Now almost all my meals are 500 calories. Usually... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 11:04:14 EST Day 3 on Keto/Atkins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939146 Hump Day- woo. I'm finally getting over being sick. Aside from coughing my butt off I feel good! I slept like crap last night coughing, sweating, freezing, cat and just up a lot! <BR> <BR> Today i'm trying to get in my water, and it's pissing me off! I have to pee nearly every 20 minutes for 2.5 hours after my lunch. So maybe I need to space my water out more. UGH stupid prolapsed pelvis. <BR> <BR> I planned out my meals for the week on Sunday. Here's what I did: <BR> <BR> <img src="ht... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 16:03:56 EST Short HELLO again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937895 Hi guys!! I'm excited to be back and to really utilize Sparkpeople for my benefit. Blogging really helps me not only with weight loss, but with maintaining my sanity and happiness! I'm a writer down deep and SP has always been a great outlet for me. So i'm going to chronicle my summer of KETO/Atkins and training for a killer 5K time! <BR> <BR> I have lots to talk about, its been a really tough several months. I'll type more when i've got more time. But i've been through some emotional thing... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 12:42:29 EST This is where I am... aka my health journey bio http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819053 I need to write this out, this is a current assessment of me right now. Good and bad, I wanted to touch base with myself and get some things in order. My Sparkpeople photo gallery starts with the most recent pictures and works backwards to my beginning of journey. <BR> <BR> My name is still Danielle. I am engaged to my favorite man in the world, Josh. We bonded over our own healthy journey's. We're both obese. We're both working on losing as much weight to feel as comfortable as possible on ... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 16:49:48 EST burrito and ice cream. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818966 I am a little nervous for weigh-in tomorrow morning. I did not have a great weekend. I ate/drank over my calories for the weekend probably a total of 3000, so there's that pound I worked hard to burn the last week. I actually tracked everything on MFP, which was good. I was saying how I didnt think i did that badly this weekend, Josh said "welll......" and once I tracked everything... wellllll it wasnt good. haha. <BR> <BR> I didnt workout Sat or Sunday either. I DID really enjoy my day off... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 13:36:51 EST Day 10...keep on keepin on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815842 Okay- so it's day 10. Balls it feels like it should be longer than that! But I guess ive done a lot in these last 10 days. Im comfortable with saying that only...2 of those days did I go overboard. A Saturday and a Sunday, go figure. <BR> <BR> I do have to remind myself every day that I am not going to be like I used to be. I am minding my food intake. I am trying to be conscious of what I eat and how much of it. Ive been doing well with not snacking and keeping to eating only at mealtimes ... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 22:48:48 EST Little bumps in the road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814300 My god this week is already better than last week! I finally am able to have a bit of breathing room at work. Im not swamped, im not stressed and I feel like im doing well in most areas of life. But let's get real, its only 1:15 on a Monday. <BR> <BR> Either way im feeling good coming out of the weekend. I had a good time hanging out with friends, going out, enjoying a few martinis and a healthy restaurant dinner. I didnt workout this weekend at all. I really didnt feel motivated to! I did ... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 14:26:57 EST Saturday!! Day 6. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813082 ITs been such a great week so far! My November goals are going strong. Im probably going to drink just 4 times instead of 3. We had a spontaneous group dinner date come up tonight with our friends. Dinner should be fine, but after, Josh and I are taking them to a martini bar we love. There are over 50 fun kinds of drinks, is insane! Two and you're good I swear. So I think I will partake, but be aware of the unhealthiness of certain kinds. And again, only two! <BR> <BR> I smoked as well. Thi... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 12:23:32 EST Day one is always easy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810740 Its day two- feelin like a boss! Last night I caught myself thinking that some cookies would be tasty. But I shut that sh*t down real fast. The first day is always easy, motivation is high, things are planned and you're super ready to do things right. Days 2-9 is really tough. So im glad my day two is planned out and going well! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was under my calorie goal (woot!) and I burnt a hella lot of calories at the gym. I did 35 minutes on the ARC trainer- and that is not your ty... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 13:52:38 EST Crunch time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810056 Lets get this out real quick- work is so busy! Just ate tasty pasta leftovers- Alfredo, but healthy portion. Had some scrambled eggs w/ cheese this morning. Got the week off to a good start! Tonight we're having grilled chili-lime chicken breasts w/ peppers and side of corn. OMNOM! <BR> <BR> SO I have some lofty goals for November. Here goes: <BR> <BR> Only drink 3 times- no matter the amount (less the better obvi) but only 3 times. If I lose- I must wear my tightest pants for an hour. <B... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 14:04:19 EST well, screw you too scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806862 Im writing this while hanging my head low and eating a danish. I'm pretty down today because I weighed in this morning and am a super-awesome 242.7. Yeah, that's 3 lbs heavier than last week. I knew I had a bad weekend, but come on. This is just ridiculous. <BR> <BR> Alright, I can't get mad at the stupid scale. It was ME who drank and ate cake. And didnt count points all weekend. Im falling into the same self-laid trap I did with my fitness pal. Maybe I should go back to that? Im not too s... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 09:58:29 EST Gotta look for the victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805707 Monday- urg! Im beginning the busiest work week of my year today (yet I find time to blog... because work is dumb, thats why) So im doing my best to get work done and done right. Whatever, I dont want to talk about work hah! <BR> <BR> This weekend was a pretty good one. Downside: I didnt eat well at all. Upside: I worked out both days! I didnt drink an obscene amount either both days. I had probably 10 beers between both days. <BR> <BR> Dinner out with my parents and sister on Friday was ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 12:59:09 EST Snapshot: a typical wednesday evening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803095 Hump Day is over- which means this crazy week is half over! Well- I feel like im finding my way back into being on track and steady in my weight loss. While its been a really rocky start- I AM losing slowly, but consistently. <BR> <BR> Since 2.5 weeks ago I'm down 2.4 lbs. Not too shabby, because I KNOW I am doing things right. I still am not eating the best, my calorie/points have been over yesterday and today. Red flag, Danielle, time to step it up and shut that sh*t down. Today was treat... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 23:34:20 EST Healthiest weekend in a long time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801547 Happy Happy Monday! This week at work is probably going to be the toughest of the year. And if it's not this week- it will be next week for sure. BUT then.... it will be ACTUAL christmastime and I can enjoy it lol. Xmas music after Halloween, yay! <BR> <BR> So I went to the party on Friday! After writing out my fears I felt much better about them, they felt smaller and just kind of dumb. I actually had really good time. Spent some money I didnt plan to on the products, but they sold me. And... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 13:18:49 EST Thursday 10.16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799350 Thursday- UGH I wish it were Friday. This week is just a pain in the butt, however next week will be worse. Its busy at work, lots and LOTS to do for black Friday and Christmas ads. <BR> <BR> Yesteday was treat day and ill be honest I didnt do too well. There was this cake- not even GOOD cake, but I had two sizeable (3" x 3") pieces. It was toffee cake with peanutbutter/vanilla frosting. Sounds better than it was most likely. I stress ate. Stupid cake wasnt even that good. I didnt workout y... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 14:29:12 EST Tuesday boo day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798209 Well I am successfully ignoring Friday-Sunday last week. Today and yesterday have been good. Unfortunately I got my Shark week (period) and am just a raging b**ch right now. <BR> <BR> Im going to use it to have some kind of killer workout tonight. Im unsure of what to do yet, but at the moment I feel like destroying my legs. So either arc trainer and leg strength training OR HIIT on the treadmill and back day. Either one seems just fine for my purposes of getting frustration and crab out of... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 17:25:42 EST Let's ignore Friday-Sunday this week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797104 Well no one's perfect. And I didn't have a perfect weekend, my plan didn't follow through. Meaning I didn't follow through and stay strong. I tend to forget about consequences when I am in a situation that im enjoying myself and just don't want to care. It's Sunday evening and the weekend is done so im gonna do a pros and cons list. <BR> <BR> Pro: <BR> Ate only half of my 9" pizza out for dinner on Friday <BR> <BR> Con: <BR> Drank a pitcher of PBR plus about 7 bud lights. Followed by drun... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 22:39:23 EST It's tough- no end in sight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795521 Ive been having a great week back with weight watchers. I went over on two days but was under two other days. Im not quite sure of where to put my mentality right now. I had such a wonderful mindset that somehow honed itsself the first time I began the lifestyle change. <BR> <BR> Now my life is different. Now I have my fiance, pets, hobbies, friends etc! Before, back in 2010, I basically shut off all aspects of "fun" or what I thought of as fun. Honestly that might be what I have to do now.... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 22:28:50 EST Apps instead of paying for http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794189 Stick with what you know and with what works, right? I've bought an app for weight watchers points plus! It's day two and I feel fine! I want to keep my motivation up, keep my food under control (ALL WEEK and WEEKEND) and just keep track of my points! <BR> <BR> Im using this lame-named app called iTrackBites. And instead of "points plus" they call them bites. Hokey, but whatever. <BR> <BR> Here's the interface with all the info on it- my home screen if you will. <BR> <img src="http://ph... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 17:31:56 EST Monday 7.14: RUN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738633 Yay- another weekend down. This summer is just cruising by, and we havent had a whole lot of warm weather to enjoy it. But to be fair, yesterday I had all day to do anything, but instead I did laundry and nothing else haha. It would have been a great day to float down the wolf river with some beers- it was WARM! <BR> <BR> I had a friend visit from out of town (but he's friends with tons of people, so he was just floating around all weekend) and he wouldn't make any solid plans. It was just ... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 12:40:14 EST Friday 7.11 ooooo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736690 WELL- this week has been great up until yesterday around... 12. Not that it's all lost either! I just had a bad calorie day yesterday and today will be bad as well. <BR> <BR> This week I have ran 8.5 miles (about 2 of them were walk/sprinting). I have been at or below my calories 3 times. I went disc golfing one night. I haven't had chocolate until this morning. SO overall it's been a really good week! <BR> <BR> I said no to gourmet cupcakes, I only had half a piece of apple bread, and ha... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:44:17 EST Monday 7.7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733848 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l540907339.jpg"> <BR> <BR> WHEW! What a weekend. I had the best time camping with friends from Thursday-Sunday. I didn't get a workout in and ate/drank too much. Im not going to beat myself up- I didnt have the drive to try limiting myself over the holiday. We had 2 amazing campsites, lots of firewood, beer and food. We swam on the beach, rented a pontoon that didn't fare well in the giant winds of Saturday. I got uber suburnt and have some ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 13:25:41 EST Monday 6.30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729238 Sh!t son it's JULY tomorrow! Summer feels like it arrived like... 2 weeks ago finally. But then it rained the past week as well! Whatever, its going to be a very nice 4th of July weekend! Its been a while since I posted- whoops. Ive been really busy helping my friend get married- which she did on Saturday. <BR> <BR> Being a maid of honor is tough. It's a busy job, stressful, yet rewarding. I had such an amazing time helping out with Jen's wedding. Me and Josh helped set up a LOT of decorati... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 17:17:45 EST Thursday- 6.19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721451 Wow yesterday sucked for me. It's my shark week and this month it really hit me hard with all the side effects. All week ive been stupidly emotional and just blahhhh. Yesterday was a seriously tough busy busy day at work. I got home at 6:45 after not hitting the gym like I should have. So that put me in a funk. <BR> <BR> Then it was grocery shopping time with Josh. And i really dont know why, but whenever we go grocery shopping I get into a weird mood. I either get annoyingly hyper or a deb... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 14:05:47 EST Sunday 6.15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718778 Crapballs it's already halfway through June. I hate to say it but time really does go by faster as you get older. Things don't get any easier and the schedule just gets busier. <BR> <BR> Luckily I had a rare weekend with no plans except for a 10K on Saturday morning. Of course I didnt train for it and assumed that with my previous conditioning like... a YEAR ago running a half marathon I would be ok. Well.. the thing ruined me. I felt like such an azz to myself that I couldn't run more than... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 23:37:21 EST Thursday 6/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716446 Its been a good week so far- in EVERYTHING! Thanks so much to my good friends on Spark, I loved all your congrats for my engagement. I get the ring sized hopefully tomorrow! Its a little bit big- weee! <BR> <BR> Anyway, the reason i'm here- health. This week Ive been doing really great with my nutrition! I have stuck with following my calorie limit (1350) per day and marked down EVERYTHING that ive eaten. Honestly its not that hard if I just keep myself reeled in and dont stray from the foo... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 11:18:27 EST Engaged! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715099 My man proposed last Tuesday, I said YES! I wrote about it in my other blog- check it out! <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public<BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715044 <BR> (Tuesday 6.10) <BR> <BR> Time to stop being like THIS: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1710105876.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And start being like this! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2034607364.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 16:13:29 EST Tuesday 6.10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715044 So haay! Yesterday was a good day for me eating wise. I didnt snack on anything bad- I DID finish half of a small oreo mcflurry I forgot about Sunday. But it was within my calories im pretty sure. <BR> <BR> <BR> I can definitely feel that my body is craving a little bit of exercise. Its been a while since I did anything. Probably about a week. After the weekend I had- I really need to get moving. <BR> <BR> Oh what happened last week and last weekend? Welll..... <BR> <BR> <img src="htt... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 14:35:54 EST Let's DO THIS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714257 You know- It was hard for me to not start a new Sparkpage and really make myself feel like I'm "starting over". <BR> <BR> But my life has changed now and a lot of things are different anyway! So why not keep all these memories, blogs, pictures and friends and keep on this journey with all of it. <BR> <BR> I AM back at day 1 again. I gained 35lbs in a year. Not too bad, but not good either. I think some has to do with anxiety medication. But most has to do with my eating and working out hab... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 13:57:23 EST Small Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678016 For the inner Healthy DB (my initials). The fat girl took control for about 10 minutes, but I slapped her and said NO! <BR> <BR> I went down to warm up my healthy choice steamer and fat girl said "Those never fill me up, I should get something else too" So i went and got a small cup of soup and like a 6" chocolate chip cookie, thinking "oh ill give some to my co-worker, Matt" <BR> <BR> Turns out my steamer was actually REALLY flavorful and filling- broccoli and beef Asian something. So i ... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 15:34:06 EST Crunch time- crush the fat girl inside. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677181 This isnt going to be a positive blog- so don't let me ruin your good mood if you're in one! <BR> <BR> So I am not sure why my body is deciding to really put the pressure on me to lose weight, but things aren't working very well. Its all internal, it's all me. My healthy lifestyle mentality just will not come back and stay with me. Ive used, like, every excuse around to account for my decline in progress. Im up to 230lbs now, that's about 30lbs heavier than I was last year. Granted it was i... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 15:04:01 EST Eating habits get me high http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650903 High in weight that is. When I get into working out I kick A$$ at it. I stick to a routine, push myself and feel good! I set a goal for myself because it's easy to do something physical to meet the goal. But I also lose track of how I should be eating. <BR> <BR> I think since I started my journey 3.5 years ago the eating has been my biggest issue. Well... it's probably everyone's issue lol. But it's been very difficult for me to maintain a healthy way of eating. Ive said it's difficult maki... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 16:13:28 EST Not the WORST weekend..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644415 But it could have been better. I didn't get a crazy big workout in, but i did go for a brisk cold 60 minute walk with J on Saturday. <BR> <BR> Friday I did make myself proud though. J and I met up with a friend couple and headed to a Casino night fundraiser for Parent Resource Center in Fond Du Lac. We ate a quick dinner before leaving- I had a sammich. Then when we got there i didn't drink. WHAAA?! Yeah, I know. I actually didn't feel like drinking and I really had a great time without it.... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 12:00:10 EST I was Spark People's Motivator of the Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641706 Wow- what an honor! And one I feel I don't entirely deserve as of late. True, I have been in an absent spell from SP, but weekly I do stop in to see how my friends are doing. <BR> <BR> It's been a trying year for me since last February. I'm happy to say that I feel I have conquered my anxiety, transitioned into being ready for marriage and a future with my boyfriend, really come into my own and done a lot of soul searching and exploring. This year I did take the time needed just for me. I s... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 22:14:22 EST Thursday- way better than Monday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610161 I cant believe it's Thursday already! This week has kind of flown by. I am definitely feeling better than I was on Monday. Thanks to my Sparkfriends for making me feel a little better about not being on my game 100% of the time. <BR> <BR> I haven't been eating the best this week- but I have eaten worse. Yesterday was a bad day for food. It was all sugary snacks too! I have this dilemma. I am signed up for treat day- which is every wednesday someone brings snacks for everyone. Then we go thr... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:43:38 EST Never drinking again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607111 UGH! I have a 2-day hangover on the fine Monday morning. This weekend it was my little sister's birthday and it was me that partied too hard. Typical. 99.999% I WILL drink again, but I don't want to be DRUNK for a very verry long time. <BR> <BR> I think Im hitting that point where it's just.. sad for me to get drunk. I'm almost 29 years old and I think it's time to let go of that "party hard" mentality. Thinking about it the past few times I have gotten drunk like that I did some embarrass... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 11:41:41 EST