DANIELLESAUTUMN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DANIELLESAUTUMN DANIELLESAUTUMN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Monday 7.14: RUN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738633 Yay- another weekend down. This summer is just cruising by, and we havent had a whole lot of warm weather to enjoy it. But to be fair, yesterday I had all day to do anything, but instead I did laundry and nothing else haha. It would have been a great day to float down the wolf river with some beers- it was WARM! <BR> <BR> I had a friend visit from out of town (but he's friends with tons of people, so he was just floating around all weekend) and he wouldn't make any solid plans. It was just ... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 12:40:14 EST Friday 7.11 ooooo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736690 WELL- this week has been great up until yesterday around... 12. Not that it's all lost either! I just had a bad calorie day yesterday and today will be bad as well. <BR> <BR> This week I have ran 8.5 miles (about 2 of them were walk/sprinting). I have been at or below my calories 3 times. I went disc golfing one night. I haven't had chocolate until this morning. SO overall it's been a really good week! <BR> <BR> I said no to gourmet cupcakes, I only had half a piece of apple bread, and ha... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:44:17 EST Monday 7.7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733848 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l540907339.jpg"> <BR> <BR> WHEW! What a weekend. I had the best time camping with friends from Thursday-Sunday. I didn't get a workout in and ate/drank too much. Im not going to beat myself up- I didnt have the drive to try limiting myself over the holiday. We had 2 amazing campsites, lots of firewood, beer and food. We swam on the beach, rented a pontoon that didn't fare well in the giant winds of Saturday. I got uber suburnt and have some ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 13:25:41 EST Monday 6.30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729238 Sh!t son it's JULY tomorrow! Summer feels like it arrived like... 2 weeks ago finally. But then it rained the past week as well! Whatever, its going to be a very nice 4th of July weekend! Its been a while since I posted- whoops. Ive been really busy helping my friend get married- which she did on Saturday. <BR> <BR> Being a maid of honor is tough. It's a busy job, stressful, yet rewarding. I had such an amazing time helping out with Jen's wedding. Me and Josh helped set up a LOT of decorati... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 17:17:45 EST Thursday- 6.19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721451 Wow yesterday sucked for me. It's my shark week and this month it really hit me hard with all the side effects. All week ive been stupidly emotional and just blahhhh. Yesterday was a seriously tough busy busy day at work. I got home at 6:45 after not hitting the gym like I should have. So that put me in a funk. <BR> <BR> Then it was grocery shopping time with Josh. And i really dont know why, but whenever we go grocery shopping I get into a weird mood. I either get annoyingly hyper or a deb... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 14:05:47 EST Sunday 6.15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718778 Crapballs it's already halfway through June. I hate to say it but time really does go by faster as you get older. Things don't get any easier and the schedule just gets busier. <BR> <BR> Luckily I had a rare weekend with no plans except for a 10K on Saturday morning. Of course I didnt train for it and assumed that with my previous conditioning like... a YEAR ago running a half marathon I would be ok. Well.. the thing ruined me. I felt like such an azz to myself that I couldn't run more than... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 23:37:21 EST Thursday 6/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716446 Its been a good week so far- in EVERYTHING! Thanks so much to my good friends on Spark, I loved all your congrats for my engagement. I get the ring sized hopefully tomorrow! Its a little bit big- weee! <BR> <BR> Anyway, the reason i'm here- health. This week Ive been doing really great with my nutrition! I have stuck with following my calorie limit (1350) per day and marked down EVERYTHING that ive eaten. Honestly its not that hard if I just keep myself reeled in and dont stray from the foo... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 11:18:27 EST Engaged! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715099 My man proposed last Tuesday, I said YES! I wrote about it in my other blog- check it out! <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public<BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715044 <BR> (Tuesday 6.10) <BR> <BR> Time to stop being like THIS: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1710105876.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And start being like this! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2034607364.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 16:13:29 EST Tuesday 6.10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715044 So haay! Yesterday was a good day for me eating wise. I didnt snack on anything bad- I DID finish half of a small oreo mcflurry I forgot about Sunday. But it was within my calories im pretty sure. <BR> <BR> <BR> I can definitely feel that my body is craving a little bit of exercise. Its been a while since I did anything. Probably about a week. After the weekend I had- I really need to get moving. <BR> <BR> Oh what happened last week and last weekend? Welll..... <BR> <BR> <img src="htt... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 14:35:54 EST Let's DO THIS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714257 You know- It was hard for me to not start a new Sparkpage and really make myself feel like I'm "starting over". <BR> <BR> But my life has changed now and a lot of things are different anyway! So why not keep all these memories, blogs, pictures and friends and keep on this journey with all of it. <BR> <BR> I AM back at day 1 again. I gained 35lbs in a year. Not too bad, but not good either. I think some has to do with anxiety medication. But most has to do with my eating and working out hab... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 13:57:23 EST Small Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678016 For the inner Healthy DB (my initials). The fat girl took control for about 10 minutes, but I slapped her and said NO! <BR> <BR> I went down to warm up my healthy choice steamer and fat girl said "Those never fill me up, I should get something else too" So i went and got a small cup of soup and like a 6" chocolate chip cookie, thinking "oh ill give some to my co-worker, Matt" <BR> <BR> Turns out my steamer was actually REALLY flavorful and filling- broccoli and beef Asian something. So i ... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 15:34:06 EST Crunch time- crush the fat girl inside. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677181 This isnt going to be a positive blog- so don't let me ruin your good mood if you're in one! <BR> <BR> So I am not sure why my body is deciding to really put the pressure on me to lose weight, but things aren't working very well. Its all internal, it's all me. My healthy lifestyle mentality just will not come back and stay with me. Ive used, like, every excuse around to account for my decline in progress. Im up to 230lbs now, that's about 30lbs heavier than I was last year. Granted it was i... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 15:04:01 EST Eating habits get me high http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650903 High in weight that is. When I get into working out I kick A$$ at it. I stick to a routine, push myself and feel good! I set a goal for myself because it's easy to do something physical to meet the goal. But I also lose track of how I should be eating. <BR> <BR> I think since I started my journey 3.5 years ago the eating has been my biggest issue. Well... it's probably everyone's issue lol. But it's been very difficult for me to maintain a healthy way of eating. Ive said it's difficult maki... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 16:13:28 EST Not the WORST weekend..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644415 But it could have been better. I didn't get a crazy big workout in, but i did go for a brisk cold 60 minute walk with J on Saturday. <BR> <BR> Friday I did make myself proud though. J and I met up with a friend couple and headed to a Casino night fundraiser for Parent Resource Center in Fond Du Lac. We ate a quick dinner before leaving- I had a sammich. Then when we got there i didn't drink. WHAAA?! Yeah, I know. I actually didn't feel like drinking and I really had a great time without it.... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 12:00:10 EST I was Spark People's Motivator of the Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641706 Wow- what an honor! And one I feel I don't entirely deserve as of late. True, I have been in an absent spell from SP, but weekly I do stop in to see how my friends are doing. <BR> <BR> It's been a trying year for me since last February. I'm happy to say that I feel I have conquered my anxiety, transitioned into being ready for marriage and a future with my boyfriend, really come into my own and done a lot of soul searching and exploring. This year I did take the time needed just for me. I s... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 22:14:22 EST Thursday- way better than Monday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610161 I cant believe it's Thursday already! This week has kind of flown by. I am definitely feeling better than I was on Monday. Thanks to my Sparkfriends for making me feel a little better about not being on my game 100% of the time. <BR> <BR> I haven't been eating the best this week- but I have eaten worse. Yesterday was a bad day for food. It was all sugary snacks too! I have this dilemma. I am signed up for treat day- which is every wednesday someone brings snacks for everyone. Then we go thr... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:43:38 EST Never drinking again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607111 UGH! I have a 2-day hangover on the fine Monday morning. This weekend it was my little sister's birthday and it was me that partied too hard. Typical. 99.999% I WILL drink again, but I don't want to be DRUNK for a very verry long time. <BR> <BR> I think Im hitting that point where it's just.. sad for me to get drunk. I'm almost 29 years old and I think it's time to let go of that "party hard" mentality. Thinking about it the past few times I have gotten drunk like that I did some embarrass... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 11:41:41 EST No snowboarding :( UBER WORKOUT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589236 So my snowboarding trip was cancelled. The girl who organized everything (and was the ride) got the flu really bad 2 days ago and was getting fevers throughout the night and this morning. And another girl had a bad day at the Dr w/ passing out after them taking blood. DRAMA!! Yes, i'm very sad.... but I figured this could happen when girl #1 called in sick 2 days in a row. <BR> <BR> Now me and blood girl are planning to take a day off of work and to go a place 2 hours closer to home, and ch... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 13:03:06 EST Blog.. because blog. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585685 Okay- so Sunday and Yesterday I slipped. Sunday night I had lots of Cherry Vodka/Coke Zero drinks. Yesterday I had some cookies, and then hit the hazlenut spread hard last night. I was so mad that I couldn't stop eating it. See last nights blog. Like WHERE does my healthy mindset go? Oh that's right, the sugar monster won over. Picture me with a little devil and angel on my shoulders. Angel is the healthy me, devil is the sugar me. Right now the angel is just chilling, working her way up to ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 13:17:51 EST Elimination Round 1: ME vs. JIF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585031 Two honking.. okay 2.5 honking spoonfulls later I had to kill this STUPID jar of "Hazlenut spread" AKA pure junk that tastes like the inside of a truffle. My willpower cannot overcome this sh!t. <BR> <BR> So this happened. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1581803930.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l304673494.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1235937706.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 22:56:25 EST Slope Hitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584298 I heard on the radio this morning that today is the "Most depressing day of the Year". I guess the first Monday after New years is always a rough one for people. No more short weeks, beginning of a new year, and apparently most people have already given up on their resolutions. Pfft... not even a week past New Years! <BR> <BR> Okay, so I have zero right to scoff at having no resolve to finish something- I'm so guilty of it myself. Willpower, i've heard, needs to be exercised like a muscle- ... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 12:40:30 EST Journey Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581044 JANUARY 3RD! Yesterday was first day restricting my calories in a looong time. Like, no cheating, nothing in my mouth not accounted for cal counting. I came in right below 1200 calories. <BR> <BR> I was actually way below that for net calories, not good I know, but I had a late night popcorn snack to eat up 200 more cals. I was pretty hungry in the morning- but I ate some carrots to satiate myself till lunch. <BR> <BR> I did eat way too many carbs yesterday- so today i've tired to get it ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 17:18:46 EST Obiligatory NY resolution blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579589 Woo woo! So it's the new year and I'm determined to become a new me (which oddly enough is going to have the same mentality about health as the old new me). In October of this year it will be 4 years since I started the Journey. The Journey pretty muck stopped after 1 full year, but maintenance was always there. Recently it was not so much maintaining as gaining. <BR> <BR> I have re-examined my goals, made some new ones and am trying to have this year be as great as 2009-2010 in terms of we... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 14:40:49 EST Food Snobbery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566704 Man, Monday was a rough one for me. I got a little down in the dumps- my depression and anxiety have been creeping back up slightly. I do think it's the season to blame- to changing of seasons. I get bored, restless, anxious and sad. Just like my life isn't moving foreword at all and I am not growing. I really make it a personal goal to always be growing as a person, and to keep my relationship growing. And when things freeze outside as well as inside the house I get a little wacky and emotio... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 17:38:40 EST Running Free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565680 I'm thinking about changing my username. Ive had the same one forever, use it for everything, and if you do a google search on it just about EVERY image I've posted in a blog comes up. Including my bra and undie progress pics. I have no good ideas yet for one, but I kind of want something like "FreeRunner"... something having to do with running. <BR> <BR> Most people either love or hate running I've discovered. I havent met too many people that don't have a strong opinion of it either way. ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 12:53:54 EST oh weekend... you suck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565559 Health-wise my weekend was a bust. I didn't get a gym workout in, I overindulged in food on Friday and Sunday. Saturday I overindulged in beer. <BR> <BR> Friday night I had ~10 beers from 6-2a.m. I split a toppers pizza with a friend and had a cake pop. Late at night I decided to whip up some cheesy hashed browns for JL and I. He was gaming all night and a bit drunk himself. THe hashed browns were amazing lol. Not bad for improvising. <BR> <BR> Saturday was cleaning day! I spent my mornin... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 10:36:29 EST Humpity Hump Dayyyye http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562122 HuMP DAYEE! It's Wednesday, woot woot! So far so good for this week. My plans have been holding and im pretty proud of myself. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the department Xmas luncheon. I got super slacker and ended up just picking up some M&Ms and Reeses pb bells for my "dessert". I drank lots of water all day. I kept my goal of only getting 1 plate of food and 4 desserts. I was full too! For the desserts, there were surprisingly only 4 there so I was okay. I took smaller portions of the tortes... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 12:24:46 EST Weekend. Plan to succeed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560077 Okay! So its been a good weekend! I did not work out at all, bummer. BUT I walked a lot on Saturday shopping my face off and getting most of my Christmas presents done. Im feeling OCD so let's go with a list blog- <BR> <BR> Friday: Made an amazing chicken vodka farfalle pasta for JL and I- I blended 3/4c frozen spinach and 2c frozen broccoli and added it to the sauce. It was SO good! I had exactly the portion I had planned. This weekend I have to say that the only extra calories I consumed w... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 22:12:23 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558490 IT's Day 3, and day 2 I slipped. I had a serving of chips and queso and a small popcorn at the movies. SO i was about 10-12 WW points over for yesterday. Something lovely about weight watchers is that there is the weekly allowance points. I usually don't use them, but they are part of the system and I will use them for yesterday. 13 for yesterday. <BR> <BR> Tonight JL (my man) are decorating the tree- and its always hard to keep the wine/treats under wraps on a normal Friday- let alone a ho... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 15:38:24 EST No end to run for http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557144 I did great today! I am on the decline of a wicked bad cold so I hadn't planned on working out, but once I got home I just felt the need to do something for myself. I tried yoga! Im not one to do things lightly, so of course I went right for Jillian Michaels' Yoga Meltdown. 30 minutes of mixed yoga moves- felt great! It was lower intensity, just more body weight moves than I've done in a while. <BR> <BR> I counted my weight watchers points plus today and I was spot on. I even allowed myself... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 22:12:27 EST Need to Spark more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556702 It's been a while guys! Things have been going pretty good, except my weight loss. Since my half marathon back in May I kind of let myself go a bit. And the past few months have been pretty dull in terms of Sparking, eating right, watching what I eat, working out, setting goals, KEEPING goals, ACHIEVING goals and other ...goal related..things. <BR> <BR> SO- What's been lacking is my willpower. At work it's been awful- Ive been hitting up the cafeteria several times a week either for meals o... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 10:18:55 EST half finished http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422071 Hooray Monday! Err not. Whatever! This weekend was pretty good with all things considered! This was the best I've eaten on a weekend in probably a month or so! I unfortunately did not get any workouts in because I was slammed with a Sinus cold on Friday. I could feel it coming on all day and come 8p.m. I knew I had it bad. <BR> <BR> My sinuses were just stuffed like crazy, drippy nose and crazy sore throat. So I relaxed in bed and had to ditch Josh on our Date night :( He tucked me in and I... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:03:55 EST Some pics from the last few months! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418861 So I finally got a card reader so I can put pictures on my computer at work. I dont even put them on my computer at home because I didnt have one! So anyway here's some stuff i've been doing that has kept my progress at bay for a while. AKA not caring what I drink mostly. <BR> <BR> But since I've come through the darkness of my anxiety and depression earlier this year things have been great. My medication has very few side effects- none that affect me daily that I can tell! I still have tim... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 11:53:20 EST July 11th already?! Good week so far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418030 The past few days have been good eating wise! Yesterday i was about 400 calories over and I didnt workout. And the reason for that was Josh brought home a rotisserie chicken from grocery shopping and even though I had a pork roast in the oven we decided to have the chicken and potatoes. No veggies. <BR> <BR> Aaaand well half of a rotisserie chicken isn't that great for you. Plus I don't really pick around much of the fat, I friggin love the fat. And the skin- I really let it go last night. ... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 15:44:32 EST Dis mah plan! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415785 Okay!!! So this weekend/4 day 4th of July vacation did not go as healthy as expected. Really at all. I was definitely sidetracked. Good things though: I did not get fast food (keeping my streak to like 4 weeks) I had a blast, a few times I said no or passed on things I wanted and could have had, but chose not to. <BR> <BR> Last week I weighed in at 204.4. So a bit up from my 199.7 that happened in Mid May. Then this morning after the weekend I was 207.9. HOWEVER- I am reminding myself that ... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 17:03:06 EST Sh*t show of a weekend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407603 WELL WELL- look who's here! Mainly just because I need to blog and get some crap off my chest. But that will be later. Let's start with what the heck i've been up to!! <BR> <BR> Since my half marathon and 10K i've been having a great time. 2 weeks ago I began hardcore trying to lose weight and get into the lifestyle I lived in 2 years ago when kicking azz at losing weight. My boyfriend is doing it with me, and I feel like I need to be strong for him. He looks to me as leader in our health. A... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 15:20:05 EST Half Marathon, 10K and new phases! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395294 So I accomplished my Half Marathon just over 3 weeks ago! And really since then I haven't done much to keep myself healthy. I think a lot of people go through that post-hard work race period, and mine was finally over on Monday. <BR> <BR> In the past 3 weeks I have done so much. I went camping, I played tennis, I hiked, I finished a scrapbook, I hung out with the future in-laws and I celebrated my Birthday with a Brewer Game trip! <BR> <BR> I also did about 4-5 sessions of strength traini... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 14:15:25 EST Finished my first Half- Marathon!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362132 Well I did it!! This is just going to be a quick update- I will write more about my amazing experience later. I am so proud of have finished this goal I set for myself back in January. And through all of the trials I had from then until now- I always kept reaching for that half-marathon goal. <BR> <BR> It was hard as hell and I definitely wasn't feeling the best I ever had before a long run. But I did it, I got my medal, and I have the satisfaction of not being chained by a running schedule... Mon, 20 May 2013 10:48:52 EST 100lbs lost & my first Half Marathon on Sunday!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356403 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=4533460 (earase the space after "J" in journal when pasting) Or see my "ONE YEAR DONE!!! and 92.5lbs lost (lots of pics)" Blog from Oct. 13 2011 <BR> <BR> It HAS been 2.5 years since I started this journey on October 15, 2010. It has been a crap ton of work. It HAS had many ups and downs. It wasn't always easy. I was not perfect. <BR> <BR> In fact, I feel that even though the first year was hardcore intense and foc... Tue, 14 May 2013 14:25:08 EST Blah about half marathon training. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339417 This is not going to be one of my most inspirational blogs. Today I feel defeated. I really let myself down this weekend and the scale said 204.4 this morning. <BR> <BR> I actually ate every meal at home, but I guess I ate too much of it? I had a beer and a big glass of wine on Friday, 3 32 oz beers at a football game on Saturday, and a whole frozen pizza w/ like a cup of cheese added to it (but the pizza itsself was only 750 calories). I also didn't do a long run when I absolutely should h... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 12:01:32 EST Longest Run of my life- 11.5 mi (and on a Monday?!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332868 So this weekend was kind of a letdown with my eating. I ate at home ONCE the entire weekend. Terrible. However, I kept my fast food meals (somewhat) lighter and ate less when it was bad. So needless to say coming out of it yesterday I was feeling a bit sad at myself and worried I may have self-sabotaged to the point of no return. <BR> <BR> Well weighing in yesterday I was 203.3, up 2.2 lbs from last Wednesday. However I know some of it was water weight and just excess. On Sunday I attempte... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 11:28:54 EST Ran 10 miles yesterday!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323889 Happy Monday!!!! Yay! Well I think it's going to be a busy week at work, stupid work. I'm not excited about it at all lately, things just aren't going my way. Whatever, it's been 5 years and barely anything here has gone my way. <BR> <BR> Whatever, screw work! I had a great weekend! For once I didn't have anything planned. No events, no dates, no obligations etc.. it was great! The goal for this weekend was to eat healthy/within my WW points. Since I missed my Thursday run because I hit up a... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 11:10:02 EST Sports/Beer Weekend(*Pics!), So close to ONEderland! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319667 Yay tomorrow's Friday!! It's been an exhausting week coming back from a nice little weekend away. <BR> <BR> Last weekend I took Josh to Milwaukee for his birthday! We stayed at the Aloft in MKE and wow is it an awesome hotel! and bonus, it was right by all the places we wanted to go there! So Friday around 3 we got in, I showered, we relaxed with some interesting beers we bought. I had a very dark vanilla oatmeal stout, a very bitter IPA and then a couple Shock Top Honeycrisp apple beers (... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 12:53:02 EST Punishment by mile. Compensation! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308672 Hello Lovelies! It's Tuesday, hoorah! Tomorrow's hump day, yay! <BR> <BR> So my Easter weekend wasn't healthy. Here's the rundown: <BR> <BR> Friday- Josh and I went out for one of his friend's Birthdays. He said he was only going to have two, and I was like, maybe i'll have 4. We vowed to not eat junk however and stopped at Subway to get dinner before going to the bar (which has effing amazing wings). We both resisted the blue vanilla and chocolate cupcakes (small victory) and I had one sm... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 10:05:11 EST First run outside! Kicked butt. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304363 Yayyy it's Friday! This week seemed to go by fast. Weigh in was not super awesome, I was 207.7- which is .6lb down from last week, and I was really sore. This morning I was 206.6- so hopefully it keeps going down! <BR> <BR> I am going to do my best to have a healthy weekend! Josh and I caved and exchanged out Easter baskets last night- we hid them and everything lol. He got me the Hobbit on DVD and a $20 gc to my online scrapbooking site! Plus 6 Snickers peanut butter eggs and a bag of pean... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 12:58:36 EST Finished my longest run yet! Had a Good weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299428 Well I had a great weekend! I didn't really have many plans, I just knew that I had an 8 mile run coming my way. <BR> <BR> I am a week into my anti-anxiety meds and things have been going pretty good! I had a couple side effects starting out, and I know it's not fully kicked in yet, but I feel okay for the most part. I was very fidgety at first and had some slight shaking and a little unwarranted anxiety, but that died down after like day 4. Otherwise for the most part physical side effects... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 11:58:48 EST Mind definitely affects the body- ready for spring too! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291084 Well no news isn't always good news. But it's not terrible in my case anyway. It's been a very long winter, and I had an even longer February. It's kind of crappy to say, but its basically like I needed to get my sh*t together. <BR> <BR> I finally gave in after a month and a half of anxiety, depression and overall crazy feelings and went to see a councilor. A lot of my anxiety stemmed from being unsure about my relationship and where it was going to go. Also I realized I have some personal ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 12:37:23 EST WI tomorrow- WTF did I do this weekend!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238862 Happy Tuesday! Whew- I'm already excited for the weekend. It's been a busy week= and my boss is back today after being gone all last week. Haha it was nice to be honest. <BR> <BR> So it's been a normal week so far, nothing too exciting or too bad has happened. On Sunday me and BF hosted our first Super Bowl Party, and both sides of our friends were together for the first time! It was such a blast! I didn't worry too much about trying to make everyone talk, get along, or if they were having ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 14:21:07 EST Emotionally hard January, lost 15lbs though! Hopefully Feb brings Joy and contentment. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231724 Well!! It's the end of January and what an insane month it has been. I can't say I'm sad to see it go however. Life has been really difficult the past few weeks, i've done more talking about my feelings than I ever have. My relationship is at the top of those things as well. I've been struggling to figure out what I want, and realized I have lost my sense of self somewhere along the way. BF and I have been together for a year and a half, living together for almost 10 months. Suddently I felt ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 12:50:57 EST Get Pumped UP! Cause it's Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212871 Yay It's Friday!!! It's been a very up and down week for me, mostly down, BUT I feel like things are on the upswing now. I was feeling very down and struck with anxiety this week- I cried a lot, talked a lot, fretted a lot and basically drove myself and my bf insane. Bu talking my feelings, fears, struggles, likes and dislikes out seriously helped. I feel like I unloaded some of the heavy baggage I've been shoving in my head and keeping there. It's what I do best... I wish i expressed those t... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 11:07:02 EST