CWYNN01's SparkPeople Blog CWYNN01's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I just want to feel Normal, Go Shopping in Any Store.. Why Plus Size clothes Cost High or So Basic? So this blog comes on the verge of several emotions I have gone thru this past week.. <BR> <BR> Last Monday, I weighed in at 242.0 (up nearly 3 pounds..) <BR> Today, I weigh in at 240.2 (down 1.8 pounds).. That's awesome.. <BR> <BR> REWIND... Let's go back to this Saturday.. <BR> <BR> Me & my hubby were talking.. He was saying that I needed to go buy me some clothes & he said "you never go buy yourself any clothes & that I should try other clothes store." I broke down in TEARS... He ... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 20:01:14 EST I'm DOWN ANOTHER 1.8 POUNDS!! FINALLY in the 230's! Wore High Heels!! (Pics Inside) Happy Monday Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> Well I'm down another 1.8 pounds!! Last week I worked out 4 days. I feel like I am getting stronger & enjoying that I have energy again & that I don't feel sluggish. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I haven't been in the 230s since May 26,2014!!! I haven't been SOOOOOO HAPPY to see the 230s!! Next goal is to get below 235!! <BR> <BR> I did my grocery shopping for the ne... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 14:29:15 EST It's Weigh-in Day!! I'm down 3.2 POUNDS!! Down One 5-lb Bag of Sugar! WOO HOO!! Happy Monday!! <BR> <BR> It's WEIGH-IN MONDAY!!! So, I'm down 3.2 pounds from last Monday's weigh-in!! I am officially down almost 3 bags of 5-lb sugar to date but down One 5-lb bag of sugar since I started back tracking weekly in October. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I must say that I had some trying days last week where I just wanted something sweet but guess what I had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in my house ... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 12:53:32 EST Successful Week!! 5 Days Worked OUT!! Healthy Food All Week! PICS Included!! Happy Saturday!! <BR> <BR> Here's my Weekly Re-Cap: <BR> <BR> My goal was to workout a minimum of 4 days this week; however, I got in 5 days this week!! Here's a pic of some of my days at the gym.. Gym: Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed, & Sat. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have no unhealthy junk food in the house.. I stuck to my meals being cooked for the entire week. It made meal prep so easy having my meals planne... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 22:22:51 EST Our DECISIONS Show Thru Our BODIES, Our ATTITUDE, & Our PROGRESS!! <BR> ** Our Decisions Show Thru Our BODIES, Our ATTITUDE, & Our PROGRESS!! ** <BR> <BR> We see OUR Decisions Everyday in the MIRROR <em>204</em> ... I see how my decisions to just eat whatever I want showed up with the <em>192</em> topping almost 260 pounds. My decisions lead me to being in a size 24. My decisions lead me to Poor Health & a Poor Attitude about Caring for ME.. <BR> <BR> Decisions: I know realize that my decisions made prior have been the wrong ones but the great... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 12:53:41 EST FEEL BETTER, LOOK BETTER, & LIVE BETTER!!! Down 2 Pounds!! YAYYYY!! Happy Monday!!! <BR> <BR> I am happy to report that I am down 2 pounds!! I am off to a great start.. <BR> <BR> (Hope the pics come in correctly) <BR> Paper says: 12 Oct. 2015, 244.4 (-2.0) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Last Week's Weigh In: <BR> Paper says: 5 Oct. 2015, 246.4, Size: 22-24 <BR> <img src="http://photo... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 12:52:55 EST 1st Day at Gym in over Year! My MOJO is in HIGH GEAR!! I'm Ready for The Week Ahead! Happy Sunday!!! <BR> <BR> Well today me & the hubby hit the gym!! I did the bike, treadmill, & hip abduction machine!! So, I wasn't able to walk as fast on the treadmill as I could a year ago before breaking my leg but I did manage to stay at a 5% incline on the treadmill for 20 minutes. <BR> <BR> New SNACK: I found that I actually love All-natural sweet potato chips which is funny considering I HATE Sweet Potatoes!! I could actually read all of the ingredients in the chips!! I found... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 16:54:59 EST I RESISTED the CUPCAKE!! YAYYYY!! Have You Planned Ahead??? Happy Saturday!! <BR> <BR> Well I'm proud to report that last night I conquered my temptation for a cupcake!! So, let's set the stage. I walked into the kitchen, opened the pantry & grabbed the <em>475</em> I headed back to the sofa & then I stopped - I said "Do you really want this cupcake, Do you really need this - I replied "No" and took the cupcake back. Instead I ate a few nuts!! So KUDOS to me!! <BR> <BR> Then today I went to the grocery store & they had my FAVORITE chocola... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 16:13:32 EST Today is a New Day!! I'm Thinking POSITIVE!! Yesterdays Negatives/Positives! Happy Friday!!! <BR> <BR> So, let's see, Yesterday was a combined with positives & negatives.. I'll just keep it honest! That's my motto, no need in lying or sugar coating it.. <BR> <BR> Negative: Yes, yesterday I ate pizza, slice of cake & a cupcake. <BR> <BR> Positive: I drank 6 cups of water & nothing but water, I ate healthy for breakfast - scrambled eggs, turkey sausage, dinner I ate healthy - chicken, brown rice, & broccoli. I went walking on break & also lifted weights (arms) ... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 09:39:46 EST 9 Months Since Broke Leg.. Struggling Daily Still.. Happy Thursday!! <BR> <BR> So it's been over 7 months since I blogged or checked in.. My weight has stayed consistent around 245 to 249. I've noticed that for the past 2 years I've remained in the 240's range.. <BR> <BR> Here's the crazy part.. So we all know that losing weight is eating your vegetables, lean protein, water intake & exercise yet I still remain FAT, OVERWEIGHT!!!! Why can't I get the method down, why can't I get myself together?? <BR> <BR> I absolutely hate the weight t... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 13:45:45 EST I'm FEELING Great, Even made a Healthy BBQ Chicken Pizza (Pic Included) Happy Thursday!! <BR> <BR> I have been doing good & have been so happy for the support from Spark. I told myself that I can stick to my 1,200 calories a day (since I have broke leg & can't exercise). I have been logging all of my foods. So, last night I wanted a pizza and really love the "California Bbq chicken pizza" however there are tooo many calories in that. I decided that hey, I can make my own by using an whole wheat wrap, grilled chicken, onions, red bell peppers, various season... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 11:59:12 EST I May have a BROKE LEG/ANKLE but I'm Still Going to Keep Pushing Myself!! Happy Tuesday!! <BR> <BR> I got a lot of great comments on things to do with being confined to using only 1 leg. So, yesterday I did some couch exercises along with 1 leg squats & weight lifting. Today I am going to do some abs also along with arm weights. <BR> <BR> I am also working on including 1 healthy item each day. <BR> <BR> Today's goal: Drink more water & less juice. <em>194</em> I have noticed I been drinking juice all day & haven't been getting enough water intake. Also... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 10:55:44 EST BROKE My LEG & ANKLE!! I still got to push thru!! HELP, need support.. 1st Blog for 2015!! <BR> <BR> So, I was excited to get my health on track for 2015. I have my workout clothes on January 9th & head down the stairs, when my house shoe slips off & I'm going down a flight of STAIRS!! So, a few hours later after X-Rays ~ Diagnosis is I Broke My Fibula (Leg) & ankle. I am now on 8 to 12 weeks of absolutely NO WEIGHT on my Leg. <BR> <BR> So, I am on a knee walker (like a scooter) for the next 2 to 3 months. I know that sitting all day & not being active is... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 11:14:28 EST Day 2 ~ Workout Complete!! Will make tomorrow Better! Day 2!! Only walked around neighborhood for almost 2 miles! My eating was okay. I did eat 2 donuts, yep I can be honest. My hubby brought them home, they were Homemade donuts ~ my favorite!!! But tomorrow NO DONUTS.. LOL. <BR> <BR> Accomplishment me for today, was making myself get out & go walking b/c my hubby had a headache when he got home & we were suppose to go to the gym but instead of sitting on the couch ~ I got up & went walking!! Counting the SMALL ACHIEVEMENTS!! <BR> <BR> LET'S... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 23:24:46 EST Day 1 ~ Step 1!! Proud of Me!! Happy Monday!! <BR> <BR> Day 1 ~ Step 1!! I worked out for 42 minutes. I did 35 minutes on the elliptical & 7 minutes on the treadmill. I was happy that I did 2.50 miles. <BR> <BR> I'm ready to take Control of my life!! I am happy that I am back on the path to consistency!! <BR> <BR> Mon, 20 Oct 2014 23:03:47 EST SOOOOO...It's My BIRTHDAY.. I should be HAPPY??? HMMMM.. SOOOOO...It's My BIRTHDAY.. I should be HAPPY??? HMMMM.. <BR> <BR> Today should be a day filled with HAPPINESS & EXCITEMENT!!! However, I am not.. Don't get me wrong.. I am BEYOND BLESSED but realize that I am NOT MY BEST!! I mean when I look at my life everything is great I have 2 AMAZING SONS, Loving Husband, Wonderful Career, Beautiful Home, & a Great Family but there's 1 thing missing ~ MYSELF!!! <BR> <BR> Yes, I'm missing being the BEST CASSANDRA. I am unhappy with the way I look. I... Fri, 30 May 2014 11:23:16 EST SOOOOO.. Eating was BAD YESTERDAY.. Today is a NEW DAY! It's Thursday!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well I wish I had good news for yesterday.. I had a HORRIBLE EATING DAY!!! I ate 2 large oatmeal crème pies (YEP, I said 2!!) Then I had 2 of the small (.25 cents) bags of doritos. Honestly, I can't even say why I ate them but I did..LOL.. Plus, no workout either yesterday & won't be able to get one in today since have plans after work. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I could've & should've made better decisions yesterday but I didn't.. However, TODAY IS A NEW D... Thu, 22 May 2014 08:15:14 EST Taking this 1 Day at a Time!! Well let's see my thoughts for today... <BR> <BR> Today, I'm feeling pretty good. I worked out yesterday afternoon - did 30 minutes on the bike & about 20 minutes of strength training. I must say that it FELT SOOOOOO GREAT TO WORK OUT!! I mean yesterday was my first day back at the gym since March which really sucks. It really put my mind at ease & gave me a really good feeling. I LOVED when I used to LOVE working out!!! I know that work for me the next couple of weeks in June are goin... Tue, 20 May 2014 09:56:32 EST I AM ALL THE MOTIVATION I NEED!! Let me start by saying that yesterday I had a real heartfelt blog & then I went back over and read thru the NUMEROUS blogs I have posted over the past few years here on Spark & realized that I MADE IT BEFORE & I WILL MAKE IT AGAIN.. <BR> <BR> One of my best supporters here on Spark "LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 " has always pushed me & kept it 100 with me!!! I appreciate all the words of advice & the words of support she gave me. <BR> <BR> I realized that I have enough support with my family & thru m... Mon, 19 May 2014 08:27:58 EST UNABLE TO LIVE BUT UNWILLING TO DIE!! 300 lbs, 400 lbs, 500 lbs.. NO difference.. Happy Sunday! <BR> <BR> Well I was watching a show this morning about a woman who was over 600 pounds & it made me cry.. I realized that I had the SAME STRUGGLE & ISSUES as a person over 600 pounds, I'm just at 240 pounds but what will stop me from getting to 300 pounds, 400 pounds, 500 pounds... I realized that at some point that person at 300 pounds or 600 pounds believed that it wasn't too late or that they could get their weight under control eventually or that their health wasn't that... Sun, 18 May 2014 12:38:44 EST Feeling GREAT, 1 Year Wedding Anniversary Goal!! Need Accountability Partner.. Well weighed in today at 237.8!!! YASSSS!!!! <BR> <BR> So, my 1 year wedding anniversary is coming up April 7th. My goal is to lose 5 pounds by 1 year wedding anniversary & this year marks 8 years together!! <BR> <BR> I would like to be down close to where I was when I married my hubby last year. I need to remain focused b/c I have become distracted with stress at work. So, I need to manage my stress at work. I really need to remain ACCOUNTABLE. I would like to be able to have someone... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 15:53:08 EST So, I didn't Lose Weight but Gained.. BUT.. I reached other Goals!! Happy Monday Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well didn't lose any weight but instead gained 1.6 pounds. However, I won't beat myself up b/c I worked out 5 days & I tracked my food for 6 days. Overall, I am proud of myself DESPITE what the scale says!! Normally, I would really beat myself up over a gain. However, I worked my BUTT off last week!!! I worked out 5 days last week & even got up on a Saturday to work out. <BR> <BR> I felt great all week & never felt tired at work b/c I was truly... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 12:17:49 EST I CAN'T WAIT.. I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... Happy Hump-Day Sparkers!!!! <BR> <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I Break Into the 220s!!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I am under 200 pounds!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I reach 199 pounds ~ In One-derland!!! <BR> <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I am in a SIZE 16 & OUT of Size 22s (1st Goal)!!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I am in a My Ultimate GOAL SIZE 10!!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I no longer have to Shop in PLUS SIZE SECTIONS!! <BR> <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I get my A1C Under 6.0!!! <... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 08:17:04 EST Doing FABULOUS!! Down 3.6 Lbs!! WOO HOO!! Back in the 230s!! Happy Tuesday Sparkers!!! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I am beyond proud of myself!!! I am celebrating all of the Small Accomplishments along the way! My eating every 2.5 hours really has helped me stop overeating at my main meals & allows me to stay full longer. I am making sure that I include a protein with each meal & snack. I am learning to really group my protein, carbs, & vegetables equally based on portion size. <BR> <BR> Scale Pics: <BR> <BR> 13 Jan. 2014 <BR> <img src="http://p... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 10:13:53 EST I have Taken Control Back Over My Life!! I am Putting Myself 1st!! So, it's a couple of months since I last blogged & this might be long.... <BR> <BR> Where to begin... Well I found out in December that I am now Type 2 Diabetic or Pre-Diabetic (depending on which charts you follow).. My A1c was 6.6. & some charts say the beginning number to becoming diabetic is 6.5 or over 7.0.. I am not sure which number is not correct but either way it's a wake up sign that I need to get my weight & eating in control. I've already shown signs that my sugar is off - the t... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 17:36:42 EST Where Do I begin, Married Overweight, A Mother of 2 & FAT... What will my kids think of me??? Let's see... I'm feeling some kind of way on this boring Saturday night. Thanks for reading.... I'm a BALL OF EMOTIONS right now <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I'm in a new city, working in a new place. I'm newly married for almost 7 months and got married at 230 pounds and now I'm about 241 pounds. I'm a mother of 2 teenage boys who have mostly known me as an overweight mom to them. I wonder what they will think of me when they become adults, what will be their thoughts of me as their mothe... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 19:35:02 EST UGGGGGHHHH!!! I'M UP 2.6 LBS!!! ROLLER COASTER!! UGGGGGGHHHHH!!!! So last week, I lost 2.6 pounds & now I'm right back up to 240.4 pounds. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Honestly, I ate really bad last week, so it shouldn't be a surprise that I'm up. However, maybe part of me was hoping that maybe I was just up half a pound but honestly I didn't track my foods like I was suppose to. I ate WAYYYYYYY to many CARBS!! I just ate whatever, whenever.. Hence 2.6 pounds gained. <BR> <BR> So, ... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 16:44:19 EST Great weight loss week!! Down 2.6 pounds ~ 237.8 lbs! Happy Tuesday!!! <BR> <BR> I weighed in yesterday & was down 2.6 pounds!! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I thought the scale would be <em>49</em> <em>49</em> because being furloughed had me down last week & I honestly didn't eat the best. However, I did go to the gym 3 days a week but I am happy that I did go workout. Today I go meet with my personal trainer. <BR> <BR> I really like my personal trainer Jerome. I at first wante... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 11:47:24 EST Day of 2 of Furlough, also up 2 pounds for the month of Sept! Well I work for the Federal Government.. Congress can't get their act together & so I'm furloughed for day 2. <BR> <BR> I weighed in on Monday, 30 Sept. 2013.. I am up2 pounds from last week.. I'm up 0.8 pounds for the whole month of September & no loss for the month.. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have a lot on my mind... A little down about my weight gain but I knew that I had a bad week last week, so I can't be surprised by the scal... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 12:55:19 EST Down another 0.6 pounds!!! First meeting with PT!! Happy Hump-Day!!! <BR> <BR> Well I'm a couple days late but the scale is down another 0.6 pounds from last week!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> So far, so good!!! Yesterday I met with my personal trainer. She was okay & is a new trainer but I think she might work. She's only been a PT since May. However, I did talk with one of her clients who said she really loved working with her & has lost 14 pounds & feels really good s... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 12:27:14 EST Weekly Update: Down 0.6 Lbs!!! I'm On My Way!! Happy Monday!! <BR> <BR> So, I decided that each week I will take a picture of my scale progress plus pictures of myself. Right now, I only have the scale picture. So, every Monday I will try to post my picture regardless of loss or gain. <BR> <BR> Today 9/16/2013 weight: 238.8 lbs (down 0.6 lbs) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My Affirmations for this week: <BR> <BR> I Am BLESSED!! <BR> I Am FOCUSED!! <BR> I Am GETTING HEALTHI... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:05:39 EST Real Moment: My Husband Said "Go ahead & DIE ON ME EARLY".... Keeping the Shadow, the Shame of My Weight has overpowered me...The shadow of my SHAME has been behind me instead of in front of me. I have hidden from the fact that 240 pounds has TAKEN OVER MY LIFE, Taken over my Health, has caused me Shame... <BR> <BR> I have made excuses.. I made excuses that you know if I ask spark people to really side with me on not paying for a personal trainer for a year that I can beat this but the truth is I really need the accountability.. Yes, I hate being "loc... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 13:40:51 EST HELP-Need Feedback: Is $25 per week for 1 Personal Training Session to much for 30 Minutes???? Happy Saturday!!! <BR> <BR> I need serious feedback... Thanks in advance for your feedback.. <BR> <BR> I have just a few days to decide on if I should or should not cancel a 1 year contract for Personal Training Sessions. Here is what it breaks down to: <BR> <BR> *30 minutes for 1 day a week costs $25 for a total of $100 per month for personal training (4 sessions total for the month).. That's a total of $1,200 a year. Most trainers have over 15 clients some up to 30 clients, so they a... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 09:21:35 EST Real Talk: "RESULTS START When YOU START & REMAIN CONSISTENT".... "RESULTS START WHEN YOU START & REMAIN CONSISTENT".... <BR> <BR> Time for some REAL TALK!! <BR> <BR> I was thinking yesterday, I met with a personal trainer to discuss my goals. Just as a jump start, she asked me "What has stopped you from losing this weight & how many times have to tried to lose weight in the past 5 years?" Well when I thought about it, I was just like "Ummmmm.. probably over 8 times, heck really maybe more than that too many times to count honestly".. I realize my prob... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 11:59:41 EST Took ZUMBA for the 1st Time!!! I'm On Track!! Hey Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> Let me first say "Thank you" for reading my blog... <BR> <BR> Well on Tuesday, I took a real boxing class & then on Wednesday I took ZUMBA!! Man I must say that I am SUPER SORE!!! I even soaked in epsom salt last night but my ENTIRE BODY ACHES, I am sore in places that I didn't know I could be sore in. I mean even my abs are sore so must be some muscles underneath this fat..LOL.. I do look forward to doing Zumba again. <BR> <BR> I really enjoyed that it didn'... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 13:01:22 EST Update: Joined A Gym, Tracking My Foods daily, 7year Anniversary...etc.. Hey Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> Let me first say "Thank you" for reading my blog... <BR> <BR> Well lets see... Since being told I was a pre-diabetic at first I kind of just put blinders on for about a month honestly. However, I know that I have a doctors appointment next month & want to have better results when I visit my doctor. <BR> <BR> Me & my husband just celebrated on Monday, September 2 our 7 Year Anniversary of being together. So, you ask "What did you guys do???" Well we JOINED A GYM ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:30:11 EST 2 Words ~ PRE-DIABETIC!! True Reality Check!! Well last week, I went & got my physical. Honestly, I thought that maybe my numbers were okay but in the back of my mind I wondered what the doctor might say. Other than "Cass your obese & need to lose weight"... <BR> <BR> I know that honestly at 241 pounds that I am not healthy but was hopeful that I wouldn't be PRE-DIABETIC... It could've been worst & I could've been diagnosed with FULL DIABETES. So, what I take from this is that I MUST make changes. I'm only 32 years old & too young to... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 13:58:06 EST Honesty Time: Okay... Last night, FELL OFF the Wagon!! Soooooooooo, yesterday I did GREAT at work with my eating!! I was SOOOOO PROUD of myself. Fast forward to when I get home, my hubby has gone grocery shopping & guess what he picks up ~ A Strawberry Pound Cake <em>44</em> Box of Oatmeal Creme Pies, & BBQ Chips!!! Now I was like REALLY!!! But what did I do, instead of turning away & walking out of the kitchen. I opened the cake & cut me a NICE SLICE OF DELICIOUS CAKE!!! Yes, I sooooooo enjoyed that cake.. Then for dinner I ate Nachos, Ye... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 08:54:08 EST Today's Thoughts... Well I was going to write in my journal but figured that I could track it better on Spark & go back over time and read what I was feeling when starting over on this journey. <BR> <BR> Weighed in today: 238.8 (down 2.8 pounds from last weeks 241.6) <BR> <BR> Well this weekend, I didn't track any foods on paper but I did bring my tracking journal to work with me today. I realize that the weekends are going to be my hardest with eating right. I want to just snack on foods, which means I am g... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 12:47:57 EST UPDATE: I'M Back Spark!!! Time 4 Reality Check! (Pics Inside) Hey Spark Fam!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well it's been a while since I've been on here.. Lots of things have happened in my life over the past 3 months. I got married in Puerto Rico in April, then moved to GA in May, started a new job in June & fast forward now I am <em>49</em> on the <em>192</em> by 10 pounds!!! With that said I need an accountable team, accountable partner to help get me back on the right track. <BR> <BR> I had got down to 231 & now back up to 241.6 as of this morning. ... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 09:29:47 EST Let's See I'm Married, Moving to Near Atlanta in a Few Days... Whew.. Let's recap my life over the past couple months!!! <BR> <BR> Well let's see, 10 days before my wedding I found a lump in my breast. It turns out it was a abscess that had to be drained & required me to have a nurse come to my house twice a day to pack the wound (had to heal inside out). <BR> <BR> Then on Sunday, April 7 me and the love of my life got married in Puerto Rico!!! San Juan, the whole Island was just BEAUTIFUL!!! <em>298</em> So, even though I wasn't happy with ho... Mon, 13 May 2013 08:08:55 EST Finally Broke into the 230's!!! WOOOOO HOOOOO!! Happy Inauguration Day!!! <BR> <BR> Today I watched the President be inaugurated for the 2nd and last time. The 1st family truly moves me. Just wanted to say that. <BR> <BR> So, today I weighted myself & was anxiously hoping to hit at least 239.8 & the scale read 238.2!!! I was beyond ELATED!!! The last time I was in the 230s was Dec. 12, 2011. Over a year ago, so I have a lot to be excited about. I have been working very hard tracking my food & tracking my exercising for 3 weeks str... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 17:44:11 EST DOWN 3 ~ 5-LB BAGS OF SUGAR ~ 15 Lbs Gone!!! <img src=""> Officially down 3 of these bags!!! 15 POUNDS GONE!!! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to report that I have been really busting my butt!!! I haven't done any crash diets but really eating healthy & working out!! I am celebrating every small accomplishments. Sugar has always been a major down fall for me, so I am happy to know that I have really been focused & dedicated. <BR> <BR> I keep telling myself "When You Feel Like QUITIN... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 15:43:24 EST Tried on Wedding Dresses ~ NOT GOOD!! :-( UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> So, today was not a good day for me. I tried on wedding dresses & instead ended up leaving in tears!!! I was in size 24 wedding dress!!! Talk about sad & depressing. Everything looked horrible on me & don't even know if I will find a wedding dress. I getting married in less than 3 months. I may just be in some pants & shirt. I am going to work my very best to bust my ass these next couple of months. <BR> <BR> Thi... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:42:55 EST Offically DOWN 10 POUNDS!!! WOOO HOOO!! Hey Sparkers!!! <BR> <BR> Proud & Happy to Say that I am DOWN officially 10 Pounds!!! <em>55</em> <em>192</em> It has taken me a month & half to lose those 10 pounds but I did it & am happy!! I was down at first this morning that I only lost half a pound this week but that half a pound put me at my official 10 pounds lost. So, it was a loss & that's what matters. As long as the scale is a NEGATIVE instead of A GAIN, I will embrace it!! I will blog again once I hit my 15 pounds. <BR>... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 09:48:12 EST 117 Days To Go Until I Tie The Knot!!! Happy Tuesday, <BR> <BR> Well just a quick update... <BR> <BR> I am on serious mission to really drop some pounds before my wedding day. I want to feel great when we go to Jamaica in April. So that means that I am having to make some serious eating changes with my everyday living. So, I am making some sacrifices & tough choices. <BR> <BR> I had a good Thanksgiving. We went home to visit my family & it was great to see all of my family. So, I am feeling a little better about my move t... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 12:48:46 EST Update: Getting Married & Moving to GA (Near Atlanta)..(Pics in blog) Hey Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> So, it's been a while since I've been on here to blog. <BR> <BR> Well my job is relocating me to Athens next June but I will living in Lawrenceville (about 30 minutes from Atlanta). So this is a big adjustment for me & the family!! Everyone is excited about the move. I really LOVE living here in Orlando, FL so I am sad to leave. <BR> <BR> Me & my sweetie finally to tie the knot before we leave. Even though we aren't officially engaged (he is getting the ring n... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 09:20:30 EST My Heart STOPPED TWICE!!! Reality Check & New Appreciation! Last week, I was in the hospital for "female" surgery that I had. I had to go under for the surgery in the hospital, well long story short the surgery was suppose to be short & simple but it wasn't. It was suppose to be less than 1 hour but instead was nearly 5 hours. <BR> <BR> My doctor said that my HEART STOPPED and they had to resuscitate me with the defibrillator. So for over 1 minute I died twice on the table. This made me really see how important & precious my life is. All I co... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 15:56:17 EST UPDATE: On Me & My Journey.... REALITY CHECK.... Hey Sparkers!!! <BR> <BR> Well I haven't blogged in a while & have been off SP for a while also. So let me do a recap... Might be a LONG RECAP..LOL.. <BR> <BR> Well currently I am at my highest weight that I've ever been in my life. In April, things at my job become very overwhelming. We have had 4 people resign in our office & I was then promoted to take over a management position; however, we have not replaced the lost positions b/c my office is closing next year & they are not hiring a... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 12:46:35 EST Hosting Baby Shower making some Decorations (pics inside)... Hey ladies, <BR> <BR> I was busy this weekend buying items for my friend's/co-workers baby shower. So I bought some empty mason jars & filled them with "Baby Boy" candy. I decorated the outside of them with baby ribbon. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Next I also decorated bibs for her son (as keepsakes). <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 13:27:56 EST