CWYNN01's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CWYNN01 CWYNN01's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ SOOOOO...It's My BIRTHDAY.. I should be HAPPY??? HMMMM.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706746 SOOOOO...It's My BIRTHDAY.. I should be HAPPY??? HMMMM.. <BR> <BR> Today should be a day filled with HAPPINESS & EXCITEMENT!!! However, I am not.. Don't get me wrong.. I am BEYOND BLESSED but realize that I am NOT MY BEST!! I mean when I look at my life everything is great I have 2 AMAZING SONS, Loving Husband, Wonderful Career, Beautiful Home, & a Great Family but there's 1 thing missing ~ MYSELF!!! <BR> <BR> Yes, I'm missing being the BEST CASSANDRA. I am unhappy with the way I look. I... Fri, 30 May 2014 11:23:16 EST SOOOOO.. Eating was BAD YESTERDAY.. Today is a NEW DAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700547 It's Thursday!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well I wish I had good news for yesterday.. I had a HORRIBLE EATING DAY!!! I ate 2 large oatmeal crème pies (YEP, I said 2!!) Then I had 2 of the small (.25 cents) bags of doritos. Honestly, I can't even say why I ate them but I did..LOL.. Plus, no workout either yesterday & won't be able to get one in today since have plans after work. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I could've & should've made better decisions yesterday but I didn't.. However, TODAY IS A NEW D... Thu, 22 May 2014 08:15:14 EST Taking this 1 Day at a Time!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699108 Well let's see my thoughts for today... <BR> <BR> Today, I'm feeling pretty good. I worked out yesterday afternoon - did 30 minutes on the bike & about 20 minutes of strength training. I must say that it FELT SOOOOOO GREAT TO WORK OUT!! I mean yesterday was my first day back at the gym since March which really sucks. It really put my mind at ease & gave me a really good feeling. I LOVED when I used to LOVE working out!!! I know that work for me the next couple of weeks in June are goin... Tue, 20 May 2014 09:56:32 EST I AM ALL THE MOTIVATION I NEED!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698194 Let me start by saying that yesterday I had a real heartfelt blog & then I went back over and read thru the NUMEROUS blogs I have posted over the past few years here on Spark & realized that I MADE IT BEFORE & I WILL MAKE IT AGAIN.. <BR> <BR> One of my best supporters here on Spark "LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 " has always pushed me & kept it 100 with me!!! I appreciate all the words of advice & the words of support she gave me. <BR> <BR> I realized that I have enough support with my family & thru m... Mon, 19 May 2014 08:27:58 EST UNABLE TO LIVE BUT UNWILLING TO DIE!! 300 lbs, 400 lbs, 500 lbs.. NO difference.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697662 Happy Sunday! <BR> <BR> Well I was watching a show this morning about a woman who was over 600 pounds & it made me cry.. I realized that I had the SAME STRUGGLE & ISSUES as a person over 600 pounds, I'm just at 240 pounds but what will stop me from getting to 300 pounds, 400 pounds, 500 pounds... I realized that at some point that person at 300 pounds or 600 pounds believed that it wasn't too late or that they could get their weight under control eventually or that their health wasn't that... Sun, 18 May 2014 12:38:44 EST Feeling GREAT, 1 Year Wedding Anniversary Goal!! Need Accountability Partner.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626593 Well weighed in today at 237.8!!! YASSSS!!!! <BR> <BR> So, my 1 year wedding anniversary is coming up April 7th. My goal is to lose 5 pounds by 1 year wedding anniversary & this year marks 8 years together!! <BR> <BR> I would like to be down close to where I was when I married my hubby last year. I need to remain focused b/c I have become distracted with stress at work. So, I need to manage my stress at work. I really need to remain ACCOUNTABLE. I would like to be able to have someone... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 15:53:08 EST So, I didn't Lose Weight but Gained.. BUT.. I reached other Goals!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607153 Happy Monday Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well didn't lose any weight but instead gained 1.6 pounds. However, I won't beat myself up b/c I worked out 5 days & I tracked my food for 6 days. Overall, I am proud of myself DESPITE what the scale says!! Normally, I would really beat myself up over a gain. However, I worked my BUTT off last week!!! I worked out 5 days last week & even got up on a Saturday to work out. <BR> <BR> I felt great all week & never felt tired at work b/c I was truly... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 12:17:49 EST I CAN'T WAIT.. I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602026 Happy Hump-Day Sparkers!!!! <BR> <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I Break Into the 220s!!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I am under 200 pounds!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I reach 199 pounds ~ In One-derland!!! <BR> <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I am in a SIZE 16 & OUT of Size 22s (1st Goal)!!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I am in a My Ultimate GOAL SIZE 10!!! <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I no longer have to Shop in PLUS SIZE SECTIONS!! <BR> <BR> I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL.... I get my A1C Under 6.0!!! <... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 08:17:04 EST Doing FABULOUS!! Down 3.6 Lbs!! WOO HOO!! Back in the 230s!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601090 Happy Tuesday Sparkers!!! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I am beyond proud of myself!!! I am celebrating all of the Small Accomplishments along the way! My eating every 2.5 hours really has helped me stop overeating at my main meals & allows me to stay full longer. I am making sure that I include a protein with each meal & snack. I am learning to really group my protein, carbs, & vegetables equally based on portion size. <BR> <BR> Scale Pics: <BR> <BR> 13 Jan. 2014 <BR> <img src="http://p... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 10:13:53 EST I have Taken Control Back Over My Life!! I am Putting Myself 1st!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598228 So, it's a couple of months since I last blogged & this might be long.... <BR> <BR> Where to begin... Well I found out in December that I am now Type 2 Diabetic or Pre-Diabetic (depending on which charts you follow).. My A1c was 6.6. & some charts say the beginning number to becoming diabetic is 6.5 or over 7.0.. I am not sure which number is not correct but either way it's a wake up sign that I need to get my weight & eating in control. I've already shown signs that my sugar is off - the t... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 17:36:42 EST Where Do I begin, Married Overweight, A Mother of 2 & FAT... What will my kids think of me??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530311 Let's see... I'm feeling some kind of way on this boring Saturday night. Thanks for reading.... I'm a BALL OF EMOTIONS right now <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I'm in a new city, working in a new place. I'm newly married for almost 7 months and got married at 230 pounds and now I'm about 241 pounds. I'm a mother of 2 teenage boys who have mostly known me as an overweight mom to them. I wonder what they will think of me when they become adults, what will be their thoughts of me as their mothe... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 19:35:02 EST UGGGGGHHHH!!! I'M UP 2.6 LBS!!! ROLLER COASTER!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513430 UGGGGGGHHHHH!!!! So last week, I lost 2.6 pounds & now I'm right back up to 240.4 pounds. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l792729023.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Honestly, I ate really bad last week, so it shouldn't be a surprise that I'm up. However, maybe part of me was hoping that maybe I was just up half a pound but honestly I didn't track my foods like I was suppose to. I ate WAYYYYYYY to many CARBS!! I just ate whatever, whenever.. Hence 2.6 pounds gained. <BR> <BR> So, ... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 16:44:19 EST Great weight loss week!! Down 2.6 pounds ~ 237.8 lbs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507918 Happy Tuesday!!! <BR> <BR> I weighed in yesterday & was down 2.6 pounds!! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l241264217.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I thought the scale would be <em>49</em> <em>49</em> because being furloughed had me down last week & I honestly didn't eat the best. However, I did go to the gym 3 days a week but I am happy that I did go workout. Today I go meet with my personal trainer. <BR> <BR> I really like my personal trainer Jerome. I at first wante... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 11:47:24 EST Day of 2 of Furlough, also up 2 pounds for the month of Sept! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502507 Well I work for the Federal Government.. Congress can't get their act together & so I'm furloughed for day 2. <BR> <BR> I weighed in on Monday, 30 Sept. 2013.. I am up2 pounds from last week.. I'm up 0.8 pounds for the whole month of September & no loss for the month.. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l613687623.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have a lot on my mind... A little down about my weight gain but I knew that I had a bad week last week, so I can't be surprised by the scal... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 12:55:19 EST Down another 0.6 pounds!!! First meeting with PT!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495871 Happy Hump-Day!!! <BR> <BR> Well I'm a couple days late but the scale is down another 0.6 pounds from last week!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1286799015.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> So far, so good!!! Yesterday I met with my personal trainer. She was okay & is a new trainer but I think she might work. She's only been a PT since May. However, I did talk with one of her clients who said she really loved working with her & has lost 14 pounds & feels really good s... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 12:27:14 EST Weekly Update: Down 0.6 Lbs!!! I'm On My Way!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487209 Happy Monday!! <BR> <BR> So, I decided that each week I will take a picture of my scale progress plus pictures of myself. Right now, I only have the scale picture. So, every Monday I will try to post my picture regardless of loss or gain. <BR> <BR> Today 9/16/2013 weight: 238.8 lbs (down 0.6 lbs) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l959976887.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My Affirmations for this week: <BR> <BR> I Am BLESSED!! <BR> I Am FOCUSED!! <BR> I Am GETTING HEALTHI... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:05:39 EST Real Moment: My Husband Said "Go ahead & DIE ON ME EARLY".... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486253 Keeping the Shadow, the Shame of My Weight has overpowered me...The shadow of my SHAME has been behind me instead of in front of me. I have hidden from the fact that 240 pounds has TAKEN OVER MY LIFE, Taken over my Health, has caused me Shame... <BR> <BR> I have made excuses.. I made excuses that you know if I ask spark people to really side with me on not paying for a personal trainer for a year that I can beat this but the truth is I really need the accountability.. Yes, I hate being "loc... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 13:40:51 EST HELP-Need Feedback: Is $25 per week for 1 Personal Training Session to much for 30 Minutes???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485202 Happy Saturday!!! <BR> <BR> I need serious feedback... Thanks in advance for your feedback.. <BR> <BR> I have just a few days to decide on if I should or should not cancel a 1 year contract for Personal Training Sessions. Here is what it breaks down to: <BR> <BR> *30 minutes for 1 day a week costs $25 for a total of $100 per month for personal training (4 sessions total for the month).. That's a total of $1,200 a year. Most trainers have over 15 clients some up to 30 clients, so they a... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 09:21:35 EST Real Talk: "RESULTS START When YOU START & REMAIN CONSISTENT".... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483652 "RESULTS START WHEN YOU START & REMAIN CONSISTENT".... <BR> <BR> Time for some REAL TALK!! <BR> <BR> I was thinking yesterday, I met with a personal trainer to discuss my goals. Just as a jump start, she asked me "What has stopped you from losing this weight & how many times have to tried to lose weight in the past 5 years?" Well when I thought about it, I was just like "Ummmmm.. probably over 8 times, heck really maybe more than that too many times to count honestly".. I realize my prob... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 11:59:41 EST Took ZUMBA for the 1st Time!!! I'm On Track!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476800 Hey Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> Let me first say "Thank you" for reading my blog... <BR> <BR> Well on Tuesday, I took a real boxing class & then on Wednesday I took ZUMBA!! Man I must say that I am SUPER SORE!!! I even soaked in epsom salt last night but my ENTIRE BODY ACHES, I am sore in places that I didn't know I could be sore in. I mean even my abs are sore so must be some muscles underneath this fat..LOL.. I do look forward to doing Zumba again. <BR> <BR> I really enjoyed that it didn'... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 13:01:22 EST Update: Joined A Gym, Tracking My Foods daily, 7year Anniversary...etc.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475698 Hey Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> Let me first say "Thank you" for reading my blog... <BR> <BR> Well lets see... Since being told I was a pre-diabetic at first I kind of just put blinders on for about a month honestly. However, I know that I have a doctors appointment next month & want to have better results when I visit my doctor. <BR> <BR> Me & my husband just celebrated on Monday, September 2 our 7 Year Anniversary of being together. So, you ask "What did you guys do???" Well we JOINED A GYM ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:30:11 EST 2 Words ~ PRE-DIABETIC!! True Reality Check!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438676 Well last week, I went & got my physical. Honestly, I thought that maybe my numbers were okay but in the back of my mind I wondered what the doctor might say. Other than "Cass your obese & need to lose weight"... <BR> <BR> I know that honestly at 241 pounds that I am not healthy but was hopeful that I wouldn't be PRE-DIABETIC... It could've been worst & I could've been diagnosed with FULL DIABETES. So, what I take from this is that I MUST make changes. I'm only 32 years old & too young to... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 13:58:06 EST Honesty Time: Okay... Last night, FELL OFF the Wagon!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422784 Soooooooooo, yesterday I did GREAT at work with my eating!! I was SOOOOO PROUD of myself. Fast forward to when I get home, my hubby has gone grocery shopping & guess what he picks up ~ A Strawberry Pound Cake <em>44</em> Box of Oatmeal Creme Pies, & BBQ Chips!!! Now I was like REALLY!!! But what did I do, instead of turning away & walking out of the kitchen. I opened the cake & cut me a NICE SLICE OF DELICIOUS CAKE!!! Yes, I sooooooo enjoyed that cake.. Then for dinner I ate Nachos, Ye... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 08:54:08 EST Today's Thoughts... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421843 Well I was going to write in my journal but figured that I could track it better on Spark & go back over time and read what I was feeling when starting over on this journey. <BR> <BR> Weighed in today: 238.8 (down 2.8 pounds from last weeks 241.6) <BR> <BR> Well this weekend, I didn't track any foods on paper but I did bring my tracking journal to work with me today. I realize that the weekends are going to be my hardest with eating right. I want to just snack on foods, which means I am g... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 12:47:57 EST UPDATE: I'M Back Spark!!! Time 4 Reality Check! (Pics Inside) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417640 Hey Spark Fam!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well it's been a while since I've been on here.. Lots of things have happened in my life over the past 3 months. I got married in Puerto Rico in April, then moved to GA in May, started a new job in June & fast forward now I am <em>49</em> on the <em>192</em> by 10 pounds!!! With that said I need an accountable team, accountable partner to help get me back on the right track. <BR> <BR> I had got down to 231 & now back up to 241.6 as of this morning. ... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 09:29:47 EST Let's See I'm Married, Moving to Near Atlanta in a Few Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354810 Whew.. Let's recap my life over the past couple months!!! <BR> <BR> Well let's see, 10 days before my wedding I found a lump in my breast. It turns out it was a abscess that had to be drained & required me to have a nurse come to my house twice a day to pack the wound (had to heal inside out). <BR> <BR> Then on Sunday, April 7 me and the love of my life got married in Puerto Rico!!! San Juan, the whole Island was just BEAUTIFUL!!! <em>298</em> So, even though I wasn't happy with ho... Mon, 13 May 2013 08:08:55 EST Finally Broke into the 230's!!! WOOOOO HOOOOO!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217411 Happy Inauguration Day!!! <BR> <BR> Today I watched the President be inaugurated for the 2nd and last time. The 1st family truly moves me. Just wanted to say that. <BR> <BR> So, today I weighted myself & was anxiously hoping to hit at least 239.8 & the scale read 238.2!!! I was beyond ELATED!!! The last time I was in the 230s was Dec. 12, 2011. Over a year ago, so I have a lot to be excited about. I have been working very hard tracking my food & tracking my exercising for 3 weeks str... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 17:44:11 EST DOWN 3 ~ 5-LB BAGS OF SUGAR ~ 15 Lbs Gone!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197210 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1503311005.jpg"> Officially down 3 of these bags!!! 15 POUNDS GONE!!! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to report that I have been really busting my butt!!! I haven't done any crash diets but really eating healthy & working out!! I am celebrating every small accomplishments. Sugar has always been a major down fall for me, so I am happy to know that I have really been focused & dedicated. <BR> <BR> I keep telling myself "When You Feel Like QUITIN... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 15:43:24 EST Tried on Wedding Dresses ~ NOT GOOD!! :-( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186857 UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> So, today was not a good day for me. I tried on wedding dresses & instead ended up leaving in tears!!! I was in size 24 wedding dress!!! Talk about sad & depressing. Everything looked horrible on me & don't even know if I will find a wedding dress. I getting married in less than 3 months. I may just be in some pants & shirt. I am going to work my very best to bust my ass these next couple of months. <BR> <BR> Thi... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:42:55 EST Offically DOWN 10 POUNDS!!! WOOO HOOO!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168930 Hey Sparkers!!! <BR> <BR> Proud & Happy to Say that I am DOWN officially 10 Pounds!!! <em>55</em> <em>192</em> It has taken me a month & half to lose those 10 pounds but I did it & am happy!! I was down at first this morning that I only lost half a pound this week but that half a pound put me at my official 10 pounds lost. So, it was a loss & that's what matters. As long as the scale is a NEGATIVE instead of A GAIN, I will embrace it!! I will blog again once I hit my 15 pounds. <BR>... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 09:48:12 EST 117 Days To Go Until I Tie The Knot!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163250 Happy Tuesday, <BR> <BR> Well just a quick update... <BR> <BR> I am on serious mission to really drop some pounds before my wedding day. I want to feel great when we go to Jamaica in April. So that means that I am having to make some serious eating changes with my everyday living. So, I am making some sacrifices & tough choices. <BR> <BR> I had a good Thanksgiving. We went home to visit my family & it was great to see all of my family. So, I am feeling a little better about my move t... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 12:48:46 EST Update: Getting Married & Moving to GA (Near Atlanta)..(Pics in blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104715 Hey Sparkers!! <BR> <BR> So, it's been a while since I've been on here to blog. <BR> <BR> Well my job is relocating me to Athens next June but I will living in Lawrenceville (about 30 minutes from Atlanta). So this is a big adjustment for me & the family!! Everyone is excited about the move. I really LOVE living here in Orlando, FL so I am sad to leave. <BR> <BR> Me & my sweetie finally to tie the knot before we leave. Even though we aren't officially engaged (he is getting the ring n... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 09:20:30 EST My Heart STOPPED TWICE!!! Reality Check & New Appreciation! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039027 Last week, I was in the hospital for "female" surgery that I had. I had to go under for the surgery in the hospital, well long story short the surgery was suppose to be short & simple but it wasn't. It was suppose to be less than 1 hour but instead was nearly 5 hours. <BR> <BR> My doctor said that my HEART STOPPED and they had to resuscitate me with the defibrillator. So for over 1 minute I died twice on the table. This made me really see how important & precious my life is. All I co... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 15:56:17 EST UPDATE: On Me & My Journey.... REALITY CHECK.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4967177 Hey Sparkers!!! <BR> <BR> Well I haven't blogged in a while & have been off SP for a while also. So let me do a recap... Might be a LONG RECAP..LOL.. <BR> <BR> Well currently I am at my highest weight that I've ever been in my life. In April, things at my job become very overwhelming. We have had 4 people resign in our office & I was then promoted to take over a management position; however, we have not replaced the lost positions b/c my office is closing next year & they are not hiring a... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 12:46:35 EST Hosting Baby Shower making some Decorations (pics inside)... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4793391 Hey ladies, <BR> <BR> I was busy this weekend buying items for my friend's/co-workers baby shower. So I bought some empty mason jars & filled them with "Baby Boy" candy. I decorated the outside of them with baby ribbon. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l962883418.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l390765967.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Next I also decorated bibs for her son (as keepsakes). <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 13:27:56 EST Don't Want to DIE FAT & UNFIT!! Control My Emotions ~ Control My Eating!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4707135 Just some thoughts I have been thinking about today.. <BR> <BR> I am starting to realize that if I "Can Control My Emotions then I will Be Able to Control My Eating!!" So honestly it's not the FOOD that's my Problem it's my Thinking ~ Tied to Emotions.. I mean I eat when I am <em>30</em> (emotion), when I am bored <em>40</em> (emotion), when I am stressed <em>24</em> or sad <em>39</em> (more emotions).. So if I can set myself up for success when these emotions hit and learn to wo... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 13:09:16 EST "Your Aspirations & Inspirations Mean Nothing Without The DEDICATION & ACTION It Takes To Get There! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4676463 Simple One Line: <BR> <BR> My Quote: <BR> <BR> "Your ASPIRATIONS & INSPIRATIONS Mean Nothing Without The DEDICATION & ACTION It Takes To Get There!!!" by C. Wynn <BR> <BR> What will you do to see your Aspirations & what you inspire to see happen this year???? Thu, 12 Jan 2012 15:29:04 EST Bringing in 2012!!! No New Year's Resolutions ~ But Just Personal Goals!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4644759 <em>409</em> <em>408</em> <em>410</em> <em>409</em> <em>408</em> <em>410</em> <em>409</em> <em>408</em> <em>410</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Hope all of you Sparkers have a safe & wonderful New Year's Weekend!!! Me & Eric are taking a mini-vacation to the coast, to enjoy some alone time & bring the new year in at Cocoa Beach. I hope that you all have set your goals for 2012, not New Year's Resolutions but just goals you want to reach. <BR> <BR> I have decided a year ago not to set Re... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 11:22:55 EST TIME TO SAY GOOD BYE TO SPARK...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4529224 Well here it is with a heavy thought & much consideration, I've decided I need a break from Spark... <BR> <BR> There is so much to express but I guess most of all I need to get to the bare essentials of Cassandra. I need to focus simply on just ME... I think that Spark has become overwhelming in my life right now. I think that Spark is a great tool but for me I think I need to take a step back. I have a lot going on in my life currently.. <BR> <BR> Spark makes me more Sad rather than Hap... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 21:08:16 EST Tired of Living in a Trapped World.. Should be in the Prime of My Life!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4524829 So it's a Friday night.... <BR> <BR> I was just browsing thru FB and seeing all of my old high school friends & how they look wonderful!!! Not worried about their weight, enjoying the 20s or 30s and her I sit in disappointment. I am 30 years young & feel like I am living the live of a woman in her 60s. This should be the time I should be really enjoying & embracing life. <BR> <BR> <BR> I have let my weight trap me in a world of seclusion & of sadness. I don't want to go home & visit b/... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 22:17:59 EST SCALE~ Daily or Weekly Weigh-Ins?????? UNCERTAIN..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4517026 Happy Monday!!! <BR> <BR> Well let's see where to start, I weighed in today & I was not happy with the number. I am back in 240's, came in at 242.8 after, I was just at 237.8 last week. Hate the <em>193</em> when it doesn't go down <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> So I ask myself now "Should I weigh in daily or weekly?" I just read an article saying that people who weigh in weekly are 80 percent likely to lose weight & keep the weight off. I have mixed feelings about this b/c when I was obsess... Mon, 3 Oct 2011 13:22:05 EST "LOOKING GOOD HURTS ~ I'M IN PAIN EVERYDAY!!"...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4508141 "Looking GOOD HURTS ~ I'm In PAIN EVERYDAY!!" (Dolvett Quince) <BR> <BR> "DO NO MAKE EXCUSES ~ MAKE RESULTS!!" (Dolvett Quince) <BR> <BR> "ENTER THE No COMPLAINING & No EXCUSES ZONE!!!" (C. Wynn) <BR> <BR> These are my 3 new motto's!! I am going to LIVE by these!!! I was watching the BL last night & I must say that "Dolvett Quince" is some GOOOOOOODDDDDDD EYE CANDY!!! Besides being handsome, he made 2 statements that stuck out in my mind & to the point I am putting them up in my house ... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 09:14:55 EST I Worked Out Before Work!! Made TIME 4 ME~ Just 10 Minutes!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4504529 Happy Monday!!! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I must say that I had a good weekend overall. I told myself that this week I start putting Cassandra first, I start making time for ME!!! <BR> <BR> I make <em>56</em> for "WORK" <BR> <BR> I make <em>56</em> for my "FAMILY" <BR> <BR> I make <em>56</em> for "T.V." <BR> <BR> And most of all I have been making <em>56</em> for EXCUSES!!! <BR> <BR> So I told myself that I can commit to just 4 days before work for just 10 minutes of POWER Exe... Mon, 26 Sep 2011 10:19:03 EST Need to Re-LIGHT MY SPARK!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4494874 It's Tuesday!!! <BR> <BR> Well let's see, I haven't really got this butt moving in soooo long. Every time I think I am something comes up, well I allow the excuses really to get in the way.. What are these excuses let's see... <BR> <BR> 1. I don't feel like going when I get off from work, maybe I will work out when I get home! - Well it DOESN'T HAPPEN!! <BR> <BR> 2. I should wake up early & work out before I have to be at work at 7 a.m. - Well it DOESN'T HAPPEN!! <BR> <BR> <BR> 3. Mayb... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 12:55:50 EST HELP- Rental Car Comapny Trying 2 Make Me Pay 4 Damages!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4484705 Hey Sparkers, <BR> <BR> I NEED any Input you all can offer.. <BR> <BR> I received a bill in the mail from the car rental company who wants me to pay them over $1,800 dollars for hail damage to a rental car when I was out of town in July in Chicago. They include an Act of God as still damage but I don't remember any hail storms where we were (I didn't pay for any additional coverage). However, there was already some prior hail damage to the car but they are denying it. I asked them about it... Wed, 14 Sep 2011 13:21:40 EST Time to Get My BUTT in Gear!! Need a MAJOR OVERHAUL IN MY LIFE!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4480606 Hey Sparkers, <BR> <BR> I had an okay but eye opening weekend. Me & my sweetie had a talk about my gettting my weight under control. Especially since I am gaining instead of losing the past couple of weeks. He noticed that I have been letting the stress of my mom's divorce & other family issues make me revert back to some of my old behaviors. <BR> <BR> I know its mostly due to me worrying about my mom. So I know I cant' let my mom's problems consume me into eating b/c I ate chocolate cake t... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 12:07:32 EST My heart aches for my Mom~Getting Divorced... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4471552 Hey Sparkers.. <BR> <BR> I know that this has nothing to due with weight loss but I found out over the weekend that my mom & her no good husband got into a very nasty fight. Which ended up landing my mom in jail even though she was defending herself & he hit her first. But since he called the police, she got taken down for it. This really mad me PISSED OFF b/c he has hit my mom before but she was never willing to call the cops. I am happy to see she defended herself this time but hate that ... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 12:48:36 EST Well Can't Preach To The KIDS About Being Healthy, If I ain't Getting Healthy Also!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4436972 Happy Friday!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I took the boys to the field to go running & I was able to walk around the field. Their cardio has gone down sooooo much since they got back from TN. They weren't able to get in much outdoor activity while they were there. So next year, I will have to cut their time down if they go to TN b/c they need to stay active. <BR> <BR> So we will be hitting the field again today & all this weekend, since they have football tryouts next week. I want them to get in... Fri, 19 Aug 2011 15:00:57 EST My BOYS ARE BACK!! YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4428553 Well today was the boys 1st day of middle school (John's first year-6th grade). Isaiah is now in the 7th grade. I took soooo many pics of them, even as they walked to the bus. I just wish I could keep them as little boys forever. They are almost as tall as me now. I can't wait to see the men they will grow up to become. I am really excited about their classes this year, my 6th grader will be in Automation & Robotics, Video Game Design. Then Isaiah will be in Lego League, Artificial Inte... Mon, 15 Aug 2011 14:57:02 EST How Did I Know I Was a FOOD ADDICT???? My Addiction to Food... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4406908 A Spark friend asked me on one of the forums... <BR> <BR> She said "Cassandra - When do you think mindless eating turns into food addiction? I mindlessly eat a lot also and I think most people with weight issues have gotten into that bad habit, but when does it transfer to that need/addiction?" <BR> <BR> So here's my response.... <BR> <BR> There is a VAST difference between having a HABIT & an ADDICTION!! A HABIT is something that you can BREAK but a ADDICTION requires TREATMENT... <B... Thu, 4 Aug 2011 13:10:15 EST