CWHEATLEY12's SparkPeople Blog CWHEATLEY12's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Why do weekends need to be different? I have been asking myself this question all morning. Last week was awesome in my books. I tracked my meals, I exercised, I blogged, I felt happy, I slept better, I wasn't as cranky...and then Friday hit and I threw it all out the window. And for what? And why? <BR> <BR> I need to realize that Saturday is no different than Monday. Friday is no different than a Tuesday. They are still days and they are days that I need to start being more accountable. Even if life gets busy during the we... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 15:07:23 EST Doing What's Best For Me This past week has been really good. I am really focused on my nutrition, I've gotten lots of exercise which has helped with the other stress happening in my life and I've been doing a lot of reading and watching inspirational videos/tv shows. <BR> <BR> It has really made me feel so guilty about how bad I've treated my body over the last number of years. It's made me realize how unhappy I was with myself and how I really have let myself go. <BR> <BR> I am pushing past that guilt though. ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 14:44:21 EST You gotta try new things... My boyfriend's 4 yr old daughter was taught a saying at her preschool that goes like this..."you gotta try new things cause they might taste good"...obviously its to try and help encourage new foods, but I have to be honest, I have been trying to incorporate it into my own life lately. <BR> <BR> Staying on track with exercise is probably one of my biggest issues right now. It is something that I've been working on. So I've decided that instead of doing things I know I won't enjoy I am goin... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 20:41:08 EST 10 Good Things About Life I have done a lot of soul searching over the past week and have really been putting a lot of thought into my life and the way things have been going. <BR> <BR> There are definitely some things in my life that I would like to change but I want to try and stop focusing so much on the negative aspects and more on the good things! <BR> <BR> 10 Good Things About Life <BR> <BR> 1. I am in a very loving relationship with a man who loves me for who I am and I have never felt judged by him. He mak... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 19:34:38 EST Getting back into a routine! I feel like I am finally getting back to a good place. This past month was a huge eye opener for me. Clothes were starting to get to small, money was getting tight from buying too much junk food and fast food, I was continuously cranky, I was over eating because my meals weren't balanced or on a schedule, and I felt constantly bloated and gross. <BR> <BR> But now that I have gotten back to a good place I feel like things are getting better. I have made myself get up and eat a healthy brea... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 08:50:43 EST Eye Opener I had an eye opening moment yesterday. <BR> I have a pair of shorts that have always been my "go to shorts" if other things were feeling snug. <BR> Well now my "go to shorts" are snug. <BR> Actually they barely even fit. <BR> I cannot believe what I am doing to my body. <BR> <BR> This past month, well probably close to two months, I just completely let myself go. <BR> I have the stupidest excuses. <BR> I'm tired, I'm busy, I don't feel like going for a walk, it's too hot, it's too cold, I ha... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 12:15:12 EST IWK Telethon This was such a feel good weekend for me. My boyfriend and I are huge supporters and donators of a local children's hospital here and this weekend was the annual IWK Telethon. <BR> <BR> This year was particularly different for us though. We actually got to volunteer at the telethon. There was a Family Fun Day held in the city with all kinds of entertainment, activities and the local news channel was broadcasting for the entire day. <BR> <BR> The weather was really cloudy in the morning... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 12:34:48 EST Exercise Rut I am in an exercise rut. <BR> And by exercise rut I mean its just not happening. At all. Even though I know it needs to. <BR> <BR> I am finally getting myself back to a good place. Or at least I'm improving immensely from where I was about a week ago. My eating is slowly getting back under control minus a few exceptions. But I just can't seem to get off my butt and exercise. <BR> <BR> It doesnt help that the weather hasn't been great here at all. It's been rainy, cold and just plain mi... Tue, 28 May 2013 10:38:39 EST Positives & Negatives of The Week Positives: <BR> 1) Went grocery shopping last night and filled the cart with things like a veggie tray, bananas, apples, yogurt, multigrain bread, strawberries, arrowroot cookies, and made a big step and bought turkey bacon instead of regular bacon...never tried this before <BR> <BR> 2) Got up this morning and cooked the turkey bacon for breakfast. Fell in love! Can't believe I have waited this long to try it. Those who know me real well know that I am a bacon freak so for me to find somet... Sat, 25 May 2013 12:46:03 EST Binges One of the things I've promised myself I'm going to start doing more of is blogging. I find it really hard to talk to people I'm close to about my weight issues. So my thought is that if I can keep myself accountable with the daily feelings I'm having or things that aren't going so well it will be easier to fix it before it turns into a huge problem. <BR> <BR> So... one of the huge problems I've been dealing with is binge eating. Talking about this in a public place is extremely embarrassi... Wed, 22 May 2013 15:22:38 EST Starting Back to Basics Man-oh-man, have I ever been struggling the past couple of weeks. It has been awful. I have hit that point in my weight that I said I never ever wanted to hit. So its time to get off my ass, come up with a new, better plan and get working towards my goal. <BR> <BR> I have been racking my brain all weekend long, trying to figure out why I keep going back to my old ways when I know this is something I want so badly. I really have no good excuses. At all. <BR> <BR> I have just had such a l... Tue, 21 May 2013 15:18:41 EST Back from Vacation! I am back from vacation in sunny Cuba and had such a fantastic time. We went to Cayo Coco this year and it was beautiful. I loved the beach and got to spend time with my boyfriend, his mom and two of his relatives. It was definitely what I needed after having such a busy winter. <BR> <BR> Now that I've gotten home the weather has improved greatly here at home. It seemed like winter was never going to end. Now its sunny, I can keep my sandals on and the evenings have been so nice. <BR> ... Wed, 8 May 2013 13:41:42 EST Weekends = My Downfall I think if weekends never happened and I didn't fall out of my normal routine that I would have reached my goal weight months ago. Ok, its probably not quite that extreme, but it sure feels like it sometimes. <BR> <BR> I don't know what happens to me when Friday afternoon rolls around. It's like I completely forget everything I've worked towards for the five days prior to that and I don't seem to snap out of it until about 6pm on Sunday evening. <BR> <BR> I have got to fix this. Its reall... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 15:12:31 EST In A Funk I have been in a terrible funk for the past couple of days and it stinks. I am having trouble getting to the root of the problem too which makes it even harder. Something has got to change. <BR> <BR> I just feel like I have lost every ounce of motivation I had. I have been drinking Diet Coke again...HUGE mistake... and I just haven't wanted to exercise or eat right or anything. I am working on getting back on track but since I've gotten out of my good habits I know it will take me a day ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 18:25:01 EST Making choices and April goals My eating has slipped over the past week and half. I'm not really sure what happened to me. But enough stressing over it. It's time to just get back on track. They were bad choices so now I need to move on from it and make better choices for myself. I am the only one who can fix it. <BR> <BR> I am finding it difficult when I don't have someone on board this journey like I am and it's really been a challenge for me. My boyfriend is on and off. Some days he gets me up working out with him... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 17:51:27 EST I need a vacation! I need a vacation! Things have been absolutely crazy at work this past week. I am a travel agent and we have so many people doing last minute vacations this year. Thank goodness my own vacation is only 43 more days away. I hope I can last that long! <BR> <BR> We have my boyfriends daughter here with us this weekend so that certainly doesn't help slow things down too much... 4 year olds are tough cookies to handle! But I love her and its worth it. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I am going to my broth... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 11:58:44 EST This girl is on fire! If you compared the me I am today to the girl I was not too long ago you'd think I was a completely different person. I am not really sure when the change actually happened but I am so glad that it is. <BR> <BR> I haven't felt this good in a long time. Things are just falling into place with my health and fitness and I am learning so much about myself. I am learning ways to make food my friend not my enemy. I am dealing with issues instead of feeding my feelings with food. I am getting ... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 15:23:12 EST Things I Am Learning About Myself 1. I am a secret binge eater and I need to fix it NOW. I am still trying to determine why I do this. I will secretly eat huge meals behind everyone's back and then I lie about what I actually ate when I'm asked because I am so embarrassed and I know I would get a lot of flac if anyone knew the truth. I am really trying to focus on being more open about what I'm eating so that I can control it. Its going to be a work in progress. <BR> <BR> 2. I have a HUGE issue with portion control. For s... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 18:58:03 EST Goals for Next Week This week I decided to make myself 5 smaller goals that I wanted to accomplish and it's gone really well. I want to do the same thing for next week, but this time I am going to choose 3 goals to work on. <BR> <BR> For next week I want to accomplish the following: <BR> 1) I want to commit to taking Marley (my dog) for a walk twice next week - I got her leash out yesterday for the first time since before we moved in December and I haven't seen her that excited in a long time. It makes me fee... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 11:08:38 EST What I Want to Accomplish This Week I am getting myself back into a good place again. Slowly, but surely! The last time that I was in a good place I spent a lot of time writing down my goals, things I wanted to accomplish and it really helped me determine what was working in my life and what wasn't. <BR> <BR> I need to get back to that place. It was the best way to keep myself accountable for things and was the best way for me to measure my successes. So, I know its already half way through the week but I done telling mysel... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 15:33:35 EST Life Update I am really not even sure where to begin. <BR> <BR> My life has been a mess the last few months, especially right before Christmas and things are just finally getting to a good place again. I know that all the hectic ness wasn't an excuse for giving up on my healthy lifestyle but I have finally faced the fact that it happened and I've got to learn from it and move on now. <BR> <BR> Without going into too much detail so as not to bore you, before Christmas we found out we had to move because... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 18:35:56 EST I've fallen and I'm trying to get back up.. I have completely fallen off the bandwagon. And it's been a nasty fall. I am not happy with myself for letting it happen. When I got sick last week on Sunday my exercise came to a screeching halt and my eating habits changed for those four days I was in bed... but after I started feeling better it was like all I wanted to do was EAT.. and EAT... and EAT. <BR> <BR> I have shoved more chocolate bars, chips and soda into my mouth in the last week than I have in the past three months. I was do... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 13:31:29 EST I've been MIA! I've been MIA for the better part of this week. Unfortunately I caught the flu bug that's been going around. We had my boyfriend's little girl with us this past weekend and she was the first one to get it... I figured I would be next. <BR> <BR> I spent 4 days at home in bed and am just now starting to feel better. Man, did it ever take a lot out of me. <BR> <BR> My Sparking pretty well came to a halt for that time because I was spending the majority of my days sleeping. But I'm back now an... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 13:19:13 EST Reflection I'll be completely honest in saying that this week (as some of you may have already gathered) has been the week from hell for me. It is absolutely amazing what I am still allowing stress to do to my body. <BR> <BR> I mentioned in a previous blog that my boyfriend is going through a tough time right now...and I am more than feeling the affects of it. My mood has been off, my eating has been off and it just felt like everything was going in a talespin this week. <BR> <BR> I did great exercis... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 10:57:42 EST The good, the bad & the ugly! I have had a lot on my mind this week. Some its good, some of its bad and some of it is just plain ugly. <BR> <BR> I am struggling a little bit this week with my calorie intake (the ugly!). I know that part of it is stress. My boyfriend is really struggling with some personal issues these past few days (the bad!) and I know it takes more of a toll on me than I think it does. I want so bad to be able to fix everything but I know it's not all going to happen at once. When I went over my cal... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 12:26:12 EST Smaller goals I can't wait to reach! I know that the ultimate goal for me losing weight is to be able to life a healthier lifestyle and be in good shape while eating healthier foods and being more active...but I'll be completely honest in saying there are a number of smaller goals I absolutely cannot wait to reach. <BR> <BR> Some of those goals include: <BR> ~ being able to shop at a store and not feel like I won't be able to fit into the cool clothes <BR> ~ being able to go to an all inclusive and not get a heat rash that ruin... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 15:13:27 EST My weekend Today I noticed myself making a few poor choices when it came to my meals/snacks but I took some time to reflect on everything and caught myself just in time. <BR> <BR> This is the first weekend I have had off in months...with absolutely nothing planned and no where to have to go. It was great. I decided to make it a rest day and really enjoyed it but I think there was a bit of boredom setting in and that's what was causing me to snack more than usual. <BR> <BR> My plan is to make tomorrow... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 20:16:44 EST Rewards I have been putting some thought into some of the rewards I would like to give myself for reaching my goals. Here is what I have come up with so far... <BR> <BR> Weight Loss Goals <BR> 5lb loss ~ fresh new haircut (only two lbs away!) <BR> 10lb loss ~ new pair of sneakers <BR> 15lb loss ~ new workout clothes <BR> 20lb loss ~ new pair of jeans <BR> 25lb loss ~ new bathing suit <BR> 30lb loss ~ all new clothes <BR> <BR> My next focus will be on creating some fitness goals and rewards to go al... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 18:55:06 EST Should I get a Fitbit? My boyfriend has started asking what I might like to have for Christmas this year and one of the things that's really been interesting me lately is the Fitbit. I don't know a whole lot about them other than what I have read from people on I guess my biggest question is: would it be worth having? <BR> <BR> If anybody has any thoughts I would love to hear them! Mon, 15 Oct 2012 16:48:12 EST 5% Fall Challenge ~ Week 1 Week one of the fall challenge has come to an end. I am really enjoying being a part of the Casual Travelers and everyone is so nice and supportive. <BR> <BR> I promised myself at the end of this week that I would re-evaluate how the week had gone and what aspects I feel needed some adjustments and changes. <BR> <BR> My measurements and weight aren't exactly where I wanted them to be today even though they are all steps in the right direction. I will be honest in saying that a few of the ch... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 17:22:04 EST Chinese Food 0 vs. Me 1 I won this battle fair and square...and damn I am proud of myself!!! <BR> <BR> We got home this evening after a really long day of work, running errands and picking up my step daughter for her weekend visit. I ate a light afternoon snack but really couldn't consider it supper so by 8:00 tonight I was starting to feel hungry. <BR> <BR> We mulled over ideas for almost a half hour as to what we could have. McDonalds, pizza, wings from Boston Pizza and Chinese Food....all the most unhealthy of ... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 20:39:29 EST Changing my attitude! It's not hard to tell by my last blog that my life sort of felt like it was going into a tale spin for the past few days. I read a lot of comments from Spark friends who assure me this is not unusual and happens to the best of us. I truly appreciate all of the kind words and support I received from that blog. <BR> <BR> I had mentioned in my blog that I had been receiving comments from some of the people closest to me that felt rather judgemental and sometimes hurtful about how much I was o... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 18:47:57 EST Feel like I'm in a bad place... And I dont know how to get out of it. <BR> <BR> I feel like my mind is playing some sort of Jekyll & Hyde game. About half of my week I am on a motivational high, making good choices and feeling good about myself. The next moment I am digging into a deep dark hole and binging on bags of chips, fast food and feeling like the lowest form of scum you can imagine. <BR> <BR> I know this is not healthy. <BR> <BR> I spend hours sometimes trying to determine why I do the things that I do. I think... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 14:41:18 EST How bad do you want this? I have been struggling to find a good balance the last few days between fitting in exercise/healthy eating and the other things going on in my life. <BR> <BR> I haven't been happy with a lot of the changes I have made because of this shift in how busy things have been and at first I was upset about it but the more I think about it the more I have to ask myself how bad I really want this? I am now starting to understand that this journey is all about me and if I really want it to be a positiv... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 18:19:50 EST 2012 5% Fall Challenge ~ Assignment #8 The purpose of this assignment is to list my reasons/excuses on why my diets and exercise plans have not worked in the past. I have many different reasons, but these are the three main ones: <BR> <BR> 1. Peer Pressure ~ I grew up in a family that loves food and now I am in a relationship with a man that also loves food! We all spend a lot of time together, especially on the weekends, at my parents house even now as grown ups and there is ALWAYS treats. My mom bakes a lot and she cooks a lo... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 10:06:35 EST 2012 5% Fall Challenge ~ Assignment #7 The purpose of this assignment is to take the time to look at my diet plan, clean my fridge, tidy the pantry and make a grocery list/shop. <BR> <BR> I have scheduled a cleaning of my fridge/pantry for tomorrow evening and plan on getting rid of things that may have gone bad or aren't good for my new lifestyle. <BR> <BR> Thursday night is my grocery night. I am going to be away this weekend but want to have all of the items I will need for this challenge on hand for next week. I have alrea... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 09:30:38 EST 2012 5% Fall Challenge ~ Assignment #5 This assignment is all about the numbers! <BR> <BR> In order for me to achieve my 5% weight loss will need to lose 9.2lbs <BR> Current weight: 184lbs <BR> Target weight: 174.8lbs <BR> By When: November 24th, 2012 <BR> <BR> I have updated this information on my Start page! <BR> <BR> Goal to eat 1380-1730 calories per day <BR> Goal to burn 1100 calories per week <BR> Goal to go from 184 to 175 by 11/24/2012 <BR> <BR> So with 30 minutes daily exercise, and eating between 1380-1730 calories... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 11:07:57 EST 2012 5% Fall Challenge ~ Assignment #4 The purpose of this assignment is to outline all of my trigger foods, what situations I reach for those trigger foods and how I can avoid doing it. <BR> <BR> Trigger Foods: <BR> ~ soda (by far #1 on my list) <BR> ~ chips <BR> ~ Mars bars <BR> ~ Ice cream <BR> ~ eating at McDonald's <BR> ~ desserts of any kind <BR> <BR> None of my trigger items are really part of a meal. To me they are the sweet and salty comfort foods that I go to the most. <BR> <BR> I think one of the biggest problems w... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 10:38:32 EST 2012 5% Fall Challenge Assignment #3 The third assignment in the 5% Fall Challenge asks us to list all of the reasons that we want to lose weight, why we want to change, how we want to feel and what things we want to do in the future with a healthier body. <BR> <BR> I have a lot of different reasons, some of them being more important than others. Some will also take much longer to accomplish than others. I am really glad that I finally took some time to stop and think about what I really want out of this though. To me, its rea... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 12:37:32 EST 2012 Fall 5% Challenge ~ Assignment #1 I have been finding it somewhat difficult to find a Spark Team that I really enjoyed being a part of but when I came across this yesterday, it just felt like a perfect option for me. <BR> <BR> It is going to be something very different for me. And certainly will be a challenge, but I am really and truly looking forward to it and plan on putting my best effort forth and hope to make the most of the challenges. <BR> <BR> I actually sat down last night and printed each of the assigments, read... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 10:42:41 EST Learning lots! This week has been a big learning experience for me. Some of it has been good, some of it not so good...but that's what this process is all about! <BR> <BR> Sunday evening was a terrible one. I had a binge. Not one of my worst by any means and this is the first time its happened in a long time. I am not even really sure what triggered it either. I think that's one of the most difficult things for me is figuring out why I do the things I do. Anyway... it ended up that I splurged at McDonald... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 11:51:29 EST Don't forget the dog! For the first time in a long time, the main focus in my life recently has been myself. I am changing a lot of things in my life in a very positive way and I have been satisfied so far with how things are going... <BR> <BR> But today I was feeling really guilty about something... <BR> <BR> I told myself this afternoon that I was going to take the dog for a walk..and I realized how long it's been since I've done that for her. When I told her it was time to go, she was more excited than I have... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 20:14:45 EST It's all about me now! I am having an extremely productive week and am really pleased with my progress so far. It's been a slow start but I am ok with that. I don't want things to happen all at once or too quickly. I want to accomplish one thing at a time. <BR> <BR> Here is a summary of things that have happened so far this week <BR> <BR> 1. I found out that some friends of mine are doing the Sacred Heart Diet. This is the second time that they have done it. When they tried it the first time, I found out that eac... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 18:31:06 EST Back in action! I am back... back with a new username and a new ambition to make things happen for the better in my life. This is my third time on Spark People. I am not necessarily proud of that, but I am proud of the fact that at least I keep coming back. <BR> <BR> I was doing exceptionally well with my weight loss prior to the summer. Damn you, summer. Then I let every excuse in the book get the best of me, and I can truly say that I gave up on myself. I made a lot of mistakes.. mistakes that I am defin... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 10:26:45 EST