CURVYELVIESAYS's SparkPeople Blog CURVYELVIESAYS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ghost Children? Who You Gonna Call? According to Author Geenen Roth ghost children develop because of the constant tapes we have in our heads telling us we are not worthy. They haunt our relationship with food. Twisting our relationship with food into something fearful. We need to develop a healthy relationship with food. Not one where we feel like as if we are starving and the only why to solve it is to eat it. And eat and eat. When we binge our inner ghost child is trying to tell us something. Whatever that something is...wh... Mon, 1 May 2017 17:02:18 EST I.B.S., Fat Oh My Just me finally getting a handle on weight haven't lost nothing yet. Losing weight is not easy but, I know people with the health conditions have I have Diabetes, Fibromyalgia, Hypothyroid and IBS...Lord I sound like a wing in the E.R. . But, yet I survive. I'm on the "Spark" diet again and just taking one step/one day at a time. <img src=""> <BR> But, this time I'm going to have some fun and not take i... Sat, 29 Apr 2017 12:58:16 EST My I'm on a Diet Confession <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have a confession for the past few months I've walked and eaten good. Except, well, for two months I walked religiously. I ate pretty much anything like chocolate and more chocolate. I exercised wondering was my workout wasn't intense enough. I was strolling and not walking. So I upped my walking but, didn't give up my chocolate or : <BR> <img src=" Wed, 26 Apr 2017 22:03:09 EST Easier I think life would be easier if the whole world was a wonderful fall day. I hate walking in this Texas heat. The sweat literally drips ever from my face to my neck. I feel like I am walking in a public furnace. <BR> <BR> On the bright side I'm sweating off fat soooooo it's not so bad. Fri, 15 Jul 2016 22:09:09 EST Sweating to the Oldies I remember 25 years ago doing "Sweating to the Oldies"(gotta love Richard Simmons); I found the workout not challenging at all. Well, 25 years later it kicked my butt. What a little time does. <BR> <BR> It seems that my body is a stranger to me now that I am anxious to learn from. I live in an alien body that use to be able to do "Sweating to the Oldies" now I have found I am an old LOL. <BR> <BR> It's okay I believe in baby steps. <em>77</em> <em>269</em> Fri, 15 Jul 2016 00:30:13 EST Friends Everyone Needs One I've been in Sparkpeople on and off for the four or five years. There was a time I had a good circle of friends. We encouraged one another and cheer eachother on. I am back now from a hiatus and can't find anyone. <BR> <BR> I can't seem to find my old friends or make new one's. The beauty of Sparkpeople is the community of like minds struggling with the same problem. Last time I lost 20 pounds and now? Don't ask. Being alone here sucks. <BR> <BR> I miss my old friends and hope to find them... Tue, 12 Jul 2016 20:34:19 EST Me vs. Cancer...again My cancer returining? I'm scared. Mon, 11 Jul 2016 12:52:48 EST Onions make me Cry If you tried like me so many diets. I've done Weight Watchers, Fen Fen, Orlistat, low fat, no fat, high protein...well you know the drill. I'm tired of always gaining back the weight. Tired of feeling disappointed in myself, in the diet another failure. It reminds me of onions because onions make me cry. <BR> <BR> So now I have a new out look of sorts. I am no longer going to diet or even weigh myself. I let go of any expectations. I'm exercising for fun's sake. Why torture myself? I need to... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 01:33:14 EST Weight Loss Surgery Pep Talk <em>306</em> Going to be doing a gastric sleeve and well I needed a pep talk. Wed, 29 Jun 2016 01:43:58 EST Sleepy in Texas <img src="">Update on the <img src=""> Fitbit Caper, on the "situation" with my daughter, etcetara. Thu, 10 Mar 2016 15:35:47 EST Just Venting <img src="">It's been an emotional couple of tragedy it just feels like it to me. Wed, 9 Mar 2016 17:55:24 EST That's Not Me I am sharing a song I wrote about self acceptance. <em>204</em> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 8 Mar 2016 17:10:07 EST Owning Being Bi-polar <BR> I suffer from Bi-Polar among other things. I find it really hard to be consistant with my weight loss journey. I am happy and good one moment and I'm a hot mess the next second. I can stay in a blue funk for weeks and then I eat everything in sight. I need some help how to deal with this. I've read articles here in Sparkpeople but, they don't help me. If you have some tips I will really appreciate it. Catch you on the flip side. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 7 Mar 2016 11:50:03 EST I am a HOT Mess I had some guest stars my daughter laughing in the background and my little dog Tiffany. Weight loss is not easy but, it's easier with friends. I need some desparately and a small hug. <em>381</em> <em>358</em> Mon, 7 Mar 2016 00:18:12 EST I Have Fallen and Can't Get Up <img src=""> <BR> Walking one of my dogs a slipped and fell. Picture this it was cold and it was night time. The day was filled with rain and so not looking where I was going; I fell. I would love to say I was shocked that it happened. I'm a klutz so I'm use to it. But, this time was different because I was tired. I did not have the strength to pull myself up. It took me a few minutes to maneuver my body to get up... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 01:15:06 EST Addicted to Exercise???NAHHH! I am not one of those people that profess to love to exercise Even when my body could I exercised sporadically. I have tried all kinds of exercise tapes/DVD, exercise machine I never used. I literally was addicted to buying exercise DVD's and exercise equipment. I would buy it and maybe I would exercise with them once or twice. <em>319</em> <em>549</em> <BR> <BR> I know it's pathetic but, my name is Elvira and I'm a DVD/exercise equipment addict. I thought if only I could buy the one m... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 19:34:36 EST Me vs. Food I used to joke that I ate when I was "sad", "happy", "bored"...etc. I thought it was funny. The joke was on me because not once did I realize that I didn't eat when I was hungry. Sad? Yeah, it is sad. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> When I was little I was afraid to eat and only ate when my Grandma would reward me...yup something to motivate me to eat. Ironically this started my warped relationship with food. It seem... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 15:13:18 EST No Labels, No Lies <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am my mother's daughter, a sister, a grandaughter...these labels I don't mind. I am also Amber's mom(so much that I forget I have a name). Then my labels got more complicated cancer patient/survivor, MRSA patient (a terrible illness that is hightly contagious) and then survivor. Skinny girl, curvy woman, and now for the past 20 plus years a fat woman. A diabetic and so many other little la... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 02:13:58 EST Listen Do you listen to your body? I'm learning because of the constant pain I am under. I want to exercise but, my body has other plans. The fibromyalgia is really doing a number on me. I am tired of this pain. I am going to do at least 10 minutes of something today to move. I've joined a fibro support group so maybe listening to other members might help me deal with this. I am listening to my body and it's in pain. <em>355</em> Tue, 4 Feb 2014 14:44:22 EST TATADUM Challenges with the BLC I'm facing some challenges with the Commited 365 BLC challenge. <em>33</em> But, it's all good. I love a good challenge and it's only day 2. Tue, 25 Sep 2012 21:38:21 EST BLC and Curvy <img src=""> <img src="">Doing the BLC and excited. These are my before pics. I am loving my curves but, can't wait to wave that fat bye, bye, bye. Mon, 24 Sep 2012 16:18:54 EST Re-Evaluating Goals <em>213</em> <link> </link> Mon, 17 Sep 2012 20:20:33 EST Confessions confessions curvy style <link> </link> Sat, 15 Sep 2012 17:13:39 EST maniac monday curvy style Have a Curvy Day! Mon, 10 Sep 2012 16:09:49 EST curvy changes only constant is change Fri, 7 Sep 2012 16:11:10 EST Curvy limits Strike a pose.... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 19:22:22 EST Curvy curve ball I feel my motivation is gone. The need to lose weight has lifted. I've lost my mojo. Help! <em>390</em> Mon, 3 Sep 2012 21:32:08 EST Curvy politics <em>362</em> Thu, 30 Aug 2012 09:24:49 EST Catching Curvy 2 <em>247</em> Tue, 28 Aug 2012 20:04:34 EST I've got a fever I got a fever, fever like when you workout right <BR> Fever, in the morning fever all through the night <BR> <BR> I have been having a fever for the past 24 hours. If I want antibiotics I have to go to the doctors. I haven't worked out this week. I am finding it hard to go back into rhythm. <BR> <BR> I haven't even gone to my website. I just feel so blah. I know this is only temporary. I look forward to the next blog feeling much better. <em>259</em> Fri, 24 Aug 2012 20:42:17 EST The Eyes Dance Party The eyes are the windows to the soul <em>352</em> Fri, 17 Aug 2012 18:08:12 EST Curvy sleep yay me! sleep is so good! Wed, 15 Aug 2012 15:06:38 EST Loving the curves My aha moment. Tue, 14 Aug 2012 19:00:09 EST Curvy, curvy Hang on the road is curvy! Mon, 13 Aug 2012 14:40:10 EST Be the Spark Thank you to my sparkbuddies for supporting me always. <em>212</em> Sun, 12 Aug 2012 19:13:22 EST Time, time not on my side I don't know if it's because I am getting older or what. Lately, it seems time is literally passing me by like a train. <BR> <BR> It seems that before I know it the hour or day has passed and I am dumbfounded. I want to workout for instance in the morning. Time passes and before I know I not only is it time for bed but, I did not workout. <BR> <BR> I am going to change things up. Usually I have problems sleeping even with sleeping pills. I go to bed like at 3 a..m. and wake up at 11 a.m. w... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 08:59:32 EST Time, time not on my side I don't know if it's because I am getting older or what. Lately, it seems time is literally passing me by like a train. <BR> <BR> It seems that before I know it the hour or day has passed and I am dumbfounded. I want to workout for instance in the morning. Time passes and before I know I not only is it time for bed but, I did not workout. <BR> <BR> I am going to change things up. Usually I have problems sleeping even with sleeping pills. I go to bed like at 3 a..m. and wake up at 11 a.m. w... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 08:59:09 EST Curvy Check-in "To thine own self be true"- Shakesphere Tue, 7 Aug 2012 14:19:26 EST Good to be Back Thank you all my spark friends for your support. Your words gave me the courage to look within and be a better person. <em>353</em> Fri, 27 Jul 2012 20:10:26 EST Quitting? I had a binge on Twix today. I feel terrible and my eating has been erratic to say the least. I started out good with protein shake and 2 hard boiled eggs. I walked to Walmart and back that was like a mile. The heat was horrible. I bought a coke and I wish it were my first. I went back to drinking coke for the past few weeks. <BR> <BR> I have hit bottom and I don't like it down her. I joined a challenge and I don't feel emotionally up to it. It's sad really. I have been consistantly exercisi... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 00:33:02 EST What's Going on? <img src="">my previous vlog had some tech issues. Sorry hope this works! Mon, 16 Jul 2012 20:52:31 EST The bumpy journey the journey....a little bumpy <em>390</em> Thu, 12 Jul 2012 16:40:25 EST Confessions of an out of shape optimist Giving the low down on my work outs. <em>353</em> <em>355</em> <em>381</em> <img src=""> Sun, 8 Jul 2012 16:14:56 EST Today has been enlightening <em>355</em> That is my favorite icon. Today I had an early morning Live Mind class with Judi. She is wonderful lots of tips on what to do on vacay as far as food and exercise. Take the livemind classes they rock. <BR> <BR> I walked to Wal-Mart in this horribly hot Texas afternoon and nearly died. But, made it out a thread I tell you. <BR> <BR> I am worried cause my mom is not doing too well. I took her blood sugar and it was super high and she doesn't have Diabetes. <BR> <BR> I am fee... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 00:29:46 EST Dancing Curvy <em>355</em> Fri, 6 Jul 2012 18:41:01 EST In Between <em>381</em> Fri, 6 Jul 2012 18:33:07 EST Trying to find the silver lining Staying positive is hard work especially when fighting depression. I know it's temporary. I know this too shall pass. <BR> <BR> So much is going on in the world. Andy Griffith passed away. I loved him and loved the Andy Griffith show. Didn't really like Matlock though. Now he was always positive. I just love how he never lost his temper. <BR> <BR> I love the new emoticons that we have check it <em>390</em> <em>383</em> <em>380</em> <em>381</em> <em>389</em> <em>362</em> <em>357</em... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 20:29:25 EST Curvy Dance Party Songs These are some links to get you moving and grooving. <BR> <BR> Hot and Cold by Katy Perry <BR> <BR> <link> </link> 4:44 <BR> <BR> Pump things up with Jai Ho with the Pussycat Dolls feat A Rahman 3:40 <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Keep it up with la Britney Spears Toxic 4:02 <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Get Pumped with Black Eyed Peas Pump it 3:46 <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> My new anthem i... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 20:53:59 EST Curvy Update Stay Curvy! <em>344</em> Wed, 4 Jul 2012 17:52:23 EST Earth Moves dance party the Earth moves dance party is me motivating myself to exerise. I have been fighing depression all week as well as mysterious aches and pains. I am taking one day at a time an trying to move throuh this; literally and figuratively. <BR> <BR> My mother's health seems to be getting worse. She has had some procedures to help her chronic back pain.. This has made er almost an invalid. It seems everything my mother suffers from get. It terrifies me so I am doing all I can to combat getting any w... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 19:25:29 EST