CURRAHEE68's SparkPeople Blog CURRAHEE68's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community too much pain Been having more pain than I am used to. Taking oxy to help relieve it. Also been eating too much and not keeping track of my food. But I did get weighed at the doctor's pre-op last week.Am down to 282. Close to my recent low of 280. Lost 14 pounds in the 2 months I did not weigh. Won't be worth much if I don't get myself back in the groove. Have moved to a cheap hotel while my landlord's house is being repaired. Not able to get on the internet very much at this time. Sun, 21 Feb 2016 00:19:10 EST physiatrist appt Saw the exercise doctor today. She told me she could not prescribe exercise for me while the cancer is active. But I did a little bit on my own anyway. See, all it took was for someone to deny me exercise and I start in on it. <BR> Feeling pretty good past several days. Although my urinary incontinence is getting worse. Thank goodness for adult diapers. NEVER thought I would say something like that! <BR> Still eating healthy, and under what is encouraged by SP. <BR> My wife is moving here to ... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 21:50:48 EST not sure how I am feeling Had my urology appointment Wednesday. The biopsy showed the cancer had entered the bladder muscle tissue. So I will have my bladder and prostate removed, along with regular chemotherapy. I get to pee out of my side into a bag for the rest of my life. No prostate, no more orgasms. <BR> My bowels are messed up. I either have constipation real bad or it turns into diarrhea. Also have urinary incontinence several times during the night and now during the day too. Yep, I am a bit miserable still.... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 01:28:03 EST less misery today This has got to have been the most miserable week I have had, other than after my wife died. But today the pains are disappaiting some. I hope to get out of bed tomorrow and actually go outside. They way I have been eatinghas almost got to have taken off some weight. Unless my body went into starvation mode a couple days ?? <BR> Had to cancel my physiatrist appointment Friday as I couldn't get up and about. Rescheduled for next month. <BR> I see the urologist Wed for the chemotherapy and fi... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 20:49:52 EST Post Op Was not a good day at the hospital. Had bad hip pain before surgery, no pain meds, and even worse post op. They had me in stirrups when I was under and moved my right legs in such a way that caused more damage I think. <BR> That, and the doctor was not able to get all the cancer out. She explained what she would do about it, but I was groggt and don't remember what she said. <BR> Being NPO under mid afternoon, and then having no appetire, I didn'"t eat too much. Little hunger today also. It"s... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 16:12:26 EST not overly nervous Go in for bladder surgery tomorrow to remove the cancerous cells. Signed the consent last Friday after the doctor explained all about the horror stories if something goes wrong.Being a nurse I already knew most of that so it didn't bother me too much. What did bother me is that if everything goes right I still have several more weeks of follow up treatments, including the local chemotherapy. <BR> I still have not been actively exercising. I have an appointment with a physiatrist Friday to he... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 14:20:39 EST still tired, but doing better Had my stress test. They didn't give me results yet, but I believe I passed, so my surgery should happen on the 19th as planned. It will be good to get that cancer out of me, and maybe help stop the incontinence I have been experiencing. <BR> My right leg muscles are very thin compared to my lft leg. Started doing squats today to get my leg so it can bend and hold some weight. Not much today, but did 3 squats this am and 4 more this afternoon. <BR> Went to wal-mart and then to an AA meeting ... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 19:29:39 EST tired Seems like I am always tired any more. Going in for a stress test tomorrow to see if I can have the surgery on the 19th. Sure hope so. I really want to get this cancer out of me. Having more pain in my low abdomen and have been incontinent most nights for past week or so. I have begun wearing diapers at night. Sure hurts the ego a lot. But in the 12 step program I go to, it is said, we are as sick as our secrets. <BR> I am still following my food plan pretty good. A couple small slips but on... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 21:11:26 EST no energy Started my walk this morning. Only made about 30 steps and felt too tired to continue. I did have to continue back so I did 70 steps before I was able to lie down, and stayed down for much of the day. Between the cancer and my heart I am running out of battery. Hope I will be able to do better tomorrow with a day of rest. Fri, 1 Jan 2016 00:36:00 EST trodding the road Did a little exercise yesterday, but not enough to register. Did better today. Went outside and walked 250 steps with my crutches. It takes me over 20 minutes to walk that much and a lot of pain. But is getting more painful to me to not walk. Still eating fairly well. Wed, 30 Dec 2015 22:37:40 EST Finally I did some excercising yesterday. Mainly walking in water. But back on the right track. Now, to continue. Sun, 27 Dec 2015 15:00:06 EST Back from family visit Really enjoyed myself with the family. Has been a few years since the last get together. Couldn't get on SP, but pretty much followed my food plan. Pretty much. I did have a day that I ate 4 cookies and about 8 pieces of candy. Ate every morsel slowly and thoughtfully as I do with my good nutrition foods. <BR> No real excercise due to the pain and my reluctance to just do it! Wed, 23 Dec 2015 22:41:41 EST still hanging in Overate by 100 calories yesterday, but in reality, it was a small binge on Life cinamon cereal. Still have not started exercising again, yet. I have confidence that I will. Going to my sister's house for a few days. My ex brother in law is taking me to her place in Utah. Will continue to follow the SP plan as well as I have been recently. Thu, 17 Dec 2015 12:39:42 EST back to doing a bit better Have not been exercising last few days, well, not very much. Felt embarrassed to blog without showing progress of exercising. But embarrassment can kill if I let it stop me from doing things like blogging. <BR> I did get weighed on the 11th and had lost a few pounds, so that is good. <BR> Been out traveling in my wheelchair, so that is good. <BR> Went to church this morning, so that is good. <BR> Been eating healthy continuously, and that is good. <BR> Exercising will get back as soon as I r... Sun, 13 Dec 2015 17:29:59 EST depressed a bit Stayed inside all day. Seems like now that I know the cause, that deep pain is intensifying. Told you I am a real hypochondriac. Only ate 1500 healthy calories today. Fri, 11 Dec 2015 00:23:12 EST Mindless eating today I binged on cashews this afternoon and evening. Ate almost a full can - 3.5 cups full. <BR> Had my cystocopy today. Turns out I have bladder cancer. Really not a big deal, and thats how I consciously feel about it. But my mindless eaing afterwards makes me think, know, that I am stuffing some feelings about it. Not betime yet, and have already eaten over 3000 calories. <BR> Hopefully I am back on track now. Makes me understand why I have been feeling so poorly recently. But as we say in AA, I... Wed, 9 Dec 2015 21:48:00 EST Exercise Started a new SP challenge today. I need to find an excercise pardner for this challenge. Anybody game? Tue, 8 Dec 2015 15:47:03 EST Got out Got out of the house. Almost ran my electric chair out of juice. <BR> Eating below my calories again taday. Plan to get weighed Wed and see if I am loosing any this time. I am pretty sure I have, but I was pretty sure last time and I had gained a pound. But no problem as long as I am moving forward and sticking to healthy eating when I am hungry. <BR> Will get back to exercising after Wed. I know, why not now? ok, maybe this evening? Sun, 6 Dec 2015 23:33:11 EST ODAT Had a shower today. That is excercise in itself, but I don't count it. Was very painful, too, and I did recognize that. Didn't do much today, except a few minutes of excercise and cook my dinner. The microwave went out in mid steaming for the rice. Transfered everything to cooking pans. Fried my fish with no grease, teflon working very good. Also staemed my cauliflower and brussel sprouts on the stove. Tasted pretty good. Oh yeah, had a good salad too. Takes me longer to cook than to eat, and... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 22:10:16 EST ODAT Finally got out and about today. Spent yesterday in bed again. Did several activities today, including buying a carbon monoxide alarm. Don't really expect it to go off, but better safe than sorry.Ate under 1500 calories yesterday and today. I am not trying to limit myself that much, but I don't see any reason to eat when I am full or not hungry. Only thing bothers me about it is that I am not following SP's plan of eating 1900 to 2300 calories a day for a person my size. <BR> One thing I boug... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 01:07:02 EST slept again What a pain in the *** I am getting to be. Spent the day in bed again. Tired, headache, pelvic pain front and back. Hope it is just me being hypochondriac. After all, in nursing school when we studied the G.I. tract, I ended up in the hospitol with a possible ulcer. Pretty sure it was just to my heavy drinking now. <BR> My face is very red again today. So tommorrow, just to make sure, I will go out and buy a carbon monoxide detector. My housemate is also having numerous headaches and sleepi... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 23:20:16 EST Out of bed Felt a little better today. Decided to go to the gym, but when I was almost there I realized I didn't have my crutches with me. So I had no way to get to the treadmill or pool. Still a good day. Took the bus to walmart, bought some sox and warm shirts. I can no brave the cold a bit better. Also caught the last part of a meeting then headed home. Stopped at a 99cent store and bought some salad. Ate half of it with supper. Supper was 4 cups of split pea soup I made a couple weeks back and froze... Tue, 1 Dec 2015 21:45:05 EST in bed Have stayed home, mostly in bed all day again. Having deep pain in my lower abdomen and sacral areas. Got me a little concerned. Probably just getting nervous over the upcoming biopsy. Maybe I am scared of it after all. Not sure. But I am certainly having pains like I've never experienced before. <BR> Not excercising or moving much, but I am following a healthy food plan. Mon, 30 Nov 2015 19:56:00 EST Excuse Maybe it was an excuse too. I did absolutely nothing today, exercise wise. I slept 11 hours and then some more rather than get up and do something. I was tired and feeling punk, but these are th days I need to get myself up and about. Too bad I don't practice what I preach. <BR> I ate another buffet dinner last night. And again, ate reasonably, only one small piece of cake, and felt good when I finished. Can't believe I am finally learning to eat a buffet and stick to healthy choices on the m... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 23:17:49 EST Decision or excuse ? I decided to put my effort into attending the AA convention over following my healthy routine to the letter. I do stretch and do wheelchair exercises several times during the day. Dressed warmer but still cold waiting for a bus. <BR> Also, I ate a buffet. Had half a piece of pumpkin pie. Main part of the meal was green salad and healthy stuff on and in it. Also ate about a cup of antipasto. The rest I measured in tablespoons full.Ate a little longer after I was full, but not much. Was a good ... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 02:06:25 EST AA convention Went to the AA Roundup (convention) here in Las Vegas today. Ate well under my limits again, except protein. Only 1 gm short, so far. <BR> First time I road a bus on my wheelchair. That not exactly what I mean, but you get the gist. Just about froze coming home waiting at the bus stops. Will dress even warmer tomorrow. Did not do my walking today. I keep making excuses not to walk. Excuses, not reasons. But I am striving for growth, not perfection. Fri, 27 Nov 2015 00:31:20 EST AGAIN !? Ate when I was full again last night. Did not go over calories, but not good doing that 2 days in a row. Sounds like I am setting myself up for failure again. Did not walk or exercise today. Lots of pain, yes, but no excuse. Start again tomorrow. Tue, 24 Nov 2015 20:06:25 EST more new stuff Went to the bank today. Then went across the steet and joined the Las Vegas Athletic club.. They have a pool that is made for walking. That was one of the best exercises I was doing in the Philippines when I lost so much weight. <BR> Spoiled the day by ending up overeating tonight. Still did not go over my calorie goal, as set by SP, but ate even though I wasn't hungry. <BR> Have to not give in to those feelings, but not going to condemn myself for it either. Tue, 24 Nov 2015 00:38:00 EST Getting better Went to an AA meeting again in the wheelchair. Also went to Wal-mart again. I can't carry too much with me so I will probably go often. Hope to make it to the bank tomorrow. (a different direction) But lots of places to explore in that direction too. <BR> Pigged out last night, eating lots of yogurt and non fat cottage cheese. Finally hit my goal of calories, but didn't go over. <BR> I appreciate people reading my blogs. I tend to post answers to questions in the comments after your comments.... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 22:09:28 EST Got out on my own What a great feeling. Went to the AA meeting by myself. Road my wheelchair there. Took 45 minutes. Almost crashed and burned several times because of my poor control of the chair. But I didn't crash, only almost. Then I went to Walmart and bought some reflector tape for my chair. Although I will try to be home before dark. Just a little added safety precaution. <BR> GREAT DAY Sat, 21 Nov 2015 21:24:31 EST a little excitement Just got back from my initial ride on my new electric wheelchair. Got here about 2 months early! Will try running it a longer distance tomorrow. Maybe even go someplace. Couple minor problems. I can't get back inside the house by myself, so will have to make sure someone is here. AI am working on a plan to overcome that minor obstical. <BR> Was able to ge back out and walk my 250 steps this morning. Have to keep that up, wheelchair or no. <BR> Missed my shower yesterday, as my aide was schedu... Fri, 20 Nov 2015 19:30:02 EST Urology Made my urology appointment today. Doctor checked me a bit, had me give a urine sample for them to culture, checking for infections, and scheduled me for a cystography. Going to shove a tiny camera into my uretra to look at the inside of my bladder. Depending what the doc sees, she will either withdraw the camera, not likely, or take a biopsy. She says I have to go under full anesthesia to have this done. So I figure if I survive then they should be able to put me under for a hip replacement.... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 21:50:56 EST KISS Keep it simple, Steve. <BR> Split pea soup turned out tolerable. Needed salt. I didn't use the flavor packet, plus I rinsed the ham with water to shed some salt there. But came away satisfied with 2 cups for my meal. <BR> Blood pressure was really high this morning again. Makes me think my cuff is off and needs recalibration. But wait. I took it again later in the morning and it was normal. Thats strange, high B/P in the am when getting up? <BR> My urology appoitment is tomorrow. Looking for... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 19:28:13 EST ODAT ODAT = One Day at a Time. That will probably be my title for a majority of the time. <BR> Bought some sweat pants recently, finally tried them on. They all fit, except the legs are too long. Will have to get 2 of them hemmed, but the other 4 have elstic bands around the ankle areas. <BR> Fixed fish tacos for dinner tonight. Had no cabbage so I used steamed brussel sprouts instead of cold cabbage. It was actually good like that. <BR> Had blood in my urine again this evening, about 5 minutes a... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 23:07:36 EST another doctor's appt Had another doc appointment today for all the tune up procedures I am getting fixed. I used to use a C-PAP breathing machine while sleeping. I lost it in all the moves I made in the Philippines. Haven't used on in several years. But I had an appointment with the sleep clinic today to schedule an appointment to see if I still need it. No doubt, I still snore very loud, and numerous other signs of sleep apnea. Also made an appointment with opthamolgy to schedule a cataract surgery.I think I am ... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 22:44:26 EST New SP discovery Goodness. I am sure I knew this when I was on SP before, but had forgotten. Just found out several people are leaving my notes or comments about my blogs. I didn't realize anyone even read them. So from now on I will try to get back to you with a comment from me. Thank you all for your participation in my recovery. <BR> Walking dailey is one of my goals. At least 250 steps for a week, then raise it to 300. Just got back from my walk today. Tried to make it to where I thought there was a bus s... Sun, 15 Nov 2015 17:36:51 EST interesting day Had an optometry appt this day. Dilated my eyes and lots of testing. Turns out I have cataracts in both eyes. Left one not too bad at this point, but right side is real bad. No wonder I felt like I have been going blind last few years. So I will be scheduled for eye surgery "soon". Wonderful news, I will probably see clearly again. <BR> When I returned home I had to pee. My urine was a dark red. This happened once before about 3 weeks ago. But I didn't doanything about it then. Today Jd drov... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 02:22:02 EST electric W/C Got eveluated for an electric wheelchair today. And approoved. <BR> Doc Mosh also told me my last chest x-ray showed I have a small anuerism in my aorta. Feeling a bit anxious about that. Will ask for a cardiology referral tomorrow. Told Maribel about it. She is anxious also. Maybe I should not have told her, but wanted toshare that with someone that cares. Wed, 11 Nov 2015 01:58:53 EST didn't do Have spent the last 2 days almost motionless. At least today I have stretch a bit and did a tiny amount of aerobics. The chair aerobics hurt my right hip when I try to raise that leg or knee. Muss not give up though. Persistence is far more important than perfection. <BR> Ate too much last night. Really stuffed myself. But again, I ate less calories than I am "supposed" to. <BR> Hope to go to the grocery soon and get some more ham for split pea soup. Sounds really good. Get to control the s... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 21:27:30 EST To do or not to do Been sitting here debating on going for a walk. Find lots of excuses to not do what is neccessary to get that new hip. But that just motivated me, a new hip. Sat, 7 Nov 2015 18:25:07 EST walk Just got back from a walk. Went 417 steps this time. I don't think it will be that much longer than I can make it to the bus stop. Maybe I should take money with me in case I can't make it back. Then I just ride until it gets back to my stop, all rested and refreshed. Like anyone actually gets off a bus refreshed? <BR> Made meatless burger and eggs with cheese for breakfast. Was good and I cooked it again. Having a wheelchair back to sit in sure makes kitchen chores easier, or even possibly. ... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 20:19:09 EST Goal My long term goal is to get a new hip. <BR> To get there I am setting some short term goals. Todays goal setting is: <BR> I will walk 2000 steps on a consistent basis. <BR> To accomplish this I will walk at least 250 steps daily, but more than that every other day. <BR> I have this set up for steak watching. And I will blog about my progress daily. Thu, 5 Nov 2015 11:50:39 EST cooked today Am almost finished making pumpkin squash soup. Steamed all my fresh ingredient before combining in a pot on the stove. The carrots and onios arn't disolving so I may blend it when it cools off. Still needs salt and pepper, but will let everyone put in the salt they want. I use the K+Cl. Let you know how it tasts tomorrow. Tue, 3 Nov 2015 20:19:01 EST Wahoooo ! The Va just delivered my manual wheelchair. I can now go back to cooking a bit. I've had my friends old wheelchair until a week or so ago. He needed it back for a few days, so I ordered my own. With the wheelchair I can stand in the kitchen and then be able to sit down as I get tired. I get tired quickly so have not been cooking. I still cook simple things. I expect I will make someTex-Mex beans tomorrow. I will have to get some more ham to make my split pea soup. I gave the last buncg away s... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 16:19:28 EST Day after Halloween. It is past 7 pm and I still have not had any of the candy I bought. I was just thinking that I am below my calorie goal again, sooooo why not? Thank goodness, I only thought about it a short time before sanity returned! Sun, 1 Nov 2015 22:15:02 EST feeling good Just had a shower, feels good to be clean. Also rearranging my room bit by bit. Starting to look like a civilized person lives here. <BR> Today is Halloween. I had my aid open thecandy bags so she could have a couple pieces. Now I need to not eat any myself. I know there are no bad foods, just bad portions. But it seems like I am uncontrollable when I eat chocolate, and have no control over portion control. My mind is telling me this is not true, but I think it is high time for me to use my ... Sat, 31 Oct 2015 15:09:37 EST new bed I have been sleeping on an old mattress and bedsprings. Very lumpy and had to use pliers to get the springs to quit poking me. So this morning I got a new one. The owner of the store (delivering the bed) was not pleased with me at first because I had not taken the old bed out. Plus he had not been planning on setting up the new one.But when he found out I was unable to walk, he took care of me cheerfully. Even refused the tip I gave him. But I convinced him too. It was well worth it to me. <B... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 17:54:49 EST Bedtime I've been up since early morning with only 5 hours sleep. Very tired now, close to midnight. Followed my food plan again today. Ooo-rah. Good night, all. <BR> Fri, 30 Oct 2015 02:39:19 EST CLEAN My home health care aid came this morning. She does several things to make my life a little more comfortable. But, the best thing she does is give me a bath. After spending over 2 months of only having self bed bath using baby wipes, it feels wonderful having a soap and water and scrubbing bath. She has been coming for a week now and I feel like a new person being clean!! <BR> Under ate yesterday calorie wise. Didn't try to, just the way the day went. <BR> Good day today and its only 9:30 am... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 12:27:36 EST Snafu I started back on SP Sat, but my foods were written as if it were Sunday. I forgot I have crossed the international date line since my previous entry. I was going to enter the food on Sat, but I ate so much that I decided not to bother. I had eaten at a Hawaian resteraunt and had Kalua Pig and cabbage. Lots of fat and enormous amount of salt. I am quite edematous today. Anyway, back with the program today. Mon, 26 Oct 2015 14:02:30 EST