CURLYMARIE's SparkPeople Blog CURLYMARIE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Stress, backsliding, ... not gonna give up. So the last half of last week was a write-off. <em>225</em> <BR> <BR> There was some minor stress with family members coupled with changes in my normal day (picnics in the park, eating out, barbecues at friend's houses, ... ). I'm also starting to gear up for back to school which brings a whole range of emotions with it. Tracking didn't happen, sparking didn't happen, and poor eating habits certainly did. <em>39</em> What's even worse is I had a big rah-rah, I'm going to have a great wee... Mon, 17 Aug 2009 08:01:21 EST #82 - I am losing weight because I'm tired of the back aches I am reflecting on two of my reasons each week, picking them randomly. <BR> <BR> 82) I am losing weight because I’m tired of the back aches. <BR> <BR> I have to admit that my back has gotten better over the past year or so as my two-year-old became a three-year-old and then a four-year-old. Less carrying definitely helped. (He was over 10 pounds at birth and the growth rate didn’t slow down! <em>211</em> ) <BR> <BR> However, carrying extra weight around my middle as well as on my chest a... Wed, 12 Aug 2009 08:19:14 EST Motivation Burst and an Aha! I got on the scale yesterday and saw a 1 in the third spot. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I really want to be in the 220's by the late August and when I've lost 15 pounds I'm rewarding myself with a haircut and highlights (I need it anyways, so I might as well make it a reward, lol). I am now less than 2 pounds away from reaching both goals. <em>185</em> <BR> <BR> It's funny what that knowledge has done to my motivation and will power. Both were still pretty good at this point, but knowing how... Mon, 10 Aug 2009 08:32:08 EST #64 - the bathing suit thing I am reflecting on two of my reasons each week, picking them randomly. <BR> <BR> 64) I am losing weight because I want to look good in a bathing suit and wear it in public without needing a cover-up. <em>218</em> <BR> <BR> I don’t wear a bathing suit very often. Not because of weight-related self-consciousness … we only really have 3 months of outdoor swimming weather, if that. I’m not into lying around tanning (can you say “melanoma”?) and wouldn’t have the time even if I was. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 7 Aug 2009 07:47:49 EST Starving! - and I still made good choices I dropped my oldest off at her friend's house and went to run some errands this morning. I lost my list so it took me a bit longer as I tried to remember everything that I had written on it. I had one of my trusty water bottles <em>91</em> with me. My last stop was the grocery store. I needed to stock up on my salad making supplies <em>258</em> <em>267</em> <em>301</em> and some things for the kids' suppers. I was pretty hungry by that point and had to resist several urges to buy certai... Thu, 6 Aug 2009 13:51:24 EST #47 - I am losing weight because I'm tired of being ... I am reflecting on two of my reasons each week, picking them randomly. <BR> <BR> 47) I am losing weight because I’m tired of being one of the fat moms. I’m ready to be one of the fit ones. <BR> <BR> My middle child went to an outdoor birthday party last week at a local park and the child’s mom asked if I would stay to help out. Because weight loss is front and centre in my mind I couldn’t help but notice how slim and trim she was. At one point the little girls ran ahead and she kept up easi... Tue, 4 Aug 2009 12:06:55 EST starfish steps I was puttering around this morning and got to thinking about the starfish story that I have on my sparkpage. I've gotten a few appreciative comments about it from like-minded people, but I needed to be honest with myself. I haven't been practicing what I preach. Lately I've gotten caught up with big numbers ... it'd be nice to lose 20 pounds by the time I go back to work in late August, my anniversary is in late October ... then there's Christmas ... <BR> <BR> While it's important to have l... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 15:24:09 EST #11 - I am losing weight to ... So I said that I was going to reflect on two of my reasons each week. I thought I would pick them randomly. <BR> <BR> # 11 - I am losing weight to reduce the risk of developing high blood pressure, diabetes, high cholesterol, and certain cancers. <BR> <BR> Being overweight can lead to all those problems?! Really?! I had no idea. <BR> <em>40</em> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I took a look at my risk factors. (With thanks to SP articles for some of the info). <BR> <BR> In my case, my mom has... Sat, 1 Aug 2009 08:16:11 EST Learning and growing, that's all I was in the bath last night. Lights off, warm water, ... Got me thinking. We all started off in warm, dark, liquid environments. We didn't have deadlines, promises to keep, commitments to fulfill, to-do lists to cross off. No one was counting on us. We didn't have to plan and prepare meals, clean up, or even get dressed. But we weren't completely without responsibilities. There were two very important things we needed to do. We needed to grow and we needed to learn. In that case growing mean... Fri, 31 Jul 2009 09:42:28 EST I've got my reasons ... 93 to be exact Yesterday I started thinking about writing a list of reasons for this weight loss journey that I’m on. I searched SP and got some ideas and inspiration from other sparkers’ lists. Then, as I started my list, I realized that I could come up with quite a few on my own. I thought up reasons based on my health, my body image, aging, my kids and family, clothing, social situations and other people’s reactions. (Yes, if you read my blog from July 23rd , I do realize that those shouldn’t matter, but... Thu, 30 Jul 2009 11:05:31 EST Banishing Procrastination Right Now! This morning I planned out what I wanted to get done around the house today and started crossing a few things off the list right off the bat. Then I got sidetracked. After lunch I was trying to get motivated to get going again and I found myself coming up with excuses to put everything off till tomorrow. Then I gave my self a kick in the butt instead, lol. <em>216</em> It struck me that if I was at work and promised a co-worker, my principal, or a parent that I would finish a task by the en... Mon, 27 Jul 2009 20:38:09 EST That's not helpful There's an age gap of over 6 years between our almost-a-teenager and the younger two kids. However, sometimes it seems like I'm dealing with three 4 year olds. <em>198</em> I've taken to using the phrase "that's not helpful" to remind the oldest to please think before she acts or speaks in certain situations. Laughing at her sister when she's being irrationally upset? That's not helpful. Arguing with her brother when he's over-tired and hungry? That's not helpful. Insisting on being right i... Fri, 24 Jul 2009 13:49:28 EST We'd worry less about what others think ... I was going for my nightly walk last night - 3.1 km (1.9 miles) in 34 minutes. Ipod cranked, getting in the groove, quiet streets, hardly anyone around. Then I rounded a bend and saw a group of kids playing street hockey. I immediately thought how they would make comments to each other once they thought I was out of ear shot or maybe sooner. I wondered what they thought about the fat woman out getting her exercise. I didn't let it slow me down, though. <BR> <BR> As I passed them, the oldest ... Thu, 23 Jul 2009 08:27:48 EST The vacuum cleaner is my new best friend I dragged the upright around for almost an hour yesterday, using the hose attachments to clean the dining room chairs, the couches and anywhere else I could think of. I worked up quite a sweat and could feel that my heart rate was up. Now, when it comes to inputing "heavy cleaning" I always under-report so I tracked it as 25 minutes. Still well over 200 calories. I'm wondering what I should vacuum today...? <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Seriously, I plan on cleaning the bathrooms and tidying the k... Wed, 22 Jul 2009 08:01:12 EST Me Time - two definitions For the past week I've been going for my walk in the evenings and following it up with a HOT epsom salt bath. I've been doing some reading up on the benefits of different products in the bath - epsom salts, baking soda, milk, ginger - and while some may say it's total hype I believe in the possibility that these baths work more than I question it. <em>211</em> I fill the tub, turn off the lights, and soak for about a half an hour. Then I get out and cool off and fall asleep within minutes.... Tue, 21 Jul 2009 08:18:21 EST Third time is a charm So, this is my third time on SP. <em>2</em> We had a family crisis last summer that totally sidetracked my - I know that I shouldn't have let it - and then I took all year to motivate myself to do something again. <em>24</em> . <BR> <BR> Now I'm back. Again. And I'm psyched and pumped and confident and motivated, but I don't want to go on and on about it because some would say "been there, done that" and they'd be right. Will I hang in there when the going gets tough? I hope so. I need t... Mon, 20 Jul 2009 08:00:09 EST June 25th Today is my brother's birthday. He would have been 47. That's hard to believe since he will always be 35 in my mind. Or 16, lol. He was my brother, my hero. I was happy to be his sidekick. He was the only one who was ever allowed to call me "kid". He would spend hours building roads and tunnels in the sandbox with me or setting up my toy train. Times changed, he moved away. I remember hopping on the train to visit him and his wife for the weekend a few times every year. Just me and the cool c... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 22:19:49 EST Motivation I've been really motivated for the past 2 months since I rejoined SP. I've been moving right along, doing everything - or almost everything - that I need to do to get healthy. Then I hit the 20 pound mark. Great motivation, right? Earlier this week I was planning to write in my weekly blog that I was super motivated, doing extra fitness minutes, staying low in my calorie range, yada yada yada. I was aiming for my first 10% goal by today and then 25 lb by next Thursday (the last day of school)... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 09:42:37 EST Why I'm Doing This Everyone has different reasons for wanting to lose weight. In my case, at my weight, it isn't just something I want to do. It is something I need to do. <BR> <BR> My weight is starting to give me minor health problems. If I remain overweight, what will those problems be like in 5 years? 10? I don't want to be in a position of saying "If only". I have control over my future quality of life TODAY and I need to make the right decisions TODAY. <BR> <BR> I want to have more energy and to feel an... Sat, 14 Jun 2008 14:11:26 EST Better Than Chocolate <em>116</em> <BR> <BR> I love chocolate bars. Too much, obviously. I haven't had one in well over a month now. But, that's OK because I've found something that feels even better than chocolate tastes; my nightly walk. <BR> <BR> I've been using a new route for the past week or so. A few long slow inclines and some larger hills, quiet streets, Ipod playing some rockin' tunes. I walk 3.2 km (2 miles) in 32 minutes, sometimes less. I drove the route with our van to figure out the distance. <B... Sun, 8 Jun 2008 08:32:33 EST Bracing Myself The next month is going to be busy, chaotic, hectic, stressful, crazy, (insert your own adjective here). <BR> <BR> - I have to write report cards which are due mid-month. But I'm losing my laptop for the next 2-3 days for some updating. (That was really smart timing on the part of the powers that be <em>24</em> ) <BR> <BR> - I have a mile-high pile of marking to do in order to have marks for the report cards. <BR> <BR> - The last few weeks of school are always a tricky balancing act as ... Sun, 1 Jun 2008 09:16:02 EST Positive Posting Yes, I confess, I have been guilty of posting for points. <em>2</em> I have wasted far too much time in the SP café looking for interesting or even controversial threads to respond to. I have even ventured into the game room in order to top off my points and get my daily 15. I've always had 2-3 relevant threads that I post to, but the rest? Not so relevant. <BR> <BR> Last weekend I decided to do some positive posting. My intention was to limit my posts to comments that are related to my li... Sat, 24 May 2008 08:40:29 EST My Trouble Goal I have a lot of little goals that I track every day - get plenty of sunlight, 6-8 cups of H2O, get in bed only when tired (no trouble with that one, lol), ... I dutifully check them off every day. Some goals don't always happen, but at the bottom of the list is one that never does: Stretching 3 times a week. <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> There are a few reasons I don't get to it. Since I don't really do traditional workouts, I'm not in the habit of stretching before hand. I do go for an almost-nigh... Sun, 18 May 2008 09:08:38 EST Salads! I really enjoy salads. Whenever DH works the evening shift I make myself one for supper after the younger two kids are in bed. I kept thinking about how to incorporate salads as my supper more often, but since I don't want to miss out on family meal time I was sort of stumped. Meanwhile, I was bringing Lean Cuisines to work for my lunches. Low in calorie, high in sodium. :( <BR> Finally, the light bulb came on (I'm not usually quite that slow to figure things out, lol!). I have been getting u... Mon, 12 May 2008 19:56:05 EST Losing Weight, Losing Clutter OK, first things first: my house is not a disaster. We entertain quite often and are not ashamed to have people over or even to drop by unannounced. However, there are some rooms in the basement whose rooms stay closed . . . I wouldn't be a candidate for that show "Clean Sweep", but close, lol. Then there are all of the other areas. The drawers and closets, shelves and cupboards that are all mostly alright as-is, but that I want to organize and purge. <BR> <BR> I've been doing a little bit h... Sun, 4 May 2008 20:27:05 EST Great (re)start I had a terrible, awesome week. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Terrible because I was sicker than I can remember being in a long time. I spent three days doing nothing but sitting around or napping. Another 2 feeling lousy. I'm still not 100%, but the antibiotics for my sinus infection are kicking in. <BR> <BR> Awesome because: 1) I did not throw myself a pity party. I did not use being sick as an excuse to wait another week to get back on track. I did not comfort myself with food. 2) I ate a lot... Sat, 26 Apr 2008 08:25:02 EST I Don't Want To I don't want to be obese this winter. I want to be under 196 before November. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be overweight next spring. I want to be in the low 160's by April. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be mentally grouped among the "fat girls" at work. I know that people would deny it, but many of my co-workers label people, make assumptions, and treat people differently because of weight. <BR> <BR> I don't want to let my weight get in the way of having people see me for who I really am. <BR> ... Sat, 25 Aug 2007 08:54:33 EST Measuring Portions This week I'm concentrating on measuring and controling portion sizes. DH laughed at me when I used a measuring spoon for my mustard and ketchup on my hamburger last night, but it helped me realize that I normally use less than a single serving of them. I've been entering a fluid ounce as my milk for my coffee every morning. Today I actually measured it. A fluid ounce = 2 tblsp. I only used 1. This week is teaching me so many min-lessons! I've been measuring some foods all along, but taking c... Wed, 18 Jul 2007 07:31:41 EST Lesson Learned Yesterday was DH's birthday. The kids and I made and iced a cake and they helped me make pasta sauce and ceasar salad. I ate a smaller lunch and stayed away from the garlic bread at supper. I had a smaller than usual portion of pasta and a bit of sauce. I had a small piece of cake that I didn't finish. My calorie total for the day was . . . drumroll . . . 1739! I thought I was being pretty good! Next time, I will input my foods before I eat them to see the totals. That way I can still make ch... Sun, 15 Jul 2007 08:26:45 EST I Want to Be in the 40% I read in an SP article that 1 in 5 Americans is obese and 3 in 5 are overweight or obese. I'm Canadian, but I'd be willing to bet big bucks that the statistics are basically the same here. That means that 60% of the population needs to lose weight. I want to be in the other 40%. I am going to keep working hard to make it happen. Sat, 14 Jul 2007 07:52:53 EST The Glass is Half Full For some strange reason I am doing really well at focusing on the positive instead of the negative. I went out to dinner last night and did not stick to my "diet" (back to that thought in a minute). I had some cheese fondue, steak, and dessert - tiramisu cheesecake, could you get any more rich? But I'm not beating myself up about it. In fact, I'm proud of myself because I only had a bit of the fondue, didn't eat th extra steak that DH offered me, had just one glass of wine, and split the dess... Fri, 13 Jul 2007 16:25:23 EST Totally On-track Day Yesterday was a great day - hit my calorie mark, high fibre, low fat, more protein than some days (hard to do when aiming for low fat), lots of water, lots of fruit and vegetables. I started my strength training and burned calories doing housework. This would be a good day to copy if I hit a rough patch in the future. I couldn't go for my walk since DH was working evenings, but I still did great. Of course, I'll probably exceed my calories today - going out for supper for DH's b-day. <BR> Thu, 12 Jul 2007 06:50:19 EST