CURIOUSBIRD's SparkPeople Blog CURIOUSBIRD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Monday! I'm trying to get back into tracking what I eat, even if I don't eat well. Today I ate several junk food snacks, including candy and a cheese Danish, and I was tempted to not track them, but I did - and it wasn't quite as bad of a day as I thought. Also, I had some healthy snacks, like a hard boiled egg, and I had oatmeal for breakfast, and bean soup for lunch. I had planned on making a new vegetarian dish for dinner, but I was pretty cranky after work and didn't have the energy to get to the... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 20:44:01 EST Oreo cookies I've already reached my limit for wasting time on the internet today (and I made it higher for the weekends) - ack! Well, I will have a nice remainder of the day without it, I guess! I have been doing a lot more things I enjoy and/or need to do now that I'm limiting my time online, which feels good. <BR> Yesterday I made banana-oatmeal bread and had it for breakfast today. I have to say it is sort of a triumph to have baked something and not immediately eaten it, or at least part of it. I ... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 11:24:23 EST Weigh-in Tuesday Tuesday is my weight watchers meeting day, so I went and found that I had lost one pound. I had skipped the meeting last week and had a couple of pretty "off" days, so I feel that was pretty good. For dinner I made a frozen pizza - I love the Dr. Oetker brand; they have it at HEB for buy 2 get 1 free and they are the best I've had. Apparently it's the #1 frozen pizza brand in Italy...seriously! Not especially healthy, but I tracked it and still stayed in my points/calorie range. The worst par... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 20:01:55 EST A to-do list Monday This weekend I was a total couch potato most of the time, and it felt kind of good to not think about the things I needed to get done for work and around the house... <em>20</em> . So today I got up with a long to-do list. I haven't done a whole lot of it, but I have caught up at least with the things that I need for work tomorrow! I ate pretty much the same thing today as I did yesterday, which made tracking easy :) Tomorrow I will go grocery shopping and get ingredients to make a couple o... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 20:34:26 EST Cooking up new recipes I've been doing Weight Watchers since the beginning of the year, and it's going pretty well! I have lost about 10 lbs. However, the blog system on their website confuses me, so I thought I'd come back and blog on SparkPeople again. I hope everyone is doing well. Lately I have been trying a lot of new recipes and just cooking more in general, which I enjoy doing. Today I made "Smoked Chicken and Mango Wraps" for lunch, and for dinner I am reheating some lasagna I made earlier this week. Since ... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 16:45:12 EST Body pump Okay, I just got back from body pump, and I feel cranky. I hate when I end up in a bad mood from exercising, since I'm really trying to improve my mood with exercise! I'm new to body pump and I am terrible at it, and the instructor was sort of pushy, and I don't do well with that. I am trying to see it positively - it's good that I went, and it will make it easier the next time I go. I can't possibly be the only person who isn't doing it right. Everyone has to start somewhere! Sun, 17 Nov 2013 18:23:51 EST Something that scares you: check! I tried out for a play for the first time since third grade today... aahh!! I borrowed these quotes (by Eleanor Roosevelt) from another spark blog. They have helped me put this experience in perspective: <BR> <BR> "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." <BR> <BR> "You must do the things you think you cannot ... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 22:48:29 EST Trying new recipes - yum! I talk about staying in a calorie range by using recipes from a healthy cookbook - and what happened when I didn't.... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 16:47:06 EST 1st vlog attempt Happy 4th! Thu, 4 Jul 2013 23:21:36 EST Tired from camp Boy, this day camp is wearing me out!! By the time I come back to the office at 1:30, I'm ready to go home, but I still have to see kids and do paperwork. On the bright side, I slept really well last night, which I haven't done in 2 or 3 weeks. I was so happy about that! So today was pretty exhausting again, but I still accomplished my goal of exercising after work. I was going to do a water class again (I did one on Monday), but I found out today it's Aqua Zumba, and I just wasn't feeling it... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 20:44:26 EST Crazy day Today was a busy, crazy day! It's day camp this week at my workplace, so for half the day I go out in the country and run around with a bunch of kiddos, and for the other half I come back to the office to see patients. One little guy at the camp got overwhelmed with all of the activity and had a bit of a meltdown, but we were able to calm him down by bringing him inside and singing to him. Tomorrow I'm definitely going to bring some stretchy fidget toys for him, since that really helps him st... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:54:22 EST What I've done Well, I haven't been much of a spark people member in a while, but I think I'd like to blog a little bit. My first thought was, "I have been doing terribly. I have been binging on junk food. I have been laying around all day. I haven't been doing anything good and I'm ruining my life... I am lonely and only making things worse with the bad choices..." I've been thinking so negatively like this lately! So I am going to be positive, because I have done some good things. <BR> 1. Got new job in a... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 15:29:43 EST Hey! Hey, whoa, I'm down to 184 lbs! My "mini" goal was 185, and here I am. Yes! Fri, 5 Oct 2012 23:29:22 EST Things I'm proud of today Woohoo! I am feeling really positive about getting healthy again :) Today I did a lot of things I'm proud of: <BR> 1. I had a good, healthy breakfast, and I went for a walk. <BR> 2. I resisted the urge to get pizza from Casey's on the way to my mom's. <BR> 3. At my mom's house I snacked a bit out of boredom - a banana and a nutella sandwich. I felt guilty about the nutella sandwich, because I was planning on eating lunch and I knew a chocolate sandwich was not a good lunch. BUT - I decided to... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 20:25:11 EST I didn't mean to quit, but... I accidentally did. <BR> Oh, okay, I knew what I was doing. <em>2</em> <BR> Anyhow, here's for another try at thinking positively about becoming healthy. <em>91</em> <BR> <BR> When I first started on SP the summer of 2009, I was pretty positive about changing my eating and exercise, but I was pushing every other problem in my life under the carpet (or in the case of the ignored bills, into the back of a drawer). At that time, I never talked with anyone about my big problems, including my ... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 16:45:38 EST "It's not about the Peanut Butter" It's a testimony to my unfortunate emotional connection with junk food that it's even sneaking into my poems! Here's a silly little one, and believe me, the peanut butter is just incidental, a useful rhyme. <BR> <BR> "It's not about the Peanut Butter" <BR> <BR> I had a dream last night of Prince Charming, <BR> who was charming, but hardly more charming than me. <BR> In my dream I was talking and laughing. <BR> I was shmoozing the birds from the tree. <BR> <BR> I was so charismatic in dream... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 09:47:55 EST Coming back I just checked and saw that my last blog was in July! It sure has been awhile. I've decided to come back and try to get reconnected to all my spark friends, because I've really missed you all! I looked at my friend feed and it's nice to see that everyone is still sparking along :) I'm going to try to join you. <BR> <em>213</em> Tue, 2 Nov 2010 16:28:03 EST Going to camp I'm so excited - I'm going to camp next week as a cook. It's my church's camp for kids and usually I go as a counselor, but I didn't feel up to it this year. I wasn't going to go at all, but then I heard they needed help in the kitchen and I volunteered. I have been pretty bored this summer, so I think it will be really fun. I've had a lot of experience working in kitchens (part-time jobs in college) so it will go well, I think. Also (and this is for my White Tiger BLC team leaders) - the cam... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 20:48:36 EST Check it out! Check this out! I went "yard sale-ing" with my sisters today and got this at a tag sale! It was the second day of the sale, so everything was half price so it was only 12.50! Unbelievable. My dad helped me bring it home and even though my apartment is tiny, I was able to fit it in a convenient spot and I tried it out this evening. It works great! <BR> I had to take the pictures with my computer camera, so they're not the best, but here's what it looks like: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 20:37:45 EST Paula Deen At my parents’ house the other day I tasted (just a corner!) a bit of a store bought “Lemon Gooey Butter Cake” from the Paula Deen line. It was heavenly. I decided I had to get the recipe, so I went online and copied it down. I got the groceries for it today and made it. What a mistake. Did you know Paula Deen is the queen of butter? That’s what they call her – what on earth persuaded me to make a recipe from her? The recipe yielded a 13x9 cake that was way too gooey and way too sugary even f... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 20:44:31 EST The worry... Why do I have so many problems with stupid paperwork and certification stuff for my job? I am trying my best to face the problems as they come on, as I have learned (the hard way!) what happens when you ignore them, but it's tough! I just got an email saying I didn't fill a form out completely/correctly, and it's just bringing back all the old anxiety and desire to sleep or eat to forget my worries. I am worried I won't really get certified after all my hard work... but I know it will work ou... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 13:25:51 EST The Library Ooh, I am blogging in the's hard to shake the feeling that someone will read over my shoulder, but that's kind of silly with a blog - the whole world can read a blog. Sometimes that makes me not want to post them, but I really like my teammates' input and everything, so I'm still going to do it - even if I have to blog at the library! <BR> Anyhow, my summer has started off pretty well. It's been a bit rainy here, and VERY humid, but I've been mostly happy with my exercising/being... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 19:23:44 EST Oh what a week ! Boy, maybe I should just shoot for a weekly blog! When I started, I did a daily blog, but things have just been really crazy this year. <BR> This past week was very difficult! Here it is in a nutshell: <BR> Monday - Counselor called and asked if we could meet right after school instead of waiting till Thursday (she suddenly had a conflict that day). So I ran over after school. Thought I was feeling alright but basically bawled my eyes out for the whole session. <BR> Tuesday - Continued to fe... Sun, 2 May 2010 21:18:38 EST Oregon Trail Cookin' up a lot of ideas lately! Here are the two related to SP: <BR> 1. The Oregon Trail: I was walking the trail at our local park and started thinking about how much I want to go to Oregon. My dad's family lives there, and I've always wanted to spend some time there - go to Portland, Eugene, go hiking, see the ocean, etc. Anyhow, I struck on the idea of doing a "virtual walk" of the Oregon Trail. I looked it up on the internet - did you know the Oregon Trail was over 2000 miles! Most peop... Sun, 25 Apr 2010 17:35:26 EST Crazy day! I finally slept all night long last night - it was wonderful!!! I took a walk this afternoon and am hoping to get another full night's sleep, because it's been at least a month since I didn't wake up and stay up in the middle of the night. But this morning, I woke at 6 and realized it was the first time I'd woken up since I'd gone to bed - woohoo! It's a good thing, too, because it was a crazy day at school today! <BR> I split my time between my elementary school and a preschool a few blocks ... Thu, 22 Apr 2010 21:16:19 EST Thinking now in hopes of sleeping later! I was just reading my old blogs and the comments. I felt very encouraged, because I liked seeing how I processed things, and I remembered how supportive my sparkie friends have been. I want to keep writing and processing my days, because that's part of being who I am. I think some of the trouble I was having with counseling is that I became kind of obsessed with it - how long would I have to do it? Will I continue to cry every time I go? Is the counselor right about what she says? I was just ... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 22:32:57 EST Update Just wanted to kind of summarize/list how I've been doing. <BR> 1. Physical: I'm exercising more as the weather has warmed up. I got a new bike and I really really love it. I rode it to school 3 days last week and have been riding it around town to the library, video store, etc. I'll get a picture of it up later. Nutrition-wise, I think I am getting more vitamins and whole grains, but I have been doing terribly with cutting down on sugar. I have a terrible sweet tooth. I haven't been sleeping... Mon, 5 Apr 2010 16:33:01 EST I don't want to be reasonable I just get tired of it sometimes! I'm feeling a bit crazed. I know what is good for me, but I just really don't want to do it sometimes. Still plodding on, though. :) <BR> <BR> Here's a poem: <BR> <BR> I don't want to be reasonable. <BR> I want to be wild and free. <BR> I want to tease out my hair like a great lion's mane, <BR> to seize something with wild, clamping jaws - <BR> lettuce? lasagna? a thick hunk of beef? - <BR> and shake it til I know it's mine. <BR> <BR> and I want to let loo... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 13:30:37 EST My ear, part 2 Yikes, I am going crazy here! The doctor gave me some antibiotics for the ear infection, and I think I am having an allergic reaction to the antibiotic. I woke up on Friday with my face totally red and itchy. I went to work but I couldn't stop scratching, and the kids kept asking what was wrong with my face. I walk around the school a lot picking up kids, and I could just see the stares all was very unnerving. I called the doctor and he advised me to stop the medicine and call on Mon... Sat, 13 Mar 2010 14:00:04 EST I think I am back Yes, I am back. :) <BR> I am slowly rejoining the land of the living here on spark people. I had really gotten off track and hadn't blogged for about a month, but I'm going to get connected again. I just didn't really have the energy to keep up with it all for a while. My energy level is still kind of low, but I'm feeling again like I really, really want to be healthy. Being healthy feels so much better! Wed, 10 Mar 2010 20:23:16 EST My ear Yow, my outer ear is twice the size it's supposed to be! The doctor gave me some antibiotics and I hope they help soon. I do feel like I'm taking way more pills now than I ever have before (what with these new pills plus the antidepressant), but I guess I've just been healthy before. Someday soon I will be footloose and medicine-free! Until then, I just want to get better. <BR> <BR> Eh, nothing else interesting to blog. Have a good evening, everyone :) Mon, 8 Mar 2010 18:20:59 EST Hello Sun! It's been a bit warmer these past few days, and I love it!I actually got out on my bike today :) I put on a hat under my helmet and wore mittens and a windbreaker, and I was fine - even a little too warm. I think I'll ride to school tomorow! Unfortunately this is the time of year where you're really not sure what to expect weather-wise, but I'm going to get out whenever I can. I have been struggling lately with depression and anxiety, and I think that the sun and exercise will do me good. I'm... Sun, 7 Mar 2010 20:14:49 EST Water Aerobics Today I took a break from going to the gym to cycle at the crack of dawn and went to a water aerobics class in the evening instead. I still think I'm going to keep up the cycling, but this class is only once a week, and it was pretty nice! I had expected it to be more like "land" aerobics, but it was much more low-key. I appreciated that. It's nice to get pepped up with music and everything, but it's also good to just exercise without music once in a while. It was soothing, and so was the war... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 21:43:43 EST Spinning/Cycling Tomorrow will be my third day in a row cycling at the gym. On Monday I tried "group cycling" which is what our gym calls spinning (actually I prefer the term, because "spinning" always makes me think we're making yarn out of wool :) ). I couldn't do all the increases in intensity, but I stuck it out and pedaled the whole time (45 min). I got up to 11.3 miles - way more than I've ever done on a real bike. That was really exciting for me! There was no class today so I just went in the morning a... Tue, 26 Jan 2010 21:55:08 EST Fortune Cookies Went for Chinese food with my parents and my sister's family. My nephew didn't want his fortune cookie, so I had two - and they both had TWO fortunes in them! Can't get much luckier than that :) I don't really put much stock in fortunes, etc, but it's still sort of fun. Three of the fortunes said I'd have good luck with friends and relationships, and one said (oddly) that I should "focus in on the color yellow tomorrow for good luck." What does that mean?! Anyway, just a bit of fun :0). <BR>... Sat, 23 Jan 2010 21:10:19 EST The good, the bad, the ugly The good: <BR> Lots of good action - paying bills, answering phone calls, searching for information on "scary" subjects that I do need to know about. Felt like I was doing pretty well. Went to appointment with counselor (made appt about a month ago and decided to go even though I thought I was pretty much better).... <BR> The bad: <BR> Cried as soon as went into counselor's office. Did not stop crying throughout. Felt very sad afterward and still not doing too well. Now have to make dr. appt... Tue, 19 Jan 2010 22:08:12 EST It was worse than I thought In a burst of energy today I put together a new bookshelf (I have never put anything together before so I felt pretty good about that) and pulled all the books and various junk off the old wobbly one so I could fix it. When I was putting everything back, I found a folder from my time at weightwatchers last year. I did the program with a friend from sept to nov 2008 and lost about 8 lbs. What I didn't remember is that my final weigh in for nov 2008 was 168 lbs. I'm at 190 lbs now, down 4 lbs ... Sat, 16 Jan 2010 22:10:08 EST Kickboxing Went back to the Y for kickboxing today - I loved it!! Can't wait for Thursday's class. I hope I recover from today in time, though. I am not used to pushing myself for a whole hour. I think having a class will be good for me because when I'm on my own I do tend to let myself quit a lot earlier than I should or really need to. <BR> Woohoo! Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:55:16 EST First day at the gym Today I went to the Y for the first time. I mainly joined for the fitness classes, and on Mondays it's Zumba and Yoga (same time, different rooms). I tried Zumba because so many have told me it was fun, but it did not take long to discover it is not for me. Honestly, I felt like I'd shown up at a nightclub and found out I have a polka soul. I do not think Zumba is in me. I tried feeling the rhythm and having fun moving, but I just couldn't make myself. It was terrible! Then I went to the card... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 20:38:37 EST I finally joined the gym My local YMCA is having a "pay the day" January special which lets you pay as your joining fee the number of the day you joined (for example if you joined the 9th, you pay 9 dollars). The usual adult joining fee is $60, so that's a huge bargain! Of course there are still the monthly dues, but with the big reduction in thejoining fee, I figured there wouldn't be a better time to join, so I joined. <BR> I kind of like the idea of exercising naturally or functionally (i.e. being more active in ... Sat, 9 Jan 2010 18:28:13 EST Relief Hi everyone, <BR> I can't say how much I appreciate everyone's supportive comments on my last blog. I'm sorry I left you all hanging on what actually happened between then and now. It's just there is kind of a lot to it and it's hard to explain concisely. If you want to know, read on. <BR> <BR> Here's a little catch-up on the situation. I think I'm going to have to explain some specifics, so here it is from the beginning. <BR> I work as a speech-language pathologist (aka speech therapist) at... Fri, 8 Jan 2010 17:58:46 EST Still blogging daily, and a confession Here is a quick blog entry as I'm going to bed SOON! I just don't want to miss a blog since I'm trying to do a blog each day. Today's blog is a confession and a request for support. I got a piece of mail today that I desperately don't want to open but which I know I will need to open at least before I go back to work on Monday. I did not open it. It could be good but I can only imagine bad scenarios from opening it. If you've been reading my blogs you know I have a problem with opening mail... Thu, 31 Dec 2009 00:20:54 EST Being positive My idea is to focus on the positive. I guess at least when I'm whining I'm admitting there is a problem (I tend to ignore things), but I have found whining to be of very, very little help. When I started working (a part-time job at a sandwich shop in college) I decided I would avoid moaning about going to work the way my co-workers did, and it really helped me have a positive attitude. I've kept with this pretty well throughout my different part time jobs, and now in my first "real" job I'm d... Tue, 29 Dec 2009 17:58:08 EST I danced with the stars tonight I really got out of all good habits. I think I could figure out how it happened, but I have a feeling that for now at least I should stop overthinking it and just start with some action. So I just did the "Dancing with the stars" latin dance video with my sister in the little gym room I have set up in the basement. My sister got the dvd for Christmas, and we decided to give it a try. We looked like idiots, but it was fun! It's also nice to have someone to work out with, and we've agreed to ... Mon, 28 Dec 2009 21:04:39 EST Can't focus Some of my students at school have the attention span of a flea. One kid is especially bad - if I can't say what I have to say in 5 words or less, I can actually see his eyes glaze over. He cannot stay focused! One time I read him a VERY short story to practice answering questions about a story. The story was really easy - I think it was something like, "Jack and Jill went up a hill. They wore heavy boots so they wouldn't fall. When they got to the top, they sat down." As soon as I finished r... Fri, 18 Dec 2009 06:36:29 EST I am a moody person Garr. I am not happy that I am having to deal with stupid depression problems. My mom always had problems with it, and this is definitely not something I ever wanted to deal with myself. After the lady at church suggested a month or so ago that I could be helped by a counselor, I read about what to expect from counseling. It said counselors help you plan ways to face your problems, and I thought, "Well, I'm a smart, creative, resourceful person. I know how to make a plan for change. I'm a spe... Tue, 15 Dec 2009 20:04:43 EST "Equipment" This is a poem I think you'll like. It was printed in our school board newsletter, oddly enough, and it says that the poem was read by George Washington Carver at a university commencement address. I think it's unfortunate that all these courage poems address themselves just to men, but I still claim them for myself. This is a great one. <BR> <BR> EQUIPMENT <BR> <BR> Figure it out for yourself, my lad, <BR> You've all that the greatest of men have had, <BR> Two arms, two hands, two legs, tw... Fri, 11 Dec 2009 23:48:40 EST Can exercise be peaceful? I am not feeling very motivated to exercise lately! I'm not sure how to make it clear how deeply I do not want to exercise. Try to imagine this: I'm standing in a flowery meadow in the spring. A warm breeze ruffles my hair. Everything is warm and sweet, slow and peaceful... maybe there's awooden flute playing somewhere in the distance. <BR> That is how I feel about NOT exercising. <BR> I can't summon that sweet, peaceful image when I think about exercising. Exercise is all about working harde... Wed, 9 Dec 2009 17:43:50 EST Okay, Curious, you can stop at any time... Yep, talking to myself again :) <BR> <BR> I'm trying to remind myself that I can turn it around at any point. It doesn't have to be the "right time" to stop the stupid eating patterns. I'm kind of annoyed because I've been doing terribly with eating, exercise, and action choices, and all in the first 2 weeks of the biggest loser challenge. I keep thinking that my bad start has ruined the rest of the challenge for me - but no! I know I can start good choices now. I'm going to start tonight b... Tue, 8 Dec 2009 22:20:07 EST Lonely bird Bored, bored, bored, and doing nothing AGAIN on a Friday night. Need to meet some people other than the teachers at work, because they all just go home to their families. Sigh. A bit lonely. <BR> Well, here's a poem for your entertainment. It' s about not doing what you're supposed to do...basically it was written for me (and the many other procrastinators out there). Now I'm going to get off SP so I don't spend all evening on the computer. <BR> <BR> Portrait of the Artist as a Prematurely O... Fri, 4 Dec 2009 20:14:58 EST