CTUCCI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CTUCCI CTUCCI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Living in the Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292150 Today was hard. I owned my current weight and I changed my tracker to reflect the truth. It sounds so silly as I hear the words I am typing in my head. I mean, I know that I had an injury and had limited ability to move my body for a year - what the heck did I think would happen? I had surgery, and there is a recovery process. I know that I needed to heal and love my body enough to allow for recovery, but sheesh. Making that little change on the tracker was a difficult step. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 09:33:05 EST Chin up girl - you got this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4836141 Short note - just sick as can be that injuries seem to be plaguing this race prep. I am scheduled to run a half on April 28, but every time I have tried to run the last few weeks, my knee has given me a hard time. I finally went to the doc, she thinks perhaps meniscus tear. The regular X-rays are normal and the MRI is scheduled for Wed. I was doing so well with my training and really seeing some excellent speed results, then bam - <BR> <BR> ok so -I am not going to get too down, I will ... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 14:06:05 EST A changed mental dialogue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4813701 Thought of something today on a run - the best place for my best thinking by the way....I though that my personal mental dialogue has changed from running and getting healthier. When I was young, I had parents who often criticized me for my weight. In truth, I was not significantly overweight at the time. Maybe an extra ten to fifteen pounds. I was really active though. I swam competitively, I was a varsity cheerleader, I rode my bike as a means of transportation. For fun I would play t... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 14:28:31 EST I am here for the party! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4796099 Sometimes I remember that girl that I used be. Who would sit and feel ugly, fat, teased, feeling in the way. I remember hearing some insentive teen laughing at me in my bathing suit, or a coworker with a nasty comment. People seem to think if you are fat you are either deaf or immune to the cruelty of others. Not true. <BR> <BR> I think the thing that hurt the most were the things I said to myself. Me when I would look at a picture of myself and quickly crop or delete so that I did not... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 01:05:50 EST Renaissance Faire - lots of calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4528033 We knew it was coming. We planned and got our group together. We could not wait for our first annual trip to the Faire. Some wore costumes, some found pieces from the merchants. We knew we would eat and drink and be merry. So - first, we ran. That's right, we got up at 6 am and hit the trail. I did an hour of fartleks and pushed myself hard running a total of 5 miles alternating sprints and 2 min per mile faster than my normal pace (ouch) with jogging. I ran hard and mighty with a goa... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:52:38 EST The run that almost did not happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4510621 This morning I woke to storms and rain...it seems that happens more than not lately. I was bummed that I would miss my scheduled training run. Sorta. Part of me just didn't feel it. I decided that maybe it was a sign I should go to lunch with a friend, or spend time in reflection, do yoga, be open to opportunities, or just reflect. <BR> <BR> Not ten minutes after posting something to that very effect, I got a text from my sister-in-law. She and my brother were going for a run and did ... Thu, 29 Sep 2011 16:02:41 EST Living the Lifestyle of Good Health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4484303 Been a while since I have been here - I spent the summer running 9 races and spending as much time with my family as possible. I needed to refocus a bit after starting a new company and finishing grad school. Some us time. I continued to run and exercise and maintain my weight pretty well. This is a lifestyle change for me, not a diet. So - I realize that I need to continue to track nutrition just to be sure that I never lose ground. I hope to see you all around and I am so glad that so many ... Wed, 14 Sep 2011 09:50:51 EST Day 3 of Clean and Stripped http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4209119 Yesterday I stuck with the types of food, but went over a little on portion size of my rice blend. I also had one Dove Dark chocolate promise. So I am going to go with a 90% compliance on that one. I hit all of my goals other wise, with the exception of cleaning two rooms. Ended up getting caught with some work to do and a patient in crisis, so my time was well spent. I did check in with hubby - he is still sticking with the plan and kinda likes me making lunches for him. Cannot say tha... Wed, 4 May 2011 08:26:06 EST Now I run for fun and start the Eat Clean Stripped http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4204279 ok- the last HM is behind me, I will blog about that later. Now I have decided to take the summer and run the short races so that I can get back to running for the fun of it. I love all of the hard work, but I do miss those leisurely runs where I go as far as I feel like going, for as long as I feel like running, for just as fast or as slow as I feeling like moving my legs. Run for fun! Speed and training will come again soon - but for now, running is just for me. <BR> <BR> I am going to... Mon, 2 May 2011 09:59:59 EST Running myself sane http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4140799 In the hardest times, running has become my friend. It helps me to focus, to prove myself to me. It helps me to feel healthy and in control. I think better, I feel better (ok who would have ever thought butt cramps would be considered feeling better LOL ). I know that when I run, I am running not just for the distrance or speed, not just for training for an event, or trying to lose weight...I run for my head. I run to keep sane. <BR> <BR> I do my best thinking, considering, deciding ... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 09:48:18 EST Praying for the ones that hurt you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4128660 I had a thought this morning that I thought I would share. Back story - I am feeling a bit oppressed, attacked and hurt in a professional situation. A w ork situation is coming to an end, and the end is not going pretty. Lawyers involved, threats and libel...all sorts of ugliness. In the past, I would take one of these types of situation and go within, begin eating, drinking more, feeling more pain and just feel horrible. Today, instead of eating worse, I eat healthier - trying to focus ... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 09:30:34 EST Out of touch but plugging along http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4105227 I am so behind in my teams that I feel terrible. I am sooooo swampped that I can barely breath3, but I am getting by. Currently,I am knee deep in my exams for my clinical psych degree, training for a half at the heavy mileage point, taking 3 classes, doing 20 hours a week of internship, on top of my real job as a vp of development for a national education company - a job that has been pretty drama stressful lately. Oh yeah - and the hubby and kids (the best part of each day). <BR> <BR> Goo... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 16:28:22 EST Why do YOU inspire me? - Let me count the ways http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4017440 I have lots of SparkFriends - many of whom I admire and from whom I find inspiration. If you are reading this, you are probably one of those people. <BR> <BR> Why do you inspire me? <BR> <BR> Because you jumped in with 100 lbs, 50lbs, 20 lbs, 10 lbs, ... to lose and you keep going even when you feel like giving up. <BR> <BR> Because you work as a mom, a secretary, a lawyer, a doctor, a daughter, a care-giver, an executive, a laborer - and yet still you have realized that making time for y... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 16:22:18 EST Find Joy Within http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4003427 Do you hear that voice that tells you that you can't do it, you are a failure, you are not good enough, you are worthless? <BR> <BR> Well change it. Yup, simple as that - change it <BR> <BR> Hear the negative voice, and make a balanced thought to offset that bad self-talk. <BR> <BR> When you hear cant do it - say Oh heck yes I can because I am strong and fearless <BR> <BR> When you hear you are a failure, say maybe I have failed once but I learned from it and today I will succeed. The o... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 09:32:24 EST Family Fitness Days - Being a full participant! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3995736 The Past - <BR> We would all go to our respective cave places - sit on the computer, watch a movie, fall asleep on the couch watching a sporting event, sit on the beach reading a book - do much of nothing. <BR> <BR> Today - <BR> We still love lazing - but first we do Family Fitness Day Sunday's. We all bundle up and go to the gym. Cardio is first - I might hit the trail or the treadmill, hubby and youngest son do side-by-side elliptical, middle son on the bike. Each of us check in, with... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 17:45:28 EST Busting through a Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3979718 I have been holding off weighing in officially for a while, frustrated with the plateau at which I seemed to be stuck. I knew that lifting and running, eating clean(er) than ever, would all pay off - but I want to be balanced and enjoy life without being too obsessed to the point where I dont enjoy a glass of wine or skip a run and beat myself up. <BR> <BR> I guess learning to trust that fitness and health is really a part of me now - not something that I will abandon after one bite of a ... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 08:41:24 EST A day of recognition - WOOHOO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3953564 Today I had to attend a family function - well sort of a step family function. I have not seen some of the people that attended in a couple of years. No drama, just scheduling and the like. Anyway, today we had 35 people or so gather for this post-Christmas thing. Everyone was casually dressed-and I opted for jeans, a t-shirt, a casual sweater and boots. Nothing fancy. <BR> <BR> I walked in the door and began making the rounds, kissing and hugging folks hello. I came to one of the firs... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 17:48:49 EST Reaching the ULTIMATE Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3937294 While this might be at first glance a simple blog, underneath is the essence of what we struggle with as women and men. <BR> <BR> A wonderful spark friend - Carolyn (one hot bikini lady) inspired me today to write this blog. She shared a story of how men were celebrating weight GAIN and muscle increases at a gym. She so aptly underscored how different that is from women's general perspective. A desire to be more/less or "better than" what and who we are. Carolyn's blog reminded me that... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 13:09:19 EST A happiness attitude shift - how to change your outlook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3931145 I read an exerpt of a book on an airplane magazine and realized that all I had learned in graduate school for clinical psychology, and what I had been telling my patients suffering from depression was validated. Then I also thought - well dang, I am doing that for myself, and have been for a while and look at me. I am so much happier then I had been in recent years. This stuff really works. So, whether this is new information from a Shawn Achor book, or something I have learned in years of... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 19:06:47 EST It starts with belief in self - or at least a *Spark* of belief! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3923761 I remember thinking, I want to do this, to run, to get fit, to lose weight, to be healthy. But I was so overweight, so weighed down by the pounds and the lack of energy, the sadness and loss of belief in my self, the feelings of ugh and yuk. <BR> <BR> I am not sure where it came from - well not exactly anyway - but suddenly there was a spark. I guess it probably started when I joined spark. Sure I just poked around a little bit, found my way slowly for the first year. But then, I starte... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 06:59:51 EST Working out solo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3919146 Ok - this one is likely boring to others, but an important accomplishment for me to remember, especially on those days where I am feeling in a funk. I want to remember this day, so a blog is a good of a way as any! <BR> <BR> Today my SIL decided not to meet up for a workout. It snowed a bunch, she did a little run yesterday, and she just needed a break. We have being super consistent the past two weeks together, and both of us are enjoying having a workout buddy. So - it became the test... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 19:57:28 EST No longer inadequate - now I belong. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3904048 For years, I have be the sibling that sat on her butt while everyone else engaged in athletic endeavors. I have 2 brothers who run triathlons, all 3 run, 2 SIL's are athletes. Heck even my step mother, hubby and one of my sons are serious fitness people. Me, I sat around and watched them, secretly wishing I could be there by their sides, running the trails, feeling that energy, being athletic and mostly, having those trim and muscled bodies. For years, I dreamed that one day I would be ab... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 16:33:28 EST Reminders- Goals/Pledges - and Inspiration for my 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3876718 I woke this morning and felt completely inspired. Not inspired for a temporary new resolution - I find those rarely work. Instead I found that I was inspired to build on what I started in 2010 by committing more fully to all of these wonderful health changes. <BR> <BR> Reminder! <BR> Gone is that old woman of 43 who felt so defeated by Fibromyalgia, weighed down by those extra pounds, stuck and sad. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l827286679.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Found... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 12:34:34 EST My Photo Progress for 2010 - More than half way there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3859043 Well - it is time to take a look back on the year and see where I started and where I am today. I know that I fell short of my 42 pound goal, currently at 27.6 pounds loss - yes. However, I gained so much more than pounds gone on a scale. I measure my gains in nutritional understanding, learning to run, embracing the joy of exercise as a part of my life, improved self-confidence, decreased reliance on medication, overall increased energy and so very much more joy. <BR> <BR> I hate to sh... Thu, 23 Dec 2010 10:17:05 EST My formula for having a happy run! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3855609 The dogs woke me up at 7:20...sheesh on a morning that I could have slept. I grumbled and moaned, really having had looked forward to sleeping in. Fibromyalgia was flaring up a bit and I felt achy and grumpy. <BR> <BR> Finally I dragged myself out of bed and figured I might as well get some things done. I went downstairs, got a big pile of laundry that needed sorting, and began some pre work day chores. I came to some of my running clothes and thought - well what the heck, the sun is up.... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 10:48:04 EST My first RUNNING half - Dec 11, 2010 (a photo journal) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3852333 The night before the race, we went to dinner eating some carbs and sharing in the excitement of the event. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l542321609.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> The morning started off brisk - early - chilly at 6 am. I could barely get down my light wheat english muffin half with almond butter for nerves. We were dressed and off pretty early...meeting my step mother at 6:45 for a 7 am start. We parked close - hubby dropped my youngest son and I off at th... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 14:20:35 EST Training for a half http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3788281 I come at this blog not with a specific thought in mind other than to be sure to record my journey on training for this half on Dec 11 2010 in Rehoboth. I once walked a half - raising money for a charity and bonding with members of my family a few years after mom passed. We did the Rock and Roll half in VA Beach and I had no real interest other than the charity and honestly - the party! <BR> <BR> This time, I am in it for real. All in! Seriously in. Because this time, I am a runner! <... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 16:33:21 EST My changing body: aka the scale or the mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3726176 As I continue down this journey - I am still working on recognizing the benefits of ignoring the scale number and looking instead in the mirror to define my goals, my accomplishments and my satisfaction. When you are running 15-20 miles a week, working out on off days, watching your calorie intake, you are going to make results happen. Sometimes it is muscle gain at the same time as fat loss. So, if you are glued to the scale you might just miss the wonderful changes. <BR> <BR> Today - I n... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 14:38:43 EST 5k - a day of celebration of grandpa (Oct 3, 2010) pics included http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3689198 Today's 5k was a wonderful success! We started as a family - a team running in memory of my grandfather - to raise money for a dementia program for the retirement center that cared for grandpa in his last months, and serves as home for grandma even today. My family assembled (I am behind the camera and we got ready to start in the chilly morning temps. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l267742230.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I was eager and freezing! <BR> <img src="http://photos-... Sun, 3 Oct 2010 15:23:52 EST October goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3687213 My October goals 2010: <BR> <BR> 1. Run at least 10 miles per week <BR> 2. Continue to monitor nutrition with SP <BR> 3. work out 6 days per week <BR> 5. Break 150 <BR> 6. Decide next step in running - stay on track, 10 miler, 1/2 marathon? <BR> 7. Set a running/race goal for winter months <BR> 8. Reach 44 yearrs of age in a healthier, stronger, fitter body! <BR> 9. Stick with nutritional changes Sat, 2 Oct 2010 15:51:23 EST September in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3687209 My Sept 2010: <BR> <BR> Well I am going to chalk this one up as a good month! <BR> <BR> 1. Run at least 10 miles per week CHECK <BR> 2. Continue to monitor nutrition with SP - CHECK <BR> 3. Record fitness all 6 days on SP - CHECK <BR> 4. Support my fellow C25k Graduates at least 5 days per week! (Easy one, these are great people!) - EASY ONE I LOVEEEE THESE PEOPLE - CHECK <BR> 5. Reach 155 - 27 lbs loss by Sept 30 - GRRR 1.5 POUNDS SHORT <BR> 6. Blog at least 1 X per week - recording p... Sat, 2 Oct 2010 15:48:53 EST venting a bit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3673279 When people notice my weight loss, I feel validated. I am still struggling though with see the progress more than the work left to do on most days. I especially feel that way when I walk by the mirror unclothed or in undergarments. I always say that the number does not matter on the scale, or on the inside of my clothing, but truth it, numbers are my only tangible barometer on days that I feel less confident. Am I ok? Sure Do I know I have made progress? Absolutely. Am I in a rush to ge... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 08:22:00 EST Bo Derek move over - I am a ten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3644328 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l398560525.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It is official! I went to the store, deciding that after my pants falling down incident I needed some clothes. I tried on a pair of ten jeans and woohoo - fit with room! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Woohoo <BR> <BR> I am 10 Thu, 16 Sep 2010 14:27:00 EST swimming in my clothes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3639927 Yesterday, I was on a business trip. The day before, I had selected out clothes for the trip - choosing a simple pair of black dress pants and a conservative blouse and jacket. The outfit, just perfect for the meeting I was going to attend. I was actually proud that I would be in my size 12's not 14's having not been able to fit in these same pants last fall season. <BR> <BR> I got up - went for my run on the treadmill with better than normal results and satisfaction for me - this definite... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 09:00:49 EST Making progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3624757 This morning I stepped on the scale to another pound loss. Just a pound you say? Yes, just a pound, but the pound that puts me squarely into the 150's - not just at the 159.5 mark no just 158.5. I take that to mean it is REALLY in the 150's! <BR> <BR> So - I got up with a smile, put on my fancy running shoes, my warmer running cloths, tackling a 3.44 mile run with a smile and a nice sweat. <BR> <BR> I feel like a million Fri, 10 Sep 2010 10:16:36 EST September Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3595748 My Sept 2010: <BR> <BR> 1. Run at least 10 miles per week <BR> 2. Continue to monitor nutrition with SP <BR> 3. Record fitness all 6 days on SP <BR> 4. Support my fellow C25k Graduates at least 5 days per week! (Easy one, these are great people!) <BR> 5. Reach 155 - 27 lbs loss by Sept 30 <BR> 6. Blog at least 1 X per week - recording progress and observations <BR> 7. Maintain ST 3 days per week <BR> 8. Work out when on the road at least 75% of time (allowing for plane travel days) <BR... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 09:20:33 EST August Outcomes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3590338 Well - time to evaluate the monthly outcomes. I started the month with the following goals: <BR> My August 2010: <BR> <BR> 1. Work out at least 6 days per week (at least 3 runs, and off days do something!) <BR> 2. Continue to monitor nutrition with SP <BR> 3. Record fitness all 6 days on SP <BR> 4. Support my fellow C25k Graduates at least 5 days per week! (Easy one, these are great people!) <BR> 5. Lose at least 5 lbs this month <BR> 6. Blog at least 1 X per week - recording progress ... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 19:39:19 EST He loves me as I am - no matter what http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3586474 Today I ran 5 miles for my week 7 day 3 - new PR for a long run - 1 hour 3 minutes. Just a minute shorter but it felt great. <BR> <BR> My husband went with me and walked for 3 miles then walked back to meet me with LifeWater during my last 1/2 mile. Gotta love a man that encourages those sweaty, gross, exhausted moments in my life and celebrates them with me! He thinks I am beautiful whether I am sweaty and gross or in a cocktail dress. He loves me when I am a witch and when I am totally fo... Sun, 29 Aug 2010 19:23:51 EST Weigh in jeers and cheers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3581028 Yesterday was weigh-in day and I was nervous. I have been going up and down with 3 pounds for weeks. I had increased work outs intensely, maintaining pretty solid compliance with healthy eating choices and caloric intake ranges, but still the weight was stuck. I got on the doc's special scale that measures weight but also calculates fat weight, water, muscle to fat ratios etc. Boom - first calculation - total weight - ugh up 1.5 pounds. Then the computer does it's magic - muscle weight ... Fri, 27 Aug 2010 16:48:21 EST A bit of blah with a sparkle underneath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3575985 No particular reason, but I find myself slightly waivering in motivation. I guess this happens to everyone at one time or another. I have been running so hard, working out with strength training, adding yoga and bike and eating healthy more often than not - yet the scale and I are still battling. Today I saw a 3 pound spike - WHAT...impossible. So I know it is water weight and will probably be totally gone tomorrow, but CRIPE - I hate those days. <BR> <BR> So - I am reading some blogs th... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 08:37:41 EST Think I over did it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3556195 Sometimes I am able to make myself forget that I have FM and other autoimmune/arthritic conditions. On those great days (and honestly there have been more good than bad since I started running and working out consistently)...I can go forever. Every once in a while, these insidious illnesses sneak up and smack me upside the head and say - hey - you cannot do that much! <BR> <BR> Well (forgive my french here) screw that. I am in charge of this body and I know that incremental increases in w... Fri, 20 Aug 2010 08:37:45 EST "Hips Dont Lie" LOL Thanks Shakira and Christina and others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3550867 Silly little ditty of a song - not even my kind of music, but when I run, I get energized hearing that song. I focus on my hips and say they dont lie and they are running and getting smaller and stronger....yeah <BR> <BR> I also love Christina Aguillera singing Fighter -thanks for making me a fighter! <BR> <BR> These anthem running songs make me feel strong and more determined. <BR> <BR> Of course I can throw a bit of heavy metal hair bands in there just to make me smile and remember th... Wed, 18 Aug 2010 15:47:28 EST Missed a weight goal - obliterated a fitness goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3545925 It is difficult to face when you miss a goal. I have been struggling with the same 3 pounds for a couple of months now, and I have had some frustration associated with missing my August 15th goal of hitting 25 lbs of loss target. I have noticed major changes in my body though, and my fitness dedication has not wavered for 4 months straight. Now I know this brings up the muscle gain and weight loss. Yeah yeah - I agree, but darn it I want to see the scale move. LOL <BR> <BR> The good news,... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 10:14:23 EST A love note to my SP friends and C25k Graduates team http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3528727 I am overwhelmed by the wonderful and supportive network of spark friends and teammates I have here. When I came to spark people, I really just wanted to lose weight. I fiddled around with the site, not really committed for about a year before I changed my tune and decided to focus on getting healthy and fit with weight as a by-product more than the only goal. I found C25k and then found all of you. <BR> <BR> Now my post yesterday was pretty deep from my heart - a moment of needing to jo... Thu, 12 Aug 2010 08:56:55 EST A tough one: The little girl cries - the woman roars strength and pride http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3526371 What is it with me and my Dad. Why do I care what he "sees" or think of me - of my weight - of my appearance - of my life. I have been away from his care since I was 16 on my own since I was 17 and here I am at 43, still effected by his opinion. Why do I sabotage myself, or destruct in any way when I am with him? So many times I have found myself stumbling from one callous or thoughtless remark. Here I am married for going on 18 years, a successful vice president of a national company, a... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 15:59:49 EST Pump up the Volume! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3520863 Ok - plateau - I am about to take charge of you. <BR> <BR> I am running just a little faster and a little longer <BR> I took my off running days and added 10 minutes to my cycling plan and increased the intensity notch <BR> I added 2 glasses of water <BR> I cut one fruit and added another veggie <BR> I closely have monitored each and every calorie <BR> <BR> I will kick your butt by pumping up the volume to my plan. I am stronger, healthier and in charge here - and I will be victorious! <BR... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 08:30:22 EST frustration and determination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3509023 I have been stuck at this weight now for 2 weeks and find myself frustrated. Now I know that plateaus happen, and that eventually things will break loose so long as I stick with my nutrition, maintain the exercise, mix it up a bit, drink water properly, and sleep well. I guess what I am saying, is that doing the right things with little to no results is wearing a bit thin, but I am hanging tight for now. I am determined to drop this last 20 pounds and I will do it - no matter how long it ta... Fri, 6 Aug 2010 10:00:17 EST Sleep and Workouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3502930 Beyond all of my nutrition, weight loss, exercise, and general health goals - I have learned that sleep has a tremendous impact on my ability to stick with my running protocol and find success in all areas of my health quest. When I do not get enough sleep - due to work travel (generally the most frequent impact) I am at a severe disadvantage. I often find I am too tired to work out fully. I often am tempted to eat poorly, and I feel just yuk all over. <BR> <BR> Today I made some decision... Wed, 4 Aug 2010 14:03:19 EST August Goals - C25k Graduate Team Member http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3491746 I am so following the lead of my friend and co-leader, Delphyne. Monthly goals seem like a GREAT idea to me. <BR> <BR> My August 2010: <BR> <BR> 1. Work out at least 6 days per week (at least 3 runs, and off days do something!) <BR> 2. Continue to monitor nutrition with SP <BR> 3. Record fitness all 6 days on SP <BR> 4. Support my fellow C25k Graduates at least 5 days per week! (Easy one, these are great people!) <BR> 5. Lose at least 5 lbs this month <BR> 6. Blog at least 1 X per week - r... Sun, 1 Aug 2010 14:53:53 EST New plan DeStress = exercise not food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3487857 Another triumph. Last night was a rough night. Long and involved story - the reasons do not even matter right here, it is the outcomes that I care to share. In the past, a rough or stressful situation (particularly emotionally stressed situations) would result in my sitting on the couch, wallowing in the emotion, depressed, eating chocolate - usually in an advanced carb form like chocolate cake, or a bag of chips, or something equally as horrible. I certainly would not have ever considere... Sat, 31 Jul 2010 08:59:10 EST