CSPARKS1178's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CSPARKS1178 CSPARKS1178's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Fatty MCCREEPER Creeperson http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229418 As I sit here this evening, I realize I have completely stopped taking care of my self again. Fast food, quick fating foods at dinner, soda (I quit drinking soda 10 years ago), what the hell is wrong with me?! I was so dedicated, eating , exercising, living! What makes a person go on this roller coaster ride? <BR> Life gets a hold of you , that's what. I am a fulltime mommy, wife, and college student. If its not homework, its helping with kids homework. I spend my day in Chemistry and just do... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 21:53:49 EST Today I am thankful for.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5156098 Today I am thankful for my eyes. They give me the ability to see all the beautiful little miricales that I am blessed with. My eyes give me the ability to see and chose what foods are going into my body. With out my eyes I could not see all of the amazingly beautiful things life has to offer and has given me. When I look into the mirror I am able to see that beautiful, smart, caring and compassionate woman standing in front me. I have the gift of knowing that my eyes have given me something t... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 15:07:47 EST Learning to love myself..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5154037 For many years I looked in the mirror and told myself that I love me, however I never felt it. The feeling of love is hard to come by , muchless feeling for yourself. Today, I made a commitment to love myself. I will pick out one thing a day to really focus on loving about myself. Today, I pick my brain. <BR> My brain is the driving force of my body. I really dont listen to it much, my dang heart keeps over ruling it <em>30</em> But today, I am loving and listening to my brain! No more fee... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 21:47:09 EST Today is the only day I have... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5148865 I can not redo my past and I can not predict my future. However, I can control today. Life is just that, one day at a time. If we focus on today we would have no problems with success. It is when we start our what if's and should of's. Beating ourselves up or focusing only on what we are GOING to do, instesad of what we are DOING, only sets us up for failure. So many times, I have looked backed and cried, got angry, or overwhelmed, something I consider stupid, and I realize how much time or e... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 21:31:31 EST Day one a success!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5145522 Life is amazing, and if we look around we can see all the little miracles life has given us, and one of them is our health. I am an active participant in ruining that or making it better and better. My choices everyday affect that. I chose good choices, I chose veggies, fruits, and water everyday! I chose to NOT sit on the couch and complain about being "fat", I chose to get up and move my butt for at least 30 minutes a day.It was my choice to get "fat", well it is my choice from here on out ... Sat, 24 Nov 2012 23:20:15 EST It is never to late......right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144279 I went on vacation and lost touch with myself once again, this was in June,lol. As my past has predicted my future behaviours, I have gained all my weight I lost back. It is okay though, I recognize and am changing this. I underestimated the power of Sparkspeople.com, it really was saving my life. <BR> My acceptance is the first step, my decisions are the next and my continuance is the next. I am going to invest my time in me, not my couch. I am getting ready to start a video diary of my jou... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 13:30:12 EST Change is possible, if we allow it..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4777208 So often we start to think about things in life that have held us back and prevented us from doing what we wanted to do. But how many times do we look in the mirror and say ” It is me” ? <BR> <BR> Change comes from within, not an outside source. I am not talking environmental changes, I am talking about personal changes. Whether it is on the inside or the outside. Humans have the ability to change, we just don’t like to do it. Change is a natural part of life. Like when we are happy and get ... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 10:42:28 EST Follow me and give me your advice too!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4777019 http://fitnesshealthandlove.word Thu, 8 Mar 2012 09:07:03 EST March madness in my kitchen!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773343 March is going to be a great month in my household!! Let the games begin!!! There is no bettter time to get this family back on track with eating than March! Warmer weather is coming in, we have day light for longer and I think just feel more active overall. <BR> <BR> No excuses this month!!!!! Different recipe everyday, kid friendly, taste bud friendly and calorie friendly....Sounds hard to pull off? But it is not, trust me!! With the help of SP I manage to get all my essential nutrients an... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 09:32:07 EST My courage and strength will overcome my weakness and cowardness.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769254 To say you have no faults is to add another one to your list . Everyone in this world has faults, we have weaknesses and most of us are scared of something in life. I just wish I wasn't scared of myself. <BR> <BR> I have overcome so much in my journey. Child hood abuse, dabbling in being a delinquent when I was younger, excepting that my blood family could really careless about me, leaving an abusive relationship and so on. It was my weaknesses that kept me in them and allowed me to be a vic... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 22:18:45 EST Tired of letting life win.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4767822 I wake up every morning and do the same thing over and over again. I pack lunches, find lost glasses for my daughter, at least twice a week,feed the animals, blah, blah, blah.... why is it so hard to maintain that repetitious behavior when it comes to taking care of myself???? <BR> <BR> I fight a battle everyday with myself, don't eat that, make sure you work out, these are things I wish I said to myself. But instead, I try and find reasons as to why I can't workout, why I can eat that and t... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 21:58:01 EST Getting my ass in gear again!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4731080 Life is full of little spectaculars all the time, but finding the time to slow down and appreciate them is sometimes hard to manage. Sometimes our emotions get the best of us, we yell at our kids or our spouse, and when we stop to think about it, for what? What are we REALLY mad about? Perhaps, maybe, it might just be ourselves. <BR> <BR> I have been swarmed with school, kids sporting events , a custody battle that should not even exist, but most of all I am battling that dreaded word, Mood... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 17:59:26 EST Still working it but no time to think!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4720513 I am glad to see everyone doing so well still!! This is awesome!!! I have failed to blog lately but school has got me doing homework out of this world!! I am actually taking a nutrition class this semester and it is so informative. It has taught me a tremendous amount of information about food labels, how our body's process foods and nutrients. It really is amazing ! <BR> <BR> I am down almost 15lbs since starting the SP life a month ago and I am feeling amazing!! I do not exercise much as ... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 13:25:12 EST It has been way to looong! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4701201 I started my new semester in school Jan. 9th as I have said in earlier posts, so this has not given me much time to get on and blog with my girls (and guys ;)!! Life as we all know can be a little bit overwhelming... <BR> <BR> I have been doing really good with eating and exercise, NO EXCUSES is my favorite thing to repeat in my head over and over,lol. My family and I went out to eat for the first time in over a month last night! I love the cooking at home, healthy meals, family time and $$... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 13:28:49 EST Down 10 lbs as of today!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685468 I have been swarmed with homework the last few days!! But I have been eating right, getting all my carbs,fats and proteins in, staying within my calories and exercising. It is rough to remember to eat and exercise between Algebra and Nutrition homework but i have managed to FORCE myself to do it. It has been a rewarding payoff, I weighed myself today and I have went from 199.3 lbs to 189.6 lbs!! Talk about one happy girl!!!!! <BR> <BR> Hard work pays off, whether it is in schooling,work, lif... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 21:23:38 EST Stop thinking and Start doing!!!!!! Stop! Stop! Stop! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4680717 Stop berating yourself for being a work in progress. – Start embracing it! Because being a work in progress doesn’t mean you’re not good enough today. It means you want a better tomorrow, and you wish to love yourself completely, so you can live your life fully. It means you’re determined to heal your heart, expand your mind and cultivate the gifts you know you’re meant to share. May we all be works in progress forever, and celebrate the fact that we are! <BR> <BR> Stop procrastinating. –... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 18:16:55 EST Facing the challenges of everyday life............... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4677300 January 9th I started back to school again and let me tell ya, trying to fit exercise and homework into taking care of my family is becoming difficult. I am doing good on my eating still though. It is a reminder of how hard it is to fit you in with everyone else. <BR> <BR> It is a realization to me how easy it is to come up with excuses as to why we did not do something.I don't believe in laziness but I do believe we tend to self talk ourselves out of things. We rationalize our behaviors to ... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 22:46:50 EST Starving myself fat... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4669975 It is so common for us to get going in life with our family, house chores , animals, school, you name it and all of the of the sudden we are thinking "I haven't ate all day". Really? Yeah, I did this everyday. <BR> <BR> I started my Spring semester today at school. I packed my lunch to avoid that cafeteria food, I ate a good breakfast and here comes eight o'clock and I realize I haven't ate dinner! I have to eat 621 calories just to meet my minimum today! And if you're really measuring an... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 21:52:29 EST It just keeps getting better.......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4664750 Life is made up of friends, family, our pets and us. Friends, family and pets love us we know that. We know this through feeling it and seeing it from them. Wouldn't it be nice to feel the love we have for ourselves? To get that " Oh I'm so happy feeling" when we look at ourselves in a mirror, or when passing by a store window and we see our reflection is all just within arms reach for us. <BR> <BR> I am starting to feel this self love for my self. I am so proud of my self for sticking to a... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 19:42:51 EST Getting my mental health back...by taking baby steps. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4661510 I'm fat, I'm ugly, I look bad in these jeans, I feel like a cow, I wish I looked like her or that... these are just some of the things we tell ourselves on a daily basis! Mental health is just as important as physical, and in my opinion you can not have one with out the other. <BR> <BR> I remember sitting around eating and thinking I needed to loose weight, I was fat, I looked gross, all while I was shoving my face!! I even started to rationalize with myself that maybe I'm just getting old ... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 09:23:55 EST Come and make a difference with me!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660208 http://fitnesshealthandlove.wordpress.com Thu, 5 Jan 2012 18:09:30 EST Everything changes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4657988 I have made it another day with portioning out my foods, I got in some good cleaning today for about 3 hours, burned some calories and feeling spectacular!! <BR> <BR> Two weeks ago I was not eating breakfast and barley eating lunch, then binging on dinner, drinking tons of sugar in my coffee and tea. I could not get my wedding ring on and just felt like crap. I made every excuse in the book as to why I could not do pretty much anything that I did not have to. I became a victim of my self. I... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 20:41:39 EST Amazed at how much I can eat!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4652528 Donuts, coffee, a twinkie or two <em>40</em> chocolate.....OMG! I sit and think of the things that I continuously put into my body day after and day, no wonder my waist grew 10 inches!!! I start my second semester of college in the fall and i have Nutrition this semester, I have been looking and reading my school book , let me tell ya it is amazing the things that we put into our bodies and don't even realize it! The way all these different fats and other synthetic nutrients added to foods d... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 21:29:03 EST Learning to love myself........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4648956 I am loving my new life style!! It has only been 8 days but I feel spectacular!! I have so much energy, I'm just not sure what to do with it. I am following this program and doing everything I should and for once in my life It is working!! I feel good, I feel confident, I am loving me!! The gym is closed today so I went on a 3.5 mile hike ! Yeah I did!! I would of never did that a month ago. I know I am doing this but without SP I dont think I could of been successful in doing it, Thank you t... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 16:48:50 EST HAPPY NEW YEAR AND NEW ME AND NEW YOU!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4646616 I hope everyone has a safe and Happy new year!! I am so blessed to have had 365 days of smiles, laughter, pain, sadness , you name it, it means I was alive!! I have made some mistakes that have taught me valuable lessons. I am taking 2012 by the horns and making it mine!!! I have been living in a false reality that I am fine, but I know I am not , but am on my way! I will focus on me, I will get healthy, and most of all I am going to love myself!!! <em>247</em> <em>236</em> <em>283</em> Sat, 31 Dec 2011 13:38:03 EST Nothing but raw energy today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4644874 I woke up today with this tremendous amount of energy! The kids and I are rocking to some jams and cleaning, and then its off for a walk to the park and some play time! THIS feeling is why I need to remember to put me first! I hope all of the amazing SP have a safe and Happy New Year!!! Let the new us begin! <em>104</em> Fri, 30 Dec 2011 12:34:52 EST Hearing, seeing and playing with my children make this so much easier! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4643518 I love my kids so much!! I could not imagine just continuing to let myself go and one day not be here for them. I don't want to get sick or to the point I cant play tag, or ride bikes. I would not only disappoint myself, but I would disappoint them, and that folks is not happening! We are getting out chores done and heading to YMCA for some family fun exercise. It is 60 degrees here St. Louis!! I value my life, my health, my family , my friends, and my furry kids, I am going to take every nec... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 14:56:22 EST My mind is racing.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4641617 It's funny how when we eat junk food we don't sit around constantly thinking about how many calories we have consumed, or how many ounces is that, blah,blah,blah(or at least I don't)...I wake up thinking about counting calories or food journalism, what can I do to get some exercise in today , its a nightmare! This kinda of stuff makes a person want to give up and go back to stuffing my face so I can concentrate on other things! But I cant, I have another good 50 years of life ahead of me, I ... Wed, 28 Dec 2011 12:20:35 EST No coffee = very,very tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4639790 I'm awake but don't feel 100% awake. I can not believe how dependent I have become on some liquid black stuff to give me energy.... Yes, I'm talking about coffee folks. Most of get up everyday and slam a few cups of Joe, and I have to have all the fixings in it too!Which means calories! We don't realize how much this effects our abilities to cope until we don't have it. The headaches, being tired and crabby, all because of this drug called caffeine that we enjoy so much. People just don't get... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 09:25:18 EST Sometimes I wish I could EAT and be satisfied with that! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4639325 Holidays we are all surrounded by food. Not presents or family, but food. BIG honey glazed hams, pies, yams, you name it, it is on my table. <em>497</em> And my plate <em>30</em> I tell myself to only eat a little and eat slow, but as I'm thinking that I look down and my plate is clean. The more I obsess, the more I eat and the faster I eat. I have no control, well I do I just choose to not use at that time. Eating that Christmas ham is like making love to my husband, it is sooo good!! I f... Mon, 26 Dec 2011 22:02:21 EST