CRYSTALJEM's SparkPeople Blog CRYSTALJEM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community RLA: Someone Funny how when you try to avoid things in life the universe eventually just pushes you off the merry go round and says, "There you go, you're welcome." <BR> <BR> I've been digging in my heels, leaving deep ruts in the ground as I'm being pushed. I am not going easily into what comes next. It doesn't matter that I know it needs to happen or that in the end it will all be good or that there is a big picture. I simply don't want to. I am screaming and kicking for all I'm worth. And I'm losing, ... Mon, 23 May 2016 14:31:31 EST Toooooo Long It's been too long since I wrote my last blog. Anywhere for that matter. It isn't even really that I'm too busy though I am extremely busy. Its simply that I have no space left to create. I feel claustrophobic and micromanaged. I can't keep my head straight enough to put words together. And, I feel judged. Lots to work on in my life right now. Blogging is usually one of the ways I do that. I miss it. I need it. So.... I'm going to do it. <BR> <BR> And this was the start. Onwards, upw... Fri, 13 May 2016 12:48:33 EST Goal Met! It's been a while since I posted. Life has been busy, full of change and it's been hard to wrap my mind around it all so a lot of time has been spent just being. <BR> <BR> During that time I kept my commitment to treating myself better and keeping the good habits I've formed. Unfortunately, still have one or two not so good ones to shed but that will come too. <BR> <BR> So... At my highest weight I got to almost 140. Still can't believe that. Really I can't. This mornings weigh in 109.... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 09:40:29 EST Life Is Always Interesting Even when it isn't always fun. <BR> <BR> I got into the groove <BR> I found my MOJO <BR> I got it working <BR> I was in the zone <BR> I felt complete <BR> Creative <BR> Powerful <BR> Determined <BR> Driven <BR> Motivated <BR> Inspired <BR> Unstoppable <BR> Unbeatable <BR> World changer <BR> Earth shaker <BR> Life changer <BR> <BR> I couldn't stop smiling, <BR> I couldn't stop trying, <BR> I couldn't stop the ideas from flowing <BR> <BR> I didn't need sleep <BR> I didn't need food <BR> W... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 13:22:16 EST RLA April in December Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> Hope the new year is going well for everyone so far. Looking forward to making it great - even though I don't know what that means for sure yet. Going with the flow. :) <BR> <BR> Here's the latest blog from Rise Like Air. Hope you enjoy. <BR> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>/april-in-december/ </link> <BR> <BR> Namaste, <BR> CJ Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:26:17 EST RLA Happy New Year Happy New Year everyone! <BR> <BR> It's going to be fantastic. I can tell. I can also tell it's going to be filled with challenges, amazing encounters, unbelievable and amazing things. I'm working at embracing pure uncertainty and learning to love it. At least not to run in abject fear! I am truly a work in progress. <BR> <BR> I'm working on a more detailed blog right now and hope to post it here soon. In the mean time, I thought I'd share my blog from Rise Like Air today. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 14:21:35 EST Living Mondays Ok when things go crazy they really go crazy. <BR> <BR> I knew my life was due for some real upheaval. I could feel it coming, knew it needed to come. I also knew I could run toward it, sit and wait or run away. I would like to say I ran toward it, but in truth, I sat and waited. Better than running away. <BR> <BR> I feel like my world burst completely open, like a new spring flower. Opportunity, possibility, change, choice... a plethora of options and combinations.... just waiting for ... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 09:30:33 EST Catch Up Time I was informed the other day by a Spark friend that it's been a while since I posted a blog. She was very right. <BR> <BR> For the last month or two my life has been in overwhelming upheaval. It's all good, I think - but like all upheaval, even the good stuff provides challenges. Perspective shifts take a lot of time and energy to process. <BR> <BR> It's all terrifying and exhilarating all at the same time.... potential for new relationships, work and personal. Potential for a new car... Mon, 23 Nov 2015 08:42:07 EST RLA: Playing and Growing Well, life has been busier than ever but it's been good. Thought I'd share another blog with you. <BR> <BR> Have a great day everyone! Hoping to take a rest this afternoon and catch up on some blog reading here. Cheer! <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Namaste, <BR> CJ <BR> <em>414</em> Thu, 8 Oct 2015 11:49:30 EST RLA: What's The Difference? Haven't got much to say today, had a tiring night. Knew I had to be up early and that seemed to mean I couldn't get a good nights sleep. Eghad, I'm turning into my mother. Words of advice for any youngun's out there.... don't laugh at your parents "aged" trials and tribulations because those same trials and tribulations just might visit you..... and they seem a lot less humorous then. Go figure. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> However, I treated myself and went back to bed for an hour after I g... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 10:59:08 EST RLA: Dreaming Today, is World Dream Day! <BR> <BR> #WorldDreamDay <BR> <BR> Check out my latest blog about why being a dreamer is a good thing. <BR> <BR> <BR> Wishing your big dreams that you make come true. <BR> <BR> Namaste, <BR> CJ <BR> <BR> <link><BR>5/09/25/world-dream-day-2015-dream-big/ </link> Fri, 25 Sep 2015 12:45:07 EST Points for Trying Well, I might not wait until my year is up to add another item. Have to be careful because lately I have really felt like I am walking a tight rope. So many good things, but organizing, keeping track, being energetic, trusting my intuition, being true to myself, not letting others change me, staying positive, being kind, having other people's back, sometimes I have to really sit back and say "what have I done!" and "How can I do everything!" <BR> <BR> In truth I can't. That's where friends ... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 10:57:36 EST I'm Challenged! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, as much as my life continues to be in turmoil just because of being busy, and having too many irons in the fire - it is still a very good life. <BR> <BR> I am still meeting the challenge I set for myself to log into to SP everyday for a year - even if all I do is get my points and do a quick check of my friend feed - and as you've probably noticed, over the past few months ther... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 10:54:47 EST RLA: Hearts Well, it's been awhile, busy living life - hurray! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to leave a link to my latest blog, hope you enjoy meeting this family. <BR> <BR> Namaste, <BR> CJ <BR> <em>414</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Thu, 17 Sep 2015 15:46:03 EST One Step At A Time <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wow, over a month since the last blog. Time for a quick 5 minute blog. On my mark..... Go! <BR> <BR> It's been crazy busy. I have got to find balance in my pace because it isn't fun the way I'm doing it. Lots of fun, lots of stuff but I feel like I'm rushing through my life. Easy solution actually if I was alone, but I'm not and I really don't want to be either! But it adds a new d... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 08:09:44 EST RLA: When People Roar Busy Busy.... felt blue yesterday but feel sunshiny today! Hope everyone is doing great with life and goals and a little bit of fun here and there too. <BR> <BR> New blog.... not quite the usual flavour. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> and..... <BR> <BR> a little video sing along that you may (or mayn't) find amusing. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>hitEAE </link> <BR> <BR> Namaste, <BR> CJ Thu, 30 Jul 2015 13:57:00 EST RLA: Saturdays Gotta run but thought I'd share. It's a good day! Have a great weekend. <BR> <BR> CJ <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Sat, 18 Jul 2015 10:36:41 EST RLA: People Do The Darnedest Things This was just a quick blog but the story was really touching to me. I mean how many people do we know who at such loss to themselves, would persevere to help people who weren't even sure what he was doing? <BR> <BR> In India, menstruation is still taboo in many places and for many people. One man decided to change that. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Have a great Friday and a great Weekend. <BR> <BR> Namaste, <BR> CJ <em>405</em> Fri, 17 Jul 2015 11:53:10 EST RLA: Close Encounters More hot, more humid, more moving slow... more not getting as much done as I'd like. Because I'm moving slow. (Ok, I know it should be slowly)... anyway. That's ok, because I just realized.... I'm still moving. I got this! <BR> <BR> I am alive! How do I know? <BR> I'm moving. <BR> I'm hot. <BR> My ear is itchy. <BR> My hand is numb. <BR> My cat is walking on my keyboard. <BR> My tea is delicious. <BR> And I am eternally GRATEFUL for all of it. <BR> <BR> Yep I'm alive. Slow is ok. Stop... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 09:24:25 EST RLA: Spirit Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> Busy busy today, but that's ok. <BR> <BR> So here's today's blog - an award winning essay by our guest blogger (my niece). Hope you enjoy! <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Namaste, CJ <em>414</em> Wed, 15 Jul 2015 09:27:38 EST RLA: Paying It Forward Happy Tuesday! <BR> <BR> Before I go any further I want to say a formal and big <em>304</em> to everyone who comments on my blogs, reads them, bothers to click on links. You guys really make my day. And far too often I don't manage to get back individually to say thanks and hi. I just wanted you to know that even with my lack of manners, it truly means the world to me. <BR> <BR> It dawned (apparently - hard to tell) grey and foggy. Really grey and foggy. Very wet too from the little ... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 10:12:07 EST Fitness Trackers Gather... Still keeping my weight level, which is much better than eking upwards. <BR> <BR> Read an interesting article today about fitness trackers and how a large number of people quit using them after only 6 months. <BR> <BR> I toyed with getting one, but let's face it, I know myself. 1) I seldom stick with gadgets for long and 2) I'm miserly. So, I haven't gotten one. I sort of assumed most people who bought them though would use them if they are committed fitness people. So this got me wonderin... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 13:04:05 EST RLA: Grief Had a great chat with my editor yesterday. She'd love to see more from me but she just found out she has $0 for freelancers. Yippee... not. Anyway, I still would be a byline, which I can use as experience and for references so I'll do 1 a month for a month or 2 and see where it goes. There's another vein of writing she's offering that sounds interesting that I would get paid for so I'm open. <BR> <BR> Also.... took a few minutes to pop up another RLA blog.... Here's the link: <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 19:05:12 EST Read All About It! So my editor was dumb founded yesterday when she called to ask what I thought of my byline and I told her I hadn't seen it yet. I actually forgot it came out yesterday.... was thinking it was today.... cause the paper is dated today.... but it comes out one day early.... I know.... <BR> <BR> So.... she recommended I go get a coffee and enjoy. Which I did. Well I got a tea. And my kids were as excited as I was. <BR> <BR> As a matter of fact when they went to town they came home with a ca... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 09:49:07 EST The Sun Came Back! My cat is being very helpful with this entry this morning. Feeling rather cuddly after a night out I guess. Yep comfy, just laid down on all my paper work. Typical. That's ok. I'm in a good mood. <BR> <BR> Finally! The smoke is gone, at least for a while. A week of it was a bit much. My lungs and eyes and life in general need a break. Don't get me wrong. The people up north, they're living the nightmare, I've just got a bit of smoke to deal with. Was smart enough to start both my inhale... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 10:17:02 EST Cloudy with a Chance of Smoke Oh I want to get so much done today and am already floundering. All the smoke in the air makes it so dark all I really want to do is go back to bed and read and sleep. I am so tempted, but I've committed to things today! <BR> <BR> Stomach is churning over one of my kids again. Happy on the outside, maybe not so happy on the inside. Such a normal thing for many kids, but for this one, it's easy for it to spiral out of control. Trusting their ability to ask for help, trusting their ability to... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 12:09:10 EST It's Monday! Are You Ready? Began reading an interesting article (have to finish it yet) but I thought I'd share while I have a chance. It's from the Huffington Post and is called I Don't Have To Lose Weight To Be A Yogi. The pictures prove that fact - and let's face it. The idea of weight not having to hold us back is not new. I'm all for that. Quit letting "things" and "people" and "ideas" and "beliefs" hold us back! It's pretty simple really, when you want to do something "Just Do It!" Well it's all that simple w... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 10:17:23 EST RLA: Truth Well amongst all the things I haven't finished yet I did manage a tiny blog entry. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Hope you enjoy. <BR> <BR> Last night was the first night in I don't know how long where we didn't have anything "planned" so we stayed home and puttered at things - maybe not efficient, but much needed mental break. <BR> <BR> Watched American Ninja Warrior... <em>216</em> The girls are just making me want to reach every goal I set. <em>405</em> ... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 12:57:04 EST CWMR: Press Set Well, two Christmases ago I received a very nice brand new bathroom scale. You program in your height and sex and it determines your BMI and caloric range to keep you at the weight you currently are. It even saves the last results so you can review. <BR> <BR> So this morning, I finally set it up. Yes, finally. I told you I've been having a problem with getting things done in a timely fashion. This time it was simply not really wanting to know the truth. But lately I've been really good at ... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 11:29:43 EST CWMR: Down... Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings: <BR> <BR> ... the scale that is. It's a slow decline but it is a decline never the less and I am celebrating it. <BR> <BR> Finding the foods that cause me to bloat up and gain that air and water weight is a very high priority for me. It makes a huge difference in how I feel so it's worth the effort. I'm not finding it easy, but worth it. I'm a bit immature when I choose to lose a food I "really really like" but a challenge is a challenge and I know i... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 11:49:03 EST CWMR: Organizing Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings.... <BR> <BR> I keep trying to tweak my schedule so everything "fits". And it never does. Because while I try to stay mindful and pace myself I still get caught up in the world. A lot. It doesn't help that I'm an family unit. Like everything in life it has pros and cons. Pros outweigh the cons for me. But that doesn't mean I don't get frustrated with them. <BR> <BR> So I tried again today. I must admit, each attempt I get a bit better a bit more refine... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 15:18:37 EST CWMR: Storytellers and Reporters Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings... <BR> <BR> I did it. I finished my freelance piece. It was a little painful, but in a good way. Lots of learning curve and that's ok - I'm open to learning and I am quick to admit I do not know it all, probably never will. <BR> <BR> It was challenging - being a blogger I'm used to being able to be in full control. I'm a story teller so brevity is not something I often worry about anymore. But when you're freelancing for a newspaper it's definite... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 10:56:06 EST Just Do It I had a great little video shared with me this morning. <BR> <BR> It's the truth. If I don't want to start over again, quit giving up! <BR> <BR> I'm at the edge, I can give up or I can jump and wait for the net to appear. <BR> <BR> I have my first interview with someone I know this afternoon. Am looking forward to writing this article. Hoping to please the editor, but I also realize part of this is all about pleasing me. <BR> <BR> I'm nervous, but I know I can do this. <BR> <BR> Have... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 10:37:02 EST What Have I Done! Well, I've put myself in my element, started my dreams coming true, made a plan, got a free lance assignment.... <BR> <BR> And Now I Am Absolutely And Completely Utterly TERRIFIED! <BR> <BR> Great local paper <BR> Great objective and supportive editor, and we think alike <BR> Geat opportunity to do articles I want to do, not the stuff I don't want to do (like accident scenes, council meetings and police reports) I get to do the interesting people/business interviews, the opinion pieces!! <B... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 10:52:17 EST Bursting Buttons I'm still a little sore, but definitely on the mend. Thank goodness. Being sore just isn't fun, especially when the pain makes fun tasks difficult - like walking. <BR> <BR> I realized that yet AGAIN I have become unsubscribed to some of my favourite blogs. I do wish that didn't happen. <BR> <BR> Being in pain yesterday and having to be careful how I walked I thought it was a perfect opportunity to work on the next draft of my manuscript. I looked at it as an opportunity from wherever opp... Thu, 28 May 2015 09:52:56 EST RLA: Challenged Wow, how time flies.... good news is I'm also getting things done! Lots of distractions, interruptions and challenges. That's part of what life is. I'm learning to do the dance. While I was dancing aka gardening I managed to do "something" to my left leg. Pretty sure it's sciatica. I'm suffering less today than yesterday. Trying to take it easy today. <BR> <BR> Have been busy with getting out everyday as part of the David Suzuki Foundation 30x30challenge. 30 minutes of nature for 30 days.... Wed, 27 May 2015 15:23:54 EST Victorious NSV: said no to cola last night 2x (small but huge at the same time) AND I'm sticking with my overall plan! Ok, so it's only been a few days, BUT I could have blown it on day 1 and I didn't, not day 2 or day 3 or.... so I'm like.... HAPPY! <BR> <BR> SV: Dropped a couple of pounds from a few days ago and remained exactly the same between yesterday and today. <BR> <BR> <BR> Ok, I know that in the real world that's peanuts. But peanuts is exactly what I needed today. :) <BR> <BR> Still ha... Wed, 6 May 2015 12:10:04 EST The Visions In My Head Feeling fine. <BR> <BR> Want to make a new vision board, as I always find these helpful. I finally did my goal board on SP a few months ago and wow, have to admit, what a difference - just another word for vision board, but regardless of what you choose to call it, the impact is unquestionable at least for me. <BR> <BR> Chris D made me finally realize (he's been saying if for how long?) that streaks really help build momentum and motivation so I set myself a little goal. 100 days signing i... Tue, 5 May 2015 12:26:09 EST Not Perfect, and That's Perfectly Fine All I can say is that when you are a fast thinker and fast typer (doesn't mean you necessarily do either well lol) that one of the most frustrating things to experience is a computer that is slower than molasses in January. What is equally frustrating is that my tech gurus just seem to scratch their heads and go "I don know..." In other words, it's not bugging them nearly as much and their solution is just go buy a new one.... yet they haven't done that either. Sigh. One of these days I'll... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 10:57:16 EST Loving Life With All It Brings Trying to feel positive, and in truth, over all I do. Good right? Hold on to that thought. I am. <BR> <BR> It's grey, cloudy and cool with a 30% chance of showers. About what is to be expected in our area this time of year. Actually weather is much nicer than what we often have. I even planted and "early" garden spot yesterday - a few beans, carrots, radishes, chard, spinach and I have a spot for 4 tomato seeds and 10 potatoes to go in. Still below freezing at night so don't want to ... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 09:59:38 EST I Woke Up I woke up feeling a real complete sense of gratitude. Maybe some of the videos and blogs I watched and read this morning helped build it even more, but for some reason I didn't have to look this morning, I just felt it. Deeply. <BR> <BR> I'm so grateful for my life, the very fact that I have one! I woke up very tired and feeling like I might be getting a cold, but even that didn't stop the feeling of wonder. <BR> <BR> My feet hurt and it took me a minute to stand straight and get my bala... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 10:36:01 EST Feeling Beautiful I just read an article about Pink Now I like Pink a lot, her music, her attitude, her style, her incredible physical grace and strength, and I think she's very beautiful, naturally. <BR> <BR> I was quite taken aback that photos of her from the gala she attended, in honour of a friend of hers, would incur the wrath or "concern" of her fans because of her ummmmm, wait for it.... <BR> <BR> weight. <BR> <BR> That's right. They were concerned that she might be gaining a bit too much. She di... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 09:45:47 EST RLA: Celebrating Awesomeness Wish I could spark/blog more easily on my phone but it doesn't seem to be an option at the moment. <BR> <BR> Anyway, things here are going quite well, just getting ready to run some errands and take my dd driving - or more accurately - she gets to take me. <BR> <BR> Here's my latest RLA blog, hope you enjoy. <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 18:04:32 EST RLA: The Concept of Time <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> First things first, my dh's hand is not broken, just sore. He learned a valuable lesson, watch where you put your hands and never cry wolf. He's always had a habit of pretending to get hurt to freak the kids out. Yesterday when it happened initially my dd thought he was joking. To both their credits, they stayed calm and she did exactly what needed to be done as soon as she realized this was a real emerge... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 15:19:59 EST Finding Comfort Quick SP update.... tendonitis in my right pointer finger. Not sure why, but the universe must be giving me a message. So, behaving sort of today and getting down to work. Exercised by hiking in the fresh snow with my dog. Sticky snow makes for a good workout, and needs a bit of care since you can't see ruts, rocks or anything else beneath the pure white carpet. It's beautiful, and warm, and the snow won't last long. <BR> <em>334</em> <em>225</em> <em>67</em> <em>259</em> ... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 13:56:38 EST New Thoughts On Addiction Never ceases to amaze me how once the "experts" say something, it seems impossible to get them to say something else even when the evidence changes. <BR> <BR> I like the potential this article gives about the topic of addiction and connections, or addiction and isolation. It rings very true to me. <BR> <BR> I find people who are addicted to things, even if they appear very happy on the outside, are battling a personal war on some level. Ok, I just realized I am both judging and labelling.... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 17:46:38 EST And That's The Truth Well, truth can sneak up on you. <BR> <BR> Last night my son had an assignment, one of those that asks questions like how old were you when you began to talk. <BR> <BR> When my kids were born I never thought I'd forget any milestone ever! Well, I have, mainly because we moved when my youngest was 2 and all those baby books and souvenirs pretty much stayed packed away. I have numerous folders of goodies waiting to be pasted into baby books, records to be updated and hopefully after they... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 12:02:30 EST Sports Clothing Recommendations Please Bras to be specific. I have a bit of a challenge ahead of me. I have a teen age daughter who is rather well endowed. I have just come to realize that she is extremely, and I mean extremely self conscious about this. Apparently has been for a very long time. As a matter of fact it just might be part of, maybe a big part of all the other challenges she's faced. Still trying to figure out how I missed that one, but right now that's not what is important. <BR> <BR> Anyway, here's what I ne... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 15:54:25 EST New Work Out Routine Rocks! It rocks literally. <BR> <BR> Saw this on my feed this morning, couldn't resist sharing. Enjoy all! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>o5zrj3g </link> <BR> <BR> Namaste CJ <BR> <BR> Ok, so I don't know why the link above won't work. It works everywhere else I type it so...... here it is without the hyperlink. If you want you can copy and paste to your browser or you can go to youtube and search for Uptown Funk Treadmill Dance - Carson Dean. <BR> <... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 11:42:57 EST RLA: Making It To The Other Side New Blog up.... and a huge list of chores to do, including exercise and sunshine! <BR> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Gotta run! That's good right!? :D Cheers, and have a great day being green! <BR> <BR> CJ Tue, 17 Mar 2015 09:46:18 EST