CRYSTALJEM's SparkPeople Blog CRYSTALJEM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I Can Do This! Spring must be coming. <BR> <BR> I updated my goal board. <BR> <BR> I'm going to do it. <BR> <BR> I am. <BR> <BR> Step by step. <BR> <BR> They are relatively simple attainable goals. <BR> <BR> But I'm still going to need support. <BR> <BR> I hope that all my SP friends will give me a boost of confidence every once in awhile because I'm going to need it. <BR> <BR> I already know I prefer to avoid things that are uncomfortable, and that is one thing I really want to change. <BR> <B... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 08:32:12 EST CFWW: Good Lunch Day <em>550</em> <em>551</em> <em>258</em> <em>267</em> <em>485</em> <em>69</em> <em>284</em> <em>291</em> <em>210</em> <em>368</em> <em>369</em> <em>370</em> <em>551</em> <em>550</em> <BR> <BR> Well, I am getting back into more healthy eating every day it seems. Makes me happy. Makes me feel better. Doesn't seem to be hurting my pocket book more than usual. Spring must be coming, I've got the itch for green! <BR> <BR> Today I made a very simple spin... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 15:53:37 EST I Read It I read my email this morning and found this message from Chris, The Spark Guy. <BR> <BR> I must admit I don't read all the spark messages from SparkPeople that drop into my mailbox. But I'm glad I took the time to read this one. I really needed the reminder, more than I would have guessed. I've gotten busy again which is ok, but as I got busier and more frantic I forgot to take the time to still visualize, dream and plan. To take the time to not just make things happen but to let things ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 11:23:19 EST A Leap of Faith Well, I don't really have much to say today, but I realized that I haven't written anything in a while so here I am. <BR> <BR> Funny how some days I can't get enough time to write all my thoughts down and then other days it's like the door got left open and they all ran away during the night. <BR> <BR> I think I'll weigh myself today. I must admit that I have been ignoring that for quite a while. A new scale that is accurate, but weighs heavier than my old one <em>39</em> put me in a b... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 10:30:09 EST Blogs and Stories Hi Everyone! <BR> <BR> Here's a real quick note. <BR> <BR> First, and RLA blog for you. I think there's actually a few up since I posted here last. This will take you to the latest, you can flip through any others that you want. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I also have a link to the story I wrote. As far as I know I'm allowed to share it now so if you'd like to read it here it is. Remember, it was an assigned challenge so it was genre action/adventure, subje... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 10:18:24 EST Writing Well, I'm really enjoying the writing challenge I'm working on. Thankfully I didn't get half way through and have to start over this time. I'm done my major draft and it's off to a friend to see what she thinks. It's got 2 british characters so was asking for help with dialogue etc to make sure it comes across alright. DS helped me out with some technical lingo so hopefully the judges will like it. <BR> <BR> The assignment for me was Genre: Action/Adventure Subject: Invention Character... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 10:28:49 EST RLA: Tip Toe <img src=""> <BR> Well, the early bird really does get the worm. Got up a bit early, became inspired, managed a blog before anyone else even got up. <BR> <BR> Have a great day everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <BR> <BR> Happy Wednesday. Be... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 12:26:13 EST RLA: Actions <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, unfortunately I am still oh so far behind on catching up on everyone's blogs. Truth be told I feel so guilty it isn't even funny. I mean I want everyone to read my blogs.... but I've hardly touched anyone else's of late. So.... how's that going to work? I mean, I know that no one really has any more time available than me we're all swamped with work and living our own lives. <BR> <BR> I read a quick one... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 10:34:48 EST CFWW: Magnesium I used to find time to visit and write here and lately I just haven't. Yes, RLA has been taking up some of my time - a certain person in my life seems to think that's a waste of my time since it doesn't bring in money, but it gives me great satisfaction. Right now it's my creative outlet in many ways so I ignore the haters and just shake it off. Yep, been listening to too much Taylor Swift lately thanks to my dd. <BR> <BR> Have been experiencing some joint pain where I've never experienced... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 07:41:03 EST RLA: Morning Glow <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Oh. My. Gosh. Where are the days disappearing to? Time is rushing past me and this year, like a child, I find myself pausing in the midst of it, eyes wide with wonder and awe as the whirring goes on all around me. This year, it's all very surreal. For awhile everything feels "normal" again and I am carried along on a wave of routine, habit, tradition. And then the next moment there is an externally impercepti... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 14:38:18 EST When Gratitude Isn't It's been 2 weeks since my FIL passed away. We've weathered a lot of change, responsibility and duties in those last 2 weeks. Every once in a while it feels like I'm about to crash completely but somehow I pick myself back up successfully. Human resilience is truly amazing. <BR> <BR> The weekend of plays was astounding. Weather yesterday hampered what should have been a sell out performance. They performed like they were on Broadway and had a full house. It's going to be hard to watch ... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 08:04:33 EST RLA: Goodbyes <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Rise Like Air has a new blog up. It's about my father in law and how my daughter reminded me to make every encounter count. <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <BR> <BR> Thanks for all the kind words and thoughts I've received. It's made everything much easier... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 16:38:48 EST Tuesday Is A New Day Yep, it is. We start again because that's what we do. <BR> <BR> I started the tale so I guess I feel I need to continue it. <BR> <BR> Scooter is holding his own. Not happy, but we made it through the night with stitches in tact - me not so much sleep because his socks came off at about 4:00 and then I had to stay half awake to keep him from scratching because I forgot the surgical tape and scissors I needed to redo them. <BR> <BR> Last night around 8:30 my FIL passed away. He chose to ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 06:52:09 EST And I Like Mondays Even Less Now Took Scooter to the vet, our primary vet is away on a family emergency. My heart truly goes out to her - immediate empathy on a day like today. <BR> <BR> When I called our secondary vet they were happy to work Scooter in at 10:30. Warmed up the car, tried not to look at the beast because he's so doleful, he looks so pitifully sorry; kind of. I don't know if it's sorry or he just knows from my energy that things are very different. That things aren't ok. <BR> <BR> This is the vet that ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 13:26:44 EST I Don't Like Mondays Well, I guess it's not really Monday, it's any day that starts out awfully, but somehow Mondays that start out poorly just set the tone, or at least they feel like they do. <BR> <BR> Went out to the barn this morning, took my little survivor dog Scooter (remember he had his head almost ripped off last Oct by some unknown beast). Completely unprovoked my big dog tore into him. I figured out who tried to kill him last year - it was my own dog, whom I was positive hadn't done it. I know now ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 10:35:54 EST CFWW: TMI Calorie Free Words of Wisdom - Wheat Belly and TMI (Too Much Input) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have a friend who has celiac disease. She suffered for years to varying degrees, but almost always getting worse, before a small town doctor finally figured it out when no one else had. It had gotten so bad she tells me that she would regularly cry in the shower in the morning because it just hurt so much, and the pain was just one ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 10:04:47 EST CWMR: Grey and Blustery It's the perfect day to snuggle up under a blanket with a cup of hot tea and a good book. But I decided to go against my better judgment, and venture out to acclimatize myself for the upcoming winter season. Although it's gray and windy, it's still above zero Celsius but supposed to get colder as the day goes on. Even with the forecast wind gusts I think it's a perfect opportunity to take advantage of some free time to do the stuff I want to do and need to get done. The likelihood of much be... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 10:10:22 EST Short Story: Take The Long Way Home Hello Hello Hello! Happy Belated Halloween. <BR> <BR> I wrote a story a while ago and finally finished the final edit. Here's the link in case you'd like to check it out. <BR> <BR> Hope you enjoy. <BR> <BR> <em>431</em> <em>424</em> <em>333</em> <em>275</em> <em>423</em> <em>422</em> <em>421</em> <em>420</em> <em>419</em> <em>419</em> <em>420</em> <em>421</em> <em>422</em> <em>423</em> <em>275</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link>... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 16:35:41 EST Take 2 Well it just wasn't meant to be so we're extending Halloween by one more day. I'll have the "treat" up tomorrow unless our tower goes out again. I just don't have the energy right now. DS is going out to two parties tonite one in our closest town and the other in the city. Not planning to be home till after 3. Both parties are dry and he's a great kid, but he's still a fairly new at driving and it's Friday and it's Halloween and well I'm a mom! <BR> <BR> Noticing grey hairs. At least DD s... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 21:30:05 EST CWMR: Ebb and Flow Well, like most things in life.... sometimes it's good, sometimes not. Today I'm thinking it's reasonably good. That pretty much makes it great. See, all in the perspective. <BR> <BR> Thanks guys. You know who you are. :) <BR> <BR> Wed, 22 Oct 2014 11:56:43 EST CWMR: jinx So thought we were almost through. By last night it was apparent it was just a lull in the storm. It isn't lost on me that a lot of this support and stuff is becoming far too second nature now. It makes me realize how long we've been doing this. I'm partly numb to some of it otherwise I'd crumble too. Wonder what this week will bring. And what it will leave behind. <BR> <BR> Thank you for your well wishes and positive support. Namaste. CJ Mon, 20 Oct 2014 12:50:16 EST CWMR: Yawn Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings... it's been a tough week of sorts... dd hit a "funk" so the first part of the week was spent worrying about her and the rest of the week was spent just hanging out together, trying to catch up and now feeling the exhaustion of making it through the eye of the needle. I think we've made it out the other side at least. Or in any case we are very close. <BR> <BR> Realized i got unsubscribed from some blogs again. Dang. In process of fixing that and h... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 11:49:02 EST CWMR: Beautiful, Bountiful, Bliss Well, I may be getting into the habit of 2 blog days. Well, maybe not a habit, but couldn't help but share a little Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings today. <BR> <BR> My cousin just shared these 2 videos with me and they lifted my heart and my soul. Ok, that might sound really corny and before you click on something else, hear me out, or more accurately, hear the videos out. <BR> <BR> I love music and I have always found that music has a physical impact on me, actually induces physic... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 12:55:58 EST RLA: Sunny Well, we have a new Sunny entry for you to read in another Rise Like Air blog. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <BR> <BR> Depression is something so many people live with and yet we still have such a hard time talking about it and understanding. Hope this helps. <BR> <BR> Have a great... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 08:17:06 EST RLA: Princesses and Beauty Pageants Well, we have Part 2 of Playing With The Facts ready if you'd like to read another Rise Like Air blog. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <em>55</em> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <em>49</em> <BR> <BR> Takes math to a whole new level. Hope you enjoy, if you do, please feel free to share the blog and join the discussion. <BR> <BR> Have a lovel... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 10:56:01 EST RLA: Advertising and Food Ok, I know, 2 blogs in one day, what could I possibly be thinking? As if you don't have enough to read and do. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> photo from me :) <BR> <BR> Hope you enjoy. As always, if you do, please feel free to like, share and join the discussion on Rise Like Air. This one explores how we take things we hear at face value when maybe we should be wearing our critical thinking hats instead. <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <e... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 12:00:32 EST CFWW: Carrots Carrots Carrots.... I'm Turning Orange! Wow it's been awhile since I posted a Calorie Free Words Of Wisdom blog! Well, that must mean now's the time and with all the great fall garden produce available I guess it is time! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Hello, good morning! How ya doing? It's cool, grey, very fall like here. Some trees are still very green, some are golden, some are bare. <BR> <BR> Glad I got my garden pretty much done thanks to the help of my kids a... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 11:55:24 EST RLA: Opportunity and Doors <img src=""> <BR> image from me :) <BR> <BR> Good morning my fantastic fellow Sparkers! Hope this finds you sparkly and sparking joyfully today. <BR> <BR> Another blog managed to come about so please enjoy Rise Like Airs latest blog entitled "Softly The Door Closes." As always, thank you for your support and kindness. After all.... that is really why I stick around. <em>211</em> <em>304</em> <em>223</em> <BR> <BR> <em... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 11:52:32 EST RLA: Forests and Trees <img src=""> <BR> photocredit me <BR> <BR> Another Rise Like Air blog hot off the presses. Hope you enjoy and rise like air. :) <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <em>49</em> <BR> <BR> Also had a wonderful taste experience - awhile back my dh brought me a box of Gunpowder Tea. No instructions, he just saw it and couldn't help but get it for me. I finally had time to find out what the heck it is... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 15:40:31 EST RLA: Messages, Said and Unsaid <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Hi everyone! Posted another Rise Like Air blog this morning in case you feel like reading. Just an observation I made about the messages we do and don't give our children, but especially pertinent about our daughters I think. Maybe I'm out to lunch, but if I am, the good news is there are no calories at least. So, for your reading enjoyment..... <em>501</em> drumroll please...... <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> <... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 14:22:28 EST CFWW: Breakfast Delight <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Haven't done a Calorie Free Words of Wisdom in AGES so here's something I "discovered" thanks to a good friend. Who needs any afternoon delight when you can have such delight first thing in the morning? Well anytime really, even afternoon I guess if that's how you roll. <BR> <BR> And to what am I referring you ask? Quinoa Porridge! Ok, not a fan of quinoa but like oatmeal? Well in my opinion this is the ans... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 12:29:39 EST CWMR: You Can't Always Get What You Want!? Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings where will we go today.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>527</em> I had a bit of an epiphany a few days ago that I've been wanting to share. The last "while" in my life, things have been going "good", but they've felt somewhat off, like there's a lack of synchronicity - think of when the motion and sound in a film are out of synch. That's sort of how I've been feeling. Close as I can ... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 12:15:12 EST CWMR: As The Leaves Begin To Fall Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings has returned. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Actually, the l <em>465</em> aren't falling yet. We've had enough rain this season to extend our green time considerably. Even the temperatures have been cooperating nicely - cool evenings, but so far, no frost <em>425</em> . <BR> <BR> My garden <em>378</em> looks better than it has in years - going smaller and working daily no matter what... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 10:53:29 EST RLA: Moments <BR> <img src=""> <BR> As always, thank you everyone for the support and love. The goodies and comments have made me feel inspired and ready to keep on keeping on. Funny how life can be so good, yet we still know we are craving something subtly different. Life is always interesting. <BR> <BR> Well, we have another Rise Like Air blog fresh off the presses. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> As well, my cousin sha... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 12:09:36 EST RLA: Breathe <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, I finally got another blog up! About time if I do say so myself. Have a great day. Hope to be posting another Rise Like Air blog Thursday. Stay tuned. <BR> <BR> Hope you enjoy! <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Tue, 19 Aug 2014 17:17:11 EST CWMR: Step by Step Calorie Wise Meanderings and Wanderings has a new edition! Yippee! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wow, it's been awhile again. I must admit that while things have certainly improved I still feel like I am in basic survival mode. The good news is that we are all surviving and in many cases even thriving. However, being in survival mode is absolutely exhausting both physically and emotionally. It's ageing. It's even a little d... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:47:21 EST A Quick Little Update Hi everyone! I'm back.... well sort of.... still so very busy, but missed everyone so am trying to stop by once in awhile at least. <BR> <BR> Lot's happening, most ok or good, some not so much, but that's life. Too much rain, but it's summer so at least it's not snow and ice. I'm on fairly high ground so other than muddy roads and lot's of mosquitoes, I'm surviving ok. Have had great lessons on remembering to count my blessings. Always good to know you're not too old to learn. <BR> <B... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 14:52:38 EST CFWW: OJ And Government Calories Well, we're finally ready for some Calorie Free Words of Wisdom. It's been a while. Here are two articles you maybe interested in. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The first about orange juice - what may be advertised as fresh squeezed might have a completely different meaning to you! Check it out. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> The second is about calories, the government and food industry and how their truths... Wed, 14 May 2014 20:26:28 EST RLA: Blogs Happy to say that there are a couple of new blogs for you to check out if you are interested. Finally felt like writing again. About time. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The two blogs relate to each other. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> The first is called Provoking Public Interest - Sensational <BR> and the second is called Attitude and Circumstance <BR> <BR> They are one under the other on the l... Thu, 8 May 2014 09:14:39 EST Ranting Blahs I love my family, I love my husband.... but boy, can they drive me nuts at times! I know it's due to the stress I've been feeling, but yesterday and today I just felt like screaming "Could you please do something for yourselves? Could you please look beyond your nose? Could you please solve at least one tiny simple challenge on your own?!" <BR> <BR> I love being needed, helpful, loving and all that jazz, but every once in awhile I'm needed only because someone else isn't willing to take r... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 11:40:00 EST CWMR: Intuitive Forshadowing... <img src=""> <BR> image source unknown <BR> <BR> I had a bit of a wow moment yesterday. I have always believed in intuition, gut instincts, all of that kind of thing. The thing is being able to recognize it and interpret it. <BR> <BR> What I realized yesterday that a week before each of my daughter's episodes of despair, I had a a piece of writing that just "came to me" . The first was a story I felt compelled to write. I felt ver... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 11:42:20 EST CWMR: And Survey Says..... Welcome to today's calorie wise meanderings and ramblings, oh where shall they lead? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> image source unknown <BR> <BR> Well, I thought I'd share a couple more surveys that my friend posts. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> What Spice Are You? I'm Sage. :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> What City Should You Live In? I got Vienna <BR> <B... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 22:01:26 EST CWMR: And Release Join me in my calorie wise meanderings and ramblings. <BR> <img src="">] <BR> image source unknown <BR> <BR> It's been a rough patch but today I finally felt relaxed. It was like the tension finally went out of me; the elephant vacated the room. I'm not naive. I realize that this may just be a lull, the only thing permanent is change. But at least for now, we've weathered the storm. I've persevered. I've survived. We all have. We... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 22:41:27 EST CWMR: Finally, Short Story Well, you've asked for it, so here it is. The short story I entered awhile back in the NYC competition. It was a competition piece that I had 8 days to write and actually scrapped my original plan and completely redid it with only 3 days left. It had to be a romantic comedy with a character that was an activist and a setting that involved neighbours. Totally not what I would have picked but I loved the challenge. <BR> <BR> I also had a weird dream last night that I actually made it thr... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 09:33:47 EST CWMR: What Would You Be Links To Enjoy <img src=""> <BR> I thought I'd finally get around to sharing some of the things you've been asking for. It's been a little hectic around here to say the least and it's been an emotional roller coaster but slowly I'm tackling getting back into some sort of positive routine. <BR> <BR> Here goes. <BR> <BR> What season are you? <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> What will you be in your next life? <BR> ... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 22:33:58 EST CWMR: Dark Clouds and Grey Walls My clalorie wise meanderings and ramblings are darker these past few days. But some days are like that. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> image source unknown <BR> <BR> It's a sort of ugh day today. Feels like fall instead of spring, in need of sleep catch up in a very big way. Need sunshine and lollipops I think. <BR> <BR> Had a huge stress headache yesterday so I made myself stop what I was doing and went to mediate and do some relaxation.... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 10:28:18 EST CWMR: My Flower Power Calorie Wise Meanderings and Ramblings to start off the weekend. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> source unknown <BR> <BR> So a friends post on FB kept showing up about what kind of flower she is. Ya, I know, but I did it anyway, I eventually clicked on it and answered the 9 simple questions to discover that apparently I am an: <BR> <BR> You are an Orchid : Noble and commanding, you are the deep thinker, the wise sage. Friends come to yo... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 16:19:54 EST CWMR: What We Do To Children <img src=""> <BR> image source unknown <BR> <BR> I'm simply holding onto the thought that I am in the moment, and this moment feels like it's stretching. Tax season, spring weather beckoning, inspired and motivated, but not to do what I currently "need to get done". One foot in front of the other, one check mark after each item. <BR> <BR> One by one, <BR> It will all get done. <BR> Trying to make it fun. <BR> At least it's begun. <BR... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 14:45:25 EST CWMR: One Percent Is all It Takes Seriously brilliant. And so what I needed to hear. I can see clearly now... Wow. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ch-improved-every-tiny-thing-by-1-and-<BR>here-s-what-happened-james-clear/ </link> <BR> <BR> Hope you have a fantastic week! Tax season will soon be past and then I won't feel so plagued by deadlines. The pain is all of my own making.... more of that 1% choice stuff. <BR>... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 00:53:34 EST CWMR: A Spring Gift <img src=""> <BR> image source unknown <BR> <BR> Well calorie wise meanderings and ramblings this fine cold but bright spring day brought me to a taste of warmer spring in the US. A friend of mine also experiencing what feels like a very delayed spring sent me a link to a live feed of a humming bird nest. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> image from <BR> <BR> I love the look, ... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 11:18:39 EST