CRYSALLIS1's SparkPeople Blog CRYSALLIS1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sadly I Guess I'm on a Spark Break I'm really trying to balance taking care of family, work, church, & Me. My stepfather passed away last week after a lengthy illness. Moved my Mother to the town where I live. Easier move then from the farm 10 months ago. She doesn't drive anymore. I thought I had her caught up with Dr. appointments, moving details etc. Requested time off from work today for an eye Dr appointment for the both of us. She cancelled hers yesterday afternoon. She said she wasn't sure how she was going to get t... Tue, 17 Oct 2017 05:12:32 EST Just plugging along & eating veggies. The good news is I'm eating vegetables like there is no tomorrow so I should see some effect on my weight real soon. I have been to some fantastic Farmers Markets & also cleaning my garden out. <BR> Work is so busy it's almost impossible to sustain the stamina. I love my work & it's fulfilling but just a little to busy right now. Also preparing my Mother to move this weekend and all that goes with it. She had to move from a Senior Apartment with some nice amenities that made life easie... Thu, 21 Sep 2017 03:05:33 EST With a Humble Heart I'm Still Here My apologies for my absence the last several weeks. My apologies for not being here for my Spark friends or teams. I appreciate Spark and Spark friends more then I know how to express. I realize excuses get old and don't do anything for my personal goals. I'm embarrassed that I have been here for so long and failed to consistently make progress. The site has all the tools & support one would ever need. The happenings of life the past few years have also been the busiest and sometimes the mo... Mon, 4 Sep 2017 22:29:33 EST Missing Ingredient-Me Time Really struggling to keep up with ANYTHING right now. My usual routine is off kilter. Allot happening. Allot of things needing my attention from morning to night. I think what's throwing me so far off is now even my mornings are a big rush. Not much time for usual morning chores. I start the day behind & end the day exhausted. My lunchbreaks aren't even "me time breaks". Not getting good rest at night. Somehow I'm going to find a way to wedge in 10 minute walks & meal planning. Obviou... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 12:33:35 EST Khumbaya My Lord I just listened to the Soweto Choir sing Khumbaya My Lord on YouTube. It was just what I needed. It was so beautiful. I was unsuccessful at my attempts at sharing the link on this website or I would have. It's not the traditional spelling I'm familiar with so be sure to spell it with an h if you would like to hear the Soweto Choir version. It brought me much peace tonight. Maybe it will bring peace to someone else. <em>432</em> <em>459</em> <BR> <em>88</em> <BR> Mon, 17 Jul 2017 23:38:10 EST Is Tomorrow Monday or almost Friday? Had a very laid back Independence Day and I loved it. <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>195</em> Had a nice quiet day enjoying my home and yard. Got a few projects done. Enjoyed many veggies and herbs from my yard and a few others from the Farmers Market. <em>550</em> <BR> Joined Spark Guys new team Small Commitments Challenge recently. Time to get back to the basics and work on consistency. <em>248</em> Strongly appreciating Spark and it's People. <em>220</em> <em>252<... Tue, 4 Jul 2017 22:12:05 EST Today was the longest day of the year; how did you spend your time? Today was the longest day of the year. <em>67</em> <em>573</em> No worries if you missed it as tomorrow and the next few months are only minutes shorter. And if you live on the other side of the world you can really get a head start. <em>576</em> <em>31</em> <BR> It was a rough sleep last night as a family member was in the ER. I didn't jump out of bed despite being awake. <em>102</em> But when in did get up I heard the news. "Enjoy the longest day of the year!" So I... Tue, 20 Jun 2017 23:10:27 EST Three Day Retreat All By Myself Husband left the camper for home early this morning. I have 2 nights and 3 days to myself and my pups. I already made veggie and crab Asian dumplings for the next couple of meals. Fridge is stocked with veggies and mushrooms. Herb seedlings are growing fantastic. Onto quilting and a few other Me time projects. Thankfully he was here last night as my sewing machine needed a repair. Yikes! I'll miss him but I'm beyond excited for this Me time. Going to hit nearly 100 today which is unusual ... Sun, 11 Jun 2017 11:11:58 EST June 2017 May is ending in a whirlwind of work and long to do lists. <em>249</em> I vow to take care of Me opposed to my usual fall back plan. I'll take on the challenge head on. <em>248</em> <BR> I have 2 weeks of vacation coming soon. <em>534</em> <em>253</em> Thankfully I have great co-workers who will do their best to take on my job while I'm gone and let me go guilt free. That blessing can't be appreciated enough. <em>220</em> My husband and I had previous plans to travel but aft... Mon, 29 May 2017 20:47:19 EST Blessed Many blessings to count. Wishing you all a wonderfully healthy weekend. <em>194</em> <em>551</em> <em>311</em> <em>532</em> <em>88</em> Fri, 26 May 2017 22:14:08 EST Sometimes you just want to run away! So tired this week. So many things to do. So many people that need a part of me. Sometimes a gal just wants to run away. <em>198</em> <BR> That likely wouldn't turn out so well. <em>40</em> <BR> So I guess I'll go to bed. <em>102</em> I'll put my faith out there and try again tomorrow to keep my world on balance. <em>280</em> <em>88</em> Tue, 23 May 2017 22:31:21 EST xoxoxoxo Farmers Markets! <em>194</em> <em>550</em> <em>551</em> <em>485</em> <em>210</em> <em>370</em> <em>22</em> <em>284</em> <em>372</em> <BR> Very windy with a hard driving rain Saturday but we made it to the Farmers Market & the whole foods store. Not sure how the farmers had onions, carrots, and spinach so early but I'll take it! Likely they have some growing houses. Lots of great looking and tasting vegetables! <BR> Very much worth the drenching we took. That's what coffee shops ... Sun, 21 May 2017 22:29:09 EST Road Trip to the Farmers Market Today Going on a road trip today and visiting a pretty nice Farmers Market. It's too early in the year to have much but some of them have hot houses so we will see. Checking out the whole food store while we're there. I'm sure it will also involve a time to warm up and rest at a favorite coffee house too. If I get back in time heading to the quilt store to buy some fabric while it's on sale. Planning to hike a bit this afternoon if I get an opportunity to walk free of rain showers. <BR> <em>... Sat, 20 May 2017 06:28:32 EST I'm Happy. Now for Healthy. As my longtime spark friends know I had a challenging winter. It sure was winter to say the least. Never had a winter season quite like that before and praying to not ever again. Thanks for sticking with me. <BR> Now Spring has sprung and I feel it to my soul. I'm back much closer to my happy and optimistic self. I have been doing several actions to work towards a healthier me. Consistency is always my biggest hurdle . I know I can make it happen and you can too! <BR> <em>252</em> ... Wed, 17 May 2017 00:21:06 EST Four Day Streak....It's Huge for Me Four days of eating healthy. May not seem like much but some days I fall off before breakfast is over. Doesn't seem like much of a victory but I'm feeling good about it. This week is not going as planned but doing pretty fair. It feels good to be on track. <BR> On a sad note a friend passed away today after a heroic battle. Feeling the guilt of not taking the time to see her anytime recently. Life has a way of tugging a person in a lot of directions. How one is able to stay connected w... Wed, 26 Apr 2017 22:49:44 EST Not Day 1. Not Starting Fresh. Almost 6 years on Spark. Somehow, I have OPTIMISM!!!!! Almost 6 years on Spark. Sort of feel like a hypocrite. Probably 36 years or more fighting the battle. Only close to goal weight a couple times in my entire adult life. A zillion do overs only to add 5 lbs or so a year. <BR> My Spark page sums up my plan and what motivates me. I still have true optimism. I still believe in my plan as defined on my page. All these years of experience has helped me fine tune my plan. <BR> Thought about leaving or deleting my page but I won't because I ha... Sun, 23 Apr 2017 21:46:14 EST Wishing all who celebrate Passover and Easter a wonderful celebration. Wishing my friends who observe Passover or Easter a wonderful celebration and remembrance. <BR> Wishing all my Spark friends a fantastic Spring. Thank you to all for being such a wonderful part of my life. <em>88</em> Sat, 15 Apr 2017 21:41:45 EST And Spring Begins First night of camping for the season. Gentle little thunderstorm with the sound of rain pitter pattering on the roof. Love it!!!!! Ready to go on a hike around the lake tomorrow. Eager to what's new around town. Need to decide which church to attend Easter Services Sunday. No worries I brought lots of freggies with me. Planning on grilling some Chinese cabbage in a little olive oil tomorrow with a pinch of sea salt. Maybe add basalmic to eat it with? Wishing you all a glorious weekend.... Fri, 14 Apr 2017 22:16:52 EST Time to Continue My Journey This isn't pretty but here we go. Wt. Today 250.9. Fat 50% My weekly reminder that I set a year ago or so said today's goal was 159. <em>2</em> <BR> This weeks focus is 10000 steps, 8 waters, and 5 freggies or more everyday. These are my 3 key actions that always helps everything else to fall into place. <em>551</em> <em>277</em> <em>313</em> <em>194</em> <em>88</em> Namaste my friends. <em>403</em> Mon, 10 Apr 2017 07:21:18 EST I Want To Be A Big Loser! Too many years on here & I have not stayed consistent. So many tool's at my disposal. So much knowledge learned and not applied. My skin is looking bad again, I'm tired, my weight is crawling up. Mercy, I need to turn this all around and follow my own plan. It's all here. Free for the taking. I want to be a big looser <em>33</em> <em>521</em> <em>88</em> <BR> Thu, 23 Mar 2017 21:36:20 EST The best gift....freedom to create The best gift I have given myself recently is freedom from feeling guilty as I allow myself to sit down and read craft books or to do a craft. It's done wonders for my stress level. It's given me something to look forward to. It's given me something to dream about. It's given me something to keep my mind busy. <BR> I'm not all that talented but it's calming and exciting at the same time if that's possible. I work full-time. I have family responsibilities. I have church and volunteer resp... Sun, 5 Mar 2017 07:30:53 EST 40 Days I have been thinking all week about my plan for Lent. It is a time to look honestly into myself. I made my plan this morning. Tonight one of our hymns was " Sunday's Psalms are Wednesdays Ahes". I tried to find a link to share the lyrics but was unable to locate a resource to share. I find the song to be very fitting for things I value. My focus is to not "waste resources." I plan to do at least one action everyday that protects our environment in some way. Think REDUCE, REUSE, RECYCLE. ... Thu, 2 Mar 2017 18:30:25 EST Observing the Lenten Season I am discerning what I plan to do during Lent. I don't so much "give up" anything. I find an action to make me a better person or a way to make the world a bit of a better place. I'll report back when I have my plan. <em>458</em> <em>459</em> <em>88</em> Tue, 28 Feb 2017 22:56:13 EST I'm going to have to Live a Long Time....... I have so many interests I'm going to have to Live a very long time to do any of them justice. I signed up for allot of teams this week. I should really stop by them all and I introduce myself. I never have a good short introduction of who I am. <BR> I'm a child of a loving God. I'm a loyal family member and friend. This year I will be 54 years old. I have been married to my wonderful husband for 33 years. I have 4 amazing children and 3 beautiful grandchildren. I don't think I cou... Thu, 23 Feb 2017 21:59:10 EST The Journey to the Mountain I came to visit Spark Land in 2011. I loved what I saw. It's a beautiful friendly place. We are all on a personal journey with many paths. I have met some wonderful friends along the way. I'm very thankful for all of it. I have seen some success here. Consistency is my biggest obstacle. Getting momentum going time and time again is tough work. I have lost allot of ground this way. However, I'm definitely better off then I would have been if I never visited here. <BR> I have been read... Wed, 22 Feb 2017 13:04:26 EST Namast'e Spark Friends <img src=""> <em>88</em> Wed, 22 Feb 2017 12:07:52 EST Feeling Stronger I'm feeling a little stronger. I'm feel so much better having a plan again. I'm trying to forgive myself for wasted time. I'm encouraged that I have remained mindful of my program the past couple weeks. Signing up for a quilting class has also done wonders for my spirit too. <BR> I refuse to give up on my health goals. <em>88</em> Tue, 21 Feb 2017 00:00:28 EST More baby steps Last week I planned to do at least 10 minutes of exercise everyday. I didn't do that exactly but I did take some steps to better health. <em>543</em> <BR> I went to the mall or arena to walk 3 x last week. I walked about 45 minutes each time. I incorporated a few Yoga stretches into my day several times a day. <em>311</em> <BR> I signed up for a quilting class yesterday. My goal is to spend more time creating. Not just "thinking about" creating. <em>541</em> <em>53... Sun, 19 Feb 2017 07:41:46 EST baby step This week I plan to do some form of exercise 10 minutes or more everyday. Thanks Spark World for being here. <em>252</em> <em>532</em> <em>212</em> <em>334</em> <em>88</em> Sun, 12 Feb 2017 21:56:06 EST I Want My Rose Colored Glasses Back I miss Me. I totally miss Me. The last few weeks about every waking minute my stress level is at a 7 or more. I rarely settle myself down to less then a 5. Sometimes I have 2 or 3 vivid dreams a night which are pretty much nightmares. <BR> The last 5 years have brought some personal stressors beyond my capability "to fix". I found my way through and was doing pretty good. <BR> Unfortunately new stressors definitely beyond my control are taking the best of me. I have to force myself... Sat, 11 Feb 2017 23:19:15 EST I Think I Can, I Think I Can....... I'm starting this week out much better then the last several months. I have been feeling mentally and physically a mess. I know the key to success is being positive and believe in yourself. The truth is I just didn't have it in me for awhile. I miss that part of me. Last week I pulled myself together a bit. My acomplishments weren't grand but they were enough to lead me back to the road. I find myself thinking one consistent thought. "I Think I Can, I think can.....And that thought m... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 22:32:56 EST I Vow to make my Fitbit Blaze Proud My challenges at work & home are still throwing curveballs at me. Mentally I'm focused and taking care of business. I won't mind if things slow up a bit though. I was awake most of last night but managed fine today. Food wasn't stellar but not too bad either. My mental self is doing ok too. I'm stressed but keeping things in perspective. <BR> The fantastic news is that my Fitbit Blaze came this afternoon. I have it all set up. I have a shiny new toy & a clean record! I Vow to make it pr... Mon, 28 Nov 2016 23:35:12 EST Mostly Highs Despite many challenges I'm so happy to say that I'm still taking care of me. Moved my mother & step father from a house to an apartment. They were totally unreasonable about what will fit. We planned & did well but at the last minute much more then planned made the trip. Finally had to leave them last night with a bed that was made, snacks on the counter, meds on the counter. I have to let them figure it out for awhile. We had a slow pipe leak which caused a mold problem at home. I had t... Sun, 27 Nov 2016 05:53:08 EST Happy Thansksgiving Happy Thanksgiving Dear Spark Friends. Thank you for all you have given me. Your support & encouragement means so much. Spark is the greatest invention ever. I'm truly thankful for this fabulous health forum. I have been super busy at work & home. I have had to burn the candles at both ends. Somehow I have continued to stay on track fairly well. With a little more time & planning I could of course do better yet. I have made a million wiser choices. Down 12 lbs. it's getting easier and easie... Thu, 24 Nov 2016 08:24:19 EST Others to Me-(Gasp) Your a Vegetarian???????????? Why?????? So I'm really starting to get in the groove of eating the Nutritarian way of life. It's Dr. Joel Furhman of Eat To Live nutrition plan. Mostly vegetarian but the highest nutrient contents. Also avoiding flour, sugar, salt & most fats. I'm avoiding processed foods. I do eat lots of veggies, beans, fruit, berries, nuts & soy or almond milk. I use allot of fresh herbs and spices too. Look it up its very possible to get all the nutrients a person needs. I promise! <BR> I'm not anti-meat so I... Sat, 12 Nov 2016 21:27:11 EST The Journey to Better Then Normal Continues I'm not sure how to describe what I'm trying to do. It's more then reaching my goal weight. I'm a couple months into living more intentionally. I have a good life. God has been good to me. I spend most of my days happy & feeling blessed. I know & live my purpose in life. I try everyday to be the best me that I can be. My weight does hang over me like a black cloud. It doesn't keep me from doing much but it does steal some joy as well as a few years of my life. I have been challenged las... Mon, 7 Nov 2016 12:10:41 EST Three Weeks & Going Strong!!!! I have been very busy doing allot of things right. My goals are pretty much the same as listed on my Spark Page. The entire Spark Program is all about building on one small step at a time. I have been very conscious about making numerous healthier choices everyday. I have given myself a break and not made this journey about the number of times I strayed away from my program. I have incorporated a few special treats into my program. Thus it does not feel like I'm cheating. I'm following m... Sun, 9 Oct 2016 22:49:21 EST I Vow to Find My My Way Back to Health My whole body seems to be creaking & groaning more the ever. Most of its not inevitable. I Vow to find my way back to health! I made some good choices today. I Vow to make more good choices tomorrow. I Vow to renew my belief in Me. <em>88</em> Tue, 13 Sep 2016 22:23:44 EST Encouraged I did receive a call later in the afternoon from the EAP program. She set me up with an in person life coach. She doesn't specialize in exactly what I'm looking for but I'll give it a try. This is such a personal journey there is no way I would speak right now to my employer about a program for health & wellness. Even if I did it would be a huge process to make it happen if at all. I'm sure they would be understanding but I share my personal struggle with very few people in this world. I ... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 17:46:04 EST I made a call for help I made a call to my employer confidential employee assistance program. I asked for a wellness coach. Someone is suppose to call me back. It was a really big decision. Making the call was hard. I hope they call me back soon. I have doubts that it was a good idea but I'm sure it will be fine. I'm addicted to food. I eat because I'm stressed, happy, bored etc. I'm an equal opportunity eater. I can't seem to stick to my program. I love my program. I have evaluated it a zillion times. Maybe this ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 12:39:40 EST Day 5, I'M STILL HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! Day 5 & I'm still here going strong!!! I'm following the Eat to Live plan. I'm so proud of the calories I pass up. For some reason that truly shocks me I don't even want those calorie laden foods. My resolve is somewhat of a miracle. I'm so happy!!!!! I'm away from home for 4 days and I don't have a scale so I have no new reports. Regardless of what it says I will continue on. I'm not only 100% committed but 100% sure this is the plan for me. Wishing you all a fantastic weekend! <em>88... Sat, 20 Aug 2016 08:00:26 EST Time for bed day 2 Stuck with my program pretty much 100% today. I have done meal planning for tomorrow when we go out of town. Depending on which restraunt we narrow it down to I have a plan. Unlike many past voyages I have been letting the people in my life know my plan & that I'm 100% commited. My daughter who is very fit gave me good advice. She said for 1 month don't have any cheat meals. She said I would be amazed with the results & won't want to cheat anyway. Sounds like a doable plan. I did not get a... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 00:04:52 EST Day 2 Yeah, I lost 6.4# overnight! It's a great boost to my mental status. No, I did not eat too few of calories. I drank plenty of water & a cup of tea. What I did do was pass up drive thru food, chocolate, pretty little flavored coffee, a hamburger etc. Throughout the day I indulged in Gods abundance. Swiss chard, tomatoes, onions, peppers, & mushrooms. I ate within my calorie range of 1,200-1,500 calories. The dramatic overnight weight loss was beginners luck but I'll take it. I think one of th... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 08:41:31 EST Day 1 I was able to stay in my range for calories. I almost sabatoged myself by not eating enough for breakfast thus not having enough food with me. I figure I passed up at least 1,500 calories of food today that I would have usually indulged in. Mentally I'm happy to be committed again to healthier living. I have gained a whopping 14# since spring. I was on a heck of a binge! Definitely time to do something. My back hurts & my knee hurts! Having GI issues too! I'm at my heighest weight ever 253... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 04:49:42 EST It's Official, I'm Denouncing the Crave it & Eat It Plan!!! I'm really quite a mess with my eating. My plan has been I Crave it & Eat It. Basically it has caused me to pop a button on some new pants this weekend. Lots of weight gain. Food addictions. I'm a food junkyard! (Not a typo.) It's also caused a very achy back, knee, & feet. Not sure how I got into this mess again but this petty well sums it up. So I'm denouncing the crave it & eat it plan. I'm back on my Eat to Live plan. I'll post my progress as often as I can. Logging my food will be key... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 04:13:57 EST Contemplating My Strategy I'm so thankful for all the support. I need to come back to Spark People & friends. I'm searching for my first step. I'm tired & feeling hopeless. Somehow a small spArk remains. <em>88</em> Thu, 11 Aug 2016 01:07:44 EST How Do I Stop This? How do I stop my daily cycle of over eating & procrastinating? <em>230</em> <em>228</em> <em>227</em> I can talk a good talk & I believe in my path to health as I have outlined on my page. <em>347</em> <em>319</em> <em>414</em> <em>550</em> There is only one problem I just cant seem to get started again. <em>249</em> My pictures are horrifying to me!!! <em>527</em> Tomorrow seems to never come. <em>88</em> Thu, 4 Aug 2016 21:38:36 EST July Just a quick note to publicly state my commitment for the month of July. I plan to get 10,000 or more steps everyday. I challenge myself to make as many right choices in a day as possible. I plan to keep track of what they are whenever possible. I plan to log my food each day. <BR> I owe several of you a huge thanks for being there for me even when my progress is like watching pInt dry. Wishing you a fantastic July! <em>88</em> Sun, 3 Jul 2016 23:46:57 EST Ready..... Set......GO!!!!!!!# <BR> You can do this & so can I!## <em>88</em> Sun, 26 Jun 2016 22:28:15 EST I So Appreciate the Encouragement from the Spark Community Still struggling but making progress. I have my millionth respiratory infection this year. I also have a foot injury. Geesh!!! Frustrated but hanging in there. I refuse to give up. I owe so many Sparkers a huge thank you for your encouragement. Thank you for still believing in Me. Wed, 8 Jun 2016 22:45:29 EST