CRYERMAMA's SparkPeople Blog CRYERMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Suprise! My son is a Drag Queen and I am his manager. Almost every weekend, we are in a bar somewhere. Bar food is the absolute worst thing I can eat and alcohol wrecks havoc with my sugar and calorie intake. I was really feeling that I was losing ground until I stepped on the scale this morning and had lost another 3 pounds in the past week and a half. Yay! It's really made me want to eat better and exercise more. Here's to keeping this streak going and getting healthy and stronger soon. Sat, 4 Mar 2017 14:10:54 EST Learning to control my portions <em>29</em> Well, doing pretty well. Drinking lots of water and downsizing portions. Picking healthier foods and eliminating soda, sweets, etc... Feeling good! My biggest problem is portion control. I love food and enjoy eating lots of it. I have to retrain my mind that more is not better! Fri, 6 Jun 2014 14:26:15 EST Excuses, excuses, we see them every day. Well, I have been down and out for a while. Just before my daughter's wedding last June, I hurt my back and haven't been able or willing to workout since then. I realized this morning that it may have been a reason for a while, but now it was just an excuse. That is why I am back here on Spark People. I really want to get healthy. I just get discouraged very quickly. When I don't see immediate results, I give up. I have things and people in my life that fight me every step of the walk ... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 12:01:54 EST Sunshine! <em>67</em> Wow! What a beautiful day. Managed a walk and got my car all detailed and washed. Wore me out! Going to the Starlight parade tonight so will be walking some more. No soda today just lots of water. Getting close to wedding time and each day gets busier. Just hope this weather hangs around between now and then so I can walk more. The dress must fit! <em>313</em> <em>351</em> Walking and dancing every day will assure that it does. Sat, 1 Jun 2013 17:07:53 EST Trying to be careful. We are having an anniversary party for friends this evening, so I am trying to be careful about what I eat today, so I can have a small slice of cake tonight. Had a pretty severe low blood sugar episode this morning. Went down to 34. Much lower and I would have passed out. Got to get these episodes under control! Not sure why it happened. Had eaten breakfast of 1 egg and a slice of whole grain toast. Just have to keep watch on it I guess. Sat, 13 Apr 2013 15:26:10 EST I'm gaining momentum. Sticking to my plan and even walked for 1/2 hr. this morning. Drinking lots of water too. Still no soda! Only time I am even tempted is in the evening when my head hurts from too little caffine. Soooo...I am doing pretty good. Trying to keep on keeping on. Really talking to myself about why I want to eat. Is it emotional, physical, etc... Most of the time, I think it is either emotional (due to a bad relationship) or being bored. So I am working on my thinking in these areas. Thu, 11 Apr 2013 17:42:23 EST Self talk Okay Cheryl! Today is a new day. You did very well yesterday by not drinking any coke. Let's see if you can do it again today. You should take a nice long walk as that will help with your depression and anxiety. Maybe even dance for a bit. You can do this! It will help you get more motivated to do even more! I will be there walking and dancing with you. After all, what are friends for? <BR> Wed, 10 Apr 2013 11:34:56 EST Self examination It was suggested on Spark Coach that I examine the reasons I want to do this. They are pretty simple. I want to enjoy the rest of my life being as active as I have been in my past. Up until a couple of years ago, I could out work most men. I gardened, cleaned my house, walked almost everywhere I went and played with my kids and grandkids. Then I got sick and had to go through Chemo. and as soon as I got through that (and got well) I broke my ankle. I haven't been able to even clean my ow... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 15:02:08 EST Lord, help me to be faithful to me. Well, I am back and wanting to learn to be kind and faithful to myself. Even when I am faced with opposition from all around me. I need to do what is best for me and my health. Got on the scales this morn. and discovered that during the time I was off this site, that I had gained 11.5 pounds. <em>198</em> That is not a nice thing that I did to myself but, I am back to trying to right that wrong. I can't let myself go down that slippery slope any longer. I have been allowing myself to... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 10:59:27 EST One day, one moment at a time. Sitting here this morning thinking about my strategy for today and decided that I must approach this in much the same manner that I approached getting clean and sober a few years ago. One day at a time. As I think back on that period of my life, I seem to recall there were many many days that I couldn't face a whole day at a time. I had to just learn to go one minute at a time. This is where I am in my weightloss journey. Taking one minute at a time. In this moment of today, I am forgin... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:26:28 EST Staying busy! The past few days have been crazy. Trying to get things planned and together for my daughter's upcoming wedding. Sometimes things don't go as you plan and you have to regroup and go another direction. Much like my weightloss experience. I am realizing that I don't adapt to change as well as I thought I did. It is hard for me to change direction in mid stream and it makes me angry. Both dealing with this wedding and with my weightloss, I am having to learn to adapt better to roadblocks a... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 16:56:00 EST Back on my road to success! I started my day off with dancing and a good long walk and some strength training today. Feel better already! Hitting the water hard and back to tracking my food. No matter what else, I feel better about me. That's what matter most. Thanks to all that have encouraged, supported, pushed and cared for me. Now I am invested. I can't quit on you guys. Thanks again! Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:51:16 EST Trying to get back on track. Okay. Here I go again,trying to get myself back on track. Thanks to all here on SP, I am back trying to figure a way to work my plan without alienating my husband. I think I will have to be dilligent about portion control since I will have to be eating the same thing he eats. (all unhealthy, fatty, bad-for-you foods) I will try to beef up my plate with more veggies and find ways to sneak in healthy foods at every opportunity. (without his knowing) I will continue to try to exercise when h... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 15:50:03 EST Guess he has won! As I am writing this, I am sitting here in my Pajamas (@ 1:30pm) eating a German Chocolate Cake, feeling sorry for myself. Guess Fred has won! I am so disgusted with him and more so with me and my failure. I spent many years destroying my body with drugs and alcohol. When I finally get to a better place in my life and am ready to take the final step in my journey to being healthy, I let "another" man in my life who's sole purpose is to keep me from that goal. I guess I'm not as strong as... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 16:07:12 EST I don't know what to do. Well, I keep running into a wall with my husband. Yesterday he informed me that I am no longer going to diet and he will no longer allow me to buy anything he believes is "for my diet thing". That he makes the money and will say how it is spent. He used the excuse that we couldn't afford all that junk. Yet, he has no problem if we spend even more on eating out, buying cookies, candy and other junk foods, just no "diet junk". The thing is, I haven't really bought any diet foods. Just frui... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 11:59:01 EST No Energy! Well, still sick with a cold and don't have any energy. Taking my vitamins and back on my eating plan today, but not feeling well enough to exercise yet. Hope tomorrow I will have more energy. I really want to keep up with my exercise plan. I feel so good when I have done 20-30 min. of exercise each day. Hope to increase the time I exercise each day. Today, though, I am going to rest and let my body heal. Sun, 27 Jan 2013 13:47:39 EST Lets get moving! Okay! So, dancing the past few days and the resistance bands added to that, has made me a bit sore, but that must mean it's doing it's job! For the first time in my life, I'm not using that as an excuse not to move. I am just working out the soreness by more and more movement! I have never viewed exercise as being fun. That is why I refuse to call it exercise anymore. I simply call it movement. As long as I am up and moving in a way that uses all the muscles that I haven't been used to... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:09:04 EST New Day, New Mindset! <em>252</em> I have spent the last three days, kinda feeling sorry for myself. Telling myself that nobody in my immediate circle wants me to get thin and be healthy. That my husband is trying to keep me fat. He is, but he doesn't have that power unless I give it to him. So, will I sit down and feel sorry for myself and pack on even more pounds, or will I take responsibility for my on life and my health and get up and keep moving forward! It would be easy to give in and go back to my old... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 14:14:43 EST My husband likes fat girls! Yep! I am married to a fatty lover! Well, I'm "Not" going to let him get in the way of my winning this battle of the bulge. He is doing his best to discourage me and sabatoge my weight loss but, HE SHALL NOT WIN!!!!!! I will keep on keeping on and become the person I want to be. I will not eat fatty foods and sit on my butt in front of the TV or computer all the time! I will eat healthy and workout if it kills me! He will not win this battle. I WILL!!!!! His mother told me when I marr... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 21:36:08 EST Breakfast Battle I have discovered that if I eat breakfast in the morning, I can't seem to stop eating and snacking all day. If I just have my coffee and water, I am not hungry until noon. I know everyone says that breakfast is important, but it is very hard for me to control my cravings if I eat early. Therefore, I am allowing myself to be out of the norm and skip breakfast and just eat lunch and dinner with an afternoon snack. This seems to work better for me and I figure if it ain't broke, don't fix it. Sat, 19 Jan 2013 10:37:55 EST Dance, dance, dance! Starting my day dancing! Got the heart rate up and pumping early this morning doing what I love to do. Dancing! What a wonderful expressive way to exercise. Definitely has me motivated now to do even more than I had planned for today. Think I should start every day this way!!!! <em>104</em> <em>236</em> <em>334</em> Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:49:15 EST Tired and Sore Woke up feeling tired and sore this morning, but am going to push myself out the door for a brisk walk this morning anyway. Hope it helps to motivate me to do even more today. <em>24</em> Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:04:32 EST Monday and Motivated! Woke up feeling good and then went for a walk. Came back and completed 3 workout videos. Had breakfast and tracked my nutrition. Then I planned my meals for the rest of the day. Feeling great about my progress so far today. Want to squeeze in another walk in the snow this evening. <em>334</em> Mon, 14 Jan 2013 17:41:38 EST Mental set back Okay, on 1-8-13, I entered my weight using the weight that I was at in September at the Dr.'s office. I did this because I didn't have a scale at home and that was the last time I weighed. Today, I bought a digital scale and ran right home to weigh and discovered that instead of 180, I am at 190. I know I didn't gain this 10lb. overnight, but even so, it kinda bummed me out. Just means I have farther to go than I thought before I will be at my goal weight. Was really hoping that I hadn't ... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 19:26:41 EST Back and forging ahead! I am back to this sight after a year of severe illness and an injury. Been working my program all week and feel like I am getting the hang of it again. Getting involved with some groups and posting and reading posts to stay motivated. Joined SP Coach and really liking it. The motivation is what I really need. Both to eat right and to exercise right. This is going to be my year! I just feel it inside. I am going to change some very old habits and make lots of new ones. Haven't been th... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 21:06:23 EST What a way to start a Monday! I am so happy to start my Monday with Spark People! Transforming my life and my body to be healthy and fit! Mondays are always busy for me because it's cleaning and laundry day at my house. My goal is to fit in at least 30 min. of exercise on Mondays beginning with today! I am tracking my food and planning my meals again, so that is a small step to success. I haven't been doing that and the low blood sugar episodes are back. I must do this to keep from ending up with full blown type 2 d... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 12:36:40 EST Help me start over! Okay, I am weak. I am a slave to my mouth and what goes in it. I have no motivation to begin again. I know all the reasons I must do this, but it's not enough apparently to put me back in the groove. I know that if I do what I should that my low blood sugar episodes will be fewer and farther between. I know that it just might keep me from developing type two diabetes. I know that I will breathe better. I know it will give me more energy. I know that I will feel better about myself. I... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 14:13:48 EST Off on another adventure! Well, it is Saturday and we are off to the Mall to have the Tuxes fitted and look for a corset or something to hold the girls up under my wedding dress. Must also find something to hold the tummy in. Have to buy some shoes with a heel so the dress isn't too long. Fred is going with me. Bless his heart! He has never been on a shopping marathon with me before. Hope it doesn't make him call off the wedding!LOL Anyway, don't mind shopping as much this month as I did last month thanks to lo... Sat, 30 Oct 2010 13:16:09 EST I have no apartment now. Well, it's official. I turned in the keys to my apt. and now live in the house that I will be sharing with my future husband. So, if this is a mistake, it is one that I will have to live with cause I have no place to run to now.LOL Really though, I am excited,but a little scared about starting this new life. In just a few short weeks, I will be Mrs. Fred McPherson. I never thought I would be getting married at the age of 51. Wow! But, I love him and know that we will have many grand ad... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 20:02:52 EST Good morning world! It's another beautiful, rainy day in Portland Or. and I feel good! I am in town and going today to get lots done in preparation for my wedding. Buying shoes, getting tuxes and getting preview hairdo done. Having a wonderful day with my daughter! It's amazing what a 3 lb. loss can do for your attitude! Such a small amount, but such a big accomplishment! So happy,happy,happy,happy!!!!! <em>334</em> Fri, 29 Oct 2010 11:09:42 EST Go for your dreams! Thursday is the highlight of my week. I go into Portland on Thurs. and have breakfast with my daughter. Then I go to the chiropractor and on Thurs. night, we go to Square Dancing!!!! I love it! It gets me on my feet and moving and the old heart pumping. Best two hour workout ever!!! Also, Thurs. is my weigh in day. Hope this week's hard work pays off big time. Hope everyone has a wonderful Thurs. Friday is just over there. Yeah, that's right! I can see it from here. So go for your... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 09:46:50 EST Wedding Preperations! Well, since I worked so hard on these yesterday, I thought I ought to show them off a little, so am posting pictures of the flowers for my wedding. Hope everyone enjoys them. Getting soooooo... excited about marrying such a wonderful guy in what will be a very beautiful and emotional ceremony. My daughter has written us our own wedding song and will be performing it at the wedding. It will be hard not to cry. <img src=""> <img src="htt... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 18:49:43 EST I am soooo over it! Okay! I am over feeling ugly and bloated. I walked my mile today and did my strength training. Got the Bride's Bouquet and Maid of Honor's Bouquet, the boutineers, and the Mother of the Groom's Coursage made for my wedding. My dress should be ready for the final fitting this week and the cake is ordered. The Pew Bows are done and most of the other decorations are ready. Will be getting the Tuxes done this weekend and then next week we must get the license. This wedding is really going ... Tue, 26 Oct 2010 21:46:00 EST On Feeling Bloated and Ugggly! Why is it that if I mess up the least little bit and eat one little thing that isn't on my plan, I imediately feel bloated and ugly? I think this is self induced, but maybe it is partially my body rejecting something that is bad for it. Yesterday, I was doing great and feeling like I had lost some weight this week. Since I only weigh on Thurs. I really don't know if I have lost this week or not. Anyway, I was sitting, watching tv with my fiance and he gets up and goes and gets 6 mini butt... Tue, 26 Oct 2010 10:51:57 EST Eating Out With My Family! My fiance and I met my children tonight at a new Thai resturant for dinner. I was concerned that I would really blow it, but I am proud to announce that even after a lovely dinner out, I stayed below 1300 calories and also remained within the limits on everything!!!! Major accomplishment for me because before Spark People, I would have really pigged out! I think I deserve a reward so instead of one mile tomorrow, I think I just might walk two. Thanks Spark People! <em>236</em> Sun, 24 Oct 2010 03:43:06 EST Trying to keep motivated! Was so down after weighing yesterday. The first week I lost 2 lbs. This week I gained 1/2 lb. Really wanted to give up and quit. Chocolate cake was hollaring at me and wanted to buy and eat a whole one. Then I logged on and checked out a couple of different people's blogs and saw what I could do if I stick it out! Now, I am ready to hit again for another week. Thanks Spark People! Without you, I would be belly deep in chocolate cake and I'm not! I think I will go for a long walk inste... Fri, 22 Oct 2010 14:29:06 EST