CROUCHINGGNOME's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CROUCHINGGNOME CROUCHINGGNOME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ People trying to encourage me when I'm on the trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304746 I felt like throwing this out there just because this has become more frequent now that more people are on the trails. <BR> <BR> So I'm about 235 lb. I literally just can't lose weight. I've been eating healthy, working out, doing strength training and I've lost 5 lb this year. That being said, I've gotten stronger and I can now run a little faster and a little longer. <BR> <BR> This past week I've had a lot of people who think they are doing me favors, The perky marathon runner who comes ... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 21:10:23 EST 10 miles in 2 hours 25 minutes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284278 Hey guys! <BR> <BR> I'm still running. I've probably gone about 160 miles so far this year- is that good? <BR> <BR> I'm really starting to notice an improvement. I was struggling to keep at a 15 minute mile pace a few months ago and that was on a treadmill. <BR> <BR> This past Saturday I ran a 10 mile race and I kept about a 13:30 pace and it was on an incredibly hilly road. I had my runkeeper app going and after I completed it I got a notification that it was the longest duration, dista... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 18:27:25 EST Training for my first Half Marathon!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188132 Hey everyone! <BR> <BR> I know I haven't been posting much lately but I'm still keeping the spark alive! <BR> <BR> I was wondering if anyone has any advice or encouragement for me. My biggest fitness goal so far is to complete a half marathon! The race day is May 5th, 2013 and I believe you have to keep at least a 13:45 pace so you don't get picked up by the shame van, I'm not trying to go too fast but as long as I finish and get my finishers medal I will be one happy camper! <BR> <BR> I k... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 12:19:36 EST Coconut oil- a must for everyone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4825537 I don't normally post something to endorse any product but I must tell you all about coconut oil. You should google it, seriously, It helps for weight loss, for a hair conditioner, for bruising, as a mild SPF, as a lotion, it helps HIV patients, there is literally a list as long as my leg of all the benefits of this product. I buy the cheaper stuff from Trader Joes and it is a 16 oz bottle of organic virgin coconut oil for $7. We bought two of them, one for eating and one for the body. <BR> ... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 11:08:53 EST Life is good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4810865 I haven't posted a blog in a while so here's my update! <BR> <BR> I started working at TWO gyms! La Fitness and a Ballys. I've been doing things I never expected, if you asked me years ago if I thought I would work at gyms I would have laughed in your face. <BR> <BR> I think I'm down about 15 lb since late January and as of two weeks ago I was down at least 12". <BR> <BR> I'm pretty happy with things and I love the work atmosphere. Today I was walking around work and three personal trai... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 14:30:41 EST 5 lb down this week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4713215 This was a rocking week for me! I ate a lot this week, worked out over 7k calories worth and ended up down 5 lb according to the drop 10 lb in 10 weeks class I'm taking. Last week I was at 249 -cringe- this week I'm at 244! Of course the class is at night so that doesn't make it very pretty with daily weight gain in food and drink. <BR> <BR> I'm really feeling pretty good this week, I'm excited to see the scale go down again. <BR> <BR> I found a beautiful website called: curvyisthenewblack... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 21:48:01 EST BRB! Off to lose another 75 lb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4702266 Hello! I haven't posted much on spark people this past year, mostly I've been busy with work and my beautiful nephew. <BR> <BR> <BR> In a nut shell the end of 2011 was pretty amazing, I got rid of some toxic influences/people in my life, I ran my first 10k with my best friend, I got engaged, my first nephew was born and things just went really great! <BR> <BR> I was proud of my results for the 10k, I think it was like, 1:13:43, so while an hour and 13 minutes isn't fantastic for running 6 ... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 23:07:21 EST Runkeeper http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4419941 I'm in Pittsburgh for the Summer/Fall and last month my brother came to town and he's one of those guys who is chubby but likes his women young and super skinny and thinks if you aren't super skinny you must sit at home eating twinkies all day. He made me join Runkeeper to track my exercise to make me keep an exercise routine because he thinks I am super unhealthy- when he isn't around much and etc etc. <BR> <BR> So this first month is almost over and I jogged 35 miles for my first month of ... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 23:59:22 EST Well here I am in Texas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4111647 I've been in Texas a little over a month. <BR> <BR> It's been a nightmare but I'll go into it all later. <BR> <BR> Right now though I'm having a sort of funny conversation with an old school friend from middle school. <BR> <BR> It's weird sometimes when you had a friend who you got along with great and after about 8 years you still hit it off like you were still in school together. He was a really charming friend, we took French together and he would call me at night and sing me random gu... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 01:43:39 EST Texas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3949752 Once again I may be moving to Texas. <BR> <BR> The boyfriend lost his job yesterday and since he doesn't really like it in Pittsburgh and his family is all in Texas I feel like i should uproot myself from my mom/friends I only occasionally see and my three practically minimum wage jobs and move there as a kick start to hopefully a better chapter in my life. <BR> <BR> This thought is stressing me beyond anything but realistically I know it's probably for the best. <BR> <BR> He has to go t... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 10:55:33 EST me against myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3945473 I know this past year that I haven't really actively tried to lose weight is no one else's fault but my own but it's weird. I feel like my body went into this plateau and my mind went all cobwebby so that I don't feel like pushing past it. I'm thinking I should get some kind of cleanse again since I haven't had one in a while and maybe just the idea of getting rid of bad. "energy" will help me to keep pushing towards my goals. <BR> <BR> My weight goal for this year is sort of pathetic compar... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 20:52:49 EST Long year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3939035 I know I haven't posted in this in so long. I haven't given up on my weight loss goals but with life I just haven't been able to exercise the way that I want to. It's still been in the top of my list. In October I bought an elliptical and now it's just a matter of actually using it! <BR> <BR> I'm probably about 10 lb or so around what I have been going. Not really a gain not really a loss. <BR> <BR> I've been working three jobs so I haven't had nearly as much "me" time as I would have wan... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 22:32:23 EST June 1st 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3288550 Man, today there will be quite a few Sparkpeople updates! <BR> <BR> First off, in September I checked my blood pressure to see where I was at: <BR> <BR> 119/71 and 103 bpm and I was at 233.2 lb at this point. <BR> <BR> I haven't been able to lose much weight since then but about a week ago and at about 226 lb I was at 109/63 and 84 bpm. <BR> <BR> <BR> I saw my blog from last year. I was at 270.2 last June 1st and today I'm at 224. Unfortunately I have been bouncing all around the 220s a... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 12:07:41 EST May 13th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3225786 This has been a busy week! <BR> <BR> My boyfriend's family were in Canada for a train trip and it stopped in Toronto so we drove up, picked them up, looked around there and Niagara falls and then back to Pittsburgh. I had to clean up soo much since I haven't been able to clean as much as I would have liked while taking care of Mom and everything.. <BR> <BR> While in Toronto even though every day we ate at restaurants and stuff I managed to be at 225 when I weighed Monday morning probably fr... Thu, 13 May 2010 12:04:18 EST April 21st http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3146539 <BR> I have been getting back into the swing of things. Right now my weight is at about 226.8. Seeing all my old goals from last year of hoping to be 40 pounds smaller now at my ambitious goal of staying a a 2lb per week loss and swinging down into the 175 range is sorta sucky so I think I'll end up restarting my tickers and goals so that it shows my start weight is 226.8 so I can at least feel that I'm making progress! <BR> <BR> I went biking today but it's harsh that I feel I haven't been... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 21:19:10 EST April 16th (Woo Hoo!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3125833 Today I was at 226.4! I'm so glad I'm slowly ticking down to my lowest weight which was from around Christmas. Retail at Christmas time.. I got a LOT of exercise and got down to 220.3! I'm so glad I've gotten down from the 230s and I hope it can stay that way! <BR> <BR> I've started jogging a bit this week and I feel like that might be the reason. I am so proud of myself for being able to push! Yesterday I didn't jog but I was doing hours of intense housework so I just did some faster walkin... Fri, 16 Apr 2010 09:28:36 EST April 12th potential career ( Opinions needed!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3110731 <BR> <BR> Lately I've been thinking about what I want to go to school for since I'm 21 and I can't really sit around forever. <BR> <BR> This last year I've been thinking about becoming a dietician since I've had such a love hate relationship with food my entire life but this last year my eyes have really opened to how people mistreat their bodies and all the things people should do better to treat it better and live healthier lives. <BR> <BR> I was curious what everyone's opinions are to... Mon, 12 Apr 2010 15:16:27 EST April 5th 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3082942 It's been about a month since I've posted. <BR> <BR> This past month was crazy. My mom ended up dislocating both shoulders and so I was taking care of her for three weeks she didn't go back to work. She had a few MRIs done and will find out at the end of this week if she needs surgery. <BR> <BR> For me personally and with weight loss. I've taken my puppy to the park and dog park pretty much every day for the last few weeks. I've taken him for a mile + walk every day and sometimes to the ... Mon, 5 Apr 2010 14:25:47 EST March 8th, 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2972369 <BR> I've stepped on the scale every day this past week to get back in the habit and I think that maybe just maybe I wasn't -actually- 233 and maybe it was just period bloating. In two days I'm down to 230 again. I'm counting my lucky stars and just hoping that with watching what I eat and everything that I can start to tick away the pounds in the 220s again and finally get to those magical 210s! <BR> <BR> Today i got a kind of cryptic voicemail from my mom's work saying she fell in a potho... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 09:48:24 EST Back and ready for action! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2965317 I haven't been on much since November when with the winter blues and depression and everything I just wasn't feeling it. <BR> <BR> My one year anniversary to Sparkpeople is this coming May 6th. Two months from today! <BR> <BR> I checked my weight today and it was a depressing 233!!!! ARGH! I'm so mad at myself. <BR> <BR> I plan on eating right, logging my foods again, and seeing if I can sneak that number into the 210's. I plan on taking awkward bikini pics again on the anniversary of my... Sat, 6 Mar 2010 10:45:38 EST Woo Hoo! Mini victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2647620 I'm sorry I haven't been on here much, I still haven't loaded up my pictures from early November and didn't take ones in early Dec and haven't done measurements in over a month! Gah! <BR> <BR> I was a bit emo because my weight WAS NOT BUDGING! I guess working from 1:30- 11 yesterday at Bath and Body Works and hauling stuff around all day really kicked my butt into gear! First I stepped on the scale and I was at 221.8 which was still a mini victory because I haven't been that low! Then I deci... Mon, 21 Dec 2009 09:58:08 EST Birthday fun and sweating it at the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2609380 Hello All! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my first day back at the gym and I did 20 min on the stationary bike and about 40 on the elliptical. I went with my mom though who I don't think really wants to work out but just wants to have the weight jump off so I couldn't work out more. Today I plan on going for maybe an hour and a half or so though. I need to catch up! My body was loving me for that nice work out yesterday! <BR> <BR> I had been stuck at the 224-225 area but today I hit the scale and... Fri, 4 Dec 2009 09:02:03 EST sitting here at Paneras http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2597493 Hello all! <BR> <BR> One day left until I venture into the universe of the "adults" over 21! <BR> <BR> <BR> So I'm sitting here at Panera's this lovely ( Read: Rainy, wet and COLD) Monday morning and it's my last one of being 20! <BR> <BR> Last year when I would work at the Mall it was almost every day that I had to sit here in these tables before work because I would work mostly mornings and have no other way of getting to the mall across the street except for being here super early in... Mon, 30 Nov 2009 08:41:29 EST Missing in Action: Reasons why and solutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2583462 Hey all sorry I was missing for this past month. <BR> <BR> I did take the end of October pictures but I haven't put them up yet. <BR> <BR> November has been hard in most respects. On 11/07/09 at 11:07 am I had to put my yorkie to sleep. I had Emily for 13 years. Since I was 7! She was with me through absolutely everything and when I had no other friends I always had her. She was getting sick for a few months now and in the few nights before hand was in so much pain I knew that I needed to ... Mon, 23 Nov 2009 14:00:44 EST To count or not to count, that is the question! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2493623 Right now I have the flu. Every year at exactly this time of year I get sick, I can practically predict the day every year that I get sick thanks to getting a flu shot a few years ago and pretty much lost my immune system. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I ate like CRAZY! <BR> <BR> Lets see, mom's homemade soup with lots of veggies and scallops, corn bread, about 300 cals worth of gummy candy, cookies, potato, potato chips, you get the point. <BR> <BR> I went from 227.2 to 224.8 over night because... Tue, 20 Oct 2009 11:24:34 EST mini binge-wtf? and catching up the fit mins! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2481017 Try this one on for size! Yesterday I ate: a brownie with chocolate chips and nuts, 3 delicious peanut butter cups, and gummy bears. I went down a pound! I was bloated and stuff since my periods coming up and I haven't even had my period yet but I shoved my face and today I went from 228.4 to 227.4. The lowest I've been is 226.6. That was all quite delicious as least! Good thing I didn't pay for it today! <BR> <BR> Today I noticed a rather sad, unfortunate truth. For months I've been trying... Thu, 15 Oct 2009 10:56:03 EST That was DELICIOUS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2460467 My boyfriend and I got bored from having pasta every weekend day that my mom isn't here since that's our default lunch or dinner. <BR> <BR> We decided to make wraps so we bought veggie meat and some beans and stuff and made some wraps this weekend. <BR> <BR> I almost never eat wraps/tortillas so I was trying to think of a good way of using them so they don't go bad. <BR> <BR> For lunch today I made a wrap that was 390 cal, 41g carb, 16g fat and 21g protein <BR> <BR> I took the morningstar... Wed, 7 Oct 2009 14:37:57 EST September pics ready to be viewed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2451134 The pictures I took for Sept are on my sparkpage. <BR> <BR> It's sort of disappointing that I was only able to lose about 6 lb for Sept but any loss is better than a gain! <BR> <BR> It's depressing that even after losing 40 + pounds you can't tell much of a difference, really. I was hoping that some of that major amounts of cellulite would finally start to go away but it looks like it hasn't. <BR> <BR> Since I've lost almost 46 pounds and I still look about the same as before. I think that... Sun, 4 Oct 2009 13:01:29 EST Sept pictures and more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2446754 I haven't taken the sept pictures yet. I feel like there won't be much difference since I only lost like 6 lb but I will take them, probably tomorrow! <BR> <BR> I haven't finished any 'official' end of month stuff because the last 2 dinners I had were in restaurants so LOTS of sodium and I'm stuck at 231.4 but I'm drinking tons of water then I will take the pics tomorrow no matter what the scale says! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had an interview at Build a Bear and re-applied at an ol... Fri, 2 Oct 2009 11:35:01 EST Here's to hoping I can ring in October in the 220s! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2425854 I haven't really posted a blog in a while. My weight has been kinda stuck so I've only really come on to plug in my foods and sometimes update my status. <BR> <BR> Today I finally was a little lower than I have been. I'm at 230.8 today. I REALLY hope that by the weekend's end I can be in the 220s! <BR> <BR> I am excited because the next bikini pictures I will be (hopefully) at least 40 lb less than the first bikini pics! <BR> <BR> I am hoping my legs will start to be noticeably trimmed ... Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:51:44 EST Grocery Store Blood Pressure test http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2396762 My blood pressure results were always amazing for my weight. I guess in that respect I am one of the lucky heavy ones who had one less weight related problem to deal with. <BR> <BR> I REALLY wish I would have thought to do this test in May but hindsight is always 20/20. <BR> <BR> 09/13/09 at 233.2 lb: <BR> <BR> 119/71 and 103 bpm <BR> <BR> Though that may be a little high because we just ran all over the store to find the machine then I sat in and started it right away without really res... Sun, 13 Sep 2009 20:33:40 EST September slacker! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2391834 This month so far I've only lost about 2 lb and not done much.. that's changing, NOW! <BR> <BR> I've done 15 minutes of circuit training so far and 10 minute A list Arms and I'm planning on doing at LEAST another 10 minute video be it abs or lower body or both. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got my first pedicure after 7 months and first since I started losing weight. I needed a little treat! <BR> <BR> I'm at 233.4 still today and my goal was to hit 230 by the 13th. That date slowly crept up on m... Fri, 11 Sep 2009 15:02:33 EST New Pics for August! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2370925 I uploaded the new pics I took yesterday. <BR> <BR> I don't think there's really much change since last month since I was only 9.2 lb lighter Sept 2 then I was July 30th. <BR> <BR> I added a few other pics too, Since I do about 20 different pic views every month and normally just show the front/back on spark people I decided to show off a side view one, too. <BR> <BR> I'm 35 lb lighter than the first pics though I can't tell much difference since I have such a LONG way to go. <BR> <BR> H... Thu, 3 Sep 2009 13:27:32 EST August Wrap up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2364226 During the month of August I was sort of battling a plateau most of the month so I got no where near my goal of 10 + pounds lost. <BR> <BR> For the month of August I started at 243.2 and ended at 235.6 and I lost a total of 7.6 pounds. <BR> <BR> To meet my Spark goal of 211 on my birthday I would need a 2 lb a week loss so that would be 8 a month. I fell a little short but if I can make it up with a 9 or 10 lb loss for September it will even out. <BR> <BR> Last night I didn't get home unt... Tue, 1 Sep 2009 10:24:05 EST Giving it my all! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2350727 Today I was getting on the scale and I kept telling myself that it's okay if I go up because I've been plateauing for a few weeks and it's not a direct effect of how good/bad I was the day previous. <BR> <BR> I step on it and I HOPED that it would be maybe 237.. I got on and it was 236.2! <BR> <BR> I guess yesterday really paid off! <BR> <BR> That really helps me so that maybe I can actually hit my goal for the month. <BR> <BR> I am 1.2 lb away from a 40 lb loss! <BR> I am 3.2 lb away fr... Thu, 27 Aug 2009 10:24:11 EST small steps in the right direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2348143 I haven't posted a blog in a few weeks so I thought I would today! <BR> <BR> Lets see, Im starting to feel better over all. Mom made me go clothing shopping with her yesterday because we are going on a trip 4 hours south to pick huckleberries on Monday and she thought I could use some shorts. I've hit a plateau this month and it's SUCKED as all plateaus tend to. Today was nice because I am my lowest I've been on my journey: 237.4 and I still will try my hardest to get under 235 for August! ... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 12:34:52 EST Hmm... life sucks... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2309541 This past week has been a little better but I guess that's all relative! <BR> <BR> I finally hit the 230s today. I'm at 239.2 and I just REALLY hope I don't go back up to the 240s. <BR> <BR> I haven't worked out much in the past week because I've mostly just felt like crap and have no energy. <BR> <BR> I've been starting to write more. I've been told that I have a great writers voice and when I write papers and such that it's funny and true and rather enjoyable. I sort of hope that some... Wed, 12 Aug 2009 12:54:59 EST Rest in Peace little Cosmo and more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2292861 This past week has been horrible. <BR> <BR> Last weekend we couldn't contact Hortense who is the most extraordinary woman I've ever met. She was born in 1916. Brought up in New York City. Her family was WEALTHY during the great depression. Her husband was the one to bring the first lava lamp to the united states and Mickey Rooney spoke at his funeral. Andy Warhol used to paint her and her friends Martha Hill and Martha Graham. She was a dancer and paved the way for modern dance. She's hyste... Thu, 6 Aug 2009 11:56:32 EST End of the month pictures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2274920 Well it's the last day of July. That means I get to take my end of the month bikini pictures. I'm a little nervous since last month I don't think there was much of a visual change (though you are your worst critic!) The pictures won't be until tonight when the boyfriend gets home but from the last bikini picture day to now is another 12.4 pounds gone forever! So even if there isn't a change from the end of June pictures (doubt there will be) Hopefully I can tell a difference being about 26 ... Fri, 31 Jul 2009 09:10:06 EST My gift to myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2262950 My birthday isn't even for another few months.. December first. <BR> <BR> But I've come up with quite a few things I want to give myself for my birthday. <BR> <BR> 1- The gift of being under 200 pounds <BR> <BR> 2- I want another tattoo and I found one that came out to me and practically screamed for me. Cho Ku Rei which is a symbol in Reiki. My second gift to myself will be to within the next 4 months until my birthday tone up my arms so that I can get that tattooed on the inside of my ... Mon, 27 Jul 2009 10:53:58 EST WooHoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2261588 Today was a pretty rock star day. I biked 30 minutes and jogged/walked 5 miles worth at the track and pushed myself to jog as much as I could- I will jog a lap around one day! The only thing I could possibly do to make it rock even harder would be if I did some much needed strength training (which I might!) I am 1 pound away from my first MAJOR goal of 245. That will put me at a 30 pound total weight loss. I'm nervous for my end of july bikini pics! I really hope I'm making massive progress i... Sun, 26 Jul 2009 21:23:57 EST frustrated with weight loss! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2255423 First off though, THANK YOU! To everyone who left positive comments to me about my last blog! I really appreciate it! You are all so awesome! What would I do without spark people?! <BR> <BR> Practically getting attacked going door to door sounds horrible! I don't know how those people can sleep at night! <BR> <BR> <BR> But on to my current blog! <BR> <BR> I'm pretty frustrated right now. I want to hit 245 by the end of the month for 10 pounds lost this month but right now I can't seem... Fri, 24 Jul 2009 08:36:46 EST Worst week ever! Really depressed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2236774 I'm writing this between tears. <BR> <BR> This week was so incredibly bad. <BR> <BR> I hated the job. HATED it. You have to go door to door and basically ask for money for a bull reason and if you don't get the quota of $600 per week as a TRAINEE you get fired on the spot. So after dealing with mean people who made me hate myself all this week going door to door getting yelled at, screamed at, hearing stupid jokes about the organization and getting bit by a dog as well as hit on by some re... Fri, 17 Jul 2009 12:07:39 EST NERVOUS! Tomorrow's adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2223211 I've been without a job since January. <BR> <BR> I didn't even look for one until about June or so because I was so ashamed of my weight and of myself and after a while I was so used to being lazy and not working that it just became the norm. <BR> <BR> I applied to a place in June and in emails she sounded really interested in me. She saw me in person and said she would call the references and everything and expect a call at the beginning of t <BR> he next week.. no call... really shattere... Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:42:23 EST HELEN'S KITCHEN THAI RED CURRY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2220719 Simply Put? WOW. <BR> <BR> I don't usually have frozen dinners but lately I've lost my energy and drive and I think my boring food selection is to blame since I've been eating mostly the same stuff every day. I went to the grocery store because I needed something with an extra pow. I looked over the frozen fish and other stuff and came to the organic/healthier frozen dinners and they had a sale on Helen's Kitchen which was just what the doctor ordered! 2 for $7 and AMAZING. I never eat froze... Sat, 11 Jul 2009 15:01:09 EST PROGRESS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2215699 Yay! <BR> <BR> I had to go upstairs earlier and decided on a whim to try on the pants again. <BR> <BR> It's these green ones from Old Navy that are low cut and sort of summer-y pants. They have a decorative draw string at the bottom that you can have them as a long pair which is like.. capri length or use the strings to tighten it to make it shorter and what not. I have no idea the size. <BR> <BR> <BR> At any rate. We have no idea whose they even were. My mom/sister and I at different ti... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 14:02:51 EST weight related questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2209070 From the 25 pounds by labor day challenge thread :-) <BR> <BR> 1. Why are you overweight? I'm not entirely sure. My family always moved and I moved 15 times during school so I never had friends to play with. My dad was pretty reckless. He just sort of shoved oreos down my throat and called it dinner. I managed to lose weight after that . About 30 pounds or so about 8 years ago. Then we moved to Pittsburgh where we didn't have sidewalks and I wasn't as active. 6 years ago when my weight star... Tue, 7 Jul 2009 09:33:54 EST Doesn't even feel like I'm doing anything! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2206628 Lately I haven't felt as if I am doing anything to lose weight though I've been dropping 2 or so pounds a week. I'm vegetarian and I've been for about 3 years so I'm naturally used to monitoring what I put in my mouth to make sure it isn't animal so now I just do a little step extra and make sure it's vegetarian and healthy for me. I don't even feel like I do anything anymore though every day I log my weight and what I eat/do to exercise. <BR> <BR> I hope I won't be too lazy that I quit in ... Mon, 6 Jul 2009 13:05:23 EST updated June photos! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2194991 I put in 2 new weight loss photos for June. It's sort of depressing because there isn't as much of a change as I would like. But I figure that's due to the fact that I have about 100 pounds of extra weight so 14 pounds won't make a significant change. <BR> <BR> Let me know if you see any difference! Wed, 1 Jul 2009 11:00:26 EST Changed weight loss goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2187243 I had my weight loss goal as 135 pounds which is 140 lost. For now I'm putting it at a clean 100 pounds. One of my best friends always tells me how if I lost 140 pounds I'd disappear since I naturally am very curvy w/ really wide hips and an hour glass figure and how it wouldn't look right being THAT small. Thinking of what she said I think I'm going to try for a straight 100 lost and that will put me at 175 pounds. When I get to that point I will evaluate how much more I should try and lose.... Sun, 28 Jun 2009 16:17:21 EST