CREE123's SparkPeople Blog CREE123's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Star in starting over Today i am back to SparkPeople after a long absence. yes..a few more pounds as well. I hurt my back a few months ago and last week finally decided to get some help. Seen the chiropractor 4 times and have an appointment with my doctor in 2 weeks. I so want to be able to zumba again. it sucks because the fee per drop in is $15.75. A small luxury maybe i will invest in when i get my mobility back. On the 17th it will be 2 years since my mom died and it is a sad anniversary for my family. ... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 00:23:19 EST Saturday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is Thanksgiving long weekend here in Canada. I bought a bag of organic carrots at the Farmers Market to cook for the family dinner on Monday. I also got a bucket of clover honey to give to elder Eric. <BR> <BR> It has been windy and much of the leaves have blown off the trees. The woodstove is warm and cozy. <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful weekend. Sat, 11 Oct 2014 22:58:15 EST sweet moment <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is my father holding his first great-granddaughter (my first grandchild). A bittersweet moment as we had lost my mom a few months previous. <BR> <BR> We cried. Fri, 10 Oct 2014 00:40:00 EST October 8 2014 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am grinding cedar and cleaning sage today for smudging. It smells so good here. <BR> <BR> Walked to my father's place this morning for a quick visit. Wed, 8 Oct 2014 14:52:33 EST i find i am not too old to learn new ways <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I went to Zumba tonight. It made me feel good, great actually. <BR> i can't wait to do it again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I heard from an old friend today. He had tattooed my name onto his arm and then we lost contact. So many years and there was a reason he didn't stay in my life, that is being in jail for impaired driving. He said that he was seriously injured last year in a car crash caused by an impaired driv... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 23:20:39 EST Home today, with granddaughter Yay! get to have a day with Serenity. if her mom gets home in time, i will be able to go to zumba. <img src=""> Mon, 6 Oct 2014 15:09:51 EST Blogging <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Walked to the lake this morning with my daughter and granddaughter. it is autumn and beautiful. <img src=""> Sun, 5 Oct 2014 19:46:55 EST Walking <img src=""> <BR> My camera is broken. I am using my cellphone for photos now. My sis took this one - she walked to the lake with me this morning. Tue, 30 Sep 2014 00:29:11 EST back again It has been over a year since i updated. lots has happened - lost my mom <BR> <img src=""> and grandmother shortly after. <BR> <BR> I am now a grandmother to this little one (I'm holding her here minutes after her birth): <BR> <img src=""> <BR> . <img src=""> <BR> I regained all the weight i had lost before. I hated seeing t... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 17:56:52 EST Grandma <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This beautiful lady is my granny. She is battling stomach cancer. She lives about 5 kilometers away from my childhood home. She used to come and visit us from time to time when we were children. When she would walk home, mom would send us to walk with her so that she wouldn't be by herself. We had to run to keep up with her fast walk! <BR> <BR> My daughter is expecting her first child. I want to be healthy ... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 22:01:32 EST dawn <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Dawn of a new day...taken this morning. I thought to go for a walk but Samson was barking, so i stayed in. <BR> <BR> I've been asked to make a shawl for one of my goddaughters. So I've got a task to do. <BR> <BR> Fri, 19 Jul 2013 01:29:14 EST sad <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today we laid Sharon to rest. At was heartbreaking to see her 2 five year old boys drop flowers on her casket. <BR> <BR> Yes, she is no longer suffering, but our hearts hurt. <BR> <BR> <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 18 Jul 2013 01:25:25 EST R.I.P. Sharon It is a sad time for my community. My former sister-in-law Sharon died unexpectantly yesterday afternoon at home. She had been battling sickness and has been in and out of the hospital for many months. I thought that she was on the mend. <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> She and my brother Brian had lost their 8 month old daughter years ago. She leaves two five year old sons. Sharon was younger than I. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 14 Jul 2013 21:30:18 EST walk/run Today I thought i would walk my daughter's dog...and try and run as well. I had three brief jogs. LOL, I had imagined nice long bursts of walk/runs. <BR> <BR> here is a pic of Samson during one of our spring walks this year: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ah is a start! <BR> <em>381</em> Thu, 11 Jul 2013 18:18:02 EST level 7 reached today This is a photo of me the last time i was at a healthy weight with my son who is 25 now. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Tonight I went to a zumba class. I plan to be there again in the morning. I keep reminding myself that I am below 250 pounds and do not want to go back up. Moving is so much easier now and stairs are no big deal, they were before! <BR> <BR> I start my new job on Monday and will have to practice good self-discipline t... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 00:42:08 EST Star I did zumba this morning after a lot of slacking. it was hard. I had noticed that without regular exercise my old symptoms of digestive issues were coming i have motivation of having a smooth running system to make me move. <BR> Going grocery shopping and taking ideas from the spark nutrition page to make my shopping list. I do not to regain all i've lost in weight. <img src=""> <BR> Tue, 9 Jul 2013 15:19:13 EST Old clothes are starting to fit :) Today i finally went back to zumba. It is summer and only 3 people showed up for class. So we did circuit training and a few favorite songs. <BR> I have this old cotton top (i love cotton) that is size 1x...yay...pretty soon i will be able to wear it comfortably. <img src=""> <BR> Have a wonderful weekend! Me, I plan to do some workout dvds and sew. Sat, 6 Jul 2013 16:59:20 EST Ouch Got such a bad sunburn that my workout was sidelined. :( <BR> Wear sunblock. <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 5 Jul 2013 00:23:05 EST Happy Canada Day! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was walking in the parade today with the Zumba studio members. This was me before we left. <BR> <BR> We also did a demonstration of zumba in the was so hot! my face is a lil burnt. Went to the pool to keep cool first. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is supposed to be 10 degrees cooler! Yay! Tue, 2 Jul 2013 00:48:14 EST 1000 minutes of exercise for June 2013! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This photo was taken after Christmas 2012...I was severely anemic and had gone out to get firewood after Christmas with my sister Rita. I hauled wood very slowly, but it felt good to be outside. <BR> <BR> Did 100 minute of Zumba today! I made my 1000 minutes of exercise for June. Mon, 1 Jul 2013 00:44:03 EST Pictures and quote I'm kinda stuck on what to blog about, so i will post some old photos today. This was taken at Medicine Lake in Jasper National Park, my ancestral homeland: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and this was a closing ceremony where i was shawled and received an eagle feather: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and this is a good quote <BR> <img src=" Sat, 29 Jun 2013 10:48:21 EST grand entry I was in the Grand Entry at the Peace River Powwow. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This fierce lil girl with doll hairties was my favorite! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My car broke down i got it fixed then drove it home to trade it in. <BR> <BR> I have new car and a new job! <em>244</em> Fri, 28 Jun 2013 16:21:23 EST It's up to me I did zumba today after a two week absence. Felt so good! <BR> I read the spark funny and it reminded me that I have a zumba membership. It motivated me to do zumba at home, tomorrow i will go back to the live class. <BR> I had resigned from my job and am waiting to start as a contractor. To be in business for myself. A very good wage, and being responsible for my own health plan and retirement plan. Finally growing up and quit waiting for a man to take care of me. There i said it out... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 22:30:30 EST Whew I woke up with a headache. Tension. I hadn't realized how stressful it has been to be waiting for a trial for my daughter. She had to go face the consequences of her actions while under the influence. Sentencing is put off until September. Whew. <BR> It is not my battle. If her addiction could be healed by something i could do, i would do it. I would walk to the end of the world if it meant she would be recovered, but it is not my battle. My task is actually simple: let go and let God... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 17:50:32 EST Putting the star into starting over... Sarah Kay I remember that every once in a while i would attempt to get some fitness and i would walk...then the next time i would try again would be a year later. That is why i stayed so big. <BR> these days i do Zumba. It's fun and i bought a membership for 6 months. my Mother's Day treat to myself. <BR> These last three weeks have been tough and i gained some weight back. I've gotten back on track for the last three days. One night on the weekend i was looking at my photo albums on this compute... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 01:13:21 EST 24 pounds down 24 pounds down! i asked my niece to make me a collage of my face. Yes, the weight loss is evident. So happy. <img src=""> Sun, 26 May 2013 22:32:42 EST Stress and Change After an intense week, today I feel that I'm back on track. Yesterday was a tough one and I ate 2 chocolate bars and ate two bags of chips. in the end I felt yucky and somewhat greasy. I felt during the stressful times I wanted breads and fried food. Bannock and fried moosemeat was an indulgence I took during a walk to my mom's on Monday. <BR> And today I can say...opps there was my my old sickness popping up and begin anew. <BR> I made a decision to leave my job and take on a more chal... Thu, 23 May 2013 00:26:56 EST I got this This week I received news about my daughter leaving her treatment program. <BR> It made me sad. <BR> All week I was in a workshop, it was strong 'Talk Medicine'. <BR> Each day gave me healing and strength. I was able to continue with zumba and being gentle with myself. <BR> <BR> Alcohol is powerful -- don't fool around with it. It is like a loaded 30/30 with no safety lock. DAVE BELLEAU <BR> <BR> And me having lost a partner through alcohol-fueled violence, had tried so hard to prote... Fri, 17 May 2013 23:01:53 EST Exuberance and spring My cousin has been in hospital often for the past few weeks. She had gallstone surgery and now has problems with her pancreas. When i looked to see what that could be caused by, I saw that rapid weight loss could set off those problems. She is a single mom of 2. I got a little scared. <BR> I started eating more than usual, upped my food intake and ate more vegetables, slow and steady will get me to goal. <BR> Today I did some low-impact aerobics. I am now used to walking with my daug... Sat, 4 May 2013 01:43:50 EST Love of our children Is busy with work. Took on some additional responsibilities. I will need to be mindful of stress, and not forget to exercise. <BR> I'm going back to work for an hour and dropping off a donation to support Operation Smile. A child was born with a cleft lip in our town and that inspired his uncle to raise funds to complete 50 surgeries for this condition in parts of the world where it is unavailable. In doing so, he is running in an extreme race that is run here in town on the August long... Thu, 2 May 2013 20:16:10 EST Wednesday, May 1, 2013 Today was a good day. I made some ground beef dishes for both lunch and supper. Starting to really enjoy different vegetables and have switched to whole wheat spaghetti. Homemade and healthy is delicious. <BR> I look forward to my meals, tasting the food and planning for health...snacks today were a mandarin orange and snap peas. <BR> I did some low impact aerobics after supper and my niece walked in , usually I stop and turn off the dvd, but this time i finished the workout. She borr... Wed, 1 May 2013 23:24:38 EST I love zumba Just got home from zumba. <BR> I'm down two sizes, my new size 5 tops have to go...or be sewn in. My favorite comfortably loose clothing is getting too baggy. I think it will be so nice when i do not have to shop in plus size racks or stores! <BR> My brother and niece have begun a walking regimen, and it is good to see them walking on the road. <BR> I do notice that in times of high-stress, i think of fried food. It used to be no big deal to have a huge bag of potato chips as an evening ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 22:49:43 EST A popular blog trophy Before I went to bed last night i came to SparkPeople and saw that my yesterday's blog was a featured blog post! Now I couldn't phone anyone to tell them , it was almost midnight! I was so happy, I couldn't sleep right away. <BR> Many years ago I attended a running/fitness class and I did really well. We did timed runs at the beginning and end of the training. I remember the flopping of a too loose bra in my final run, so I ran with my arms crossed. LOL. The trainer was cool about it, h... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 01:12:47 EST Below 250 :) Woohoo...I'm below 250 pounds this morning! When i get to 240, my reward will be a drive to Jasper to do yoga with a friend. <BR> I just returned from church. <em>437</em> <BR> I stacked my wood yesterday. Near the bottom of the pile I saw a bundle of grass and that should have alerted me that a small critter was nest building. A few moments later, a mouse ran out from a piece of wood I lifted, startling me and I let out a shriek! <BR> This past Easter, I gave up chocolate during Le... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 14:16:03 EST getting rhythm I woke up late this morning. I didn't feel like going to zumba, but i had told my niece i would take her; and she was ready. So off we went and I quickly got into the rhythm and started enjoying myself. I was a few minutes late and i had to get into the middle of the class, no hiding in the back row today! It was a great way to start the day. <BR> I have a 25 year old son who is more likely to get a piece of fruit instead of a full meal when he drops in; I no longer cook huge meals. I c... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 14:19:03 EST Back to Spark It has been almost three years since I last posted on Spark. Since then I went up to 270 pounds. Got very anemic and the doctor told me my heart was beginning to show heart issues from all the extra weight. Had to take iron supplements and now my iron level is normal. I hated the side effects of taking iron. She wanted me to get checked for sleep apnea. I got scared and said, "let me try to lose weight first, I don't want to sleep with a mask." She agreed, and a few months later I was... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 20:36:35 EST snow It snowed last night and i drove the 7 km to town to buy drinking water. I was challenging myself to drive inspite of being scared. Visibility was low and i reminded myself that this is just the start of winter season with snow and ice. <BR> Today the sun is shining with a blue sky and fresh snow. It is beautiful here in the mountains. i start my job next week! woohoo, will have a regular income again! <BR> Have a board meeting on Friday. Travel ...will not be so bad with good tires!... Tue, 9 Nov 2010 13:52:29 EST Epiphany! Last night i was cleaning and found a box of old papers which i decided to go through. I found a picture of my daughter's baptism day. A picture of me and her dad, and my son. I remembered the depression I was in...i look tired in the photo even though I am smiling. Her father was an alcoholic who was beaten to death when she was a toddler. I had flashbacks of the crazyness of living with an alcoholic who was abusive...and this is what my relationship with my daughter has been like! I n... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 15:07:10 EST He has given me a new song to sing... Its almost 1 am. I have a job that will start on November 15! <BR> The past weeks have been spent securing treatment for my daughter, now it is time to look after myself. I had been walking, and starting a healthy way of eating; now its time to start again. I look forward with hope that I will shed some pounds and get more physically active. <BR> I am relieved, and hopeful for my daughter's recovery from substance addiction. <BR> I want to work on myself too. I recognize that her addi... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 03:05:14 EST Life is not yours to take I've been away from home. <BR> On September 16 while i was at camp, my cell phone rang a little after 3 in the morning. It was my niece saying that my daughter had tried to hang herself... I told her that i would be home soon. My brother arrived shortly after i did with my girl, her face was brusied and swollen and she was still drunk. We took turns sitting with her and she refused to talk about what happened. We did a family intervention and she agreed to go to the hospital. She was a... Sun, 31 Oct 2010 13:45:54 EST Truth The truth is that its hard to know your child has chosen to drink. My self-talk is i didn't cause it, can't control it, can't cure it. Saw a glimpse of happiness and strength in her, and I pray that she desires that hope too. <BR> Mon, 30 Aug 2010 01:36:34 EST With God all things are possible Drove to the city to accompany my daughter to her friend's funeral. She had the support of her friends and adopted father too, so it was bearable. I'm tired but so glad that I met my girl to give her love and support. <BR> Went to the camp and instead of hurrying back home, i walked and spent time with God...and saw a beautiful sunset. A little pink cloud to remind me of my daughter too. The crew have built a great camp area and i pray that the people who sleep there will feel refreshed... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 01:10:38 EST R.I.P. Jackie My daughter texted me a message at 3 am that her 18 year old friend was found dead by a lake. She asked me to call her in the morning. I woke up with a ache in my heart and called my daughter and she could not stop crying. I called a friend to go give her some physical comfort of hugs. I will see my daughter and go to the wake with her when it is time. Her cousin committed suicide in April. She herself has been battling a drug/alcohol addiction. The drinking scene here is an ugly one. ... Sun, 22 Aug 2010 13:10:29 EST sleeping again. It is almost 1 am. I slept the evening away. Did go do laundry with my niece and her baby in the afternoon. <BR> The tipi poles have been delivered to the camp site and the tipis need to be set up for our cultural camps in September. Need to hire workers and order our foodstuff. <BR> We have Restoring the Founddations ministry teams on our community in the next 2 weeks i will be in one week of counselling! yay! <BR> It is cold and we have a forecast of snow. I did start a fire in the wood... Sun, 22 Aug 2010 02:53:51 EST Hypersomnia and insomnia. It is almost 2:30 am. I took my grandma to the hospital this afternoon because she could not breathe well, she was admitted and put on oxygen and is getting meds by nebulizer. She has emphesema. There are forest fires in BC that have blown smoke into Alberta. My sis complained that she does not like BC at all as it is flammable! She did happily show me a 1929 nickel that has the late King George with his crown. <BR> I got home in time to make a supper and share it with my son, then i w... Fri, 20 Aug 2010 04:37:55 EST Better day, chose fruit over chocolate bars! Today was a smoky day, there must be forest fires in BC. <BR> It is two weeks away from a busy season of work...then my job will be done. I need a new job! Stressful times. <BR> Eating better today, and walking has improved joint pain. Stairs are not as painful! Wed, 18 Aug 2010 23:19:52 EST Trying to get back on the track A weekend with takeout foods, and chips, pop and chocolate bars. As a result, my weight has not budged and barely any water. grrrr. Why do i do this to myself? Friday, Saturday, Sunday and today all without counting calories. Did continue walking and i have noticed an improvement. Tomorrow i will get to the grocery store and get water and fruits, and whole wheat bread. Im giong to bed now, the weekend was spent with less than 6 hours of sleep per night. The weekend was amazing though..... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 00:21:50 EST Getting rid of angries Yesterday i kept a food diary for the entire day and ate a total of 1553 calories. I was very happy with that amount. Today I've had a total of 2035 calories. I was frustrated and annoyed, spilt some of my really the calories might be only around the 2000 level! I was feeling sorry for myself and ate a bigger dinner than I had planned. <BR> I went for a walk and took some pictures of wild berries and flowers. I sat by the lake and watched a falcon dive for fish in the water. ... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 22:07:52 EST Gratitude and Fear This morning I realized that my body does not ache when I get up in the morning. I used to oversleep, be a hypersomniac. And I would be bedsore. I've so much to be grateful for. I've had an awesome summer, attended two powwows. Getting ready to go into the powwow arbor next year. I'll be part of a Grand Entry! Totally am a traditional woman and missing out in big parts of my culture. <BR> And my girl -- I'm proud that you left home to get out of the drinking scene, that took desire to... Sun, 8 Aug 2010 23:25:47 EST Saturday, Aug 7 Home from a meeting. Tired now and will have to work tomorrow. There was a death in my community, a cousin died from smoke inhalation on Thursday night. He was passed out. Hate alcohol and its hold on people. Sat, 7 Aug 2010 20:44:12 EST