CRAZYONE72289's SparkPeople Blog CRAZYONE72289's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 100lbs gone! I remember looking at the scale and seeing the highest number of 290. 10lbs away from 300! That was scary but at the time I didn't seem to care to much. It took me about a year to slowly loose about 15lbs but when I got thrown a handful of reality checks in the begining of 2012 I finially got off my big butt and got motivated. So as of today I think it's safe to say I've lost 100lbs from my highest weight, over a foot of inches off my waist and not to mention the 5 jean and shirt sizes! I fee... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 03:29:46 EST Weight loss tattoo? Has anyone ever gotten a tattoo in celebrating of your weightloss? Maybe something that signifies it? I'm thinking about getting one when I hit the 100lb lost goal but not sure what I would get. Any Ideas or shares on your weight loss tattoos? Fri, 16 Nov 2012 14:49:11 EST Time to get back on the band wagon. Everyone knows it's hard to stay on it when the holidays are so close. I told myself no sweets until thanksgiving. Well it's in a week and have I stayed away? No. I started to feel overwhelmed and constantly watching what I eat and working out. I've kept it up for so long I just needed a small but not to over the top break. I've stayed active but my eating hasn't been the best. So Starting today, after I had that small cookie lol I am getting back on it. I feel more motivated now then before ... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 11:50:13 EST Dear fellow cat owners of america. Just a random lil blog about cats. ;) <BR> <BR> <link><BR>5714536661/dear-fellow-cat-owners-of-a<BR>merica </link> Wed, 14 Nov 2012 13:42:30 EST Oh no not again! Well here I am again not wanting to work out :( Maybe it's just the lack of energy or I'm just feeling flat out lazy lol. I know that I have already come so far in my weight loss journey and taking a few lazy days wont hurt but my mind is a big nag every time I try and do that, which is probably why I've had such a success with weight loss. Sometimes it just gets to be to much. I want to take an entire day just doing nothing without feeling like I'm doing something wrong. Mind you I am not ea... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 12:42:17 EST I'm arguing with myself today. I want to work I do but I am just tired today. I did a lot of activity this weekend and yesterday I was cleaning out a hoarders room for hours. I feel like I just want to take a lazy day but my mind is yelling at me to get up and workout. I'm procrastinating because I know I lack any bit of energy. I don't think I've gained any weight or lost over the past few days but I really don't care. I've come so far and know that it's ok to take a day off or even a week. Maybe I will change my mind and... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 12:53:16 EST I won the battle but I doubt it's going to be my last. So there was a fly going crazy around the light bulb, this fly was pretty much a fly on steroids and crack and was driving me insane. I can't kill it because it's moving to damn fast and I don't want to break the light bulb so I turn off the light and start smacking random dark spots on the ceiling hoping I can kill it which I didn't because flies are sneaky bastards. I then drench it, myself and the entire room with febreze, turned off the light and smacked at air a few times before it event... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 10:31:25 EST Halloween pictures :) <img src=""> <img src="">Well I ate a cupcake, peice of rice crispy and a mini snickers but it was all so good and not a common thing for me lol. New goal, no more excessive sweets until thanksgiving. Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Thu, 1 Nov 2012 12:00:54 EST Proof it is possible. Be yourself, Be happy! I feel good this morning, one more day until the halloween party and I am so very very excited! I have made my own costume, it took a lot of time and effort but I know it's going to be different. I want to stand out and I think I will, not to mention I'm like 90lbs lighter then most people remember me lol. <BR> <BR> Last Halloween I was really bummed out because literally all my friends blew me off and I had nobody to go out with, so I stayed home and pouted and gave candy to the kids. If it... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 11:35:11 EST Stop being a Debby downer! I'll admit I was a the biggest offender in the Debby downer club. I always had something negative to say about myself and my life. I dwelled on everything I wish would be better but never did anything to change it. I kind of expected it to change on it's own. News flash no matter how many stars you wish on your just not going to wake up with the perfect body and or life. When you come to realize that it's only you who is in charge of your happiness one of the first things you have to do is ge... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 11:34:19 EST So happy it's sickening lol Well last blog I posted was about a plateau, I am happy to say I got out of that plateau, granted I've only lost about 6-8 more pounds that's a negative and not a positive! I really wanted to loose 20lbs by Halloween but I know now that it probably wont happen but I am ok with that. I will take 10lbs over no pounds any day! I am no longer obese and I am under 200lbs. I couldn't be more happier. I feel absolutely amazing. 10 months ago I would have never thought I would get here. I gave up so ... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 10:53:29 EST weight-loss plateau? I think I am at this right now. I really wanted to get down to 186 by Halloween and I'm having doubts it will happen. I've been at the same weight for about two weeks and it's really a bummer! I know I am super happy with all the progress I've made but I really don't want to be stuck in a plateau. I have been sick for almost a month so I know they has played a big part in my weightloss or lack there of. I think I need to stop focusing on the scale and just keep up the good work..... Any tips ... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 10:36:04 EST Out of the obese bmi! Wooooot!!!!!!! I haven't blogged in awhile because to sum it up I've been sick for two weeks battling a cough then cold then cough. It's been hard! Especially since I really wanted to work hard and couldn't. I did manage to get lite activity in some days and even some hard workouts, hiking and the last two days I walked 4 miles each day with tons of hills. I really want to loose another 15/20 by Halloween and make it to my 100lb lost goal. I know I may not get there but I will try my best. :) <BR> <BR> S... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 12:45:00 EST Itching to work out :( I can't workout and I hate it! I'm battling this 5 day respiratory sickness. I can't breath and I absolutely can't handle getting out of breath. I dislike it! I just want to run, or atleast try lol and go for my daily walk. I have managed to walk for about 15 minutes down the road and back but that's pretty much it. I try to stay moving at work and I pick grass for the horses but even that takes my breath away. I thought I was getting better but really only worse. My county is plagued with sm... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 11:29:08 EST Sunday Well it's sunday and what am I doing? Being sick. For some reason though well atleast for today I don't mind. I couldn't find a better excuse for my brain to cool it on the fitness obsession and just relax. Even though I'm sitting here and still deep down I'm itching to workout. Am I the only one who feels guilty for taking time off? I know I wont gain all my weight back over night but it seems to have become somewhat of an addiction to working out. Mind you in my life it's not a bad one to h... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 18:02:31 EST Am I going crazy or just burnt out? So the past few days I have been lets just say "on the outs" with the social networking world. I live in a small town and one comment or status that says to much and the entire world knows you business. I'm just tired of hearing about everyone's personal life and honestly I'm tired of sharing mine. Mind you I am careful what I post more so now days but sometimes I worry I've said to much. I actually went a far as to delete it the other day but realized that was my way of getting a hold of a f... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 11:41:38 EST My Chaotic Life So this week has been chatotic to say the least. Monday night/Tuesday morning around 1:30am I was sound asleep when my mom came into my room crying and saying something was wrong with her. She was complaining of chest pains and something weird going on with her heart. So I instantly jumped into survivor mode and called 911. We spent the rest of the night in the hospital and come to find out she was fine. Regardless it was so scary. I held my composer because I had to stay strong for my mom be... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 12:46:26 EST ok who else is this excited for Halloween? I absolotly love fall! It's my favorite time of the year. Thinking about it makes me giddy. I am even more excited for this year because I plan on going out and making it awesome. I can actually dress up and feel cute this year. Mind you I will not be one of those girls with barley anything on but a pair of wings or something and try to pass it off as a costume lol but I want to look sexy and mysterious and well scary! I have been on pinterest all morning pinning ideas. I would really like to... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 15:31:22 EST Watch me shrink! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The last picture was taken tonight. It's kind of pixlely but you get the drift. Crazy huh? Still not letting life get me down. I hit a bump and I keep on going. Sun, 19 Aug 2012 23:55:12 EST This fits right now. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am going to live by this! Wed, 15 Aug 2012 00:54:23 EST when life gets hard, remember who you are and not what others think you are. Recently someone tried to break me, he called me fat, petty, a child, unpredictable, a bitch and told me to go f*ck myself among other things. At the exact moment it hurt. It really did. To have someone you once cared about say all those things to you hurts to a magnitude I cannot explain. I've never had anyone treat me that way and it sucked. Mind you all of this was streamed only from me blocking him on facebook. I replied with nothing but kindness when all i wanted to do was bash him in re... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 23:05:46 EST The things I use to eat make me LOL now I'm actually LOLing right now thinking about all the stuff I use to eat and then claim I never gained weight no matter how much I ate. <BR> <BR> Countless cookies and it was always "Just one more wont hurt." Honestly It wont after you've already had like 10. <BR> <BR> You know the lindor truffles? I use to eat almost an entire bag of those. <BR> <BR> Butter LOTS on everything, like a tablespoon per piece of toast. <BR> <BR> Breakfast food, I think I ate a day's worth of calories in one ... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 23:47:27 EST If you try you will succeed! I’ve decided to put together a blog of tid bits from old blogs to see how far I really have come since the first entry to sparkpeople! <BR> <BR> I had many failed attempts at losing weight but I would just get back up and try again. <BR> <BR> Saturday, January 01, 2011: “I know i can loose weigh because i have done it before but i get lazy and bored of it and just quit.” <BR> <BR> Sunday, January 02, 2011: “I thought about going for a walk but i actually got distracted trying to figure ou... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 15:32:22 EST The things you'll gain when you loose. 1. Happiness-Self explanatory! The healthier you are the happier you feel. <BR> <BR> 2. Confidence-I lacked a lot of that. At my highest weight of around 289 I felt more like the size of a pea. <BR> <BR> 3. Love-I love myself more and more everyday which is my main priority, you need to learn to love yourself before you can truly find love in life. I have yet to find real love but I am ok with that. I was always looking for a relationship because I thought it would make me happy, come to ... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 14:08:49 EST It's things like this that make it all worth while. I should be cleaning but I have for about the 10th time become distracted. Back in October 2010 I went to RAW in Seattle I think I may have blogged about it once but anyways my friend had bought me a John Cena shirt, it was a men"s shirt and a big size I can't remember what but it fit tight. It was even hard to get on. So here I my room putting clothes away and I fold this shirt but have a weird urge to put it on. And BAM! It fits me like a tent compared to what it did then.... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 00:53:29 EST Only 24 pounds until I've lost 100!!!!! Today is a good day, I've started my day off with a light yogurt with blueberries, banana and strawberries. It was very yummy. I am starting to get a little hungry now and am trying to think what the heck I can snack on. I don't want to over due it with the blueberries lol and I'm babysitting for a girl who is to lucky to be a size 3 and eat whatever she wants so you can guess how her fridge and shelves are packed. <BR> <BR> Life lately? It's been good for the past week or two. I was hurt a... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 13:47:59 EST Cooking summer dishes healthy style! So I will admit I'm not much of a cook. I really don't like to but it doesn't mean I can't lol. I tell everyone I can't just to get out of cooking. But I have decided I need to get over that and start cooking and trying new things. I plan on making a few new dishes once a week. This was my first week and I made - Broccoli salad which I made with light mayo instead of regular and I used brown sugar instead of regular and less then the recipe called for. Watermellon salsa which had no added sug... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 11:02:32 EST I went MIA But I'm still kicking pounds out of my life! I am now down to 215, that's over 70 lbs from my highest weight! I am wearing a size 16 down from a size 22, and a size xl shirt from a xxxl. It's so nice not to HAVE to shop in the plus size section anymore. Recently I tried on a pair of pants in the regular section that where two big! I couldn't believe it. I am so proud of myself! <BR> <BR> I went for a few months without proper diet or excersize partly because I was influenced by somebody who didn't have a healthy life style and I had l... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 23:26:23 EST A short downfall. After my big garden fiasco I went hiking the next day and by that evening I was in major pain. It's that same mystery pain that plagued me back in January. I was immobile for 2 days and had to call in from work. I couldn't work out and I couldn't barley move so I ate when was easy and not the best for my "diet." So I gave myself a little break. Not a super bad one just trying to let my body heal. I feel like I've failed but I know that is not the case. Now it's monday and I'm on it again! I'm... Mon, 14 May 2012 12:28:23 EST Gardening a workout? I think YES! Ahhh my poor bottom :( <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did about an hour of gardening as an alternative to working out. I was worried I wasn't getting a "real" workout with it but I needed a change of scenery. I felt fine after I was done but this morning is a completely different story. My glutes hurt so bad today, even as I'm sitting here I feel like I'm sitting on two rocks lol. Ahh I guess I did get a good workout in. At least I know my butt is toned. Mon, 7 May 2012 12:40:05 EST The proof is in the pudding! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Hmmm and I thought I looked the same. LOL! Fri, 4 May 2012 15:21:53 EST Goal jeans and no more meat. So today is day one of no meat. I have cut out beef for about two weeks and went to strictly chicken and or turkey when it's available. Why you ask? Food inc. It's all I have to say if you haven't seen it watch it, it will change your entire view on food. <BR> <BR> Breakfast: 1 serving oatmeal with strawberries, raisins and almonds. <BR> <BR> Not sure what lunch will be but I have a 30$ budget to buy a few days worth of food. <BR> <BR> OH AND I WORE MY GOAL JEANS YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... Thu, 3 May 2012 11:37:11 EST YUCK! And I thought I was doing good :/ This picture is from 3 weeks ago, I know I've lost weight since then but this picture is awful! Even after loosing over 40 pounds I still look like this? Not to mention how unhappy I look here. I found this on someones facebook and about died lol. WAAA! More reason for me to keep going I guess. This picture is clearly a bad angle but I wonder is this how other people see me? I do not see this when I look in the mirror. YUCK! I'm still sick looking at this but I know I'm doing so good and If ... Wed, 2 May 2012 11:44:56 EST I'm getting a butt!! Well of coarse I've always had one but it always seemed so small because it was the smallest part of me but now that my lower back is defined you can actually see my curves! Really curves??? and not rolls lol. AHH I'm so happy I weighed in at 236 today on the non digitial scale. I'm thinking it's most accurate because I't keeps getting lower not adding or subtracted 10lbs everytime i weigh. You ever notice with digitial scales they sometimes say differn't weights when you try three times in a... Tue, 1 May 2012 11:43:25 EST attack of the honey bee. So I'm still here I swear! Just haven't had time to blog of track in a few days. Anyhow so here I am minding my own business jogging by the bees in the orchard (yes I said jogging, I can do that now!!) and i opted to run on the farthest side from the bees but somehow one managed to get caught up in my hair. So there I am having a panic attack trying to get it out. I had to take out my pony tail bend over and shake my head violently before it came out, then it stuck to my pants. SO that was fu... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 20:22:59 EST Hello Goal jeans!!!!! So before I really got into loosing weight I found a pair of jeans that I loved. Skinny jeans to be exact. I tried them on knowing they wouldn't fit because they where 3 sizes to small. I barley got past my hips and thighs and by the time i got them around my waist they were at least 6 inches away from getting button. So I try these jeans on about once a week and this week I got the buttoned! Granted they are still snug but none the less I got them buttoned! Another week or two I can wear th... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 15:42:34 EST Something you don't know. I'm 22, never had a real relationship and have never been in love. <BR> <BR> I always feel like I'm not good enough for anyone, I mean with my track record how could I be? <BR> <BR> When your overweight you lack confidence, I had zero. <BR> <BR> When I was around guys i was constantly worrying about what they thought about me. <BR> <BR> I felt invisible around groups of people who would want me that way? <BR> <BR> Now I know, I cannot love or be loved if I don't love myself. The hatred ... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 13:51:57 EST New goal, get out of the "OBESE" bmi. Right now I am at a 35.5 bmi, getting down to 29 I will still be considered overweight but no longer obese. I also thought how much I'd like to be able to shop in the average clothing size section and not the plus size. I can find cute clothes but around here I usually have to order offline or go out of town to get anything decent. I will be completely happy with an xl shirt and a 16-18 jeans. Here is another motivator so bring it one! I don't feel as if I'm trying that hard anymore, but i... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 13:26:10 EST almost 40 lbs gone and I still can't believe it. Me now and me then. I never want to get to that 2nd picture again. <img src="">Seriously where did all my weight go!? I know I have been trying really hard this year and on and off last year but I'm still in denial about all this weight loss. I've never lost weight like this before. I did not own a scale so when I went to visit a friend the other day I used hers. It was an old school one and when I say the number read 245 I didn't believe... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 14:32:21 EST Opps. So I had a set back this week. Lets just say a friend and I had a little to much to drink. I was doing so well! Then we had to many and the next day I felt so bad. I barley got anything down and drinking water was the worst! So that took away two days of me being healthy. I had fun but really was it worth all those worthless calories?? I don't know. So today is the first time I worked out in two days and I did 50 mins of cardio. Burnt like 900 calories or something like that but now I'm havin... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 13:44:23 EST Easter recovery. I had two birthday/Easter dinners to go to this last weekend. Both days I skipped desert. On Saturday I accidentally took to much salad and a few people almost had to go without lol. They where all like we are out of salad already? and here is my plate almost covered in it, I tried hiding some of it with my slice of pizza LOL! I gave some to my mom then I didn't feel so bad. I didn't skip the ranch but i did just dip the tips of my fork into it so i can get the flavor minus the fat and calori... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 16:57:11 EST Not tracking calories today :( Easter is my cheat day. I ate small portions but still had some of everything. The only thing I didn't have was cake and a awesome looking banana pudding that had real cream on top, not to mention the cake was home made. I feel like on a normal day I could have done better but for a holiday I could have done so much worse! Now I shale walk until I'm half dead and hopefully burn some of those calories off lol. Everyone kept telling me to eat more but I didn't give in the the peer pressure. Sun, 8 Apr 2012 20:30:17 EST Feel like I've been eating all day and I'm still hungry! I tracked all my food today. I felt like I've had a ton to eat and it looks as if I have too. But somehow I am still hungry. I don't know if this is a bug or something I ate or I am just plain hungry. I've had 4 meals today and I barley made it to 800calories. Today is just one of those days I know I did well but feel like I'm missing something. Maybe I need to eat more filling meals? I don't know :/ I just want to snack snack snack! Sun, 8 Apr 2012 00:56:36 EST Spray, allergies, and smoothies. I haven't logged my food in a few days because I've been babysitting and it's just hard to keep up logging when you've got 4 lil ones on your tail all day. I think I missed yesterday I can't remember about the day before. But I ate good so that is a plus. Except Thursday I was trying to be creative with the food they had there to eat and I ended up mixing a can of chicken and rice soup with some brown rice and green beans. It wasn't very good :( The little amount I gave to the kids I told the... Sat, 7 Apr 2012 16:14:02 EST Weigh in was...AWESOME! So despite what my spark people tracker says I am down from last week! 3pounds (4 after I got rid of the coffee I drank this morning lol). Now I am actually 257 what I have logged into my spark page. I had put it in as 257 (256 after coffee) because I was weighing myself on my friends scale whose was at least 10 pounds off lol. I don't have a scale at home so I have to weigh myself at friend's houses. <BR> <BR> If I think back to my highest weight I think it was around 287ish. I remember be... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 12:24:50 EST Squats are the devil! Adam let me burrow his "The essential 12 Minute Workout" dvd. I thought to myself, oh 12 minutes will be so easy.....well I was wrong. That 12 minutes kicked my ass! I was fine until the squats came at the very end. Those things are so hard! I did this 12 minute workout twice and now my legs feel like jello. I am really hoping I will be able to walk tomorrow. I have to babysit and I am constantly on the go. But It felt good afterwards because I got as tired in my 24 minute workout then I do i... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 20:49:48 EST 3.24 mile hike! I remember last year my first go around on this hike I was about dead by the time I got done. This year i was tired but felt pretty good for just hiking 3.24 miles! I am very proud of myself on how far I've come! I even got my mom to come with me. She got a lil tired but did pretty good for not being use to such activity. I took the step counter with me and guess what?? 11,248 steps! I actually made it past my 10,000 steps today and i still have more steps to take before the day is over. Just... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 19:06:47 EST Poor Worms :( I got my walk off the pounds dvd in the mail yesterday! I was excited because playing the only two youtube videos that I wanted and could find, over and over was getting a little old. Granted I can only keep the dvd 10 more days It will hold me off until I can get enough money to buy one. I love those dvds! Super easy to follow and really kick your ass. I barley made it through the 45mins and it was so much more intense then the youtube ones! <BR> <BR> I choose yesterday as my "rest" day. I... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 18:59:23 EST 2.08 miles in 40 minutes!! I did not I repeat DID NOT want to do anything today. All the staying over at other people's houses really drained me. I came home at 8:30 and slept until 12:30 this afternoon. I managed to get my bedroom clean, dishes washed and the living room straightened up a bit. I've had no energy all day and just wanted to me lazy. <BR> <BR> I debated with myself for about an hour before I decided I better get my ass up and go. I pouted and slouched the entire time I was getting my work out clothes on... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 20:46:24 EST I said no to the doughnut! Although I have had less then what I'd like of sleep last night I am awake and ready to get going! I had lemon water oatmeal (with no butter like i usually have) and a grapefruit for breakfast. I am going to let my stomach settle then work out <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Last night I went to stay over with my friend and he had a box of krispy creams which is a very rare thing to get around this town. He offered me one and I instantly refused. Although the box sat by my leg for what seemed like... 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