CRAZYMELINDA's SparkPeople Blog CRAZYMELINDA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Cleaning out my "closet" Where to begin? I have been so disappointed in myself lately. I started out strong in my quest for a healthier lifestyle, and then ever so slowly began to lose steam. Though I still continue to log on to SP every day, t have only been halfheartedly following the program. The negative self-talk began to creep in a few weeks ago, and I began to convince myself that no one would ever be able to relate to me, someone who has never had any self-esteem. Through a series of unfortunate life eve... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 08:40:36 EST Getting each day started on a positive note! There was a beautiful sunrise this morning. I usually try to watch the sun come up each day, and I'm slowly learning to appreciate the "simple things" so much more. The next step in my daily routine is to log on to Spark People and review my goal board. Seeing those goals just reaffirms where I'm heading and gives me a renewed push in the right direction for the day! Enjoy your day, Spark Friends! Wed, 9 Dec 2015 09:13:46 EST Sometimes life bites you!! I became reacquainted with SP a few months ago and was doing well with the program. But, we all know that life can deal us some hard blows from time to time, and we get through them and march on. Lately though, I've allowed life's blows to knock me down instead of strengthening me. Long story mother passed away unexpectedly in early January 2015. In early April I lost my job. I cruised on, though, and actually realized that the loss of my job and subsequent retirement were ble... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 08:16:31 EST One Step At A Time I'm sitting here thinking of how my life has changed since I started Spark People again just recently. I wasn't particularly motivated when I joined, but I knew, because of my age and, what seems like an ever-increasing list of health conditions, that it was time I make an effort to improve my health. I started logging on every day and tracking my nutrition and exercise. I loved reading the blogs and the success stories, and I realized that there were other people who were struggling, too. ... Sat, 7 Nov 2015 13:03:15 EST I'm headed in the wrong direction today! Today was just one of THOSE days. You know what I mean...the days where NOTHING seems to go right and EVERYTHING seems to go wrong. I had a long list of things I needed to do and got a late start. The car dealer didn't have a record of my appointment, even though I had scheduled it weeks ago. My hairdresser called while I was at the car dealership to say that she'd have to schedule my hair appointment for an earlier time, but I was still stuck at the car dealership. Later I went to the g... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 16:46:59 EST My old friends would not believe this if I told them! I've battled with my weight for most of my life, and probably a huge part of that is due to the fact that I just simply do not like sports and do not like to exercise....that is, until recently. On a whim, I signed up for Spark Coach. That daily check-in and motivation has really helped steer me in the right direction. I also bought a FitBit to track my activity, and throughout the day I check my progress toward my daily goals. I still am not a sports fan, but I actually look forward to w... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 10:24:29 EST Talking to myself today..... Probably all of us have grown up hearing that if a person talks to himself/herself, they're crazy...and, if they answer themselves, then they've REALLY lost it! Well....I've been talking to myself a lot lately!! Earlier this morning, I sat down in front of the TV, but then I said to myself (and, yes, it was out loud!) that I really needed to get outside and feed the animals. Shortly after that, I caught myself checking out the pantry for a quick bite, but then I told myself that a decent br... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 11:38:20 EST Confronting myself I'll admit it...I've been sort of following a healthy eating and exercise plan just halfheartedly. I have numerous reasons I should be motivated, but my mind just hasn't quite reached the appropriate point yet. Still, logging in to SP daily and participating pushes me on. A few days ago I had a sudden taste for fried chicken. Now, I KNOW that is not the healthiest food choice for someone who is already overweight and suffering with high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and diabetes. Lon... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 08:28:11 EST Daily Blessings Since I've retired I now have the time to sit out on my porch in the morning and watch the sun come up. I sometimes see quail scuttling across the road in a little line. I watch the sun slowly creep up from the east as the day comes alive. The hummingbirds fuss as they feed in preparation for heading south for the winter, and a variety of other birds are busy at the seed feeders. It truly IS a wonderful world, and I realize that there is so much beauty in every day if I just take the time... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 13:47:49 EST Trying hard to make lifestyle changes! I've made poor food choices for so many years. I'm trying hard to make some lifestyle changes now in my 60s. Some days I truly struggle, but I have found so much support on Spark People. One day at a time, one day at a time.... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 15:30:55 EST I LOVE SparkPeople!! I just received my copy of The Spark People Cookbook and browsed through it quickly ....I'll probably read it from cover to cover tonight after I'm through with work. It's absolutely fabulous! It's just one more indispensable aid that Spark People offers. I thank God for the day I found SP, because I have learned so, so much and have lost almost 50 pounds so far. I know I couldn't have done it without SP. Each day I read articles, browse recipes, take quizzes, track my nutrition and fitn... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 10:25:31 EST My backsliding has taken its toll... I have no idea why, but I just totally lost all interest in my commitment to a healthy lifestyle in the last 6 months or so (I'd like to blame my work schedule, even though I know that's just an excuse)...and now it has taken its toll. I found out Friday that I am now officially a type 2 diabetic, and that makes me very unhappy. However, maybe there's a silver lining in this cloud, because hearing those words from my doctor was a true wake-up call. I am going to fight this and do my best t... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 07:51:21 EST Springtime has why am I hiding in the house??? Spring has truly arrived. I'm delighted to see the trees budding out, the yard greening up, and the hummingbirds arriving again! So why am I hiding in the house, being so sedentary? I had to really think about that this morning. I last logged in to SP in October of 2011!! NOT GOOD!!! Today I am excuses about work, no excuses about being tired, NO EXCUSES, PERIOD!!!! There is no feeling like the feeling you have after physical activity....and there's lots to be done n... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 07:44:43 EST What a great day to recommit to a healthier lifestyle! I didn't realize it had been almost a year since I last posted a blog (and exercised at the gym, for that matter). I've also been making not-so-great food choices and my health is reflecting that. So.....I think today's a great day to recommit to my Spark People way of life! It's a beautiful day!!! Fri, 14 Oct 2011 09:24:31 EST What a difference exercise makes!!! I grew up on a farm, so physical activity was no stranger to me, but still I was not overly interested in sports or any other kind of exercise. The years went by and I found myself in my 50s,about 100 pounds overweight and really not motivated about life in general. I discovered Spark People in March of 2010 and started making some small, but significant, changes in my lifestyle. I managed to lose 30 pounds but still was not giving forth 100% effort...and physical activity was the factor s... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 12:58:33 EST Avoiding mirrors? A few weeks ago a friend asked me about a discolored spot on my face, and I had to admit I had no idea what she was talking about. I laughingly told her that I never look in a mirror, but silently I was horrified. Oh, I'll quickly apply eye makeup and lipstick in the morning, but I spend no time at all studying my face, and looking at myself in a full-length mirror was unheard of! I then happened to watch an episode of "Ruby" in which her therapist told her to use mirrors, and this hit hom... Wed, 30 Jun 2010 07:14:18 EST It feels so good to be living a healthier life! I am finally back on track again after a few weeks of not paying attention to my promise to myself to live a healthier life. I don't miss diet soda at all and I have no cravings for sweets at all (still crave the pasta, rice, and potatoes, though--working on controlling that)! I found that, after ordering fried chicken through a drive-through on one of my worst days, my body rebelled and I had an upset stomach. My body is trying to tell me what it wants! I still catch myself running to th... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 08:08:23 EST I think lack of sleep may be really contributing to my overeating... I've read countless articles about how lack of sleep can contribute to obesity, and I agree. However, I always sort of put that information in the back of my mind and never really thought about it--after all, I slept at night, right? With my job (I work online) I have to be up at 4 a.m., so my day gets started early! I eat my breakfast between 4 and 5, but I always seem to be hungry and really have to fight the urge to eat ALL DAY LONG! I'm usually already tired by midafternoon and am no... Thu, 1 Apr 2010 10:13:48 EST New inspiration I'm trying to get my life back on track. I have no idea why I let myself just give up on my goals, but spending every evening scarfing down everything I can find is no fun. That's what I need to remind myself of the next time I feel compelled to clean out the refrigerator (and the pantry). I don't feel depressed, but I just can't put my finger on it. I can stick to my plan all day, but when the evening rolls around and the sun goes down, I morph into Super-Glutton. <BR> <BR> Today is a... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 04:46:16 EST Thank you, thank you, Spark People Success Stories!! Another slow morning so far at work (I telecommute). I was just about to head for the kitchen, not due to hunger by any means, but probably fueled by boredom. I quickly logged onto SP, and headed straight for the Success Stories! BINGO! Seeing those wonderful transformations has cured my desire to hit the fridge! One more reason to give thanks for SP! HOORAY! (Think I'll go for a walk while the work is slow)!!! Mon, 22 Mar 2010 09:05:36 EST Maybe lack of sleep is part of my problem??? I will admit that I'm tired. I sit at my computer and work for at least 10 hours a day...not fun, but I need an income! I have to get up at 4 to work, but I try to get in bed by a decent's just that I don't sleep well anymore (old age, maybe?????)....whatever. Today the weather was not the best--cold and stormy, so after I finished my scheduled shift at 9 a.m. I just crawled back into bed and I slept until 3 p.m.! I feel so great now! I was just wondering if maybe my lack of s... Sat, 20 Mar 2010 17:40:29 EST Trying to get focused and back on track I wish I could figure myself out. I was doing so well with SP--I'd lost 10.5 pounds in a little over a week. I was really, really motivated, but then something clicked inside me and I started eating out of control. I still kept journaling what I ate, but even seeing those total calorie counts for the day didn't stop me. Yesterday I opened a bag of chips that my daughter brought home (usually I don't buy them, so they aren't a temptation). I ate half the bag of chips before I finally stop... Fri, 19 Mar 2010 12:45:02 EST