CRAVINGLIFE's SparkPeople Blog CRAVINGLIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My life is about to change in a huge way! My husband has worked nights for the last 9 years! He is finally moving to days next week. This is so huge for me and my family. My oldest child is 12 and my youngest child is 8. My three kids (and I) have only seen their dad on Saturday's and Sunday's most or all of their life. I'm not complaining because I know many families struggle with being a single parent or two parents working different shifts an/or more than one job. Not many families have a normal life or what I would call nor... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 16:35:36 EST Checking in! It’s been a long time since I have written a blog. I thought today was a good day to check-in! <BR> <BR> I have had a great time being back on my healthy program and have had great success! I have been up and down the scale so many times over this 6 year+ journey that my head spins just thinking about it. I’m sure I have said this before but this time feels different, very different! I have hit my maintenance weight range goal again and am really motivated to stay here. Even with all th... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 14:08:32 EST Old Pictures Bring Inspiration & Motivation Inspiration and motivation came to me yesterday when a package of old pictures was delivered to me by my husband’s Aunt. Among all the cute pictures of my kids from a few years past were also pictures of me, the obese 229 lb. me. <BR> <BR> I was always the one with the camera so I was able to avoid pictures of myself. Well, these were not taken by my camera; they were taken by other people. Needless to say, I was quite surprised to see my old self, with all the extra weight I was carryi... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 10:26:32 EST Fun Times Ahead for Me! I have maintained now for 6 weeks and am feeling really proud of that! I still exercise 5 days a week for half-hour and continue to eat right. <BR> <BR> I am currently 5 lbs below my goal weight because next Friday my husband and I are surprising our children to a 3 day trip to Lancaster, PA. I know the food is really rich so I planned ahead of time so I wouldn't have to loose much when I get back home to my regular routine. I am so looking forward to our mini vacation! The kids have n... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 06:21:50 EST Maintaining for two weeks and counting... I have maintained for two weeks so far and am feeling good that I CAN do it. I have never been able to do this until now. I wake up every day happy with where I am at in life right now. <BR> <BR> I looked at the 11 low-cal Halloween Treat slide-show that was featured today. I read through some of the comments. Please do not take offense, but some wrote that they wouldn't be able to stop at the serving size so they wouldn't eat any. That use to be me. I would say I couldn't do it eith... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 19:27:35 EST Flubbing Up! I have binged the past 3 days and it has to stop NOW! I have been exercising more to try to make up for it but I know I couldn't exercise that much to erase the amount of bad calories I have been putting in my body. I don't really know why I have been doing it but it has to stop! I do this every time I get to or close to my maintenance goal. <BR> <BR> I have been on such a high with what I have been able to accomplish but I am starting to sink to the first low I have had in a long time.... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 07:23:33 EST Celebrating A Birthday and Enjoying How Far I have Come! I am on cloud nine! As I look forward to my 42nd Birthday tomorrow, I am happy with the choices I have made to get healthy and am excited to think of the years I have added on to my life because of the few simple changes I have made to my daily living. I have been on the “get healthy” journey for the last 4 ½ years. I would be lying if I didn’t say that it has truly been a roller coaster ride as I hit the high peaks and then travel to the low valleys and then back again. I am praying as ... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 13:18:53 EST Making great strides this summer! I have made lots of changes over the summer. I have been eating right and exercising at a level that I can keep up with on a regular basis. I have been enjoying the benefits that come with being good to my body and my mental health. I've lost 26 lbs so far and looking for 10 - 15 lbs. more. I am looking forward to the Fall as I loose my last few pounds and stay active as the weather starts to change. In one month I will be celebrating another Birthday and look forward to being in good he... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 10:04:57 EST Loving Me & Loving Summer! This summer has been sooo good to me...because I have been good to me! I feel like the richest person in the world because I have been taking good care of myself. I have been eating right (most of the time), exercising (most days), and taking time doing little things that make me happy! What more could I ask for? Oh, did I mention, I lost 20 lbs. in the process too! I like bonuses like that! <BR> <BR> I can't wait to see what the second half of summer will be like! I'm excited to start... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 10:55:41 EST Happiness is... Fitting into that skirt that was just a little too tight and feeling the excitement from deep down inside! Thu, 5 Jul 2012 19:37:58 EST So Happy For Making Good Choices There have been many food temptations in front of me but I have been strong and resisted. It sure makes me feel good when I get up the next morning realizing that I was in control and made good choices. It is hard but feels good to be able to say NO to temptations and stick to it. <BR> <BR> I feel better as the pounds are sllooowwwwwllllllyyyyyyyy slipping away, my clothes are fitting better and my energy is picking up. For that, all those No's are worth it! Mon, 2 Jul 2012 07:58:31 EST Had another wake-up call! How many will I have before I WAKE-UP? <BR> <BR> Easter Sunday, I went with my family for a nice meal at a resturant. We were almost done with the meal and I realized I lost the diamond in my wedding ring. I instantly felt sick to my stomach. Thoughts were running through my head...I know it was there when I put it on in the morning, I had been to church, outside, at the resturant, etc...It could have fallen out anywhere! I looked down at my dress, I looked on the floor under my chair a... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 09:09:10 EST Race Results Well, I finished my 2nd 5K yesterday. The 30th Annual Turkey Trot at my local YMCA. I am proud that I ran the race but disappointed with the results. I only have myself and my laziness to blame but I said I was going to do it and kept my word. I have gained weight and haven’t been exercising like I should have. I was very proud of 2 of my children who participated in the Kid’s Fun Run. That is what the event is all about, to encourage all ages to get involved in fitness. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 21 Nov 2011 13:36:02 EST Gonna make it a great day! I did just alright yesterday! I got 2 rounds of exercise in but ate a whole box of Friehofers chocolate chip cookies. <BR> <BR> Today, I got up and did 2 miles with Leslie Sansome. Plan to walk at lunch and do another 2 miles tonight when I get home. I have my day's food planned out too and have all intentions of sticking to it <BR> <BR> MRSBORDONARO and I are signing up for the Turkey Trot 5K on November 20th and we are going to be ready for it. <BR> <BR> I am excited to start a new mo... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 10:54:26 EST Gone too long! Where have I been? To the other side and I am getting pretty sick of it! The pounds are creeping back, along with all the other effects of eating non-healthy foods and low levels of exercise. <BR> <BR> I need to reintroduce myself to Mr. & Mrs. Veggie and all their friends! Tue, 1 Nov 2011 12:54:34 EST Blogs are a good thing in more ways than one! I spent some time this morning writing a blog, which I decided not to post because it is more of the same old, same old. <BR> <BR> It was very enlightening to me though as I wrote the words because it made me think hard about the walk of life I have had and how I got to where I am today. A light bulb went off. It's not about weightloss, it's about living healthy and being happy from it. Duh! Does happy & healthy have a number on the scale? I thought it did, but the more I think abo... Mon, 1 Aug 2011 12:56:58 EST The difference one day makes! I struggled yesterday, even after I was determined to eat right. I did make it through the entire day eating within my limits and very proud of the accomplishment. It seems like such a baby step but at least it is in the right direction. <BR> <BR> I feel great today and actually look forward to my grilled veggies I have planned for dinner. It is amazing what the difference one day makes. I think I might be able to pull out of my slump with strength from God and the encouragement I get fr... Tue, 19 Jul 2011 12:17:55 EST Confessions of a Glutton Here I am again! Starting over! Well not quite “starting over” from the beginning but took 6 (long) weeks off and not really sure how it happened, or why, but I know I need to stop it before it goes any further. I have been hiding from my friends and family because I am very ashamed of the mad detour I have been on. <BR> <BR> All the bad habits of eating way too much junk and sneaking food, not drinking enough water, and not working as hard as I should on getting my exercise in has take... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 09:47:19 EST Bike Road Rage! A child's lesson learned! So, yesterday I made my first bicycle commute to work. It was 8 miles round trip and was pleased I didn’t have to stop and push on any hills. I was excited to see I used up nearly 400 calories in the process. WooHoo!! <BR> <BR> Our public pool was moved to an indoor facility for the summer and is closer to my neighborhood (less than 1 mile). Brave me mentioned to my children (ages 10, 8, and 6) when I found out they were moving the pool closer, that we could ride our bikes down and back.... Tue, 28 Jun 2011 07:53:41 EST How did I get out of my groove and how do I get it back? I don't know what happened to my "groove!" I was doing so good and then last week went so bad. I stopped getting up early and exercising, I was eating junk every other day. I said I was going to be good and then I wasn't! Today, all I thought about was eating but so far I have stayed on track of my goals (but not without the grace of God!) and am waiting for my veggies to grill on the BBQ for dinner. I took the kids to the park and packed my jump rope! While they played, I jumped. Ther... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 17:46:08 EST Where did that ugly binge come from? I had my first binge last night in 3 months! I am not proud of it but am willing to admit it and not hide from it! It's not that I was really all that hungry! I just wanted to eat for some strange emotional need I guess. It started out with good food and then went bad. <BR> <BR> There is a difference this time though. I don't feel guilty about it or ashamed. I knew I was doing it and plan to have a great day today because it didn't make me feel better. It didn't fill whatever emotio... Sun, 5 Jun 2011 06:42:03 EST Feeling lost today! I made it to my goal weight last Friday (140 lbs.) so I changed my exercise times, etc. to get more into a maintenance mode. Today is my first day off from exercise and I am feeling a little lost this morning not exercising. Instead I am on SparkPeople looking around, making comments on my friends pages, etc. <BR> <BR> I am still planning to do my normal lunchtime walk but this morning is off. I guess I should enjoy my lighter day - as long as it doesn't turn into an everyday habit! <B... Fri, 3 Jun 2011 06:37:01 EST May has been good to me! I met 3 major goals in May! <BR> <BR> Goal 1: I ran my first official 5k with a time of 28:08.7 on May 7th. <BR> Goal 2: I fit into my 21 year old wedding dress! My 21st Anniversary was May 19th. <BR> Goal 3: I made it to my goal weight of 140.0 lbs. today, May 27th. <BR> <BR> I don’t really know which goal I am more proud of! <BR> <BR> I never imagined I would ever enter a foot race, when I don’t even remember running 3.1 miles EVER in my life. I thought I would never fit into my ... Fri, 27 May 2011 10:44:20 EST Life is good! These last couple of months have been so good to me. Each time I have taken a "detour" on the road to health, I seem to fall back into old, bad habits. This time seems very different and I am trusting I am learning how to break the cycle. I guess time will tell. I have a great support system and real determination. I have been able to stay strong when temptations have passed by. I don't really know how to explain it but know that I have to rely on the Lord for my continued strength. It... Tue, 17 May 2011 20:02:51 EST So Hungry Lately! I don't know why but I have been feeling sooooo hungry the last few days. I eat at the top of my calorie level and everything has been balanced in the ranges. But I have been so hungry. I have been working through it, although I have been tempted to eat a little more but I'm afraid that would turn into a binge free-for-all and would hate myself. Not worth it!! I hope my body will soon realize that I am not listening and will be satisfied with what I am giving it. I hope this phase is a ... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 07:54:01 EST Ran my first 5K ever! I am so proud to be able to run the "Spark into Spring" 5K Race. That is the first time in my whole life I ever ran that far. My time was 31:35! To me that is amazing! At 40 years old, I am in the best shape of my life and could not have done it without the support I have at SparkPeople! <BR> <BR> Some good friends and I plan to run the "Allegro" 5K on May 7th and I hope to beat my time. I am hoping this is the start of a long list of races I will run. <BR> <BR> Some things I experienc... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 06:33:51 EST Challenge: Girl Scout Cookies What was I thinking? I ordered 6 boxes of Girl Scout Cookies! They were delivered today and have them in my house. I LOVE GIRL SCOUT COOKIES!!! My challenge...Don't eat the cookies! Fortunately, my husband and kids will eat them up so they probably won't be there very long. :) Wed, 9 Mar 2011 22:09:01 EST I am back and ready to work hard! It feels like forever since I have been on SparkPeople. I fell by the wayside over the last 3 weeks and have tried really hard this last week to at least track my food and get my fitness routine going again. Getting back from the holidays has been difficult. I truly over indulged over Christmas and need to get off my sugar high and put my cravings to bed. My time has been limited during the day due to catching things up at work so I haven’t had much “computer time” since we still don’t ha... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 14:43:36 EST Where did my will-power go? Right out the window! But I think I caught it again before it got too far away! <BR> <BR> I have not followed my Spark routine for 4 days and am feeling the ill effects of it. The best part is that I KNOW I have not been doing the right thing and feel the guilt from over indulging. I have gained 2 lbs. in 4 days because I have allowed myself to partake heavily on holiday treats. <BR> <BR> I am just glad that this time I have the sense to stop and get those 2 lbs. off before it becomes (... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 14:10:31 EST I can't believe I made it to my final weight goal! I am so happy that my journey of weight lose (84 lbs.) has officially ended and now I can move on to staying healthy for the rest of my life and maintaining where I am at! My journey has been long (2 years, 9 months) and had lots of ups and downs (229 lbs. to 145 lbs., then up to 175 lbs. to 155 lbs., then back up to 180 lbs. to finally rest comfortable again at 145 lbs. to stay). I am proud of each thing that happened along the way. Yes, I am even proud of the bad things because I have le... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 10:04:20 EST I don't have time for a mental struggle! I am right in the middle of a mental struggle. I have been very happy with the size I am at right now but…at 147 lbs. it drives me crazy that I am not at 145 lbs. just because it would be easier to read on my dial scales. I planned to maintain 147 and have been doing well with it the last couple of weeks but have now decided to drop 2 more pounds to round it off and “make it easier/better” some how. Now mentally, it feels like such a huge undertaking even though I know it would only take a... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 13:25:13 EST Today I'm "Bragging" (As my kids would say.) I am so proud to finally be within my maintenance range again, after 2 failed attempts by gaining 25 lbs. back the 1st time and 30 lbs. the 2nd time. It still shows that I am overweight on the BMI but I think I look and feel pretty good and don’t want to get much smaller. I wear mostly size 8 clothing (my jeans are a size 6) and am very happy and content here. <BR> <BR> I wrote before about being scared going into the maintenance phase because that is where I always seem to screw up but I ... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 14:00:38 EST Planning a super splurge day. I'm not sure how I feel about it but my husband is taking me out tomorrow for a belated birthday dinner. We only go to this restaurant once or twice a year and this time it will be without the kids so we can really enjoy the time together. <BR> <BR> Most of their food is fried or smothered in high calorie sauces with double-sized desserts. I have been thinking about what I am going to order. I use to get fried clams and prime rib, mashed potatoes, tossed salad, and chocolate peanut butter... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 12:44:10 EST Nervous...close to maintenance phase. I am within light of my goal weight (3 to 8 more lbs.). I have been there twice before and have not been successful staying there for a long period of time. That makes me very nervous because this time I want to beat this monster FOR GOOD. <BR> <BR> I love the challenge of loosing the weight but when the challenge is over I don’t know what to do from there. My challenge this time is to learn how to really maintain. I guess in my mind, I have had the mindset of loosing for so long and I... Wed, 29 Sep 2010 11:08:48 EST Praying for my mom today! My mom is having surgery today to have a pacemaker put in. She was one of the reasons why I decided I needed to loose the weight and become healthy. I want to keep my heart healthy and with extra weight it only makes it work that much harder. <BR> <BR> My mom has never been overweight but was born into a family with a lot of heart disease. Wed, 15 Sep 2010 13:25:41 EST Watching the number on the scales go down! It is so much fun watching the number on the scales go down! I am truly loving it! <BR> <BR> I am so glad to be heading back in the mid 150's. Can't wait to see it at the 150 mark in a couple more weeks. My clothes are fitting comfortably and am loving that it doesn't really make much of a difference if I suck in my belly or not. My tummy will never be beautiful because of the extra skin I gained because of my weight but It is getting flatter every day. I can't wait to tuck in a shirt... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 11:36:00 EST Is it Hard or is it Easy? I know this day in age, with all the convenience foods and hectic schedules, it is really hard work to lose weight and be healthy but why does it seem so easy? I guess because the concept is easy. The Spark way is definitely the right way for me! When your heart and mind are working together and you learn that YOU are the one in control and that you ARE worth it, it seems so easy. <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning and was pleasantly surprised to see I lost 2 more lbs. 1 more pound to m... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 08:11:34 EST I am so happy today! I am on cloud nine right now. Everything is positive in my life and I am feeling so great. We are putting on an addition to our home to double the size, so my family will soon feel the effects of great space! We even built in a workout area! It isn't big by any means but to us it will seem like it. It should only be a couple of more weeks before we can paint and move in. <BR> <BR> I have been cleaning out junk! Because of the new space I have been going through everything, organizing ... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 08:54:29 EST 2 lbs. sure brings a smile to my face! Some days it is so hard when you face temptations everywhere you go but there is no greater feeling when you step on the scale and see two pounds (or even one) gone when you know you have worked hard for it and has the satisfaction of knowing that I am in control and can make my own choices and don't need to follow what everyone else is doing. That makes it all worth it! <BR> <BR> That is my little dance for the day! Now I have to keep at it to get rid of the other 20 lbs. I want to lose b... Thu, 12 Aug 2010 09:19:51 EST Life is GOOD!! I have lost 10 lbs. since July 5th (25 days)! I still have 25 lbs. to go to get back to where I was but I am so excited and pleased to be moving in the right direction (again)! I know I learn more and more with every experience I go though and I am hoping that I have learned enough now not to go back to having to lose more than 5 lbs. at any one time!!! <BR> <BR> LIFE IS GOOD!!! Thu, 29 Jul 2010 10:49:44 EST Personal Weaknesses I just wrote this for a post on Staying Motivated and didn't want to lose sight of it so I am putting it in my blog. I don't know if anyone else could relate. <BR> <BR> My personal weaknesses are: <BR> <BR> FOOD – I love food, either healthy or unhealthy, I love to eat it! It tastes soooo good and makes me feel good! I have learned that I have to track every thing I eat and when I get to my daily limit a switch goes off. If I feel like I want to eat something more a trigger goes off in my... Thu, 29 Jul 2010 10:41:42 EST Glad I didn't put it off one more day!!! Sometimes I can be the biggest procrastinator but I am sooooooo glad I didn't wait another day to get back on track! <BR> <BR> I work in the office at a Christian School and planned to get back to it over the summer so when the new school year begins in September I would be back in shape (or closer to it). Well, I kept marking the days off the calendar and when I turned to July something clicked (again) and made me realize that if I let one more day go by, summer would be over and I would ... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 09:03:18 EST Back for good? I had to phrase my title as a question because I hope I am but I have been down this road too many times before! Now, here I am AGAIN! <BR> <BR> I have had a hard time since I lost over 80 lbs. a year and a half ago. I guess I didn't learn everything I was suppose to or thought I had. The weight has slowly crept back (35 lbs.) because of lack of self-control and motivation. How can I forget so quickly the wonderful feelings I had when I accomplished something so great? <BR> <BR> I know ... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 11:58:34 EST Spring has Sprung in NY! We anticipate a week of sunny, warm days in NY and they are getting noticeably longer. All of a sudden, I seem to have a renewed energy and am feeling excited about taking better care of myself. I couldn’t wait for lunch to come today so I could get outside and walk for my health and well-being! It was so refreshing to get up from my desk and clear my mind for a half-an-hour and energize my body in the process. I have needed this for a few months. My indoor workouts have served me well f... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 13:15:50 EST Sometimes it's the little rewards that mean the most! All the following things came to mind when I read a post today on the “Staying Motivated” message board. I thought I would put my personal motivation secrets here to share and so I will never forget how excited I felt each time God rewarded me along the journey. <BR> <BR> I wanted to lose weight to become healthy and live a longer life for me and my family. These are all little rewards God gave me along the way that made my goal even more worthwhile: <BR> <BR> Be able to… <BR> … tie my s... Fri, 22 Jan 2010 13:09:23 EST I need to find the pride in meeting my health goals! Why do I treat myself so badly and do it conscientiously? I am so good for so long and then a switch clicks in my mind and I start all those bad habits again. The worst part is, is that I know I am doing it and still don't stop. I look myself in the mirror and tell myself that I am going to stop overeating but then do it anyway because it "makes me happy/feels good" in the moment. After I do it, I think of all the healthy people I see and wonder if they have the same battles and how they ... Tue, 22 Sep 2009 13:12:03 EST Back down 13 lbs. <em>236</em> Yeah! I am celebrating today because I have lost a total of 13 lbs. that I regained from my original weight loss. Only 12 more lbs. to go to be back to my lowest weight since I began my journey to become healthy! I have learned so much and really enjoy the energy and the happiness I have "regained" in the process. That is something I never want to "lose!" :- ) Wed, 26 Aug 2009 07:58:37 EST It's all part of the learning process! I am back and feeling great! I forgot how good you can feel when you are feeding your body all the right stuff and giving it just what it needs. <BR> <BR> I did so well last year. I lost a total of 85 lbs. Went from 229 lbs. and size 18W/20 to 144 lbs. and size 8 in 7 months! I felt great and was so proud of myself! Then I slacked off the exercise during the winter and started eating sugary foods in the spring which helped me gain back 25 lbs. I felt like a failure not only to me but m... Wed, 29 Jul 2009 09:25:57 EST I had a good day! Yesterday, I ate just what I should have and I am proud of myself. I didn't give into any temptations and stuck with the plan. I told my husband that I was in the mode to lose again. He knows when I mean business, I mean business. <BR> <BR> I didn't exercise though and I feel bad about that because I know eating right and exercise goes hand in hand. <BR> <BR> One day at a time! Wed, 22 Jul 2009 07:17:47 EST Rededicating Myself I was doing so well but have slipped back into many bad habits and am undoing all that I work so hard to accomplish. I have gained back 25 lbs. that I lost! I have decided I need to rededicate myself to a healthy lifestyle and need to make some major changes to get back on track. <BR> <BR> Here are the changes I plan to make: <BR> <BR> Spend more time on SparkPeople which is a great support tool. <BR> <BR> Honestly track my food everyday to make sure I am staying within my food ranges. ... Tue, 21 Jul 2009 12:51:30 EST