CRAFTY_LOSER's SparkPeople Blog CRAFTY_LOSER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Weigh-In So I did the thing I had been dreading for a while now. I weighed myself. <BR> <BR> I'm devastated and so frustrated with myself. <BR> <BR> I am 3.4 pounds away from being back at my original weight. <BR> <BR> How could I let this happen? It is enough to really depress me. <BR> <BR> I go to the doctor's this coming Friday and she's going to be so disappointed, I know. <BR> <BR> Dreading going to there now. But I have to if I want my bc. Ugh. Sun, 23 Jun 2013 15:30:13 EST A new start So, tomorrow is my new start. Why tomorrow and not today you may ask? Cause it's 11:30 pm and I'm worn out. Haha. Kind of a little later tonight to start. <BR> <BR> I was browsing Youtube last night and ran across some weight loss videos. People had lost so much weight. And I was sitting here, feeling miserable because I've gained most of my weight back. I'm off from work for the summer...and I've been telling myself that "Oh, I'll start back up tomorrow." and "I can do that Monday."... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 23:51:44 EST WUB - week 4 Current Weight: 264 <BR> Gained or Lost: Gained <BR> How much: +4 <BR> <BR> So frustrating. I take one step forward and then two steps back. I exercised this week. Granted I skipped three days. I've not felt good all weekend. Maybe it's all water weight. I'm still disappointed in myself. <BR> <BR> This is why I hate weighing in every week. I love being part of the BLC teams but I just really hate having to weigh in once a week. Ugh. <BR> <BR> I've not much else to say about this. ... Sun, 12 May 2013 21:05:27 EST WUB - week 3 Current Weight: 260 <BR> Gained or Lost: Lost <BR> How much: -2 <BR> <BR> Oops, I was going to do this last night after I weighed in but I completely forgot! Better late than never though. <BR> <BR> I can't believe it. I've lost 2 pounds. Woo, go me! Hehe. It's amazing what 30 minutes of exercise a day can do. I've done so good with that too. 7 days in a row! I plan on keeping it up too. I want to get a streak of 30 days in a row. <BR> <BR> I usually exercise in the mornings on ... Mon, 6 May 2013 06:09:06 EST My inspiration journal So we had a challenge to make a visual inspiration. I decided to do a weight loss inspiration journal irl. I don't have any pictures of it at the moment as it's still a work in progress. <BR> <BR> If anyone has any ideas for it, let me know! Sun, 28 Apr 2013 18:45:05 EST WUB - week 2 Current Weight: 262 <BR> Gained or Lost: Gained <BR> How much: +2 <BR> <BR> So yeah, I gained a couple of pounds. I'm honestly not surprised. I didn't exercise as much as I could have and I really didn't watch what I ate. <BR> <BR> This seems to be so hard to get back into. Why can't I do it anymore? It was so easy when I started out last year and now it's just so hard. I think I've fallen back into that "I want this easy and fast" mentality again. Even though I KNOW that it's not ... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 18:41:44 EST Exercising and having a [bad] cold I'm still not 100% with this cold. It took me forever to get to sleep last night. I was perfectly fine while laying in bed, playing a game. No coughing or anything. Then when I put the game down and try to go to sleep...suddenly it's "cough up a lung" time. -.-; To top it off, I forgot my cough medicine at my fiance's. Ugh. Hopefully he remembers to bring it back to me today. <BR> <BR> So even though I'm not 100% I decided to exercise. After going, almost, all week last week without ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 05:37:30 EST FOCUS - For BLC team! F - Friends: I'm actually going over to a friend's today. I'm going to see if she wants to Zumba. Woo! <BR> <BR> O - Organize: I'm not a huge organizer but I plan on trying to organize my workouts a bit better. <BR> <BR> C - Cardio: I've usually got this down! I've missed two days at the moment because of being sick but I'm going to try and get some low impact stuff done 'til I get better. I'm hanging in there though! <BR> <BR> U - Unwind: I do this often. I tend to craft when I "... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 05:48:28 EST Surprising Difference It's been about 8 months since I exercised regularly (ie; 5 days a week for an hour) and I can tell. I pulled up a quick, 10 minute workout video on youtube that I use to do all the time. It use to be no problem to go through it quick and get my heart beat up and my breathing going. But it never HURT. Not even when I first started doing it. <BR> <BR> This time though? Oh god, my chest hurt and my legs hurt. Crazy what 8 months of sporadic exercising can do. <BR> <BR> I've gained weigh... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 15:08:22 EST Which is more accurate? SP calorie burn or a heart rate monitor? <BR> <BR> When I first started out on this journey I used SP's fitness tracker and took what they said I burned in calories as being correct. However, I just got a HRM for Christmas and I've been using it to calculate my calories burned (darn thing doesn't actually TELL me, I have to figure it out on my own...ugh). <BR> <BR> Well, this morning I decided to compare the two. SP said that 20 minutes of low impact cardio burned 230 calories. Where a... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 05:25:26 EST 17% I started out at 275 over a year ago. It's kind of crazy to think back to that time. Since then, I've lost 26 pounds (would have been more if I hadn't of slacked). That's 17% of the amount of weight I need to lose to get down to my "ideal weight". <BR> <BR> It's amazing how much weight loss looks different when you look at it differently. 26 pounds doesn't SEEM like a lot when there are those out there who have lost 100+ pounds in the time that I've been at this. But when I see that "17... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 06:20:04 EST A big thanks... I just can't describe the feeling I got when I saw how many comments I got on my last blog. It made me feel so verry blessed to be a part of this team and website. I was so ready to give up on myself last night. <BR> <BR> It's so crazy to think that at one point I never had problems with keeping up with this weight loss thing. It was as if it was super easy to lose 40 pounds. Anything after that though? Hah. Yeah right! It seems as if all my bad habits came back and they were 2 time harde... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 23:01:46 EST BLC - To stay or not to stay I haven't done crap this week when it comes to the BLC team I'm part of. <BR> <BR> I haven't even exercised. <BR> <BR> Shoot, I even forgot that I had to do anything with it. <BR> <BR> I don't even feel like weighing in because I now know that the weight I had down last week was completely wrong. I used an old scale and it was way off (even though it was on zero). So I hadn't lost any weight last week. So if I weigh in this week, it will look like I GAINED weight. Which, I probab... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 14:20:25 EST Day 5 - Unhappy I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. It's like I can't get the motivation to get back on track again. I try and I try and yet I fail every time. Either I do well with my eating or I do well with my exercising. It seems like I can't do well with BOTH. And I know some of you might say to take it one step at a time and I'd love to...but I've tried that with my exercising and I just ended up gaining weight. Same the other way around. So it obviously didn't work. I need to do both a... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 19:56:35 EST Day 1 - Stress busters! This is day 1 in so many ways. I'm part of a BLC (biggest loser challenge) team and it officially starts today. But it's also day 1 of some serious determination returning. As I hopped on the scales today, to weigh myself for the BLC, I knew it would show a gain. However, I didn't know that it'd show so MUCH of a gain. I'm up to 250 pounds. Disappointnent is the first thing that reared it's ugly head. So, what did I do then? I went and got me a nice big glass of iced tea and some chip... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 22:03:35 EST Just for Fun - One word survey! Found this on QUERIDAANA's blog, a fellow BLC Lemon teammate and decided to do it. <BR> <BR> <BR> Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> Pocket. <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> Work. <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> Dark brown. <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> Work. <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> Work. <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> Crafting. <BR> ... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 06:17:10 EST No progress It seems like my weight loss journey is going in the opposite direction. I keep gaining weight instead of losing it. Thing is, I know the problem and yet I can't get it under control. I over eat at lunch. Since I work in a school kitchen, there's always food available to me all day (and it will always be like that...because I'm going into culinary arts in college). <BR> <BR> I'm going to start packing my lunch again because I just can't handle eating the school's lunch. It seems like ... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 18:20:57 EST Time to get serious (copied from my blogger) I weighed in today. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> First time in a long time that I've done it consistently. Though I'm not sure two times in a row should be considered that. But, for someone that hadn't weighed herself since halfway through summer break, it's pretty good. <BR> <BR> <BR> The news, however, was not good. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> In the past two weeks, since my first official weigh in (re-weigh in?), I've gained 3.5 pounds. <BR> <BR> Three and a half pounds. <BR> <BR> Ugh. N... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 18:16:17 EST Letting myself down I did it again. I ALWAYS seem to do it. <BR> <BR> It's the same old story again. I do great the first few months. I lose all kinds of weight. Then I get lazy and gain some of it back. <BR> <BR> One would think that the summer, for me, would free up lots of time for me to get my exercising done and even get a little more active outside. After all, I don't work in the summers (I work at a school). But nope! It has the opposite affect on me. <BR> <BR> I got so d*mn lazy this summer it'... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 19:50:42 EST BLC 15 - Beach Bunny Challenge So I figured I'd post workout playlist for the BB challenge this week. If anyone has any suggestions for songs/artists that I could add to my list let me know! More music is always loved. Yep yep. <BR> <BR> So here we go, this is what I have so far... <BR> <BR> 12 Stones - Adrenaline <BR> 12 Stones - Eric's Song <BR> Sugar Ray - Glory <BR> Adele - Rolling in the Deep <BR> Michael Franti - Say Hey (I Love You) <BR> Skillet - Monster <BR> Ozzy Osbourne - I Don't Wanna Stop <BR> Breaking Be... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 10:43:08 EST BLC 15 - Beach Bunny Challenge So I figured I'd post workout playlist for the BB challenge this week. If anyone has any suggestions for songs/artists that I could add to my list let me know! More music is always loved. Yep yep. <BR> <BR> So here we go, this is what I have so far... <BR> <BR> 12 Stones - Adrenaline <BR> 12 Stones - Eric's Song <BR> Sugar Ray - Glory <BR> Adele - Rolling in the Deep <BR> Michael Franti - Say Hey (I Love You) <BR> Skillet - Monster <BR> Ozzy Osbourne - I Don't Wanna Stop <BR> Breaking Be... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 10:43:07 EST WUB Not really much to update about this week. I did pretty good staying on track with my exercising. Eating could still use a bit of work but I'm doing better! <BR> <BR> Had a busy week though. Yesterday was the busiest but it was the best. My grandparent's 60th wedding anniversary party. We had a great time. <BR> <BR> Like I said, not too much to really update about. Sun, 15 Jul 2012 15:04:16 EST Last week of June was a tough one I don't really know where to begin. With the things that happened that week it's kind of hard to really start anywhere. Kind of hard to not just be blunt about what happened. No way to really ease into the subject. Devastating is a good word for last week, honestly. <BR> <BR> Well, to begin with; the beginning of the week was the beginning of the bad news. My cousin's mom started posting on her facebook about not being able to find her son and that he was missing. Well, a couple of da... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 10:09:38 EST BLC #15 - MGB Here we go again. Another BLC. Lets see if I can do better this time. Last time I did great at first and then motivation went away (for everything) and I've gained some weight back. <BR> <BR> Here are my goals for the month of July! <BR> --Focus more <BR> --Get back on track <BR> --Lose at LEAST 5 pounds (more would be loved!) <BR> --Strength train at least 3 days a week. <BR> --Start jogging (treadmill or outside) <BR> --Get 8 hours of sleep each night <BR> --Get more involved in the SP ... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 18:21:49 EST Final blog for BLC 14 I can't believe it's already the last day for this challenge. It doesn't seem like it's been that long but I guess it has. <BR> <BR> I admit I haven't given this challenge my 100%. At first I was doing great but then I started slacking and I gained almost all the weight back that I had lost since joining the challenge. It was a huge let down to myself. <BR> <BR> However, I shall not let it get me down anymore! We all go through challenges like this and the best thing I can do is suck ... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 18:09:14 EST It's hard sometimes Sometimes I notice the weight I've lost and other times I don't. I think the times I don't see it are when I'm looking at my reflection. The rest of the time I can see it. The way my clothes fit, the way I feel, etc. People even have told me they can tell. And I'm always asking my mom if she can really tell if I'm losing weight and her answer is always yes. My fiance is always telling me how proud he is of me and how he can really tell I've lost weight. I believe them all...I just wish... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 17:27:28 EST Goals? We all have them... I've done this kind of blog before...but really wanted to get it out there again. I think it's a bit more than what I've done before too. I've been on this journey since January and I guess I just need a reminder, for myself, of why I'm doing this. <BR> <BR> I want to... <BR> ...look good in a bathing suit (bikini preferably!) <BR> ...feel hot in short shorts <BR> ...stop thinking of food as a celebration (no giving myself food rewards!) <BR> ...keep my thighs from rubbing <BR> ...have my ... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 23:36:22 EST Disgusted With Myself I just can't get over how much I'm letting myself down lately. I'm doing everything that I KNOW I shouldn't do and yet I'm doing absolutely nothing about it. It's like I've fallen back into my old habits and it's getting extremely frustrating. It's like I can't control myself anymore. I've gained almost 6 pounds back. SIX POUNDS! That's just so devastating to hear/see. <BR> <BR> I'm on summer vacation (work at a school) and things have started to go downhill since it started. You'd th... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 18:19:19 EST My Compliments I like getting compliments as much as the next person. I especially like it when someone notices my weight loss and comments/compliments me on it TACTFULLY. However, we've probably all gotten a few comments that just seem a bit underhanded. Whether the person complimenting you realizes it or not! <BR> <BR> This happened to me the other day. My fiance's grandma (or as he calls her "mim") gave me a compliment the other day but it made me feel bad rather than making me feel good. <BR> <B... Wed, 2 May 2012 06:52:49 EST Money Blues Sometimes I hate my job and the fact that I only make like $526 a month. <BR> <BR> I' m so glad I have parents that don't ask too much of me when it comes to me staying at their house. The only bills I have to pay are the ones I have personally. I make enough to basically scrape by each month. <BR> <BR> Car payment - $220 <BR> Car insurance - $50 <BR> Phone bill - $47 <BR> Birth control - $10 <BR> <BR> That's $327. Leaving me with around $200 to last me the rest of the month. <BR> <B... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 21:25:17 EST BLC 14 - My goals Finally getting around to doing this blog entry. I'm such a procrastinator! Haha. <BR> <BR> Anyway. What are my goals? Hmm. I really don't have anything too major planned. I like joining these kinds of teams to motivate myself, really. If I'm not involved in something, I tend to put things off or just not do them at all. <BR> <BR> So I guess one of my goals would be to stay motivated. Heh. <BR> <BR> And of course, lose weight. That's a no brainer. <BR> <BR> Make friends would be ... Sat, 28 Apr 2012 19:18:18 EST Gained almost a pound... .9 pounds. Ugh. <BR> <BR> It's my own fault, really. My eating slipped this past week. I didn't pay enough attention to it and went over on my calories several times. I've also ingested a lot of candy in the past couple of days. Darn these candy holidays! Haha. <BR> <BR> But yes! It's time to crack back down on things. No more over eating! Wed, 11 Apr 2012 07:00:44 EST "I can really tell..." "You've lost weight." <BR> <BR> I love these 7 words when strung in a sentence together. They're music to my ears. <BR> <BR> Sometimes. <BR> <BR> Other times, I wonder why it is that I can't seem to see much of a difference. I sometimes don't feel like I've lost all the weight I have. It's rather depressing at times. My clothes are fitting better and I've gone down a couple of sizes in pants (or at least shorts). My scales say I've lost weight (as does my fiance's). <BR> <BR> So th... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 16:19:35 EST Upped my cardio minutes So I decided to go from 60 minutes of cardio a day to 80 minutes a day. 40 in the mornings, 40 in the evenings (which will usually be walking unless weather says other wise). This makes me nervous because it also ups my calorie limit. <BR> <BR> I remember, when I first started on here, my calorie limited topped 1,500. I use to think that was low....but I got use to it. Then, as I raised my cardio minutes, my calories rose as well. I just recently got comfortable with my 1,800+ calorie l... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 18:38:03 EST 2nd weigh in of the challenge And first official loss of the challenge. I'm so proud of myself. <BR> <BR> I lost 1.6 pounds in the last week. <BR> <BR> I was so afraid I wasn't going to lose anything. But nope! I did. It may not have been as much as some others but I still lost. So yay on that. Can't wait for future weigh ins now. Heh. Though next week will be kind of scary. My period starts next ahhh. lol Wed, 21 Mar 2012 20:29:00 EST Remind me not to brag... About not having fallen off my bike in a long time. Granted, I wasn't really bragging, just telling my friend's daughter that I hadn't wrecked in a long time. Probably because I haven't rode the thing in a long time. -.-; <BR> <BR> Anyway! I rode my bike down to my friend's house today so we could walk to the park. Well, this, of course, meant that I had to ride it back home. Well, I was on the sidewalk (gasp!) because I'd rather not ride my bike in a busy highway and there were people ... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 21:56:28 EST Day 1 of BLC challenge So I joined the spring Biggest Loser challenge. It took a lot of courage for me to do this. I'm going to have to weigh myself every week now, instead of every other week. Which is really what made me so nervous about this challenge. I'm not really worried about being the one that looses the most weight. If it happens, it happens. If not, oh well. No big deal. <BR> <BR> I just hope that weighing myself doesn't discourage me. So nervous about this! Here's to hoping I do good! Wed, 14 Mar 2012 10:31:37 EST I told... My weight to my fiance. In the 2+ years we've been together I've never told him this. It just never came up. He never asked and I never offered. However, now that I've start losing weight, the subject of my weight comes up so much more often. <BR> <BR> Well, the other day we were talking about how much I had lost and he asked the dreaded question; "What do you weigh?" It was an innocent enough question and I don't blame him for asking. It scared me though. What woman (especially an o... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 19:21:40 EST Rubs me the wrong way... This is something very rare that happens to me on here... <BR> <BR> But have you ever just ran into one person on HERE that just rubs you the wrong way. They think they're so much superior to you and want to contradict everything you say or others say? I'll not name names, but I've seen one person, a lot, that just rubs me the wrong way with how she talks to others. <BR> <BR> I suppose there's one person, for everyone, like that everywhere. Ugh. Sat, 10 Mar 2012 10:12:40 EST "Food bars" are my downfall! So, went to Jungle Jim's today as a little "field trip" for work. It was fun! We got to have samples (oh my!) and learned about the store. After the tour we got to walk around and buy whatever we wanted (it IS a grocery store after all). <BR> <BR> was time to eat. <BR> <BR> Uh-oh. <BR> <BR> Social situations suck for me and eating. I always overeat when around others. It's a downfall and it's one I'm trying to work on fixing. Today, just wasn't that day to fix it though. I... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 19:24:29 EST I have this urge to binge I'm in such a crappy mood right now and it's affecting my cravings. This isn't me! I've never thought of myself as an emotional eater. Never. I can't recall ever having problems with it (I was just lazy and didn't get exercise...and ate the wrong things). However, this evening my mood is just bitchy and crabby. I'm snapping at everyone and I just really feel like consuming everything in site. <BR> <BR> I'm already going to be going over my calorie limits today. Granted only a few hund... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 16:52:37 EST I take anything Dr. Oz says... With a grain of salt. I think he just has a lot of hype and endorses a lot of things that are just meant to get people's attention and money. Because you KNOW he's probably not endorsing these items for free. <BR> <BR> I don't know. I just always hear about how someone heard about this "miracle pill" from Dr. Oz and I'm like "really? There's not such THING as a miracle pill..." <BR> <BR> I don't trust very many people who have TV shows. Just not worth spending all that money on stuff h... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 18:57:36 EST Rewards... I think I just figured out what my first reward will be... <BR> <BR> Running shoes! <BR> <BR> I just need to figure out when to give them to myself and if I could afford them. Hmm. I'll have to do some research and see what's out there (cheapest and best brand). Also, time to think of when I'd give them to myself. I'd want it to be far enough along in my journey where I know I'd stick to running. So yes, that means that I shall be starting a routine for this soon. Mon, 5 Mar 2012 16:21:50 EST Just realized something... Since January...I have not gained. <BR> <BR> This has never happened before! Usually I have already seen a gain on the scales and it's discouraged me. Surprisingly, though, not this time. Maybe I'm actually doing something right this time! Go me! Heh. <BR> <BR> Maybe weighing myself every 2 weeks, instead of every week, is also helping me not see these water gains and such? Who knows. I like all these results I'm seeing. I'm happy with my life right now and I'm on my way to a heal... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 09:53:30 EST I did it! I accomplished the first mini goal (and then some) on my goal list on my profile page. "Lose 5 pounds by March 3rd". I was worried I wouldn't do it. A couple of weeks ago, when I weighed myself, I had only lost 1 pound. So I was really worried about this last 2 weeks. I exceeded my expectations though! I lost 7 pounds this time around. Woohoo!! So proud of myself!! <BR> <BR> So how much have I lost so far? TWENTY POUNDS! Oh. My. Goooooosh! I'm so happy. I can't really describe t... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 13:03:27 EST Happy birthday to meee! I turned 26 today. Hard to believe it. It seems like I was just 18 and graduating high school. Gosh. I got an email from SP wishing me a happy birthday (which I'm sure you all do). I loved what it said so I'm going to share it...It was inspiring to me... <BR> <BR> "Don't just count your years make your years count. <BR> <BR> What matters most in life is often viewed as peripheral to the things that we usually focus on. Passion takes a backseat to production wellness to wroking and bal... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 11:52:46 EST I've lost inches! So, did my measuring a day early but oh well! I was anxious to see if I had some results and well...I did! <BR> <BR> I have lost inches on each area.... <BR> waist - 3.5 <BR> hips - 1.5 <BR> thigh - .75 <BR> upper arm - .5 <BR> <BR> I'm also gaining muscle on my thighs and upper arms. So that's probably why they haven't gone down too much. I'm so happy about these changes! Woo! Mon, 27 Feb 2012 19:37:35 EST Just don't feel like it... I'm sure we've all ran into this problem. We're doing completely fine with our new lifestyle; exercising, eating right, etc. Then we hit a bump. Whether it's physical, metal or a little of both, it can sometimes be hard to make it over that bump. <BR> <BR> Stress is a big deal and it can derail even the most hardcore person. It takes a lot of strength to push your problems aside and still take care of yourself. <BR> <BR> I know, I had to do it today. I really didn't feel like doing my ... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 20:17:47 EST I'll take that 1 pound loss, thank you very much <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ewww! Sun, 19 Feb 2012 16:11:40 EST Loved this article I happened to randomly find this article this morning... <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ica-fat-society-328993.html </link> <BR> <BR> I really liked the last paragraph of it. <BR> <BR> "There's this attitude out there now that is "pro-fat" and we have got to stop believing that the majority of us can't do anything about our situations. Is America a "fat" society? Um, look around. That answers that question. Can you be beautiful and large at the same time? As an ... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 06:37:00 EST