COOKIE_AT_51's SparkPeople Blog COOKIE_AT_51's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sending Birthday wishes to heaven ... <img src=""> <BR> Today would have been my mom's 90th birthday. She past away on January 2nd, I can't believe that is has been 8 months already. Today has been a tough day ... miss her so <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> Happy Birthday sweet mother of mine. <BR> <BR> Love you lots ~ Cookie Mon, 3 Aug 2015 19:55:19 EST She's a Maniac, Maniac ... :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> HOT MOCHA MANIAC PLEDGE <BR> <BR> I am a powerful Hot Mocha Maniac. <BR> I can weather the storms. <BR> I am fierce; I am fabulous; I am determined. <BR> My tenacity comes in many forms. <BR> <BR> I COMMIT to my team members and myself, <BR> To embrace accountability and strengths, <BR> And vow to pursue clean eating and health, <BR> And to obtain new heights and great lengths. <B... Wed, 13 May 2015 07:33:20 EST One Week Back at Last Friday I kind of laid it all out there with my blog "new beginnings" ... I really needed to write that out and face my feelings. <BR> <BR> That whole day was kind of a release for me ... talked and cried a lot. Something I had not really done, I grieved. I feel a whole lot better, "lightened" a bit both mentally and physically. I have lost some weight and I have signed myself up for the Spring 5% Challenge. <BR> <BR> I am looking forward to this challenge and getting myself going on t... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 08:43:35 EST New Beginnings … Dear Spark Friends, <BR> <BR> I find it fitting to “begin” again on this first day of spring 2015. The past 15 months have been very, very hard for me. Starting January 1st of 2014 I lost my sweet Aunt (who kind of took my dad’s place) when he died. “Dotti” was my dad’s sister and when we lost him unexpectedly back in 1990, she was my go to advisor. A brilliant math scientist who always had sage advice. She had no other family other than myself, my brother, and some nieces from her husband’s... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 08:02:57 EST Day 8 of 77: BL Indigo SC ~ Week one results Yesterday was WI for week one ... I lost .7 pounds. Was I surprised? No, as I didn't really work as hard as I should have. BUT ... I did make some good and positive choices in the right direction. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> The <em>67</em> was out finally yesterday and I got in over 10,000 steps! My goal is 8K so I felt good about that. <BR> <BR> One day at a time, one choice at a time! <BR> <BR> Hugs, Cookie Fri, 21 Mar 2014 08:07:43 EST Day 7 of 77: BL Indigo SC - Thinking maybe I should build an Arc? Okay I know that the rain is good for spring growth but let's move on :) <BR> <BR> Here's to <em>67</em> and <em>87</em> as tomorrow is supposed to be a nicer day. It is also our first WI. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I have been slow getting myself into this challenge and kind of took this first week step by step. Mainly incorporated walking for my fitness and I missed my 8K step goal a couple times. :( <BR> <BR> Next week will be a better week as I feel like I am better prepared. <... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 19:23:10 EST Day 5 & 6 of 77: BL Indigo SC - Rain, rain, go away! I have never had issues with depression (yet) but yesterday was down right depressing! It rained/sleeted all day ... I am SO thankful that it never snowed which may cause another snow day, so I guess that was the <em>437</em> . <BR> <BR> I am feeling better about what the challenge is all about. I need to be "organized" and plan what my "attack" will be so this week started kind of slow but since I have a better understanding of the challenge and what it entails, there shouldn't be any mo... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 10:16:52 EST Day 4 of 77: BL Indigo SC - Whether the weather ... Today we are headed back into the <em>27</em> and <em>425</em> YUCK! It was almost 80 on Saturday and it may snow tomorrow. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> The weather sure has had it's effect on so many people this year. When the barometer drops I can tell, today was a day of staying indoors and I really didn't do much of anything. <BR> <BR> I am trying to take some measures to keep me from any mindless munching in the evenings, especially while watching tv. <BR> <img src="http://photos... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 19:49:03 EST Day 3 of 77: BL Indigo SC - I LOVE Sparkfriends! Good Morning World ... <BR> <BR> Day 3 here and it looks to be a beautiful day. I just wanted to express how much I <em>26</em> and appreciate ALL my <em>223</em> 's. <BR> <BR> It is so nice to be able to be "real" about how things are going ... nobody cuts you down or shames you when you stumble. They just help you up and dust you off. Sparkfriends know when you need a little nudge or some encouragement. Sparkfriends Rock <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> I get so much inspiration from a... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 08:06:26 EST Day 2 of 77: BL Indigo Spring Challenge My first day <em>249</em> of our challenge went well. I got in over 9000 steps (my goal is 8000) <em>311</em> <BR> <BR> Tracked all my food <em>248</em> ... this is something I hadn't done in ages and I know is part of the success I had initially. <BR> <BR> I stayed within my calorie range. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Drank my water <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Now I need to start planning my additional exercise. <BR> <BR> One day at a time, right? <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> <... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 08:17:58 EST Day 1: BL Indigo Spring Challenge It feels so good to be "back" as I reread my previous blog about my aunt's death I realized how much losing her affected me. I am happy to have this challenge to get me focused back on the healthy journey I had started back a year before that. <BR> <BR> To really get a good benchmark I had a physical and bloodwork done and everything looks great ... so here we go <em>185</em> <BR> <BR> Here's to a "fresh" start! <img src=""> <BR> <... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 06:28:27 EST Not a great way to start the new year ... My sweet aunt passed away today. She was my father's only sister and my father has been gone for 23 years already. <BR> <BR> She was a strong, kind, and extremely wise woman and I will miss her dearly. <BR> <BR> Today is the first day of my "gratitude" journal and I struggled to even want to write something in it but I will dedicate the journal and this year to her. I loved her so much. I am grateful that she was in my life. <BR> <BR> Cookie <BR> <BR> Wed, 1 Jan 2014 22:27:25 EST I Survived ... my first real "race" ever! The Christmas Town Dash <em>363</em> ( an 8K ) <link> </link> was actually set for last weekend but due to snow and just plain yucky weather they postponed it until this morning. <BR> <BR> The good news about the postponement was that my DS20 was home from college and they opened the registration back up because a lot of people couldn't make it back and he was able to join me. He was so sweet to go with me as I can "jog" about a 15 m... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 13:49:37 EST The "F" Word ... This weekend I will participate in my first real "race" and in the past three weeks "Fear" has crept in along with doubt. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I decided back in early September that I needed a new goal ... a new challenge to jump start my weight loss and push me further. I decided I would sign up for a local race and I started looking into what was out there. I figured that I would give myself 3 months to complete the C25K ... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 08:34:36 EST Goals for BLC23 Goals for BLC23: <BR> <BR> 1. Lose at least 15 pounds <em>192</em> (which is a little over 5%) shooting for 20 pounds. <BR> I will obtain this goal by consistently reaching goals 2, 3, and 4 below. <BR> <BR> 2. Track all food <em>17</em> and beverages 5/7 days and stay in my calorie range set by spark people <em>252</em> I will obtain this goal by using the spark tracking on the computer or on my smart phone. <BR> <BR> 3. Drink at least 64 ounces of water a day. <em>91</em> <BR... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 06:48:54 EST 5 Years from today ... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 5 Years from today I will be celebrating my 58th Birthday! Yes, it's my birthday today ... today I am 53. I don't "feel" 53, not sure what 53 is supposed to feel like and I am really having a hard time grasping what 58 will bring but this is what I think... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My BLC22 assignment is to envision myself in 5 years and blog about w... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 08:26:33 EST BLC22 Imagine ... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One of our Weekend Challenges is to "imagine yourself" reaching the goals that we set for this round of BLC22 and blog about reaching one of them. <BR> <BR> My BLC22 goals are: <BR> - to lose 22 pounds <BR> - drink 10 cups of water/day (80 ounces) <BR> - exercise a minimum of 20 minutes/day 5 days/week <BR> - track all my nutrition in the Spark tracker <BR> - make one recipe per week from the Spark Solution Cookb... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 09:50:03 EST Restart ... Refocus ... here we go! For the past month I have been just coasting along. Kind of eating right, kind of exercising, kind of thinking of my health. <BR> <BR> I need to stop doing things: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Maybe I needed a break? Maybe I am weak? Maybe I am lazy? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I could give you lots of "excuses" and "reasons" ... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Mon, 20 May 2013 08:23:13 EST Happy Mother's Day to ALL you Moms out there! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I hope you ALL have a beautiful day <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> Spark on ~ Cookie Sun, 12 May 2013 08:16:39 EST One year with Spark! Today I am celebrating my <em>503</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is also my "weigh in" day and I lost 3.5 pounds this week. In total I have lost 38.5 since I started "sparking"!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I didn't start sparking a year ago though, I tried ... had a little success and then I ran into some health issues and lost my "spark" <BR> <BR> For me it has always been about the mindset ... getting to that place ... Wed, 1 May 2013 17:19:10 EST A trip to the dark side ... When I first started on Sparkpeople I was trying to find an "image" that I felt would best represent me and where I was with my health for my profile picture. <BR> <BR> For a long time I chose: <img src=""> <BR> <BR> An image that was truly me ... someone who always battled with the input of the little devil and angel on my shoulder. I was able to block out the "devil" (negative) and even changed my profile picture to one of strength, o... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 09:14:52 EST Results from BLC21: Final Weigh In Today was our final WI for the BLC21. We took our final measurements and overall I lost 12 inches. <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> The challenge didn't officially start until the 16th of January but after I saw this picture taken at a Christmas brunch ... I had to do something! <em>40</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This picture was truly eye opening and my friend had posted it on my Facebook page. I about cried when I saw it. I knew I had ... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 08:53:07 EST BLC21 Week 11 Update: One week to go ... Today at my weigh in I stayed the same, I am okay with this as I have had two good weeks in a row (losing 7 in two weeks) so I feel my body is taking a "rest" and "readjustment". <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One week left to our BLC21 challenge, going to go for 2 more pounds! <BR> <BR> I can do it thanks to all my <em>223</em> 's <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Spark on my friends... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 07:22:35 EST BLC Week 10 Weekend Challenge Blog ... Goals I realized today that I was one week behind on what I was posting ... in number only (my last blog should have been titled Week 9 ) not in results. <BR> <BR> One of our weekend challenges is to post a blog looking back at the past nine weeks regarding the goals we had set and if we think we will manage to obtain that goal. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am so happy to say that I have achieved that goal, which was to lose 10% of my weigh... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 09:22:53 EST BLC21 Week 8 Update: Goal Met!! Today is "Weigh in Wednesday" and for me it was - <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I lost 5 pounds this week!! I even called my DH to make sure that he didn't adjust the scale and he said he didn't ... so <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Last week I recommitted to my "Change Streak" only to hurt my back (lower left lumbar) later that day. <em>24</em> I have still been tracking and drinking water and I have tried to make sure I walk for at least 10... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 08:08:07 EST BLC21 Week 7 Update: Groundhog day ... ? I thought about the movie "Groundhog Day" when I was going to post this because I feel like I could have posted the same blog from last week, with the exception of the fact that I lost 2 pounds instead of 1. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> My streak that I posted that I was going to start never happened, that is because I need to <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and put myself <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 13 Mar 2013 07:59:13 EST BLC21 Weeks 5 & 6 Updates ... Today is: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> the day that we weigh in for BLC21 and post our weekly results. This week I lost 1 pound <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and last week I lost 5 pounds <em>104</em> for a total weight loss of 24.5 since January 2, 2013. <BR> <BR> I am really excited to see that I am going to be able to meet my next goal of 29 pound... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 08:49:06 EST Fun Photo Weekend Blog 1 :) This is my girl Dee O Gee ... she is a Australian Cattle Dog or Blue Heeler as some would call her. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This picture makes her eyes look possessed! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> She is my constant companion ... and a great walking partner <em>313</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Spark on ~ Cookie :) <BR> <BR> Fri, 1 Mar 2013 20:35:15 EST Too Blessed to be stressed ... This has become my mantra this week ... mind you it has taken a week for it to set in. <BR> <BR> This is more like me since Sunday: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I could list all my "stressers" of the week but why dwell on them ... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Unfortunately I let the stressers get the best of me this week and messed up my "Change Streak" by not getting my daily... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 09:48:47 EST I am caring ... Tonight I asked my DS15 what he would say if asked what is a positive thing about his mom, and he said that I am"caring" (bless his heart he is home sick right now). <BR> <BR> I care about many things, I care to make a difference ... no matter how small. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I do care what people think of me ... mostly in terms of my contribution, not so much on how I look. I stopped worrying about that back in high school... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 20:09:38 EST I am a good cook ... Okay day 3 of our BLC weekend positive things about me ... I am a good cook! I actually got the nick name "Cookie" from a college roommate because I liked to cook and I guess everyone likes to eat what I cooked. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I used my love of cooking to help sell Pampered Chef tools for over 9 years, it was an easy fit and easy sell for me. The only thing that I don't like about cooking is doing the dishes. <em>30<... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 20:08:28 EST I am positive ... Day two of sharing thoughts about myself and I was thinking of what positive thing I wanted to share and "wham" it hit me <em>224</em> ... I am a very positive person! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had one boss who said I was "Idealistic"... at first I was somewhat put off by his comment but then I actually looked up the definition ... some synonyms are visionary and dreamer, so I decided, that was fine and I would embrace his ... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 08:51:50 EST I am determined ... Part of our BLC21 this week is for us to each day blog about one positive thought about ourselves. <BR> <BR> I am determined ... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I set my mind to something I go after it, it can be anything. I guess you could almost say I am driven at times. <BR> <BR> Spark on! <BR> <BR> Cookie Fri, 15 Feb 2013 20:15:53 EST Happy Valentine's Day all you Sparkers! I forgot to post my weekly update yesterday so today I get to send you all a virtual box (or 5) of chocolates! <BR> <BR> <em>255</em> <em>255</em> <em>255</em> <em>255</em> <em>255</em> <BR> <BR> I achieved my minus 14 pounds by the 14th last week and have adjusted my goals to add two more: <BR> <BR> Going to walk <em>311</em> at least ten minutes a day (Joined BLESSED2BEME's Challenge) which will be part of my 20 minutes of exercise, at least 5 days a week (BLC21 Stre... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 08:08:18 EST Day 36 of The Change Streak ... 1st Mini Goal Achieved!! When I decided to embark on this change streak I thought I better set up some goals. In the BLC21 we were asked what we would like as our total pounds lost over the whole challenge. I used 10% which is 28.85 <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Then on another fellow sparkers page (NEWTINK) <em>224</em> I noticed that she had a neat goal of -14 by the 14th of February, so I copied it! <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> Today I hit that mini goal and then some with a total loss of -17!! <em>244</em> <B... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 07:57:17 EST Day 30 of Change Streak ... Week two of BLC21 done! I had another great week, down 3.5 more ... kept my streak in tack, got really close a couple times on the exercise part of my streak but I managed to "get 'er done" <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think that this will have to be my plan so that the day doesn't get away from me and I find myself trying to do exercise at 10:30 at night! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I am also going to make my "inspiration" board ... so... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 09:22:29 EST The Brutal Reality ... I joined SP back on May 1, 2012. I "started" forward on a healthy lifestyle ... I joined a couple teams, lost a little weight, then some life issues got in the way and I lost focus. I deleted the teams I was on, including the "SP Class of ..." that everyone is defaulted on when they join SP. <BR> <BR> I never "left" SP ... for some reason (must be an inner gambling addiction <em>246</em> ) I really liked to spin the spark wheel. So pretty much daily I would log in and spin the wheel. <e... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 09:01:57 EST Dear Future Me on April 10, 2013: Today is the final day of your BLC21 and you have been working on your "Change Streak" for 14 weeks. Two of those weeks were prior to the BLC start date. <BR> <BR> You should be 24 pounds lighter when you step on the scale today, but more importantly you have established a healthy lifestyle change which incorporates daily exercise, eating healthy foods and tracking what you eat. <BR> <BR> By bringing about this lifestyle change you have laid the groundwork to obtain your ultimate goal of g... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 19:36:41 EST Day 22 of Change Streak ... One week of BLC21 completed! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today was weigh in day after the first week of BLC21. I am happy to say that for the first week of the challenge I have been able to complete all the mini-challenges and have lost 3 pounds! <BR> <BR> Since I started the streak, it is a total of 10 pounds <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> By starting my streak, I made a commitment to myself and let's face it ... if I can't be true to myself, who's going to be? <BR> <B... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 07:59:51 EST Day 15 of Change Streak ... first day of BLC21! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> On January 2nd, I set a goal to establish a change streak, that streak included 3 things: <BR> <BR> 1. Track everything I eat or drink. <BR> 2. Exercise at LEAST 10 minutes a day. <BR> 3. Make healthy food choices. <BR> <BR> I just returned from my exercise for the day, a 25 minute walk. My walks started at 10 minutes and I have slowly increased the time. In fact I am walking farther because I am walking faster!... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 18:17:11 EST Day 7 of Change Streak! I had one of those "aha" moments last night as I watched the "Biggest Loser". The doctor was talking to the individual contestants about their poor health and he said to Nathan ... if you had cancer wouldn't you spend 2 hours a day getting chemotherapy? <BR> <BR> His comment really hit home. Obesity is a disease and we have the tools to cure it! The tools are within me and I need to take the TIME to use them. Time has been an excuse I have used all my life. I want to live a long time ... s... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 08:47:24 EST Day Three and Four of the "Change Streak" completed <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am motivated to change, hence the "Change Streak." Motivation triggered by a holiday picture a friend took of me and also my aching feet. You would think that stepping on the scale and seeing 288 pounds would have been motivation enough. How does 288 pounds happen? I think I just became numb to it all but the thought of reaching 300 pounds was also a motivator. <BR> There are so many things I want to change that ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 07:58:20 EST Day Two down ... :) Yesterday was day 2 of my "Change Streak" ... everything logged, exercise done, inspirational items read. I actually slept really well last night, needed the alarm to wake me. <BR> <em>128</em> <BR> <BR> I am trying to get organized in what I have to post, log, track ... I am feeling a tad overwhelmed but I think as the days go by I will get better. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yes ... I am a dreamer, dreaming of a changed me! <... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 10:02:14 EST Great to Start I officially joined Sparkpeople last year on May 1st. I made some changes, lost a little weight, ran into some health issues and then basically gave up and gained back the little that I lost and then some. I attended a holiday brunch where a friend took a picture of me and another girl. Oh yes, a picture is worth a thousand words ... <BR> <em>388</em> it was "eye opening" to say the least, I will post it later. It will be a great "before" picture! <BR> <BR> That is the past ... <BR> <BR... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 07:00:20 EST A bit of wit to share with you today :) <img src=""> Wed, 12 Sep 2012 10:16:15 EST Monday, Monday ... I am heading off to the YMCA today to start my Activtrax program. Last Wednesday I went in and did the strength test to see where I should start with using weights and stuff. Going to start going on Monday - Wednesday - Friday after I drop my son off at school. Baby steps in the right direction! <BR> <BR> <em>314</em> <em>23</em> <em>330</em> <em>314</em> Mon, 10 Sep 2012 06:30:54 EST The good news is ... that the test result I was most worried about (endometrial cancer) came back benign! Now that that is out of the way ... still have to figure out what is going on. <BR> <BR> Anyway not to bore you with details other than now I feel I can move on. For the last month I felt like I have been on a holding pattern ... waiting ... wondering. During that time I went through lots of different scenarios such as, if it is cancer then ... but I kept coming back to the same conclusion. I wouldn't do a... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 06:59:48 EST Two Years to go ... Today is my birthday, turning 52 today. I have set my goal to lose 130 pounds by July 1st, of 2014. So far I have lost 5.5 of that so 124.5 to go! <BR> <BR> I am thankful for the progress I have made especially the mental changes, still need to make greater strides. I am having some health issues checked out this week at the doctors. I am hoping that I am given a green light to go full steam ahead to my goal. <BR> <BR> I will post back when I get some results ... could be nothing, could be... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 15:11:11 EST One day at a time! I am coming up on 2 months with Spark People, when I look back over the past two months I am going to celebrate what I have learned so far: <BR> <BR> 1. This is definitely a one day at a time thing for me. Everyday there is a new challenge, whether it has to do with food, personal, family, or whatever life throws at us. I need to keep my vision at this level for now, one day at a time. <BR> <BR> 2. The past is the past. All of my life I have had weight issues so I have had success losing ... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 06:47:43 EST Must be working ... I have to share a small victory that I had yesterday. I have a lot of yard work to do and so I had some coffee and toast with peanut butter about 7:00 am and headed out to work in the yard (had 10 yards of mulch to move). <BR> <BR> I worked all day ... making sure I drank lots of water. I wasn't really hungry so I didn't stop for lunch. About 6:30 pm I decided that I needed to stop for the day. Needless to say I was hungry, dirty, and tired. I took a shower and thought about what to have ... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 09:03:56 EST