CONNIEDETHOMAS's SparkPeople Blog CONNIEDETHOMAS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 3 is behind me...Monday Nov 15 I had a busy day for me at least. <BR> A project that I have been putting off forever is <BR> half finished. Its a closet that used to be a <BR> stair well. We finally finished emptying it and <BR> has been mopped. A fan is now running in it <BR> to dry everything. Bob picked up this old metal <BR> cupboard that he needs to wash up and we will <BR> be adding it to the closet for his tools. He is in <BR> bed at the moment while supper is cooking. <BR> He didn't get much sleeps at work l... Tue, 15 Nov 2016 17:08:09 EST Monday Nov 14 Day 2 behind me It's late afternoon and I am HUNGRY!! <BR> Trying to figure out what to eat. <BR> The weight is still dropping off fast... <BR> 14 1/2 since last Thursday. Probably all <BR> water...I don't care. I am enjoying this while <BR> its happening. It won't last. I eating around <BR> 1000 calories a day. The doctor wants me <BR> under 1500. I know the amount will increase <BR> to the 1500. I have the strength right now to <BR> do the lower and that is what I am doing, <BR> Getting on the sca... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 16:19:11 EST Day 1 is behind me Well it blog I was writing has just disapearred again. <BR> Second day of that happening. I am now typing on a <BR> post it note and will copy and past it to the blog. <BR> <BR> The weight is just falling off. I lost 11 pounds since <BR> Thursday doctors appointment. Today is Sunday. <BR> I know that will become much harder as the weeks <BR> go by. For now I am very happy with the nice start. <BR> <BR> Bob just stopped in for breakfast. He just finished a <BR> 24 and is headed back out... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 10:39:22 EST Sept 11....less pain today. I don't feel so weighted down with pain today. <BR> Church was good...I enjoyed it. My knee hurt <BR> for most of it. Near the end the pain left. I <BR> just sat in my pew for the longest time. I don't <BR> have many times when I am completely pain free. <BR> That was one of them and I was going to enjoy <BR> if for a while. <BR> <BR> Bob left today for his 24 hour shift. I don't <BR> have to think about lunch since we had some <BR> at church. They heated up some hotdogs from <BR> t... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 12:20:47 EST Another painful day... I woke up sore and I am going to bed sore. <BR> I can't wait for the doctor to up my pain meds. <BR> I helped for a short time at the hotdog sale <BR> at church. I lasted 1 1/2 hours and came home. <BR> My knee was throbing. I ended u going to bed <BR> to get away from the pain. Other that a pain <BR> filled day...nothing else happened. I'm just trying <BR> to get thru them. My upper body was sore today. <BR> While I laid in a very hot tub....I had the two kittens <BR> walking all over ... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 20:09:11 EST Waking up with pain..... As I sit here this morning ...I'm in pain. <BR> That is not the way to start the day. <BR> I had to take my RX meds for pain in the <BR> middle of the night. I like to save those to <BR> take during the day. I washed windows <BR> at the chruch yesterday...only 4. My upper <BR> body is screaming at me. How rude!! <BR> I took my over the counter meds a little <BR> while ago. I'm waiting for them to start <BR> working. <BR> <BR> I had my yearly review last night. I have been <BR> drea... Fri, 9 Sep 2016 09:41:37 EST Bad night last night ....Beautiful day today Terrible night last night...I wont go into it. <BR> I canceled my weekend with my sisters. <BR> I dont like being treated with a contending <BR> attitude. enough said. <BR> <BR> What a beautiful day outside. My perfect <BR> weather. Sunny with big beautiful clouds 75 degrees. <BR> I dug up my cane that I used when my other leg <BR> was bad. It will help with distance walking. <BR> Bob wants me to quit working at the church. <BR> He sees me struggling and crying in pain. I'm <BR> not ... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 17:25:00 EST glad today is over. What a difficult day today was. <BR> I didn't get as much done as I wanted to. <BR> I have to finish up the chruch tomorrow. <BR> My knee was hurting so bad that it seemed <BR> like I sat more that I worked. I finally came <BR> home in tears. I was going to put off the surgery <BR> but I may not. This pain is really doing me in. <BR> I have been so busy that I didnt make the time <BR> to blog for the trip. The <BR> usual girl stuff....dye not my gray up fr... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 20:12:57 EST Feels good to be blogging again Everyone seems to think its strange that my doctor doesn't have me testing <BR> my blood each day. I am too. I was up and down all night like usual. <BR> Stayed up from 3am to 8am before I finally could sleep more. <BR> I have a lot to do today. I clean a church. Today the basement and <BR> a good half of the upstairs needs done. I have only 2 days of cleaning <BR> this week since I am going away for the weekend. <BR> <BR> All four of my sisters are going to camp. 3 hours from m... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 10:35:48 EST Health info....yes I'm back I have just reset my numbers. <BR> The ones I first put in a few days ago was wrong.... <BR> There was no way I was going to start at <BR> 325 when it was really 335. <BR> The passed year and half has been a tough one for me. <BR> All the weight is back. I wasn't able to walk last summer. <BR> My heel was hurting bad every time I walked. So I <BR> stayed off it. My one knee has been getting worse <BR> We switched doctors. More out of shame for me. <BR> I had gained 50 pounds and jus... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 20:58:57 EST I see changes were made to the site. I went to the doctors. Actually a new doctor. <BR> After blood work and an x ray of my shoulder <BR> to prove I have arthritis. I finally have a script <BR> for pain. Tramadol 50 mg. She also upped <BR> my requip for my restless legs. They seem to <BR> working well. I just finished cleaning the upstairs <BR> today...and I am not overwhelmed with pain. <BR> I told the dr. about starting back on Sparkpeople. <BR> She liked the idea. So here I am. I need to blog <BR> in the morning. ... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 19:58:18 EST Hate when I write a blog and I am almost done and it dissappears!!! <em>39</em> <BR> I gained almost all my weight back. <BR> Can't and don't blame anyone but MYSELF! <BR> Tight clothes....doing ANYTHING exhaust me! <BR> Working at church is a very big struggle. <BR> <BR> I am very thankful that my doctor won't refill my <BR> prescription unless I see him. I was so <BR> embarrassed that I called around to get another <BR> one, Well I finally gave up and called the office. <BR> I deliberately got one for the end of May. That <BR> gives me around eight... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 23:55:35 EST 1:15am. Trying not to eat Trouble not sleeping I'm a terrible sleeper I had a snack of cucumbers And light ranch dressing Two hours later I am so Wanting a tomato sandwich I have been trying to not eat. Wish I could sleep Thu, 10 Mar 2016 01:20:47 EST Day 2. A good day <img src=""> I stayed within my calorie range. I ate healthy nutritional meals I sat out on my porch with Bob. Laughing at him trying to get our foster cat Slate to stay close. Yesterday hi was scared silly on the porch... today he was a brave warrior seeking out all the hidden areas. Tomorrow Will make the third day of temperatures in the 70's. Sunshine and beautiful. God sure blessed us today! Wed, 9 Mar 2016 21:26:34 EST 10 degrees warmer today....yea. Above 20! Cold Cold Cold <BR> Everyone is talking about the upcoming storm. <BR> Our area here ....12-18 inches. <BR> Starts Friday afternoon endng Saturday afternoon, <BR> We are to get an inch an hour for the most part. <BR> I don't get excited. It always seems like we get <BR> a lot less they expect all the time. I have been <BR> through blizzards before. 36 inches once and <BR> a month later another one with 24 inches. <BR> <BR> Just cleaning the apartment today. <BR> Tomorrow I will spend th... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 18:24:22 EST Single digit temps are getting to me. Can't wait till will be in the 20's. <BR> Friday and Sat. in the 30's. We are expecting <BR> a good amount of snow those two days. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Someone wanted petted bit time this morning. <BR> He woke me up. Bob is on a 36 hour shift. He <BR> gets home tonight. <BR> <BR> Did fine with my eating yesterday. Was hungrier. <BR> I have no choice with going to the church today. <BR> ... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 10:52:04 EST My 60 Millionth restart.... Well I have regained all but 10 pounds back. <BR> Weight is so easy to put on. <BR> Depression is terrible to deal with. <BR> I am back to having a hard time doing anything. <BR> So today will be the last day I feel this lousy. <BR> Negativity does no good. <BR> <BR> There has been stress lately. <BR> Bobs company making changes. <BR> We are going from weekly pays to biweekly. <BR> Once we finally get the pay check we will <BR> get used to it. My small pays come on the <BR> weeks he doe... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 13:02:36 EST Excited about today.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Another sleepless night.... <BR> Well that's not true...I did get 2 hours. <BR> I took Bob to work so I have the car. <BR> Everything has been organized and ready. <BR> I am painted up and excited. <BR> As you can see above.... <BR> this is what I chose to paint on me today. <BR> I wasn't sure how hard it would be to do, <BR> Wasn't to bad. <BR> <BR> I will be stopping at Subway for a salad... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 09:18:51 EST So far So good...........Day 3 I am proud of what I have been able to do so far <BR> since coming back. I am getting used to being <BR> hungry. The normal feeling people have by not <BR> eating 24/7. I ate a bowl of cereal in the middle <BR> of the night. 2 big shredded wheat and 1 cup <BR> skim milk. It fit in my calorie range. <BR> <BR> Bob ....silly man, We had 2 bags of dried red beans. <BR> He soaked both bags. What was he thinking. He <BR> says it will freeze fine, I hope so, I have no idea. <BR> He is sl... Fri, 4 Dec 2015 13:47:07 EST Made it through the first 24 hours of being back. Day 2 Yea!!! <BR> I only ate what was on my plan. <BR> I was hungry all day...which I expected. <BR> All I did the last 8 months was EAT. <BR> Any time any amount. No More! <BR> <BR> I am planning my meals a day ahead. <BR> I don't feel bloated and swollen anymore. <BR> I'm back to taking all my vitamins. <BR> Drinking water has always been easy for me. <BR> <BR> I was up all night last night. My nights and <BR> days are flipped. I finally slept at 7am and <BR> was up at 12. I plan... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 13:44:14 EST Back again.... I pretty much gave up in the spring and ate like a pig. <BR> A word I don't use to much. But I was eating junk every day. <BR> So I have gained most of my weight back. I was surprised <BR> that I hadn't gained it all back. I still have 18 off. I feel like <BR> crap and should. Struggling to do everything. It was like <BR> that once before and only lasted while my weight was up. <BR> Get the weight off and I will feel much better. So here I go. <BR> I have a doctors appointment coming u... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 16:55:19 EST Struggling Still struggling big time. <BR> Heal is still hurting ..a little less but enough that walking <BR> any distance is a no. I am hungry all the time, Eating <BR> all the time., I know better but it doesn't seem to matter. <BR> It took my all to come and do this. I am trying to get <BR> back on track. I may have to just do a bit at a time. <BR> Bob picked me up some Unisom sleep meds. I haven't <BR> been sleeping well. I think this crazy not sleeping right <BR> is having a major effect on... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 08:29:17 EST What excuse do I have this time for hiding..? Here I was sitting here wondering what excuse <BR> I was going to use for not checking in lately. <BR> Would it be oh my cable is out again.... (Oh that <BR> was true it did happen the first time) <BR> But this time....well there is no excuse. <BR> <BR> I have been hiding again... <BR> The real reason is just before the 5 K walk... <BR> I pulled my back. I felt so guilty about not being able <BR> to walk. I had to give the congregation at church <BR> the monthly parish meeting up... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 13:38:48 EST My last photo of Aladin/Missy my foster Cat. <img src=""> <BR> I know Aladdin is spelled differently. <BR> That is how the shelter spelled it. <BR> I am so proud of how she acted when <BR> we showed up to visit and photograph <BR> her at the pet store. She was curled up <BR> sleeping with another cat. I was thrilled <BR> to see that. We weren't sure how she <BR> be with other cats. She can willing to me. <BR> It was like she never left us. Purring and <BR> rubbing against me.... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 08:40:31 EST The sun is out and I am Happy!!!! Planing to walk my first 5K on Saturday! I am so excited to walk this 5K. <BR> Saturday April 18th at 8am is sign in. It starts at 9am. <BR> It will benefit Missions. It took some doing to make <BR> this happen. I have been praying a lot. I needed our <BR> car to go and with the way Bob works now I wasn't able <BR> to use it. He road all day with his boss yesterday and <BR> they did tons of talking. He mentioned my wanting to <BR> do the 5K and how much weight I have lost. His boss <BR> told him that he would arrange a way... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 12:17:16 EST Doing my usual hiding when I am struggling..... <img src=""> <BR> Little Missy is now at the Purr WV shelter. We found a few things <BR> out about her. She is a HE!!! I didn't feel so bad when the director <BR> took forever checking her out. He was fixed when he way little and <BR> never formed balls. She said most people would have thought that <BR> it was a female. So I left them rename her....Aladdin. He will always <BR> be Missy to me. I was feeling so guilty when they foun... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 11:17:35 EST Internet is finally back on....has been crazy. We had a major problem with the internet in my area. <BR> 28 homes effected. Took them forever to fix it. Once it <BR> was fixed they cleared all the trouble tickets and thought <BR> all was fine. We didn't know this. But our line had a major <BR> short into our building. It took a few days before I called <BR> them wanting an update. That's when I found out they <BR> thought it was all repaired. The man came out finally and <BR> sure enough found out what the problem was and its f... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 05:24:56 EST Sunny the high is to get to 65. Hope it does! <img src=""> <BR> That was taken at our church's Valentines Day party. <BR> Look at how much I have lost in my face since then. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Its not pounds that made that change...I lost only <BR> 2 pounds between the photos. Its all my walking. <BR> The March one was taken as I sat here. So no fancy <BR> hair or makeup. I did add a bit of <BR> Everyone... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 12:16:49 EST Planning a beautiful afternoon outside in the 60 degree weather. Woke with a bit of a headache. I haven't taken anything for it yet. <BR> I took all my scripts and two of them are hard on the stomach. So <BR> I am waiting an hour before I take anything for my headache. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a very gloomy and rainy day. I woke with a really <BR> bad migraine. I spent most of the day laying down. Late afternoon <BR> I did go for a walk with my umbrella. I only did 1.24 miles instead <BR> of the 2.72 that I have been doing. I did finish the down... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 07:10:33 EST My Arthritis has gotten the best of me...I pick up my new meds for it on in the afternoon when it co I have been in hiding trying to deal with the pain. <BR> I had my follow up appointment with the doctor. <BR> He was thrilled that I had lost 4 pounds since he <BR> last saw me. He has up my Paxil like I needed. <BR> I was still not handling stress and anxiety at all. <BR> He also changed my anti-inflammatory meds. <BR> It is a slow release, the pharmacy has to get it in. <BR> They found nothing on my scan. I have red blood <BR> cells in my urine. They are making me an appointment <BR> wi... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 01:02:23 EST Lots of Snow...Beautiful but dangerous <img src=""> <BR> Bob left for work an hour early and found the roads <BR> to be good. He did come across a tree blocking part <BR> of the road. He made the trip in the normal amount <BR> of time. That surprised both of us. He said that there <BR> were tons of cancellations which is good. Moving <BR> patients in this deep snow is very difficult. It will be <BR> fun walking to the church today for work. I want to <BR> get as much... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 09:15:38 EST It's amazing how fast the days pass when your not on Sparkpeople. I am so sick of the gloomy weather outside. <BR> Another big storm is hitting us again today. <BR> I am so ready for sunshine and spring. <BR> <BR> Bob got his blood results back...not good. <BR> His cholesterol is bad along with his sugar. <BR> He also had protein in his urine. This phone <BR> call shook me up which didn't help my stress. <BR> He is on blood pressure meds and cholesterol <BR> meds. Friday we both have ultra sounds scheduled. <BR> Mine for blood in my urine. Bob also has ... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 05:59:34 EST Working on designing a weekly meal plan.... I have been trying to figure out how to design <BR> a weekly menu to follow. If I am only making <BR> 3 beef/pork meals <BR> 2 chicken meals <BR> 1 no meat meal <BR> 1 meal that is turkey kielbasa or a meat like that. <BR> or for me 1 fish meal....when Bob is working. <BR> <BR> Bob isn't a fan of fish. <BR> That worries me is Bob will be eating chicken <BR> and tuna for lunches. He will get sick of both. <BR> I am thinking a Turkey kielbasa sandwich would <BR> be a good choice for a lunch... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 11:03:25 EST Lost 2 Pounds! Total off...63! Still dealing with my cold. <em>9</em> <em>9</em> <em>9</em> <em>9</em> <BR> I was feeling thinner last night.... <BR> Was excited to get on the scale this morning. <BR> 2 more pounds off! My ray of sunshine during <BR> this cold that I have. Oh it feels so good to have <BR> lost more. After that five week plateau that I had <BR> dealt with .... this feels wonderful. <BR> <BR> The feral cat ...Little Missy is doing well. <BR> She still hides 90% of the day. Under the <BR> couch or under my bed. She ... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 06:44:30 EST still energy...not much of a blog today Slept really well when I finally did go to sleep. <BR> Tired. I expect to not do much today. Dealing <BR> with a headache and cold symptoms. Not much <BR> of a blog. Did the SparkCoach. Have a good day. <BR> <BR> my menu <BR> <BR> BREAKFAST <BR> Eggs, toast, and coffee <BR> 1 large egg <BR> 1 large egg white <BR> pam <BR> 2 slices rye bread <BR> 1 tsp. margarine <BR> 3 large mugs coffee <BR> 1 cup 1%milk <BR> <BR> BREAKFAST ...WHAT I DID <BR> cals...368-533...396 good <BR> carbs...54... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 10:35:57 EST Sick ...Chicken soup made... My cold is getting worse. That was expected. <BR> I didn't sleep well last night. This cold is settling <BR> in my usually does. I an horse and the <BR> cat is looking at me like I grew a third <BR> I have a constant headache. Usual cold stuff. I <BR> can't wait till we can pick up the restless leg meds. <BR> Waiting for pay day. <BR> <BR> I made chicken soup early this morning. The pastor <BR> is stopping by to pick up a crock pot of it. I made <BR> enough ... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 10:42:42 EST I miss walking outside. 1st cold of the season for me. Woke with a bad headache. <BR> Sniffles and sneezes yesterday . <BR> Sinus draining caused sore throat. <BR> Nyquil helped me sleep and cold issues. <BR> Throat a little sore...Headache meds taken. <BR> I already entered my food into my tracker. <BR> I added saturated fats to my daily totals. <BR> 0-25 is the recommended limits. It is <BR> tracking with the totals at the bottom of <BR> the tracking page. <BR> <BR> The sugar intake I am having problems with. <BR> I did a bit of res... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 10:03:08 EST Have to cut Saturated fats and Sugar from my diet. I'm Scared! I have lost 61 pounds with Sparkpeople. <BR> I thought I was for the most part eating <BR> healthy. I was following the Diabetic Plan. <BR> <BR> I just put a call into the nurse at the doctors <BR> office. I want to talk numbers with her. I know <BR> we can cut down on beef. But what we do eat is <BR> low fat. We don't have ground beef often want I <BR> only by 96% lean when I do. My chicken is always <BR> baked. Pork is usually boneless and either baked <BR> or grilled. Yes I eat t... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 11:59:49 EST Was able to bring the new Feral Cat in .... 9 <img src=""> <BR> I spent so much time looking out the window of my front door. <BR> Hoping to see the new Feral cat. I have petted her a few times. <BR> Finally I saw her this morning and brought her in. It is to get <BR> -9 degrees tonight. She was in good shape. The straw in the <BR> abandoned house must give them enough warmth. At present <BR> she is hiding under my couch. She ate. I am hoping she comes <BR> out so I can intro... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 12:57:48 EST I'm ready to add the calories back. I found that I was needing more calories. <BR> I started eating extra things here and there. <BR> They were still well within my calorie range. <BR> But I feel more comfortable planning what I <BR> am going to eat. So I am adding the calories <BR> back into my intake. I plan to stay at the lower <BR> range for the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> The weather has been so very cold lately. I feel <BR> like I have been shut in forever. I miss my walking. <BR> I am looking forward to going wit... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 09:16:21 EST Lost 2 POUNDS!!! Five week plateau is behind me! <em>9</em> <em>9</em> <em>9</em> <BR> Finally LOST 2 POUNDS!!!!! <BR> 61 Pounds OFF!!! <BR> <BR> Will I continue on with this lower calorie intake...YES. <BR> I will try to keep it under 1000. Last night I had a snack <BR> of carrots and lite ranch dressing. 1105 was my calorie <BR> total yesterday. It is hard staying this low. I want to <BR> lose a few more before I slowly raise the calories back <BR> up into the range I should be in. 269 is my next goal to <BR> reach. I ... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 08:49:14 EST One low Calorie Day behind me....Hungry but good! 79-1 Degree this morning. Cold is an understatement. <BR> We didn't go to church today. I am so surprised it <BR> wasn't canceled. No one should be out in this low of <BR> temperatures. Going to work is the only reason I feel <BR> that anyone should be out in this. One of the ambulances <BR> at Bobs work hit some black ice and flipped on its side. <BR> It was the wife of he co-worker. She is bruised but fine. <BR> Very sore today...I am told. There were 4 wrecks on a <BR> two mile st... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 10:49:37 EST Happy Valentines Day! A Fresh New Day! <img src=""> <BR> Here are some of the Valentines Day photo ad's I did for the adoption days. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I so enjoy playing with photos. <BR> <BR> Last night I had a phone call from the medical insurance company. <BR> The presc... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 11:14:22 EST Wild - Crazy - Stressfilled Day! I have SURVIVED IT! Crazy day....Will be glad when it is over... <BR> <BR> Went to my first doctors appointment in 2 yrs. <BR> As I sit filling out the paperwork in the waiting room. <BR> I receive a call from my sister. My Mom has been in <BR> major pain for days now. Hip area. She went into the <BR> hospital yesterday morning for testing to try and find <BR> out what is causing it and what can be done. While they <BR> were testing her.....they found a 4 inch mass just above <BR> her kidney. The doctor d... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 18:24:05 EST Prayers for my Mom. It has been a few days so I will do some catch up here. <BR> <BR> Friday...I found out late in the day that the adoption event <BR> was being canceled for Saturday. I had such fun chatting <BR> to family members on Facebook. I went grocery shopping <BR> around midnight at Walmart. <BR> <BR> Saturday... I walked 2 1/2 miles. It was beautiful so I added <BR> more on. I also knew I wouldn't be walking for a few days. <BR> I enjoyed each step. The weather was fantastic, upper 40's <BR> <... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 09:19:41 EST Updated photos, 17 Degrees...Burr! HIgh 33...I will be walking when it hits 33!! Ok my updated photos...Bob came home and took them. <BR> I did them as side by sides. I like the improvement! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wow was it cold when I woke up this morning. <BR> We need an emotion for freezing ones butt <BR> <BR> I can't work at the church till after 1pm ... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 10:31:19 EST Sunshine...I love it! High 21 One inch Snow. I'm Walking! Sunshine!!!! <BR> The high is only 21 today. Last night it snowed. <BR> Woke to an inch of snow. I am going to attempt <BR> my walk. As long as the wind isn't blowing it won't <BR> be to bad. On my walk yesterday I came across a <BR> man who I have seen before. He made the comment <BR> that he has seem me walking before. I told him every <BR> chance I had I would be out walking. I told him I <BR> was working at getting healthier. Two days ago <BR> I added onto my route. Going ... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 12:08:34 EST Waking to Sunshine......Just what I needed. Sunshine and the high temp of 45 today...Yea!!! <BR> I was so excited at being able to walk the 2 mile <BR> route yesterday. It wasn't as hard as I thought it <BR> would be. I walked at the fastest pace that I ever <BR> had. The only time I stopped was to pet the dog <BR> that I pet every time I pass him. It is so cute how <BR> he looks for me. Yesterday I crossed the street <BR> sooner that I usually do so he couldn't see me <BR> coming. Some how he knew and was standing <BR> on his ... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 11:39:54 EST Feeling calmer today...I did stay strong! I am so proud of not giving in to depression this time. <BR> I won this time! 10 days till my doctors appt. I can't wait. <BR> I made Bobs appointment, its a week after mine. Once <BR> we have been checked up and given the medications we <BR> need. We should feel better. I do believe that once I am <BR> working full time...that I will look into marriage counseling <BR> for us. We have to learn how to communicate better. Money <BR> is just to tight for us to do that now. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 13:43:59 EST Fighting Stress and Depression BIG TIME!!! I am so sick of this depression coming over me all the time. <BR> I will fight with everything I have not do go into one again. <BR> As you know I hide when I start sliding into one. It was <BR> recommended to me to share and talk. I didn't want to do <BR> it here. So I went to my depression team and let loose. I <BR> ask for prayer. I just don't understand Bobs out burst. This <BR> time involved a parking lot and a stranger that did nothing <BR> wrong. I was so embarrassed and hum... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 07:10:54 EST