CONFUSEDBIRD's SparkPeople Blog CONFUSEDBIRD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 30 weeks <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Finally rounding out a bit. My big issue of the week has been my brain dissolving. I have forgot to put my fitbit on twice this week. Once for 5 am WerQ on Thursday and then again this morning I did it again, left it attached to my pajamas. Did I remember to snag it when I came home from lunch? Nope. I also dishwashed ballpoint pens, left the toaster oven on all night and wore a dress inside out to grocery shop. I... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 17:57:05 EST I'll go tomorrow! Ever find yourself saying that? Oh I didn't exercise today, I will go tomorrow! I felt like I did that all last week. Or finding yourself depending on workout buddies and they fall thru so you stay home as well. Yesterday I got off work from a short day and I had a lot of energy. Went home (hot as hell here right now) and got my swim suit on and headed straight to the pool. I haven't swam swam in probably 10 months. But I had an urge. So I rotated lap swimming/deep water aerobics/treading wa... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 12:05:58 EST 28 weeks <img src=""> <BR> Out take of the first picture, Joel has to always make an appearance <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 28 weeks and 202 lbs after a dance class. Didn't make it to my dance class as much as I wanted this week. Only 2 times and water aerobics 1 time. Eating was not the worst tho. We had ultrasounds this week too to check his face for deformities and check out all his heart chambe... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 17:55:03 EST Back peddleing I talked to a spark buddy last night about back peddling in the weight loss realm. She is gaining her weight back and hitting all the same numbers I hit. All the realization numbers that just leave you feeling utterly lost. Why is it some of us struggle with our weight our whole life and need to fight to stay away from 250 land. Then we have coworkers that have never weighed over 140. Is it because everyone is fighting some battle and maybe 140 land isn't theirs? Maybe their battle isn't visi... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:03:59 EST Crapola Week I had my pregnancy glucose test on tuesday which I was dreading but also we had an ultrasound so I was kind of excited about the appointment as well. They called me at 5 pm the night before and to say the tech was sick, so no ultrasound. I kept reading on babycenter that most labs do a 1 hr test and then if u fail they do a 3 hr. Well my lab skipped straight to the 3 hr. At least I know I don't have to do the 3 hr if I failed this one. Ultrasound is next week. I brought up the water birth at ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:06:32 EST Keeping busy I ate almost that whole watermelon by myself. I love this time of year so much good fruit in season. The white nectarines are soooo good and so cheap right now YUM! I broke 200 on the home scale this morning which is not terrible considering I broke it on the doctor scale almost 4 weeks ago and little dude is 2 lbs or close to it this week. Been staying away from meat which seems to be helping. When I start eating it, I feel like an avalanche of fatty food starts becoming my craving. Funny my... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 09:26:35 EST Out of comfort zone I got a lot done this morning. I stepped out of my comfort zone and went to a dance class with a teacher I didn't care for. 9 am dance class left me the youngest person in class by 30 yrs besides the teacher. I am happy I went, needed the exercise and it was a good workout. <BR> <BR> Then I came home and walked the dogs before the temps broke 80. Called my mom and amazingly she did not mention baby names. I was ready and willing to tell her that I love her but what I name my baby is none o... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 14:44:49 EST Seeing the positives I am really starting to feel my energy dwindle as time goes on. Doing songs in my dance class and barely being able to enjoy them. It will all return and energy will be mine again, I just didn't think my ass would handed to me so early. It's a better week of not eating out as much and exercising more consistently. This morning I didn't wake up for my dance class, but I am doing water aerobics instead tonight. I did go yesterday morning. Did I mention I have been having dreams about running? ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 10:33:03 EST Awwwwesome I have been so frustrating with my stomach shape since I got pregnant. Jealous of nice round bellies. Everyone is like "oooh no it will round out! You will pop". uhhhh sure. When I was big before, I had skin on the top of my belly and then a pooch under. Lost 130 lbs, they both got smaller. Small enough that I wore sport bikini's to water aerobics and felt like "hell ya, I don't care". As I get bigger with this pregnancy both top and bottom section get bigger as well and I keep this awful wa... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 09:08:48 EST What a week Last Friday we dealt with my dad being gone 1 year. Somehow I think 4th of July was harder, since it was our holiday together. Monday night my 2nd cousin Gabby messaged and me told me her Grampa died (my uncle, died 1 yr and 2 days after my dad). Been kinda stressed over that, I am in no shape to head to Chicago right now. Jews usually bury super fast, 2 days. Then they sit shivah for 7 days. So you have PLENTY of time to get to Chicago.....yay...... I had not seen my uncle in 7-8 yrs. Him a... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 11:54:39 EST You know what to do So I have been back on the straight for 3 days now. I did not wake up for any dance classes this week. I have been eating much better tho. I have not eaten anything out since Sunday night. I donno what my weight would have been at home as opposed to the doctor. But I am weighing in at 194.6 right now. Not 201 like the nurse told me, thank god. Yesterday I went to a dance class after work which was not a great idea. But you know I had to try. My ankles get really aggrivated after standing on t... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 10:02:29 EST Please don't tell me my weight Yes maybe I have been in denial this pregnancy over my weight. I can still do all my jumps in WERQ and I can still stand for an 8 hr day at work just fine. I don't feel like I look heavier in the mirror. Well Maybe I do, maybe just not in the face... yet. Anyway when I got to my OB I ask the nurse not to tell me my weight, I don't wanna focus on the number. I wanna focus on being healthy. Well yesterday she blurted it out before I could say "Please don't....". Ugh it was 201, holy crap! This ... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 08:39:09 EST Kicking around a name I have been wanting to name a baby boy after my grampa for a few years now. When he came thru ellis island from Transylvania his name was Enrich Jack. They told him to go by Jack, so he did. But I really like the name Enrich. My issue with it is that it is kind of weird and it doesn't look like it sounds. So we have been looking at alernative closely related names. I am just frustrated, none of them sound or feel right. I really don't wanna be one of these difficult ppl who give their kid a ... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 09:55:19 EST Tired so tired This was one of those weeks where I could take 3 naps a day if you let me. Thank goodness my work schedule is getting cut down by 1 hour. So I am off at 4 pm starting tomorrow. That will make a big difference. 8-5 on my feet is rather rough at this point already. I keep thinking I look more pregnant and then I look in the mirror and I don't. Kinda frustrating to feel pregnant and not look pregnant at 21 weeks. I had a friend who was like 8-9 months pregnant and she still didn't look pregnant ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 09:05:32 EST Happy July! The past week has not been the most amazing for calories or exercise or sugar for that matter. I have been getting this nasty habit of getting a different box of ice cream bars when I go to the grocery store. Of course there are like 20 servings in each box. Must stop that habit, the sugar just makes you want more sugar. The humidity the last few days is so nasty. Which makes it hard to walk. I went for a walk with a friend and the dogs last night. At 6 pm and you just come home drenched lik... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 08:45:49 EST Gender guessing is over! <img src=""> <BR> My mom can't fight me on what sex the baby will be. We are having a little boy, penis and testicles were present this morning! So happy to finally know, this has been the longest week ever, waiting to find out. <BR> <BR> Fri, 27 Jun 2014 10:39:23 EST Hello Summer! Or it will be here any day now and the temps are sure showing it. They finally turned the AC on at my job which is nice, I was kinda dreading going and it being off. Our work cat G is knows where to be when it reaches 90 outside in a 1200 dollar chair of course. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have a whole new pet peeve, somehow recently I keep acquiring diabetic friends. Neither of which really care to control with eating well, health and... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 09:02:18 EST Pool is back lifting is back! I am back to the gym! Last week I just felt drained all stinking week. When I take dance classes I can feel somewhere around 2/3rd of the class through my energy just starts to deplete like a plane slowly falling out of the sky. I take that as a cue to slow it down, well just slow it down. I hit a class this morning at 5 am. Then at 6 am I crawled back in bed and went back to sleep til 7 lol <BR> <BR> I am so happy the pool is finally back, after a long day at work, getting in the pool and... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 08:37:11 EST Growth Spurt It's been a long tiring week. I guess the baby was going through a lot of growing this week cuz I feel like I have no energy in me at all and my stomach is getting a little bigger each morning. I made it to the gym on Tuesday morning and then I was absolutely wrecked for the rest of the day. Been concentrating more on my steps and trying to get at least 12000 if I can't get to the gym. The pool at the gym has been down for almost 2 weeks so that doesn't help matters. Which means my friend tha... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 08:56:21 EST Working with what I got Has not been a good week, has not been a bad week. I went to see my mom for my dad's birthday. We ate at his favorite Chinese restraunt, ordered his favorite stuff. Then we hit up garden shops. As nuts as my mom can make me sometimes I am happy I went. I feel like it made her day easier. She bought me a peonie which led to me buying another one. They are going nuts all over town right now. I learned that the reason peonies have ants on them is that the ants help with this sticky residue to g... Wed, 28 May 2014 13:52:52 EST On the mend Ralph is doing much better. Later that day after I wrote, he got nuts and was dieing for a walk. It's like he suddenly had all this built up energy to drive me nuts with worry. Finally at 8 pm I gave in and walked him and finally settled down. Patsy went in for her teeth cleaning yesterday. So now everyone is taken care of for awhile. <BR> <BR> I had a doppler appointment Monday. My doctor intially couldn't find a heartbeat. Then she said kept finding it and then losing it. I must have looke... Wed, 21 May 2014 08:27:35 EST Weekend at last Ralph went in for a procedure yesterday, he had 2 tumors removed. Poor guy is still feeling pretty miserable today. Hopefully as the day goes on he will get back to being himself again. He put himself to bed last night at 7 pm in our bed. Poor baby man, I hate seeing my dogs get older. Scott and I got Ralph just a few days after we got our first apartment together back in 2005. He just turned 9. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I finally go... Sat, 17 May 2014 09:46:14 EST Goodbye 1st trimester I am officially 14 weeks today, out of the risky risky period! I finally posted on fb about the pregnancy with this photo my friend took for me. Check out my Heidi Klum maternity skinny jeans I found at goodwill Friday, score! The high school girls at my job asked where I got them <em>20</em> They think I am around 22, which seems old to them, I am cool with that. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Still logging my calories every day and sitting ... Thu, 15 May 2014 08:11:16 EST Still at it Eating has gotten better, avoiding junk more and going for whats in the house. Calories have been higher still. I really can't imagine staying at 2000 right now. My issue is that I need to eat every few hours or I feel sick. So by dinner time I am usually sitting at around 1400 calories. My ending total is 2200-2400. I am super active at work. Last week I got 15k steps just during my shift. I had this horrible dream last night that I was eating endless garbage and I looked in the mirror and I... Wed, 7 May 2014 08:02:40 EST Feeling like an addict Being pregnant is really no excuse. This week has been BAD. I got a bag of Easter jelly beans and I have been measuring them out with a 1/4th cup. A rather full 1/4th cup. Then I got supplies to make chocolate chip milkshakes. That is a big no no for me to bring chocolate chips into the house. My rule of thumb is buy what I need for a recipe and then they are POOF. Then lets add that I have been avoiding the scale. This morning I bit the bullet and got on the evil scale. Ugh the number was B... Thu, 1 May 2014 08:38:38 EST Rainy dreary day Saturday we bit the bullet and told Scott's dad about the pg. He was excited I knew he would be. I just didn't wanna tell family early incase anything went wrong then they told the rest of the family and then we had to untell everyone. We are meeting Scott's mom tonight to talk to her. I am sure she is suspected something, meeting us on a Monday night is not really something we do unless it's a birthday. She is the one we are dreading the most. I am sure she will be happy. Scott is just gener... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 09:04:09 EST Hormones take over Last night before bed I was dumb and poured broth on the ground in the dogs yard. Which led to Ralph wanting to lick the grass and me stepping on a rock to get him inside. Well actually no, Scott yelled once after I stepped on the rock and he came. 12:50 am he had to go to the bathroom so he led Scott out and yet again licked grass and didn't pee. 1:10 pm he got me outside with him and I made him pee. Well I was standing on my deck in the dark so that I didn't wake up too much and I was looki... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 08:10:02 EST 2 days in a row 5 am gym classes Really trying to fit the exercise in this week. It's nice when getting out of class now at 6 am, it's light out. Hopefully next week things will be calmer with 3 days off a week, I can find some room to breath in between. This week has been extra tight cuz we had a doctors appointment on Monday, Scott had to come to as well. So to make up for it. He has to go into work 1 hour early for the remainder of the week. Sucks pretty bad when you already have to commute two hours a day. We both went t... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 07:58:20 EST Exhausted This week has been a struggle with getting to the gym. I drug myself out of bed this morning. Which was really hard cuz my alarm went off when I was having this delicious dream where I was making someone I can't stand cry hysterically. Ughhh I guess working out is more important. Less than 1 week until I am done with having two jobs. I have not had 1 job in ages or 4-5 years. <BR> <BR> This past week has been the week of, "Just get rid of it, I don't care how little money we will get". F... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 08:41:00 EST Baby <img src=""> <BR> I feel like I can finally say the words "pregnant" and "baby". We had our first doctors appointment today and it was moving its little hand bugs and leg buds around and HR was 180. It feels quite a bit more real now. 9.5 weeks along, due date is 11/13. <BR> <BR> I gotta get my eating under check. Even if I just stay at 2000 calories for the whole thing. I gotta stop giving into every craving. At this rate I am gonna be... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 17:44:05 EST The stuff men don't have to go through So I told my old job about the new job and the pg on Monday. My bosses first reaction was "Am I the last to know your PG????" Really? as if we are friends? Then she asked why I didn't ask her for more hours. She made like I could have. I told her if she could could get more hours than yes I could stay but if not I would probably put in my 2 weeks. She was more worried about me putting in my 2 weeks and interfering with her vacation at the end of the month than anything else. I have a feeling ... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 08:34:24 EST The unknown The last few weeks have been feeling like the unknown is coming. Friday I photographed my first wedding. I feel like it went much better than I thought it would. I always dreaded doing one. I actually had a lot of fun. The couple were so inlove and nothing about it felt forced. It was all just capturing the moment and being a fly on the wall, which is what I like. So now that hurdle has passed. I think I would do another, now I gotta find time to edit. <BR> <BR> Next hurdle is starting this ... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 08:46:40 EST If I wake up, I wake up I feel like when I lay my clothes out and set my alarm for 5 am fitness classes I jinx myself. So now I tell myself that if I wake up, I wake up. If I don't wake up then I don't wake up. Woke up at 4:25.. Used my phone light to fumble thru my dresser for some semi matching clothes (sometimes my outfits end up scary). Stumble downstairs, eat a yogurt (try not drop a big glob of yogurt on myself sleepily), drink a few sips of coffee and get out the door. It was a good class, I am happy I went. ... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 08:35:18 EST Meddling Rant I am one of these ppl who doesn't really get mad immediately. It takes me a few days to look back on what happened and really get mad. I was vague about what my coworker did last week. I had already put my two weeks in and I had 2 days left to work. Driving back with her she told me that if I wanted to come back to this job at another time, that I should be honest with our boss and tell him about my pregnancy because honestly is best. Why is that his business? Why is that her business? So I a... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 08:49:22 EST Day 3 of starving to death I read online to just keep food with u and eat every 2 hours. Attempting to not listen to my stomach 24/7 or I would be eating all day long. This is something I am not good at. Been on spark over 6 yrs and watched everything I ate, being strong. Now I feel like I have no control and it's killing me. I guess it's good I gained a little weight over winter, cuz it seemed to help things happen finally. I just heard somewhere that women trying to get pregnant should eat all their milk products i... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 08:22:53 EST Job is over!!! I knew Friday would be long and yep it sure was. Also on the way to the job, my car started making an awful sound. Made it back ok and it sounds worse in town. Thank goodness I don't need to leave town this week and can get it looked at. Poor CRV is approaching 180k miles very fast. <BR> <BR> I put on my jeggings yesterday (yes jeggings leave me be, I love them) and they were tight... Ughhh should my pants be getting this tight this early? Yesterday was my first day of being nauseated all d... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 10:07:18 EST Brace yourself for generaliziations I haven't written lately cuz I can't write about what is going on right now. It seems everything has been affected by that. Work, friends, eating, eating and exercise. <BR> <BR> Work, some ppl can't keep their mouths shut and went to my boss I put my two weeks in with and told him the "truth" why I quit. No that was not the truth. That was a piece of it. I am so happy I found a new job. Considering today is finally my last day and pretty much the end of the season until fall. I will be trap... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 07:16:57 EST Long week The week really didn't get much better. I swear everyday at this job I feel like I was in a wresting scene where someone beat me with a chair. I just have to get home and take a nap to feel semi human every day. I guess everyone at my job knows now that I put in my 2 weeks and they keep texting me asking why and where is my new job? Seriously we aren't friends, mind your own damn business! Last one I didn't even respond. It came from someone who has been making all the drama. I was close wit... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 11:16:17 EST Complaining, ignore me I am on day 2 of the week again at the photo job, Yesterday I called my manager and put in my two weeks. Not a minute too soon. The woman I worked with yesterday was a joy. Everything we did wrong was my fault somehow, any reason we were slow was my doing. Ugh this new crew of ppl are no it all's. She got there 30 minutes late and I had something turned wrong and she goes "Have you even set up spring layout??" Are you serious??? Who are you? Not to mention I am back to being sore as hell. I... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 06:32:26 EST Things are changing around Finally feeling better which is great! Saturday I met up with my friend Ty and we walked for 90 mins! She's the woman I know from the gym who has lost 130 lbs so far just from walking her dog. She showed me some cool places I had never been and gave me some great ideas for photo shoots. Then we walked around in this hidden neighborhood you wont even know was there with all these custom million dollar houses. Amazing what you find when you get out and walk! <BR> Me at Ewing Manor with Patsy, ... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 15:02:19 EST Mexican Lasagna is the way to a man's heart It is the simple meals that make men happy. Probably much like children, stop trying so hard. All they want is something gross and simple like mac and cheese. So I found this recipe for Mexican Lasagne and guess what? He went back for 2nd's. Mexican lasagne, really? That doesnt even sound very apealing. It turn out to be good tho and super simple and makes a big pan. Not to mention all the ingredients can he kept laying around or frozen. <BR> <link><BR>-m... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 10:23:36 EST Must.Slow.Down! I have been sick with a cold for 5 days now. Silly me still trying to workout and not take it easy. Yesterday was my worst day, yet I somehow got 21,000 steps for the day. <BR> I was supposed to drive 2.5 hours away this morning. I just knew I was in no shape to do that alone and then turn around and do it again. So last night I called in sick and lounged and I feel 10x better. I started making chicken noodle soup this morning, always a 2-3 hours process, I used Scott's Grandma's recipe. The... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 20:24:51 EST Walk it out As I was falling asleep last night, I found this story in my FB feed. <BR> <link><BR>ching-kayla-running-one-step-ahead-of-<BR>multiple-sclerosis </link> <BR> This girl was diagnosed with MS three years ago and she is headed to nationals in track. She is fine until she starts running and then her legs go numb. So her coach is at the finish line ready to catch her cuz she will fall when she stops. Pretty inspirational her story and how her coaches are s... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 09:16:28 EST Hit the gym twice in 1 day Yeah that sounds obsessive. I went yesterday morning to dance out the sweat. Then I went back that evening to lift with my friend. I also took my munchkins to the graveyard to walk. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I love how excited they are just to get in the car. Even though we just just drove a quarter of a mile away it was pretty exciting for them. Calories were a bit over yesterday. Of course after my dance class I was starving all day as usu... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 08:20:13 EST Early Morning Wakey! I have been regularly waking up at 4:30 lately. I can usually go back to bed but I figured it was a good sign to hit the gym. So I am already sitting 8k steps for the day from shaking it. This week has been good, been eating less, staying under 1800 calories even! Seeing the forecast and knowing we are getting a few days in the 50's is just a good mood lifter! I am so ready for long dog walks with my podcasts again! Come in spring, we want you, we love you!!! <BR> <BR> I have been making a... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 08:35:49 EST Emily, Calzones, Winter Coats Emily ended up being ok! $220 dollars later and she had some kind of an infection that was treatable! So happy because Mauri was so heart broken. I felt bad about the cost after having this cat like 5 months lol Mauri said "She was worth every penny!". I will say it again, if there's angel's Mauri is one. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I made a big pot of creamy potato soup and calzones. Soup was good, calzones were ehhh dense. I came home from water aerobics last night starving to death and ate way to... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 08:43:15 EST Quieter Week I felt like I was recovering all weekend and then Monday I got my butt kicked again at work, or felt that way. Last season was so much easier, this season is much rougher, much longer days and of course lots of drama. This week is quiet and so is next week. Starting to kinda wonder if I will get used to this or need to find another job. I gotta look for some summer work anyway. Kind of thinking of looking into a bakery job or a cooking job. Playing it all by ear and see what is out there. <B... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 09:15:22 EST 10 MPH to 90 MPH I wrote a long blog yesterday and then spark went on repair and I lost the whole thing. Life has just been really busy, I am back at my photo job this week. I am on my 4th day in a row at the moment. Tuesday I went 2.5 hours away, so driving 5 hours and at the school 5. Thankfully I carpooled 3 hours of it. Then the next day Drove 90 minutes and at the school 7. This season we pose the kids on the floor, so lots of getting up and down and crawling on my knees. I have felt like a stiff old per... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 21:41:32 EST Temps going up up up <img src=""> <BR> I feel like I have been telling myself this a lot lately. But finally things are getting better. Not amazing, but better than they were a few weeks ago. Stuff is finally melting and no snow in the forecast, doesn't mean we wont get some though. One day at a time! I think whats so frusterating is that I depend on working out outside so much. Not having it is putting on weight when I am really not eating that much worse ... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 13:14:01 EST This ..... is Bananas B A N A N A S....some reason gwen has been coming up a lot this week. <BR> <BR> Highlights of the week. Took my car in, they said the issue was with my computer so he didn't charge me! Yay! <BR> <BR> I made a Julia Child recipe this week, took me 5 hours, my last Ha-rah of being unemployed for awhile. It was good, not really 5 hours good, but good. <BR> <BR> I had a meeting with my photography partner and a couple getting married. My partners FIL went on life support today =((( so they ha... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 22:13:30 EST