CONCERNED85's SparkPeople Blog CONCERNED85's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Frustrated and depressed I keep getting sick. Wound up in the hospital May 10th through May 13th. They did two IV antibiotics each of those days. Left hospital with 2 more to take for a while. May 20th was the follow up with my doctor. X-ray taken showed the pneumonia was just a small spot instead of the large area that it was. (Had two strains of pneumonia). So got more antibiotics that day to take through today May 26. Since Sunday or Monday have been coughing up the discustiing stuff and blood mixed in again. I kn... Fri, 27 May 2016 01:00:50 EST Feel like screaming Since March I keep getting sick. Thursday and Friday bad flare of fibro and couldn't touch any part of my body without it hurting. Saturday was great. Had energy, did laundry, did dishes and took a 1/2 mile walk and made super. Sunday all starts going down the tubes again with coughing blood again. I had pneumonia all through march until just before Easter. Then get other chest crap back again for over a week. Then was okay for a little while and now this setting in again. I am ready to go i... Mon, 2 May 2016 23:48:33 EST lazy day Very lazy today. It seems every Sunday is a lazy day. My husband doesn't do things on Sunday because if he does all kinds of things go wrong. Not necessarily Sunday but then on some day during the week with things that have worked just fine just go to hell unless it is an emergency to work on something that day. I think he got this because he would never take a rest day otherwise and we all need a rest day. Yeah there is always things that need to be taken care of, but the body does require r... Mon, 2 May 2016 00:33:46 EST A better day today Thursday and Friday I could not touch any part of my body except my hands as the touch would hurt. I hate having fibromyalgia. Today was great. I got enough sleep, I had energy, I didn't have pain, I got things done around the house and took a 1/2 mile walk. All winter have pretty much done no exercising or anything. This was my first walk. Now to keep up with it all. Go over calories on Friday and today under and not enough protein. Not getting enough protein can cause headaches. I think tha... Sat, 30 Apr 2016 23:36:41 EST I'm back. Been a long time. It's been a long time since being on this site. I really need to stick to my goals this time and get this weight off. Trying to get a grip on my hunger is a real issue most days, but at least I am only 10 pounds heavier than the first time started on here. Fri, 29 Apr 2016 06:54:31 EST Holiday curse Every Holiday season we have bad luck through the whole time. My husband is the one who has to fix everything which is why he hates the holidays, but it is frustrating for me too because I feel so bad for him that things are going so badly during these times. I can usually keep my Christmas spirit up, but this year I'm in the hating the season myself. Hopefully things will settle down, but with the bad luck of this year we have had anyway, I feel that the holidays are going to just continue w... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 20:59:14 EST Quilting, exercise and the furnace Got one quilt top almost all the way done. Only 4 more to go for the quilts doing for Christmas. Had a great day energy wise yesterday and not a whole lot of pain. Today, quite a bit of pain and tired. Furnace acting up again too. Will have to call again. Why can't they find the problem? It is driving me nuts!!!!! It takes a space heater a long time to heat a room even when it is closed off. It slows down my exercise and my projects that I need to do for Christmas. I want it fixed now, but Lo... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 17:52:40 EST Busy, Busy, Busy I have been super busy. I have many projects to finish for Christmas, and lots of appointments. I don't know about anyone else, but I hope I finish the projects quick. I don't think it is going to go as quickly as I want as the quilts are time consuming. The other projects are not super easy either. Everything takes longer than I expect. My fibromyalgia can and does play a big part in that. I didn't get all the summer projects done that I wanted to get done, but I will have them on my list fo... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 12:08:54 EST Time flys by too quickly October already. Trying to make sure have all the supplies for the Christmas gifts that I am making and get busy on them. Time has gone by way too fast. Try and finish summer things and now need to get busy making sure ready for winter. Have had a lot of appointments. I wish they didn't seem to take so much of my time but they do. I swear they wear me out more than exercise does. I don't know if others feel this way, but my husband says the same thing. Wish I could have more energy. I hate fe... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 02:39:58 EST Exercise getting better. <img src=""> It would be nice to be able to have the colorful trees they can have in warmer climates. I got my zumba exercise done twice this week. Today I made it through the whole step-by-step DVD. I had to pause it and walk around until my heart rate and breathing were at a good level to go again. Hoping to get into a good routine and stay in that routine even in winter. Even got more cleaning done this week than have in a long time. N... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 00:32:10 EST FAIL - doesn't mean what you think I've been looking up a lot of inspirational quotes lately. I found one that puts a new perspective on the word FAIL. Listed in the horizontal form, F=First, A=Attempt, I=In, L=Learning. Which then puts in to play try, try again. We all learn from our mistakes. People like me who suffer from depression and more, can think of themselves in the negative sense and feel like a failure. This quote puts a new light on the word and reminds me to not be so negative about myself. Just put one foot in f... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 23:48:22 EST Saphera My blogs are a little off because I am usually doing them at midnight or 1 am. So this blog should say 7-4-2013, but it will say 7-5-13. Puddin pop is finally sleeping. It was a very busy day. Mandi brought the girls out after the parade in town. Both girls loved playing in the yard. It is so fun watching Keira trying to follow Saphera. Was loads of fun. Saphera was very glad that she gets to stay grandma and grandpa. It was a good thing when Tony(grandpa) saw a tick on Saphera but it was not... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 02:21:21 EST Wednesday, 7-3-13 Puddin pop comes tomorrow. Should be fun. want to do the tea party with her as we could not do when we had both her and Keira. Lots of picking up to do before she comes. I got a good start but then was doing the gardens. Now need to make sure all the rest is put in back room that we do not want her getting into. Thu, 4 Jul 2013 01:46:43 EST Plants, gardening, organizing and grandkids I redid all my houseplants with new dirt and put in new plant food sticks. Does lifting the big plant, getting the dirt away from the roots, get the plant out of pot, put in some new dirt, put the plant back in, then finish the dirt and plant food, and then lift and carry this plant back to its spot count as weight lifting and exercise? It sure felt like it. The other plants were smaller, but it does seem like a lot of work to do this process as I have quite a few houseplants and the big one ... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 05:01:16 EST Projects, crafts and summer Summer is going quick already. I have gotten my garden/yard ornaments repainted. I started with the angel I started with last year and redid all the painting again and did parts of the painting I had not done before. Then I did a small boy and girl garden one I had. It was all white and had one of those sun ball things. Last year the ball thing broke. I have repainted the whole thing in lifelike colors like the angel and made my own ball decoration where the old one had been. Then moved on to... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 03:35:34 EST encouraging blogs The blogs I have been reading are a real inspiration to me. I have been having a lot of pain all over from the fibromyalgia and other physical things that can cause bad days. I have gotten a lot of encouragement reading the blogs of people who have more things to overcome than me. They really get it going through my mind that if they can do it so can I. Even doing the stretching to help with the pain and to get back into the exercises I used to do. I thank all those bloggers who give such ins... Mon, 13 May 2013 20:00:29 EST Art show The art show was the beginning of May. It went really well. More of the art is being displayed throughout may and in different places. I have really been surprised that I have been able to do the art that I have done. I have even done a unicorn picture and Pegasus with her baby with a castle in the background. They came out really well and I did not even think I would be able to do that. It has really shown me I am capable of doing a lot more than I thought. There were a lot of great artists ... Mon, 13 May 2013 19:52:26 EST Learning new things They say you cannot teach an old dog new tricks, but I have been learning a lot. I think the saying learn a new thing everyday is more like it. The art classes have been great for motivation. They have helped take my mind off the fact that winter just won't give up here. Getting another 3 inches of snow tonight. I have really gone outside my craft areas that I normally do. My drawings have been way better than I expected and shocked myself that I could draw like that. I know I did some comple... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 00:15:38 EST Good Friday Cannot believe it is Good Friday already. I prefer when Easter is in April. I wish they would make it more consistant like having it be the 2nd Sunday in April. Have done a lot of things since started the art classes. I finished the clay project last week and can't wait to see what it looks like fired. Will be adding the paint to it later today. Then it gets fired again. I have also done 2 mosaic stepping stones. I want to make more at home for my garden area and got all the information to be... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 06:19:01 EST Soreness Today I have lots of soreness. Yesterday my fibromyalgia was not acting up and I had hardly any pain. I way overdid things with cleaning and sorting. It is so hard not to do more than I should on days when I feel exceptionally good. Today I hurt so bad it is not funny. Will probably hurt for the next few days. Did get some stretching done to try and aleve the soreness. One day at a time is all I can do. Fri, 15 Mar 2013 22:37:23 EST so ready for spring I am so ready for spring it is not funny. We have gotten a lot of snow and cold this year. At least it is not as bad as some parts of the country that are really being hit and the power outages too. Getting a sun lamp for seasonal depression through MA is prooving to be very difficult. It will probably take until next fall to have the documentation they need. I have been told they run around 85 dollars. I need to check and see. One person told me you can get a special light bulb that works th... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 03:23:32 EST crafts I have art class tomorrow. Learning different types of crafts from the ones I already do. So far the classes have been fun. I am going to try my hand at making pottery and see how I do. It will be fun even if it doesn't turn out right the first few times. Painting on canvas too. That is something I have not done either. I am used to crochet, counted cross stitch, embroidery, all types of bead projects for making ornaments and other things I even got a couple for making jewelry. Went to classe... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 00:00:40 EST Winter This winter has been awful. I havent kept up with anything that I wanted to be doing. I have been trying to get MA to pay for a sunlamp for the seasonal affective disorder. My med provider from Range Mental Health sent in the letter, but they need a lot more stuff. I don't think they gave the list to her. I see my therapist later this week and will bring a copy of the paper with the list of all that is needed for MA. MY youngest granddaughter has had to have a lot of testing since she was 2... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 05:27:25 EST OMG I have been not feeling well for a long time now, Having issues with sleep that are driving me nuts. I go from sleeping 4 hours in 2 days and that's with my sleep meds, to sleeping 12 hours and then 5 more hours that same day and 12 hours again the next night and now 12 hours again last night. Had to fight the tiredness yesterday. Man I just don't get it. Also eating issues. Go from having a hollow leg and hungry all the time during the days I was not getting the sleep, to not being hungry at... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 17:27:02 EST better Had the laryngitis for a few days. Then got super tired. Was sleeping like 12 to 16 hours for a few days. Has gotten better now. Normally have insomnia and even with sleep meds have a hard time getting sleep so the days I was sleeping so much shocked me. My husband was worried I might be getting something else. I said I would wait a few days. Tiredness has passed now. If it comes back, I will have to get checked again. Actually had energy enough to exercise today. Tue, 23 Oct 2012 03:41:56 EST how am I have laryngitis. First time I have ever had it. I have gotten hoarse in the past, but never this. Started with being all clogged up. Went to doctor. He gave me an antibiotic after my chest x-ray which showed bronchitis. Also a nose spray and decongestent. Went back in a week. Throat sore and a lot of drainage. He gave me a different nose spray and decongestent. Saw my back doctor the following week and they mentioned to my regular doctor that I was still hoarse and clogged up. He gave me a ... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 23:32:38 EST loss of inches My measurements show that I have lost quite a few inches as well as weight from last week. I was very shocked. I don't mind the weight and inches lost, it just happened so fast. Trying to make sure my muscle tone is getting better too is part of what I wanted as well as the weight loss. I guess I will see how things go. I know that weight loss in the beginning can go quicker and then a real fight later on to lose the rest. Wed, 3 Oct 2012 20:39:09 EST protein whey I tried the Jillian Michels protein whey today as I was way down on my protein intake. I added 2 scoops to my large coffee cup and it thickened the coffee some, but I enjoyed it. Used to once in a while put a package of hot chocolate into a cup of coffee. Don't really care for most other types of flavored coffee, but I loved doing the chocolate one. I think it will help with my chocolate cravings too. Should do that during the day if having a day where I am hungry a lot. One of those days tha... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 02:52:44 EST weight lower According to the scale I now weigh 192. Start weight was 228 and last week weighed 227, now Im down 35 pounds. Seen doctor today and that was my weight. I know at first you lose water weight. I have held a lot of water before and retained it and my legs and hands it was very obveious. Glad my weight is going down. I do not expect it to drop that much that quick. If I do, I would have to go see the doctor because that would not be a normal weight loss. Had trigger point injections today for my... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 15:37:21 EST Spark Points and goodies What do you use spark points on. How do you get or give goodies. See my back doctor later this morning as it is 2:25 a.m. and I am still up. She does the trigger point injections for my fibromyalgia. Hurt the day you get them but they do relieve the knots in my neck, shoulders, mid back and low low back(midpoint between waist and tailbone). I need to see my regular doctor again. the stuff he gave me for my sinuses isn't working and the stuff coming from my chest has that awful taste like have... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 03:33:44 EST learning more I got 20 spark points when did the log in spin and then got an extra spin that gave me 25 more. What do you do with the spark points? So much to learn yet. Lots more teams to check out yet too. I love learning all the other things about this site. Finally found the spot to journal in on this too. Been looking up foods I do not know what they are that are in the meal plan for this starting week. Hummus, and tahini I'm sure more too. How does the time go by so fast when you are just looking th... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 00:24:55 EST what is waist to hip ratio I did all my measurements today but on the page that is put it says waist to hip ratio; what does that mean? I knew it would be a good idea to track my measurements because sometimes you loose inches without loosing much weight so it is an important reminder that you are still doing good and not give up. Thu, 27 Sep 2012 16:29:48 EST OMG third time trying to write blog today I must be hitting something on my laptop by accident because this is the third time starting to write this blog entry. Very frustrating when the whole thing I typed out just disappears. Even with taking my sleep meds, didn't get to bed until 4 a.m. and didn't get up until 3:30 p.m. I have no motivation when that happens. I don't even have the motivation to do the stretching exercises and spine strengthening exercised that physical therapy gave me to do. Craving chocolate badly but afraid woul... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 01:15:56 EST 9-25-2012 Lots of pain from my fibromyalgia today. Did exercise and stretch. Now late in evening hurting badly too. Went out for fresh air before supper and a few minutes after outside, My nose stuffed up to where earlier it had been a lot clearer. Must be full of pollen outside. Making my allergies work overtime, especially how fast I plugged up. Allergie meds from doctor not making much of a dent either. Worse this year then it has been in a few years. Wish there wasn't so much pain to deal with at t... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 01:02:56 EST 9-23-2012 Still learning about how all the entries, fitness stuff entries and all the different groups and how to share information. Look forward to learning it all and getting the hang of it. Sun, 23 Sep 2012 19:57:43 EST