COMPUCATHY's SparkPeople Blog COMPUCATHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Problems...The Plan Weighed in this morning at 244.8...highest ever...for awhile. Having no plan is not I came here to write and get a plan. <BR> <BR> My left knee is messed up. I think it's holding water. I've started taking Ibuprofen and sleeping with a pillow under it. It feels tight and sometimes it feels like it is cutting off my I have a really tight knee-high on...but I don't. I know it's the weight. My weight is the problem I have to solve. <BR> <BR> However, I fee... Mon, 18 May 2015 07:31:44 EST Strong and Healthy Time My new weighing routine is to weigh in on Fridays. I weighed in yesterday and was at 237.4 which is good since I've been mostly up around 245. So my goal for this week is to maintain that or drop below it. My goal for April is to get into the 220''s been awhile. My plan for getting there... Eat in range and log eating. Hit my calorie burn/step goal/distance goals daily. Eat out less. Drink more water. Obstacles... My health (I've had sinus problems, low energy, and a cough since the 1... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 09:01:50 EST Rackin Up The Differentials Today was Day 10 of eating in a row. I've been tracking steadily since 1/20/15. Since that time, I've eaten in range all but 2 days...26 out of the last 28 days! I'm glad I have the tracking to look back on. I started a spreadsheet where I am keeping a list of my calorie counts and the differentials. Did you know that SP has a report that is a daily differential report? It makes it really easy to see your differential each day. And you can access that report through your sma... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 20:21:38 EST No Sling Shots with SP I'm so tired...time to blog and go to bed. I made it through another day eating in range. Today for lunch, we went to Max and Erma's. I usually don't eat there so the menu was unfamiliar. I ended up getting their sirloin steak with broccoli and asparagus. They have indications for smart selections (under 550 calories) so that helped. I'm continuing to listen to my willpower audiobook. It has a lot of aha's in it. I think one of the things it talked about today that made sense to me was... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 21:18:30 EST Today...Tomorrow...Forever... I ate in range again today. I even had to eat more than I planned on for supper because I was under! That was a nice problem to have. I was in range for carbs, fats, and proteins. I continue to be high on Sodium. I think it is because I eat out so much and eat a lot of processed foods. When that goal becomes a priority (if it does), I will need to change the items that I am consuming to a more “clean” diet. Tonight, I watched videos on clean eating that were on SP. They were YouTube v... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 21:23:25 EST Stress Down...Believing Today, I chose to work from home in the morning. I realized that I could probably get more done from home with fewer interruptions and way less stress…so why not. It was really nice and peaceful and I did get a LOT done. It brought my stress levels way down for the day. Then, as I was working at work in the afternoon, I realized I could listen to my audiobook while I worked and enjoy the information that I am currently learning about while getting my work done. It was really nice and aga... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 21:57:53 EST Scale Change, A Good Idea! I am really tired tonight. I’m going to bed early. So good that I am not forcing myself to stay up until “bedtime.” The heck with bedtime…if I am tired, it’s bedtime. I know being tired is a danger zone for my appetite control. I also noticed throughout the day when I was feeling the food urge. When it would strike, I would self-evaluate…what am I feeling…what is happening…why do I crave food right now. The one time that I remember, I was having difficulty with a task and was feeling t... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 21:21:30 EST Today's Lessons Learned I really got a lot out of church this morning. My big aha’s were that we are meant to be a part of things and we are meant to be WE, not just ME, all the time. We need to invest in people and allow them to invest in us. When we say we don’t need anyone…we can do it ourselves…what we are really saying is “I can mess this up all by myself.” Yes, aha. I have been isolating myself and trying to get my act together and it hasn’t been happening…it hasn’t been working. I need to connect…to any... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 22:10:04 EST Gotta Move It Move It! Hmm...okay...did NOT know I could blog from the phone app...awesome! Today was okay. I went over by less than 100 calories on my eating. I think I'm coming to terms with the fact that I am going to have to add some exercise to my weight loss plan. Just eating in range is not working. The scale should be moving and it's if it's not working, fix it, right? Starting tomorrow, I'll focus on adding movement and see if that helps. Logically, it should. I think I really need the reward o... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 22:03:00 EST NSV Scale Still no movement on the scale <em>234</em> . Darn thing. It does bother me even though I know that I should not let it discourage me. I just would like to see some reward for the effort of eating in range every day. In thinking about it today, I realize that it's worth it, with or without weight loss, to eat in range every day. I like being in control of my eating. I like being free of the binge eating cycle. I like dealing with my life problems instead of eating them under. So, wit... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 19:10:37 EST Fun Super Bowl Sunday! My Super Bowl party went well. It was just my family coming fun. I enjoyed the menu I had planned. The football pizzas turned out really cute. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I just got DiGiorno pizzas and designed the pepperoni's into the football shapes and used sliced string cheese for the laces. They tasted great, too. I only had one slice. I had so many different things. And when I ran the numbers on everything, i... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 00:23:29 EST Ready To Party! Today was a nice day. I spent time with family...always good! DH and I met up with my daughter and her boyfriend for lunch then she went shopping with us. We just got a couple things at the thrift store and then some groceries. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have my Super Bowl menu planned. I'm going to run all my calories for everything in the morning and plan what I will eat. I have a couple of SP recipes planned. I'm going to ... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 21:12:09 EST Good BL Finale Last night, I watched Biggest Loser. It was the finale. It's so cool to see them come out completely transformed. This season, all the contestants were former athletes. I think it was a good change-up for BL. Last year, the winner looked too thin. Her "after" was really not inspiring to was actually a very big disappointment. I think a lot of BL fans felt the same way. This was a good way for BL to continue on and not have to worry about a repeat of that scenario since all the... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 07:37:39 EST New Superbowl Tradition The kabobs were a hit! All eaten! Yay! Funny, one of my co-workers brought hers to the table where I was sitting and said "someone had some time." I smiled and said it was me. I'm glad everyone enjoyed them. The chili I had was delicious. There were 8 different ones, I think. I had was chicken chili. Yum. And I had one small piece of cornbread and one cookie along with my kabob. I thought I did pretty good. I felt very self-controlled. There was a LOT of food to choose fr... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 07:02:27 EST Kabobbed Kabob success! I got my kabobs done last night and ready to go to the party today. Funny thing, I never did find the shorter sticks so I just used longer ones. When I went to put the extras away, I found that I had some shorter ones...guess I had bought them at some point when I saw them...since I know they're hard to find...what a great idea! LOL <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think they look pretty nice set up in my football ... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 07:18:00 EST Right Now, I Am Just...0.4 lbs Down! One week down...a lifetime to go. I have a theory that whatever you can do for an can do for two hours. Whatever you can do for a can do for two days. Whatever you can do for a can do for two weeks. Whatever you can do for a can do for two months. Whatever you can do for a can do for two years. So, basically, whatever you can do for any period of time, you can do forever. So, here I go...onto forever, one day at a time. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 07:05:17 EST Mantra Speaking, Stress Busting Machine Almost a week of being back on track is complete. Today is my final day. I feel resolved to stay on's too hard to get back on after derailing...easier to just stay on...even though the going is rough sometimes. I read an article yesterday in a December was talking about how to get along and deal with that annoying relative that you encounter at family gatherings. But I thought the advice could be good in helping me to deal with clients and client advocates that I ... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 07:42:38 EST Good Saturday We had a nice day out yesterday. I still need to get the kabob sticks and fruit. We did get some cute football bowls and chips and salsa at the Dollar that store. Everywhere we went, I looked for the kabob sticks...was wanting the shorter ones...they're harder to find. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We also went to Half Price Books...I got a new Disney movie for a dollar. College Road Trip. I had never seen it...supe... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 08:40:43 EST Gearing Up For Superbowl Sunday I've spent the morning just cruising from one thing to the next on my phone and then the computer...looking through e-mails...loading digital coupons...checking out recipes...checking out Super Bowl party ideas and pinning them to a new board. I am planning to take fruit kabobs to our Chili Cook Off on Wednesday at work. So, I guess I need to be buying the fruit and kabob sticks for that. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am thinkin... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 10:36:32 EST Phone Woes - Over! Today was another "stellar" work day. Coming off a day 45 voice mails...give me a break. Gotta love that phone. If it wasn't for the phone, my job would be so much better. Oh cross to bear I guess. I just muddled through...returning calls all day. You do what you gotta do. One insurance salesman that I spoke with was particularly annoying and got under my skin...thanks dude...hope karma bites him in the ***. So, it's over...onward. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photo... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 21:23:30 EST Ecstatic I'm SO happy and excited! I hit 240 on the scale today! Who would've thought I'd ever be happy about 240? But I am. I gained back all my just beyond my starting point with SP. I originally started at 243. This time, I started at 246. When I entered the 240's several months ago, I thought it would be very temporary. I would get right back down into the 230's and continue on down the scale. It didn't happen. Despite many attempts to get back on track, I stayed in the 240's... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 08:09:33 EST Day 1 - Victorious Over Stress Whew...made it through Day 1...and what a Day 1 it was! VERY stressful. As crises kept occurring, I kept thinking, this is really testing my resolve to stick with my eating plan's a day that would have normally had me heading for the comfort of food. I fought my way through it though. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Strategies that I used... <BR> <BR> Writing. As things were happening at work, I opened up a word docume... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 07:19:42 EST Journey Plan Today, I start again. I've regained all the weight I had lost previously. :( Why? Too much stress in my life...not handling it well...obviously. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I began listening to a new audio book. It is about the weight loss journey of a successful dieter...called The Shift by Tory Johnson. It's pretty good. It's nice that she shares her journey. As I was driving home from work, I was thinking about what I had heard in her book and how I could apply it for my success. I know... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 07:29:16 EST Pace Car Journey I went to North Carolina and back over Thanksgiving. It was a long drive ... Over 9 hours ... And I did all the driving. One thing that helped me was finding a car in the traffic that was going the pace that I wanted to go and just following along and using it as my "pace car". Since my cruise control doesn't work, it was nice to just follow along and not have to worry about my speed all the time...the pace car did that for me. <BR> <BR> Today I weighed in... Something I've been dreading.... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 07:05:43 EST Stopping...Beginning I've journey to thinness. I've really lost my way and gained almost all my weight back. <em>39</em> I weighed in this morning at 234. But at least I'm not at 243...which is where I originally started SP back in 2010. I had gotten down into the 150's. What happened? <BR> <BR> This new job, mainly. It's a good job. But very stressful. I went through a major ordeal with someone from management when I first started. It really knocked me for a loop. I ended up wit... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 06:56:52 EST Day 7/One Week Food Sober...Feeling Some Relief So, I really like all the encouragement I received on the deep fried veggies (yesterday's blog)...and we are going to the state fair tomorrow...I'm sure they'll appear there too. I don't know what I will have tomorrow...but I plan to keep things in check...and stay food sober. <BR> <BR> Today completed a week of being food sober. My big success today was giving myself a break when I could feel the stress getting to be too much...instead of pushing myself on. If I had learned to do this wh... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 22:34:39 EST Day 6 Food Sober...Listening to Fullness Cues Completed Day 6 of being "food sober." I didn't track as I went through the day but did enter all my tracking this evening and was in range. I just try to set a limit for each meal or snack as I go throughout the day so that, when I do the recording, I should be okay...and it worked. <BR> <BR> For lunch, my co-worker and I went across the street to the county fair. We shared a plate of deep fried veggies. We jokingly called them health food. They were good...and somewhat healthy...we ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 22:41:53 EST Day 5 Food Sober...Stress and Weight Down Today was Day 5 of being "food sober" and I saw 225 on the scale...nice surprise. It's going down. But lately, I've been hitting about this weight and then slacking off and gaining it all back up into the 230's, then panicking and getting back on track. So, I know I really need to buckle down at this point, not feel "safe" and push on. It's the only way to break the yo-yo'ing. I'm wary and pushing on. <BR> <BR> It was a good day at work. My new girl is doing really well. I'm starting ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 22:02:04 EST Day 4 Food Sober...Doing Well I had another "food sober" day...Day 4 complete. Work has been pretty stressful and the fact that I'm staying on plan is encouraging. It's not like it's a totally easy time in my life and I'm not being challenged there's nothing to overcome. The challenge is definitely there. But I'm taking it in stride and just trusting that things will get better. <BR> <BR> The scale has been encouraging the past couple of days. <BR> <BR> Tonight, I watched Extreme Weight Loss...sup... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 23:32:10 EST Day 3 Food Sober...Getting Stronger It was a better day today. I spent my work day training a new employee so that kept me pretty busy and mind occupied. Somehow, that lifted my spirits. Yay! <BR> <BR> My DD decided (on her own without my influence) not to go for the home in the bad school district. I'm so relieved. I really didn't see that coming. So, yes, I worried, a lot, for nothing. I'm really surprised and relieved that she changed her mind and that she was upfront with her husband about her feelings on it. I do ... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 22:21:06 EST Day 2 Food Sober...Feeling Low I'm coming to the end of day 2 of being "food sober." I have felt a little down all day. The scale was not kind this morning and that was not a good start to the day. But I still know I'm better off eating on plan than I am overeating. So, I've continued on...feeling good or not. <BR> <BR> It's been a pretty low-key day. I watched a couple movies, did some reading, did some cleaning and organizing. <BR> <BR> My DD and her husband are looking for a home and they put in a bid on a house... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 21:12:32 EST One Day Food Sober This journey is really hard for me. I have asked myself time and time again why it is so hard. Over this past week, I've asked myself this again and I've observed my behaviors with food and the "whys" of my overeating. I got an "aha." <BR> <BR> I am eating for the same reasons that an alcoholic drinks...for the same reason that a smoker smokes...and for the same reason that a drug abuser abuses. I'm trying to numb a feeling, trying to blur the sharpness of a pain, trying to raise my spir... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 23:17:57 EST Walking Myself Happy Took the dogs for a walk this we all are sitting here cooling down. It was perfect walking weather...sunny and low 50's! Sweet! 7,282 steps and it's only 9:58 am! Rockin! <BR> <BR> We have a family get-together today. I'm a little stressed...hence the walk. I wanted to get my endorphin fill before the get-together. I don't know why I worry over gatherings...I'm just not a group person. So, I thought the endorphins might help. I know it will be fine. <BR> <BR> Yester... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 10:21:15 EST Day One Complete...Onto Day Two! So, yesterday, I made it through the day...tracking and eating in range. That's hard on a hardest day of the week at work...because the phone calls are insane. But I did it...and so I began my streak. I have a goal of 100 days. <BR> <BR> Lately, I have been getting on track and staying on track for about 10 days...then going off track for one reason or another...and then struggling to get back on track. This has been a pattern for awhile...and I'm really tired of it. I'm gla... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 18:21:16 EST Day One Complete...Onto Day Two! So, yesterday, I made it through the day...tracking and eating in range. That's hard on a hardest day of the week at work...because the phone calls are insane. But I did it...and so I began my streak. I have a goal of 100 days. <BR> <BR> Lately, I have been getting on track and staying on track for about 10 days...then going off track for one reason or another...and then struggling to get back on track. This has been a pattern for awhile...and I'm really tired of it. I'm gla... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 18:21:16 EST Oh My Aching Back! Sigh...another maintenance day on the scale.'s will drop...just have to hang in there. <BR> <BR> I went a bit over on my calories today. But, the good things are...I recorded everything...I didn't run away and hide...even with being over, I have a deficit. I only went over about 350 calories...from snacking. <BR> <BR> I got all my fondant characters ready for the birthday party. I made 12 tonight...6 tigers and 6 lions. The lions are the hardest because of the mane. ... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 23:52:14 EST Love is...sweets? Maintenance day on the scale again today. I'd like to see a drop's hoping... <BR> <BR> I've been down/in a bad mood/in a funk all day today. Things were just more frustrating to me than usual. I knew it was "just me"...but I couldn't get over it. I just tried to keep quiet and not "spew" all over anyone around me. Anytime I opened my mouth, only negative junk came I just tried to not say anything as much as possible. I didn't sleep as much as I usually do...and I d... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 21:48:32 EST Me First? Maintenance day on the scale today. I'm cool with that. I'm glad I am still in position to move on into "new" territory...well, at least territory I have been missing for awhile. <BR> <BR> We didn't get as much snow as they predicted. So driving to work wasn't too bad. I'm glad of that. Work was okay. Then, I donated plasma; and then we met up with DD for a quick supper and I drove her home. When I got home, I worked on some more of the cupcake decorations for the birthday party Satur... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 22:39:04 EST Snowy Sunday with the Baby My weight was back down today. Yay! <BR> <BR> We did get the snow I was hoping we would not get. I went and picked up my daughter and granddaughter and took my daughter to work and brought my granddaughter home. It was really icy, but I didn't really have any problems with it. My car does well in the bad weather, thank goodness. Funny, Little Bronwyn was mimicking my squeaky windshield wipers on our way to her mommy's work. She had us cracking up. Then, on our way back to my house, th... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 22:31:00 EST Good Saturday My weight was up this morning, but I'm giving it a day to come back down before I record it...since yesterday, I overate...but not enough for a true weight gain...I didn't take in an extra 3600 calories! So, I'm trusting the higher number is just a fluctuation. <BR> <BR> Today we went to the local flea market and walked around. It's indoors...and huge! It took us a couple hours to walk up and down all the aisles and check out any of the booths that looked promising. We were looking for s... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 22:45:18 EST Stressed is... I forgot to weigh in this morning. I had a lot on my mind. Then it was a very stressful day. I've been trying to work my way back into a good, peaceful place after a very disturbing day. I overate, too. <img src=""> So, my tendency to eat when the going gets rough is still with me. I guess that's another belief system I have to work on. Somewhere in my head, when I am upset, I guess I believe that eating something sweet will help. ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 22:20:39 EST Believing is Seeing Twas a maintenance day on the scale today. I'm okay with that...maintaining that new loss I got yesterday...very cool. I had a good day and got a lot done at work today. <BR> <BR> I spent time with my granddaughter, daughter, and son-in-law this evening. That was fun. I am extremely tired tonight. I have been donating plasma on Monday's and Thursday's and usually I come home and veg afterwards. But today, with their visit, I came home and went to work in the kitchen. I got kind of nau... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 21:54:39 EST Joy Returns The scale finally gave in and showed me my progress today. Yay! That was a nice surprise this morning...after sleeping for 9.5 hours! Good night's sleep! I went to bed tired and down after my Fitbit loss yesterday. But things were definitely brighter in the morning and it was a really nice day for me today. So, I guess I am over my bummer feelings over losing my Fitbit. I do think I am going to save up and get the Fitbit Flex though. Two of my co-workers today showed me their Fitbit F... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 21:35:12 EST Fitbit Sadness Twas another maintenance day on the scale. I'm hopeful a drop is on the horizon. <BR> <BR> Over lunch, I grabbed a quick bite and then went browsing at my favorite thrift store. I found a couple of things and then headed back to work. I realized when I got back to work that my Fitbit was missing. <em>234</em> Ugh. I retraced my steps in the office and didn't find it anywhere. I sent out an e-mail to my co-workers in case any of them found it. No luck. After work, I went back to th... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 20:31:42 EST Breaking Free from Emotional Eating Still maintaining...with no new downward movement. I am continuing to eat in range. Today, I had a pretty good day "step wise." I still didn't hit 10,000 steps. But I did do some walking during my lunch hour so, even with the sedentary work day, I had an increase over my usual work days. <BR> <BR> Today, I finished the Breaking Free from Emotional Eating book. I think I learned a lot from it and I'm sure it will be a re-read in the future. Currently, I don't think I have been doing mu... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 22:48:39 EST Healthy Eating Sunday Another maintenance day on the scale. It was discouraging to me today. But, you know, what's the alternative? Eat all my feelings and emotions under and face only the possibility of gaining or maintaining as a result? Nope...that's really not attractive to me. I'd rather be doing the "right" thing and waiting and hoping for the results to start to come about than to be self-sabotaging my hopes daily with food. It will happen. I will continue to give it time. If a month goes by, and I ... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 21:48:57 EST Creative Successful Day ANOTHER maintenance day on the scale today. Come on! So, I made some extra effort with my movement today. I am eating in range every day...but that alone is not getting the scale to move. I really didn't think I would have to increase my activity until I had been on track and lost some weight. But, it looks like I was wrong. So, today, when I was watching a show on Netflix and no one else was up yet, I paced back and forth through my living room and watched the show. I racked up 3,000 ... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 23:50:20 EST Two NSV's It was another maintenance day on the scale today. I'm still not discouraged, though. I recognized two NSV's (non-scale victories) today. One, I wore my jeans that had been washed and dried in the dryer and they fit GOOD...right off the hanger...even with a little room to spare. I had been wearing them and not washing and drying them so that they would fit in their stretched out state. But with the streak of eating in range, I noticed them starting to get loose. So, I decided to wash an... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 22:14:52 EST Compassion Fatigue I'm super tired. It was a maintenance day on the scale today. I feel like it will move soon. I just have to stay the path...and I am. <BR> <BR> I read some good stuff in my Breaking Free from Emotional Eating book today. It talked about compulsions and how they happen quickly and smoothly often before we realize it. We move to them to avoid pain. It states that we think we should not experience pain...and so we avoid it and try to get over it quickly when it hits us. So when we find o... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 22:06:35 EST Wellness Ideas To Try Today was a maintenance day on the scale. Work was a lot of work today. Meeting in the morning, then another meeting, then "putting out fires" throughout the day. Yikes. But I got through it okay with a good attitude. It didn't get me down and I'm happy with myself for taking it in stride. <BR> <BR> In the comments on yesterday's blog, Challenger75 said " Do you do Balance Rewards through Walgreens? You can get "points" for those daily weigh-ins, as well as activities that you record, t... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 22:03:28 EST