COMPUCATHY's SparkPeople Blog COMPUCATHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Progress and Fighting More progress has been made on the exercise room. The Total Gym is in. Two mirrors are up. And we put up a white board to track goals and progress. I did a 2-mile workout on the treadmill last night and completed my 10,000 steps for the day. Yay! 2 NSV's! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I am working at The Flying Pig 5k/10k. DD and I are supposed to be there at 6:45 am. Yikes! Not sure where we will have to park. I hope we get to work together somewhere on the course. Maybe, next year, I will... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 06:51:11 EST New Focus I think my SP friends are right. I need to focus on NSV's. The scale is currently very discouraging. Every day, it says the same or some variation of the same. But it is not giving me what I want...that next number down on the scale. So, forget it. I need to focus on streaks...of eating in range, recording, sleeping, and exercise. I need to set exercise goals and work toward them. <BR> <BR> It's like when you are traveling, you would drive yourself crazy if you read every .10 mile m... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 07:49:20 EST Working the Plan I did not exercise last night. I gave myself the night off. I went to bed early. The sleep felt SO good! I feel better this morning...not so exhausted. I am standing all day at work and so I am physically fatigued by that when I leave/come home. Hopefully, tonight, I will be up to walking again and can help DH finish the exercise room. Then, it's on to the project of decluttering and getting ready for the garage sale. <BR> <BR> I am working at The Flying Pig marathon this weekend. DD... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 07:54:29 EST Lots of Changes! Exercise room is almost done. We got carpet laid...a really flap nap...and hung the tv...and have the treadmill in and operational. DH was working on the weight bench last night when I went to bed. We still have a couple mirrors to hang and the Total Gym to put in. Then, just some organizing and it's done! Finally! Woo hoo! I had my first workout in it last night. Walked 65 minutes and got 2 miles in. Yay! <BR> <BR> I can tell my thinking is changing. I have not had any binges for... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 07:20:25 EST Bucket of Happiness! Fill-er-up! Today, was a party on the scale! 217.8! I skipped 219 and 218...went straight from 220.4 to 217.8...okay! Yay! Party! That was a fun surprise. <BR> <BR> Now, I'll get to drop my 218 goal stone into the "Done" vase. It's been sitting on my mantle for awhile. Done! Now, to work on 217! <BR> <BR> Today, we are working on, and hopefully completing, the exercise room! We got the yard work done yesterday. It looks SO nice. Big improvement! DH and I worked on it together. We had a r... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 07:49:35 EST I'm Getting It! I made it through Day 2 of eating in range and recording everything and standing at my desk. Yes! I am continuing to self-monitor to see where I'm at and what I'm feeling. When I notice negative feelings, I know I am being drained of my precious dopamine and am going to require a fill something pleasant as soon as possible...that is not a snack or binge. It's working. I feel like I am fighting a winning battle instead of a losing battle. It's so much more rewarding. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 23 Apr 2016 07:42:23 EST The Dopamine Trigger I did make it all the way through the day...eating in range and recording everything and standing at my standing desk. I had the goal of standing 1/2 the day...but I stood all day! Yay! I'm back on my feet! <BR> <BR> The scale moved ever so slightly 220.8 yesterday to 220.4 today. It's a start. I really do want to be done with I am pressing on. I figure, in reality, it does probably take 3-5 days to lose a pound (calorie-deficit-wise). Currently, I am not getting much exercis... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 06:49:26 EST Spinning My Wheels Hmmm...I'm spinning my wheels. <em>40</em> Since I got back from vaca, I have bounced back and forth between 218 and 220...mostly now staying at 220. Not cool. I need to eat, record, stay in range, get in motion, and let go of some pounds! 220 is not motivating. It's discouraging. I want it to be gone. I want to consistently see 21_ on the scale. So let it be let it be done. <BR> <BR> I should start my standing desk at work again. I gave it up when I came back from v... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 07:14:39 EST Following the Bread Crumbs Yesterday's class went fine. The role playing was not-so-bad. One lady in our group was really nice and knowledgeable and took the lead and helped us to feel at ease and get through it. Yay! I actually enjoyed it. I'm VERY surprised! <BR> <BR> DH worked on the exercise room some more yesterday. He got one wall all painted and the did some touch-up painting on the other wall. I think next will be a quick roller painting of that wall and then the ceiling. After that, we have a flat c... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 07:26:33 EST Class & Exhaustion Trigger Today, I have to go to Cincinnati for a make-up class. In the winter, I took a Leadership Course through my employer...but was sick and missed one of the today, I am completing the course. I'm a little anxious about the class. I know that in this class they did "role playing" and the thought of role playing with a group of strangers does not fill me with enthusiasm. Oh well...4 hours...and it will be done. I can do it. I must admit, the thought of getting my favorite donuts... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 06:49:31 EST Mindfulness I spent my weekend watching little GD's. Mom and dad worked all weekend and their other G-ma is out of I was "on." We did fine. Saturday, DH and I took them to a large local mall. We had lunch and then I rode the little train with them. They LOVED that. Then we let them play in the little play area. Then the 3-year-old rode one of the large stuffed riding toys that some of the malls have now. When we were paying for the ride, I was reading the directions...children under 5 n... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 07:51:27 EST Play Time! I'm still dancing with Mr. 219 on the ready for Mr. 218 to tap in! I'm also still coughing...not as bad as before...but that cough is hanging on. Ugh. Maybe Mr. 219 will take it with him when he leaves... <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Work today...TGIF! It's been a good work week. I've gotten a lot done. I'm caught up and keeping caught up and working on some projects now. Yay! <BR> <BR> Tonight, I'm watching the little GD's after work. My DD's are going to the preview evenin... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 07:46:16 EST Fast Week! I'm still working to get Mr. 219 into the "Done" pile. He showed up again this morning on my scale. I will keep piling one day on top of another...success after success...until he finally drops. I will win this battle. <BR> <BR> This week is going SO fast! I can't believe it's Thursday already. I had a super work day yesterday. I got so much done. I am COMPLETELY caught up now from being off on vacation. It feels great! <BR> <BR> So, I discovered today....whaaaaat!!!!... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 06:40:10 EST Motivated This morning, I watched an Extreme Weight Loss inspiring. There is a lot of work that goes into losing the weight...physical work and emotional work...and lifestyle change work. It seems those three things together make the transformation happen. <BR> <BR> Today, is my last day of my anti-biotic. I think my sinus infection is mostly gone. I am still having some drainage and coughing...but not near what it was. I am excited to get my exercise room completed and start using i... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 08:11:32 EST Celebrating! We went out to the movie and dinner last night. We saw The Boss and ate at the Rusty Bucket. My food was excellent. I used every inch of my calorie range yesterday...but still in range...and all tracked. This was my "reward" for completing the mini goal of getting out of the 220's. All day, I looked forward to the outing. It seems I am most happy when I am anticipating an upcoming event. It really helped to make my day "up." I think one of the good things about my visualization is the... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 07:20:29 EST Weight Lost and Water! Yesterday, I managed to do 9 of the 25 weight loss activities that I came up with in my previous blog. Today, I was down 2 lbs!!! Two stones into the "Done" vase! That brings me to completion of my current mini goal (to leave the 220's). Today, I was 219.4. Tonight, I am going to a movie with DH to celebrate!!! <BR> <BR> I pulled 5 new stones from the "weight to lose" vase this morning. I put 4 of them in my mini goal vase and left one out to work on. I labeled it 219. It's ready a... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 07:39:02 EST Losing...A Stone at a Time I managed to complete 8 of the 25 ideas for yesterday...and dropped weight. Bye-bye 222. One of the goals completed was the weight-loss visual. Here's a pic (as promised)... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The vase on the left has a stone for each pound lost (25). Each stone has a number written on it for the pound lost, i.e. 247, 246, etc. The vase in the middle has a stone for each pound of the current mini goa... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 08:35:07 EST 25 lbs down...25 things I can do...'s blog from the past was 76 lbs down and 76 blessings from having done so. Currently, I am 25 lbs down. This go-round I started at 247. Today, I was 222. I am a person who is good at working on the task at hand. I'm more about the pieces of the puzzle than the whole puzzle. I look at the details and work them out...more so than looking at or creating the big picture. With weight loss, the big picture is laid out. It is a picture of a woman who is at goal...who is at 120 lb... Sat, 9 Apr 2016 08:52:15 EST ABC Affirmations In my past blog reading this morning, I had written about being close to being 75 lbs down and running. Yeah, I want to be that girl again. Now, I am 25 lbs down and not running...or walking. Ugh. But I will get past this bought with bronchitis. And I will get back to exercising. And I will begin losing weight again. <BR> <BR> In my blog, I had written ABC affirmations that I was using when I run. So, I am challenging myself to do that again. Here I go... <BR> A...I am ABLE to recove... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 07:47:07 EST Moving Forward Still recovering from my sinus infection and bronchitis. It's a long road. When I got up this morning, I was completely clear. But then, as I have been up, things have started flowing again. Ugh. So, I guess I am getting better. I'm having moments of clarity...but it doesn't last. <BR> <BR> I have been able to work through it. I think my productivity has been on-spot. I've been getting everything done despite feeling bad. So, that's good. <BR> <BR> I talked to DH about some of my... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 07:58:21 EST Workout Plans I am continuing to fight the sinus bug. I think I am getting better. I felt good for a little while at work yesterday and I did manage to stay the whole day and work in-office instead of working a 1/2 day from home. My co-workers did a great job of maintaining my accounts while I was gone. I have one major account change that I am working through but it is going pretty smoothly. <BR> <BR> I know I need to exercise and strength train. I am not up to it right now, though. I am going to s... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 06:57:45 EST Sick but Pressing On I'm feeling pretty rough this morning. I did manage to sleep. But this morning, my ear is feeling a LOT of sinus pressure. It usually does not affect my ears that much. I'm SO glad I went to the doctor yesterday. This morning I started on Day 2 of 10 with the antibiotic. She also gave me an inhaler and I'm taking Mucinex and Ibuprofen. So many pills...for someone who usually takes nothing. She also has me on Culturelle. I have Asthmatic Bronchitis. She says my bronchial tubes are go... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 06:45:36 EST Back from Disney! We are back from Disney World! All 11 of us were able to whole family...two daughters, my son, and their little families. Here's our family photo behind Cinderella's castle... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Everyone had a pretty good time. We had some rain...but just put on our ponchos and marched was only on the first and last day. We walked a LOT. No problem getting my steps in. I did have a ha... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 10:09:51 EST Think it...Do it! I watched one episode of Extreme Weight Loss last night and one this morning. They are so inspiring. I think I'm getting it...again. In watching what they went through and the determination and effort they put in, I can see where I am lacking. I am not determined and putting in great effort. I am putting in "so-so" effort...and I start out hopeful in the morning...not determined. That's why it's not working. <BR> <BR> I still having packing to do. I did get a lot done yesterday...but ... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 09:52:58 EST Crafting and Packing Feeling happy...and crafty this morning. I made five puzzles for my GD for the trip. They are of her favorite characters from the Doc McStuffins cartoon... <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And I had thrift-purchased the perfect little pencil pouch to keep them in... <BR> <img src=" Sat, 26 Mar 2016 13:40:36 EST Bad News/Good News! Made it to TGIF!!!!! What a week! I have been a 10 on the stress-o-meter every day of this work week. Not cool. I truly am REALLY glad it's Friday. I need this week to be done and over. <BR> <BR> Found another creepy thing happening in our community. DD had DH come over this week and install motion-detector lights on her home. She had found where her screens were pulled up on two of her windows in the back. Yesterday, in her neighborhood, there was a couple that was going door to d... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 07:39:41 EST SP Bubble The scale was up this morning. I obviously overate yesterday. The stress at work continued. I can see a light at the end of the tunnel...just need to get there! I am using so many coping strategies...compartmentalizing...being in the myself a break...and obviously, eating. I just need to eliminate that last one. <BR> <BR> I've also baked a lot of things for our trip. I should be packing...and I'm baking...? Sometimes I think it would be nice to be able to see the fun... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 07:44:46 EST Crazy, Desperite People I think we are getting to a resolution to the issue at work. Today, I need to write something up on it...and I think that will mostly be done. I hope. It has been very stressful...but I am trying to take it bit by bit. I'm glad it came up this week rather than next week. It has opened my eyes to some of the criminal activity that is "out there." It's not something I usually focus on. But I guess we all have to be wary. <BR> <BR> This morning, I have had the news on with all the inform... Wed, 23 Mar 2016 07:48:42 EST Losing, Learning, and Spring I'm down a little bit more...218.8 on the scale today...1 pound from my previous low. I'm eating more and losing more...makes a lot of sense...? I have a large breakfast and record it and then throughout the day, I have my meals and few bites of other stuff here and there. I'm not binge eating. I'm not recording after breakfast...but the weight is going, again, keeping with what's working...for now. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a super stressful day at work. My head was spinning wh... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 07:25:33 EST What's Your 10-Year BHAG? Do you have a 10-year plan? I don't. Yesterday, I watched The Bridge and The Bridge 2. The characters talked about having a 10-year plan. Also, at work, in our strategic planning...the 10-year plan was the beginning point. Then, in my past blog reading this morning, I read..."I'm always telling her that you can't get what you want until you know what you want. She knew what rate she needed...she got it. I think that's why SP works, too. We know what we want. I knew I wanted out of the 17... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 07:31:29 EST Whatever Works... Man the scale has been nice to me the past few days! I was back to 219.0 this morning. Only 1.2 away from my previous low of 217.8. It COULD happen before vaca. What have I been doing different? Eating a large, healthy, breakfast and recording it. Then TRYING to behave myself for the rest of the day...there are a few infractions here and there...not recording...checking the scale the next day...and seeing weight loss...for the last several days! So, I am going to keep to this pattern u... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 09:05:31 EST Happy Saturday! Finished listening to NeuroTribes yesterday. The audible book was over 18 hours. That was a long one! I got some good information...a lot to think about. Now, I am listening to "Younger Next Year...for Women." So far, so good. I think it is going to be a lot of good information on nutrition and exercise. From what I have heard so far, I like it and am inspired. I can see I really need to change my sedentary lifestyle for the last 1/3 of my life...if I want it to be a good 1/3. <BR> <... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 07:51:47 EST Autism Understanding I had a good day yesterday. Worked from a lot done. I didn't have any time to work on my to do list. Once I had my work hours in, we went over to DD's house to help her with a raccoon in her attic. <BR> <BR> I only recorded breakfast yesterday, but I guess I did okay because the scale was down this morning! Yay! I'm making my way back to where I was. It would be nice to be back down to my recent low before I leave on vacation. <BR> <BR> TGIF! I'm going to work in-office ... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 06:37:54 EST Back in the Saddle Again! I made it through a day...eating and recording and staying in range! Yay! Focusing on relaxing and not letting my anxiety build up was a definite plus. It's much easier to knock anxiety down when it's at a 2 or 3 than when it's at a 7 or 8. Remember Barney Fife..."Nip it in the bud." Also, I love to watch the Dog Whisperer. He says the same thing. When you have a dog that is getting out of hand, you have to correct them and get them in line when they are just beginning to show any aggr... Thu, 17 Mar 2016 07:10:39 EST Making Myself Calm Down I have been doing a lot of reading, a lot of listening (to Audible), and a lot of writing. I can tell I am in super search mode. I had about 60 days where I ate on plan, recorded everything, and was losing weight...though slowly. Now, I cannot seem to get through a day eating and recording and my weight is up loss is taking place. <BR> <BR> I know something is "wrong" inside. I know the eating is a symptom...not the problem. So, I've done a lot of soul searching to try to ... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 07:36:24 EST Lessons for Failure? I had a very successful day at problem with QuickBooks resolved...and another large project completed. Yay! But I was really glad when the day was done...very mentally exhausting. <BR> <BR> Today, I am meeting with the supervisor from another program...hoping to come up with a solution to the dissention in the ranks problem. Whew. I hope she has some ideas...I'm really not sure what to do. <BR> <BR> I was watching Once Upon a Time yesterday, and there was a line in it that h... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 07:26:36 EST My Life...Disney-fied! I accomplished beginning two of my three streaks yesterday. I ate in range and recorded everything. And I got my 10,000 steps in. I got a start on the current "to do" on my list. Hopefully, I can complete it today and get that streak moving. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, DH and I had a good day out and about. We went to some different places in the area that we do not frequent, so that was fun. We found a few things we can use for our trip...a new cooler and some kid dvd's. We each had a coupo... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 07:29:28 EST One, Two, Three Streaks! I didn't do too bad yesterday with my eating. The scale gave me the thumbs up and was down a little. Yay! I didn't record my calories and really expected the scale to be up. But, I guess I did better than I thought! That's refreshing! <BR> <BR> Today, I need to start 3 streaks. One...eating and recording my calories...staying in range on calories, proteins, fats, and carbs. Two...getting one pre-vaca item done a day. Three...getting 10,000 steps in per day. One, two, three...sounds ... Sun, 13 Mar 2016 09:43:31 EST One Day... Feeling tired this morning. I stayed up too late last night. I have ticked another item off my "to do before vaca" list. Yay! I'm watching the GD's today. So, anything I get done will have to be done this morning. I'm no good at accomplishing anything when I'm watching them. <BR> <BR> I had a snack attack last night...and I didn't record anything except breakfast yesterday. Weight is up this morning. Today, I plan to eat in range and record and get the eating under control. I think ... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 07:32:21 EST My Dream... Rough day yesterday. There was a lot of work to do...then meetings...then discovered some dissention in the ranks...ugh. Now, I get to deal with that. I came home very discouraged. I ate. I only recorded breakfast yesterday. You know, I don't think I did TOO bad on the eating. I'm going to go back, after I get done with this blog, and record yesterday's food eaten and see where I ended up. I'm sure I was over...but these days, over, is not what it used to be. I did not binge eat. Bu... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 06:48:29 EST Energy and Progress! I got up early this morning. My mind was on overload working through a technical problem at work. Funny how we employ an IT guy; however, I end up being the "IT guy" in my department for any QuickBook situations that crop up. I was on the phone with QuickBooks Payroll Support for almost 3 hours yesterday and got a problem partially solved. I foresee another hour or two on the phone today to complete the solution. At least it's underway. The last time I called them on this problem was in... Thu, 10 Mar 2016 06:15:35 EST Better and Back At It I feel better today. I think whatever was plaguing my tummy has left my tummy. I got a lot of sleep yesterday. I did bare minimals of work from home and technically am taking a sick day. <BR> <BR> So, today, I will get back on track...going in to work standing at my standing desk, getting some decent steps in, working on my "to do before vaca" list, and eating in range. Yesterday, I did hit my range. This morning, I was down slightly on the scale. Lost 0.2. Now, at 217.8...creeping ... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 06:46:26 EST Sick Day I'm going to have to work from home today...and either work...or take a sick day. I have a sick tummy this morning. I don't think eating in range will be a problem today...well, I may not get to my range. I'm hopeful this is something a little rest will cure. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was GD's actual birthday. I spent a few hours in the afternoon with her and sissy and mommy. We had lunch and went shopping. It was a nice afternoon. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure if I will get anything done on my "t... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 07:06:49 EST Plans on Paper The birthday party went well. Everyone liked the cupcakes. I know I ate too much. I did not track. Here's a few pics from the day... <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=" Mon, 7 Mar 2016 07:51:14 EST A "Picture" -esque Day Yesterday went pretty good. I was over a little bit on my calories. I had my usual breakfast, then had some computer problems I had to deal with before we headed out for the day, and we finally got going about 3. So somewhere in there, I missed lunch. At first, I was okay because I had snacked a little while finishing up the cupcakes. But then by the time we did eat around 5 or 5:30, I was SO hungry. I wanted spaghetti and got it...and ate the whole thing...a whole day's worth of calori... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 10:37:10 EST Persist...Persist...Persist...and Succeed! Yesterday's NSV's...baking and not binging. I am making cupcakes and a gingerbread castle for GD's birthday. Here's what I have so far... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So far, so good. Next, I need to ice the rest of the cupcake... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 08:46:22 EST NSV's, The Scale, Weight Loss I noticed two NSV's yesterday. One, my pants that I wore yesterday...felt so good! They still fit, but NO binding...just loose and comfy...nice! Last night when I got ready for bed, I looked in the mirror and notice "face weight loss." I have little dimples showing in my chin that were not there before! It's happening...whether the scale is acknowledging it or not. <BR> <BR> Then, this morning, the scale gave in. Down 0.6 lbs...finally. I'm as 218 even. Yay! Now, on to that next pou... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 07:07:49 EST A Better Day Today... I discovered a good NSV yesterday. It was a particularly stressful day as I attended the strategic planning meeting and it did not go well. After leaving work, I dropped off some mail, picked up some items from DD's house that I needed, and went to a local shopping area to browse and lift my spirits. I thought it was particularly good that I realized how down I was...a 1 on a scale of 1 to 10...and I did something about it that did not involve eating...distracting myself by walking around ... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 07:07:53 EST Challenge Focus instead of Scale Focus Yesterday, I came home exhausted. I did stand all day at my desk. It wasn't a super stressful day. I guess the standing just wore me out. I didn't do my steps in the evening. I did manage to eat in range, though my supper was not as light as I would have preferred. I only hit 3,592 steps. <BR> <BR> Today, I have to attend the strategic planning meeting for our company. So it will be a mentally exhausting morning. I'm not sure if they are providing breakfast, but I think they are. So... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 07:06:47 EST Clarity! Continuing to flip my meals...continuing to wait on the scale to move. I'm really glad I made my breakfast sandwiches ahead of time. I can guarantee I would not make them each morning...but just doing a 30-second reheat...yep, I can do that...and have been! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I was feeling particularly "down." And, honestly, I didn't know why. I did some writing and discovered that three things were bothering me. One, neighbor kids are coming onto our property and being destructive. ... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 07:37:23 EST