COMPUCATHY's SparkPeople Blog COMPUCATHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Popping Back Up! I didn't record my meals yesterday. I ate correctly for breakfast, lunch, and supper, but then in the evening, I had excessive snacks. I was cold and tired all day. I ended up taking a bath and napping in the evening. I finally got warm and felt a little better from the nap. <BR> <BR> Then, I worked another hour from home and went to bed. <BR> <BR> This morning, I'm craving sweets. I can see myself stopping at the donut shop on the way to work. It's happened. I hit have bou... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 06:52:24 EST Getting Physical & Exciting News! What a great weekend! It went way too fast. Is it really Monday already? Wow! <BR> <BR> I had a really physical day yesterday...lots of stairs, lots of steps, and bowling! Bowling with DD1 was the super highlight of my day. We had fun! I still did not score that well..but I had fun! I did decide on a different starting point for my approach. And I was getting so I could hit my mark when releasing the ball. So, I think I made great steps. <BR> <BR> Big news...DD2 is ... Mon, 23 Jan 2017 07:21:22 EST Good, Productive Day! Had a good day yesterday. DH and I went out for lunch, made a grocery list, and went to the grocery. His knee was killing him. So, I suggested he sit down up front and I would finish gathering all the groceries and then come and get him. So, he sat up front while I shopped. <BR> <BR> We came home and I got everything put away. I got DH set up in the recliner and started applying ice packs to his knee...20 minutes on/20 minutes off....while I did a dish-washing marathon. My dishes were ... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 08:20:49 EST Battle Won! Maybe there's something to that's darkest just before the dawn. Yesterday was a "good" day at work. I got a LOT done and feel like I am finally making some headway with this crazy account. Hallelujah! <BR> <BR> Thank you all for the encouragement and the prayers. I know they made a difference. The war is not over yet, but at least I won one battle. It's encouraging. Finally. Whew! <BR> <BR> So glad the weekend is here! I need to get my kitchen squared away, do meal plan... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 08:37:45 EST Work Woes Work continues to be awful. I have no choice but to just keep plugging along and hope that, at some point, it will be better. I'm to the point of asking for prayers from family and friends. Honestly, I never ask for prayers for myself. But I'm feeling so discouraged and miserable that I truly do not know what else to do. <BR> <BR> I seriously told my husband that I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown and hope this does not end with me in a psyche ward. He laughed. I told him, no, I'... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 07:09:02 EST Overcomer! Yesterday was trying at work. I had to intervene between a client and one of my workers...and I had to side with the client. I listened to both sides of things and made a decision that was not popular with my worker. I would have loved to back her actions and decisions up...but she was wrong and causing problems for the I had to reverse things. He had good points...he was right...she was wrong. I hated it but I had no choice. <BR> <BR> Afterwards, I reached out to my daugh... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 06:49:21 EST Understanding Cravings and Having Some Relief From Them! Yesterday was another good day on the books. I ate in range, exercised 120 minutes, did 10 flights of stairs, drank 10 glasses of water, and got 6.5 hours of sleep. I felt very sane and calm all a placid lake. I did not have any food is so nice to have a few days without peaceful. I thought, this must be what it's like for people who do not have an eating problem...this is nice. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure exactly what has quieted the cravings...but I'm... Wed, 18 Jan 2017 06:35:35 EST Moving Forward! Another successful day is under my belt! I ate just my 3 meals yesterday...actually ended up under my calorie range...but I figured that was okay...just left it there. I got all my steps in and did 2 hours of exercise...including 10 flights of stairs. Drank 15 glasses of water, though only 8 of them count toward the 5% Challenge team goal. Got 8 hours of sleep. Then, saw a drop on the scale this morning. Yay! Now, rinse and repeat! <BR> <BR> Things are still hard at work, but better t... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 06:56:19 EST Exercised to the Max! Sunday was another successful, on-plan day! Hooray! DH and I went out for lunch, then went thrift-store shopping, and then to the grocery. I found another crock-pot hook up unit at the thrift store...only $12.99...yes! Now I have three. I think these will be great for family get-togethers. I will be able to fix things ahead of time so that I can spend time with family instead of preparing food. That's my plan, anyway. <BR> <BR> I picked up some cute shirts for the GD at the thrift sto... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 07:04:56 EST Successful Day! Made it through the day...on plan. My weight is down this morning...coming off that new spike. Yay! <BR> <BR> I got more than 10,000 steps in yesterday. I was watching the GD's. So, while they watched some cartoons, I did my steps. GD told me "good dancing, grandma." I'm always telling her that when she gets up and dances with the music on the TV shows. Funny. <BR> <BR> I stuck to 3 meals with no snacks. I drank water throughout the day. It was a good, on-plan day. I didn't really... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 07:36:24 EST New, 8-Week Commitment The museum trip yesterday was fun. We went to The Children's Museum of Indianapolis. It's supposed to be the largest children's museum...according to their advertising. It is really big! 4 floors....many many interactive exhibits. The girls liked the Dinosaurs, the Doc McStuffins exhibit, the train exhibit, and the Playscape exhibit. They got to spend some time with their cousin who met up with them in the Doc McStuffins exhibit. He lives in Indiana. So that was fun. They were adorab... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 07:56:22 EST Museum Fun and Car Woes Still off-track with my eating. *Sigh* <BR> <BR> Going to the Indianapolis Children's Museum with DD and GD's today. We are going to see the Doc McStuffins exhibit and everything else that is there. It's a two-hour road trip to get there and two get back. I've packed a survival bag...for the kids and for me. I'm waiting for DD to come and pick me up. She was supposed to be here an hour ago. Hope everything is okay...I'm sure getting the kids ready is just taking longer than usual. ... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 09:06:04 EST Doing Better Whew....very tired this morning. Last night, I went bowling for the first time in many years. This morning, I can feel it. <BR> <BR> The scale is headed back in the right direction. Yesterday, I got an audible book...Positive Imaging by Norman Vincent far, very good. I did some imaging and it helped. I think this would be a good practice for me when I am facing challenges and needing to get a head re-set. <BR> <BR> Today, I am working, then watching the GD's for a little bi... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 06:48:21 EST Time to Let Go and Let God Wow...what a great group of people here on SP! So many of you left so much comfort and good advice on my blog yesterday! Thank you so much! I know I need to let go and let God....quit wallowing in self pity over this situation...and move on. <BR> <BR> I'm working from home today. I'm waiting for an oil delivery...we have oil heat. I figured the alone time would be good for me, too. <BR> <BR> Why do I eat when I am upset...when my "happy bucket" is tipped over? I think that's just it... Wed, 11 Jan 2017 07:16:17 EST Bad News... So, DH's knee is worse. He now requires an MRI and probable surgery. I feel financially threatened by it all...and am eating like there's no tomorrow. Ugh. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, work is getting better. I'm making progress with the messed up account. And yesterday was 10x better than last Monday. So, that's good. <BR> <BR> I know I just need to trust God on all this and lay the food down. But the realistic side of me is seeing into the future...and it doesn't look good...I've ... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 06:56:35 EST The Weekends Go Too Fast! I had a good Sunday. DH and I brought up all the games DD had in a bookcase downstairs. We wiped them down to make sure they were dust-free. We also wiped down the bookcase and brought it upstairs. Then we loaded it all in the Jeep to take to DD's house. <BR> <BR> We met up with her and her boyfriend for lunch. Then made a quick stop at Lowe's for a new kitchen faucet. Afterwards, we took the bookcase and games to her house and unloaded everything to her basement. That's one thing o... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 06:36:26 EST Good Saturday...Moving On! Had a good day with the GD's. We took them to a mall that has a nice play area and let them run and play for about an hour. Then, came back to the house for naptime. During naptime, we got our Christmas stuff down and packed up. <BR> <BR> I had a nice visit with DD when she came to pick the girls up. She stayed for a few hours and ate and watched TV and was nice. <BR> <BR> Not sure what we will do today...except we need to take our Christmas stuff to the storage unit. Oth... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 09:11:19 EST Doing Well, Tired, Losing Weight! Had a good Friday. I only worked about 4 hours. I had worked so much overtime already, I really didn't need to work for the hours...but did need to work for the workload. So, I got a few more things accomplished for the clients on this caseload. I still have not managed to accomplish all that needs done, but it's getting better. <BR> <BR> I spent the afternoon with DD's and GD's...I was feeling a little anxious about it because of the workload...even though I was into overtime, my though... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 07:00:43 EST On Top of the World! I'm feeling so good, it's scarey! I woke up early, feeling happy and excited and ready to get up! This usually is NOT the case. There's an excitement inside of me I have not felt for awhile. This morning, my weight was down. I'm near my pre-Christmas low. I had another good day of God's abstinence from overeating and eating on plan and in range. I also got my 10,000 steps in...while working overtime...only God can do that! <BR> <BR> Something has changed over the last three days. Now... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 06:04:38 EST Another Good, But Tiring Day! I had a good day yesterday. Work was hard but I let God lead me through it. Our slow cooker supper turned out good. I love coming home to a meal that's ready to serve up. Then, in the evening, I got my steps in. Yay! <BR> <BR> I took my car and dropped it off at the garage last night. It's getting an oil change and hopefully getting the squeaking when turning problem fixed. I'm also having him check two other things and give me estimates on those. I may or may not have them repaired ... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 06:26:48 EST God's Great Day! I had a really good day yesterday. I planned my meals for the rest of the week...mostly crock pot suppers. Then DH and I went to lunch and to the grocery. When we got home, I started our slow cooker meal for the evening. Since I had worked the day before, I didn't have to be at work until the afternoon. I went in for a couple hours and got as much done as I could. <BR> <BR> The slow cooker meal turned out good...and I felt like I was really eating healthy...stew meat and vegetables. I ... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 07:18:13 EST Realizing I Need to Turn this Over to God Yesterday was halfway good/halfway bad. First of all, we worked on the exercise room. We had previously set up a workout room in the basement but never completely finished it. In making our plans for 2017, we listed finishing this room as a #1 is so close...might as well finish it and get a sense of accomplishment before starting a new task. So that turned out to be an all-day project...mostly for DH. I wanted to help...but he was wiring lights which I cannot really help wi... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 08:38:33 EST The Key! Living Amends! I have so much new info, I don't know where to begin. I just read the SP article about how to lose 100+ pounds. It was very encouraging and had some info I had not heard before. It stated that we can gauge our needed calorie intake by multiplying our current weight by 14 or 16...then subtract 500 to 1000 calories to create a deficit for weight loss. 3136 would be my current "needed" calories...2136 would be my deficit number. Wow. That's way more than I have been shooting for. So, I gu... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 09:19:18 EST New Year...100% On Track! Happy New Year! This is my favorite beginnings...a chance to set goals...the spot where we are 100% on track. I used to tell my kids on the first day of school...just you have perfect attendance! That's how I feel about New Year's Day. Just think, today I have perfect compliance with my plan. <BR> <BR> What is my plan? Two things...eating 3 small meals a day (300-500 calories each). Getting in10,000 steps daily. That's it. I'm keeping it simple. I'm HOPEF... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 08:13:11 EST Rough Times I'm in the pit. ...gaining weight...overeating...exhausted. I know this cannot continue and I'm going to have to do an about-face. I'm going to work on that today and this weekend. It should be easier to work on when I am not being bombarded with more work than I can possibly accomplish. The account I have to cover for a co-worker while she is off is a mess and way behind. I'm doing all I can to straighten it out...but it's pretty bad. <BR> <BR> Last night, I dreamed about sleeping..... Fri, 30 Dec 2016 07:57:36 EST Dealing with Discouragement Yesterday did not go well. I was discouraged at work. I had no desire to go in...but I did. I worked in office until lunchtime. Then, I met up with DD1 for lunch. I felt WAY better after meeting up with her and talking. I went from a 2 to a 10. Then I finished out my day working from home. Discouraged feelings returned as I worked on a co-worker's account...that is a total mess. She is off for 6 weeks beginning today. So, I will be playing clean-up. Not happy about that. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 06:28:23 EST Seeking an Answer I am feeling a real need to see a change on the scale. I'm really tired of seeing a repeat of the same numbers over and over again. I've been seeing the same range of numbers for about 3 months now. When I started OA and re-started SP back on 9/15, I saw a nice decline in my numbers to bring me into this range...then nothing...well, it varies daily between 220 and 224, for the most part. So, what I am doing is not working for weight loss. It works for weight maintenance, but not weight l... Wed, 28 Dec 2016 06:52:37 EST Nice Day Off! DH and I both had yesterday off, due to the holiday being on Sunday. We spent the day at home in the morning and then went out to eat for lunch and met up with DD2 and GD3. Then we went shopping, ate supper, and came back home. <BR> <BR> I spent the evening playing with my embroidery machine. I learned some more about it and did my first sweatshirt and my first t-shirt embroidery. I also did my first design download and installed it on my machine. The next thing I want to try is appliqu... Tue, 27 Dec 2016 06:54:40 EST Christmas with Family We had a really nice Christmas with our family. My girls and their families both came over and we exchanged gifts and had lunch together and then visited for awhile. It was nice. <BR> <BR> Meal prep continues to be a challenge for me whenever we have get-togethers like this. This time, I was just heating up a spiral sliced ham and making some instant potatoes. I figured this was simple and not so time-consuming so I could handle it along with visiting. But it was still hard. Just measu... Mon, 26 Dec 2016 08:19:14 EST Merry Christmas! Had a wonderful Christmas Eve day and evening. DH and I went to an outlet mall and met up with DD2 and GD2 and GD3. I splurged on them a little at the Disney outlet store and we had lunch together and walked around. Then DH and I stopped at the grocery and then headed back home. We didn't get back until supper time. So, we ate a quick, simple supper...then I set up my embroidery machine. <BR> <BR> It was a little concerning at first. I was having difficulty getting it threaded for the ... Sun, 25 Dec 2016 07:28:45 EST Nice Day at Home Had a good day at home yesterday. DH was home too as he had gone to the doctor for his knee. The doctor thinks it may be arthritis and gave him some meds to try for a week and see if it helps. I'm hopeful...but no convinced that it's arthritis. My mom and aunt both had arthritis. I know there are different types. So, we will see. <BR> <BR> We got a lot of cleaning done in the kitchen. I baked a couple things for our get-together on Sunday. Then, we watched "It's a Wonderful Life" and... Sat, 24 Dec 2016 08:36:04 EST Blessed! for 4 days...and Christmas on the horizon...and I've been free of binges for a week...and the weight is releasing daily...I'm so blessed! It doesn't get any better than this! God is so good! <BR> <BR> I'm so happy with all the positive changes I am seeing. It feels so good to be on-track with my eating...and seeing results. <BR> <BR> Today, I'm going to bake and clean house and play with my Christmas present. I got an embroidery machine for Christmas. So much fun! I haven't... Fri, 23 Dec 2016 08:56:35 EST Feeling SO Good and Positive! This journey has taken a huge, positive turn. The weight is releasing, my faith in God's healing is strong, my thinking is clear, and I can see and feel a strong positive change taking place inside. <BR> <BR> I am declaring God's promises over my life. Yesterday, I purchased Think Better, Live Better by Joel Osteen on Audible. good! I listened to it yesterday while working from home. Now, I'm giving it a second listen. He gets it...and he is so good at relaying it to me. <BR> ... Thu, 22 Dec 2016 07:31:39 EST My Living Amends So, yesterday, I tried something different with my eating. I cut back on my lunch. My eating included a small breakfast (approx. 200 cal), small lunch (approx. 200 cal), medium supper (approx. 500 cal), and then small snack (approx. 200 cal). I finished the day with 1,186 calories just under my 1,200-calorie range...AND today the scale was down. Finally! <BR> <BR> I'm going to try this again today and see if the weight loss maintains/goes down again. I really don't mind limi... Wed, 21 Dec 2016 07:11:47 EST New Strategy I had a good day yesterday...ate in range...had snacks but no binges...lost no weight. Not losing weight is not working for me. I'm glad the binging is stopped. For me, it is a form of insanity which I realize is serious and so not doing it is a great improvement. However, I'm living in a body with decades of evidence of my past...over 100 pounds of extra weight. I want it OFF! <BR> <BR> It is discouraging to eat in range and not lose weight. It is doubly discouraging to exercise and e... Tue, 20 Dec 2016 10:13:21 EST Figuring It All Out Back to tracking...I thought I did pretty good yesterday...I had my meals and a couple of controlled snacks...but did not track. Today, the scale was up a pound...what? I even did my steps! So, I entered my food for yesterday, to see if my head calculations were off. They were off slightly. I did go over my calorie range by 300 calories. I filled in all my numbers on my spreadsheet and plan to continue this for awhile to see if I can figure out what makes the difference of whether I hav... Mon, 19 Dec 2016 07:31:55 EST Busy, Good Day! Yesterday was busy, busy, busy. Got the GD's up and took them home so GD2 could get ready for her recital...then off to the ballet recital. Adorable! She did really well and didn't have any stage fright! Amazing for a 3-year-old! It took me back to when my daughters were little and did dance. So cute! <BR> <BR> Afterwards, we all went out to eat together. We were a party of 10. We went to GD2's favorite restaurant...Frisch's Big Boy. It took them FOREVER to seat us. Once we finally... Sun, 18 Dec 2016 07:05:18 EST Successful Restart Day! Day 1 of my re-start was a success! I ate only 3 meals and today the scale was down! Yay! My breakfast was "normal" and tracked. My lunch was completely weird...popcorn, fruit snacks, kisses, and pretzels (about 500 calories) the movies. McDonald's for supper...watching the GD's (about 600 calories). So, even though I did not enter the items for lunch or supper, I think I was probably in range. Yay! <BR> <BR> My steps were 7, not quite at goal there...but in the range of ... Sat, 17 Dec 2016 07:19:13 EST Day 1...Re-Start...Cathy who... Re-starting today. It seems like a terrible time for a re-start...right before Christmas. Or is it a perfect time? I guess it all depends on your perspective. So far, today, I am on track...for the whole 1.5 hours I have been awake. I weighed in...225. I went to eat breakfast...did not want it...could still feel food sitting in my stomach from the night before...decided to fast through breakfast. After an hour and a half, I got now I am having breakfast...already tracked. <... Fri, 16 Dec 2016 08:40:52 EST Pushing Too Hard...Eating Too Much Yesterday, I made it through the day on track up until after supper. I tracked breakfast but did not track lunch...though in my mind calculation it was "on track." <BR> <BR> I think I am pushing myself too hard. I worked some after supper from home and that is when the snacking/binging occurred. <BR> <BR> Before going into work today, I already have 20 hours in. We are up against the "end of year/beginning of year" crunch and I have an employee that is going to be off beginning the 29t... Wed, 14 Dec 2016 06:55:28 EST Two Surprises My first day back to work after vaca was not too bad. We had one major incident that I had to deal with; but other than that, it's just a matter of getting caught up. Yay! <BR> <BR> In weighing in this morning, my weight is back down to pre-vaca weight! What? Surprise! I'll take it. <BR> <BR> Last night I went through Step 8 of OA. I've been baulking at doing this step. It is "Made a list of all persons we have harmed and became willing to make amends to them all." I followed the in... Tue, 13 Dec 2016 07:37:34 EST Working the Program Yesterday was another less-than-perfect eating day. I had the GD's all day (and all night the previous night). GD2 begs snacks from me it's hard to pass them out to her...and not indulge myself. That was my slippery slope that got me yesterday. <BR> <BR> I called my sponsor last night, as scheduled. I didn't know what she would say to me. I was honest with her that I had gone on vacation and did not do well with my eating. She asked me if I had a good time. I said, yes... Mon, 12 Dec 2016 06:55:24 EST Happy Sunday! Yesterday was a partially good day. I made it on plan up until about 2:30. Then the snack cravings were too strong...and I gave in. We had gone and gotten our Christmas stuff. We put away all our suitcases and stuff. We made a place in the living room for the Christmas tree. I started to feel overwhelmed and crave the snacks and a break. I gave in. <BR> <BR> But before the fall, I did attend an OA meeting. I ate in range and recorded my breakfast and lunch. I got some steps in...mad... Sun, 11 Dec 2016 08:57:05 EST Vaca Analysis and POA So, I'm back from vaca. I gained 5 eating was extensive. We had a free breakfast buffet my breakfast calories were probably 3-5x normal. We often had snacks in the park...and the lunch and dinner portions were also large. So, while I did walk like crazy, it didn't offset the extensive eating...sadness. <BR> <BR> Before vaca, I was drinking only water...the last few days of vaca, I had diet cola again. I had given that up months ago. So, today, I am working on rel... Sat, 10 Dec 2016 10:24:04 EST Last Day of Vaca We toured Magic Kingdom one last time yesterday. We rode a lot of rides with GD. She LOVES the rides. She is all smiles when we are on them. She is good at getting off now, too. There was a time when getting off triggered a major melt-down. She's improving so much! <BR> <BR> I've loved going to all of the parks with DS and DIL and GD and DH. We've all had a really good time and it was really good bonding time with GD for both myself and DH. Today is the worst day of vacation...the la... Fri, 9 Dec 2016 07:51:04 EST Epcot! Yesterday, we toured Epcot. That park is huge! I got in 20,125 steps. GD is doing great walking the parks. It amazes me that her little 4-year-old legs can walk so much. She takes 5 steps for every 2 of she's REALLY logging the steps! <BR> <BR> Our rides yesterday included, Finding Nemo, Frozen, and Test Track. She got to meet Mickey, Minnie, and Goofy at the Character Spot. We toured all the countries. We ate at The Land and the Electric Umbrella. <BR> <BR> <img src="htt... Thu, 8 Dec 2016 08:41:20 EST Hollywood Studios! Yesterday, we went to Hollywood Studios theme park. We saw the storm troopers march in. Then, we went to the Frozen Sing-Along. As I was sitting next to GD...and my DS was on the other side of her, I must admit, I got a little teary eyed listening to DS sing the Frozen songs to GD. What a great dad! Then, as we were leaving, I was walking out behind a family and the dad was wearing his daughter's light blue frozen backpack on his back...which you KNOW, the daughter had to bring...and the... Wed, 7 Dec 2016 07:54:42 EST Magic Kingdom Fun! Yesterday was another great day at Disney! We went to Magic Kingdom for the day. We rode the monorail there. The Polynesian Resort is across the street from our resort, so we walked over there to catch it. It's a bit of a walk...but worth it. It took awhile to get through the gates...then we were on our way! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We saw a parade come down Main Street. We did the Buzz Lightyear Space Ranger... Tue, 6 Dec 2016 07:59:46 EST Having a Great Time! <img src=""> We're in Florida! Yesterday DH and I spent a few hours at The Florida Mall...walking around and shopping a little in the morning/afternoon. Then we drove on to Disney's Shades of Green to meet up with DS and family. It's a beautiful resort! There are lots of walking paths and a great kiddie pool and beautiful grounds. While we were waiting for DS to arrive, I did laps through the lobby, front ent... Mon, 5 Dec 2016 07:27:50 EST Vacation and Back to It! We made it to Sunny Florida! Amazing that you can leave Ohio at 50 degrees and 1.5 hours later be in Florida at 75 degrees. Love it! <BR> <BR> Everything went well yesterday. I left the house just as I wanted for DD1's house-sitting...just did not get a chance to decorate. But it's clean and comfortable for her. I think we remembered most everything...except ear buds...purchased those at the airport...I'll have to add that to my packing list. I have a list on my phone that I use for ... Sun, 4 Dec 2016 08:51:49 EST