COMMUNITY10's SparkPeople Blog COMMUNITY10's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community January Plans. Hello! <BR> <BR> Happy New Year! <BR> <BR> I love reading all the uplifting blogs. New year, new start! All the blogs have me very excited and motivated. <BR> <BR> Here are my plans... <BR> <BR> - track as much as possible. it helps me make smart decisions and keeps me accountable. the more I track the more i'm on sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> - drink water on weekends. i drink it all week but apparently don't drink any on the weekends. <BR> <BR> - be motivated and positive! <BR> <BR> I'm goi... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 11:24:50 EST Watch Me Shrink - Nov 18. Watch me shrink was pretty successful the last couple times I did it. So here I am again, with pants that don't fit, that used to. <BR> <BR> Yes it sucks to put on pants that don't fit, BUT it feels so amazing when you see the changes and finally get the pants to fit. <BR> <BR> So here we go again... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 18 Nov 2013 20:51:45 EST Sunday Nov 10. I'm still around... haven't been tracking this weekend but I think i'm making okay choices. <BR> <BR> I worked out 3 days last week and I would like to do 4 days this week! I am slowly realizing the need to track, especially on weekends. I hope this coming week I will make some better choices then last week and continue on with the same motivation I have right now. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone had a great weekend! <BR> Sun, 10 Nov 2013 16:17:24 EST Lost. I am ready to commit myself to this process once again. I will put in the work and make the right decisions. Seems so easy, when I say it like that. But apparently it is the hardest thing for me! <BR> <BR> I'm back up to my heaviest and only put in some effort to this process and wonder why I don't get results. I need to clear my head and recommit to the changes I was making before, because with that I was able to see changes in myself and body. <BR> <BR> I have gone through old blog posts... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 10:27:24 EST Awful Spark Friend. I haven't blogged since March 10th! Eeekk!! <BR> <BR> This blog isn't going to tell you about all my accomplishments... unfortunately. <BR> <BR> I have lost ALL my motivation. I'm almost back at my heaviest. I feel disgusting, lazy and unmotivated. <BR> <BR> I have been steadily gaining and losing since... forever. Apparently I can't seem to understand the concept of losing weight. I quit my gym membership in April and i'm just realizing now that, that was the only reason I didn't gain a l... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 08:29:02 EST Weight Watchers. Weight Watchers is amazing. Especially now after all the changes they've done with the program since I last tried it. <BR> <BR> Having two co-workers who are paying members of the WW program is such an amazing benefit to me. I get everything I need without forking out the money, and they are there to lean on. <BR> <BR> Since Wednesday, I'm down 2 lbs! And the best thing? I'm finding it A LOT easier to track on weekends! Weekends have been known to be my downfall, but not this time! I get 49... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 16:33:40 EST I'm Still Here! I'm doing Weight Watchers! <BR> <BR> Well... on my own without having to pay all the money. I needed a break from counting calories and inputting all the info into Spark. More times than I can count, I wasn't inputting the information because I was lazy, not eating right, not motivated or didn't want to go on the computer to do it. When I don't track, I don't lose. <BR> <BR> With doing Weight Watchers on my own, I track my food by writing it in a planner, so it is quick and efficient. I fee... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 20:23:31 EST Wow. It's been a month since my last blog. So disappointing :( <BR> <BR> I am finding my motivation to get back on track and I'm going to take it one day at a time. I have tracked my food for tomorrow, so day one will be great! <BR> <BR> I am going to get back on track! Too much weight gained. Motivation and self confidence has disappeared. I will do this! Tue, 26 Feb 2013 20:12:56 EST Weekend Recap. Well... <BR> <BR> I didn't track this weekend. I know :( I just can't seem to force myself into doing it. <BR> <BR> But, the good news is that I don't think I went over by a crazy amount. It still would have been helpful and probably would have seen a loss if I did so. Maybe I'll learn sometime. <BR> <BR> On a better note- I went to the farmers market and loaded up with fruits and veggies on Saturday. I love how cheap everything is! The grocery store is such a rip off! <BR> <BR> I made a... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 17:05:45 EST Slow Start. Being off track for so long, means a very slow start to get back at it... for me anyways. <BR> <BR> I'm ready and more focused now! <BR> <BR> I'm making better decisions most of the time, but i'm still struggling during the weekends. I plan on changing that this weekend. I'll continue to make positive steps in the right direction. <BR> <BR> A slow start is better than no start at all. Tue, 22 Jan 2013 19:22:02 EST Jan 14th 2013. I am feeling really positive about this week and the changes I will make. I am in control and I feel good about tackling this head on. <BR> <BR> I work 13 hours today, so I packed and tracked everything I plan on eating today. I also got in a great workout this morning. I WILL go to the gym 4 times this week. It's a must! <BR> <BR> I plan on trying some of my new recipes later this week also! <BR> <BR> Mon, 14 Jan 2013 13:44:51 EST January 3rd Check In. I tried a new recipe from my new Hungry Girl cook book last night. It's nice to know the calories already in the serving and being able to tweak it a bit. I made a turkey meatloaf and the recipe called for cheese, but instead I decided to not include the cheese. I am addicted to cheese, so where I can cut it out, the better! <BR> <BR> I have gone to the gym both yesterday and today and I am finding it very difficult to get back into it after like 2 weeks off. I'm not burning as many calories... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 10:57:49 EST January Goals. I'm going to attempt to set realistic goals because I am finally back and feeling motivated and I don't want to undo those things by setting crazy unachievable goals for myself. <BR> <BR> * Gym a minimum of 3 times a week <BR> <BR> * Start going to the gym on weekends <BR> <BR> * Track my food. Regardless of the outcome <BR> <BR> * Lose 5 pounds of the weight I put on <BR> <BR> * Blog more! Tue, 1 Jan 2013 20:11:26 EST 2012. This year has been really amazing for me. My relationship with Jay has been great and more than I can really put into words. We took a huge step and bought a house together and have a joint bank account. I feel so at home in my house and it's been a feeling I have been missing for quite a while. Living with him has been natural and something i'm so proud and glad we did together. <BR> <BR> I'm really happy with my job and don't see that changing any time soon. Because of this job, I was abl... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 09:48:54 EST Month Away. I've been coming on sparkpeople regularly but I haven't been blogging. It's been almost a month, OOOOPS. During that month, I've worked out quite a bit, but haven't really tracked much. <BR> <BR> I don't know what my problem is. My motivation is not there and hasn't been for quite some time. I don't know how to find it again, or why is has disappeared but something needs to happen soon. <BR> <BR> Luckily during this month, I haven't gained any weight and haven't made seriously awful choices... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 08:05:38 EST November 9th. I've been doing pretty well this week. I went to the gym Monday, Wednesday, today and I'm really hoping to go this weekend too. <BR> <BR> I have tracked all my food this week except for my dinner on Wednesday because it was a work function/team building night. With the exception of Wednesday, all my calories have been in range and i'm determined this weekend to do the same. <BR> <BR> I feel good about the choices I have made this week! Fri, 9 Nov 2012 13:08:31 EST November 6th. I rocked today. I ate perfectly, which felt like such an accomplishment, especially these days! I tracked absolutely everything I put in my mouth. I feel in control today and it is a great feeling, so I hope I can continue to take charge and keep this feeling going. <BR> <BR> I'll weigh in tomorrow and document that number and hopefully i'll be 10 pounds lighter by December 21st. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a great day! Tue, 6 Nov 2012 20:05:23 EST My Seven Week Goal. I decided that I needed to create a weightloss goal for myself. I know numbers aren't the only important factor, but I need to see a loss. I've gained way too much weight and I need to see some of it come off. <BR> <BR> I have given myself 7 weeks to lose 10 pounds. My weigh ins will start on November 9th to December 21st. I haven't stuck with my plans to achieve goals before, but I need to. I hate the weight i've gained and what I look like. So this is a must. <BR> <BR> So I need help... ... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 21:09:48 EST November 1st. I had a rest day but don't feel very rested! I kinda wish I just went to the gym, because I didn't end up sleeping in because Jay woke up early for work. I will be back at the gym tomorrow and i'm looking forward to a good sweaty workout! <BR> <BR> I haven't tracked everything I ate these past couple days... stupid halloween candy! But at least i'm working out! I will keep working on it and hope for the best. <BR> <BR> Thu, 1 Nov 2012 20:25:56 EST October 31st. I weighed in this morning and it said I have lost 2 lbs since Monday. So lets hope it continues to drop! <BR> <BR> I went to the gym this morning and burnt another 800 calories, making that 3 days in a row. I am going to take a rest day tomorrow and get back at it on Friday morning. <BR> <BR> Not too much to report, but I need to blog to keep myself accountable! Wed, 31 Oct 2012 21:07:26 EST October 30th. I finished yesterday strong and ate a really good dinner. I went to bed at 9pm (I feel a lot older than 25 lol) as I was exhausted. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning and went to the gym again and burned 810 calories! I had a great breakfast and lunch and I know I will be good at dinner too. <BR> <BR> I am going to weigh myself tomorrow and see what the scales says so I can mark my progress and go from there. <BR> <BR> Thanks for all the feedback and support as always! Tue, 30 Oct 2012 13:22:17 EST Daily Update. I've decided that I am not successful without spark, so with that being said I will be holding myself accountable to blog at least 5 times a week. I need to monitor the changes I see, emotions I feel and to all around keep myself accountable and together. <BR> <BR> I changed my weight again on spark. I have gained another couple pounds and it was hard to see but I will make that feeling help me. I woke up at 5:10 this morning to get my butt to the gym and I managed to burn 800 calories. I al... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 14:17:01 EST Jealously. Jealously has reared its ugly head... <BR> <BR> And unfortunately I have only myself to blame for the jealously I feel. My family has struggled with weight and so my youngest sister, my mom and I made a pledge to focus on our health and that was 10 weeks ago. Since then my mom has gained a few pounds, I have stayed the same with high hopes of losing weight and my sister has lost 18 pounds! I am beyond happy for her success, but I am jealous. With this jealous feeling, I have started to re-ev... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 21:11:21 EST October 9th. I feel really good about my attitude to tackle this week! <BR> <BR> I killed 800 calories at the gym and tracked everything I ate today! I am ready to be honest with myself and really put some hard earned effort into it. I have everything tracked for tomorrow and I know I can rock tomorrow just like I did today. <BR> <BR> I was WAY too naughty at Thanksgiving last weekend, so my butt needs to get back to it and really mean it. So i'm going hard this week and not giving into my pathetic excu... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 20:14:17 EST Let's Try This. I've been thinking a lot about my downward spiral and how it is ultimately affecting me. I have been slowly gaining weight/maintaining and I'm over it. I am no longer pushing myself and I don't see my goals and dreams clearly anymore. I am happy in every aspect of my life except for my health, which in my opinion is a huge factor. <BR> <BR> So instead of setting monthly goals and hoping I achieve them, I thought about seeing how dividing the month in half. I would have 2 time frames in Octo... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 20:15:35 EST 10lbs Heavier. I am exactly 10 pounds heavier then I was on September 19th 2011 <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> This number shows exactly how lazy I have been this year. No goals accomplished and making excuses every step of the way. I need to focus and regain control or else i'll be gaining a lot more than 10 pounds. I'm going to work really hard to get these awful 10 pounds off. <BR> <BR> I feel absolutely discouraged and it's an awful feeling. I can't believe I allowed this to happen and didn't watch out for ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 10:57:30 EST New Stage = Weight Loss/Gain? The newest stage in my life is that I just bought and moved into a house with my boyfriend! <BR> <BR> I love and am beyond excited that we are now living together and bought a wonderful house to make our home, but I don't want this new stage in my life to mean weight gain. Before this living arrangement I use to have most week nights to myself and I made sure I made great healthy meals and left the weekend to make meals Jay and I both love. It was not a great idea because I didn't end up los... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 20:16:02 EST Watch Me Shrink Update. Just wanted to do an update blog on my Watch Me Shrink Challenge seeing as it's been two months since the first one! <BR> <BR> I don't see a crazy amount of change in my previous pictures, but I am slowly getting smaller which means the clothes are eventually going to fit! These past two months have been up and down in terms of weight loss and gym time, but I finally hit a groove and i'm going to ride it as long as possible. So perhaps I'll see more change soon, as I am now putting in effort... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 20:23:37 EST Happy. I am so happy with myself this week! I've been so good in terms of food choices and working out! I feel like i'm on fire and really enjoying this feeling. I just hope I can remember how good I feel when I feel like I need to not eat healthy and be lazy! <BR> <BR> I love to see the scale drop, but I know it's my first week back to my healthy lifestyle, so i'm obviously going to see a bigger drop then other weeks. <BR> <BR> I have another weigh in tomorrow so we'll see how that goes!! <BR> <... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 09:25:01 EST Bob Harper. I just bought his new book and so far it has been very motivational and inspiring! Right now I need all the resources I can get my hands on. I have allowed myself to slack for way to long and it has been affecting my self esteem quite a bit lately. <BR> <BR> Just thought i'd share the book i'm reading!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 12 Aug 2012 20:41:32 EST Weekly Goals (August 6th). My Goals... <BR> <BR> 1/ workout AT LEAST 3 times during the week (Tuesday- Friday) and at least once on the weekend. The gym hasn't seen me on the weekend for a VERY long time! <BR> <BR> 2/ eat everything I get at the farmers market this week. no wasting beautiful and healthy food. <BR> <BR> 3/ drink water on weekends! I can never seem to accomplish this goal! <BR> <BR> 4/ stop myself from making excuses. <BR> <BR> Seems like a realistic set of goals for this week! Mon, 6 Aug 2012 08:51:26 EST Fail. I am on a very long winded and self induced down ward spiral. <BR> <BR> I have known this for a long time, but do I do anything concrete to change it? No. I don't know why I don't make the steps necessary to change this. I know I can, but I'm choosing not to. I have become lazy and unmotivated to change, which has made this down ward spiral continue for so long. <BR> <BR> I'm so sick of it! I need something else, I need to find my old motivation. I am slowing gaining the weight back that ... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 21:24:44 EST Restart: Day 2. I feel really good! Very motivated, but I always feel like this in the first couple days of a restart. This feeling needs to stay! I feel in control which is such a great feeling especially after so long feeling the opposite. My fridge is filled with some amazing veggies and good healthy food, something that hasn't happened for awhile. <BR> <BR> I started to re-read The Spark today and it really got me thinking about goals and really living a healthy life. I am not going to post them yet as... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 22:00:50 EST Recommitted. Here I am pledging my vow to get back to the healthy lifestyle I once had. I fell off the wagon and it has been a long time coming. I was floating along doing my thing when I felt like it but I'm maintaining and gaining some weight and I don't like it one bit. I need to be more careful with what I eat, drink and do. I am living way too luxurious in terms of my lifestyle when it comes to food and drink consumption. I vowed to not gain weight when I started dating Jay, but I have gained 10 lbs.... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:07:37 EST Complete Change? I think I am ready to really forget about the scale. Not forever, but for a decent amount of time. I keep it around and I continue to tell myself that it is helping me but I am figuring out that, no it isn't helping. I thought I would use it as a tool to learn and yes I do that, BUT I am relying on it way too much. I am stepping on it every morning, which is not good emotionally and mentally. I need to focus on the changes to my body and self esteem, that's it. The scale needs a new home for ... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 13:48:20 EST Not Great. This weekend sucked! <BR> <BR> I had great intentions, but they stopped there. I didn't eat the stuff I should have and drank A LOT of alcohol. I had an awful hangover yesterday, but today was a better day and i'm moving on from this weekend. <BR> <BR> I went grocery shopping tonight, so i'm fully stocked with a bunch of healthy choices. I'm hoping to see a loss this week. My goal this week is to work out Tuesday-Friday. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a great week!! Mon, 4 Jun 2012 20:40:02 EST June Goals. I am not going to associate a loss in terms of pounds this month. I have learned my lesson and I need to focus on something other than the scale! <BR> <BR> I want a very colourful June calendar and to get to that point I need to work out more then I did last month (11 times). <BR> <BR> * I am aiming to work out 15 times this month! <BR> <BR> * I will weigh in both on Wednesdays and Fridays. I want to do this so I keep myself accountable. <BR> <BR> I think June will be great! I'm excited ... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 09:10:48 EST May Reflection. Well... <BR> <BR> May did NOT go as planned. I did better then the months before, but I did not hit my goals. <BR> <BR> I had originally planned to work out 20 times in May... I worked out 11 times. It's a pass but not good enough for me. May was my first month back to the gym after signing up again for a year membership. I am now fully in the swing of the gym and all it has to offer, so no more skipping so much! <BR> <BR> I also definitely did not lose 5 lbs this month, which sucks but I... Thu, 31 May 2012 19:41:41 EST Tonight. I normally have to work 13 hours both Monday and Tuesday but not tonight! The girl I support is busy with a play, so that means I have the night off. I am so pumped and I know exactly how I will celebrate. I am going to BATCH COOK like it's my job! I am going to make this week an amazing one. I have the night to organize myself and get things sorted and ready. <BR> <BR> I need to end this month off right! <BR> <BR> I have decided to help keep myself accountable, I am going to weigh in on T... Tue, 29 May 2012 10:56:46 EST May 22nd. Today was a good day, FINALLY! I have been in a funk for awhile and it has gone on for too long. Granted during this funk, I continued to work out, but I need it all to go well for the funk feeling to go away. Summer is here which means enough temptation and bad food days because of summer events, that I need to do the best I can when I can and for as long as I can. I need to start a streak, and day one was today. I worked 13 hours and thought I would cave and just do what was easy but I didn... Tue, 22 May 2012 21:45:57 EST Watch Me Shrink Challenge. I need to start this again! <BR> <BR> I am again/still not seeing any weight loss on the scale and I don't want to let this affect me, so I will be taking pictures tonight of myself in the Guess jeans again to see if there has been progress. I had a lot of success when I did this before and it really helped get me through the times I was feeling down about my weight loss. Tonight is the night for pictures to be taken!! <BR> <BR> I'm going to work really hard this week at making it amazing! Tue, 15 May 2012 10:07:10 EST Paleo. I've been giving the Paleo diet/lifestyle some thought lately. I am not seeing any changes on the scale, which is fine because I know I am working out at least 3 times a week and i'm really busting my butt when I am there. Not seeing any sort of loss does get to me though. I have heard and see great things with going Paleo, so I thought maybe that would be the change I need to see some positive changes. <BR> <BR> I was thinking if I did attempt this, I would really focus on getting my healt... Fri, 11 May 2012 07:25:23 EST Tracking. My weekly goal is to track every ounce, bite, taste of food I ate. I think I am eating more than I originally track, so this week I am determined to track everything. <BR> <BR> This weekend was not a good weekend food wise as I had two BBQs to attend. But this week I plan on doing really great even though I work an insane amount. I will plan all my meals out ahead of time. I didn't go to the gym this morning, but my plan is to go Tuesday- Friday AM at least. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a w... Mon, 7 May 2012 07:12:53 EST Blah! I am doing great this week when it comes to the gym! I have gone 3 times this week... at 5:30am. I WILL be going again tomorrow to ensure I hit my goal of 4 times. I love going to the gym... well at least love it when I get there. My energy is great and I feel really good. <BR> <BR> What I don't feel good about is what the scale has been saying. I know, I know. I said I would only weigh in on Fridays, but I cheated and the scale has not moved. I know i'm putting some muscle on but, ugh it su... Thu, 3 May 2012 14:25:29 EST May Goals. I am determined to start this month off great and continue through for the whole month. I need this! I haven't really set any monthly goals in forever, so I figure it's time to do so. My May goals will mesh with my weekly goals, which it mean success! <BR> <BR> I have unfortunately been obsessed with the scale as of lately. It is not good and I am looking down on myself because of it. I know I am putting on muscle but I don't like seeing the numbers jump so high. My nutrition has not been th... Tue, 1 May 2012 10:34:54 EST Gym. I hit my weekly goal! <BR> <BR> I went to the gym on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Yippee!! <BR> <BR> And the weird thing? <BR> <BR> I ENJOYED GOING! <BR> <BR> I've been sore a couple of days this week but I weirdly like it cause I know it's good for me. One thing I noticed about the gym? I missed it. I missed going and working up a sweat. I get there and bust my a** to burn some calories. <BR> <BR> I told myself I wasn't allowed to leave the gym until I burn at least 600 cal... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 09:57:48 EST Update. I CANNOT GET ENOUGH OF MY HEART RATE MONITOR! <BR> <BR> Best investment hands down. It has given me so much motivation in terms of pushing myself and seeing the calories burned each time I work out. I love knowing how i'm doing and if I need to step it up a bit. Today for instance I lacked the energy but I still was determined to hit at least 600 calories burned before I had to go to work. <BR> <BR> I have also hit the half way point of my weekly goal of 4 workouts this week. I have went ... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 11:30:21 EST Weekly Goal. My weekly goal for this week is to hit the gym a minimum of 4 days. I went only twice last week, so I'm going to double that! I know I can do it, I just have to make it a really important priority. <BR> <BR> Within that weekly goal, I have made a mini goal to go with that one. The 4 days I go to the gym this week, I want to have burned at least 600 calories each gym session. This is very do-able if I am focused and working my butt off in the gym. <BR> <BR> I think these are pretty great wee... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 20:33:41 EST Packed & Ready. I have my gym bag packed and at the door. I will wake up at 515am and make it to the gym tomorrow morning. It is a must. I had today off because I worked 13 hours, so tomorrow morning it's game time. Mornings have been difficult in terms of waking up early, but I am only waking up early tomorrow and Friday. So I have no excuses, none! I am excited to get back into the gym, even if it's at 530 am. I can't wait to see my calorie burn and I'm aiming for at least 800 before I need to get ready fo... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 20:39:56 EST Positive Attitude. Lately I have been thinking about joining the gym again. It's been about 2 years or so since I quit the gym and I missed it. The atmosphere really gets me motivated and I love the availablity in terms of machines and workouts. The only thing that was holding me back was being stuck in a year contract and paying. I finally came to the conclusion that a year is nothing, but instead it's 365 days to get my body into the shape I want it to be. I can always stay on longer too, but it's at least a ... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 19:45:43 EST