COLEYMERRY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=COLEYMERRY COLEYMERRY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ New Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694162 Recently joined a BLC. I'm seeing other people be motivated and it's motivating me. I'm finding more friends who want to walk with me and that is helping. I've also taken to using a mat in my LR to dance on. Trying to get 5,000 steps in every day before I go to bed. My fitbit adds a bit of motivation as well. Wanting to keep the central focus of my life on spirituality and not exercise/diet. Looking for balance. Tue, 13 May 2014 12:16:57 EST Change of method http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609128 I'm doing things different these days. I signed on to settingcaptivesfree.com which is a free 60 day course that talks about how spirituality and weightloss relate. I'm realizing that overeating is a sin called gluttony. I guess I knew that, but I've heard it talked about so infrequently I guess I forgot. Anyway, I am focusing more on not overeating instead of focusing on what foods I eat. I've had some success with it for weight loss, but better than that-all my thoughts no longer revol... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 11:44:01 EST Have been at a standstill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488364 Well, the title sums up the moment. My focus on fitness has taken a hit over the summer. I'm still making good food choices most of the time but working out quite infrequently. I've got to do something different and I'm not sure what. I'm starting with some baby steps of charting and weighing again. I've lost very little ground considering. I made it halfway to my goal between Jan and my standstill and I hope to pick up right where I left off. Open to any small step ideas anyone would ... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 14:15:31 EST Looking for God http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337441 I have an old friend that I had lost touch with. I found out 3 years after the fact that he and his wife had divorced. He told me that he questioned his faith in God-but found that he was able to rediscover God and reaffirm that God was real and still with him. He had this new discovery as he went for walks in nature. I was encouraged by him to do the same...though I haven't lost faith in God, I'm certainly not where I was 10 years ago in a spiritual sense. <BR> <BR> I went for a walk ... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 15:50:45 EST On self hatred http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300844 Okay, in the past I have posted about self love and today I'm thinking about self hatred. The negative self talk is easy to come by and far more cruel and incessant than the commentary we would offer anyone else. Merciless. Whether it's self critique about appearance, performance, value or relationship interactions the inner voice has something to say. <BR> I knew a man once who named the critic as a way of separating that from himself. I don't know if he called it Marvin or Caleb or si... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 13:26:03 EST Success-not weight related http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297403 Okay, I had mentioned nerves in my last post. I want to report that the new situation went exceptionally well and the things I was nervous about became non issues. Not only that, but it made me more willing to work in this situation again. (I was filling in for someone.) So thanks for encouragement and prayers!!! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:40:38 EST Nerves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293085 I get nervous sometimes when I'm going to work in a situation that I'm not used to. That is what I will be doing this week. The goal is to make others lives easier and when you are being trained in on new skills it doesn't always have that effect. It is worth doing though, and practice will improve abilities. :) Praying. Tue, 19 Mar 2013 23:48:26 EST Playing catch-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286841 So this is what I've been doing lately: <BR> <BR> Skip gym 5 days...then go and try to make up for all the lifting I missed! <BR> Bringing water to work to drink....and forgetting to drink it <BR> going to the gym....but letting emotions determine the extent of my workout <BR> <BR> I've also been: <BR> <BR> Eating fast food...but choosing the healthiest options on the menu <BR> Skipping the gym...but doing cardio at home <BR> eating chocolate....but doing it in very tiny doses <BR> <BR> Thu, 14 Mar 2013 18:10:33 EST Feeling Sneaky! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284521 So, my husband wanted a naughty snack so I made him my homemade trail mix: <BR> <BR> walnuts <BR> flax seeds <BR> mini chocolate chips <BR> <BR> So awesome that he ate straight flax seed w/out complaining. He never asked...never knew. Tue, 12 Mar 2013 22:05:58 EST Feeling Womanly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283760 Feeling womanly, that's what I call the bloated week. Regardless of what I do right now regarding food or exercise-chances are I will feel the same. Womanly. This is the week when the hope is that I maintain and not gain. Ugh. It is the hardest week to stay motivated, avoid high salt content and get myself to the gym. Speaking of the gym...I think it's time I go back. I've been fudging a bit lately by calling cardio a complete workout. I will go today and make up for a little lost ti... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 10:34:25 EST Hesitant to say- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279058 Well, I'm getting further away from my plateau weight (4 lbs) but I still find it hard to believe I've broken through. I'm finding it easier to workout now that I watch music videos while I do. I lose track of time and just enjoy what I'm doing. I listen to the music of my eating disordered youth-back when excessive exercise was comfortable for me and I was at a weight that I would love to be at now. I also changed by fitness info on sparkpeople to better represent what I normally do and m... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 15:18:07 EST Finally 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273000 I've been plateaued for a few weeks now and finally made it down 15 lbs from my starting weight. I also discovered that I've lost 5 inches off my waist in that time. I'm not where I want to be yet-not even half way, but I'm feeling hopeful today that I will get there eventually. I definitely have more energy than I did and I enjoy listening to music and working out. <BR> <BR> Mon, 4 Mar 2013 16:04:11 EST On self love.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266029 Here is the thing. I am scripturally minded and self love has some negative biblical connotations such as: <BR> <BR> But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— <BR> 2 Timothy 1... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 13:14:55 EST Shy... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264815 Feeling lonely today-wanting to reach out to someone and not sure who. I read someone's blog today that talked about wanting to be thin so they could have friends. While I don't expect being thin to bring me more friends, I do think I have used weight as a way to hide. When I was younger I was very underweight and that was a way to hide too. I'm shy. Maybe as I lose weight I will grow in confidence enough to introduce myself to people and say hello. <em>40</em> Maybe not. I just wa... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 14:11:49 EST Spiritual blurb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263672 “Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own for ye are bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.” <BR> <BR> <BR> Interesting we are to focus on our body as well...I think that has been the easy part to ignore for me in the past. Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:46:20 EST Discouraged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262827 Well, I've been eating in the right calorie range and exercising every day. I not only gained the plateau pound back, but another one as well. If not for my husband's daily encouragement I would quit at this point because I get no where unless I do a full liquid diet. I feel like I've been retaining all the required water I drink and today I drank no water. My attitude could use an overhaul. Hope others are having a better weight loss week :) Mon, 25 Feb 2013 01:16:22 EST Gabriel Method http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259947 I'm starting to read a book called The Gabriel Method which talks about the psychological causes for holding on to weight. He thinks that if people feel it's safer to be fat-then their bodies will resist the changes they are making. If people are lacking in areas of their lives, say, spirituality, friendships, positive activities-they are more likely to try and make up for that lack with food. Anyway, he offers free visualization/meditations online for those who've bought his book and som... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 11:59:27 EST Broke the plateau.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258844 Yes, finally down the sticky pound. Visited my parents last night and for the second week in a row my mother insists that she sees no difference at all :( She will. She is very sweet and very honest-wouldn't expect less from her. Well, 14 lbs. lost is not nearly enough then. I will keep at it. (Thank goodness for my husbands daily encouragement-maybe less honest, but very needed.) I stuck mostly to proteins and it was my first day drinking the required amount of water this time round. ... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 14:03:23 EST On waking early... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257466 Well, I got up 15 minutes early today for prayer, but not exercise. It's a start :) Wed, 20 Feb 2013 12:09:54 EST Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257442 This is the first time I've been stuck at a certain number since I started losing weight this time round. Still eating right, still working out-but still stuck. This is the point I usually give up. Thankful for a sparkfriend holding me accountable this week-I should be able to push through. Open to suggestions <em>40</em> Wed, 20 Feb 2013 11:45:48 EST Yeah! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256863 The first person besides my husband to mention I lost weight crossed my path today. Granted he was prompted by my husband-but he's not prone to fudging. <em>334</em> <BR> Looking forward to people noticing who have not been prepped. <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> Tue, 19 Feb 2013 23:17:27 EST Small step in right direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256237 I set my alarm today to get up for a workout and devotions. I hit the snooze. <em>102</em> <BR> Okay, so I stayed up for a bit and prayed in and out of sleep for a few hours so it was a start. If I think about it, I really can get my workout done in the evenings every day but Wednesday. I still would like to get up a bit early to do devotions though-and perhaps part of my strength training so I have less to do in the evening. I did a run through of all of my strength training with a ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 13:14:27 EST First things first http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254912 I have been procrastinating about 2 things lately: <BR> <BR> *Early morning gym time <em>319</em> <BR> *Early morning God time <em>43</em> <BR> <BR> As it stands, I tend to do these things in the evening if I can fit them in. Both of these things are really important enough that the deserve to be priorities in my day and not "if I have time" activities. Just thought I'd throw this out there. <em>41</em> Mon, 18 Feb 2013 13:24:27 EST This is what it means to hurt! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253723 My friend walked me through all the strength exercises of my potential strength training. I don't remember ever being so sore. Think I will take a down day today. Luckily, in the future I will be doing these 4 at a time instead the full body workout. I'm beginning to get discouraged because I gained a pound. I'm eating according to the new calorie range that they gave me-but I'm thinking I may need to back off to regain the momentum that I had. Sun, 17 Feb 2013 15:17:31 EST Looking back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251798 I looked through some pictures of my sister's wedding last fall. I'm disgusted at how heavy I had become. When my husband confronted me about my weight I was broken and angry with him for not being happy with where I was at-but I remember asking my sister to take the pictures down, which shows that I was not happy with where I was at either. Every day now, my husband tells me how proud he is that I am working on it. It helps to keep me motivated. As for me-I would get discouraged quickly ... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 15:46:22 EST Not a flattering statement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250631 I tried to upload a good before pic-it denied me because the file was too large. :) <BR> I did put up a current pic though...guess that one isn't too big. <BR> <BR> Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:30:48 EST Hmm...wouldn't have figured! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249068 So, not so juicy this week. I have been eating some in the evenings. I focus on veggies/fruit and meat and try to avoid cheeses and breads. Choosing to eat healthy after not eating anything, seems as if it is a privilege and not a penalty. I did go to a buffet with my husband yesterday-ate until I was done focusing on making good food choices. I fudged in small amounts-but the vast majority of what I ate was very healthy. Woke up this morning still lighter. This has been my best weigh... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 12:23:05 EST Stamina In-motion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244604 I got a stamina in-motion elliptical from freecycle today and used it for over an hour! Very smooth on my joints and there was no pain involved for the first 45 minutes. After that I could feel the muscles near my knees aching-but not my knees as they would on a treadmill. I'm excited to have a piece of equipment that is easy to store and easy to use. I dislike going out in a snowstorm to a gym just to get cardio in. If this burns the calories it says it does...then this should really h... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 00:20:16 EST Losing more than weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242835 My daughter moved out 2 months ago. Only 16, but it was time for her to leave the nest. I'm going through a change of where my time is spent and losing weight is becoming one of the ways I fill my time. I'm not really sure what the balance is between spirituality and weight loss. I know I haven't yet found it though. Fri, 8 Feb 2013 12:30:30 EST