COLETTEMR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=COLETTEMR COLETTEMR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Planet Fitness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764840 Went to PF for the first time last night after work. I must say, I've done a lot of research about this franchise and I was very pleased with the environment. They have soo many cardio machines so there is no need to wait for an Elliptical. They also have a ab location and circuit training area for those in a rush. Plenty of strengthening machines and weights avail. <BR> <BR> They have a Key and Coat holder for everyone. No need to have your keeps in your breast or pockets while working out... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 08:55:59 EST Im Invisible http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4754607 Came across an interesting blog about dating and being overweight. Apparently, the reason I have not had any successful relationship is due to my weight and those who "see" me. <BR> <BR> After reading the WHOLE article I realized that there are some truths in what is said. <BR> <link>http://blackgirlsguidetoweightloss.c<BR>om/its-all-mental/big-love-dating-whil<BR>e-losing-weight/ </link> <BR> <BR> Since my divorce 4yrs ago I have not had any successful relationship lasting longer than ... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 08:42:18 EST My motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4747489 As a grandmother of two girls and one little boy, I am blessed to have been able to be present at their births. The little girl peeking is my oldest daughter best friend's child. She even calls me grandma. LOL This was taken at my birthday celebration. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l840600388.jpg"> Mon, 20 Feb 2012 10:47:43 EST Something different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4742984 I had a wonderful week vacation and spent most of it with my parents. They both came up from Florida, looking for a new home closer to their great grands. During their search, I saw something that appealed to me. The first week of April, I will be moving into a new apartment. This location has many amenities I currently do not have. Fitness center, swimming pool that stays open even in winter, pool room, washer and drying, all black appliances, better curb appeal. For only $200 more/mth I ge... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 08:30:56 EST Binge setback http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4720051 I was doing good for two weeks until last night. Had a dinner date out at OCharleys and I even researched the menu and its nutritional content prior to going. I avoided the popcorn at the movies. BUT... <BR> <BR> SOMETHING HAPPENED ON THE WAY HOME. <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I stopped for gas and got two huge bags of chips and those dang donut holes. I use to eat the WHOLE BOX in one sitting but i took a handful and got a bowl of chips. Sat in bed and ate them then went back for more. OMG.... ... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 09:19:24 EST Finally someone said it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4718581 Hello, my name is Colette and I am a Sugar addict. <BR> <BR> A couple months back I posted information about Sugar and how it is hidden in what we eat. This morning, I wake up to a news broadcast about the dangers of added sugar consumption. <link>abclocal.go.com/kgo/story?section=ne<BR>ws/health&id=8528526 </link> <BR> <BR> So I am finally glad this was a topic. Usually people focus on Salt but this is something else that has plagued a lot of processed foods, One reason I limit the am... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 12:37:19 EST Its important to help family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4715962 As a designer, I get a lot of request to help make this and that publication for others. When my parents came to me asking me to help them with my dad's jewelry business, I couldn't say no. They are both retired and are doing something they love. <BR> <BR> So far, I have created their logo <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l196976981.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I also am working on their website. If you get a chance, stop by and check out some of the wonderful pieces they have c... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 08:56:17 EST To see or not to see http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4711716 Friday was a very terrifying day. I was at work around 2p and all of a sudden, I went partially blind in both eyes. Imagine a paragraph and only being able to see the center words while the end words are faded. My co-worker rushed into action and had me go lay on the office couch and close my eyes. All of a sudden a terrible headache began. <BR> <BR> They close all the blinds and cut the lights off in the office and ran down to my car to bring me my sunglasses. Talk about scared...yep, I th... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 08:40:18 EST When I need motivation... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706641 Not only do I seek people on SP, there are also incredible people who have succeeded. Its seldom I find someone who is morbidly obese like me. <BR> <BR> This video really inspires me. <BR> http://youtu.be/Ja9BFx5Mhqo Fri, 27 Jan 2012 09:06:12 EST Fast food lessons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4704937 Due to my extreme need of red meat during TOM, I typically venture to my local Wendy's to get the #2, . The Double Cheese Burger small combo produces 860 calories if you request no cheese or mayo. <BR> <BR> Learned: <BR> 1) The small fries are almost as much as the burger <BR> 2) I can drink water <BR> 3) Their buns are full of sugar, grease and God knows what else <BR> <BR> Total meal Cal/fat/sodium: 860/32/650 <BR> <BR> Change 1 made: <BR> 1) Got the burger no cheese and no mayo <BR> 2)... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 10:15:44 EST What is your Legacy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700630 My legacy is what I've taught my daughters and grands. I'm not leaving them with money or property. All I have is Gods favor and love which is plenty. <BR> <BR> I've taught them: <BR> 1) family comes first <BR> 2) value yourself and do not allow others to disrespect you <BR> 3) that they are beautiful no matter what their outer appearance may be <BR> 4) slow up on the tattoos as you may regret them in the future <BR> 5) Be respectful of others no matter how they treat you <BR> 6) I will alw... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 09:04:25 EST discovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4698414 Now i know why I gained weight every month. TOM is the culprit. Before recently, I never understood or kept track of the hunger during this time. Its like I'm a newly turned vampire and I need meat and blood. (for my Twilight/Being Human fans) <BR> <BR> Since I know the pattern, I was able to somewhat contain the binge eating. There were only two days that I ate things outside of my plan. It seemed to be a lot of sweet carbs and red meat. Mon, 23 Jan 2012 09:19:47 EST Fatigue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4692898 For the past 3 days I have woken up with this serious fatigue. Not sure why but in my face i look sick. For the past 2 days I have not worked out. I have been eating within my calories (except for subway last night) and drinking my 90+ oz of water a day. Also been taking my Iron and B12 so I am not sure why this is. <BR> <BR> Last time I felt like this I had the flu and my Blood count was 10. <BR> <BR> SIGH.... This too shall pass. Hopefully it is just due to TOM blood loss and my body is... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 09:11:50 EST KEEP THE INTERNET UNCENSORED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4689234 Sites like SP is under attack by two new bills put before Congress. PIPA and SOPA would restrict content by USERS LIKE US on WEBSITES like this. <BR> <BR> SAY NO on Jan 24th. <BR> <BR> &#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608; &#9608;&#9608; &#9608; &#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;the&#9608;&#96<BR>08;&#9608; &#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;governm<BR>ent&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608; &#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608; &#9608;&#9608;&#9608;&#9608;is&#9608;&#960<BR>8;&#9608;&#9608; &#9608;&#9608;&#... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 13:41:46 EST Your BMR is very important to know. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4686287 My daughter brought it to my attention that I was not eating enough. I was going by the "diets" that had me on a 1200-1400 cal eating plan. She stated that for my height/weight/age I was not eating enough food. She introduced me to my BMR. <BR> <BR> After a couple weeks of eating according to my BMR instead of diet plans, the weight is coming off. My current BMR is 2429.85 so I consume 1600-1800 cal a day. I've lost an average of 4lbs a week since this change. <BR> <BR> Here you can learn... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 09:23:19 EST New Year, New Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4673918 Over the past 41.5yrs I have seen and done a lot. One thing I have not been able to succeed in was WEIGHTLOSS. It would come off and then creep back up. This is the year where Im fighting harder. Control those binging episodes! Wed, 11 Jan 2012 13:10:46 EST SUGAR by any other name is still SUGAR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4604171 Read labels. You may find out that 95% of your kitchen contains these ingredients. <BR> <BR> barley malt <BR> Malt <BR> beet sugar <BR> brown sugar <BR> buttered syrup <BR> cane-juice crystals <BR> cane sugar <BR> caramel <BR> carob syrup <BR> corn syrup <BR> corn syrup solids <BR> date sugar <BR> dextran <BR> dextrose <BR> diatase <BR> diastatic malt <BR> ethyl maltol <BR> fructose <BR> fruit juice <BR> fruit juice concentrate <BR> glucose <BR> glucose solids <BR> golden sugar <BR> golden ... Tue, 29 Nov 2011 10:12:52 EST Great gift Idea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4528067 Check out this great gift idea! <BR> http://www.iceholeproducts.com/index.asp<BR>?source=ColetteM <BR> Also, use my discount code IHP3721 and save cash!!! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1301508.jpg"> Mon, 10 Oct 2011 09:17:28 EST THE Ultimate Betrayal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4528041 Real Women are classy, strong, independent, loyal and love-able and one thing about them is they know they deserve the best! <BR> <BR> How I handled this past weeks betrayal proves that I am indeed a classy, strong and independent woman! My man and daughter were having an affair for 3 weeks and I just found out. She currently lives with me along with her 2 children. Very surprised I didnt lose it and kill someone. I kept my composure and stood firm in my convictions that I am a classy lady.... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:59:14 EST Found out I am anemic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4506396 Yep, So now I must take Iron and B12 daily to try and keep my blood count out of the red. 4mths ago I went to the ER as I was very weak and having a hard time breathing. They discovered that my Blood count was only 10 and dropping. Due to my one kidney, they gave me nothing but referred me to my Dr. <BR> <BR> Three days later I visited my doctor and she ran tests. My blood count was close to 9 now so she put me on Iron 2x a day in conjunction with my daily vitamin. I was under the impressio... Tue, 27 Sep 2011 09:48:55 EST 6 week body makeover http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4486417 I FOUND SOMETHING THAT WORKS!!! <BR> <BR> I got this package in Dec and by March i had lost 20lbs by JUST EATING. It teaches you how to eat based on your metabolism and what foods to avoid. I've learned 10 important aspects that work for TYPE A body types (Endomorph) <BR> <BR> 1) Milk makes you fat <BR> 2) Must include a lean protein when consuming carbs to help break the carbs down. My healthy carbs are: any potato and rice. <BR> 3) Must drink more than 99oz of water a day to help stay hy... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 12:03:52 EST Getting a hold of my fats/sodium http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3600443 Ive started back putting down all that I eat. I am really good with my calories but the fat and sodium numbers are killing me. These need to get under control in order to lose the weight and keep my HBP under control. Thu, 2 Sep 2010 12:47:43 EST Learning to Love me again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3577038 The children have moved out and I am now dating. I found that i like shopping and getting my hair and nails done at the salon. Prior to all of this my main focus was to my husband and children. Im working full time and trying to stay motivated to workout and stay away from sweets. Thu, 26 Aug 2010 13:23:06 EST Finally Divorced http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2794344 Oct 23rd, 2009 my second divorce was finalized. Ex husband still lives down the street with the "other woman". I am barely marking it in this economy. Only working part time and praying for a better life. Mon, 25 Jan 2010 12:40:51 EST Getting Divorced http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1484611 It is official, we both agreed that things are not going to work out so I have asked for a divorced. <BR> As you can see, my weight is back up to 413 when I visited the gym Friday. It's not a good thing but not as bad as I'd thought. <BR> <BR> I need all the emotional help I can get right now. Mon, 29 Sep 2008 09:01:00 EST Test results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1466105 I got my test results back from the Dr. <BR> My HDL, LDL, Triglycerides are all normal, my blood count was low and my Sedimentation Rate was higher than normal. <BR> High sedimentation rates may be caused by: <BR> <BR> * Autoimmune diseases, such as systemic lupus erythematosus or rheumatoid arthritis. <BR> * Cancer, such as lymphoma or multiple myeloma. <BR> * Chronic kidney disease. <BR> * Infection, such as pneumonia, pelvic inflammatory disease, or appendicitis. <BR> ... Thu, 18 Sep 2008 12:23:35 EST One Diagnosis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1403103 On Monday, Aug 11th I was diagnosed with a chronic skin disorder. This explains a lot of my problems but not all. My Primary is now testing me for autoimmune disorders like Lupus and Fibromyalgia to explain my all over pain and fatigue. <BR> <BR> I have downloaded the Disable Place card because walking has become a chore for me. Getting in and out of my car hurts so bad. Some times I feel like my knees are going to give away. I use my cane on the really bad days but I try not to depend on i... Fri, 15 Aug 2008 13:18:21 EST A Prayer for help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1356979 Well my body is still attacking me. Ha Ha, thats so weird to actually hear. <BR> But I speak the truth. For 3mths now I have been put on antibiotic one after another with no relief. Now my whole body is weak and I have muscle and joint pain all over. Even my fingers and toes hurt. <BR> <BR> My boss ordered me to go and see my primary as the Urologist is not doing what he promised. So I go to see her and she says the same thing... "your UA is normal, lets try this antibiotic". She suggested t... Thu, 24 Jul 2008 15:42:24 EST Feeling better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1266181 Yesterday, I had felt better emotionally and physically than I had in the past 3 months. <BR> <BR> The doctor discovered that I had a bladder infection and prescribed antibotics that apparently isn't working well enough. One my last pill and I still have flank pain on my right side. I've made a STAT appointment with a Urologist to get to the bottom of this mess. <BR> <BR> Most can't understand how important certain organs are to your whole health and wellbeing. Kidneys and the Bladder is on... Thu, 12 Jun 2008 13:31:46 EST My Grandchild http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1236509 Well, the shock has worn off and now we have accepted the fact that my grandchild is coming. on 5/19 we saw the heart beat and got the scan. Can you see the fetus flicking a bird already? OMG! I have my hands full with this one. <BR> <BR> I will start going back to the gym today. I hope the 2mth hiatus won't kill me but you have to start somewhere. Believe I gained most of the weight back but I will see when I weigh myself at the gym. <BR> <BR> The two names for the baby are: Boy - Jayrod A... Thu, 29 May 2008 12:49:54 EST I am a Grandma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1166964 Based on the title you would think I would be happy <em>30</em> . <BR> Sad to say I am REALLY UPSET. My youngest child, ARIEL, is pregnant from a boy she has only known for 2mths. WHAT IN THE WORLD? <BR> <BR> If you have read my previous blogs you know that this child has caused me nothing but CHAOS. <BR> <BR> In the state of VIRGINIA, when a teen has a child, the parent or guardian is responsible for the child until the teen reaches 18. Well this baby will be born prior to my daughter's ... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 11:44:07 EST March Middle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1082501 Update for my Spark friends. Last Sat I decided to stop going to Mac Donalds, Wendy's and Burger King not only because of health reasons but because of my wallet. Due to the economy, we have had to cut back on the excesses in our lives. One of the main places this economy has gotten us has been in the grocery bill. Our budget for 4 people has been $600/mth but in order to pay $100 more for gas a month some things have to be changed. <BR> <BR> I went to Walmart and purchased about $300 worth ... Tue, 18 Mar 2008 12:32:51 EST New Month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1057798 I hope today will be better than before. Took this picture with my webcam. You can tell that I am sleepy and tired. My scan results yesterday were good. The Oncologist said that the nodules in my lungs haven't grown or changed and there is no signs of tumors in my abdomen or pelvis. <BR> <BR> My blood pressure was 156 / 99, thats high so the doctor called in more beta blockers for me to take. <BR> <BR> As you can see from the picture that I am tryna crack a smile. No makeup and sleepy eyes... Thu, 6 Mar 2008 13:33:09 EST Wedding Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1003853 Hello, Long time no hear. Well, I am sick yet again with this year's flu so I haven't had the strength to get on. My birthday was Sunday and we were blessed with no power for the wind storm that came along. For 5 hrs we sat in the dark and cold. <BR> <BR> I have put up a few pictures from my daughter's wedding. I know some of you have been waiting for some time. Thought you might wanna see. <BR> <BR> She was a beautiful bride. All the money spent was well worth the hassles. <BR> <BR> Hope... Tue, 12 Feb 2008 08:41:35 EST Discoveries http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=948851 Sorry Guys! <BR> Let me explain why...you haven't seen me online. <BR> 1) No longer have internet at home- those people went up again after the new year. So I am in search of maybe a lower cost option like Direct TV. <BR> 2) When I am at work my boss wants me to completely focus on work, weird huh. But I have been extremely busy, got 6 websites to do. <BR> <BR> I have found that when I don't put down my food, I am more aware of what fat and calories I may intake which has been keeping me fro... Tue, 22 Jan 2008 12:58:30 EST Feeling Much Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=931087 I want to start out and thank all the people who have inquired about my absence. It is so wonderful to know that others really care about your wellbeing. <BR> <BR> For four weeks I have been sick with this season's cold virus. I finally went to the Dr. after all that I could do was not working. She put me on Augmenten 875 and started my dosage on Friday. I am finally feeling better and am getting my energy back. <BR> <BR> I missed going to the gym. YES I SAID THAT...! Can you believe it? I... Wed, 16 Jan 2008 12:09:18 EST GOING HOME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=873808 Well guys, this will be my last time talking to you in the year 2007. Earlier morning we will be heading down to my home town of Orlando, FL for my daughters wedding on New Years day. <BR> <BR> OMG, I just had a horrible thought! What about all that Catered Food and Cake? How am I gonna fight the temptations? I will be out of my normal routine and access to my gym. <BR> <BR> The PT suggested that I go and walk until I get tired. That shouldn't be long with the FL heat. I won't have access ... Thu, 27 Dec 2007 12:23:38 EST It felt good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=868821 It felt so good to be back to the gym after a week of the flu. I forced myself to not let the fatigue get me down so I jumped on the Elliptical for 32mins with intervals then onto the recumbent bike for 20mins to keep my heart rate up. <BR> <BR> I felt so good after. It's so funny to see people watch me on the machines as if they are saying, this girl is really doing this thang, I better keep up with her. <BR> <BR> I actually had a girl last week tell me that I motivated her after she watc... Fri, 21 Dec 2007 11:03:13 EST The Flu http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=864276 Well, it got me. I haven't had the flu in 4 years and it finally got me. Tyvon came home sick last Tuesday and advised me that she was sick along with her whole class including the teacher. I guess in my rush to get her well, I got the bug. My concern about Tyvon is because she has chronic ashma therefore any cold or flu is actually worsen by her ashma. <BR> <BR> Anyways, I have been in the bed all weekend sick. Freezing one min and burning up the next. I still can not breath through my nos... Mon, 17 Dec 2007 10:14:19 EST New Suit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=852516 Ok, I had to get another suit because the one I bought 4x zipper broke when I put it on. Now I have some BIG BOOBS but this new suit i bought is a 6x and OMG.. I am literally swimming in this thing. It is very odd for me to try on something that is too big. Now I can only use this suit for 6mths MAX and I have to sell it because I will have lost too much weight ;)~ <BR> <BR> You can find clothing for us big girls in several places but the quality of swim suit is best if bought from www.juno... Thu, 6 Dec 2007 12:33:53 EST Defeating Depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=844976 Well the past couple weeks have been hell on me but I have not giving into the temptation of gorging on food and sweets. I have not gained or loss any weight since my week of being immobile due to knee problems. <BR> <BR> I got my shot on Weds in both knees and the dr has told me to only do what I can and to stop if I ever feel pain. So I had been in bed since Thanksgiving day. I went out and tried to do a little things but on Saturday, my left knee said..NO MORE and I was in the bed until I... Fri, 30 Nov 2007 10:37:34 EST It's over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=828558 My marriage is over. I got the proof needed to file for divorce. All this hard work and this man has been having an affair with some tramp who travels. He insist that its just a friend but I know the truth. What I heard on the voice mail doesn't sound like a friend to me. <BR> <BR> I gave him 2 weeks to leave. Trying not to eat away the hurt is really hard to do but I need to look at how my body is changing. <BR> <BR> Thu, 15 Nov 2007 16:09:10 EST In the old jeans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=825161 I did it! I got up this morning and I am in the jeans 2 sizes down like back in Jan 07. In just a month I have been able to get where it took me 5mths without a gym membership. This whole going to gym 5-6 days a week really gets things done. <BR> <BR> This past weekend was touch for me. The spouse and I have been discussing a six month separation. There were days that I felt so bad I really couldn't eat because I was constantly crying. This has lifted my spirits. At least something is workin... Tue, 13 Nov 2007 08:40:39 EST My Body talks to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=820840 What is happening to my body? Is is reacting the all the strength training and the exercise? This feeling is the weirdest thing. Some of you BBWs know what I'm talking about. Like your body gets to the phase when it's changing...and your muscles have a mind of their own. <BR> <BR> I can feel now that I am on the down swing of this menstrual cycle and how working out during this time has made a change. I didn't cramp as much but OMG that anger and headaches comes and goes. Things seem to fall... Fri, 9 Nov 2007 12:49:55 EST PMDD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=815071 This past few days have been hell on me. I went through all the aspects of this PMDD without meds. The first stage is total fatique and my PT worked thru it with me and I felt really good. <BR> <BR> The next was cravings which as you can see by this weekend...I did ok, not good but not like the usual 2 pints of Dove Ice Cream. <BR> <BR> The worst stage in my opinion is the ANGER stage. During this time I say things that would make the devil cry. I basically told my kids and my husband tha... Mon, 5 Nov 2007 12:56:52 EST It's working http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=808792 Well the kicking of the butt has worked. The scale is finally making a move in the right direction. I am now down 8-9lbs withing just 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> Last night was touch because the PT worked my lower body for the first time. She stated that I have general weakness all over my body. I really notice it while lifting the weights. My left side of the body is weaker. <BR> <BR> Pray for me as I've had a trying time at home and at work. I stopped taking my depression meds and I think I will ... Wed, 31 Oct 2007 12:47:31 EST Kicked in the Butt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=794936 Well, I had a heart to heart talk with the PT the other day and she kicked me in the butt about my food intake. I am now on a strict 1750 calories, 39g fat and 65g of protein diet. My mentality now has to think like a Diabetic because I so love sweets. <BR> <BR> Today was a good day and I met the 2 important goals. I think my protein is ok to be high being that I am working out regularly. <BR> <BR> It is hard but I am determined. Sat, 20 Oct 2007 22:00:22 EST Weakness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=790514 Had my first session with the Personal Trainer. She had me working out with the ball to lean against the wall to see the flexibility in my knees. I also worked out on the free weights and OMG, I had a hard time with 3, 5 and 8lb weights. She could also see that my left arm is much weaker. All of this gave her a basis as to my abilities. <BR> <BR> My face turned red and I found out that I hold my breath during exercising. What, am I tryin to kill myself? I have from time to time noticed that ... Wed, 17 Oct 2007 13:07:02 EST Proud of ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=780007 I have never been able to do the elliptical trainer for more than .20sec. The personal trainer put me on it Friday and I struggled to do 3mins as she stayed next to me and encourage. <BR> <BR> Sunday I was able to do 15mins on my own. I did not go to the gym on Monday because I was so weak. I made sure that I ate enough food prior to my gym workout. <BR> <BR> I saw the PT and told her that I was proud of the 15 mins that I did on Sunday. She also was proud and told me today she wanted 18. ... Tue, 9 Oct 2007 20:42:03 EST Hired a Trainer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=773922 I signed up for a PT at AFF for a 2x a week for 3mths. It is costly but it is needed. She has ordered that I do 40mins of cardio 7 days a week and MWF do resistance training for 30mins. <BR> <BR> Got on their scale and I weigh 410 to start. Our goal is to lose 2lbs a week. <BR> <BR> This is a big commitment for me but needed to get me outta the slump I've been in. <BR> <BR> Wish me luck. Fri, 5 Oct 2007 09:20:22 EST