COCOSMOMMA's SparkPeople Blog COCOSMOMMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community What a Sunshiney Day! Today, I went to work and learned how to do the drive thru with insurance...hectic but fun! <BR> I came home and rested my feet for about an hour and then picked up part of the house. The goal was to get the attic done but I decided to deep clean my house tonight and Chloe and I will do the attic tomorrow. <BR> After the kids got home from school, we took them all outside for about an hour. I played frisbee with the big boys and pushed the babies on the swing. Chloe ran across the yard to he... Wed, 25 May 2016 18:35:18 EST My day today 5/24/2016 About my day :) Enjoy! Tue, 24 May 2016 23:29:50 EST Intimidation and anxiety I started my new job last Saturday. Needless to say, I am overwhelmed and extremely intimidated. I worked Wednesday night and I thought I would be okay but my anxiety just keeps getting worse and worse and worse. I am terrified of my manager, and from what other people are telling me, it doesn't get better and she's like this to EVERYONE...Tomorrow I work 8-6 so I am going to be having some prayer time tonight before I head to bed. I did have a friend come over that did what I was hired to do... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 23:33:29 EST My Day Today 4/16/16 My first Vlog Just a bit about what I did today :) Sun, 17 Apr 2016 00:14:44 EST Kings Dominion Today, my daughter had a dance competition at Kings Dominion. I was excited because I LOVE roller coasters...not the new stuff like Delirium but actual coasters. Chloe's team did AMAZING and then we got to ride rides. I rode Ricochet as a chaperone for 1 of Chloe's dance buddies who was just a few centimeters short to ride (Chloe's very 1st roller coaster), then Chloe rode the bumper cars, then I got miss Chloe on the ANACONDA! Bless her heart, when she came off of it, she had a red mark acro... Sat, 9 Apr 2016 23:22:43 EST What a busy Thursday! glad its bed time! Today, I got up and took Shawn to an appointment at 9.15 and then ran Gabe to his speech therapy appointment at 11 a few towns over. I had to run back afterwards and pick Shawn up from his appointment, get home so my granny could get home from watching the kids, help my dad get through some tests for his job which took a while. Shawn ran the boys to taekwondo...the tested for their orange belts finally. I stayed home and cleaned, my dad came to visit, and then bot... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 01:01:57 EST Walk Walk Walk... Yesterday, I got Shawn and the kids to go walking with me. He walked .38 miles and then him, Noah, and Eli went back to the house. Chloe, Gabe and Amery in the stroller, and myself walked 1.32 miles in 36 minutes :) I was so proud of myself! <BR> This evening, we did it again. Shawn walked a little further and did .60 miles. He and Chloe and the 2 babies in the stroller walked back to the house. Noah, Eli, and I walked 1.47 miles in 33 minutes! Yay! Go me!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Wed, 30 Mar 2016 20:20:31 EST I BEAT VULVAR CANCER!!!!! So its been almost 1 month since I had surgery on 3/1 to remove the cancer. I went on 3/17 for a check up and my oncologist was able to get it all! My pathology report came back that I am now CANCER FREE! Go me! I have to go back on the 11th to get a check up on my incision and then after that, I have to come back once every 6 months for 2 years! I am getting involved with Relay for Life. It is my duty to make women aware of Vulvar Cancer. It doesn't just happen to older women in their 60's..... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 04:40:34 EST Beating Vulvar Cancer One Day At a Time! On 2/9, I got my diagnosis and on 2/17, I met my oncologist. I had surgery on 3/1. I had a partial vulvectomy. So now we just wait until 3/16 when I go back to my post op appointment. I am on 2 weeks of bed rest due to the nature of the surgery and it having to be put back together with glue instead of stitches. On 3/16, we'll find out if my oncologist was able to get it all or if I have to endure more surgery and chemotherapy. I am ALIVE so that is an amazing thing. Thu, 3 Mar 2016 18:48:32 EST That Phone Call that I didn't want to receive Today, I received the phone call that I didn't want to receive...that phone call that just changed my future drastically...that phone call that just turned mine and my families lives upside down. I listened to my dad break down on the phone...something I have never heard him do in all of my 32 years on earth. That man is so hard to break. I had to hear Shawn, my fella of 4 years and going on and off for 15, try to convince himself that I'm going to be alright on the phone...just repeating him... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 18:42:53 EST My sweet girl's 1st solo dance competition... My 10 year old, Chloe, has been dancing since the age of 3. She's been attending her current studio for the last 3 years and on their competition dance team for 2. Last year was her first year on the competition team so she just did the group dances and no solo. This year she wanted to do a solo and she chose the song "Stand in the Rain" by Superchi(c)k. Today was her first competition with her solo and let me tell you, she was UH-MAzING! She gave it everything she had and I was so incredibly... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 20:33:06 EST Busy a sick momma Yesterday, my ex husband got the text from my boys eye dr that their glasses were ready at 1:00. Soooo, I was in the middle of cleaning my house because I thought I had until 4 when they got off the bus. So I rushed and woke up Gabe and Amery from their naps, changed them, got them and myself dressed, rushed to Chloe's school and picked her up (in the middle of a benchmark test) and then rushed to the boys school to pick them up. We had to drive an hour to the eye dr in a different city since... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 20:02:13 EST Sometimes when we fall, we have to get right back up! Yesterday, I got up and drink my water, ate my toast with 5 sprays of I can't believe its not butter spray, and exercised with my 10 year old to Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds...We did 2 miles. <BR> Somehow, I got off track and ate this super amazing awesome pepperoni stromboli from the Food Lion deli. Oh my it was heaven to my taste buds! <BR> So today, I input the nutritional value in to the tracker for last nights dinner and OH MY GOSH BECKY WHAT DID YOU EAT?!?! <BR> 500 calories p... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 16:12:26 EST Woo Hoo! Go me! I got this 1/25/16 Today, I woke up and drink my plexus. I am already at 25oz of water for the day and I just did a Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds DVD! Now to finish picking up my house, getting myself and the 5 kids ready, and somehow managing to get my daughter to her competition team's dance rehearsal at 4 in the ice and snow! I'm proud of myself today! Mon, 25 Jan 2016 13:54:17 EST My Day Today 1/24/16 Today marked the 16th anniversary of my grandfathers (my Pop) death. I was 17 years old when he passed and his death was very traumatic for myself, my sister, and my brother. My parents worked very hard (I would venture to say they were workaholics) so my grandparents raised us. My Pop was an amazing, good man who would give the shirt off his back just to make sure someone else was warm. He died at age 65 and his autopsy report was long from the health problems and diseases that he had (heart... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 20:06:13 EST SNOW DAY! Yesterday we started getting snow. The kids schools had already canceled school on Thursday night due to the incoming inclement weather. It was nice...The kids and I cleaned up the house, watched Frozen, made paper snowflakes, and just spent time with each other. Sometimes, just sitting back and relaxing is nice when our schedules are all so busy! <BR> Today, we watched Frozen again and I went outside with the kids...the snow had ice on top of it but we found soft snow in the ditch between my... Sat, 23 Jan 2016 19:45:03 EST Woot Woot! I am back and ready to roll! Welp, I took a little break from sparkpeople because I was in a little bit of a dark place. Work got me down and just in to a place that I didn't want to be. I was heartbroken because with my schedule, I could no longer be with my children full time and watch them grow and when I was home, I was so busy cleaning and trying to play catch up that I still didn't have time to spend with them and then I was just plain exhausted! I have NEVER missed a single event at school or during the extra curr... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 00:11:50 EST August is going to be a busy month... July has been a bust as far as working out...My manager has had me working 7 days straight several times and though I need the hours, I am exhausted! So my new goal is while I am getting the kids ready to go back to school in September, I am going to try to lose 5lbs. Starting it off slow...Slow and steady wins the race! <BR> I have 3 birthdays in the month of August so we are throwing 1 big party on the 23rd for Eli turning 6 on the 1st, Chloe turning 9 on the 24th, and Amery turning 1 on t... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:28:51 EST Tomorrow is a new day and the beginning to a new week I totally slacked the past few horrible. So tomorrow is a new day, the beginning to a new week, so I will start over being refreshed! <BR> I am planning on getting a walk in after church and lunch. I am going to start watching what I eat and I may even start writing it down so I can track a little better. I wouldn't let Shawn buy any more cocacolas tonight. <BR> <BR> Let's get'er done! Sat, 5 Jul 2014 22:10:11 EST New week :) This week, my goals are: <BR> get in at least 3-4 days of some kind of exercise. <BR> <BR> drink water! <BR> <BR> try to lose at least 2 lbs <BR> <BR> <BR> nothing too hard, pretty simple stuff. <BR> I found 3 more 5k's I really want to do: The Color Run, Color Vibe, and Run or Dye...I think I am addicted to 5k's and color runs! Mon, 23 Jun 2014 00:55:15 EST June goals After my 5k in May, I have been a little slack. It's now the 2nd week of June and I need to get back on track! <BR> <BR> Goals for June <BR> 1. Get my walking routine down. <BR> 2. Kick the soda habit for good. <BR> <BR> I think I can do this! Sun, 8 Jun 2014 21:48:26 EST I DID IT! I ROCKED MY 1st 5k! Yesterday was my first 5k...the Color Me Rad in Doswell, VA. <BR> I got up at 4am and got ready, left my house at 4:30 and was at Kings Dominion at 6. My friend, Jamie, her husband, Kim, and their little man, Ben, met me there. We were in the last wave to go. I started out jogging for a couple of minutes but then I had a horrible pain in my foot so we had to walk. Jamie's watch said we did it in 43 mins but I think it was more like 50. The CMR doesn't do time so we had to do it on our own. M... Sun, 18 May 2014 10:13:55 EST Oh What A Week! My week started off very rough...Monday morning at 4am, Shawn woke up with chest pains that wouldn't go away. He took himself to the E.R. at 5am since I had to stay home with the kids. He ended up being admitted. Tuesday, they did a stress test. Because of his weight, he couldn't do the treadmill stress test so they did the dye injection with the injection to make his heart think he was on the treadmill. He had an allergic reaction and coded. No one called to let me know. I found out at 2pm w... Sat, 10 May 2014 12:27:34 EST My Weekly Plan So I have noticed since I started working a little over a month ago, that certain things are lacking...I'm always tired and my feet always hurt. I have decided that so that I keep the upkeep of my home up, homeschooling Eli, and make sure that I am budgeting my pay correctly that I need to just make a weekly plan of what needs to be done each day. <BR> <BR> This will also help me make sure I get my walking in! Sun, 4 May 2014 15:52:13 EST Accepting Myself and the EffYourBeautyStandards campaign I have been following this beautiful plus size model known as Tess Munster. She is gorgeous! She is the spokesmodel for "eff your beauty standards". <BR> Today as I shopped at walmart for a pair of khaki capris and a black polo for work, I realized that I am making myself depressed by worrying about what everyone else thinks about how I look. Today's society is all about your appearance...why? Beauty will get you nowhere if you are a horrible person. So I am wearing my size 3x capris and my s... Sat, 3 May 2014 11:59:03 EST My day off :) Today was my day off and as I blogged yesterday, I was going to have a busy day. I got my grocery shopping done, didn't get the grass cut due to rain, took my daughter to dance, but no workout :( <BR> I got the kitchen cleaned. In the morning I will get up early and get the rest of the house done (I am a clean freak and unfortunately, with starting work, my kids think I am a maid too and I cant clean the way that I want to anymore!). Well I guess I could get something done in the next hour o... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 22:53:54 EST My day Got up this morning and went to work...had to deal with a man chewing me out over something that my manager did but was able to just brush it off because, well, I had nothing to do with his problem. Got off work, ran to Walmart for laundry detergent, toilet paper, and the honey's ice cream. Came home and cooked spaghetti and meatballs with garlic bread for dinner. My older 3 came home from their dads and then gave the 2 younger babies a bath. Now I am in bed...I am going to clean my house fro... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 22:13:35 EST Going to try something different :) I am deciding to try something a little bit different. I have my alarm set for 5:15am. My plan is to get up and do a walking dvd or take my Snickers (my dog) for a walk around the neighborhood depending on the weather, then get the house clean for the day since I have to leave my home to go to work at 9am. That will give me time to love on my kids before school too. <BR> I haven't been eating right or exercising like I should and even though I am on my feet a ton for work, I am gaining weigh... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 00:08:34 EST Changes... Well, I started a new job last week as the new assistant manager of a sports store located in the next town over. Its fun and I love it but...I'm way out of shape and my feet HURT! My poor heels on both feet are bruised all the way around and I have 4 blisters. <BR> <BR> The weight loss and training for my 5k has come to a halt. So I need to get back in to that. Wed, 26 Mar 2014 00:04:05 EST I'm gonna do it! I'm gonna run my first 5k! I saw the advertisement for Color Me Rad coming up so I checked out the website. They are having one coming up on April 26th in Newport News. So I posted on facebook to see if any of my friends wanted to do it with me and my friends, Jamie and Ellen are going to do it with me! I'm so stinkin' excited!! I have always wanted to do a 5k and I get to do one!! YAY! Training starts on Monday! <BR> **EDIT** <BR> We decided to change the date and do the one on May 17th in Doswell due to my sister joi... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 18:58:58 EST Bipolar with Depression? Today I notice that I felt off again. I got diagnosed with depression in November 2010 and anxiety in the summer of 2009. I was given a prescription for Zoloft for the depression which I refused to take and Xanax. I only took the Xanax for a couple of months because I found out I was pregnant with my Gabriel (who is now 2). I haven't been back to the dr to discuss my depression. <BR> I'm thinking that I might need to go. Today, I have felt sad, lonely, like I want to cry nonstop, grumpy, I do... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 00:33:41 EST My week and weekend :) This past week, I had gotten so much better at drinking water...I managed to drink more than 64oz almost every day. The weekend was okay. I did drink a couple of sodas and I can tell a difference. So today, I am back drinking water! <BR> <BR> Friday, we headed to Louisa, VA for the Miss Virginia Dogwood Pageant. My little girl, Chloe Elizabeth, competed in Little Miss. She didn't win but she, along with 8 other little girls were crowned Miss Virginia Dogwood 2014's princesses. She will get t... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 18:04:05 EST I Did It! I Did It! I Did It! I drank 67.9 ounces of water today and NO SODA!!!!!!! Yes! I also did a workout with my Chloe to Leslie Sansone's 3 mile walk! Yes!!!!!!! Very proud of myself! Sun, 5 Jan 2014 22:40:53 EST I Did It! I Did It! I Did It! I drank 67.9 ounces of water today and NO SODA!!!!!!! Yes! I also did a workout with my Chloe to Leslie Sansone's 3 mile walk! Yes!!!!!!! Very proud of myself! Sun, 5 Jan 2014 22:40:53 EST My Day 01.4.14 Today, I got up to my sister calling. We are both trying to lose our weight and keep our kids healthy. We decided to go grocery shopping together and grab some lunch. Cracker Barrel was our restaurant of choice...I got the grilled cheese off of the kids menu with a side of broccoli and a sweet tea. She got chicken and rice and a sweet tea. I think we did pretty good. <BR> Then off to Walmart...I now know why I started shopping Food Lion. What I would have normally spent $170-$175 on, I spent ... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 21:35:57 EST My goals for the upcoming year :) I don't do resolutions...Every time I have, they turn in to something that I hate doing so I fail. So, I am doing goals...Goal is such a positive word and it makes me want to accomplish what I need to do to get to that word! <BR> So here goes: <BR> 1. Drink more and more water until I reach my goal of 8 glasses a day and cut out most soda. <BR> <BR> 2. Walk at least 4-5 miles a week at first, and then walk more gradually as I go on. <BR> <BR> 3. Get rid of 25lbs by June. I'm starting small... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 11:39:08 EST Christmas :) On 12/23, I was supposed to get up and make a gingerbread house, bake gingerbread cookies with my kids, and clean the house. I ended up on the couch the entire day in pain with food poisoning (my sister keeps saying virus, I say food poisoning since Shawn and I were the only 2 that got sick in our household of 7). It was nasty! <BR> On Christmas Eve, I felt a little bit better but still had the nasty stomach cramps. Shawn got worse. I packed up the kids and went to my sisters for our annual ... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 22:30:38 EST Yes! Go me! Finally got my walk in to the library and back! I had library books due back today so I decided instead of taking the van, the kids and I would walk. The library is literally down the street, .45 miles to be exact. So I put Eli (my 37lb 5 year old) in the front of the double stroller, Gabriel (my 30lb 2 year old) in the back, and then put my 3 month old, Amery, in my wrap and carried him! I'm pretty positive I burned more calories than what the fitness tracker tracked due to me pushing 67lbs of kids in a double stroller up and down hills (... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 16:00:00 EST Hirschsprungs Disease SUCKS! My 2 year old, Gabriel, was diagnosed with HD when he was 8 months old. He had surgery to remove 34 inches of intestines and to reattach his intestines to his rectum right before he turned 9 months old. He went from about a week old until 8 months being misdiagnosed with different things until he had a blockage so bad that a pediatrician had him rushed to MUSC in SC in fear that his intestines would rupture. At this time, he had quit going to the bathroom completely. <BR> He did well after t... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 14:02:52 EST My Daughter's Dance Recital 12/13/13 My Chloe's dance recital was tonight and my oh my! This little girl is talented! I love to watch her's like she just lets go of life and just dances!! It's amazing to watch her face and how her eyes light up when she's on stage. <BR> She has been dancing since 2 weeks after her 3rd birthday and she just turned 8 this past August. She took June 2012 to September 2013 off and just went back. I can tell she really missed it. <BR> Her class did a tap number to "Marshmallow World" and... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 00:08:46 EST My daily blog for 12/10-12/2013 I have had a busy 3 days...Tuesday was my daughter's dress rehearsal for her Christmas dance recital. I loaded all 5 kids up and took them. The boys sat with me...Amery and Gabriel in the stroller, Noah sitting at one of the tables doing homework and playing a video game afterwards, and Eli doing the same minus the homework. I got to see my girl dance both dances and my oh my...She is so BEAUTIFUL! I am soooo humbled by how graceful and beautiful she dances! Her teacher gave me a compliment a... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 14:19:07 EST My Day 12/09/13 I started homeschooling my 5 year old kindergartener 2 weeks ago due to the principal being a jerk and refusing to keep my son in the right class simply because the school chose to "officially enroll" my son as one of the last kindergarteners. The school system hired a new kindergarten teacher only 2 weeks ago. My son, Eli, is very high strung and hyper and he has adjustment issues. His teacher even told the principal this. The principal refused to work with us so my oldest 2 are still attend... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 00:37:16 EST What I will do today... Today is a new day. I have started drinking my water, eaten pretty darn healthy, and I have a pretty good attitude, even though, I have a head cold. We are getting ice cold rain so no walking outside but I think I will get these buns-a-movin' and get my house clean. I can burn calories cleaning my house...I have 5 children for pete's sake, there is always something to do! Right? <BR> Then, I will make my son's blanket (procrastination is another one of my downfalls!), make some hairbows, pre... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 13:12:56 EST My Sleep Diary Blog Entry Day 1- 12/8 It's the night of the 7th/8th and it is 1:42 am. I am going to do the sleep challenge to see if I can curb my insomnia and going to bed late! Wish me luck :) <BR> <BR> What time did you wake up today? 9:00 <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 9:30 pm <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? take a shower, watch tv, and play on computeer <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? (Include type, amount, and time you ate.) Big Mac (yeah I know its bad... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 01:42:38 EST December goals and other ramblings :) I made a deal with my precious daughter, Chloe, that I would cut my soda and sweets if she did. She is 8 years old and is a beautiful dancer. This past year, when we moved, she decided to take a year off from dance and put on some weight. My biggest fear is that she will get fat, like I did, and get picked on and bullied. Her biggest downfall, just like mine, is SWEETS!!!! <BR> So, last week, I made a deal with her, if she cut out her sweets, then I will cut out my sugar and soda and we are s... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 02:07:59 EST Tubal Ligation...ughhhhhh I had my tubal ligation yesterday. I had to be there at 6am and my surgery started at 8am. I was home by 4:30. It was done laparascopically through my belly button so I am extremely sore. I was intubated and the anesthetist nicked my uvula with the tube. I woke up at about 2:30am in so much pain that I couldn't breathe. My ribs are bruised from being moved from the OR table back to my bed but other than that I am more babies here! Fri, 22 Nov 2013 17:37:30 EST Amery Christian Ray born 08/26/13 <img src="">My newest edition, Amery Christian Ray, was born August 26th, 2013 at 1:00am. He weighed 7lbs, 8.8 oz and was 20.4 inches long. My labor was fast...I woke up at 12:30 in labor so Shawn called 911, my grandma and my sister. The rescue squad got to my house at 12:39 and had me in our local E.R. which doesn't have an ob unit. I was supposed to deliver 45 minutes away. The rescue squad got me to the E.R. at 12:50. I had just enou... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 15:05:19 EST New Baby! Shawn and I found out the other day that we are expecting Baby #5 edd 08/27/2013! I am happy and excited and so is he! We only told a few people that are close friends and no family other than my grandma yet. Yay! So far we have 3 girl names picked out and 2 boy names...Layla Grace, Abigail Christine, and Christianna Abigail for the girl. Asher Hilton and Caleb Hilton for the boy. Sun, 6 Jan 2013 15:51:15 EST Starting Over...Finally moved back to VA :) About 2 weeks ago, I moved back to my home state of VA. I moved in with my beloved Shawn and I have physical custody of the 4 kids. Their dad and I agreed that he is allowed to come and see them as much as he wants as long as it doesn't interfere with school, their extra curricular activities, or church. So far, things are working well! <BR> The 2 older kids are back in school and they love being in a school where a uniform is not required. This past Friday, I got to go to school and eat bre... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 15:09:36 EST Depression So, I'm dealing with the thing, this nasty, gross feeling, self loathing, not wanting to be around anyone, making excuses to not go out the house. I need to kick it...this evil, horrible thing called depression. I don't want to go on meds...I must kick this thing. <BR> On top of feeling horrible, I saw on facebook earlier, where not too long ago, my ex-best friend and 1 of her friends called me fake, a whore, made jokes about constipation while my baby boy was in the hospital having 14 inche... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 05:00:39 EST