COCOSMOMMA's SparkPeople Blog COCOSMOMMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Woot Woot! I am back and ready to roll! Welp, I took a little break from sparkpeople because I was in a little bit of a dark place. Work got me down and just in to a place that I didn't want to be. I was heartbroken because with my schedule, I could no longer be with my children full time and watch them grow and when I was home, I was so busy cleaning and trying to play catch up that I still didn't have time to spend with them and then I was just plain exhausted! I have NEVER missed a single event at school or during the extra curr... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 00:11:50 EST August is going to be a busy month... July has been a bust as far as working out...My manager has had me working 7 days straight several times and though I need the hours, I am exhausted! So my new goal is while I am getting the kids ready to go back to school in September, I am going to try to lose 5lbs. Starting it off slow...Slow and steady wins the race! <BR> I have 3 birthdays in the month of August so we are throwing 1 big party on the 23rd for Eli turning 6 on the 1st, Chloe turning 9 on the 24th, and Amery turning 1 on t... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:28:51 EST Tomorrow is a new day and the beginning to a new week I totally slacked the past few horrible. So tomorrow is a new day, the beginning to a new week, so I will start over being refreshed! <BR> I am planning on getting a walk in after church and lunch. I am going to start watching what I eat and I may even start writing it down so I can track a little better. I wouldn't let Shawn buy any more cocacolas tonight. <BR> <BR> Let's get'er done! Sat, 5 Jul 2014 22:10:11 EST New week :) This week, my goals are: <BR> get in at least 3-4 days of some kind of exercise. <BR> <BR> drink water! <BR> <BR> try to lose at least 2 lbs <BR> <BR> <BR> nothing too hard, pretty simple stuff. <BR> I found 3 more 5k's I really want to do: The Color Run, Color Vibe, and Run or Dye...I think I am addicted to 5k's and color runs! Mon, 23 Jun 2014 00:55:15 EST June goals After my 5k in May, I have been a little slack. It's now the 2nd week of June and I need to get back on track! <BR> <BR> Goals for June <BR> 1. Get my walking routine down. <BR> 2. Kick the soda habit for good. <BR> <BR> I think I can do this! Sun, 8 Jun 2014 21:48:26 EST I DID IT! I ROCKED MY 1st 5k! Yesterday was my first 5k...the Color Me Rad in Doswell, VA. <BR> I got up at 4am and got ready, left my house at 4:30 and was at Kings Dominion at 6. My friend, Jamie, her husband, Kim, and their little man, Ben, met me there. We were in the last wave to go. I started out jogging for a couple of minutes but then I had a horrible pain in my foot so we had to walk. Jamie's watch said we did it in 43 mins but I think it was more like 50. The CMR doesn't do time so we had to do it on our own. M... Sun, 18 May 2014 10:13:55 EST Oh What A Week! My week started off very rough...Monday morning at 4am, Shawn woke up with chest pains that wouldn't go away. He took himself to the E.R. at 5am since I had to stay home with the kids. He ended up being admitted. Tuesday, they did a stress test. Because of his weight, he couldn't do the treadmill stress test so they did the dye injection with the injection to make his heart think he was on the treadmill. He had an allergic reaction and coded. No one called to let me know. I found out at 2pm w... Sat, 10 May 2014 12:27:34 EST My Weekly Plan So I have noticed since I started working a little over a month ago, that certain things are lacking...I'm always tired and my feet always hurt. I have decided that so that I keep the upkeep of my home up, homeschooling Eli, and make sure that I am budgeting my pay correctly that I need to just make a weekly plan of what needs to be done each day. <BR> <BR> This will also help me make sure I get my walking in! Sun, 4 May 2014 15:52:13 EST Accepting Myself and the EffYourBeautyStandards campaign I have been following this beautiful plus size model known as Tess Munster. She is gorgeous! She is the spokesmodel for "eff your beauty standards". <BR> Today as I shopped at walmart for a pair of khaki capris and a black polo for work, I realized that I am making myself depressed by worrying about what everyone else thinks about how I look. Today's society is all about your appearance...why? Beauty will get you nowhere if you are a horrible person. So I am wearing my size 3x capris and my s... Sat, 3 May 2014 11:59:03 EST My day off :) Today was my day off and as I blogged yesterday, I was going to have a busy day. I got my grocery shopping done, didn't get the grass cut due to rain, took my daughter to dance, but no workout :( <BR> I got the kitchen cleaned. In the morning I will get up early and get the rest of the house done (I am a clean freak and unfortunately, with starting work, my kids think I am a maid too and I cant clean the way that I want to anymore!). Well I guess I could get something done in the next hour o... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 22:53:54 EST My day Got up this morning and went to work...had to deal with a man chewing me out over something that my manager did but was able to just brush it off because, well, I had nothing to do with his problem. Got off work, ran to Walmart for laundry detergent, toilet paper, and the honey's ice cream. Came home and cooked spaghetti and meatballs with garlic bread for dinner. My older 3 came home from their dads and then gave the 2 younger babies a bath. Now I am in bed...I am going to clean my house fro... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 22:13:35 EST Going to try something different :) I am deciding to try something a little bit different. I have my alarm set for 5:15am. My plan is to get up and do a walking dvd or take my Snickers (my dog) for a walk around the neighborhood depending on the weather, then get the house clean for the day since I have to leave my home to go to work at 9am. That will give me time to love on my kids before school too. <BR> I haven't been eating right or exercising like I should and even though I am on my feet a ton for work, I am gaining weigh... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 00:08:34 EST Changes... Well, I started a new job last week as the new assistant manager of a sports store located in the next town over. Its fun and I love it but...I'm way out of shape and my feet HURT! My poor heels on both feet are bruised all the way around and I have 4 blisters. <BR> <BR> The weight loss and training for my 5k has come to a halt. So I need to get back in to that. Wed, 26 Mar 2014 00:04:05 EST I'm gonna do it! I'm gonna run my first 5k! I saw the advertisement for Color Me Rad coming up so I checked out the website. They are having one coming up on April 26th in Newport News. So I posted on facebook to see if any of my friends wanted to do it with me and my friends, Jamie and Ellen are going to do it with me! I'm so stinkin' excited!! I have always wanted to do a 5k and I get to do one!! YAY! Training starts on Monday! <BR> **EDIT** <BR> We decided to change the date and do the one on May 17th in Doswell due to my sister joi... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 18:58:58 EST Bipolar with Depression? Today I notice that I felt off again. I got diagnosed with depression in November 2010 and anxiety in the summer of 2009. I was given a prescription for Zoloft for the depression which I refused to take and Xanax. I only took the Xanax for a couple of months because I found out I was pregnant with my Gabriel (who is now 2). I haven't been back to the dr to discuss my depression. <BR> I'm thinking that I might need to go. Today, I have felt sad, lonely, like I want to cry nonstop, grumpy, I do... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 00:33:41 EST My week and weekend :) This past week, I had gotten so much better at drinking water...I managed to drink more than 64oz almost every day. The weekend was okay. I did drink a couple of sodas and I can tell a difference. So today, I am back drinking water! <BR> <BR> Friday, we headed to Louisa, VA for the Miss Virginia Dogwood Pageant. My little girl, Chloe Elizabeth, competed in Little Miss. She didn't win but she, along with 8 other little girls were crowned Miss Virginia Dogwood 2014's princesses. She will get t... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 18:04:05 EST I Did It! I Did It! I Did It! I drank 67.9 ounces of water today and NO SODA!!!!!!! Yes! I also did a workout with my Chloe to Leslie Sansone's 3 mile walk! Yes!!!!!!! Very proud of myself! Sun, 5 Jan 2014 22:40:53 EST I Did It! I Did It! I Did It! I drank 67.9 ounces of water today and NO SODA!!!!!!! Yes! I also did a workout with my Chloe to Leslie Sansone's 3 mile walk! Yes!!!!!!! Very proud of myself! Sun, 5 Jan 2014 22:40:53 EST My Day 01.4.14 Today, I got up to my sister calling. We are both trying to lose our weight and keep our kids healthy. We decided to go grocery shopping together and grab some lunch. Cracker Barrel was our restaurant of choice...I got the grilled cheese off of the kids menu with a side of broccoli and a sweet tea. She got chicken and rice and a sweet tea. I think we did pretty good. <BR> Then off to Walmart...I now know why I started shopping Food Lion. What I would have normally spent $170-$175 on, I spent ... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 21:35:57 EST My goals for the upcoming year :) I don't do resolutions...Every time I have, they turn in to something that I hate doing so I fail. So, I am doing goals...Goal is such a positive word and it makes me want to accomplish what I need to do to get to that word! <BR> So here goes: <BR> 1. Drink more and more water until I reach my goal of 8 glasses a day and cut out most soda. <BR> <BR> 2. Walk at least 4-5 miles a week at first, and then walk more gradually as I go on. <BR> <BR> 3. Get rid of 25lbs by June. I'm starting small... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 11:39:08 EST Christmas :) On 12/23, I was supposed to get up and make a gingerbread house, bake gingerbread cookies with my kids, and clean the house. I ended up on the couch the entire day in pain with food poisoning (my sister keeps saying virus, I say food poisoning since Shawn and I were the only 2 that got sick in our household of 7). It was nasty! <BR> On Christmas Eve, I felt a little bit better but still had the nasty stomach cramps. Shawn got worse. I packed up the kids and went to my sisters for our annual ... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 22:30:38 EST Yes! Go me! Finally got my walk in to the library and back! I had library books due back today so I decided instead of taking the van, the kids and I would walk. The library is literally down the street, .45 miles to be exact. So I put Eli (my 37lb 5 year old) in the front of the double stroller, Gabriel (my 30lb 2 year old) in the back, and then put my 3 month old, Amery, in my wrap and carried him! I'm pretty positive I burned more calories than what the fitness tracker tracked due to me pushing 67lbs of kids in a double stroller up and down hills (... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 16:00:00 EST Hirschsprungs Disease SUCKS! My 2 year old, Gabriel, was diagnosed with HD when he was 8 months old. He had surgery to remove 34 inches of intestines and to reattach his intestines to his rectum right before he turned 9 months old. He went from about a week old until 8 months being misdiagnosed with different things until he had a blockage so bad that a pediatrician had him rushed to MUSC in SC in fear that his intestines would rupture. At this time, he had quit going to the bathroom completely. <BR> He did well after t... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 14:02:52 EST My Daughter's Dance Recital 12/13/13 My Chloe's dance recital was tonight and my oh my! This little girl is talented! I love to watch her's like she just lets go of life and just dances!! It's amazing to watch her face and how her eyes light up when she's on stage. <BR> She has been dancing since 2 weeks after her 3rd birthday and she just turned 8 this past August. She took June 2012 to September 2013 off and just went back. I can tell she really missed it. <BR> Her class did a tap number to "Marshmallow World" and... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 00:08:46 EST My daily blog for 12/10-12/2013 I have had a busy 3 days...Tuesday was my daughter's dress rehearsal for her Christmas dance recital. I loaded all 5 kids up and took them. The boys sat with me...Amery and Gabriel in the stroller, Noah sitting at one of the tables doing homework and playing a video game afterwards, and Eli doing the same minus the homework. I got to see my girl dance both dances and my oh my...She is so BEAUTIFUL! I am soooo humbled by how graceful and beautiful she dances! Her teacher gave me a compliment a... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 14:19:07 EST My Day 12/09/13 I started homeschooling my 5 year old kindergartener 2 weeks ago due to the principal being a jerk and refusing to keep my son in the right class simply because the school chose to "officially enroll" my son as one of the last kindergarteners. The school system hired a new kindergarten teacher only 2 weeks ago. My son, Eli, is very high strung and hyper and he has adjustment issues. His teacher even told the principal this. The principal refused to work with us so my oldest 2 are still attend... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 00:37:16 EST What I will do today... Today is a new day. I have started drinking my water, eaten pretty darn healthy, and I have a pretty good attitude, even though, I have a head cold. We are getting ice cold rain so no walking outside but I think I will get these buns-a-movin' and get my house clean. I can burn calories cleaning my house...I have 5 children for pete's sake, there is always something to do! Right? <BR> Then, I will make my son's blanket (procrastination is another one of my downfalls!), make some hairbows, pre... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 13:12:56 EST My Sleep Diary Blog Entry Day 1- 12/8 It's the night of the 7th/8th and it is 1:42 am. I am going to do the sleep challenge to see if I can curb my insomnia and going to bed late! Wish me luck :) <BR> <BR> What time did you wake up today? 9:00 <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 9:30 pm <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? take a shower, watch tv, and play on computeer <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? (Include type, amount, and time you ate.) Big Mac (yeah I know its bad... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 01:42:38 EST December goals and other ramblings :) I made a deal with my precious daughter, Chloe, that I would cut my soda and sweets if she did. She is 8 years old and is a beautiful dancer. This past year, when we moved, she decided to take a year off from dance and put on some weight. My biggest fear is that she will get fat, like I did, and get picked on and bullied. Her biggest downfall, just like mine, is SWEETS!!!! <BR> So, last week, I made a deal with her, if she cut out her sweets, then I will cut out my sugar and soda and we are s... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 02:07:59 EST Tubal Ligation...ughhhhhh I had my tubal ligation yesterday. I had to be there at 6am and my surgery started at 8am. I was home by 4:30. It was done laparascopically through my belly button so I am extremely sore. I was intubated and the anesthetist nicked my uvula with the tube. I woke up at about 2:30am in so much pain that I couldn't breathe. My ribs are bruised from being moved from the OR table back to my bed but other than that I am more babies here! Fri, 22 Nov 2013 17:37:30 EST Amery Christian Ray born 08/26/13 <img src="">My newest edition, Amery Christian Ray, was born August 26th, 2013 at 1:00am. He weighed 7lbs, 8.8 oz and was 20.4 inches long. My labor was fast...I woke up at 12:30 in labor so Shawn called 911, my grandma and my sister. The rescue squad got to my house at 12:39 and had me in our local E.R. which doesn't have an ob unit. I was supposed to deliver 45 minutes away. The rescue squad got me to the E.R. at 12:50. I had just enou... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 15:05:19 EST New Baby! Shawn and I found out the other day that we are expecting Baby #5 edd 08/27/2013! I am happy and excited and so is he! We only told a few people that are close friends and no family other than my grandma yet. Yay! So far we have 3 girl names picked out and 2 boy names...Layla Grace, Abigail Christine, and Christianna Abigail for the girl. Asher Hilton and Caleb Hilton for the boy. Sun, 6 Jan 2013 15:51:15 EST Starting Over...Finally moved back to VA :) About 2 weeks ago, I moved back to my home state of VA. I moved in with my beloved Shawn and I have physical custody of the 4 kids. Their dad and I agreed that he is allowed to come and see them as much as he wants as long as it doesn't interfere with school, their extra curricular activities, or church. So far, things are working well! <BR> The 2 older kids are back in school and they love being in a school where a uniform is not required. This past Friday, I got to go to school and eat bre... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 15:09:36 EST Depression So, I'm dealing with the thing, this nasty, gross feeling, self loathing, not wanting to be around anyone, making excuses to not go out the house. I need to kick it...this evil, horrible thing called depression. I don't want to go on meds...I must kick this thing. <BR> On top of feeling horrible, I saw on facebook earlier, where not too long ago, my ex-best friend and 1 of her friends called me fake, a whore, made jokes about constipation while my baby boy was in the hospital having 14 inche... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 05:00:39 EST Punkin Patch Adventures with my Lil Baby Superheroes! PICS! Baby Moose had a Dr's appointment Tuesday morning and he got an awesome report! He intestines and rectum are healing right on track and he gained 2lbs since last month! He's now 18lbs. His birthday is next month and my wish for him, as his very proud Mommy, is for him to be healthy by his 1st birthday! <BR> <BR> After I drove back from Charleston, I decided to pick the older 2 up from school a little early and take them to the pumpkin patch. They didn't get to go last year because I was preg... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 22:48:05 EST Busting my hiney to get this weight off! After my walk last night, I went to Bi-Lo's and got a gallon of water. I absolutely HATE water...give me a sundrop or a Diet Dr. Pepper any day! <BR> I came home and got a permanent marker and wrote on my gallon of water times that I should have each bit of it drank (I think thats the right word) by. I am keeping up with it today. I have already drank 1/2 a gallon today and I have not drank any Diet Dr. Pepper today. <BR> For breakfast, I had fruit. I really wanted to get up early and have oa... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 12:33:27 EST Feeling Blessed! I woke up a little late today...I took benedryl last night due to a wonderful (NOT!) wasp sting that is not healing (Darned Diabetes!) as quickly as I would like it and is itching like crazy! So I didn't get up until 10:30 (not normal for me...I'm normally up at 7). I woke up to a my 2 little stinky poos that aren't old enough to go to school yet. Eli had climbed up in to the cabinet and got the whole bag of sugar and decided to "make sand" and Baby Moose was just playing. Baby Moose had some... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:42:07 EST Feeling better :) Today I woke up and I am a little sore, which compared to yesterday, is great! Yesterday, I was in bed all day taking Aleve. My knee is feeling much better but I still have a golf ball sized knot on top of it. I may even go walking tonight! I don't wanna be fat anymore! I have lived too long in this fat suit!!!! It's time to go! <BR> I want to be an amazing role model for my kids...they deserve a mom that will get out in the yard and play with them and take them to all their extra curricular... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 12:25:19 EST My weekend...I so rocked the mess outta the zebra print shirt :) This weekend was AWESOME! I got to Shawn's in VA about 10pm on Friday night after dropping my 7 year old off with her Mimi (my grandma) in Emporia, VA. I met Shawn's dad who is awesome. Then Shawn, Baby Moose, and I went to bed since we had to get up early the next morning. <BR> On Saturday morning, we got up, got ready, headed to Emporia for the VA Peanut Festival. Shawn got to meet several family members who loved him. I saw lots of friends from high school. Then about 4pm we headed back to... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 13:52:53 EST My Dress Was TOO BIG! YAY! I'm slowly packing for my trip this weekend. Shawn and I found a babysitter for the 2 kiddos I am bringing so we are going on a date...a nice romantic date that involves going out to eat and then a nice little moonlit stroll on the beach. So anywho, I'm going through my closet trying to find something really cute to wear (my clothes are limited...I won't buy anything else to wear until I lose more weight unless it involves workout clothes or tank tops since I am so hot natured!) and I start t... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 02:53:53 EST Today went pretty well... Today went pretty well as far as my mood. I am however dealing with a teething almost 10 month old and he just wanted his Mommy today :) I love that little boy, well all my babies, so much :) <BR> I didn't get to work out but I did get to take a moment just to rest without kids since they all went to church to do children's choir tonight. It felt nice just to sit in the quiet. <BR> Tomorrow, I have to get some cleaning and packing done. My oldest, Chloe, and my youngest, Gabriel, are headin... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 01:44:31 EST I walked :) I walked...even though I didn't feel like it, I walked. I had a fight with my boyfriend and he made me so mad and hurt, that I was determined to get my hiney out there and walk so I could reflect on things that I need to change to get myself back. I came home, ate a little dinner, drink some water, took a nice hot shower, a melatonin, got my glass of water, and now I am going to bed. My alarm is set for 5am so I can go walk the bridge in the morning. It's time to start finding myself again be... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 21:03:37 EST How I am feeling... Today was just a yucky day ;( There just isn't enough money to pay the bills and its weighing heavily on my shoulders. I've always been one of those girls that HAD to pay her bills on time, if not early and my bills have ALWAYS been paid. This time, there just wasn't enough money. I tried selling my Neil Lane bridal set I got for Christmas from my ex-husband and the jeweler I took them to tried to rip me off and offer me $300 for them...Seriously? <BR> I'm trying to have faith...I know that ... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 00:15:44 EST My Baby Boy is HOME!!! My sweet baby boy, Gabriel (Moose) is HOME from MUSC! He got to come home this past Tuesday!! I am excited and happy :) <BR> He is a tiny little thing though...much different from his birth! He turned 9 months old on August 21st. He weighs 16lbs now. <BR> The goal is to now put the weight on him and let him grow without a massive intestinal obstruction. <BR> He is like a different baby...he plays NONSTOP and laughs and giggles until he plays himself out. It's AMAZING!!! <BR> YAY! Thu, 30 Aug 2012 02:46:19 EST Gabriel (the baby) has been in the hospital going on 2 weeks :( My youngest son, Gabriel, has had digestion issues since birth. We have seen Dr. after Dr. Finally on August 11th, he started throwing up everything he ate. He hadn't had a bowel movement in 3 weeks and before that another 3 weeks. We rushed him to the naval hospital down here in Beaufort where I had to plead with the Dr there to please transfer him over to Beaufort Memorial. It was only after Gabriel started throwing up bile with streaks of blood that he did. We took him over to Beaufort Mem... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 00:08:08 EST My Happy Ending. I am very tired. The kind of tired that makes tired tired, if that makes sense :P <BR> This weekend, July 28th, will be my daughter's last pageant in SC for a long time and she is so excited to be doing a pageant but sad that she will not see her pageant friends down here for a while. After the pageant, I will start going through all of mine and the kids things and slimming down everything that we don't need or use. Then I will have a yard sale to get rid of these things. <BR> The ... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 01:22:20 EST June 2012 June went okay. I didn't work out like I wanted to. It seems as though I am exhausted all the time and I have lost my motivation. However, I did lose 11 lbs!!! This was done through changing my eating habits. I decided from now on I will make homemade meals and try to stay away from the processed stuff. I still haven't given up my Diet Dr. Pepper though. I think I will work on that for July. I have also decided that the new McDonald's Chocolate Chip Frappe is the DEVIL! Yes I said it...they a... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 23:39:36 EST Today... Today I will clean my house, make a few hairbows, pick my daughter up from the bus stop, and I will go to the gym and workout for 30-45 mins. <BR> <BR> I will drink my water (though I despise it!) and try to watch what I eat. <BR> <BR> I have a weight loss challenge that I am starting on June 1st with some of my Mommy friends on Cafemom and I would love to help my team win. I also have to buy a scale on Friday :) My boys decided to pour fingernail polish all over mine and then they broke ... Tue, 29 May 2012 08:41:34 EST Memorial Day When I wake up in a few hours, it will be Memorial Day...a brand new day. I am starting back my walking routine and I am going to add some ab exercises in there too. My little girl, Chloe, is my walking partner and when I go to the gym, I have a friend, Christine, that works out with me. Chloe is such a little motivator at just 6 years old. The other day, she ran 1/2 a mile straight! She is going to be a runner I think! <BR> I am aiming to start drinking at least a gallon of water a Mon, 28 May 2012 01:17:41 EST Monday 1/31/2011 My goals today: <BR> * Drink at least 64oz. of water <BR> *Clean my living room, kitchen, and bathrooms <BR> *Go for a walk with my boys and my dog <BR> *Make hairbows for auction <BR> <BR> Let's see how many of these goals I get done!! <BR> <BR> My Daily Affirmation: <BR> I am perfect to me (Pink) Mon, 31 Jan 2011 06:05:04 EST