COANNIE's SparkPeople Blog COANNIE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Not Looking at Calories Today I am weary to my bones today. I don't know why. I had a good workout today - my favorite video, which is JM's No More Trouble Zones. It was a little more challenging than usual, but I fully completed more of the exercises, so that was AWESOME. <BR> <BR> But after I started working, I just got so tired and felt so low. I had my fruit and yogurt smoothie, then some Wheat Thins, just because I felt super hungry, then a pear, then my lunch salad, then my peanut butter and celery. And just now, a... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 18:46:06 EST New Food Combo - It's Good! I am always trying to find higher protein lunches, and today I accidentally hit upon a very tasty combination. It is black beans, cottage cheese, cilantro and a sprinkle of black pepper. All just what I had in the fridge. Cilantro is so good, I keep a bunch in a cup of water in the fridge. I also always try to have cans of black beans around. In this case, it was a third cup of beans, a half cup of cottage cheese, some cilantro torn into it and the pepper. SO GOOD, and satisfying, too! <BR> ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 13:47:12 EST Good Day We had a bit of rain and lower temps yesterday which helped with the fires. A lot of people were let back into their homes, and they are now saying 30% containment. I had never heard the term containment until the fire last year. It's a beautiful word. <BR> <BR> In other news, I went to my daughter's college orientation yesterday. I ate three brownies. Lots of snacks and high calorie foods, long day, and I was not prepared, didn't do my morning workout, didn't take a walk. That's a bummer. ... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 12:20:37 EST Fires The fires are burning homes at an amazingly fast rate. Over 3500 people evacuated in Black Forest, hundreds more around the Royal Gorge. Pueblo fire is almost out, thank GOD. We can smell the smoke from here. It's like a repeat of last year, brings back bad memories. I can only continue to pray for rain and ask the Lord to brings clouds, ask for strength for the firefighters and for the people who have had to leave, not knowing if they will have a home when they come back. Over 100 won't. <B... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 10:55:01 EST Summer, oh Summer Summer is not my favorite. I don't like being hot. I grew up in Arizona and I left as soon as I could. Last year we had the big fires here in Colorado. They were within a few miles of my house. I had to evacuate one night. The sky was orange at 11pm from the fires. They never have caught the person who set them. We had record highs as well, and in the midst of all that, my mom died from lung cancer before I had a chance to say goodbye. <BR> <BR> We are now having record highs again, fires s... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 16:25:35 EST Saboteurs! I am having an issue. I love to snack and graze. Grazing is not good for me, though, because I will literally eat ALL DAY. So, I try to stay out of the kitchen. I work at home and my desk is 8 feet from the kitchen. <BR> <BR> Here is my issue-my family is not on the healthy eating bandwagon, and we have high calorie, low nutrition food in the house- a chocolate cream pie, a bag of potato chips, ice cream, doritos, cookies, snack bars- it goes on and on. I don't even buy it- it's given by ... Wed, 29 May 2013 17:31:51 EST Memorial Day Dinner Dear son is home from his out of state band trip, dear daughter is going out with friends, and since hubs didn't get enough beef this weekend, I am grilling steaks (given to us by dear mother-in-law) for the two of them and a ground beef "steak" for myself. I am also making sweet potato packets, one with spicy seasoning for me and the boy and one with brown sugar and cinnamon for hubs and the boy. The boy is 16 and is a bottomless pit. I'm also doing some corn on the cob beause the boy loves ... Mon, 27 May 2013 18:09:12 EST Day Off from Working Out So yesterday was a bad morning. I decided to not work out and just get my exercise from activity. I cleaned up my backyard. It was good heavy work, so I felt it in my muscles, and also sweeping was a good aerobic activity. At the end, I had moved my body up and down cellar stairs and carried a bunch of heavy and light stuff, swept and cleaned and made the backyard look good. Then Hubs and I went and did some errands, daughter and I went grocery shopping and then Dad came to town and we had a ... Fri, 17 May 2013 08:46:24 EST Tough Week I am having a tough week. I can see the stress in my food tracker. Eesh! My daughter is graduating from high school on Sunday and we've been overwhelmed with activities since last week. In the meantime, my 22nd wedding anniversary came and went and my husband basically ignored it, and went to work with his dad rather than spend time with me. Made me feel really loved, NOT! He complained that he couldn't afford to get me a gift, even a card, then spent $100 plus dollars on work pants for himse... Thu, 16 May 2013 13:16:12 EST Woo-HOOO!!!!!!! Halfway to Goal! Last week the scale didn't move. This week- 6 pounds!! It's such a great feeling to be able to shop my closet. I have been taking longer to get dressed because I can wear so many more of my clothes again! Jeans that I wouldn't even try on a month ago are now do-able! The muffin-top is shrinking! <BR> <BR> I am so thankful for Sparkpeople. I was in such a bad place when I joined. I almost felt like I had no hope of feeling good about myself again. <BR> <BR> I thank God for Sparkpeople and ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 15:45:08 EST Getting Back from the Cold I have had a bad cold for about two weeks. In that time, I went over on calories almost every day and hardly exercised. I've always wished I was one of those people who can't eat when they're sick, but that's not me! <BR> <BR> So, this week, I've started 30 Day Shred, day 3 and a bit sore but not too bad, and will try to get a walk in this afternoon. No snow on the ground and in the high 40's, so it should be pretty nice. <BR> <BR> I didn't lose any lbs this week, for obvious reasons, so ... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 14:14:39 EST Cold Ughhhhhh On day 5 of this yucky cold. It's getting me down. I feel like a bear going into hibernation. I can't workout because I feel haf-dead, but I also want to eat everything I see. <BR> <BR> I feel like today I might try to go out for a walk. It's snowing and it looks so peaceful and pretty. Just to break out of this cranky rut! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:22:59 EST 2 pounds off I was really suprised to see 2 more pounds off this morning. I had been feeling like I was not being careful, and didn't think I'd see any less pounds today. <BR> <BR> This strengthens my resolve to measure my food, and make sure I do my exercise every day. <BR> <BR> Mon, 15 Apr 2013 12:57:11 EST Walking with a Geriatric Dog Just took my old Aiko out for a walk. Less than a mile. Took 30 minutes. It's ok though, I have some nasty sore throat and not feeling so good anyway. <BR> <BR> I hope it helped her. She's obese. She hates walking. She needs help. Sat, 13 Apr 2013 20:32:52 EST A-HA! So guess what? Not trying to be gross, but I welcomed Aunt FLO today, and that explained a lot of the emotional eating feelings I was having for the past few days. I have started keepig track so that I can prepare myself mentally for the down that comes prior. I feel 100% different today. <BR> <BR> I have been praying and giving myself over to the Lord it seems like hourly, but I am holding to this Scripture: "Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves a... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 18:10:24 EST Emotional Eating I am really fighting the emotional eating. It's mostly finaince related. My daughter is graduating from high school and will be going to college. Today we found out that she did not receive any of the scholarships she applied for. I immediately went into a hunger spiral. I was pacing around trying not to go into the kitchen. <BR> <BR> I settled for some beans with a sprinkle of cheese and hot sauce. Protein seems to help with these insane stress cravings. <BR> <BR> I am going out for a wa... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 18:14:44 EST Monday, Monday Having a rough day- woke up late, had to wait behind son for shower, smashed toes on trashcan, smashed hand on washing machine- usual run of cranky Monday morning customers and fellow employee work hedging. <BR> <BR> Gained nor lost anything scale-wise, waist measurment is up a bit. Feeling down about that, but also know I ate pretty badly this weekend and really ate badly yesterday. <BR> <BR> I learned a good lesson about letting my blood sugar drop too low by not eating enough and then ... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 15:07:30 EST Feeling Thinner It seems weird, but I am feeling thinner today. My stomach is not pooching out as much and my clothes are more comfortable. <BR> My daughter made pancakes for breakfast. I didn't try to resist them and make myself feel deprived. I had four silver dollar cakes with a teaspoon of margarine and 2 tbs syrup. That tiny amount of food was over 350 calories! They tasted good, but so not worth it. Another Lesson! <BR> I feel like I am growing as a person each day with this SP journey, and I love it... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 14:17:41 EST Starting to Make Sense Today I had a bit of bad news and an emotional shock. As I sat and thought about what was happening, my heart pounding and emotions swirling, I realized I was about to get up and go into the kitchen. I wasn't physically hungry, but I just wanted to go and EAT. And EAT a lot. And the more sugar and fat and goo I could find, the better. <BR> <BR> I sat and processed these feelings, and took a few deep breaths. I drank some coffee. I realized that my emotional tie to food is huge. It's how I m... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 15:37:50 EST Jeans feel good I haven't lost pounds, according to the scale, but I've been wearing a pair of jeans all day, and they aren't cutting my stomach and making me feel uncomfortable. This is a VICTORY! Sat, 23 Mar 2013 18:55:35 EST Inspired I was so happy to find a whole bunch of Sisters in Christ today on Sparkpages. <BR> <em>345</em> Fri, 22 Mar 2013 10:45:30 EST Feeling Better Today This illness keeps rearing its ugly head. I am going to try to walk today. I've been eating like a starving person all weekend, and it's all been high-fat, low fiber, gorge food. I was higher on the scale today than when I started. So I am just going to do what I know is best today and do my best. Mon, 18 Mar 2013 09:58:52 EST Starting Over I have been sick for the past two days. Sick enough to not be able to even take a walk. Yesterday I was on the couch pretty much all day, and eating like it was the end of the world. Today I am going to do better. I don't know if I am ready to work out yet, but I know I can east better. Thu, 14 Mar 2013 10:07:31 EST First Weigh In Today was the big weigh in, after 7 Sparkdays. No change. Still 176. Pretty dismayed. BUT- I did the measurements, and I had gone down at least a little bit on waist, hips, thigh and arm. So, rather than focus on the scale, I am going to focus on the shrinking body parts. I have been walking like a maniac, and ENJOYING it so much! This is what I need to put my mind to, and not be discouraged by the scale. Tue, 12 Mar 2013 10:27:48 EST Second Week Tomorrow will start week with Sparkpeople. It has made such a difference already to track my calories, be aware of my foood and be deliberate in my exercise. I feel better and the food going into me is fuel rather than entertainment or emotion management. Mon, 11 Mar 2013 16:51:47 EST