COACHMILLICAN's SparkPeople Blog COACHMILLICAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community THE DAY I started journaling, you know, the morning pages? and I realized that my thoughts today would be perfect for Blogging at SparkPeople. <BR> <BR> You know, I'm not sure if these entries can be viewed by the general public. I guess it's ok if everyone reads this. There are trillions of daily blogs out there all over the web, and baring my soul, I guess is ok. But I suspect that you gotta be a member of SparkPeople, with an account and everything, in order to view these things. <BR> <BR> No... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 15:21:17 EST EMOTIONAL EATING <em>24</em> I describe the payoff derived from emotional eating Sat, 13 Dec 2014 05:19:16 EST THINGS ARE FALLING APART Things are not going my way, and I seem to be disjointed. Thu, 13 Nov 2014 04:49:29 EST Stress I'm stressing out tonight. I've been screwing up at my job and I'm in danger of losing it. I'm getting older and it's harder for me to remember stuff. I have a fairly simple job and I don't know why I'm screwing up like this. The job is pretty easy and so there's something going on with me. I'm not sure what it is, but in some ways there's kind of a hostile environment here at work. Maybe it's me, and maybe I just need to grow up and smell the coffee. It doesn't help that I have several jobs ... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 00:49:12 EST The Day Finding it difficult to really, totally get motivated. After losing my momentum, I find I have gained weight. <BR> <BR> I really must forgive myself and simply get on with it. It's not always going to be fun, this starting over again. <BR> <BR> But I find if I just jump in, monitor the food, do the best I can, start with small results, and not expect perfection, I find that I might be able to do this. <BR> <BR> Keep it simple. I can't expect to master 2000 calories with half my food bein... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 22:27:41 EST REKINDLING MOTIVATION this is difficult. Once again, I must bring bad news to my blog here at SparkPeople. I ran into an old girlfriend and even after 35 years, I fell in love with her again! I was summarily rejected in that she is rather well off and she has stayed in terrific shape, & I have not aged well and I live near poverty. Needless to say, she did reject me. And herein lies the true problem. I was devastated and completely humiliated. The emotional devastation was daunting, as I had my heart set on this w... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 21:35:40 EST Girlfriends and wealth I have a new relationship. It's complicated, and it's long distance. I've reconnected with my college sweetheart, Mel, almost 40 years after the fact. I'm in Oregon, she lives in Texas. We've not seen each other yet, but will here shortly when she comes up from Texas to visit me and other friends in the Pacific Northwest. <BR> <BR> We have high hopes, but... she is a well-to-do divorcee receiving sizable spousal support, which ends in a few years. At the moment, I am a man of very meager mea... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 12:39:55 EST COACH LOST 6 POUNDS In the past month, I lost 6 pounds. Yeah, yeah yeah. Big deal. I want to know--I managed my emotional upsets this week. Can I manage them responsibly all the time? Wed, 12 Mar 2014 00:35:13 EST today <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm working on my housemate/so-called girlfriend dilemma. I think I took on more than I bargained for when I started seeing her. She is a "project" with major-dude health challenges, and it is a challenge for me not to eat out of resentment, anger, frustration, unconsciousness, etc, etc, etc, --you know the drill. <BR> <BR> The challenge, really, as so many of you have reiterated, is to manage my weight, my food ... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 19:21:00 EST COACH IS LOOKING UP IN FEBRUARY <em>334</em> COACH INVITES YOU TO JOIN HIM. IF YOU ARE IN THE PORTLAND, OREGON AREA AND WANT TO JOIN COACH IN A REAL LIVE SUPPORT GROUP, CONTACT HIM HERE! Tue, 4 Feb 2014 23:10:35 EST COACH STABILITY IN OCTOBER 2013 I have a regular, full time job. I finally have some stability in my life. <img src=""> Tue, 22 Oct 2013 18:05:40 EST DAMONS SELF CONFIDENCE AND SELF ACCEPTANCE ON THE ROAD OF EXPERIENCE, EH? Mon, 12 Aug 2013 00:09:53 EST changes It's weird. Last time I was successful in losing weight was 17 years ago! I thought it was a bit harder to lose weight at 40 than it was at age 32, which was my age when I was first married. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm 57 and it's hard as hell! My energy is low, my weight is much more, I work more hours, my metabolism is weird, I have arthritis in my knees and I get indigestion when I don't eat--my gawd, what a laundry list of circumstances that seem to conspire against me! <BR> <BR> I guess I need ... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 15:02:19 EST Damon--back in the fold <em>100</em> I'm back Sat, 6 Apr 2013 23:13:12 EST EMOTIONAL EATING AND MOTIVATION Damon describes the realization that he eats to medicate his emotions, and he discusses motivation--get out there and do it! Thu, 17 Jan 2013 01:21:46 EST HAPPY NEW YEAR I LIVE much of my life in a relative stupor--basically, unconscious. Why is that? Tue, 1 Jan 2013 15:07:28 EST GOOD FRIEND/HEALTH NEWS I'm feeling much better today! <em>41</em> Fri, 28 Dec 2012 12:48:58 EST DAMON'S VLOG2 Wow--a year has come and gone since my last vlog. I've made a lot of changes, so I'm starting over! Wed, 26 Dec 2012 15:11:08 EST just for today <em>39</em> <BR> So here we go again. It's hard for me to write. I'm not really sure who is gonna read this. <BR> It's been like almost 2 years since I did a blog entry. <BR> <BR> What is changed is i'm smoking again I'm working too much & i live with my brother now. <BR> <BR> Lost any weight. I'm still just over 300 pounds. <BR> <BR> Not really sure what to do just to get motivated. <BR> <BR> Part of the problem is that i dont have a regular set schedule. So its hard to sustain a... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 04:08:56 EST I quit smoking <em>20</em> <BR> Yesterday, I quit smoking. I mean, like 2 days ago I had my last cigarette. I'm on the patch, and Free & Clear wants me to get on the patch, too. <BR> <BR> I feel nervous about quitting. I've kept my smoking a secret from my family for years. I live alone, so that wasn't so difficult, but sometimes I feel like I lived a lie for years. I was too embarrassed to let on that I smoked! <BR> <BR> Even now, just admitting this, i'm chewing on the gum like crazy! <BR> <BR> What ... Tue, 3 May 2011 01:37:26 EST Day 2 My diet is going well. I'm not exercising, however, and I thought I quit smoking--but not yet. I've decided on a quit date: May 1, 2011! <BR> <BR> I did a 'mini-quit' yesterday and through last night. I had a cig. last night. I delayed having one this morning, and am about to have one now. <BR> <BR> I don't feel guilty about smoking, because I've cut back. Last week, I was doing about 8 cigarettes a day. 2 days ago I had 2. yesterday I had 1! <BR> <BR> So, needlesstosay, I feel proud of my... Fri, 29 Apr 2011 13:25:01 EST Damon's 1st Blog <img src=""> <BR> My first entry. Where to begin. Well, the facts, ma'am, just the facts. <BR> Age: 55 next month. <BR> Height: 6'2" <BR> Weight: 300# <BR> <BR> Those facts up there kinda tell my whole story. <BR> Somewhere not long after marrying at age 32, I began to gain weight. I managed to get down to 190 for my wedding day, which was way back in 1988. I gained weight. My lovely wife, all 5' of her, remained about 100-125# for m... Fri, 29 Apr 2011 01:36:21 EST