CM_GARDNER78's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CM%5FGARDNER78 CM_GARDNER78's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ BLC 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688546 Well............it's about time I give it some thought, no? I feel like I've been down this road a million times. Like I'm spinning my wheels. What's different this time? Well, for sure and for certain, I know that the attempts I am making are easily doable, and that I don't feel in the LEAST like doing it, but I am doing it to reclaim my health and my life. Not going after a certain number, a certain size, or a certain look. You know that saying about hitting rock bottom before doing some... Tue, 6 May 2014 00:09:05 EST Being SMART about my goals... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600748 So...part of the weekend challenge is to write out a goal. The steps written in help me to go from "just a goal" to a SMART goal - making it a Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic, and with a Timeline. <BR> <BR> My main goal for this year, for 2014, is to be more consistent and deliberate with my fitness goals. <BR> <BR> Breaking it down a little bit, how do I make that specific and measurable? Well, first thing's first, I NEED to make a daily habit of 10 minutes of exercise. Just... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 00:10:09 EST J-O-Y! :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557930 "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength" Nehemiah 8:10b <BR> <BR> Joy (n) <BR> A feeling of great pleasure and happiness. <BR> <BR> "...joy runs deeper than despair." <BR> ~ Corrie Ten Boom <BR> <BR> We named our 6th daughter Joy! :-) There are things that make me happy, of course, like most. But there are only CERTAIN things that bring actual JOY! My husband and my children bring me the most joy of anything in this world. I count myself to be tremendously blessed that ... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 21:31:45 EST Why don't I exercise...or not exercise enough? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522750 Ahhh...this is such a shameful kind of blog to write...but it was a question posed to me, so I'm going to try and answer it as honestly and openly as I possibly can. <BR> <BR> So....the question is: why don't I exercise or not exercise enough? <BR> <BR> *blink, blink* **crickets chirping** <BR> <BR> As of late, my exercise has been few and far between. I'm lucky to pull it off a few times a week. When I do, it's SO half done. I am square in the middle of not one, not even two, but THREE... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 23:41:46 EST What I've been doing...what I should do... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520482 WELL - we are at week 4 in the BLC - and I am going to reflect a bit on what I've been doing, but also what I NEED to do differently moving into week 5. <BR> <BR> Last week was actually one of my better weeks, as far as participation, and effort given. Although I'm not at "peak" effort, I have made an actual effort to take part in all challenges that are being issued. That's a big deal, considering how busy and overwhelmed I have been feeling the last 2 months. <BR> <BR> I even went so f... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 15:06:25 EST PAWSE - and REALLY ponder... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409332 Is there a scarier feeling than apathy? I'm starting to think not. That's how this week has been going for me.... <BR> <BR> Let me start out by saying, we were challenged to NOT GAIN this week - and I met that goal! I lost .8 this week...which when you look back at the kind of week I had, is amazing in and of itself! So, I am not exactly on track to lose 6 pounds in three weeks - in two more weeks I still would like to lose 5.2. It might be possible, but I certainly won't count it the e... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 07:42:09 EST PAWSE for the week - Take 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404154 Aaaaw - I am SO bummed! I don't know what happened, but I typed out a HUGE blog post on Wednesday night for this week's PAWSE and reflect....and it is GONE! It's not there! :-( I hope I can recapture some of what I originally put in there!!!! I'm gonna give it a try........ <BR> <BR> Well, this week we were challenged to lose 1/2% of our body weight. For me, that would mean a 1.1 pound loss. I didn't want to sound like I was making excuses, so I didn't say anything to the team....but I ... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 00:59:40 EST P.A.W.S.E. - end of week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395260 Week 2 of the BLC22 is now in the books! I ended the week with a one pound loss!! YEAH! Good way to end the week! :-) I do stand corrected - I went back to my reports - I was a week off! THIS week is my 7th week in a row to lose. Either way - I'll take it! It's the longest losing streak that I have EVER had!!! WOO HOO!!! <BR> <BR> This week I ended up with over 400 minutes of fitness! MUCH better week! I also stayed within my calorie ranges all but one day. (And even when I went over,... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 13:37:41 EST PAWSE and reflect.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387545 Well - I had a loss this week! I ended up losing .4 pounds. In and of itself, probably doesn't sounds like a big deal, but it is the 7th week in a row that I have had a loss!! They can't all be big losses, and I am just thrilled to have lost for another week! <BR> <BR> I ended up with over 300 minutes of fitness this week. Not all great fitness either. But, I have added to my streak, which is a great thing! So I am still on with both streaks - having at least 10 minutes a day, and a minimu... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 00:30:04 EST BLC22 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382936 Well - for the first weekend challenge, part of it is to take time to write down our goals for this BLC. I am going to write out goals for the following: exercise/fitness, food, scale, and non-scale. So.........here goes! <BR> <BR> As far as fitness is concerned: <BR> <BR> My goal is to complete a streak of 10 minutes of intentional fitness in EVERY DAY of this challenge. I know myself - I know how it all adds on to itself. <BR> <BR> In addition to that, I want to keep the BLC streak go... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 23:26:23 EST BLC Day 1! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379698 Well...........here goes nothing!! :-) I weighed in today at 228.8, which is lower than my ending weight at BLC21. So that is good news! I'm excited to be in the 220's, which I feel as though I haven't seen in ages! I gave myself a goal of 18 pounds over the next 12 weeks - which would be 7.5% of my body weight. I thought that would be reasonable for me to achieve. <BR> <BR> I am taking the challenge of 300 fitness minutes this week. My life is finally slowing down to the point that I am... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 22:45:58 EST Jungle ABS's of Me!! :-) BLC 22 - LET'S GO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376049 A is for ABOVE and BEYOND...Does competition give you an extra push? <BR> <BR> Yes, usually it does. Especially if I have a concrete end goal to meet! And I have someone I want to beat! ;-) <BR> <BR> B is for BLC rounds... Newbie?(first BLC round) Oldie?(1-3 rounds) Goldie?(long time BLCer)? Former BLC team(s)? <BR> <BR> I guess I would be considered a Goldie! This is my 4th round of the BLC....and my 4th team! I've been an Amber Amazon Warrior, Ivory Falcon, Groovy Gecko, and now I'm ... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 22:03:30 EST Courage... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350447 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1575375642.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wow - how many times do you hit the end of the day, defeated? Not sure you can even go on...not even sure you WANT to? And yet, you remember your goals. You remember how far you've come. You remember something...ANYTHING...that sparks that small glimmer of hope inside of you, and you say to yourself, "YES! I will try again!" <BR> <BR> Did it ever occur to you that that takes COURAGE? That it is actually courag... Wed, 8 May 2013 23:20:30 EST It's that time of the year to be introspective... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345757 Because it's the 6th anniversary of my 29th birthday!!! <BR> <BR> (For those of you not keeping count, I'm 35.) <BR> <BR> Ahh....what is it about new beginnings that make us think about starting over, positive changes, or what the future looks like? But that is exactly what I have been contemplating over the day today. <BR> <BR> If I am being honest with myself, I never thought in a million years that I would arrive at 35 in this body. I thought by now I would have "control" over this w... Sat, 4 May 2013 23:11:24 EST My plan? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308267 Well, to say I fizzled out of the BLC is an understatement! I even missed the weigh in last week! UGH. I am not giving up - I have been doing what needs doing to some degree. I just haven't had the TIME. And I'm not using it as an excuse either. I literally am busy from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed these days! Makes it hard to get in any kind of a workout. <BR> <BR> So - I am being diligent about certain things...and this is going to constitute my plan during the BLC br... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 23:46:56 EST What are you doing to encourage yourself and keep on track? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276777 So still in keeping with the water and exercise habits... <BR> <BR> I have a sticky on my computer desktop that lists all the days that I have exercised and drank my water. It is my listing of my streaks. That way, I can see that I need to do it! (Believe it or not, a whole day can go by and I FORGET to drink water or exercise!) <BR> <BR> I have my water bottle next to my coffee cup in the morning, and I fill them both. I drink my water first, and then refill. It goes everywhere with m... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 23:55:11 EST How will you do that? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275128 Well..........and so on about developing habits! I am still working on the 64 ounces of water daily, and minimum of 10 minutes of exercise daily. <BR> <BR> So, how am I doing it?? Well, the water for starters.... Every morning I wake up and right away down 16 ounces of water. Two of my eight are done right away. I have a couple cups of coffee (I have limited myself to 2 - some days I only have 1) and then I start with water. Usually as early as 9 AM. I can EASILY finish my water intake... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 22:56:30 EST Developing habits... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273555 Well, I am being challenged to blog about habits I would like to develop - and during the course will make a plan on how to achieve it. <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm cheating a bit when I pick two that I am working on right now: 10 minutes of exercise MINIMUM daily, and 64 ounces of water daily. I have currently been doing well with both of them - but they are definitely NOT an ingrained habit! <BR> <BR> I originally started the water, and about a week or so later started the exercise. I know... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:49:31 EST Endurance & exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262699 WAAAY back in the day, I used to exercise. A lot. And I loved it. But, I also had the body to go with it. I wasn't fighting a ginormous gut to bend forward. I wasn't battling weakened muscles to try new things. These are things that I, unfortunately, have to deal with since I have gained a lot of weight. <BR> <BR> With that being said, it always kind of amazes me how quickly muscles can be retrained! I realize that I'm only 34 years old, and that muscle starts to go away if you don't us... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:26:34 EST NSV's can keep us motivated... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259419 So - I have a few things going on right now. <BR> <BR> First, I joined the BLC21 this round. I thought I might be doing it a little soon after coming back to Spark (I took a "leave of absence" from June - October). I was hesitant, because I know me, and I am not always the best team member. I get busy, I get sidetracked, I can't do it "perfectly", so I give up. We are halfway through the challenge, and so far so good! I am happy to report that I am on the negative side of the scale for... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 23:42:25 EST Just getting the SNOW off my chest!! (w/pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258112 Okay - I KNOW that everyone is sick of hearing me talk about ALLLLLLL the snow we've gotten. I know, I'm sick of hearing it myself. But, just for effect, I decided to post a blog in pictures showing you exactly what we've got going on here! <BR> <BR> First of all - this is a picture of my house during Halloween a few years ago. No snow anywhere. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1911449098.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now here's a picture showing what it looks like across the... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 22:47:02 EST How I will feel and forgiveness... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228036 So, this weekend I have spent time being a little introspective for this challenge. One question is: how will your life change when you reach your weight loss goals - and the other: forgive yourself for one thing in your past. <BR> <BR> Well, thinking about how my life will change, compared to what my life is like right now, I can see many ways that things will be different. No fear - that is one thing I think will be significantly different. Fear of failure, fear of how I look, fear of not ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 23:38:07 EST Working on it...and it IS working!! :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219395 Welp - I have decided that going into this challenge, I am NOT going to do it "perfect". I am not shooting to be number 1, or the perfect teammate. All I am going to do is make sure that I PARTICIPATE in every challenge! So, I've given myself permission to not get ALL the points, or whatever. As long as I am attempting a portion of the challenges, then I will consider it a success. <BR> <BR> The biggest problem with me is that I go into something (anything, really) all gung-ho, and determ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:11:58 EST Already know this will be a problem... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207662 *sigh* Somehow, I am WAY busier now than I have been in AGES. Between running the kids places, doing school, taking care of the house, two jobs, CCGA board and teaching, volunteering, church, and now the BLC, I just don't know how it's all going to get done?! I mean, I am queen of taking on too much, but this time it feels like there's no possible way.... <BR> <BR> But then I think, there are a million-billion people in the world that have lives just like this. They work FULL TIME, take ... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 23:53:26 EST GroOvy GeCKo?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202966 So..............I have decided to join the new BLC challenge, and we received our team assignments today! I am officially a member of............. <BR> <BR> The Lime Green GroOvy GeCKos! <BR> <BR> Ha! That is great. The name just puts me in stitches, and sounds like a LOT of fun! :-) <BR> <BR> So, let's go BLC! I see good things in store for the next 12 weeks!! A lot of progress to be made! <BR> <BR> <em>201</em> <em>437</em> <em>104</em> <em>381</em> Fri, 11 Jan 2013 23:41:26 EST My skull is quite thick... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194121 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2018010629.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Why is it that making yourself do a workout is SO HARD?! When you put it into this context, then it doesn't seem so hard. But MAKING MYSELF DO IT.....oh that can be a whole other thing!! <BR> <BR> Just as a Spark Streak builds on itself, so does when you do something negative. One day of being lazy and skipping a workout......turns into two.........into a week........maybe longer...... <BR> <BR> But that's ok... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 23:55:00 EST Truth of the day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167701 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1516175005.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Ye-ouch!! How much truth there is in that sentence! <BR> <BR> Ask me how much I WANTED to work out today?! (The answer: ZERO! ZILCH! NADA!) <BR> <BR> I plopped that 3 mile workout on. I did it. It was hard...but I did it. And now I feel so much better for having done so. <BR> <BR> I hope I read this blog next time I decide "I think I'm just going to skip working out today!" <BR> <BR> I think the str... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 23:09:35 EST Quick thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162746 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2038529668.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Need to keep things in perspective. I have too many problems comparing myself to the next guy (not just with fitness or weight loss...pretty much everything!) I need to remember that a mile, as insignificant as it may feel, is a WHOLE MILE! I could have done nothing, but chose, instead, to do a mile. <BR> <BR> **Rinse, wash, repeat** <BR> <BR> (((HUGS))) <BR> ~ Christa <BR> <BR> P.S. The "mile" for me can be ... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 23:59:17 EST Two weeks in - - that's 14 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161162 So far so good!! I've made it 14 days of my SparkStreak so far!! WOO HOO!! There have been days that I *almost* didn't get any exercise in, either because I forgot, or because I was running short on time, but because I've given myself "permission" to only do 10 minutes, I have managed to do SOMETHING every day!! <BR> <BR> I am so proud of myself!! Shortly after I started this SparkStreak, I joined the 28 Day Bootcamp Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 14:32:17 EST Keeping a record... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5156603 This is just for me to keep a record of my old "Introduction Text" from my Spark Page. I'm making some changes, but didn't want to forget this one! <BR> <BR> ****************************************<BR>**************************************<BR>********************* <BR> "Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it." ~ Charles Swindoll <BR> <BR> This seems to be where I'm at these days. We all have bad things and good things that happen to us. We all have circumstances ... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 23:56:19 EST That dreaded scale strikes again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155318 Well - it's happened. A gain when I expected a loss. So now what? Eat till I puke? Completely throw in the towel? <BR> <BR> NOPE! Not this time! Why not? Because I can FEEL changes taking place. My endurance had grown exponentially! My flexibility has increased by leaps and bounds. Even my hubby said he noticed some tightening going on! <BR> <BR> Now I sure am not going to lie...it was VERY disappointing to get on the scale and see a 1 1/2 pound gain. Especially after all of the ... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 22:26:57 EST A throw-down? A challenge? It's ON! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147198 So, I was browsing blogs earlier today, when I came across one that I thought would be motivational. I was right. (If you're interested, check it out, here: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144334 </link> ) <BR> <BR> **Also, as a side-note, if you are NOT friends with MOSTMOM1, go friend her. RIGHT NOW! Go...I'll wait. <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=MO<BR>STMOM1 </link> <BR> <BR> Okay, now that THAT'S out of the way.....back to th... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 14:03:24 EST Things are getting easier! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144689 I hate to even admit it to myself, much less anyone else (or potentially hundreds of people!), but I REALLY let myself go over the course of the summer, until November. I mean, REALLY let myself go. It really started to scare me - straight into doing something about it! I had NO energy. ZERO, zilch, zip! All I wanted to do all day long was sit on my big ole' arse and do nothing! <BR> <BR> Now...I admit, this is not new. I have become fairly sedentary over the years, even during times I ... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:58:32 EST Time is my frienemy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5142034 We all have 24 hours in a day. Including myself. Yet somehow, it never seems like enough! <BR> <BR> When Monday hits, time is my friend. I have plans of grandeur...oh the things I will accomplish...I have lists upon lists. I have all the time in the world - it's the beginning of the week! Then... <BR> <BR> It's Wednesday! The weekend is almost here! Hardly anything has gotten accomplished, and I certainly have not been keeping up with my workouts or healthy eating. Is it too late to... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 23:20:39 EST A homecoming, a Sparkversary, and lessons learned... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5139868 I'm BACK!!! It has been since mid-June, but here I am! I'm so happy to be back. I've missed my friends and just being on Spark! It feels like coming 'home'! <BR> <BR> Beginning of October was my 4 - year Sparkversary! I can't believe I have been a part of this community for that long! I have come to know so many wonderful people, and have thoroughly enjoyed every aspect of using this website. I hope to be here for 4 more! <BR> <BR> So, in the last 4 years, or even just the last 4 or ... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 23:24:01 EST Tough decisions - best in the long run!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4935260 Well my beloved SparkFriends...the time has come to say goodbye! Well, not goodbye...more like, see you later! <BR> <BR> For reasons beyond my control (WAY too long of a story - way too boring!!) I am going to be logging out of my SparkPeople for some time. Probably until at least the fall. Maybe longer...we will see. <BR> <BR> This was one of the hardest decisions that I have had to make, but it is necessary. <BR> <BR> I have so many friends on here - blogs I follow - people I cha... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 20:09:04 EST Making promises to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750450 This week was quite an eye opener for me. We had challenge. I was challenged to abstain from sweets for one whole week. During Valentine's Day week. And I did it. I didn't lick a grain of sugar. Despite all the cupcakes, chocolate, candy, donuts, and everything else floating around. I.DID.IT. <BR> <BR> So it's caused me to think...why do I always say that I can't do it? It's not because I can't, because clearly I can. But I have reflected about the fact that it seems I can't STOP. ... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 23:06:16 EST Major D-E-N-I-A-L!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4727535 WOW! I have had the BIGGEST eye-opening experience today! I will NEVER consider myself having arrived, or knowing it all anymore...I am going to check and RECHECK. Especially when I am living my life like the definition of insanity...(you know, doing the SAME THING and expecting DIFFERENT RESULTS)! <BR> <BR> Okay...it's no secret. I've been slipping. I have been consistently gaining weight since probably around mid-October. My exercise started sliding. My confidence started lacking. ... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 16:54:43 EST Making it a family affair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4724267 I am BOUND and determined to be in a healthier state than I am not - with more energy and able to do more stuff.....and so far it seems to be working! I went sledding with the kids yesterday and was able to go up and down the hill with them! Then today, we did a fun Super Bowl Workout Game...and we had a blast! Everytime a word was said, or something happened in the game, there was something to do. For example: if there was a touchdown, we did 25 jumping jacks. For every beer commercial,... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 23:00:51 EST Thank you EVERYONE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4717389 My hubby's surgery was successful! They were able to close up the hernia and repair the hole. He was able to go through the surgery with just a local anesthia, so we were outta there quickly! He's a little sore, but pretty good overall. THANK YOU all for the prayers! <BR> <BR> Just a little funny before bed.... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l905231069.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Good night!! <BR> ~ Christa Wed, 1 Feb 2012 21:18:01 EST I love food... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4712640 And that's my problem!!! Ugh. I have stopped keeping good track of everything I eat. I have convinced myself that doing it "loosely" is good enough. It's clearly not. I have had gains for like five weeks in a row - that's gotta SCREAM that something isn't right! <BR> <BR> So, I was thinking last night about what I could do differently, and where I could make the biggest changes. I'm going to go back to making a 'pool' of foods that I can choose from for snacks, and I'm going to diligen... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 15:48:42 EST If only... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4711329 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l81083688.jpg"> <BR> <BR> HAHAHAHA! This makes me die laughing every time I see it!!! <BR> <BR> Hope you all get a good laugh, and a wonderful start to your week!!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <em>223</em> <BR> ~ Christa Sun, 29 Jan 2012 23:42:44 EST My TRANSFORMation..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4709415 Oh me, oh my....but there is so much to address under that *teeny, little* title......so let's try to unpack this, shall we? <BR> <BR> First of all, I would consider myself "transforming", NOT transformed, or a completed transformation. But - I AM transforming. In many, many ways. And - I do believe - that it is a life-long journey. I will gradually improve over my lifetime...and I don't think I will ever "arrive". I will continue to learn, improve, and transform. I don't want to be sta... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 22:23:30 EST Back to the 80's! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706074 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l166291559.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is the BLC challenge this weekend. Do you think I'm in LOVE with this one........OH YEAH I am!!!!! I can't wait!! I actually have an EXCUSE to jam down to 80's music all weekend!! hahaha! Much to the pleasure of my kids! HA! <BR> <BR> Either way, this is going to be fun, and I can't wait!!! Just had to spout my enthusiasm out there!! yay!! <BR> <BR> ~ Christa Thu, 26 Jan 2012 22:02:50 EST Get'cha head in the GAME!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4697555 Yeah - I went there. For those of you with tween/teen girls in your house....that High School Musical ditty can set your toe to tapping! Seriously - I kinda like the song... <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=G--VfuI0fNs </link> <BR> <BR> Anyway - I am back to the SAME old mind games...you know, the ones I play on a semi-REGULAR basis?! The "woe is me...I had gains for a couple of weeks, so I might as well give UP" kind of games? I try and try and TRY to talk myself out of it, and ye... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 19:59:52 EST Trek the U.P. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4688022 So, my cohort leader of Da Yoopers group came up with this awesome idea to do a virtual trip across the U.P. I thought that was brilliant! I printed up the map, and plotted my course....and I'm dedicating to 870 miles around the whole U.P.! I think it's going to be awesome. I already put in 10.8 miles today. Good way to kick it off! <BR> <BR> I LOVE people who have great ideas! Because then I can steal them! LOL Just kidding. <BR> <BR> Anyway, that is what's been on my mind today. ... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 22:51:38 EST What do I want to accomplish?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4683230 So...that's kind of a loaded question. But - when the challenge is posed to me, what I want to accomplish in 5 weeks, I thought of what would bring me the most accomplished feeling, and catapult me further into success. <BR> <BR> So with no further adieu, here is my list of 5: <BR> <BR> 1. MAJOR decluttering. I am going through a MAJOR overhaul in several areas of my life - things I have been putting off or just procrastinating on getting started. The decluttering process is just somethi... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 23:13:23 EST Ugh..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667548 Just the thought of actually weighing in tomorrow. I will see the final damage done during the holidays. I know that I've put weight on because I can FEEL it in some of my clothes. *sigh* Time to face facts and get moving....... <BR> <BR> On the flip-side....funeral tomorrow. :-( Time to say our final good-byes. Isn't it weird though, how funerals are like a family reunion? I saw people at the wake that I haven't seen in years! <BR> <BR> Anyway, time to catch a few Zzz's before star... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 23:59:45 EST Kind of a sad day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4658129 I found out first thing this morning that my great-aunt (my grampa's sister) passed away. It was unexpected, so that makes it all that much harder. I was glad that I had talked to her recently, and had sent her a card expressing my feelings towards her. But, I was somewhat close to her, and really cared deeply about her - and her I. <BR> <BR> I guess there are a lot of factors that come in to play, but I do believe that events do set off my "depression", because despite getting 7 hours ... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 21:39:13 EST Saw my doctor today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4655748 And I had a physical. We talked about meds I'm on, made some changes, I gave him my concerns about one of them that MIGHT be causing weight gain...so we got that one changed. he now wants me to lose a certain amount of weight in the next 6 weeks. First time EVER he's 'challenged' me with something like that. I take it as, he knows I can do it. <BR> <BR> I shared with him my frustrations over rapid weight gain, despite exercising and eating right. I also told him that my measurements we... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 23:38:15 EST