CLS1789's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CLS1789 CLS1789's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Mind is trying, but body is fighting it every step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952416 I lost four pounds, but then I had to stop exercising for a few weeks and gained it right back. COuple things came together in a perfect storm - plantar fasciitis and a bunion hurt on my right foot, my old, used treadmill broke down on me mid-pace (yes, I flew into the front of it like a cartoon character). So, I tried swimming - and managed to come down with a sore shoulder and severe vertigo. Not sure it was actually from the swimming, but sure didn't help. Autoimmune stuff just stinks.... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 21:48:58 EST First day of summer vacation... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946016 My daughter had her last day of school yesterday (yes, on a Monday thanks to all the silly snow days this winter). I picked her and her friends up at school and we headed straight to Busch Gardens in the 98 degree heat and I followed them around for about 5 hours. It was hot!!! It was so hot I bought shorts and wore them - which I never, ever do. <BR> <BR> Random question - I was sweating like a pig and kept drinking water and it was clearly not cutting it, as I was getting quite shaky.... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 09:58:19 EST Really want a big ol' coke http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943508 I have been down to one soda at breakfast and drinking tea or water at work (or occasionally milk). But the past two days I don't feel well. I am really tired, mentally on the weekend, have a sore throat - and I REALLY want a coke. I had stopped bringing them to work at all, so it would require buying one at the store in the building. It closes at 4. Trying hard to make to 4 without giving in, but really not feeling particularly strong willed about it. Green tea with honey & lemon is soo... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 13:15:12 EST Weekdays are easier... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941734 I wasn't really able to track this weekend. There are a variety of reasons, but it really boils down to the fact that tracking is now part of a habit during the week. My job is at a computer all day, so it is really easy to hop onto SP and track. And, I tend to eat the same things during the week. Weekends - especially this past weekend - rarely include the computer and rarely include predicatble/ easily trackable food. I will keep working at it - as I have seen a few pounds come off si... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 11:33:58 EST Sparked by Give Ups http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938961 Yesterday I read an article on SP about what someone gave up to reach her weight loss goals. I was so inspired by her article (I think from 2012) about giving up things like supporting the fast food & soda industries, etc. I decided to make my own list of things I want to be able to say I gave up & keep it where I can see it. When I was craving a second soda yesterday (yes - I am letting myself still have one in the am for now), I thought of my list and thought I would rather give up havin... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 09:29:52 EST Two steps forward, One step back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937790 I have been tracking, but only the past two days have I been able to stay in my calorie range. But, two days is better than no days, so I'll take it. <BR> <BR> I have been walking a lot - the knee injections have finally made my knee functional enough to walk on. But, now my ankle is acting angry. I have sprained that ankle probably 30 times, and worked with a sports med doc to do PRP injections to help stabilize the joint. The joint is MUCH more stable - only fallen once in past 12 mo... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 10:11:30 EST One calorie at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936345 I was able to fit in another walk last night. And I have done well with walking today too. But I am struggling with my soda addiction. I tried to go to just one in the morning. I have successfully switched to green tea w/ honey & lemon when I get to work instead of a second soda, but that mid afternoon slump seems to just call out for carbonated caffeine & sugar. I went cold turkey a few years ago and gained wait as it caused such sugar cravings I ate a bunch of junk to make up for the s... Fri, 29 May 2015 15:25:11 EST Stupid Ice Cream http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935726 So...totally ate the rest of that dang Graeters Ice Cream last night. So stupid. Will definitely NOT be buying more of that! <BR> <BR> Woke up this morning for a fresh start. I have stayed on target so far and fit a mile of walking in at lunch. <BR> <BR> TOUGH STUFF to get back on that wagon!!! Thu, 28 May 2015 13:06:39 EST So committed...but...GRAETERS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935055 I was committed to tracking AND staying within my target calories for the day starting yesterday. I was doing great...even walked at lunch. Ran by the grocery store on the way home since I hadn't been able to go that weekend. The cart was full of healthy veggies & fruits until I saw it. The Graeters Ice Cream. For those of you not from Cincinnati, you have no idea how good ice cream can actually be. I mostly grew up in CIncy, but haven't lived there since I was about 16. You can order ... Wed, 27 May 2015 09:40:57 EST Hiked & Hiked & Hiked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934490 Spent Memorial Day weekend hiking with my daughter & two other families (5 kids & 5 adults) in Shenandoah National Park. Kids ranged in age from 5 to 10, and adults ranged in frame from skinny, fit triathletes to - well, me. <BR> <BR> It was a great weekend. Weather was absolutely perfect. I couldn't track as there was no wi fi anywhere (a good thing really). I went back today and logged in what I ate and burned and realized I didn't eat nearly enough calories. Hauling my big self up... Tue, 26 May 2015 10:25:33 EST Promised myself I'd blog twice a week, so I am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932582 Weird week. After I had to put my cat down on Saturday, my sister's dog died on Tuesday and then I had my 40th birthday on Wednesday. And I still haven't gotten the birthday decorations from my daughter's Pokemon Party on Mother's Day weekend down. <BR> <BR> I am an emotional eater, and it has been an emotional week. So I have been eating. But, I have tracked everything, which is an important start. Really I haven't even had it as a goal in my head to stay under my "given" calories. ... Fri, 22 May 2015 14:16:02 EST Grief... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930059 I had to put my cat to sleep this past weekend. It was awful. He was old and had congestive heart failure and couldn't breathe, so I know it was the right thing - but it was still awful. <BR> <BR> And then I drowned the emotions in sugar. Which of course didn't bring him back or make me less sad. BUT - I did - through my tears - track it all, and I guess that is progress? <BR> Mon, 18 May 2015 09:41:35 EST Starting Over. Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928563 So last year I turned 39 and I was determined not to go into my 40s still dealing with weight. SO I started tracking. And moving. And eating less. And I lost about 25 lbs! But then I stopped tracking. And moving. And started eating more...and what do you know? I gained 10 back. Ugh. Next week I hit the big 4-0, and I am disappointed in myself for not sticking with my weight loss journey. There are reasons it didn't work - some controllable, some not..but I in the end I just didn't k... Fri, 15 May 2015 10:15:41 EST Getting Back to Tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846668 I never got back to tracking after my August vacation last year! AUGUST!!!! <BR> <BR> Not a shock - I haven't lost a pound in that time. Somewhat a shock - I haven't really gained a pound either. Since I still have a VERY LONG way to go to get to my goal - or heck - even my interim goals - I have to get back on track. <BR> <BR> So...today begins my back to the basics approach. <BR> <BR> Week 1 starts today: Track everything I eat and drink and every bit of exercise. I am not worryin... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 12:55:33 EST Still Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777361 I have really struggled since coming back from vacation. I start tracking each day - but by dinner I have stopped tracking. Ugh. Don't think I have done a full day yet. I have tried to start back up my exercise routine. Its slow and struggling but this week is better than last week, but it is sooooo frustrating! I go between trying to celebrate small victories and getting so mad at myself for not doing what I KNOW I need to do. <BR> <BR> Big Old Yuck Wed, 10 Sep 2014 15:55:14 EST Back From Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766006 I went to the beach for a week with every intention to track the whole time. But, that lasted about a day. Not only did I not track, but I ate whatever I liked. Amazingly, I got on the scale this morning and it hadn't changed a bit. I didn't burn a zillion calories a day at the beach...so maybe that was it....or maybe it won't hit for a week or so. We shall see. Back to tracking today! Sun, 24 Aug 2014 11:57:46 EST Why did I just eat that? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755161 Haven't been feeling great recently, and have been walking instead of running and not working out every day. Add to that an extra dessert here and there and the scale today says I gained almost 5 lbs back. Ugh. <BR> <BR> Then I am sitting here not wanting to call someone at work because I know it will be draining and exhausting. Instead of just making the dang call and getting it over with I walked down the hall to the co worker with the chocolate basket (you know the one - there is one... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 14:05:33 EST The Changing Palate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749011 I am pleased to say I got a cortisone shot in my knee last week and it has helped a lot! I have been able to run on the treadmill and the local train again. I still get really sore in various and sundry places, but it is MUCH more manageable. <BR> <BR> What I am really excited to notice recently is my change in taste and craving. I have battled a sweet tooth forever. I am fully addicted in full sugar cokes and I have never met a dessert / candy / sweet snack I couldn't love. But, I am... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 14:37:12 EST Pain - the pain of stopping vs the pain of keeping going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742780 I keep chugging away at things. I am continually walking that fine line of pushing myself and balancing the pain in various parts of my body. My knee is really hurting but I am still working hard at it I don't know if running and losing the weight will help the knee pain or if running itself is making it worse. Ironically, it doesn't hurt that much while I am running - so I keep doing it. It is afterwards when I try to walk down a flight of stairs that I am in some real pain. Seeing the... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 14:50:19 EST Plateau Busted!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737303 My weirdo plan worked! I took a week off of tough exercise & ate more calories (esp protein) and slept more...and ta daaa...I lost 5 pounds!!!! I also felt better - a lot better. SO much better that last night I went to my favorite trail and RAN ALMOST ALL OF IT!!! I was (as my daughter calls me) looking like a bright red tomato, but I did it. Some nice man even cheered me on. Of the 4 miles, I probably ran 3. That is farther than I have run since I was hit by a drunk driver almost 4 y... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 12:26:51 EST Plateau Busting? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735923 After dropping 14 pounds, I stayed at exactly 229 or 230 for over a month. I have tried exercising more, and that did nothing. Then this week I just got exhausted. So, I decided to try to the other approach....stop exercising for a few days. Sleep more. Eat more. Especially eat more protein. And...fingers crossed...it MIGHT be working. For the first time since around Memorial Day the scales showed me a different number this morning. Sounds silly to be excited at 228 instead of 229...... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 09:34:11 EST Trying to not be frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731202 I have been at 230 lbs for a month now. I have been working out almost every day. I track absolutely everything. While there have been a couple days where I went over my calories, they have been the exception. I am trying to not be discouraged...but I hear this little voice in my head (if it doesn't matter anyway then just have that soda or candy...."). I have lost 14 lbs...but it has taken 3 months. Well...actually it took 2 months and then I have tread water for a month. Annoying. ... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 09:56:08 EST Proud I Kept Up With my Journey On Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727246 I am just back from 6 days in Florida - and I am EXTREMELY proud to report that managed to keep up with my food tracking and exercise routine on my trip! While I didn't work out every day (I count trekking through a theme park in mega heat as enough for one day), I did manage to find treadmills and parks where I could run and walk while away from home. The mobile app helped - even though I am not as quick with it as I am the regular web page. I weighed myself this morning and it was up les... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 16:34:18 EST Wish SP Would Correct The Fitness Tracker on Stationary Recumbent Bikes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711972 I have been loving my new stationary recumbent bike. With all the pain my joints have been in recently, I have LOVED being able to knock out 10 miles on that and not be in crippling pain. <BR> <BR> The problem? Tracking it on the SP Fitness Tracker. The first time I went to track it...the machine had said I had burned about 225 calories. SP Fitness tracker said I burned over 800! 800!!! Well...I looked through articles & they all said to trust SP over the machine. And lets face it.... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 09:29:36 EST Breathing through the pain & keeping goal in mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708807 I had my ankle procedures done last week (PRP). The ankles are sore, but the pain from the injections was only rough for a day or two. What has been excruciating and frankly crippling is the pain from being off my regular anti-inflammatory medicines, as you have to be off the NSAIDs for a few days before & a week after the PRP. Not only has the regular joint pain - whether its from lupus, arthritis, obesity - who knows....been horrible, but I have to exercise through this. The need to exe... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:24:04 EST Today is the day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705891 My PRP (platelet rich plasma) injections are scheduled for 1 pm today. I am sooo nervous and sooo excited to be doing something about this ongoing problem. But, it has been a difficult week since I have had to go off all my NSAIDs since the weekend. I am hobbling around already, and I haven't even hit the painful part yet (YIKES). I was able to do my recumbent bike Monday & Tuesday but couldn't today. I did walk DD to school - it just took a lot longer than usual. FIngers crossed, praye... Thu, 29 May 2014 09:43:26 EST Hurting today...but keeping eyes on the prize.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704450 As part of my plan to get control back of my life...one of my main goals has been to address my chronically sprained ankles which continuously throw my off my exercise plan. So, I am scheduled to get PRP (Platelet rich plasma) injections in both ankles this coming Thursday. I know it will hurt, but I am trying to keep in mind that I am taking back control and working toward my REAL goal of building health, and that this is temporary. Prior to the procedure, I have had to go off all my NSAI... Tue, 27 May 2014 14:09:21 EST Happy Birthday to Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699252 Today I turn 39. Like the many birthdays behind me, I am obese. But, I am ABSOLUTELY determined that 1 year from today I will be able to say that is no longer true. <BR> <BR> I started off my 1 year countdown on the right foot today....I woke up really early and worked out on the treadmill before walking my DD to school. I squeezed in another walk at lunch as well. <BR> <BR> I will go over on my calories today - but that is ok. This is a journey and not a sprint. It is a lifestyle ... Tue, 20 May 2014 13:23:34 EST 1 Year to Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698377 Tomorrow I turn 39. I am ABSOLUTELY DETERMINED not to enter my 40s still struggling with this nonsense. I have 1 year to do it. <BR> <BR> I have made a lot of healthy changes since rejoining spark people in early April, and I very proud of that. It is frustrating that I haven't seen those results on the scale or in sizes yet. I am confident that I have a lot to learn, mistakes I am making I have yet to discover, and a lot more lifestyle changes to make. But, I know I am on the right t... Mon, 19 May 2014 11:23:03 EST Trying to not be discouraged by injuries...but it is hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694026 Part of the problem that led to all this dang weight has been my continuous injuries & health problems. My lungs are doing better now that I am on asthma shots...and I only get really sick about twice a year. My ankles have historically been floppy & I sprain one of them every few months, which is insane. As part of my short term goals for weight loss, one of the major ones has been to find a sports med physician and come up with a new plan of attack for my ankles. And we did...I am doin... Tue, 13 May 2014 09:32:32 EST Tired of hearing people say "the pounds started falling off" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691180 I really love and am greatly encouraged by the various success stories highlighted on SP each day. But, after watching my scale stay exactly still for what feels like forever despite my good diet &fitness work...I am really tired of reading things "after I started watching what I ate the pounds just started falling off and that was so motivating!" Needless to say...the pounds are not falling off, but I am trying hard to stay motivated by the fact that I am proud of how much my stamina on th... Fri, 9 May 2014 09:50:05 EST Better day with the food today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690093 Yesterday's attempt at lower carbs and higher protein was clearly a disaster.... So I started fresh today and it went ever so much better. I stuck with foods I know I like, but tried to tweak them. SO I had an apple with peanut butter for breakfast, a veggie sandwich on GF bread at lunch, and then a protein packed dinner of chicken, quinoa and a yummy sauce I invented with avocados, limes and greek yogurt for an extra punch of protein. <BR> <BR> AND...I have been continuing to do a wa... Wed, 7 May 2014 21:52:35 EST Hungry and Annoyed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689318 This week I have been working hard to get more protein into my diet. I switched from my carb heavy breakfast to egg muffins for a protein kick to start...and then a salad with grilled chicken. And by 2 pm I was hungry and grouchy. I had planned ahead and brought yogurt. That helped for a bit, but by the time we got home from DDs soccer game at 645 I was totally FAMISHED. DD wanted the frozen pizza in the freezer (not GF so I was on my own). I made a quick version of chicken parmesan and... Tue, 6 May 2014 22:25:56 EST Ready for party planning overdrive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686032 So I am a single mom with an only child - and I totally admit I probably spoil her in several areas. And one of those is that we go a little nuts for her birthday every year. I LOVE throwing a fun, themed, pinterest driven party in the backyard (May birthdays are great for that). And, on top of her birthday being a special day, we were finally together as a family on her first birthday (she spent the first year in foster care though I was able to visit every 3 months), and her birthday part... Fri, 2 May 2014 20:57:59 EST Planning ahead so I can't get sidelined.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684747 Just like everywhere else across the South & East Coast, the weather has been awful this week. Inches and inches of rain followed by more rain. This is has nixed about 2 miles a day since I haven't been able to walk DD to school or walk at lunch time. But, as those with autoimmune diseases know, this kind of weather change causes a lot of good old fashioned pain. I got on the the treadmill Tuesday and tried to run and just couldn't physically do it. I walked instead, but couldn't do that... Thu, 1 May 2014 09:46:24 EST Treadmill instead of comfort food today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681091 I was doing pretty well this week and then today I was letting my family push my buttons. (You know that saying - no one can push your buttons like your family since they were the ones who installed them!). Then I got even more frustrated at myself because it is a GORGEOUS spring weekend day and I was letting stupid stuff ruin my mood. Let me emphasize STUPID stuff (Like my DDs soccer coach didn't play her half the game on the 7 year old soccer team in the league that is supposed to be so ... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 17:09:30 EST Slowly learning that family tensions don't equal chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678750 Handling family dynamics is just stressful. My grandmother is in a nursing home with dementia and some other issues, but the true stress is in managing my mom and aunt through this process as they struggle with their mother's decline. Just made it through a very tough lunch with them to call out the tough issues. As tempted as I was to drive through and get a big ol' chocolate shake on the way back from it, I didn't. So - if nothing else comes from today's attempted intervention, at least... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 13:53:14 EST Running Away From Easter Treats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675840 <BR> Well - I am proud to report that I started back to running on the treadmill. Well - that speed may count as speed walking to some, but it is most assuredly running to me. I ran last night and this morning, and was feeling quite proud of myself. But, I failed to eat enough before running errands and then came home just famished and totally over indulged at lunch. On top of the big lunch I snuck some of the treats I had made for tomorrow (nutella meringues - can you blame me?) <BR>... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 16:56:42 EST Better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674410 Thank you so much to everyone who posted encouraging comments yesterday! I guess I didn't really believe anyone would find my page, so it was a double-encouragement. <BR> <BR> Trying to stay positive. Didn't get my walk in last night or this morning, which is frustrating. But today is my DD's first school play (hilarious). We spent the evening & early morning tearing the house apart looking for her costume. Surely that has a lot of calorie burn associated with it?!?! After more than ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 13:41:10 EST Trying to refuse to let myself get discouraged this early in the process! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673708 I was really busy the past two weeks, but I was great at forcing myself to track everything now that I have "really" started SP (instead of just having a logon for the past 3 years). Just the act of tracking helped me cut out the candy in the office. And, I've been walking regularly, but I haven't lost much weight at all (about 2 lbs in 2 weeks). I think I am tracking appropriately, and I think I am eating the "right" food (not processed, not junk), but I am not dropping weight. Why? H... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 15:56:48 EST