CLS1789's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CLS1789 CLS1789's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Still Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777361 I have really struggled since coming back from vacation. I start tracking each day - but by dinner I have stopped tracking. Ugh. Don't think I have done a full day yet. I have tried to start back up my exercise routine. Its slow and struggling but this week is better than last week, but it is sooooo frustrating! I go between trying to celebrate small victories and getting so mad at myself for not doing what I KNOW I need to do. <BR> <BR> Big Old Yuck Wed, 10 Sep 2014 15:55:14 EST Back From Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766006 I went to the beach for a week with every intention to track the whole time. But, that lasted about a day. Not only did I not track, but I ate whatever I liked. Amazingly, I got on the scale this morning and it hadn't changed a bit. I didn't burn a zillion calories a day at the beach...so maybe that was it....or maybe it won't hit for a week or so. We shall see. Back to tracking today! Sun, 24 Aug 2014 11:57:46 EST Why did I just eat that? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755161 Haven't been feeling great recently, and have been walking instead of running and not working out every day. Add to that an extra dessert here and there and the scale today says I gained almost 5 lbs back. Ugh. <BR> <BR> Then I am sitting here not wanting to call someone at work because I know it will be draining and exhausting. Instead of just making the dang call and getting it over with I walked down the hall to the co worker with the chocolate basket (you know the one - there is one... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 14:05:33 EST The Changing Palate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749011 I am pleased to say I got a cortisone shot in my knee last week and it has helped a lot! I have been able to run on the treadmill and the local train again. I still get really sore in various and sundry places, but it is MUCH more manageable. <BR> <BR> What I am really excited to notice recently is my change in taste and craving. I have battled a sweet tooth forever. I am fully addicted in full sugar cokes and I have never met a dessert / candy / sweet snack I couldn't love. But, I am... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 14:37:12 EST Pain - the pain of stopping vs the pain of keeping going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742780 I keep chugging away at things. I am continually walking that fine line of pushing myself and balancing the pain in various parts of my body. My knee is really hurting but I am still working hard at it I don't know if running and losing the weight will help the knee pain or if running itself is making it worse. Ironically, it doesn't hurt that much while I am running - so I keep doing it. It is afterwards when I try to walk down a flight of stairs that I am in some real pain. Seeing the... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 14:50:19 EST Plateau Busted!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737303 My weirdo plan worked! I took a week off of tough exercise & ate more calories (esp protein) and slept more...and ta daaa...I lost 5 pounds!!!! I also felt better - a lot better. SO much better that last night I went to my favorite trail and RAN ALMOST ALL OF IT!!! I was (as my daughter calls me) looking like a bright red tomato, but I did it. Some nice man even cheered me on. Of the 4 miles, I probably ran 3. That is farther than I have run since I was hit by a drunk driver almost 4 y... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 12:26:51 EST Plateau Busting? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735923 After dropping 14 pounds, I stayed at exactly 229 or 230 for over a month. I have tried exercising more, and that did nothing. Then this week I just got exhausted. So, I decided to try to the other approach....stop exercising for a few days. Sleep more. Eat more. Especially eat more protein. And...fingers crossed...it MIGHT be working. For the first time since around Memorial Day the scales showed me a different number this morning. Sounds silly to be excited at 228 instead of 229...... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 09:34:11 EST Trying to not be frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731202 I have been at 230 lbs for a month now. I have been working out almost every day. I track absolutely everything. While there have been a couple days where I went over my calories, they have been the exception. I am trying to not be discouraged...but I hear this little voice in my head (if it doesn't matter anyway then just have that soda or candy...."). I have lost 14 lbs...but it has taken 3 months. Well...actually it took 2 months and then I have tread water for a month. Annoying. ... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 09:56:08 EST Proud I Kept Up With my Journey On Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727246 I am just back from 6 days in Florida - and I am EXTREMELY proud to report that managed to keep up with my food tracking and exercise routine on my trip! While I didn't work out every day (I count trekking through a theme park in mega heat as enough for one day), I did manage to find treadmills and parks where I could run and walk while away from home. The mobile app helped - even though I am not as quick with it as I am the regular web page. I weighed myself this morning and it was up les... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 16:34:18 EST Wish SP Would Correct The Fitness Tracker on Stationary Recumbent Bikes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711972 I have been loving my new stationary recumbent bike. With all the pain my joints have been in recently, I have LOVED being able to knock out 10 miles on that and not be in crippling pain. <BR> <BR> The problem? Tracking it on the SP Fitness Tracker. The first time I went to track it...the machine had said I had burned about 225 calories. SP Fitness tracker said I burned over 800! 800!!! Well...I looked through articles & they all said to trust SP over the machine. And lets face it.... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 09:29:36 EST Breathing through the pain & keeping goal in mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708807 I had my ankle procedures done last week (PRP). The ankles are sore, but the pain from the injections was only rough for a day or two. What has been excruciating and frankly crippling is the pain from being off my regular anti-inflammatory medicines, as you have to be off the NSAIDs for a few days before & a week after the PRP. Not only has the regular joint pain - whether its from lupus, arthritis, obesity - who knows....been horrible, but I have to exercise through this. The need to exe... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:24:04 EST Today is the day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705891 My PRP (platelet rich plasma) injections are scheduled for 1 pm today. I am sooo nervous and sooo excited to be doing something about this ongoing problem. But, it has been a difficult week since I have had to go off all my NSAIDs since the weekend. I am hobbling around already, and I haven't even hit the painful part yet (YIKES). I was able to do my recumbent bike Monday & Tuesday but couldn't today. I did walk DD to school - it just took a lot longer than usual. FIngers crossed, praye... Thu, 29 May 2014 09:43:26 EST Hurting today...but keeping eyes on the prize.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704450 As part of my plan to get control back of my life...one of my main goals has been to address my chronically sprained ankles which continuously throw my off my exercise plan. So, I am scheduled to get PRP (Platelet rich plasma) injections in both ankles this coming Thursday. I know it will hurt, but I am trying to keep in mind that I am taking back control and working toward my REAL goal of building health, and that this is temporary. Prior to the procedure, I have had to go off all my NSAI... Tue, 27 May 2014 14:09:21 EST Happy Birthday to Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699252 Today I turn 39. Like the many birthdays behind me, I am obese. But, I am ABSOLUTELY determined that 1 year from today I will be able to say that is no longer true. <BR> <BR> I started off my 1 year countdown on the right foot today....I woke up really early and worked out on the treadmill before walking my DD to school. I squeezed in another walk at lunch as well. <BR> <BR> I will go over on my calories today - but that is ok. This is a journey and not a sprint. It is a lifestyle ... Tue, 20 May 2014 13:23:34 EST 1 Year to Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698377 Tomorrow I turn 39. I am ABSOLUTELY DETERMINED not to enter my 40s still struggling with this nonsense. I have 1 year to do it. <BR> <BR> I have made a lot of healthy changes since rejoining spark people in early April, and I very proud of that. It is frustrating that I haven't seen those results on the scale or in sizes yet. I am confident that I have a lot to learn, mistakes I am making I have yet to discover, and a lot more lifestyle changes to make. But, I know I am on the right t... Mon, 19 May 2014 11:23:03 EST Trying to not be discouraged by injuries...but it is hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694026 Part of the problem that led to all this dang weight has been my continuous injuries & health problems. My lungs are doing better now that I am on asthma shots...and I only get really sick about twice a year. My ankles have historically been floppy & I sprain one of them every few months, which is insane. As part of my short term goals for weight loss, one of the major ones has been to find a sports med physician and come up with a new plan of attack for my ankles. And we did...I am doin... Tue, 13 May 2014 09:32:32 EST Tired of hearing people say "the pounds started falling off" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691180 I really love and am greatly encouraged by the various success stories highlighted on SP each day. But, after watching my scale stay exactly still for what feels like forever despite my good diet &fitness work...I am really tired of reading things "after I started watching what I ate the pounds just started falling off and that was so motivating!" Needless to say...the pounds are not falling off, but I am trying hard to stay motivated by the fact that I am proud of how much my stamina on th... Fri, 9 May 2014 09:50:05 EST Better day with the food today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690093 Yesterday's attempt at lower carbs and higher protein was clearly a disaster.... So I started fresh today and it went ever so much better. I stuck with foods I know I like, but tried to tweak them. SO I had an apple with peanut butter for breakfast, a veggie sandwich on GF bread at lunch, and then a protein packed dinner of chicken, quinoa and a yummy sauce I invented with avocados, limes and greek yogurt for an extra punch of protein. <BR> <BR> AND...I have been continuing to do a wa... Wed, 7 May 2014 21:52:35 EST Hungry and Annoyed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689318 This week I have been working hard to get more protein into my diet. I switched from my carb heavy breakfast to egg muffins for a protein kick to start...and then a salad with grilled chicken. And by 2 pm I was hungry and grouchy. I had planned ahead and brought yogurt. That helped for a bit, but by the time we got home from DDs soccer game at 645 I was totally FAMISHED. DD wanted the frozen pizza in the freezer (not GF so I was on my own). I made a quick version of chicken parmesan and... Tue, 6 May 2014 22:25:56 EST Ready for party planning overdrive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686032 So I am a single mom with an only child - and I totally admit I probably spoil her in several areas. And one of those is that we go a little nuts for her birthday every year. I LOVE throwing a fun, themed, pinterest driven party in the backyard (May birthdays are great for that). And, on top of her birthday being a special day, we were finally together as a family on her first birthday (she spent the first year in foster care though I was able to visit every 3 months), and her birthday part... Fri, 2 May 2014 20:57:59 EST Planning ahead so I can't get sidelined.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684747 Just like everywhere else across the South & East Coast, the weather has been awful this week. Inches and inches of rain followed by more rain. This is has nixed about 2 miles a day since I haven't been able to walk DD to school or walk at lunch time. But, as those with autoimmune diseases know, this kind of weather change causes a lot of good old fashioned pain. I got on the the treadmill Tuesday and tried to run and just couldn't physically do it. I walked instead, but couldn't do that... Thu, 1 May 2014 09:46:24 EST Treadmill instead of comfort food today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681091 I was doing pretty well this week and then today I was letting my family push my buttons. (You know that saying - no one can push your buttons like your family since they were the ones who installed them!). Then I got even more frustrated at myself because it is a GORGEOUS spring weekend day and I was letting stupid stuff ruin my mood. Let me emphasize STUPID stuff (Like my DDs soccer coach didn't play her half the game on the 7 year old soccer team in the league that is supposed to be so ... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 17:09:30 EST Slowly learning that family tensions don't equal chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678750 Handling family dynamics is just stressful. My grandmother is in a nursing home with dementia and some other issues, but the true stress is in managing my mom and aunt through this process as they struggle with their mother's decline. Just made it through a very tough lunch with them to call out the tough issues. As tempted as I was to drive through and get a big ol' chocolate shake on the way back from it, I didn't. So - if nothing else comes from today's attempted intervention, at least... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 13:53:14 EST Running Away From Easter Treats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675840 <BR> Well - I am proud to report that I started back to running on the treadmill. Well - that speed may count as speed walking to some, but it is most assuredly running to me. I ran last night and this morning, and was feeling quite proud of myself. But, I failed to eat enough before running errands and then came home just famished and totally over indulged at lunch. On top of the big lunch I snuck some of the treats I had made for tomorrow (nutella meringues - can you blame me?) <BR>... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 16:56:42 EST Better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674410 Thank you so much to everyone who posted encouraging comments yesterday! I guess I didn't really believe anyone would find my page, so it was a double-encouragement. <BR> <BR> Trying to stay positive. Didn't get my walk in last night or this morning, which is frustrating. But today is my DD's first school play (hilarious). We spent the evening & early morning tearing the house apart looking for her costume. Surely that has a lot of calorie burn associated with it?!?! After more than ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 13:41:10 EST Trying to refuse to let myself get discouraged this early in the process! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673708 I was really busy the past two weeks, but I was great at forcing myself to track everything now that I have "really" started SP (instead of just having a logon for the past 3 years). Just the act of tracking helped me cut out the candy in the office. And, I've been walking regularly, but I haven't lost much weight at all (about 2 lbs in 2 weeks). I think I am tracking appropriately, and I think I am eating the "right" food (not processed, not junk), but I am not dropping weight. Why? H... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 15:56:48 EST