CINNABERYL's SparkPeople Blog CINNABERYL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ugh! So I lost 60 pounds last year, but then fell off the face of the planet. I didn't gain anything back, but I didn't lose my goal of 100 pounds either. So, here I am, going to start all over again. I was to the point where I could jog two miles without stopping, and now I have to go back to the beginning, bruises and sore muscles and anger at myself. It's alright though, starting again is better then not starting at all. <BR> <BR> Right? Fri, 23 Jan 2009 14:25:06 EST It's allliiive I am though, really. I've been doing a lot of preceptorships, internships and shadowing lately, that along with prepping for events I've just been a slacker about blog posts. I should have my stickers taken away, that would show me. <BR> <BR> I haven't really lost or gained anything, I've just been maintaining. That is alright, but I feel like now's the time to push it a bit harder to start losing again. This heat though, man it makes it tough. My local college has an indoor track that's air... Thu, 3 Jul 2008 13:36:46 EST I am amused Heh. Thu, 29 May 2008 18:14:39 EST Um, how does this work? So I'm the first to admit I've been craptastic for the last nearly two weeks. I've eaten crap, or nothing at all (which is just as bad), I've exercised like crap, I sound like crap, I've felt like crap. Crap is a fun word to say. <BR> <BR> So now that I'm nearly better (I still sound like an 90 year old smoker) I thought for sure that when I faced the music, I would find that I've gained back something, probably a lot of somethings, right around my tushy area. <BR> <BR> So I weigh myself, f... Wed, 28 May 2008 21:43:15 EST It's been nuts. Macadamia, to be precise. I've been getting a lot of posts, comments and spark mail asking where I am and how I'm doing. So, to answer your questions: <BR> <BR> 1. Yes, I'm still alive. I think. Maybe. <BR> <BR> 2. No, I have not been kidnapped, eaten, abducted by aliens, murdered, nor did I run away to join the circus, but believe me, the last one is tempting. <BR> <BR> 3. I haven't fallen off the wagon, more like, getting dragged behind it by my hair. <BR> <BR> It's been a rough week and a half. Dead week is loo... Fri, 23 May 2008 15:22:18 EST I think about you! Every now and then during the day I send happy thoughts your way. Just because I'm not here as much as I'd like to be, doesn't mean I'm not supporting you! <BR> <BR> I hope everything is going well for each of you, that you're healthy, happy, and reaching your goals to be sexy, sexy guys and gals. Not that you aren't hot already, or anything. <BR> <BR> Have a great week! Mon, 19 May 2008 11:46:32 EST Three-day weekend ho! Erm, oh wait, I mean 'ho' like in land ho...ahem Actually it's a four day weekend. I developed a very unattractive and painful blood blister on the bottom of my heel on Wednesday, so Thursday I was hobbling around and decided not to walk the three and a half miles back and forth to school. The sad thing? I was more upset about not getting my exercise in for the day then missing class. Don't tell anyone. It's almost all better now, so I'm going to get some good cardio in today. <BR> <BR> My now three-day weekend is chock full of good intent... Fri, 25 Apr 2008 15:09:08 EST Roooar (that's my dinosaur noise) It's been an up and down week. I've been plugging along thinking happy thoughts and hoping everything works out for the best. <BR> <BR> Bad: my current college and I are fighting. They want to take away all my money, and I've made up fun new four-letter words in my pursuit to thwart them. It's difficult because I'm only a year away from medical school and if I lose my Financial Aid now there is no way I can afford to finish my Undergrad on my own. Keep your fingers crossed that my entire fut... Thu, 17 Apr 2008 21:46:20 EST How's it going, Sparkers? I hope you're all doing well! I've been thinking about you even though I've been kind of gone lately. I've been leaving about 6:45 every morning for classes and sometimes I'm not home until late, so it's made things kind of hectic. It's the second week though, so I think I'm nice and cozy in the swing of things. <BR> <BR> I found out some pretty exciting news this morning. Do you remember the pants that almost fit a couple of weeks ago? The ones I was hoping to fit in by Spring Break? Well, ... Fri, 11 Apr 2008 11:59:56 EST Proof that I know better So, I went to the beach. It was rainy, but crazy fun. Until about 11:30 that night when I got super-crazy-sick. <BR> <BR> See, I have these stomach issues, and I know I have them, and I have to be really really really careful with what I eat, which is why I don't eat fast food or anything fried. It's not only because 90% of fast food is nasty (except for mozzarella cheese sticks, holy crap, those are like the food of the Gods right there) but if I eat it I fall over dead. I spent a good two ... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 15:06:54 EST Sunshine? We don't need no stinkin' sunshine It's pouring today. I knew it was going to, but I was secretly hoping deep down inside that it'd be like yesterday, sunny and warm-ish. As warm as this time of year gets, anyway. <BR> <BR> You know, the rain and I, we're buddies. I don't have anything against the rain. In fact, I love the rain. It makes me feel all warm and squooshie inside. Except, see, I'm going to the beach today, and although I'm an Oregonian and can function just fine on the beach in rain (please don't take that like ot... Sun, 23 Mar 2008 12:38:46 EST And lo, papers were the death of her So I'm still writing (still writing, and writing and writing) term papers. Obviously I'm not right this second, but that's only because my fingertips have begun to bleed and my left eyeball popped out of it's socket. I had to take a break. I had to, or I'd go manic, which would be sad for my roommate, I like him. I don't want to kill him. <BR> <BR> I have lots left. Papers, mind you, not sanity. Not lots of papers as in all of them, but enough to make me a teeny tiny tad bit nervous. I've go... Tue, 18 Mar 2008 18:32:05 EST Yay for Thursdays, Boo for Finals. This week has been pretty good. Rushed and crazy, but good. Those of you who are also taking college classes are probably in the same boat I am. This week is Dead Week for me, with finals looming evilly on the horizon. Cackling manically and wringing their hands. <BR> <BR> I still have about 17 (no I am not kidding) papers to write that are all due before next Wednesday. I need someone to kick me in the butt because I've not written a single one today at all, in fact, I'm trying to find oth... Thu, 13 Mar 2008 14:57:38 EST This deserves a sticker, or a million dollars Eating has always been an issue for me. Not over-eating, but eating period. I've struggled with what might as well be called an eating disorder for over a decade, where I will not eat for days on end, not because I consciously make a choice not to eat but because I've conditioned myself so well not to even notice, that I'd forget or wouldn't take the time to stop and eat something. <BR> <BR> I also struggled with the consequences of that, which include things like not BEING able to eat more... Sun, 9 Mar 2008 14:34:07 EST Oh spring, how I love thee. It's springtime here, is it spring time where you are? It's still a little chilly, and muddy...and muddy. But in Oregon it's muddy all but about five days out of the year, so I'm used to it. <BR> <BR> The trees are starting to bud out, and some of them are even starting to get blossoms. I love this time of year, everything starts to wake up from winter, get some color and it all leads into wonderful warm days. It makes me happy. <BR> <BR> This time of year also means I can start toddling a... Thu, 6 Mar 2008 19:43:56 EST Is this chickeny or what? So back in December I flew to Vegas to be a Groomswoman in a friend's wedding. Our side (all girls, by the way, except for the groom...we dubbed ourself his harem) had to wear all black with apple red accents. I bought a dress for this occasion. I'd like to take the time right now to point out that I don't do dresses. Cute shoes yes, dresses no. So, that's love right there, okay? <BR> <BR> Anyway, the dress fit okay (shock!) and everything, but I just felt frumpy and stupid. I spent the whol... Wed, 5 Mar 2008 13:43:43 EST Holy #&%@, Batman! I have arms! I was sitting on the couch yesterday, all alone minding my own bid'ness when I looked down and saw my arm which was flung across the back of the couch. My jaw dropped open in absolute shock when I saw, under the flabby pale white girl that is my upper arm, definition. <BR> <BR> No, seriously, like...there is a muscle there after all! Ohmigah! I mean, it's not huge or all She-Ra anything, but you can see something. Hot damn! I stared at my arms in amazement and yelled some incoherent stuff ab... Wed, 27 Feb 2008 23:11:53 EST Ach! Still here :) Hope everyone is doing well! <BR> <BR> Things finally worked themselves out with school, so I've just been plugging along. I've lost about ten pounds since the first of the year (woot!) and I'm sleeping SOOOOO much better then I was before. Sleep is such a lovely thing, you always forget how great it is until you start doing it again. <BR> <BR> Mid-December with all the stress I wasn't sleeping for days, now I'm no longer a zombie and I don't talk to people who aren't there, and my friends ... Fri, 1 Feb 2008 22:37:38 EST DDR My sister came over tonight after work, she's a DDR fanatic, so we dance around my living room like lunatics singing along with the songs for 45 minutes or so before she had to head home. This gives me 200/720 minutes and I have 12 days left, which is about 44 minutes a day. So if I play 45 minutes a day from now on, I'll meet my goal. Someone come stand behind me with a hot poker and make me, okay? <BR> <BR> I'm going to try and see if my friend who I car pool with wants to switch our hours... Sat, 19 Jan 2008 23:20:31 EST Rough Week So I've missed class twice this week, and still haven't been able to buy my books so I'm two weeks behind. The stress is rough so I haven't been eating at all. I ate once yesterday, a salad, and tried to eat something this morning (some carrots). Maybe I just need some cute doctor to stand around and force me to eat...yeah, that's what I need. <BR> <BR> I haven't played DDR since school started. I'm hoping that when I pick up my books today and get caught up on my homework that I'll be able ... Fri, 18 Jan 2008 10:24:28 EST Happy Sunday! So, my weekend hasn't been too bad. It's one of my very best friends birthday today, so she came over and spent the weekend at my house. We had a little party for her yesterday and took her out to sushi, it was fantastic. <BR> <BR> Today her request for her birthday was to go to a movie theater and sit through four movies in a row (she's a strange duck, but I love her). I'm not worried about eating anything bad there, because I can't stand popcorn or anything else they serve in the theater.... Sun, 13 Jan 2008 11:42:51 EST Suggestions Anyone? So I started the new term at a new college which is about an hour commute away from my home. I'm there M/W/F from 8 - 6 and Tuesday from about 8 - 1. <BR> <BR> Because of this, and by the time I get home on M/W/F (about 7 - 7:30) I'm dead tired, and have probably walked a good four miles around campus. <BR> <BR> My biggest problem though? Is I'm not eating. At all. So I'm looking for suggestions on quick, easy things that I'll actually take the time and eat, that I can take with me. I know... Thu, 10 Jan 2008 13:01:33 EST Cripes! Today is the first day at a brand new school. I've left my old and comfortable college behind for the next one. I don't know my way around, I don't know any of my teachers, nothing. <BR> <BR> Also, because I couldn't meet with my adviser until today (at 9 this morning later) I can't schedule classes yet. Yay for last minute not even knowing what my classes are. Whee! <BR> <BR> I'm nervous. :( But I ate an apple for breakfast! Go me! I didn't want it, but I ate it anyway. Do I get a gold sta... Mon, 7 Jan 2008 09:09:13 EST DDR New Years Challenge I took up the 'DDR New Years Challenge!' at the Dance Dance Revolution Team. My goal is to do 45 minutes a day 4 days a week, which equals 720 minutes. <BR> <BR> I did Konamix today, Workout Mode (Continuous) on Beginner because I hadn't played in about two months. Whee! <BR> <BR> Going through Collection 1 twice in these settings is a little over 47 minutes of workout time, which is perfect. About halfway through the first round I found myself falling back into the old rhythm of it, by the... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 21:54:06 EST Damn Okay, so it's been over a year since my last post here. I haven't really LOST anything, but I haven't really gained anything either. <BR> <BR> The last year of my life was super crazy pull-my-hair-out hard, but I've left it and all of it's tangled mess behind and I'm looking forward to finally doing something productive for my heath. <BR> <BR> One step is I've signed up for Tai Chi classes which start Tuesday, and I'm really going to try harder to eat, but I realize that it's going to take ... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 13:32:55 EST What I ate today: Aug. 29th Ok, biggest problem is meeting my daily goal for calories. It's not that I eat too many, it's that I have a very very hard time eating enough. In fact, if I eat about what I did today, or any more, I feel very nauseated and I get sick very easily. <BR> <BR> A few years ago I was in and out of the hospital because I had problems with my stomach, it would stop working correctly and I couldn't digest anything right. I've always had a hard time eating large amounts of'd think... Sat, 26 Aug 2006 23:22:54 EST Weekend Time! Hurray! It's the weekend. The biggest problem with the weekend, especially this weekend, is that I just want to be super lazy. I don't want to exercise. I don't want to do anything but sit around like a lump. <BR> <BR> The biggest problem is that the primary way I like to get my exercise (DDR) is now an issue because I live on the second floor of an apartment building and the person I live above put plates on all her walls, so now she even complains about people walking across the floor. <... Sat, 26 Aug 2006 14:42:01 EST Ahh...lazy I'm seriously lazy. That will all change, since one of my classes for the next year will be Conditioning. Getting credit hours for working out in the gym, sounds like a deal to me. <BR> <BR> I need to start thinking about meals, since I will be on campus or at one of two jobs all day long every day, and fast food is disgusting so it's not even an option. I need to find stuff that's quick, easy, and that I will force myself to eat insted of just ignoring it all together. <BR> <BR> Fri, 25 Aug 2006 01:40:15 EST