CINDYJOE's SparkPeople Blog CINDYJOE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happiness is... I spent the day with my youngest daughter and my grandbeauties. We had an early breakfast and then went to our planetarium here. They had a great show for kids in the plantetarium. I couldn't get my youngest grand daughter to stop commenting on the show. She was so taken with it. <BR> <BR> The planetaruim also has a small museum and our own, "Snooty" the Manatee. All of us were in awe watching him and his mate saunter (can Manatees saunter?) back and forth in their pool. It was a nice ... Tue, 31 Jul 2007 15:11:44 EST Today is the first day... We have started a challenge in "The Good". It is a walking challenge and weight loss challenge for the month of August. I am very excited about it. The women in that group are spectacular and I cannot think of anything better than a little competitive spirit to help us along on our journey. <BR> <BR> Six more pounds. I have been stuck in a weight loss rut. I think part of it is knowing that I have promised to quit smoking when I reach my goal weight. Part of me is so afraid of trying a... Mon, 30 Jul 2007 23:30:54 EST At last, rest Six days and nights of work last week and four days of school. I was a zombie by the time I walked into work Saturday night. I don't know how I did it, but I did. I missed my Sparkteams terribly. It just didn't seem right to crawl into bed every night without saying hello to everyone. <BR> <BR> I love everything about school. I thought I loved photography before I took this class. I am like a child with a new toy. I often wonder why I waited so long. I know my instructor can see the... Wed, 16 May 2007 22:19:23 EST Summer is here I know the weather may not be summer like elsewhere, but here in Florida our pool water is cool and refreshing. I worked out on the elliptical today and ventured into twenty minutes of invigorating swimming. It is summer when I can swimm without my teeth chattering. I am so excited that I can add swimming to my exercise routine now. <BR> <BR> I slept for most of the day today. I take sleep when I can get it now. I was upset for a bit when I woke and realized that I had slept so late, b... Mon, 30 Apr 2007 22:22:31 EST Bad day but that's okay I lost a pound this week. I got up this morning and worked out on the elliptical. I was very happy to get my exercise out of the way. <BR> <BR> I have to admit that I just felt like being naughty today. My calories are near two-thousand, but I am not kicking myself. I enjoyed my little trip on the wild side. I think knowing that it was only for today made it all right. <BR> <BR> I started wearing my pedometer. I was amazed to see that I walked 22,000 steps yesterday. I do work a doub... Mon, 23 Apr 2007 20:32:24 EST Much Better I am feeling so much better. Two days and my cold has exited. I have been watching my food intake very closely and I am pleased with the results. <BR> <BR> It really surprises me that I am not missing chocolate and especially, ice cream. I was a mint chocolate chip addict. My sweets primarily consist of fruit now. Strangely enough, I really enjoy it. <BR> <BR> Learning that my Mother has diabetes sent my head spinning. It runs rampant in her family. She is sixty-seven and she was t... Fri, 20 Apr 2007 22:44:56 EST Vitamin C anyone? I awoke this morning with a terrible headache. Initially, I thought it was caused from the way I slept. I noticed a bit of a rasp in my voice, but I attributed it to working so late and just being tired. Sometimes, I have trouble putting two and two together. <BR> <BR> I began sneezing a few hours ago, my body is beginning to ache and I am way beyond tired. I am very dissapointed that I am getting sick. I took my vitamins and added a dose of vitamin C, as well as melt-away tabs that are... Mon, 16 Apr 2007 14:30:36 EST Loving Life and Sparkpeople I am feeling so good. I love the way my clothes feel right now. They aren't restrictive and they move with me instead of against me. My husband and I were out last week and he asked if I wanted to go to Penney's to buy clothes since they were having a huge blow-out sale. I thanked him and told him that I was still moving downward and I didn't want to waste money on new clothes that wouldn't fit in a month. He was surprised by my answer and went on to tell me how proud he was of my determ... Fri, 13 Apr 2007 22:41:08 EST Is it really possible to be this tired? We made it to Busch Gardens. I don't know how I did it. I was exhausted when I crawled into bed at 1:00 AM and even more tired when I drug myself out of bed at 7:00. <BR> <BR> We had such a good time and more importantly, the grandbeauties had a wonderful day. Today was another day that I wished I had been wearing a pedometer. <BR> <BR> My legs were yelling at me as soon as my feet hit the floor. They told me repeatedly, all day that they should ne laying on a soft mattress. I kept o... Tue, 27 Mar 2007 00:24:29 EST This week's schedule I may have really done it to myself this week. I promised the grandbeauties a really good Spring Break and I may just kill myself trying to give it to them. <BR> <BR> Monday: Busch Gardens with Gwen and Zach <BR> <BR> Tuesday: 10:30-story time at the library, picnic in the park and playground time. <BR> <BR> Wednesday: Kiddie free-paint kitchen and work <BR> <BR> Thursday: St Pete with Robyn for her test. Hungry Howie's with the girls afterwards. (Try to make MCC to find a... Fri, 23 Mar 2007 23:10:43 EST Woohoo! I know it may not sound like much to anyone else, but I got my strength training in before work today. That is a major accomplishment for me. <BR> <BR> I worried about exercizing or training before work because the job is so taxing. Honestly though, I began to wonder if that was just an excuse. I have been so good at finding excuses in the past. So, we'll see. I stretched pretty well afterwards, so the tightness should be minimul (I hope). <BR> <BR> I lost one pound last week. It felt... Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:39:16 EST Exhausted I had a very long weekend. I worked Saturday night until 11:30. I was up at 8:00 on Sunday, at work by 9:30 and worked until 11:00 last night. We were so busy. It is season here in Florida and all of our Snowbirds are in town until sometime in April. I love having them here, but sometimes it feels as if our area is just going to burst! <BR> <BR> I am having so much trouble meeting my minimum calorie requirements on the days I work, Sundays especially. We really are too busy for me to t... Mon, 19 Mar 2007 12:32:28 EST So Worried I worked with Rachel last night and she really didn't look good. She had another cyst forming on her leg, she is very tired and lethargic and it is hurting her to walk. <BR> <BR> Dan and I were out with the grandbeauties today and I called to check on Rachel. She had just left the doctor's office and was on the way to the infecious disease doctor. <BR> <BR> She called me a little later to tell me that they were sending her to the hospital to begin a ten day round of intravenous anti-bio... Sat, 17 Mar 2007 01:26:02 EST Happy Anniversary!! I had both grandbeauties today-all day. Allie was sick and as sweet as honey and Lexie was as ornary as a pit bull. She's only three, but some days I could swear she is hormonal! <BR> <BR> I ate a good breakfast (subway club six inch), worked out on the eliptical ( I really do love that machine!) and finished preping and packing the kitchen for tiling and painting. I am very excited about finally finishing it. <BR> <BR> Dan arrived home and we went to an early dinner at the Bonefish Gril... Sat, 17 Mar 2007 01:14:53 EST menawho? It helped a lot going to the doctor. Having someone else verbalize that the depression is greatly related to hormones and the lack of sleep helped me so much. <BR> I spoke to my sister today and she continues to say that good doesn't come to us because we weren't born under the right star. I refuse to accept that. I think believing statements like that directly affects positive outcomes. That is my primary reason for starting my own group for positive reinforcement. Noone else may pos... Wed, 14 Mar 2007 14:28:35 EST Tough Weekend Mom called me Thursday to tell me that Uncle Mel was in the hospital in Panama City. Apparently, he had nearly bled to death due to a ruptured ulcer. He is in an induced coma. The prognosis is good, but guarded. He is 72 and when they attempted to bring him out of the coma he tries to pull out all of the tubes. We are all praying. <BR> <BR> I am leaving tomorrow to spend time with Mom and to see Uncle Mel and Aunt Myrtle, who is still in the nursing home. The reality is setting in... Sun, 28 Jan 2007 22:29:24 EST A FAIR day today I did wake up today feeling better. I had a very good night at work last night which helped improve the blues before I went to bed.. I also woke up one pound lighter. That improved my spirits immediatly. <BR> I had a very healthy breakfast with Kim, took the grandbeauties to school, napped a little and then we went to the County Fair. Oh My Gosh! We were there for two hours and I dropped a cool hundred dollars! <BR> They loved it and I got some very good pictures of them. I was very pro... Thu, 25 Jan 2007 17:07:47 EST Feeling a little blue today I am struggling today. It is dreary outside. I haven't had the gumption to exercise and I just feel blahh. I feel as if I am caught in a catch 22. I an so disgusted with smoking, but I know what I am in for if I quit and I simply don't have the energy. I miss being smoke free and I kick myself every day for picking up that nasy habit again. <BR> I am working toward returning to healthier eating, but the weight is remaining pretty much the same. On the upside, I haven't gained anything. ... Wed, 24 Jan 2007 13:49:29 EST The second day of the rest of my life How do I feel? My legs and feet ache. I was hoping that I would be use to working a double on Sundays by now. It has been over six months since I started this job and my aching feet are just as unimpressed now as they were in June. <BR> I am spending my day setting up my workout room. We have aleady moved the ellyptical in there. I could exercise anywhere, but I want the place I am exercising in to be quiet and inviting. <BR> I could really use a good massage but I can't have that until ... Mon, 22 Jan 2007 09:30:37 EST I am back Well, I did it to myself. I not only began smoking again, but I gained a few pounds in the process. I am so glad I finally got back to the computer. SP is exactly what I needed, but I was embarrassed about smoking and I was very angry with myself. I have gotten over that and decided to take control of my life again. <BR> I still want to run that marathon for my 49th. I should be off the cigarettes by then. That will make my training much easier. <BR> I continued to work out. I have to ... Sat, 18 Nov 2006 15:02:42 EST I am having a really good day. I know I am still substituting food for cigarettes. I catch myself half the time when I am shoving food in my mouth. The good news is that I am making smart choices. I will pick up an apple, orange, rice cake or 100 calorie bag of popcorn. I don't feel as guilty and it relieves the craving for the time being. <BR> <BR> I am bound and determined to do it this time. I would rather eat than smoke. I have made it to my pre-smoking weight as of my weigh in today. I am ecstatic about that... Thu, 22 Jun 2006 11:14:43 EST So gald I took my own advice I hurt my groin muscle Thursday of last week. I stretched it out often and I did not attempt to work out on Friday. I worked on Saturday at the restaurant and I pulled a double on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I woke up on Saturday and seriously considered working out, but I thought better of it. I knew I would be getting a lot of exercise running on that tile floor. <BR> <BR> I think that was one of my smartest decisions I have made in a while. I finished work on Sunday at 11:00 PM and my legs and... Tue, 20 Jun 2006 15:10:16 EST Ouch! I left work yesterday with a migraine. I woke up this morning and it was still with me. I am glad that I have them so infrequently. <BR> <BR> It began to subside around 11:00. I got up and worked out, sometimes that actually makes it go away. It did not hurt or help the migraine. But I felt better knowing that I had done something positive. <BR> <BR> Rain, rain and more blessed rain. Alberto was not scarey. I felt like we were blessed to see the first TS of the season. They said i... Thu, 15 Jun 2006 15:54:21 EST The Nicodemon Has Struck Again. I am so dissapointed for my husband. He started smoking again while he was in Kentucky. I don't want to make him feel bad. I know how hard it is to quit. <BR> <BR> There are times I still have terrible urges for a smoke. How can I give him a hard time? How many times did I quit and start again? It became a running joke in the family. No one really believed that I would quit for good. I feel that it is permanent this time, but I am sure I felt that way before. <BR> <BR> I just worr... Thu, 15 Jun 2006 15:47:37 EST My Body Says NO! I am feeling the aches and pains today. My muscles are very tight and I am a little concerned about my groin muscle. It is hurting. <BR> I knew my muscles were overworked, but I was not babying them. Chuck and Audrey took me out for a farewell lunch and he has one of those huge F350's. I felt the pull as soon as I tried to hop up in it. I have been stretching and trying to work the knot out, but it really isn't working. I was so hoping that I would be able to work out a little when I go... Thu, 15 Jun 2006 14:48:23 EST Self Confidence Is a Good Thing I worked out hard last night. I didn't realize how hard until I woke up this morning and my back was aching. <BR> <BR> I was so proud of myself today. <BR> <BR> I got up at 6:15 and worked out for thirty minutes on the elliptical. It felt great. I have been feeling wonderful all day. I knew it would work that way for me if I could just convince myself to get out of bed. <BR> <BR> It is a great way to start the day and it sets up a smooth day with less stress. I have done my ten minu... Fri, 9 Jun 2006 15:14:33 EST Must learn patience I have come to the conclusion that I really am incredibly hard on myself. One of my goals is to get up at 6 AM and exercise before I start my day. I have been setting my alarm clock and resetting it when it goes off for nearly three weeks now. <BR> <BR> I am at my wit's end with myself. I intend to lay my clothes out tonight before bed so that I won't use that excuse in the morning. <BR> <BR> The really sad thing is that I cannot go back to sleep once I wake. I lay there with my eyes cl... Thu, 8 Jun 2006 09:58:28 EST I made it The trip went well. My Mom and Sister did not kill each other. Uncle Mel was there for the entire visit. The drinking was kept to a minimum. <BR> <BR> Aunt Myrtle looks wonderful. She looked so much better this trip than the last time I saw her. She seems quite at home in the nursing home. She is treating it as if it is a hotel stay. I am praying and hoping that the medication will take care of the dementia and she will be able to go home soon. <BR> <BR> I ate wayyy too much. I ac... Tue, 6 Jun 2006 10:25:53 EST Taking the trip, but not falling I am concerned about this trip tomorrow. I know that peas, collard greens, turnip greens, fried cornbread, tomato gravy, biscuits, boiled peanuts and butter beans will be waiting for me when I get there. I know half of the food sounds nutritious, but the way it is prepared is not. <BR> I have not heard from my sister, so maybe the smoking won't be an issue. I just feel that it is all out of my control and I really don't like feeling that way. <BR> I am still sick. That isn't helping much.... Thu, 1 Jun 2006 14:04:48 EST Still trying to accept the facts I am amazed that I stayed within my calorie range of 1550 yesterday. It certainly didn't feel that way. I got home from work and we took Katie out for her birthday. The food at Lonestar was terrible. I guess it is time for us to find another celebration restaurant. Our last few visits there have not been very good. <BR> I called my Mom when we got home and she sounds terrible. I am right there with her. I know Aunt Myrtle is going to die. I would never wish her to remain here and be i... Wed, 31 May 2006 11:25:23 EST Having a bad day I am really trying to keep myself on track. I don't think I'll be exercising today. I really don't feel very well. I ache everywhere and my throat and ears are hurting. <BR> I will have to cheer up, though. Katie is 19 today. I can barely believe it myself. We will be going out to dinner tonight. I really don't have a hard time staying on track when we go out to eat. It's all those hours at home that derail me. <BR> I paid attention to what I did after I got the phone call from Mom ... Tue, 30 May 2006 16:53:51 EST okay, I stumbled a little I was good last night and then I was very bad. I was soooo tired when I got home from work. I really don't know how I found the energy to exercise, but I did. I trudged along on the elliptical for fifty-five minutes, walked out back and dove into the pool. That initial feeling of being completely engulfed by cold, crisp water is overwhelming when you are hot and sweaty. <BR> Allie put on her suit and we swam for another thirty minutes. <BR> I began swimming practice for a triathlon. My swimm... Fri, 26 May 2006 09:47:06 EST To tri or not to tri I have been researching triathlons for the last few days. I would love to finish one for my 50th. My husband will think I have lost my mind, so I won't mention it for a while. <BR> I began working on my swimming technique, if you can call what I do a "technique". After reading the proper way to swim, I have been trying to do as the coach's article instructed. I find it very difficult to look directly down at the bottom of the pool. Logically, I know that I will see the changes in the depth of... Fri, 26 May 2006 09:44:02 EST Tired I am bone weary today. I had a good day yesterday. I watched my food intake. I actually saved calories for ice cream last night. I did my elliptical and swimming when I got home from work. <BR> Lexie was sick and sat near the pool with Kim, watching me swim. She stuck her toes in a couple of times, but never asked to join me. She must have really felt bad. <BR> I watched some television with the girls and went to bed at 10:30. I must have gotten a total of two hours sleep last night.... Tue, 23 May 2006 14:45:12 EST 650 WHAT? I sat down last night and planned my meals for to- day. I was very proud of myself. I ate a great breakfast, as planned. A few hours later, Audrey, our receptionist asked if I wanted to go to lunch. I really wanted to say no, but she is such a sweetie. <BR> She recently had an emergency appendectomy and she shouldn't even be back at work. I let her choose and she wanted Italian. We ended up at Johnny Carrino's. <BR> At first, I was mortified. But I chose the Artichoke and Angelhair Pa... Fri, 19 May 2006 15:03:54 EST Emotional Eating Gwen called me last night. I am truly frightened for her. She told me that she really isn't as concerned about the growth near her lung as she is about the bruising on her spleen. The bruise there is 9cm. I didn't know what to say. I just worry and worry. <BR> She sounds so sad and it hurts me so deeply to know that she is unhappy and in pain. She has worked so hard. She is smart and talented and she deserves happiness. <BR> She laughed at me when I told her that my heart stops beatin... Thu, 18 May 2006 10:21:54 EST Better today I had a rough day yesterday. They were spraying some kind of nasty chemical at work and I left with a migraine. They are still spraying today, but the headache isn't nearly as bad. <BR> To make a long and pretty boring story shorter, (but still boring.) I sat on the couch and rested my head. I did not exercise. I did stay within my 1550. That , at least was a good thing. <BR> I am so happy for Kim. She called me last night and we talked for a long time about Rick. She is head over hee... Wed, 17 May 2006 15:35:23 EST Just Thinking I am feeling a little down today. Everything feels stagnant. I am working towards my goals, but some days are harder than others. <BR> I look at myself in the mirror and I don't know the person who is looking back at me. <BR> It isn't just the weight, it is my age also. I see a face that I am not familiar with. A face that my family loves and looks forward to seeing every day, but that I don't recognise. <BR> I remember looking at Dan on Mother's Day and really seeing the changes in h... Tue, 16 May 2006 10:12:10 EST