CINDYHOUGHTON's SparkPeople Blog CINDYHOUGHTON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Change My Best Friend Well,hubby back from the hunt. Didn't see anything, may go out again later during the holidays. I got caught up on sleep while he was gone. My son will be home on Tuesday. I sure do miss him and rarely get to see him any more. You can never see how your life will turn out. If we could, we might not want to go where it takes us. I know I would have thought long and hard about it, and probably would have refused what lay ahead for me. But I am happy with where I am for the most part. Adver... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 11:22:08 EST My Quest The joy and freedom we desire is between our ears and In our hearts.We have all been hurt by something I life. It's what we do with that hurt that determines everything else. If we are honest, many of us will say that we eat because of pain more than just because we need the fuel. Discovering what that hurt is will determine the key. Perhaps we need to forgive someone,forgive ourselves.It has been said that stress makes us sick. At the heart of stress is hurt of one sort or another. At the... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 14:41:30 EST Happy! This has been a good week. Got in five days of exercise and watched my weight and calorie intake. I Am enjoying my new kitty and he is adjusting to the dogs. It is good to be back on here and doing what I know I need to to reach the goals I want to reach. It's not the big things that matter but all the little ones. I am happy. There is little I could wish for at this point. Hope you can get to this same point one decision at a time. Sat, 13 Dec 2014 11:09:14 EST Not Just Routine! Well, I have found how important routine is to my well being and feelings of accomplishment. When I get out of my routine, my life falls apart. Routine can be healing. If I don't know where to start a sense of normality can be found just in establishing a routine. I don't have to think about what comes next. Even my animals are happier with routine. They get upset when my routine is disrupted. I will be starting my exercise I a few minutes. I am up to a pretty regular four days a week. I... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 11:37:16 EST Tired No one slept well last night. I think the dogs knew something was up when my hubby started packing to go hunting. I had to work all day after working to midnight last night. No time for my regular schedule but II will get to go to bed early tonight. The animals are showing how much they missed me today :). My husband is going hunting oryx for the next. Couple of days. That means I get to sleep in!!! Back to normal tomorrow. Thu, 11 Dec 2014 18:24:30 EST Back Well it has been. A while. My husband has left me the IPad so I can get back on here a bit more regularly. I have been battling. I have a new point I will not pass with my weight, ten pounds less than my original. I have been mentally adding up my calories and am doing better. I have also realized that I am a social eater. If others are eating around me, I will also eat. I think it is part in due to not wanting to offend them. People pleasing has been a major downfall. I was proud of m... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 10:48:58 EST Update and a Dog Story Wow! I am amazed at how much I have forgotten not being able to get on here for so long. I am still without a computer and am using my husband's . I have not done well on my weight since losing you. I Am hoping maybe Christmas will help with that &#128522; It is so hard to track on my own but I see how valuable this has been to me. Work is also really hard on my weight and I never realized this before. So much work to do and I miss my tools. <BR> My job has changed drastically as well... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 10:59:05 EST A Down Dog and a Down Computer Wow! It has been six weeks of unreliable computer usage. I haven't missed it that much and have been mentally counting my calories daily. I am down thirteen pounds since the first of the year. This is the best I have ever done without Sparkpeople counting for me. Out of sight has always been out of mind for me. If I didn't count the calories, then they must not be there right???? That is why I have always gained weight when I didn't track. I am coming to grips with how vital tracking r... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 11:35:01 EST Powerful I want to e a powerful person. I do not want to give my power away to anyone else and miss becoming who I was created to be. I am proud of myself. I do not any more allow others to make me feel bad about who I am in any imagined way. If someone cusses at me in an attempt to bring me down, I stand up for myself and show them how small indeed they are by thinking they can do that. If I am intimidated by threats, no matter how real I will let them know I am not intimidated and will raise my ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 11:24:46 EST A Legacy to Leave Well I gave hubby my cold and it has thrown me off for a second week. He stayed home longer than normal and I did not get my exercise in. I will not exercise in front of anyone and had to get my day started with my bath. I am really going to have to work around him on Saturday as well to get it in for my four days. I am not keeping to tracking as well this week either. If I can lose another pound in the next couple of days I will be happier. It's amazing to me how much loss of discipline... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 11:43:05 EST Not a Good Week :( I have been fighting with a cold all week. Though not a terribly uncomfortable one, it has derailed my streak. I have more demands put on me at work and have been beset by some negative influences. I am just grumpy and hoping next week goes by quickly so I can get back to my better normal life. I have made excuses that didn't need to be made, but were nonetheless. Just not very positive right now so I will keep it short. Thu, 13 Feb 2014 11:53:02 EST Update I I am frustrated today. I have been trying to figure out how to add a blog. It isn't as easy as I remember it being. Just to update where I have been for many months. I am borrowing my husband's computer today because I still don't have one. Maybe for Christmas &#128512; I have not done real well on my weight since my computer died. I need you guys and help tracking. <BR> My dog is doing really well. She is walking,running and jumping. She just can't sit like a normal dog without s... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 13:11:51 EST Things Are Looking Up Well, we have moved one step closer to building our house. We figured out where to put it! A lot of things won't have to be moved or worked around. I also will have a better view outside my front window. I am good with that. I am also excited because my daughter may be driving home from Florida and stay with us a month before starting massage therapy school. I have missed her so badly. I will enjoy getting to see her again. It will also be good for her to get away. The temperatures wi... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 14:31:35 EST Fear Is a Word What happens when we are faced with fear? Every individual will respond in different ways depending on the past involved. Most of us are intimidated by it. I chuckled a bit last night when one of the girls said if she made me mad I could be very intimidating and she never wanted to go there. Didn't know I had that effect on others, but that is what got me thinking I guess. I have been thinking about fear and its effects on me for some time. I do it not because I am morbid, but because I... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 14:45:18 EST Choosing Rightly If you could choose the life you wanted, would you? Some people are afraid of doing so, because of what they think they have to give up. Even though they know that better awaits them, they choose the familiar out of fear. Giving fear control of our lives robs us of true joy. I cannot afford to hang on to the familiar and give up true satisfaction. This involves me moving out of my comfort zone into the unfamiliar. I will do those things that are at first unfamiliar so that the new life ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 14:07:45 EST Great Day Not much to reoprt other that what has already been reoprted. Doing well. Three week streak was made this morning. I am tracking, drinking water, eating more veggies. My mood has improved and I am feeling great. Off yesterday and tomorrow. Having son and his wife over tonight to play cards and bond with the fairly new daughter-in-law. Should be a great day. Fri, 31 Jan 2014 13:30:43 EST Playing and Smiling I'm not used to having Thursdays off. They are usually my busiest day of the week. Feels kinda strange. I have noticed some things in me since getting more down to the road and rubber thing. I feel better. My body feels like I am doing something right that before I never could put a finger on. Why did I wait so long to make these good choices? I have been in noticeably better moods this week as well. I am only on my third week of my streak and I stand truly amazed. Whether or not the s... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:31:49 EST Transparent What would people see if you were transparent? For us here it might be a heart not as healthy as we want others to believe because we have fudged our exercize time. I have done that. Do we "forget" to track items because we don't want to admit we ate that much in one day? I know there is a sense of accountability to myself when I actually see it in print. But beyond this site, how transparent are we? I for years have hid things I didn't want others to see. What I truly thought of them, ... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 13:27:56 EST New Lessons We were taught many things we didn't know we were learning as we grew up. Some were deliberate lessons others unintentional. Not all lessons we learn and use are good or good for us. I know this is true for me. My mom taught me to comparison shop and to shop wisely. She had to know how to get the most value with the least amount of money especially in her early days with my father. They made out pretty good considering where they started. They also taught me the lessons of jugement and n... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 12:49:32 EST January Status I was facing a place I thought I would never go again come January first. It scared me how easily I got there. I am on the verge of losing 6 pounds so far this month with almost a week to go. I am faithfully tracking and therin lies my success along with the determination never to go there again. I feel better when I pay attention to what I am eating and how much. The differences are subtle but there. I want to feel good every day. There have been times when I wondered what it was like to... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 14:28:44 EST Choices Every day we are faced with choices to make. We will not always make the right choice. I know I have messed up so many times. Yesterday I had an acquaintance desperately in the need of some encouragement. She turned to me. I have one of my favorite activities on Thursdays so I tried to schedule around it. Alas, I missed my other engagement. I was a bit bummed, but the time I spent encouraging my new friend was worth the time. She needed me more than I needed my activity. Sometimes I do g... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 12:57:37 EST Baby Steps Eating well and seeing results. Still so far from where I was not that long ago. But I didn't make past goals by concentrating on how I had flubbed up. I did it before and I will do it again. This has been a rough week emotionally. So much going on. Nothing major, just a lot of little things. I am okay. I will keep pressing on. I am reminded that there are those facing things much more upsetting than I am. I am also taking the steps to deal with my disappointments past and present. We ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:18:43 EST Better Than That I am always amazed that when I start to work on an area of my life I have so many opportunities present themselves to keep me from the success I seek. Maybe they are there just to prove the level of commitment I have to them. I am facing so many challenges right now in my life. I have had emotional set backs and physical set backs not just in weight loss. I will get back up and continue forward as I always have in the past. I will be stronger because of my set backs, not dwell on them. I ju... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:17:12 EST True Life Read something interesting in Ephesians the other day. I like to somewhat paraphrase things at times for how it ministers to me at the time. I write it down and sometimes later I will stumble across it again. This is kind of what happened. The gist of what I got is that what we see, hear, taste, and touch, if trusted in, will only produce death in us. So many times it is easy to trust in what we have in front of us. When you look at Romans where it says that I do the things I hate even ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 15:05:17 EST Good week. I am doing well this week. Not much time to write. Have a hair appointment then off to work. At least I get off early so I get a bit more sleep tonight. I am being consistent in most things with a little room for improvement. More later Fri, 17 Jan 2014 14:33:02 EST Ears That Hear The only curse in a Christian's life is the one he agrees with. That is what gives the power to the curse. The enemy wins through fear. Likewise there is only victory in a Christian's life unless he accepts defeat. God takes no pleasure in the one who shrinks back. What do we do when faced with challenges? Push on or sit down and throw in the towel? David won every battle, but not in his own strength or abilities. Before every battle he asked God, "Shall I go up? Have you delivered them ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:13:40 EST He Done Me Very Good Indeed Wow! Thirty years of marriage coming up on Tuesday. Hard to believe. We have made it through a lot of things we didn't know we signed up for 30 years ago. We came terribly close to not making it this far and yet it was always the option our hearts chose before we ever said "I do." I always wanted to be married and have kids from the time I was quite small. It has been what has caused me the most pain and the most joy. I am so much stronger than that girl who walked the aisle so many years ... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:10:55 EST Life is Good More than anything else right now I am keeping myself involved. I really don't have much to report. I have lost four pounds and am on the verge of more, I am behaving and eating more vegetables. I really do feel so much better. I love how I feel when I am doing what I should be doing. My calries still need a little behaving, but at least I am not still eating twice what I should be. That too is progress. Weather is heating up a bit too. Days off start at midnight. Life is good. Thu, 9 Jan 2014 12:47:07 EST Seeds of Greatness We do not fight against flesh and blood. It is hard to win a battle if we don't know who it is against. It is much easier to blame things on the spouse who brought up our past or the screaming child that is getting on our nerves. But do they really want to bring us down and destroy us? In most cases not at all. There are forces at work each and every day that we cannot see, but are much more in control than we think. Our own mindset will determine the outcome of our day more so that the ... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 12:25:58 EST Cell Phones and Consistency I am being consistent in a good way so far. I feel better getting my veggies in. I have been able to sleep better with hubby not here to wake me up in the morning. I am sweating from my daily workout. For those who, perhaps, have missed my spiritual blogs, they will return. I am just keeping my mind fixed where I must for everything else to fall in line right now. I need to get my bath so I can stand to be around me and then off to get this day rolling. <BR> <BR> I am considering going ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 14:21:26 EST Family Ties I am feeling good about my promises to myself today. I was awake way too early with family history on my mind. My sister has been researching again and sending me stuff. When she does, my mind always travels to the blackest sheep in our family closet. I wonder why he did what he did and how life was for his family while he was away in prison. I wonder how it affected them. There is so much I want to know, most of which will probably never be known. Things like what they thought or how tal... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 12:15:24 EST Report Ok so here is my report of my renewed commitment. I exercised today for half an hour. I am working at getting another four day a week spark going and hopefully will beat my last 16 week streak. I am tracking again and really watching my food even when I don't counting every calorie in my mind. I am making sure I start early on my water and am planning more vegetables into my diet. I feel good physically and am feeling good about my renewed sense of purpose. I can do this and will. Fri, 3 Jan 2014 15:45:02 EST One I Will at a Time Trying to get back to my good habits. I hate that I always seem to have to get back to them because I set them aside so readily. I am making good progress. I have lost four pounds from my all too recent high. When I started here my no no point was 200 pounds. Now it is 190. I call that progress. I have come to realize just how easy it is to throw away everything one bite at a time. I am hoping to renew the mind set I had when I first came here. I like to eat 2000-3000 calories a day when I ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 11:44:38 EST Confessions of a Slacker I have been pretty much AWOL for some time with only sporadic posts. I just didn't think I had the time to be on, which is partially true, and I thought I could handle life on my own, which was very untrue. Discipline is not something I like. I have made some good changes over the years I have been here. I am drinking more water on a regular basis and am excercising which was non-existant before coming here. I am proud of both of these because I know it is good that I have. My job has g... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 14:25:44 EST Struggling The last couple of years on the job have been challenging to say the least. Lately, I have had to work overtime when my normal weeks are about 32 hours a week. Add to that a stressful second job that I am strongly considering throwing out. Well because of all the hours I messed up my 14 week streak of four days of exercise a week. I found out that streaking is very motivating. When I wanted to give up, I would look at my streak and continue on rather than lose the work I had put in. Now I ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 13:19:48 EST Streaking Success This week was a hard one for me to reach my goal, but I couldn't let it slip either. I have now made it two months with four days of exercise a week. This is a real accomplishment for me. I kept toying with the idea of how I didn't have to stick with it and what would be lost if I did wasn't that great a deal. But you know what? It is a big deal. I made it and I am proud of myself for doing so. Several years ago, I decided I could take a break from tracking on a daily basis. That was ... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 14:29:53 EST Unplugged Conversation It amazes me sometimes when I see someone well into their 20's or beyond that does not have a clue how to communicate. I see why cell phones are the preferred mode of communication because it gives you time in between each exchange to prepare your next response. But I believe something is truly lost when they cannot go to work and carry on face to face conversations with their co-workers or effectively let their needs be known because they don't know where to start. Of course, it is not jus... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 12:16:11 EST It's The Small Things! Six weeks ago when I added an extra day of exercise to my week, little did I know what a huge difference it would make. I instantly noticed it in how I felt. And because I felt so much better, it made it easier to add another fifteen minutes one or twice a week. Now without even thinking about it, I have been doing four days instead of three of exercise for almost 7 weeks plus an occassional fifteen extra minutes. As reported in an earlier blog, it has become a game to see how many weeks I... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 15:08:34 EST Mind Games Years ago, on my summer job, I was told that my future depended on the books I read and the friends I kept. I guess I really didn't see the truth of that until I had kids. You know, we hear a lot of good things, but how many do we actually put to use? I would get so frustrated when our family was in crisis and my husband read books and articles and went to counselling and heard the same thing over and over again, but never once did he put them to use saying, "Oh I've heard that before and ... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 14:18:39 EST Fact or Fiction?? Our minds are amazing things. I got an e-mail yesterday that challenges you to read things which aren't made of real words to show you how the mind works. Numbers were placed in instead of words and things like that. It was fun to read. Our minds play tricks on us every single day. We can read something and totally miss the space and a new, shocking word may be the result. Only on closer examination do we see our error in understanding. Is it any wonder that the mind is the greatest bat... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 12:46:19 EST Imitators Have you seen the water commercial where the little boy imitates every action and deed of his father. The child so looks up to his father that he wants to be exactly like him. That is the way we are to be with God. We are to be imitators of Him as dear children. In one of Jesus final prayers, He prayed that we would be one even as He and the Father were one. A few chapters earlier it says that Jesus said that Satan had nothing in common with Him. He had no hold on Him. What we meditate ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 16:57:58 EST Streaking :) Five weeks ago I inadvertantly started a streak in my life. I put in an extra day of exercise. Then I did it again the next week and then, not wanting to lose the streak, I continued. I have done four days of exercise now for five weeks. It is now a challenge to myself to see how long I can keep it up. It has become a fun little game with me, myself and I. Not only that, but on some days, I have increased my exercise by a full fifteen minutes. All of this is coming from the girl, who ... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 16:34:04 EST Organisation I have always been a disorganized person. It takes discipline to be organised. I have always resisted both except for brief periods of my life. I feel better and get more accomlished with an organised life. I used to hate exercise as well. But something motivated me, a summer bootcamp, and I have been going at it for three or four years now. So I know that there is hope for me. <BR> I have been reading several things in the Bible lately. One was Jesus' last prayer before He was arreste... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 12:11:01 EST Experience Experience is powerful. The Bible talks about how the experience of His love for us is far greater than merely reading about it. Jesus also said that His desire was for us to experience His joy within ourselves. It makes a point and then drives it home. You cannot tell me that God does not exist because I have experienced so many things that proves to me that He does. What I have is backed by what it says in the Bible and the Bible takes on even greater meaning to me in light of having exp... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 16:24:59 EST Honestly!! So many times we make excuses to try to make ourselves look better to others as if we have to please them. If we aren't being honest with ourselves or others then how can we heal? Hiding produces nothing but shame. If we will come out into the light we will see things much more clearly and find new growth. I remember a science experiment from when I was in Campfire girls. You put a plant in the dark then looked at what happened to its growth. It lacked color and was sickly in every respe... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 11:43:45 EST Hot and Sweaty My husband took off to be in a fourth of July parade 30 miles away. I took advantage of the time and got in a 30 minute workout that I didn't think I would get today. The cherries I wanted for a cobbler would have cost me $9 to buy so I saved myself from wanting to eat too much and spend too much. This day is off ta a great start! I need to clean house and figure out what I am going to replace the cobbler with. Hope everyone has a safe and happy fourth. Thu, 4 Jul 2013 10:47:24 EST It Works If You Work It Cuz You're Worth It Food can definitely be an addiction. I have a difficult time looking at food and not being tempted to eat it. I can only take it for so long before I give in. I cannot say that every time I reach my calorie goal for the day I quit eating. I used to. I am trying to. Sometimes I am still hungry, which is good, because it means I am set up to lose some weight. I will gauge what I eat and only eat a small amount more, being careful not to eat a whole meal. For me, I must mention, reaching my c... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 12:36:38 EST Tracking on Track I am back on track. I overate terrible on Friday and Saturday due to being out of town and not having a clue how many calories I was consuming. Even so, I knew I had overdone it because I was stuffed and enjoyed every bite of it....until I stepped on the scale :) I was dangerously close to a place I never want to go back to again. My pants were barely fitting and I was embarrassed to admit how far back I had gone. But because I refuse to ever go back there, I got busy. The highest it re... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 15:41:28 EST Sabotaged! It is becoming more and more evident to me that my biggest saboteur is eating out. It has been unavoidable lately, but it is also a choice. I have traveled and made some bad choices, partly because I won't waste the food, and partly because if I see the food, I will eat it. My husband is a bad influence. I am working hard at trying to get him on the same side as me. It is still up to me to say no. I told him when we first got married not to ask me if I want to eat out because I will say ye... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 13:27:26 EST 30 Day Report I completed my 30 day commitment to myself. I ate out too much and did not know what to track so it was hard to stay on track there for a while. In spite of this I still lost two pounds. For those who would say that isn't much I say in a year I can lose 25 pounds and that will put me in the ball park of making my goal. I do hope to do better this next thirty days. The thing is I am more aware of what my sabateurs are now and I am more consistent at tracking. When I tracked daily I lost ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 15:02:31 EST