CINDYHOUGHTON's SparkPeople Blog CINDYHOUGHTON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community What A Week! Wow! I worked 72 hours between my two jobs last week. I got a new job partly because of the instability of my old job. I loved my old job, too, so it is so sad to say good bye. One of the benefits of the new job os that it gives me less time to eat and I am more successful at losing some weight. I am having to figure out what will sustain me through the long breaks. A new challenge for me for sure. The hard thing is I really haven't had the tome to exercise. I will have to settle in to ... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 11:24:31 EST Reaping the Benefits We will reap what we sow. So many times we think this only means the good things, but it also means the less than good things. If I sow bad habits then that is what I will have and the contrary is also true. If I use my mouth for bad like judgment, lies and tearing down others then why should I expect respect and success! I f I have nothing but good to say about others and choose to bless them at every turn, then that is what will come my way. The same is true of weight loss. If I continu... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 10:42:53 EST Full is No Longer Stuffed I put on all my weight by eating continually to the point of being stuffed. Then it became a habit and I no longer knew what true full was. I learned here what it was again. Then, when I didn't have a computer, reverted to the stuffed mentality and put several pounds back on. I am relearning that I don't have to feel stuffed to be truly satisfied. That's a good feeling, because I am once again losing weight. I can do this and I am. That, too, is a god feeling. Fri, 30 Jan 2015 22:43:49 EST A Tale of Two Friendships What is the value of a friendship? I have one friend that I have known for many years. I always felt I pursued the relationship the hardest, yet still we were good friends. I have another friend that I used to work with who has been the pursuer, for which I am grateful. Do I cherish one over the other? No not really. The thing is, my life has changed as did that of the first friend and we rarely see each other. Our lives revolved around our children who have since married and one has moved ... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 11:21:41 EST So Easily Deceived I saw a program on PBS last night about when War of the Worlds first was broadcast. I found it fascinating that fear made people think they smelled smoke and heard things and saw things that their minds wanted them to experience due to what they believed. What they believed was a lie controlled by fear. WOW! So what do I believe that is making me think things that are not true? This explains how easy it is to be deceived. There is only one truth, in my opinion, and that is the Word of Go... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 13:06:24 EST Change is Coming! I continue to organize my house. It's not cleaning my house, however, my house appears cleaner as a result. Bit by bit I am getting rid of multiple items or items I no longer use. This includes clothing and kitchen items. It has been fun to see what it happening. My attitude is also improving because my whole life feels less cluttered. I am hoping we build our new house this year and I do not want a lot of junk to move or a lot of stuff to get rid of all at once. I can make huge changes ... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 14:09:19 EST Blessing It is so easy to return criticism for criticism and grumpiness for grumpiness. A verse I read in the Bible while in church yesterday has continued to run in my mind. I am trying to work on removing complaining from my life this year. It is much harder than I thought, but I am not complaining lol! I knew I had a problem and am now becoming so painfully aware just how bad it is. Hence the reason this verse hits me so hard. I believe it is in 1Peter 3. It is talking about not returning insul... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 12:29:47 EST The First Step I am in a great mood today. I head back to work tonight. It is a short week for me. Everyone is trying to use up their PTO before the transition in March. I am trying to embrace change. I have had so much of it over the last two years. I know I cannot change for the better if I stay the same. It goes back to the insanity thing you know. This whole thing may result in a new job for me, something I am not excited about because I have so loved my job for the last ten years. It is like a frien... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 09:43:28 EST Week Done It has been a rough week. Yet I am doing well. Would have liked to have been a bit more productive. Got a new tablet so I should have no excuses for being on here. Was delivered to the house across the street. We weren't sure if we would even get it. Celebrated 31years being married to my husband. He was out of town. We will spend a meal with our son next week. Will write more later. Thu, 15 Jan 2015 23:57:56 EST Leaving My Love Behind Well at work we are going through the third transition in two years. What makes this one different is that it will likely end in me no longer having a job. The company talking over doesn't have credentials for substance abuse, which means they can't run a residential drug and alcohol center. I have loved my job for the last ten years. The last time,just six months ago, we had to discharge clients due to flooding of our facility. The girls cried and it was so traumatic. They had been th... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 10:03:59 EST Wanting. Control I realize that not all that my parents taught me was good or right. I have come to grips with some of it. I am sure there will be more to deal with in the future. My dad's side of the family was very jugemental. There were, what was to them, good reasons for it. When that hurt me and my family deeply and I was faced with my own judgement, I chose to sever it once and for all. I think my dad vowed to change some things in his life and swung the exact opposite side of the pendulum. I have had ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 13:48:36 EST Bye Bye Junkie! I'm having a good time organizing my life. I have never been an organized person. It always seemed like so much work. In the process I am de cluttering my house which is so necessary. We have our house, my in-laws house and my parents house all stuffed in our house. There wasn't enough room to begin with and I am sick of it. It's amazing what one small thing can do to make it seem so manageable. Just getting rid of old shoes reduced the mess on the floor of the closet. Organizing my pots a... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 12:04:04 EST Aha!!! Wow! I just figured out part of why I have trouble losing weight or maintaining it without Sparkpeople. I have a distorted notion of what full is. I put on weight partly because I stuffed myself several days in a row so that my body thought it was the new normal. So now I must retrain my brain with tracking so I know what true full is. I do hope that I can regain this. It's amazing what an aha moment can look like. I love tracking even more now! Thu, 8 Jan 2015 10:54:32 EST That's What Gives Me Hope I have to laugh at all the ways people try to lose weight. They put the top choices on the CBS morning show. Gayle said to just put the fork down! That is the key. Just consume fewer calories! When I track my calories, I am amazed that I can see that I have been consuming twice the number I should be. it is so easy to do. I keep thinking I can do it some other way or deny that I am screwing up. Once again I am seeing what full truly looks like. I have equated being stuffed with being ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 10:25:53 EST I'm Not Alone! I know this will sound kinda silly given this website, but I found three people who suffer as I do last night. I attend Celebrate Recovery every Monday night. It is not just for those who suffer with alcohol and drug addictions. Three of us in my group are suffering with weight loss problems. On top of that we all suffer from organization troubles. Really makes me wonder about the article I read here a couple of days ago about how my problem might not just be weight, but organization. On... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 11:01:04 EST One Day, Thought, Decision at a Time! I was amazed at how my first day of organizing went. Got rid of old tennis shoes that I did not need. Closet looks great now! I am planning what small project to do today. Just like my lifestyle changes in my eating, I can make small lifestyle changes to make my house more liveable. I am excited! If in some small way it will help in other parts of my life I am ready. I need change. I know it will make a difference. I am healthier since coming here, I just need to keep the momentum goin... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 12:17:23 EST Weight Loss Organization I read a spark article today that opened my eyes a bit. I have struggled for a lifetime to become better organized. I thought routine was the answer to my success, and in a way it is. But the basis of my success is more likely organization! I have a messy house. There I admitted it! I keep thinking when I get my new house it will magically take care of itself. This is what they call denial. I need to figure out how I can become better organized and schedule organization in, just like I... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 14:25:47 EST New Year Motivation. I know I can do this. I have gone backwards in the last year due to not having a computer to track with. I am back to having one again so I am hoping my motivation will return. It is frustrating to lose ground, but I have not forgotten the compliments. I know when. I track I have no problem losing the weight. So here's to new motivation and applying the wisdom I have gained here. I do hope that you all find the motivation you. Need to keep making one good decision after another! I am also... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 14:40:15 EST Consistency What I need is a little consistency. My hubby is buying me my own tablet or an I pad for Christmas. Any suggestions or likes and dislikes on a particular one.? It will help me to be more consistent here, thus making it to where I have fewer excuses. I need to use the trackers and don't always have access to his iPad. I need to get serious about my weight loss again. It all came from thinking I could do it on my own. I have proved to myself so many times that I cannot. This next year I do ... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 11:04:02 EST Change My Best Friend Well,hubby back from the hunt. Didn't see anything, may go out again later during the holidays. I got caught up on sleep while he was gone. My son will be home on Tuesday. I sure do miss him and rarely get to see him any more. You can never see how your life will turn out. If we could, we might not want to go where it takes us. I know I would have thought long and hard about it, and probably would have refused what lay ahead for me. But I am happy with where I am for the most part. Adver... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 11:22:08 EST My Quest The joy and freedom we desire is between our ears and In our hearts.We have all been hurt by something I life. It's what we do with that hurt that determines everything else. If we are honest, many of us will say that we eat because of pain more than just because we need the fuel. Discovering what that hurt is will determine the key. Perhaps we need to forgive someone,forgive ourselves.It has been said that stress makes us sick. At the heart of stress is hurt of one sort or another. At the... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 14:41:30 EST Happy! This has been a good week. Got in five days of exercise and watched my weight and calorie intake. I Am enjoying my new kitty and he is adjusting to the dogs. It is good to be back on here and doing what I know I need to to reach the goals I want to reach. It's not the big things that matter but all the little ones. I am happy. There is little I could wish for at this point. Hope you can get to this same point one decision at a time. Sat, 13 Dec 2014 11:09:14 EST Not Just Routine! Well, I have found how important routine is to my well being and feelings of accomplishment. When I get out of my routine, my life falls apart. Routine can be healing. If I don't know where to start a sense of normality can be found just in establishing a routine. I don't have to think about what comes next. Even my animals are happier with routine. They get upset when my routine is disrupted. I will be starting my exercise I a few minutes. I am up to a pretty regular four days a week. I... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 11:37:16 EST Tired No one slept well last night. I think the dogs knew something was up when my hubby started packing to go hunting. I had to work all day after working to midnight last night. No time for my regular schedule but II will get to go to bed early tonight. The animals are showing how much they missed me today :). My husband is going hunting oryx for the next. Couple of days. That means I get to sleep in!!! Back to normal tomorrow. Thu, 11 Dec 2014 18:24:30 EST Back Well it has been. A while. My husband has left me the IPad so I can get back on here a bit more regularly. I have been battling. I have a new point I will not pass with my weight, ten pounds less than my original. I have been mentally adding up my calories and am doing better. I have also realized that I am a social eater. If others are eating around me, I will also eat. I think it is part in due to not wanting to offend them. People pleasing has been a major downfall. I was proud of m... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 10:48:58 EST Update and a Dog Story Wow! I am amazed at how much I have forgotten not being able to get on here for so long. I am still without a computer and am using my husband's . I have not done well on my weight since losing you. I Am hoping maybe Christmas will help with that &#128522; It is so hard to track on my own but I see how valuable this has been to me. Work is also really hard on my weight and I never realized this before. So much work to do and I miss my tools. <BR> My job has changed drastically as well... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 10:59:05 EST A Down Dog and a Down Computer Wow! It has been six weeks of unreliable computer usage. I haven't missed it that much and have been mentally counting my calories daily. I am down thirteen pounds since the first of the year. This is the best I have ever done without Sparkpeople counting for me. Out of sight has always been out of mind for me. If I didn't count the calories, then they must not be there right???? That is why I have always gained weight when I didn't track. I am coming to grips with how vital tracking r... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 11:35:01 EST Powerful I want to e a powerful person. I do not want to give my power away to anyone else and miss becoming who I was created to be. I am proud of myself. I do not any more allow others to make me feel bad about who I am in any imagined way. If someone cusses at me in an attempt to bring me down, I stand up for myself and show them how small indeed they are by thinking they can do that. If I am intimidated by threats, no matter how real I will let them know I am not intimidated and will raise my ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 11:24:46 EST A Legacy to Leave Well I gave hubby my cold and it has thrown me off for a second week. He stayed home longer than normal and I did not get my exercise in. I will not exercise in front of anyone and had to get my day started with my bath. I am really going to have to work around him on Saturday as well to get it in for my four days. I am not keeping to tracking as well this week either. If I can lose another pound in the next couple of days I will be happier. It's amazing to me how much loss of discipline... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 11:43:05 EST Not a Good Week :( I have been fighting with a cold all week. Though not a terribly uncomfortable one, it has derailed my streak. I have more demands put on me at work and have been beset by some negative influences. I am just grumpy and hoping next week goes by quickly so I can get back to my better normal life. I have made excuses that didn't need to be made, but were nonetheless. Just not very positive right now so I will keep it short. Thu, 13 Feb 2014 11:53:02 EST Update I I am frustrated today. I have been trying to figure out how to add a blog. It isn't as easy as I remember it being. Just to update where I have been for many months. I am borrowing my husband's computer today because I still don't have one. Maybe for Christmas &#128512; I have not done real well on my weight since my computer died. I need you guys and help tracking. <BR> My dog is doing really well. She is walking,running and jumping. She just can't sit like a normal dog without s... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 13:11:51 EST Things Are Looking Up Well, we have moved one step closer to building our house. We figured out where to put it! A lot of things won't have to be moved or worked around. I also will have a better view outside my front window. I am good with that. I am also excited because my daughter may be driving home from Florida and stay with us a month before starting massage therapy school. I have missed her so badly. I will enjoy getting to see her again. It will also be good for her to get away. The temperatures wi... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 14:31:35 EST Fear Is a Word What happens when we are faced with fear? Every individual will respond in different ways depending on the past involved. Most of us are intimidated by it. I chuckled a bit last night when one of the girls said if she made me mad I could be very intimidating and she never wanted to go there. Didn't know I had that effect on others, but that is what got me thinking I guess. I have been thinking about fear and its effects on me for some time. I do it not because I am morbid, but because I... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 14:45:18 EST Choosing Rightly If you could choose the life you wanted, would you? Some people are afraid of doing so, because of what they think they have to give up. Even though they know that better awaits them, they choose the familiar out of fear. Giving fear control of our lives robs us of true joy. I cannot afford to hang on to the familiar and give up true satisfaction. This involves me moving out of my comfort zone into the unfamiliar. I will do those things that are at first unfamiliar so that the new life ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 14:07:45 EST Great Day Not much to reoprt other that what has already been reoprted. Doing well. Three week streak was made this morning. I am tracking, drinking water, eating more veggies. My mood has improved and I am feeling great. Off yesterday and tomorrow. Having son and his wife over tonight to play cards and bond with the fairly new daughter-in-law. Should be a great day. Fri, 31 Jan 2014 13:30:43 EST Playing and Smiling I'm not used to having Thursdays off. They are usually my busiest day of the week. Feels kinda strange. I have noticed some things in me since getting more down to the road and rubber thing. I feel better. My body feels like I am doing something right that before I never could put a finger on. Why did I wait so long to make these good choices? I have been in noticeably better moods this week as well. I am only on my third week of my streak and I stand truly amazed. Whether or not the s... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:31:49 EST Transparent What would people see if you were transparent? For us here it might be a heart not as healthy as we want others to believe because we have fudged our exercize time. I have done that. Do we "forget" to track items because we don't want to admit we ate that much in one day? I know there is a sense of accountability to myself when I actually see it in print. But beyond this site, how transparent are we? I for years have hid things I didn't want others to see. What I truly thought of them, ... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 13:27:56 EST New Lessons We were taught many things we didn't know we were learning as we grew up. Some were deliberate lessons others unintentional. Not all lessons we learn and use are good or good for us. I know this is true for me. My mom taught me to comparison shop and to shop wisely. She had to know how to get the most value with the least amount of money especially in her early days with my father. They made out pretty good considering where they started. They also taught me the lessons of jugement and n... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 12:49:32 EST January Status I was facing a place I thought I would never go again come January first. It scared me how easily I got there. I am on the verge of losing 6 pounds so far this month with almost a week to go. I am faithfully tracking and therin lies my success along with the determination never to go there again. I feel better when I pay attention to what I am eating and how much. The differences are subtle but there. I want to feel good every day. There have been times when I wondered what it was like to... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 14:28:44 EST Choices Every day we are faced with choices to make. We will not always make the right choice. I know I have messed up so many times. Yesterday I had an acquaintance desperately in the need of some encouragement. She turned to me. I have one of my favorite activities on Thursdays so I tried to schedule around it. Alas, I missed my other engagement. I was a bit bummed, but the time I spent encouraging my new friend was worth the time. She needed me more than I needed my activity. Sometimes I do g... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 12:57:37 EST Baby Steps Eating well and seeing results. Still so far from where I was not that long ago. But I didn't make past goals by concentrating on how I had flubbed up. I did it before and I will do it again. This has been a rough week emotionally. So much going on. Nothing major, just a lot of little things. I am okay. I will keep pressing on. I am reminded that there are those facing things much more upsetting than I am. I am also taking the steps to deal with my disappointments past and present. We ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:18:43 EST Better Than That I am always amazed that when I start to work on an area of my life I have so many opportunities present themselves to keep me from the success I seek. Maybe they are there just to prove the level of commitment I have to them. I am facing so many challenges right now in my life. I have had emotional set backs and physical set backs not just in weight loss. I will get back up and continue forward as I always have in the past. I will be stronger because of my set backs, not dwell on them. I ju... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:17:12 EST True Life Read something interesting in Ephesians the other day. I like to somewhat paraphrase things at times for how it ministers to me at the time. I write it down and sometimes later I will stumble across it again. This is kind of what happened. The gist of what I got is that what we see, hear, taste, and touch, if trusted in, will only produce death in us. So many times it is easy to trust in what we have in front of us. When you look at Romans where it says that I do the things I hate even ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 15:05:17 EST Good week. I am doing well this week. Not much time to write. Have a hair appointment then off to work. At least I get off early so I get a bit more sleep tonight. I am being consistent in most things with a little room for improvement. More later Fri, 17 Jan 2014 14:33:02 EST Ears That Hear The only curse in a Christian's life is the one he agrees with. That is what gives the power to the curse. The enemy wins through fear. Likewise there is only victory in a Christian's life unless he accepts defeat. God takes no pleasure in the one who shrinks back. What do we do when faced with challenges? Push on or sit down and throw in the towel? David won every battle, but not in his own strength or abilities. Before every battle he asked God, "Shall I go up? Have you delivered them ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:13:40 EST He Done Me Very Good Indeed Wow! Thirty years of marriage coming up on Tuesday. Hard to believe. We have made it through a lot of things we didn't know we signed up for 30 years ago. We came terribly close to not making it this far and yet it was always the option our hearts chose before we ever said "I do." I always wanted to be married and have kids from the time I was quite small. It has been what has caused me the most pain and the most joy. I am so much stronger than that girl who walked the aisle so many years ... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:10:55 EST Life is Good More than anything else right now I am keeping myself involved. I really don't have much to report. I have lost four pounds and am on the verge of more, I am behaving and eating more vegetables. I really do feel so much better. I love how I feel when I am doing what I should be doing. My calries still need a little behaving, but at least I am not still eating twice what I should be. That too is progress. Weather is heating up a bit too. Days off start at midnight. Life is good. Thu, 9 Jan 2014 12:47:07 EST Seeds of Greatness We do not fight against flesh and blood. It is hard to win a battle if we don't know who it is against. It is much easier to blame things on the spouse who brought up our past or the screaming child that is getting on our nerves. But do they really want to bring us down and destroy us? In most cases not at all. There are forces at work each and every day that we cannot see, but are much more in control than we think. Our own mindset will determine the outcome of our day more so that the ... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 12:25:58 EST Cell Phones and Consistency I am being consistent in a good way so far. I feel better getting my veggies in. I have been able to sleep better with hubby not here to wake me up in the morning. I am sweating from my daily workout. For those who, perhaps, have missed my spiritual blogs, they will return. I am just keeping my mind fixed where I must for everything else to fall in line right now. I need to get my bath so I can stand to be around me and then off to get this day rolling. <BR> <BR> I am considering going ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 14:21:26 EST Family Ties I am feeling good about my promises to myself today. I was awake way too early with family history on my mind. My sister has been researching again and sending me stuff. When she does, my mind always travels to the blackest sheep in our family closet. I wonder why he did what he did and how life was for his family while he was away in prison. I wonder how it affected them. There is so much I want to know, most of which will probably never be known. Things like what they thought or how tal... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 12:15:24 EST