CICI510's SparkPeople Blog CICI510's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Back To School aka Finding A New Routine I am sitting here with my 2nd and 3rd graders after their first day of school fighting them to do "homework" (all I'm asking is for them to write about their first day of school and I am getting the biggest fight. Oy!). <BR> <BR> L and me have decided that I should get off work early and pick the boys up from school instead of putting them in an after-school program. I love that I am going to get to spend more time with them but today has not been what I've expected. I am realizing quite... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 18:45:15 EST I'm A Loser A loser of INCHES that is!! <BR> <BR> I have been really bummed because though my workouts have been more consistent this past month and my eating has been on a better track the scale has not moved much at all in July. I want to get out of the 150's SOOO bad but I've been reading so much about how when you first start strength training that the scale might not move or even go up but its because you're gaining muscle so I shrugged it off as best as I could. <BR> <BR> Today was measurements... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 19:42:19 EST What If I Stumble? Hi peeps! <BR> <BR> Sorry for the MIA but life has once again interfered with my computer time as it tends to do more and more lately. <BR> <BR> July was a struggle. <BR> <BR> I found out that my dream of having another baby would put me at too much of a health risk and sometime in the near future I will be having a hysterectomy. This hurts more than anyone knows but I am grieving it and will move past this stronger than ever. It has also made me so thankful for the two beautiful boys ... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 11:48:59 EST Back At It! Yes I am back!!! <BR> <BR> So, what was wrong with me? Sadly it was a severe panic attack and I have been diagnosed with stress and anxiety. Fun! The diagnosis depressed me until I realize it wasn't my heart! My heart is perfectly fine which means I can work out again!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> It took a few days to get my motivation back up but last night I had an amazing workout and feel pretty good today! I still have to watch how much stress I put on my body and myself but I am ch... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 11:20:08 EST Just When Things Start To Look Up Just when I start to feel like I am back on track something happens that comes and knocks me down and this time was pretty bad. <BR> <BR> Wednesday afternoon I started having a horrible stabbing pain in my chest right after lunch time and the longer I wanted the worse it got and before long I couldn't breathe. My co-worker called 911 and I was taken to the ER where after 5 hours they told me it wasn't a heart attack but they couldn't tell me what happened and sent me home with an antacid be... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 21:42:57 EST Getting More Focused Today ends week 2!!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I still haven't done my workout for the day yet BUT the days not over! I have had a sick migraine all day so I am listening to my body and not pushing myself too hard. I do have to say I feel slimmer today but I won't know for sure until I do my measurements tomorrow. ;) <BR> <BR> My husband is the sweetest! I've been telling him about how I have no energy when I wake up in the morning and I feel like my workouts are suffering so he went t... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 22:08:41 EST Tired & Happy Update: All the goals I set last week I MET!! I am in shock! I don't know where this motivation is coming from but I am using it for all its worth! I am doing it alone (Sis has had a lot going on) but that's OK! Hopefully I can motivate her like she's motived me and we can keep each other going. <BR> <BR> This week got off to a crazy start. My boss has a close family member who is on their deathbed so she had to leave the country unexpectedly yesterday morning which means me pulling mor... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 16:30:21 EST Still Streakin' I am SO proud of myself! I am about to do my final strength training sesh for the week! <em>244</em> I can't believe after the incredibly hard week I've had at work that I would be able to mentally keep my head in the game but I did! Go me! <BR> <BR> Now my eating....not so much. I have been logging all my eats and have went over every single day. I think one of my goals for this next week is to not focus on logging but actually listening to my body and when its hungry and journal ... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 14:22:08 EST 5AM Day 4: Almost Didn't Happen Today was a nightmare on so many levels and it started with the morning. I got to bed a bit later than I have been and man it was a struggle to get out of bed this morning. Thursdays are my OFF days from the program I am following but I thought I would do a little cardio to keep up with my streak and almost slept through my alarm! Luckily my body is getting used to being up earlier so I woke up at 5:30 and got up and did a quick 20 minute HIIT session. <BR> <BR> It was awesome!! <BR> ... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 23:02:03 EST 5AM Day 3: I'm Lovin' It! Sis called this morning and I was already awake! <em>244</em> I think my body is getting more used to the 5am alarm and when I open my eyes though I am tired, I think about how good its going to feel going through the day with energy! <BR> <BR> Today was butt day and a lot of the moves were too hard for me to do! Hubby hasn't been to the gym all week so I'm sure he's going to want to go tonight and will probably "drag" me up there so I'm sure I'll have an opportunity to hit it hard-a... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 12:56:03 EST 5AM Day 2: Could This Be A Streak? I sure hope so! I feel great! If you can swing getting a little sweat into your morning routine I say DO IT!! Even if its only 15 minutes! It's amazing the energy you feel! <BR> <BR> Sis is sick and didn't do the wake up call this AM but my alarm went off at 5:10am and I hit snooze and almost didn't get up. Then I figured I am already awake and can't get back to sleep anyway so why not get up and get a quick workout in. Another thing that motivated me was an article my sweet hubby link... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:34:09 EST My First 5AM Wake UP Call I planned on going to bed at 9:30 last night but I wanted to have the laundry and dishes done and of course I always read before bed so it was closer to 10:30 before my pretty little eyes finally closed. I put it in my mind before I finally nodded off that I would wake up when my sis called me but when that phone rang right at 5am I looked at it like it was an alien. There is NO way it can be 5am already! I just fell asleep!! <BR> <BR> I picked up the phone the second time Sis called and ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:58:50 EST Feeling a Little "Licious" I don't know if any of you have heard of Flava Del Monte. I hadn't until last weekend when I stumbled onto her site and something about her and her program SPARKED me! L (my husband!!!) let me purchase her program and together we started our gym membership up again! <BR> <BR> I have been to the gym every night this week and the program takes Thursdays off so I am sticking to that! It's been a rough few days mentally with personal issues with work and my ex so I am looking forward to the b... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 17:12:55 EST Well...I'm Sparked! Hey strangers! I am so sorry I haven't been on my page to update in awhile. Work has been a crazy transition and I am really trying to limit my computer time and have more family time and time to myself. I have returned to the super-hard-core-nerd that I am and have been devouring books lately and loving it! Its times like this when you realize passions and I am rediscovering my love for reading AND finding a new passion I had never thought I had. <BR> <BR> I took the boys to the library ... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 17:52:17 EST Back Sliding ...and I am falling back fast. I've gained back the few pounds that I had lost and am back on the coffee/sugar kick. It's awful. I was doing amazing too! I was juicing every day and then my abdominal pain hit hard again which came with severe migraines and I've always used caffeine to combact my migraines. Yesterday afternoon I spent almost the entire day on the couch feeling sorry for myself and wasn't even prepared for the boys first day of school this morning. <BR> <BR> We woke up la... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 12:38:10 EST Getting Juiced & A Sugar Free Update I finally did something I have been debating on for awhile now... <BR> <BR> I BOUGHT A JUICER!!! <em>482</em> <BR> <BR> I am super, duper excited! I finished the juicing chapter in my Crazy Sexy Diet book and after some puppy dog eyes to BF and a look at the ol' finances (oh and all the oh-so-fun research) I settled on a modestly priced Breville juicer. It's going to be at least a week before it gets here but as I impatiently wait I will do more research on some yummy juice recipes. An... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 16:06:02 EST No More Sweets For This Sweetie! So, I've pretty much tackled the caffeine issue. I now have my green tea every morning and I am treating myself to one Starbucks vanilla latte every Friday as long as I've been good that week which so far I guess who is getting a treat tomorrow? This gal!! :) <BR> <BR> Now it is onto my second eating hurdle: sugar <BR> <BR> Chocolate is a biggie for me. I do love all things sweet but chocolate is my weakness, no doubt about it. I love all kinds and lately I've been having at le... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 17:33:35 EST Just Plain Exhausted I can't seem to wake up! I'm not sure if its the no caffiene or what but I cannot wake up! The past two days I struggle to keep my eyes open! I sleep through the night and get my 8 hours but I still wake up feeling super groggy and like I'm having some sort of out of body experience. My boss was complaining earlier that she is feeling the same way. So...I relapsed. I had my Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte...and I feel exactly the same! I was hoping the caffeine boost would help a little ... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 16:54:08 EST The Caffeine Struggle Today marks a week since I have been (for the most part) caffeine free. It has been a rough week to say the least but I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have been replacing my morning cup o' joe with green tea with coconut milk creamer and so far so good! Still getting some pretty bad headaches but I'm sure this 100+ degree heat is not helping anyone! My afternoon cup has been replaced with ice cold water with fresh lime juice which is so much more refresing than ... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 16:11:07 EST Going Clean Without Caffeine is Painful! I'm not sure if its the 106 degree weather, the fact that my allergies are super severe this week, or that I am having blood pressure issues again but going clean has been rough so far. <BR> <BR> I decided last week to pick up my copy of Crazy Sexy Diet and start reading again and decided the first item to go on my going clean journey was going to be caffeine. I used to drink a cup of coffee in the morning and another in the early afternoon. I have cut the afternoon cup of joe for a few ... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 17:18:02 EST Belated Birthday Present BF is so awesome! As a belated birthday present he is helping me get my gym membership up and running again!! I think its exactly what I need to get focused and back to being healthy again! <BR> <BR> I have felt so sick and tired this past year and I am so tired of being sick and tired!! I am 31 years old and want to feel 31 and not 51! <BR> <BR> My goal for this first few weeks is cardio three times a week and ST twice a week. I think that's very attainable and a good way to get back in ... Wed, 30 May 2012 11:22:06 EST A New Chapter In My Life Life has been a whirlwind for the past few months. I don't know if I posted on here or not but I went through some pretty major medical drama the end of March and I am happy to report I am on the mend. I am still not back to 100% but the whole experience has taught me to listen to my body more. <BR> <BR> Three weeks ago my divorce was final and I am finally "single". It has been a long two years but it is over and now I truly feel like I can move on with my life and begin a new chapter. ... Tue, 8 May 2012 10:38:17 EST Feeling Helpless I know this blog is a long time coming. I am tired of being in this boat again. When will the cycle end??? <BR> <BR> This weekend I emotionally ate. I don't want to face the body that I have allowed to happen. I know I've been very sick and cannot workout like I used to but there are so many other healthy things I could and should be doing for myself and instead I am self sabotaging. <BR> <BR> I feel such self loathing when I look in the mirror. I KNOW I am better than this! I know this i... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 13:44:02 EST Detox Fail :( As you can see with my lack of posting I did not do well with the detox. I did the fasting but then it was BF's birthday and I pretty much blew it after that. Then I spent the next few days beating myself up and now I'm here wondering why. Why do I make such a big deal about this? So I didn't do the detox. Big deal! There is so much other things to worry about and when I try again I will plan better and kick some detox tush! LOL Tue, 7 Feb 2012 16:22:37 EST Detox Eve Tonight at 6pm I start my 24 hour water fast to prepare myself for the detox. I have to admit I'm pretty scared. I usually get really shaky, headaches, and all kinds of crazy things when I go even a few hours without eating so to say I'm a little apprehensive is an understatement. <BR> <BR> Luckily I work all day tomorrow and tomorrow night the fast will be over and I will get to eat again. The only downside is it being BF's birthday. I'm baking him his favorite cake and its going to ta... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 13:11:03 EST Detox I wanted to do a detox at the beginning of this year to start my year off on the healthy track. My problem is that most detoxes make me sick. So I did a little research and found one that is all about raw foods. DONE! I am wanting to go vegetarian/vegan this year anyway and this could be just what I need to get a kickstart. <BR> <BR> I'm reading up on everything and am supposed to start on Wednesday but that's BF's birthday and I know I'm going to go celebrate with him so I might wait an... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 11:27:04 EST Looking In View This is the name of one of my favorite Alice in Chains songs and also something I am pondering today. Since 2012 began I've been focusing so much on counting calories. I say focus but it's more like an obsession. Then I started thinking about when I first began my weight loss journey and how I lost the first 30lbs and it wasn't counting calories. It was looking at my eating from a different point of view. <BR> <BR> Since I am trying to tone up I am going to do what I did before and cha... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 11:08:30 EST 2012: BRING IT ON!! 2011 sucked. Plain and simple. I am SO ready for 2012! <BR> <BR> What's going to happen in 2012? Well here's the things I know for sure: <BR> <BR> 1. I will continue to maintain my weight and not go above 140lbs <BR> 2. I will turn 31 this year <BR> 3. I will be getting my own apartment in Februray (WOOHOO!!!!) <BR> 4. My divorce will be final in January so I will be single for the first time in 9 years! Yipes! <BR> 5. I WILL get over my fear of weights and tone up once and for all!! <BR> ... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 17:35:23 EST A Sad Way To Start December? I am sad... <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed in at 140.9. My maximum weight for maintenance is 140. I have to buckle down and get serious...during the holidays. When the temptation of cherry pie, oatmeal raisin cookies, rice crispy treats, and egg nog are so strong I can't almost stand it. <BR> <BR> So what's my motivation? A pair of skinny jeans that I bought last year when I was at my goal weight. Those puppies button but breathing is a whole other story and the muffin top that appear... Fri, 2 Dec 2011 12:56:10 EST Wow... It's been awhile! LOL <BR> <BR> So much has been going on but as far as my health here's the run-down: I've gained almost 15lbs back since my last blog post. I am so disgusted with myself. What little muscle I had is gone and I am a little more than overwhelmed. I did get my gym membership back but with money being super tight and me still trying to work on getting an apartment I need every penny so we shall see. <BR> <BR> My goal for this week: GO TO THE GYM!! <BR> <BR> I know once I go I... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 14:44:11 EST Today I... Today I am getting focused again. I hate to admit it but I've gained 10lbs this past month and I am at my max weight. I am still within the healthy BMI range but my pants are getting tighter, I'm more tired, and I just plain do not feel good about myself. I cannot go down this road again so the self destructiveness is going to stop today! <BR> <BR> Today I choose to track all my food. Today I choose to make healthier choices. Today I choose to exercise for at least 30 minutes. Today I choos... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 13:02:58 EST 2011 So Far 2011 has been a rough year with my situation (going through a divorce, living with my parents, not being able to have a full time job, etc.) but here's where I am so far: <BR> <BR> 1. I am definitely getting a divorce. I am probably going to actually file here in the next few weeks and hopefully will be official in a few months. I also plan on moving out of my parents house by August. It's been a year as of July 5th and its definitely time to be on my own. I will be with a roommate but its ... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 13:46:04 EST Shakeology I hate that I am running out of Shakeology. I wish I could drink it every day but with my income being next to nothing I can't really afford it right now. I only use it for emergencies and this morning I was rushing so that counts as an emergency. <BR> <BR> So, what is the point of this blog? Well, since I had Shakeology and coconut water for breakfast my eating today has been totally under control. I haven't had any crazy cravings, I'm eating every few hours and feel satisified, and I ha... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 15:34:51 EST The End of the Cleanse I took the last of my Acai Berry cleanse on Saturday and I am happy to report a 5lb loss. At the beginning of the cleanse I felt more energy but towards the end the only thing I noticed is that it made me "regular" which I have issues with. With that in mind I've decided to start taking Acai as a supplement and am actually looking for the liquid to start taking. <BR> <BR> I am glad I tried this product out because it did help me lose a bit and made me realize just how irregular and "full... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 14:58:22 EST My Story Today I am going back to the begining and telling my story of weight loss. I've had a lot of people ask about my story so I thought I'd post it here for all to see. I apologize if its too long for you (I do tend to get wordy! LOL). Enjoy!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I struggled with weight my whole life. I would go to skinny to chunky, back and forth. I was never really fat per se until after I had my boys. Size was never an issue in my house. I grew up in a very loving and accepting home.... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 15:02:58 EST A Cleansing Update So, the cleanse is going good! Sorry if my last blog was a little TMI but sometimes I can be a little TMI. My mom says its part of my personality and I've done it all my life so its me. :) <BR> <BR> I'm on Day #4 and I am already down 6lbs AND back into my weight comfort zone. My clothes aren't as snug anymore, I have more energy, my appetite seems under control, and I am definitely more aware of my body and what I'm eating/drinking. <BR> <BR> The downside to the cleanse is of course t... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 13:13:02 EST I'm Full of Carp Yes you read that right but switch the a and r in carp and you'll get where my blog is going today! LOL <BR> <BR> So this past week I've been overly bloated. I've been watching what I eat constantly, working out when I can and as hard as I can, guzzling the ol' water, and yet I'm GAINING weight!! Ack!! <BR> <BR> When I first hit 128lbs I felt incredible. Everything fit perfect, I wasn't uncomfortable at all, and life just felt good. I felt good. At that time I told myself that since my w... Sat, 4 Jun 2011 14:03:21 EST Another 'SO Not Worth It' Moment Ever since our Wednesday craziness I've been uber sore. Worked out at my BFFs apartment yesterday and I don't know what it is about that damn elliptical there but I can barely last 30 minutes and don't burn as many calories but my thighs are on FIRE. WTF?!! After that we walked to a golf course about a mile from his place and OMG was it gorgeous!! I also loved seeing other people out walking/jogging. I don't know why but that motivates me. :) <BR> <BR> We were famished by this time (it was ... Fri, 27 May 2011 13:57:22 EST Another SP Milestone....How Freaking AWESOME!!! I just received an email that I am one of the newest Spark People Motivators!!! My page now proudly holds the badge and I am on cloud 9. When I first started receiving Spark emails over two years ago I would click on the daily motivator, congratulate them, and dream about the day when I would be there and here I am. <BR> <BR> Thanks to my SP peeps I am one of the weight loss motivators!! <em>244</em> You can see the link to my page here: <link><B... Wed, 25 May 2011 17:10:21 EST Lazy Day Today has definitely been a lazy day. Sunday's are my days to get in a good outdoor workout like walking, jogging, or even chasing the kiddos around the park but today was super muggy and then some crazy storms rolled in so being outside was o-u-t. <BR> <BR> Instead it was lazing around the house, getting some light cleaning done that I've been putting off, having a nice dinner with my BFF, and now I'm chilling in bed with my laptop. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I am all about hitting it hard core. ... Sun, 22 May 2011 22:20:06 EST A Little Nudge I guess a little nudge is all I needed to get me out of my funk. I had a heart to heart with my BFF last night and after our discussion I realized I have been making way too many excuses to not exercise. So when I woke up this morning I knew I needed to make a goal... <BR> <BR> 1. 30 minutes of cardio <BR> 2. 3 strength training exercises <BR> <BR> I got my mom and sis to hit the gym with me and ROCKED that joint!! I did an awesome 30 on the treadmill, 15 on the stairmaster, and one leg ... Sat, 21 May 2011 19:19:13 EST Time To Get Serious In my last post I was proud to proclaim that I hit my biggest weight loss goal before I turned 30. Now that I have celebrated that accomplishment it's time to get serious about my next goal...GETTING TONED BABY!! <BR> <BR> Despite my best efforts I still cannot get consistent with a strength training program. Maybe its because I do not have a plan. I just go to the gym and do whatever cardio I feel like and if I feel like doing a few ST moves I will. <BR> <BR> I cannot do that!!! <BR> ... Wed, 11 May 2011 15:02:00 EST Dirty 30 Yes that's right!! Today I am officially 30!!! <BR> <BR> When I was thinking about my upcoming birthday and how much I dreaded it I thought for sure I was going to be sad and depressed. What have I accomplished in the past 30 years that's so great? At first thought, I felt like there was nothing. <BR> <BR> Then it hit me...I am one of the luckiest women in the world!! <BR> <BR> I have an amazing family. Like seriously. We have our issues sure but when push comes to shove they go above ... Tue, 10 May 2011 18:02:20 EST O-M-G...I Learned MY Lesson! What lesson you ask? How about do your restaurant research... <BR> <BR> My cousin found out yesterday that he passed the Bar. I am SOO excited for him and so is a lot of my fam so we all decided to go to The Cheesecake Factory to celebrate. I wanted to be good since I've been pretty much on track all week (despite going over my calories a few days I've been very aware of what's been going in my mouth which is super important) so I ordered an appetizer and of course cheesecake (it is Mothe... Sat, 7 May 2011 09:01:23 EST Fitness Buddies Tonight me and my best friend are going to work out together. I think one thing we all get stuck in is fitness ruts so shaking it up a bit gets me excited. He lives near a nice golf course and all around it there are walking trails so we're going to hit that and end with some free weights strength training at his apartment complex. <BR> <BR> Time to shake it up!!! Wed, 4 May 2011 19:49:44 EST Feeling Motivated Not sure if its because today begins the last week of my 20's or the gorgeous sunshine outside but I am feeling quite motivated today. I should feel depressed since there is a relationship in my life that's not the greatest at the moment but I know it won't always be like this and I am choosing to change my focus to something more positive. <BR> <BR> I REFUSE TO SPEND THE LAST 7 DAYS OF MY 20'S DEPRESSED!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I hit the gym and got in an hour long workout wearing my new ten... Tue, 3 May 2011 15:09:00 EST Just Do It Cici!! Why am I so scared to start again? <BR> <BR> Last Friday was my final checkup from my doctor about my back injury. Despite still feeling sore and having my good days/bad days he told me that I am free to resume my work outs. So why can't I find the motivation to start again? <BR> <BR> I've managed to maintain my weight and for that I'm thankful but I'm close to my cut off weight (135lbs) and he did say that I need to focus on strength training and getting my core/glutes as strong as possi... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 14:24:13 EST First Walk/Jog Results Sorry for not getting a chance to get back on here last night. Lots of family drama consuming my life right now which makes computer time slim to none on some days. <BR> <BR> My first walk back was disappointing. I took D (who is 4) with me and about 10 minutes down the road he started complaining that he was tired. Oy! I did manage to get in 40 minutes but only burned 150 calories. I guess something is better than nothing right?! <BR> <BR> I am going to try to hit the gym tonight and g... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 16:55:13 EST First Walk/Jog Since My Injury I am about to suit up and head out to have my first jog since my back injury. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I decided to wait until the weather was delicious (which today it SO is) and have my first jog back outdoors instead of the treadmill at the gym. <BR> <BR> I'll be back with an update... <BR> <BR> WISH ME LUCK!!!! <em>438</em> Tue, 12 Apr 2011 14:38:00 EST Two Years of SPARK <em>504</em> <BR> <BR> Sunday I celebrated two years of being SPARKED. I'll never forget the day that I finally threw my hands up and said I am DONE! I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and something had to give. <BR> <BR> Here I am two years later, almost 50lbs lighter, and still going strong. I have found a passion in myself that I never knew existed and even though I am currently struggling with depression due to life circumstances and my injury I know that this next year... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 14:18:50 EST